Everyone always said that Luhan was a nice, cute person, and he really wanted to say those words.

Luhan is just an evil demon who comes in the guise of an angel (who was kicked down from heaven).

This Kim Minseok knows better than anyone.

:-Daisy ✿

“Minseokki hyung. Go buy some milk tea for my friend.” Sehun's deep, almost pleading voice made me take my hands off the book I had borrowed Kris to read. I glanced at Sehun who was pleadingly clinging to my leg.

Ah, how old is he this year? Why haven't you grown up yet?

"I heard you just came back from outside, Sehun."

I asked him smiling. What's wrong with that? He just walked into the dorm and threw everything in his hand away. before coming straight to me

“Auntie, hyung, I want to go with you.” A soft smile appeared on her thin lips. Plus, he was very bossy and pulled out the book in my hand and put it away. It's really striking this kid.

“Do you want me to be your friend, Sehun? Minseok will get some rest.”

Luhan, who was sitting in another corner of the room, walked in and asked. I glanced at him before grabbing the book that Sehun had just put down and opening it to find the page I had left on. With Sehun's eyes looking confused at my attitude.

"I.../You go with Luhan," I said before Sehun could say anything. Then he lowered his head and continued reading. Ignoring Sehun who tugged at his pants leg and ruffled his hair.

“Let's go, Sehun. I'll take care of it myself. Minseok, do you want anything?” At the end of his sentence, Luhan turned to me and asked. But I pretended not to hear In the end, he walked out palely with Sehun.

If it had been in the past, I would have believed that he felt a loss of face for me not answering him.

But I knew that his expression was just a mask.

That Luhan was just a spoiled child. That wants everything that's mine

His sweet illusion on stage What was good to me was just the mask he wore. The role of a good person who approaches a quiet, inconspicuous person like me, he acted just to make himself stand out amidst all that flash of light.

All he does is want to draw everyone towards him.

And Sehun was one of the things that Luhan wanted to take away from me.

“Hyung, I bought you an Americano.” Sehun ran up to me. With a coffee mug in hand And he was running around like that, needless to say, he probably bought hot coffee.

“You really know my heart, hyung. Sehun: "I take the coffee cup and take a sip. Let its bitter taste flow down your throat. The aroma of freshly roasted coffee immediately put me in a better mood.

"The truth is, it wasn't me who bought it. Luhan, this hyung bought it and I brought it to him,” Sehun said with a smile. He didn't notice the slight change in my expression.

"So?"

“Luhan, this hyung, he has a nice personality. Why does my hyung, Minseokki, keep making such fierce faces at him?” Sehun moved to sit at my feet and rested his chin on my lap. He raised his head and stared at me as if expecting an answer.

So how should I answer him?

that what he saw and what I encountered It's a different matter.

“Sehun Junmyeon asked for you.” It was Luhan who opened the door. But after telling him his purpose, he still stood in front of the door and waited. Probably wanted to wait to find Junmyeon along with Sehun.

Sehun lazily stood up. I overheard him muttering to Junmyeon before walking away like an exhausted person.

I bent down and continued reading. When I heard the sound of the door closing

before feeling the shadow of someone hovering over the book

It's "Minseok" Luhan. I kept quiet and pretended I didn't hear him. Before moving, find a brightly lit corner and continue reading.

“Minseok” once again his shadow is on the page of my book.

I moved all the way to the edge of the sofa, but he still followed.

“Kim Minseok!” I remained silent as if I didn't hear what he said.

"I'm talking to you."

The book in my hand was violently snatched away. He threw the book over my head. I heard the sound of a sheet of paper fluttering in the air just moments before it hit the wall and fell.

I sat still, trying to restrain myself from accidentally getting up and punching him in the face.

“Can you stop acting like I don't exist? Minseok.” His voice was trembling slightly. You couldn't tell that he was angry at me. Maybe even hate what he feels right now. I looked at his small hands clenched into tight fists. Before slowly raising her head to look at him, who was standing there with red eyes.

After a while he would cry and squeeze his tears in front of me like he likes to do when I displease him.

“Kim Minseok, don't do this to me,” he started loudly. Clear tears flowed down from his beautiful eyes.

