Goodbye
-KRISLAY-
Nothing hurts more than realizing he meanteverything to you,
Butyou meant nothing to him.
There is nothing more painful than finding out the truth.
“He is everything in our lives but to him we mean nothing.”
I miss this couple. So I decorated it to satisfy myself a little.
If you like it, you can criticize it. :)
@gukinqx
P.S. This story is the author's imagination. Not related in any way to the artist. And I don't intend to cause any harm.
Nothing hurts more than realizing he meanteverything to you,
Butyou meant nothing to him.
There is nothing more painful than finding out the truth.
“He is everything in our lives but to him we mean nothing.”
missing you
The roaring sound of the rain reflects the surrounding atmosphere very well. The rain was now coming down with a force that was frightening. Yixing sat and drank coffee while waiting for the tall figure to go to the bathroom. He was happy every time he went out with tall people, even though he knew that happiness would come from deception.
At least it didn't make him sit in pain. Yixing smiled at the tall figure when he saw him walk back to our table.
"Chris....I think we should go--" told the tall figure as he thought of the program of what he would take the tall figure to do from now on. But before he could finish speaking, the tall figure hurriedly cut him off.
“Yi Qing, I'm in a hurry. We'll come hang out again soon." The tall man said as he picked up his favorite shoulder bag and intended to walk out.
“Where are you going? It's still raining.” Yixing held his thick wrist.
“I will go find Ming Bai first. You can go back yourself.”
“Ah...um...let's hurry.”
Without waiting for Yixing to answer, the tall figure immediately walked out of the shop. Would it be okay if he said no? But it wouldn't make the tall figure change his mind and come back to him anyway. He could only look at the thick back who hurriedly walked out into the pouring rain. Not long after, clear water drops fell from her beautiful eyes like the rain that was falling. It fell hard.
Even though he was the one who came first, why...why did the tall figure not pay attention to him like he did to that person?
Yixing is just a man who has feelings, can hurt, can cry. But he couldn't speak. Many times he had to grieve alone while the person who was known as his girlfriend comforted someone other than him.
Not once did Chris come to embrace him or comfort him when he was sad. Even though he knew that Chris would never love him one bit, why did he still deceive himself? But if deceiving yourself makes you happy and maintaining your status as a lover like this, even if you fool yourself until you die, he will accept it...
He had thought that one day Kris would be interested in him, but no, it was all his own thinking. At this time, the tall man's heart was captured by someone he loved very much. Yixing must give in... to make the person he loves happy. I know how uncomfortable the other person is, but why isn't he brave enough to let the other person go?
After that day, Chris left him at the coffee shop to go see Ming Bai. The man who had all of Chris's heart without ever even getting a glimpse of it. Yixing kept himself hidden in his luxury condo without even going out. Until his close friends sent messages, some of them called and asked with concerns, but Yixing didn't care because he just wanted a message from someone. There's one person but it's empty. Chris didn't even call or send a message to Yixing.
You can call it a demand for attention, yes... Yixing admitted that he sought attention from his boyfriend, but his boyfriend didn't pay any attention to it at all, or maybe he didn't care from the beginning.
“Sigh.”
Yi Qing let out a tired breath. What should he do next? He knows in his heart that Chris doesn't love him at all, but keeps trying to deceive himself just because he just wants to ask for one more time. I wish Chris would take some interest in a boyfriend like him, not just focus on other people while he's still here. It's right here...
'Did you ever love me, Chris?'
The letters were carefully typed by someone but didn't have the courage to send them. Yixing pressed delete the message before turning off the phone screen, looking up at the ceiling of the room, breathing slowly before feeling that his pupils were now blurry due to the teardrops covering them. Yixing didn't even wipe it away but instead let it flow out, letting it take away his sorrow.
Some stupidity came out of him.
Yixing closed his eyes and raised his hand to cover his face as if to hide his own tears. Now he can't hold it in anymore, knowing it hurts but the word "love" is stuck in his throat. I didn't even dare to break up with him or let him go. Yi Qing is stupid, knowing that he doesn't love him and still holding on.
DingDing~
-Xiao Lu-
A message sounded on his phone. Yixing wiped his face and eyes before picking it up to see that his friend had sent a picture for Yixing to slowly open and look at. A picture of his girlfriend appeared passionately kissing someone else, which was Wang Mingbai, the man who had captured Kris' entire heart.
