(OS)I’MNOT SURE

BaeJinyoung x Lee Daehwi

Song :Pop Pop-Kim EZ (Bride of the Water God Ost.)

I never thought that there would be someone in my life. Even if I had it myself, I wouldn't have thought of paying any attention to it. But with this child, this is it. .

All of a sudden!

“Yay! Lee Daehwi, walk carefully! Look at the directions, not just your phone!”

“Well, you don't talk to me! Oh! Why are you touching my wound?!”

I could only look at that child with a dull expression. Even though he was hurting, he still shouted and cursed at other people. Is that worth helping? But even with that thought, I lifted that thin body up.

“This guy really...talks a lot.”

“Well, I invited you to talk. You answered me in no more than three words! You didn't want to talk to me, so you didn't have to come out and hang out like I invited you to! Shi!”

“You didn't invite me. You forced me and you started being too stupid.”

From raising his head at me, Daehwi turned to look straight ahead and walked forward so quickly that I had to grab his arm.

“Daehwi! Stop being so stupid!”

“Yes! I'm not that little girl! That you'd come sit and smile or say something nice! I'm sorry for forcing you to come out! Please go back, I'll go back too.”

Daehwi shakes off the hand that was holding him and speeds towards the bus stop, still faster than Bae Jinyoung's long legs. who quickly walked up to him and carried him to a small cafe nearby.

“Please let me down right now! If you tell me I forced you to come, then release me!”

"I told you to stop being so silly...I don't like to talk a lot."

I think while looking at that sweet face, I don't know...I like looking at that face. His face gets annoyed when I don't talk to him or I'm not interested, but I don't dare say with all my heart that I like him. He's a man, and I'm also a man. It's probably hard for me to admit that I like him.

3 weeks ago

“Jinyoung, have you finished packing things in your room yet?”

“It's almost finished!”

The voice of the small-faced owner's son shouting from the second floor after finishing packing things in the room. Jinyoung had just moved to Seoul because his parents had also moved to Seoul for work and he himself had to move in the middle of school. Come study in Seoul as well.

“Let's eat together, child.”

"yes"

The three of us, parents and children, sat down to eat together. Mom and Dad talked happily. I, who doesn't talk much, just laughed at Dad's stupid jokes or when Mom smacked Dad in the head with a fork. Dad teases my housekeeper and she is a very warm and nice house. But I'm just a person who doesn't like to talk a lot. Which many people tend to think that I... lack warmth.

Ring~ Ring~

“I'll go see for myself. Please sit and eat.”

Mother took my hand and made me sit down as usual, and I nodded in response to what she said and then proceeded to eat.

“Hello, I live next door to you. pleased to meet you"

“Oh, hello. Nice to meet you.”

“Hello, I'm Lee Dae Hwi. You can call me Daehwi.”

I turned to look at the door. There was not only my mother standing there, but two mothers and children who I heard were next door to me. Father and I got up and walked over to her. It immediately honors the other party.

“This is my son. I see that you probably don't know anyone yet. Is there anything I can help you with?”

"I can help too^^ I know all the food around here and what's delicious."

The two families laughed together at the cute words of the young boy standing in front of the door smiling brightly. He accidentally looked at that smile for a long time and met the eyes of another person who was smiling until his eyes closed at him.

“This is my son. Jinyoung, come.”

“Hello, I'm Jinyoung.”

"Yes, if you have anything, just ask this naughty guy. If you want to go anywhere, just ask this guy for directions."

“Yes^^ ”

I could only smile in response because I didn't plan on getting involved with anyone, especially the kid in front of me who was forbidden to get involved with anyone. Definitely looks like he's talking a lot.

…and it was as expected.

“What did Jinyoung hyung eat? Do you want to eat bread?”

“Jinyoung hyung. Please get off at the next stop and walk a little further."

“Jinyoung hyung, please study hard.”

And all the other things that call me names, I'm both bored and annoyed, but I don't dare hurt my younger sibling's feelings with words because it seems like he's already stuck with me. For the past few days, he's been going to school with me all the time, causing the kid to talk a lot and get stuck. with me every morning

Dudduṃ~duuduṃ~

[Daehwii]

Have you finished studying yet?