“What am I going to do for you? Why do you have to hate me this much?"

"How many people love you? It wouldn't be a problem if I had just one person to hate you." It was the first time in days that I spoke to him. And it was at that exact moment that the door of the room opened. Four or five members rushed towards Luhan who was standing with tears streaming down his face.

There was only Sehun who walked and stopped in front of me. He didn't pay attention to Luhan who was crying like the others.

“Hyung, what are you arguing about? There was a loud noise outside.” Sehun bent down and grabbed my hand. His gentle questioning tone was too mature to come from someone who liked to act like a child like Sehun. Until I feel like crying

There's only one boss. Choosing to be beside me

"There's nothing."

"Nothing, why is Luhan crying like this?" Junmyeon turned to ask me. On his chest, Luhan was hiding his face crying, with Kyungsoo, Baekhyun, Tao, and Chanyeol rubbing his back to comfort him. Luhan isn't far away.

“Just now, when I came in, I heard you say you hated me again.” He continued to ask me, with expectant glances from the younger members in the group looking at him.

“Let me ask one of your men,” I replied, standing up before walking around the sofa to pick up the book that had fallen on the floor. I used my hand to hold the crumpled pages in place. Some pages were torn into sheets and he picked them up roughly and stuffed them back into the book. The moment I passed in front of them

Luhan's hand reached out to grab his wrist, but I shook it off and quickly walked out of the room with Sehun following close behind.

Luhan's cries seemed to get louder after I shook his hand away, so when Sehun closed the door, it disappeared behind the door.

sham!!!! specious!!!

He just squeezed tears and everyone was there to comfort him. And it turned out to be me who was at fault.

Are Luhan's tears because of you?

I looked down at the book in my hand that had fallen prey to Luhan's emotions. I'll probably have to go buy one and bring it back to Chris. Because of this condition If that doctor saw him, he would definitely scream.

“Hyung…” Sehun pulled the book out of my hand. He flipped through the torn and crumpled pages before looking up at me.

“Why is it like this?”

“I'm going to throw Luhan and he'll miss,” I replied, pulling the book back. I feel guilty for taking my anger out on Sehun who doesn't know anything, but right now I don't have the mood to say anything.

After that incident, the other members kept me and him from being alone together. I am grateful to them for not having to put up with Luhan anymore.

Because I definitely wouldn't be able to stop those eyes that showed disgust.

I looked down at the book in my hand. He looked at the year it was printed before letting out a sigh. It was printed ten years ago. And it seemed like every store I went to didn't have this book for sale.

I looked into the largest second-hand bookstore in the city. But the shop owner said he didn't have any because books like this had been out of print for a long time.

“I really shouldn't have borrowed this book to read,” I said to myself, flipping through the book. Because it looked old and magical, I chose it from Chris's bookcase. But I had no idea that it would cause me this much trouble.

I walked and stopped at a small secondhand bookstore.

"I'm sorry, Auntie. Are there any books like this for sale?” I asked. I pray that it's here too. Because if it runs out from here, I don't know where else to find it.

"Oh, this book." My eyes widened. I accidentally stared at my aunt until she had to back away. "Someone just bought it out for themselves."

"So... is there anything else?" I asked with hope.

"There's only one volume." The shop owner's aunt shook her head and said words that I secretly thought I wouldn't hear. “The person who came just now specifically wanted this book, just like that young man.”

Luck has never been on my side.

I nodded slightly in response before saying thank you and walking back.

Who has to buy the same book that I want?

“Where has Minseok hyung been all day?” Yixing asked me in a vague Korean sentence.

“Went out to run some errands.” After answering, Yixing lowered his head and continued writing on his paper. If I'm not wrong, he'll write songs like he likes to do. I looked around the room. The other members were probably going home to rest due to the long holiday. There were people who didn't return, including Jongin, Yixing, Luhan, and me. Today the dorm seemed quieter than usual.

I dragged my feet into the room. After giving up hope of finding a book from my aunt's shop. I went to find the best book repair shop in town. At least this method is better than sending a book in torn condition. I'll give it to Chris.

On the bed opposite me was Luhan who was sleeping. I glanced at him irritably before dropping my backpack on the bed. But his eyes fell on a crumpled brown paper package lying next to his pillow.