The message was sent after the picture.
'Who are you? I saw you kissing your girlfriend.'
'Yi Qing...'
'You be quiet'
' I am sorry'
'Are you okay?'
I can't take it...I can't take it...
Yixing thought in his heart and used up all his strength. His eyes stared blankly at the screen before he pressed a letter and sent it to his friend.
'No..I'm fine. Don't worry, I have a headache.'
He should do something. At least if he breaks up with Chris, it might hurt less. Think about it and just push on. Since the other party was out of his mind, he shouldn't have held on any longer. The voice in his heart kept telling him that, he realized that since that person came, everything had started to change. Kris began to care less about him. His voice kept saying that love would still be like that, but it might. starting to fade
Faded until it began to disappear, unlike Kris, whose voice of the word love in his heart began to ring loud and clear, only that the word love was no longer his...
As quick as he thought, Yixing immediately sent a message to the tall figure before picking up a large coat and going out to wait as he had arranged with the tall figure.
'Come to me, Chris.'
....At least meeting each other for the last time would be good...
Yixing was waiting at a coffee shop, ordering his hot cocoa and tall mocha. A shop that has only memories of him and Chris. He smiled at the thought of the past, which he thought was happiness. Soon, a waiter brought him a serving, along with the tall figure of the person he was waiting for.
“Yi Ching”
A deep voice called out to a figure who was sitting and sipping his favorite hot cocoa. Yixing turned and smiled at Chris before placing the cocoa glass down. Yixing sent a smile to the tall figure, a smile made up to hide his feelings. afraid His eyes now reflected the image of the person in front of him with love mixed with pain and sadness.
“Did you call me for something?” Chris asked as soon as he sat down, or maybe he didn't plan to sit down anyway.
“Have some coffee first. I ordered your favorite mocha.” Yixing still smiled because it was the only thing that could hide his tears right now, he endured it once and for all. Just hold on a little longer and he won't get hurt.
“No, I'm in a hurry.”
“He's waiting.”
Yixing turned to look at the tall sedan with another thin man sitting in front. With an expression of extreme boredom before turning to look at the tall figure on the opposite side
“It's not what you think, Yixing.”
“I know, Chris.”
“I called you today just to talk to you about something. Please listen to me for a moment.”
“..." Chris nodded instead of answering, choosing to remain silent. He knew every feeling of his body, but it was very difficult to love Yixing even though he tried.
"I've always thought that you would love me, but no...in your heart, there isn't me at all..."
Yixing continued to smile. Yi Qing's smile was always on his face. Yi Qing's smile was so clear that sometimes he wanted to keep it for himself, but for now. At this time, Yixing's smile looked the saddest since their relationship. Chris reached out and held her hand. The warm touch of the tall figure's hand was still warm in Yixing's feelings. Yixing smiled back at the tall figure again. Yixing thought that he smiled too often today.
“I know you tried, but it was me who kept holding you back...I...I'm...sorry for not letting you go. Today I was gone all day and I had a lot on my mind. That...ra...we..."
Yixing pursed his lips into a straight line as he thought of the sentence he was about to say. It was so difficult to say it in just four words. It was too difficult for him because the word love was stuck in his heart like a wall that he had to cross. Kris has changed, but Kris still keeps him because of the word boyfriend. Chris probably didn't want to be the one to say those words, so Yixing himself would sacrifice himself and say them.
“Let's break up.”
"Yixing..." The words that Yixing said came as a surprise to Chris. In his heart he felt happy, but in his heart he felt strangely empty. Thinking that his status with Yixing would change But what can you do when it is you who has changed?
“I don't know what made you talk to me like this but…” Yixing stood up before turning around and saying some words that made Chris quiet down, listening to the words Yixing had to say.
"Your heart, Chris. Your heart gave me the courage to say it."
“Take good care of me and love you.”
After saying that, Yixing picked up his bag and walked out of the store without looking at Chris again. His eyes immediately looked at the tall figure waiting in the car before smiling and walking away, never to return to him. Going to a very far away place, never to return. You're free now. You won't be hurt anymore. You won't cry anymore.
Yi Qing could only say in his heart, but he couldn't do it. It was too difficult for him...
END