[Daehwii]

Should we go get something to eat?

[Mr.Bae]

Well, I have work to do, so I'm going to eat first, and then I can leave first.

I pressed answer and that's all before returning my attention to the book in hand. Actually, I don't have any work. I just want to be alone rather than with that kid. That's all. I'm used to being alone and when someone bothers me, I want to find a way to be alone and the way that will hurt another person's feelings the least is to do this.

I turned over my watch and saw that it was already very cold and that almost all the people in the library had left the library. I began to pack my belongings into my bags. When I turned on the communication device, I found a chat from That child bounced to ten.

[Daehwii]

So I'll buy some for you. Working should be tiring, right?

[Daehwii]

When you're finished, tell me.

[Daehwii]

I was walking around the mall near the school.

[Daehwii]

Do you want to eat anything?

[Daehwii]

I bought it for you.

[Daehwii]

I'm waiting downstairs.

[Daehwii]

I'm sleepy. I'm lying down and waiting by the tree in front of the school.

As soon as I saw the last message, I rushed to the top of the tree in front of the school. There was only one tree that was big enough to block the sun for the people lying there. I just ran to it and was amazed at my own head because of that child. I kept falling asleep, not knowing that someone was secretly taking pictures of me while I was sleeping.

“Uh...Jinyoung. Is this little guy your boyfriend?”

“Uh, yes.”

I don't know what caused me to speak like that. I must have stared at the face of that person whose name I didn't know for a long time. Enough for him to become aware and turn to me.

“Oh, Jinyoung hyung, are you finished? Have you eaten anything yet?”

"go home"

After saying that, I grabbed Daehwi's hand and held him before dragging him to the bus stop in front of my school. Daehwi just woke up and lurched to the side, but I grabbed him in time or he would definitely have his butt stuck on the ground.

“Where are you going in such a hurry? I just woke up.”

“I told you to go back first.”

"Well, I want to wait for you..."

The young man with a thin waist was so clearly depressed that I couldn't help but soften his voice so as not to make the other person even more afraid of me.

“Then why don't you go sit in the cafe in front of the school?”

“It's closed...”

I slowly looked towards the cafe in front of the school and found that it was actually closed. So I slowly released my hand from that thin waist and looked at the other person's face.

“If you come down late That person definitely wasn't just taking pictures of you.”

"I'm...well, I'm sorry."

“This is not the time to apologize. You should be more careful.”

"…yes"

When I saw that sad face, I couldn't help but feel sorry for him. I grabbed the other person's hand and took him to sit at the bus stop. After that, I opened the lunch box the other person had bought, which was now cold, and another bottle of water, which now had no coldness left, and set it up on the chair waiting for the bus. But the child looked at me with puzzled eyes.

"You want to eat with me, don't you?"

“Uh..Yes, you eat it, I bought it for you. I've eaten and I'm not hungry anymore.”

Awesome!

I smiled and laughed at the words that contradicted my thin body before handing the spoon to another person to eat, and I used the other fork I got to eat instead.

“You can use a spoon. I use a fork myself.”

“Eat it.”

I held out the fork in my hand. Then I hung my head and ate the food that the other person had bought for me until it was finished in a short time because we were both hungry. The little water that was left, I drank it all before throwing it into the trash can near the bus stop.

“I actually bought it for my older brother. Come back and eat it yourself.”

“Eating together is much more delicious.”

I didn't notice the red face, but I could tell that he was embarrassed because of my simple words. I saw the bus coming, so I quickly waved and managed to drag another person onto the bus as soon as I got on it, Daehwi fell asleep. Probably because he had finished studying and was waiting for me again. Really stubborn and can't quit.

Bang, bang, bang.

The sound of his head hitting the glass made me guess that the owner of his head probably wasn't hurt, but rather because he was sleepy, he chose to let himself fall asleep. So I pushed his head onto my shoulder instead.

“Daehwi, Daehwi, we're almost there, hurry up and wake up.”