I've never seen it before. I tried picking it up and looking at it. It's also heavy. After turning the package over, it didn't have anyone's name on it, but if it had been placed on my bed, it would probably have been mine. Maybe it's something that fans sent to me.

I carefully unwrapped the package, because if it wasn't mine, I will wrap it up and return it to its real owner.

I was silent for a moment after seeing the wrapped things. It was something that I spent all day searching for. The book lay motionless in my lap.

I don't know why my eyes suddenly focused on him curled up.

His face, which was sleeping soundly, I couldn't deny that it was as cute as a child's. But I couldn't forget the evil that was hidden beneath his face.

I walked across the room to his bed. before throwing the book in his hand onto the bed Its weight caused sleeping people to wake up. He jumped up from the bed in a panic. His red, round eyes scanned the room before coming back to stop at me.

“Why are you doing this?” He blinked slowly. It was as if he was processing what I said. Before looking down at his side, where a thick book was now lying.

“Why.../What do you want?” I interrupted because I didn't want to hear any questions from him.

“I ... just wanted to help you. And besides, I was the one who tore that book,” he said in a muffled voice. before picking up the book and handing it to me I brushed aside the book in his hand. Luhan raised his head and looked at me in time. His eyes welled up with tears.

“You keep your things. You don't have to be nice to me. You're such a hypocrite.” I stared at him, clear tears slowly falling from his beautiful eyes.

The more he was like this, the more tears squeezed.

I can tell you that I hate him. I hate hypocrites like him.

“What are you saying, Minseok? What am I pretending to do? In the past, there were only you who treated me coldly. Act like I'm not your friend.” His thin shoulders were shaking from the force of his sobs. I stood there looking at him like that. If it had been a long time ago, I would have hugged and comforted him. But now all I do is smile at him. “You have changed, Minseok. Do you know anything about it?”

“I never change. Maybe this is a side of me that you never knew. Just like you."

Luhan made a move to get off the bed and come to me. But I quickly stepped away from him. Out of disgust towards him

“What are you talking about, Minseok? I don't understand.” I looked at his tear-filled face. It looks pitiful But I had no pity for him at all. I stared into his tear filled eyes.

“I'm in there. The bathroom you think is broken.”

  LuHan's Part

Because of the insults from many people, it made me let go of unforgivable words. And because of those words, now I can only bow my head and accept the consequences. It's true, I want to defeat him.

But since when have I fallen in love with my competitor?

“I'm in there. The bathroom you think is broken.”

I could only shake my head because I didn't understand what he was saying. So many memories flowing through my head. I'm trying to find it

What is Minseok talking about?

Something that had turned such a good friend into such a cold and disgusted person towards me. Then I felt numb all over, as if someone had poured cold water on me from head to toe.

“No, Minseok,” I moan out his name. Now I'm just praying that this whole thing was just a bad dream. I'll wake up soon. Then I met the cold eyes that he always used to look at me.

I'd rather he be cool with me. I want him to do anything to me. Just for now, I hope this whole thing is just a dream. I would trade it for anything.

“You did it Luhan, you got everything you wanted. Please stay away from me from now on.” The image I saw of him became blurred as tears flowed.

The strength that used to be there now seems to have disappeared.

I don't know what I should do.

What should I do? How can I get past these stories?

I tried to explain But the lump in his throat now prevented any sound from coming out.

The sound of the door closing was soft, but I felt it ringing in my ears.

Please, Minseok, can you listen to me explain first?

I became a trainee because of my looks. It made me redouble my efforts. Because of the saying Having only good looks makes me have to train hard and devote everything to it. This place allows me to meet new friends. He was a little white guy named Minseok. Even though he came to train a few days after me, he won the contest.

His talent makes me envious. He always smiles when I make mistakes and gently guides me. We became close so quickly that I was surprised. Because we have similar things and are interested in the same things. He and I are almost never far from each other. But Minseok wasn't the only one close to me because his friendly nature made him beloved among his seniors and fellow trainees.

We promised each other that we would overcome all obstacles together. No matter what you encounter Until we debut We will not be discouraged. The two of us even thought about it if someone had to leave the company. The other person who is still there will come out together. Every day of the tough practice went smoothly because he was beside me. Minseok sang, I danced.