"Oh, have you arrived yet?"

I nodded in response. She looked up at me before pulling herself away from me in a hurry, almost making her butt hurt again, but luckily I grabbed her arm in time.

“Be careful.”

“I'm sorry...”

We got off the bus and I walked the younger sibling to the front before going into the house. Maybe Daehwi should have said something other than apologizing.

[Daehwii]

Thank you.

[Daehwii]

I'm sorry for being a burden instead of helping you a lot.

[Daehwii]

Sweet dreams.

I know that aside from apologizing, I would also like to thank you. This is what I received the most from Lee Dae Hwi today.

For the past four or five days, I have been going to school and coming home with this skinny kid every day, so much so that the people at school thought that the kid and I were already boyfriend and girlfriend. It was a good thing for the kid's safety. But it was not good that many people still looked at it with strange eyes. But since Daehwi and I had nothing to do with each other, I wasn't worried about those looks.

“This is Jinyoung. There's a new movie coming out today too, I think..”

“Going to see? There's a quiz tomorrow, right? Are you going again?"

"Whoa, just a little bit. Let's go see a movie."

Daehwi is probably the only kid who asks for anything from me and I give it all, but this one really isn't possible.

"no"

That's all I said before walking towards the bus stop that I came with this kid every day until it became my second home. But this kid still didn't give up trying to persevere.

“I really want to see it.”

"no"

“Auntie!”

I flagged down a passing bus and got on it, causing the other person to just frown and follow me onto the bus.

“Jinyoung hyung!”

"what"

I managed to shove the headphones into my own ears and leave the other person sitting in dissatisfaction alone. As soon as I got there, this kid jumped out of the car without waiting for me. I hurried after him, but not before the kid ran into the house.

[Daehwii]

cruel!

[Mr.Bae]

Read a book. If you pass the exam, you will be fed.

[Daehwii]

Then I'll read the book. Bye.

I read it before shaking my head at the child's message. This child is really a shy child. I walked into the house and saw Mom and Dad watching a movie in the living room. I walked in to say hello.

“What kind of wind made your son come home to eat?”

“I don't know either haha.”

“Father, mother- -”

Mom and Dad kept laughing at me until I had to laugh too, before Mom stopped her laughter and went to eat. It's true that lately I've been eating with Daehwi every evening because the kid is alone. Mom works and comes back late again. I couldn't help but feel sorry for him.

“How about Daehwi..”

“Mom- -”

“I saw that we ate together every day until I forgot my mother's cooking skills.”

“I live alone. His aunt came back late.”

“Oh? Mom just found out. Invite your younger sibling to come eat.”

I nodded to my mother who had just cleared up her doubts from what I had asked. I ran up and picked up the phone and pressed into the communication application.

[Mr.Bae]

Come and eat at my house.

[Mr.Bae]

Daehwi

[Mr.Bae]

Are you reading a book?

[Mr.Bae]

Free time, come eat.

When he didn't answer, I hung up the phone and went from house to house. I rang the doorbell before a thin figure in casual clothes and the smell of shower cream drifted from afar, making it clear that this boy had just taken a shower. will run out

“I just saw the chat.”

“Go get the book. Go sleep at your house."

"It's okay. I can stay."

"fast"

Just like that, the boy quickly ran into the house and picked up all the things I had ordered him to take out. I watched as Daehwi locked the house before walking into my house.

“You can free up some space at the table first and then go eat.”

“Okay.”

Daehwi ran up to greet my parents as soon as they finished emptying their things. After that, my parents kept asking until they found out that Daehwi's father died when he was young and his mother worked late and sometimes slept alone because of her mother. I don't go home like today. When my mother didn't come home, I rarely ate dinner. I'm not joking. I'm not joking. I can only hold it with one arm and the rest is too thin.

“The next day you can come and eat with me, child. Come with Jinyoung hyung.”

“I really came! Thank you very much.”

Seeing those excited expressions, I couldn't help but laugh at the cuteness of this child. Both his excited face and the way he bowed and thanked my parents so earnestly that my mother had to stop the brakes.