The time we practiced together passed quickly. Then one day our dreams will come true when we will debut. A strict training schedule was scheduled until the day we actually stood on stage. On that day, Minseok and I agreed that we would go to a party to celebrate. Because after this We probably don't have much free time.

I prepared to put things in my bag. But Minseok made me change into clothes that were wet with sweat because he wouldn't go with me if I didn't change clothes.

“Do you think Luhan's singing is average if it weren't for his good looks? Probably wouldn't get in. Become a trainee.” As I was walking to the bathroom The sound of people talking made me unable to walk.

“That's right, do you remember? Minseok and Luhan came in at about the same time. At that time, everyone liked Luhan because of his looks. But enough about abilities Minseok wins by a landslide.” A loud noise rang out. I moved closer to the bathroom entrance to listen to the two of them talk. “Minseok is both good-natured. The voice is good and the dancing is good. Even the trainers praised him. Luhan can't be compared.

I don't know what the president thought of debuting Luhan."

“Luhan is just Minseok's shadow. You probably think that being around talented people will make you stand out. I didn't realize that the more I looked at it, the more pitiful it became." I clenched my fists and was startled by my own tears that were flowing. I wiped away my tears and walked. Back in the practice room, Minseok is sitting and laughing with Sehun, Baekhyun, and Kyungsoo.

There was Junmyeon playing with his hair. I step closer Minseok turned to me and smiled widely.

“Luhan, these guys are going to eat with us too. So, why don't you change clothes again?"

"I feel like I'm not feeling well. Please go back." I walked over to pick up my bag without even looking at him.

Luhan is just Minseok's shadow.

“Oh hey!” I hurriedly walked out of the practice room, not caring what anyone would look at. I just want to leave here. A place where there were only two fake people in the bathroom who, when they met, would say various encouraging words to me until I thought, Go for it that he is a friend. But it probably isn't. There is no sincere person in this place.

Minseok, you don't think of me like everyone else, do you?

“Luhan, please practice hard.” This was the third time I was scolded by the trainer. Because I was so distracted that I accidentally bumped into Minseok. “Sorry,” I apologized to the trainer.

“Take a break for 20 minutes.” After the instructor's order, I just bowed my head and apologized to the others for being a hindrance. I looked around for Minseok as he rushed out of the practice room to apologize.

“Luhan,” the trainer's voice stopped me as I was about to follow Minseok. "Today you didn't pay attention to training. Don't forget that your debut date has already been set. If you continue like this, you'll be in trouble. Next week we'll put you in position." I quickly walked out of the practice room. I don't know where Minseok has gone.

“Pity Minseok. I saw you walking with a limp.” The sound of people talking loudly penetrated my ears. I wouldn't care if it didn't include the name of someone I was very familiar with, like Minseok.

“I saw Minseok say that he collided with Luhan and his leg hurt. I think that guy was more intent on hitting Minseok. The closer to debut, if Minseok gets hurt, he'll be a star.” I turned around and looked at the person who was talking, wide-eyed. Feel the anger surging within you. When they realized I was watching, they immediately stopped talking and walked away.

I walked straight to the men's bathroom. There were only two bathrooms. One was a shower room and the other was a bathroom with a broken sign. fell on the floor in front of the room “Damn it,” I cursed loudly. My feelings were all mixed together: anger, hate, and jealousy. In the end, I went and bullied the door. I kicked it so hard that it made a loud bang.

“Everyone loves only Minseok. Why is a person who has nothing like Minseok loved by everyone? Why?” I stood and looked at myself in front of the mirror before turning on the water to wash my face. To quell my anger, my reflection in the mirror doesn't look like me. Because that man is full of anger. I hate wanting to conquer.

“Minseok, I can only be your shadow. All this time you would laugh at me behind my back like everyone else. I hate Mr. Kim Minseok. This Luhan hates you. I won't just give up. I must be superior to you. I will have to beat you, just watch.”

I never knew there were people in the bathroom at that time. I said this because of my anger. There was so much that I lost consciousness. I just know I'm angry.

Why have all my efforts never been worth it? Why does everyone overlook me?