“It's okay, kids. That's all. I have to thank you for taking care of Jinyoung as well."

"nevermind"

Daehwi smiled at Mom and Dad and didn't forget to extend his generosity to me as well. When he saw it, he couldn't help but smile.

"You go read in your room. I'll go up when I'm done washing the dishes."

“Let me..”

“Up”

Daehwi nodded lightly before rushing off to pick up the things in my bedroom that I had specified the coordinates for.

"Mommy, it's not normal anymore."

“Normally fine.”

“Usually you don't let anyone into your bedroom, not even your mother or close friends.”

"Well..well, he's alone. I'd be lazy to let him sleep on the sofa."

“Normally, you like to be alone the most.”

"You're all alone. I feel sorry for you."

"Normally you don't reply to anyone's chats."

"My little one is lonely."

"You don't normally talk that much."

"My little one has no one to talk to."

“Normally you don't please anyone.”

"She's a child, I can do as I please."

"Alright, Mom has given in to you."

“You might be able to argue with Mom on these questions.”

“But you can't lie to yourself that right now you I'm worried about Daehwi in a way I've never worried about anyone before.”

Mom finished speaking and rubbed her hand on my head and walked up to the room. I left myself lost in my thoughts for a moment and I found an answer that I didn't want to believe... Am I really liking Daehwi?

“Uncle Jinyoung”

“Uncle Jinyoung”

“Yah! Jinyoung is so depressed."

I was startled a bit before my expression returned to normal and I was lost in thought again when that cute voice chirped away, complaining about studying to me and about friends who liked to tease him. This kid has been around my life for just over a week but has given me knowledge that connects me. Maybe it's because we've been together a lot that makes me feel connected....yes. Maybe I'm just in a relationship

“Jinyoung hyung, I want to sleep first.”

"Oh.. go to bed first."

I moved myself to the window and looked up at the dark night sky with no light until I couldn't see anything clearly except the starlight. But in the unclearness it might be clear, like the starlight that it would be. It's very limited if it gets darker but I still can't really make it clear that I like Daehwi who I've only known for a week. It might not be a problem of uncertainty but it might also be a problem of acceptance because Dae and I Hwi is both men.

But in the end, I think there will be a solution, just wait for its time. Because when the sun rose, the sky would light itself. I believed that, so I decided to go back to bed and lay down.

“This guy is…”

Really cute

I slowly closed my eyes and let everything pass. I stopped thinking because it was something I didn't have to think about at all. I just use my heart and feelings.

Dang, Dang, Dang.

The sound of the alarm clock brushed my dreams away and the emptiness beside me opened my eyes before I found a post-it on the table.

I'm going to take a shower first.

Thank you for the blanket.

Yesterday

It's very warm.

From Daehwi-ya

I smiled softly before getting up to take a shower. When I finished taking care of myself, I went downstairs to find my mother and father's new son talking drunkenly.

“Daehwi really wants to study engineering but Daehwi can't do it because Daehwi is very stupid at math.”

“Let Jinyoung hyung teach you, he can learn to use it.”

The last voice came from my mother who tried to involve me in everything about Daehwi.

"Hahaha, I don't have a class like that. It's just simple, but if I don't understand it, I'll come ask you."

"yeah"

He nodded at the thin-waisted kid who was studying singing. It was strange that he didn't have to study this type of subject that I was dealing with.

"Let's go study. Dad will take you."

“Hello, Mom.”

“Hello, Auntie.”

Daehwi ran out of the house so cutely that everyone couldn't help but smile, even me.

When we got into the car, Daehwi was chatting away with his father, who seemed to really like this kid.

“Study hard, Daehwi.”

“Yes, Uncle. Have a safe trip. Jinyoung hyung, bye.”

“Um, bye.”

I waved back through the clear glass before the car pulled away from the front of the school.

"Don't be silly, you're all my father's son."

“I'm just not sure...is it too fast or not? Just one week.”

“It depends on each other. I'll just say that...this person is okay with me."

I looked at my father in a bit of shock because I still had a hard time admitting to myself that I liked men. But please give me some time. I really don't want to upset anyone.

“Hello, Dad.”

“I intend to study.”

I nodded slightly before walking into the school. The first place I would go was the library as there was still a novel I hadn't finished reading waiting for me.

“Come early, Jinyoung.”

“Yes, teacher.”

I smiled slightly at the teacher before walking into my usual place and taking out the novel I had hidden on the bookshelf to read.

'Love is not about time'

'Love has nothing to do with age'

'Love is not about gender'

'Love has nothing to do with anything'

'It's just about the two of us and our hearts...'

'Right now we love each other...isn't this just good?'

'Are you now claiming to yourself...that we can't love each other?'

'I'm sorry, but if I force myself to do it, you will hurt my mother even more.'

'I don't want to hurt the person I love...I believe we can love each other in the end'

I looked at conversations that were quite relevant to me at this time from a page of the novel. The only difference is that my parents didn't stop me from doing anything and supported me, but it stuck with me. Please give me a little more time to be sure that I think of this child in a way that goes beyond the word little brother.

It's been almost three weeks since I lived with Daehwi, and this kid came to sleep at my house almost every day (except on days when Auntie got off work early), and today he came to sleep at my house again.

“Jinyoung hyung, how do you do this?”

“Well...”

I explained and taught Daehwi math until it was almost 9:00 p.m., so I chased the boy down to brush his teeth and go to bed. Daehwi walked out of the bathroom and ran to sleep next to me, which was still free.

“What you said was that you would raise my movie.”

“Have you passed?”

“Yesss, I passed, and this week you have to take me.”

"Exam next week"

“Gotta go!”

“I won't go.”

“Gotta go! Last time, you didn't let me go!"

"sleep"

I lay down with the noise that was still loud before the sound quietened down and lay down with my back turned to me. I don't know why this kid was upset, but he had to adjust his behavior a bit. When I really indulged myself, I was overbearing without listening to reason, so I could go. Because I don't need to bury myself in reading anything like that, but Daehwie still doesn't know how to study math, so I don't want her to go.

"I really want to go...I promise I'll come back and read the book."

“Alright, let's go.”

“Yes!”

“But you must pass every exam.”

“Ha!”

Daehwi jumped up from the bed with wide eyes, looking a bit shocked by my bargain. Daehwi couldn't think straight when I said he had to pass every exam. This will only be possible if there is no math test.

"Or you can't do it."

"For the sake of the movie...I will pass every exam."

"yeah"

I answered that and the boy lay down and fell asleep quickly. Even though I didn't really want to go because there were a lot of people, Daehwi wanted to go.

Today I'm a little extra tired because it's the last day of school. The teachers are busy tutoring for exams. I went downstairs and still couldn't find the stupid skinny kid, so I sat and waited in the cafe in front of the school instead.

“Jinyoung! I study here.”

“Uji?”

“That's right. I'm surprised to see you. Are you speaking very little?"

“Hahahaha, talking a little more.”

I laughed at my friend Yuji's jokes from elementary school. Eugene is still a funny person who is always easy to get along with. Yuji asked to leave because her boyfriend was waiting and Yuji's boyfriend was the one who came to take pictures of him. It was that day.

"I'm sorry I misunderstood. I just wanted a picture of Little Daehwi to work as a teacher. I didn't think he was your girlfriend."

“Yugi, I almost died because of the picture you wanted.”

"Oh, well, I'd like to apologize to you too. I'll buy you some milk later."

“Haha, sorry for scaring you.”

We just said goodbye. Before I reached out to look at my phone, I found a chat that made me quite upset.

[Daehwii]

I'll go back first.

[Daehwii]

I see you're busy.

[Daehwii]

Today my mother returned early and I slept at home.

[Daehwii]

But tomorrow, take me with you.

I've already told him that I won't be returning today, out of my thoughts. I immediately rushed back to the house.

Ring, ring, ring, ring, ring.

I sternly rang the doorbell at my younger brother's house and the little boy ran down quickly and was startled. before changing his expression when he saw me

“Why don't you wait?”

“I saw you talking to...a friend. So I came back first, thinking that we would talk for a long time.”

"I'm not coming back today."

“I can stay.”

"May the ghost fool you"

“Jinyoung hyung! Well, you can go to bed!”

Drag Daehwi's hand out of the house and lock the door for him.

“I don't have the key!”

I didn't pay attention to the sound and dragged the other person to the house because I thought the other person must not have eaten yet.

"Uh...are you arguing about something?"

“Ah..Oh, no, I'm just stressed about school. Jinyoung hyung and I didn't argue about anything.”

"yes"

The dining atmosphere seemed a bit uncomfortable because I didn't talk at all, even though I don't like people who talk a lot. But this kid makes me really want him to talk to me. I want to know what's wrong with Daehwi that makes him not want to sleep with me. Even though I already know the reason, I want to hear it from his mouth more. But since you won't speak, I will keep quiet.

morning...

Today I was going to take Daehwi to see a movie as promised but it was a little awkward. I was angry that he didn't talk to me directly and Daehwi was probably angry that he saw me chatting with other girls and he didn't. Do you mind asking me who that woman is? I thought it all by myself.

“Jinyoung hyung, I think we should watch this movie.”

"um"

I only answered because today I wanted him anyway and he looked at me a little more. I'll keep quiet until he tells me what's wrong.

“I'm about to take the exam. Have you learned anything? I still don't know much about it.”

So why don't you come watch a movie? Why don't you read a book or let me tutor you?

“I had to take a solo singing exam and was very nervous.”

The voices trying to talk to me kept getting louder until it was quiet. I turned to look and saw another person with his head down and just playing on his phone. It's not that I don't listen and I'm not interested, I'm always interested, but I need to change this child's stupid behavior to be a little less.

All of a sudden!

“Yay! Lee Daehwi, walk carefully! Look at the directions, not just your phone!”

“Well, you don't talk to me! Oh! Why are you touching my wound?!”

I lightly touched the scraped wound on Daehwi's knee and heard a scream of pain that hurt my ears.

“This guy really...talks a lot.”

“Well, I invited you to talk. You answered me in no more than three words! You didn't want to talk to me, so you didn't have to come out and hang out like I invited you to! Shi!”

“You didn't invite me. You forced me and you started being too stupid.”

Daehwi quieted down as soon as I opened my mouth because of anger. He walked away from me, which made me see that Daehwi not only had a scratched knee, but his ankle also hurt. He was more concerned than usual, combined with Anger made me violently grab Daehwi's arm back.

“Daehwi! Stop being so stupid!”

“Yes! I'm not that little girl! That you'd come sit and smile or say something nice! I'm sorry for forcing you to come out! Please go back, I'll go back too.”

Daehwi said as he shook my hand away. Right now I don't care about anything. The skinny guy was heading to the bus stop to go home with legs that were only limp, making him unable to walk smoothly. I picked up another person and immediately headed to a nearby cafe.

“Please let me down right now! If you tell me I forced you to come, then release me!”

"I told you to stop being so silly...I don't like to talk a lot."

Daehwi gave me an annoyed face and then stayed still for me to carry him. I used my back to push the door into the familiar cafe in front of the school. I placed him at a table in a deserted corner.

“Jinyoung, I'm sorry, didn't you see that I was bothering you?”

“No, no, it's not disturbing. Yuji, come here.”

Yuji looked puzzled but still walked towards me and dragged his girlfriend along. Daehwi looked a little confused by the scene in front of him because he remembered that this was the person who took the photo of him that day.

"Hello, this is Daehwi, right? I'm sorry. That day, I let my girlfriend take pictures of me while I was sleeping without asking. I'm a photography major at the same school as you. And I'm at the concert. Sepp is very cool. Did you know that the picture of your younger sister got the most votes?"

Now that kid could only sit and freeze when he realized that the girl he was dissatisfied with had a boyfriend and things were not going as he had thought, that I was dating Yuji.

“Here, Nanny will thank you. What does Daehwi want? If you want to eat anything, just order it! Why don't you come on a date today? I've been bothering you and your girlfriend for a long time, so let's take this money and buy it. I'll consider it thank you for being such an example. I'm going now. I'm going now."

Damn, this was the only word that popped into my head. I said goodbye to UG and UG fans for a bit before turning my attention back to the kid in front of me.

"Uh..your ankle hurts yet?"

“So..did Jinyoung hyung tell him that we were...lovers?”

"Well..that is..that day I was afraid that you would do something to UG's girlfriend, so I told you so."

"Is that so..."

Daehwi's face was visibly darker and his cheeks were still red. Daehwi's redness made me certain that Daehwi was definitely not just me as an older hyung, taking the sadness on his face as collateral. I gently hold my younger sister's hand.

“At first that was all I thought.”

"But now I'm sure that you..."

"That I don't think of you... like a younger sibling."

I looked at my already red face and it became even more red when I spoke my heart out. Even though it was only for three weeks, it made me feel so much that I don't think of a quiet person who doesn't care about anyone. Sometimes I will have a feeling called likes to happen in the mind Daehwi is not the type I like.

I like quiet people, I like mature people who influence me. But Daehwi is the opposite of everything. I like Daehwi to the point that I don't want anyone to get close to Daehwi at the level I'm at. I like everything Daehwi is. The chattering voices that like to complain here and there to listen to the way the children treat me. His eyes pleading when he wanted something.

The last selfish thing I like is Daehwi.

My mother's words flowed through my head, reminding me that what I was feeling was real.

“But you can't lie to yourself that you're worried about Daehwi right now like you've never been worried about anyone before.”

Quotes from fictional characters gave me the courage to be clear and honest about my feelings.

'Love is not about time'

'Love has nothing to do with age'

'Love is not about gender'

'Love has nothing to do with anything'

'It's just about the two of us and our hearts...'

'Right now we love each other...isn't this just good?'

'Are you now claiming to yourself...that we can't love each other?'

Now I will stop looking for reasons to claim that Daehwi and I can't love each other. We can't love each other only if one of us has no love for the other. Now I stop looking for reasons. And I hope that Daehwi will accept me and will love me like I love him.

“You idiot...why didn't you tell me? Just leave me alone to think about it.”

"You didn't ask...I already told you that I don't like to talk a lot."

"I don't love you anymore."

“Then go back.”

I made to pull Daehwi out of the cafe. Let me tell you, even though I looked calm, I was embarrassed to say something like that. Daehwi held my hand and made him sit down in the same place.

"Aren't you going to stay and listen to my feelings?"

"I don't even have feelings for you... like you do."

“At first I just thought that just being with you would be good.”

"But I can't help but be jealous of you..."

I looked at Daehwi's face, who kept his head down. I didn't let go of this skinny kid's hand. I kept holding onto it, even though it wasn't very warm in reality. But I still feel warm in my heart that I can't tell you.

"I like you..."

“I really like it.”

“I liked you from the first day I met you.”

I looked into Daehwi's eyes, who met mine and smiled softly and awkwardly. My big hand rubbed the skinny head's hair until it lost its shape.

"And what I told my friend...don't go back on your word."

"But we're not lovers yet."

“Jinyoung hyung..”

“So...what are you going to ask? I won't have to lie to anyone anymore. That we are lovers."

Daehwi lightly patted my shoulder. I held Daehwi's hand tightly to symbolize that what I said truly came from my heart and not as a thoughtless joke.

“What are you going to do? It's not going to happen. I'm embarrassed as well."

"Oh, well, whatever it is, seeing you, I don't have to sin."

“Then please keep me from sinning for a long time. For the rest of my life.”

“What are you saying! Aren't you ashamed of yourself?"

“Well, you made me like this, so you have to take responsibility for making me do this for the rest of my life.”

"Yuck! Dirty water."

I laughed with my girlfriend who smelled stupid jokes coming out of my mouth that no one thought I would dare say. Ah, the feeling of receiving a good response is like this. Daehwi made me stop being afraid to speak my feelings. Daehwi is making me lose myself...it's too bad that no one can do that.

Besides Daehwi

....From now on, no one will see me as someone who lacks warmth.

It's finished.

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