Why are they trying to stomp me into the ground?

I take inspiration from them. Practice all day Tried hard and got the lead vocal and main dance positions.

I erased those insults and turned them into compliments.

Everything went as I wanted. I stood out. Meanwhile, Minseok was overlooked and ignored.

But you know what, I've never been happy that it was like this.

I couldn't look at him fully because I felt sorry for him. The lead vocal position should be his, not mine. Every time I pick up the mic and sing I only saw his face. His dream was ruined by me. But all the while, Minseok continued to act normally with me until the day the twelve of us stood on stage. With the lights shining on us, I held Minseok's hand tightly, wanting to apologize to him.

But when I turned to meet his blank eyes, I had to swallow my words back. Minseok pulled his hand away and walked to stand somewhere else.

After our first showcase, a small party was held. I looked at Minseok who was smiling at Sehun who was resting on his shoulder. Why is Kyungsoo pulling his cheeks back and forth? I looked at that picture with envy. Before, I used to be envious of Minseok receiving so much love, but now

I envy the people around him. When did Minseok slowly drift away from me? I kept asking myself why. But what I received was only more doubt. Minseok had never looked at me with such cold eyes, not once had he not smiled at me. Even on the day the trainer announced his duties in the group Minseok still smiled at me and pulled me into a hug.

There was never a time when he saw other people as more important than me.

I had no idea why, but the more I asked myself, the more I realized. I don't view Minseok as a rival or even a friend. But I look at him like a lover, I don't know why. Maybe because Minseok is always good to me. Because he always gives me his shoulder to lean on or because he is such a good Minseok.

I get angry every time someone gets close to Minseok. Especially Sehun, who Minseok seems to be especially fond of.

Deep down I'm afraid I'm afraid that Minseok will love someone other than me. I want him to be mine alone, just me. I know it's selfish but I still do it. I kept everyone away from Minseok. I don't want anyone to get close to him, but the more I do that, the more Minseok moves away from me.

I know now how he felt all this time. The feeling of being betrayed by a trusted person that I once felt, he was patient with me like nothing had happened until our debut day. Because he kept my promise.

But it was me who hurt his heart over and over again. He thought I was being fake for being nice to him on stage. But if Minseok knows All the time I was making up for what I had stolen from him. Slowly, the light returned to him.

****** Hate you ******

“Minseok,” Luhan walked up to block me as I was about to walk out of the dorm. Because today Yixing will be staying at Manager Hyung's house. Jongin changed his mind and wanted to go home. And I didn't want to be with the two of them, so I decided to go out.

“Where are you going, Minseok? You didn't go back to your room last night.” He asked me, but his eyes were staring intently at the backpack on my shoulder. I didn't answer and instead walked into his shoulder. But I only took a few steps and had to stop because Luhan ran up and spread his arms in front of me. Then use your back to push the door.

“Go away.” I reached out and pulled his arm away. But the hot steam that passed through my palm made me stop my hand from pulling him away. So I could only push him to stand in another direction instead.

I looked closely at his face. It looked very worn out. His clear, deer-like eyes had a sad gleam. I accidentally made eye contact with him. But when I realized it, I had to quickly release the hand that was still holding his arm. But instead, it was Luhan who held my arm. “I won't let you go,” he said, his small mouth opening as if he were about to cry.

“What right do you have to command me?” I shook his hand off my arm. Before opening the door and walking out

****** Hate you ******

I sighed in annoyance at the sight in front of me. Under the dim light was the face of a strange man who leaned closer to his face from behind and inhaled the scent from the crook of his neck. What about the hand that was resting on his lap? No matter how much the other person resists But it doesn't seem like he can fight against the strength of someone bigger than him.

I slammed the glass onto the table. Picked up his wallet and placed some money for drinks on the table. before walking towards the two people I was sitting and looking at I pulled his arm out so hard that he floated against me. That bastard tried to pull his arm back. But I kicked it until it fell before it could even reach me.

I looked into the eyes of my friend who owned the shop. Before the security guard came and dragged the bastard away.

I pulled Luhan's small arm out to follow me. At the back of the store Because there were a lot of people, it seemed too risky. If anyone recognized us, there would definitely be a problem.

“Minseok, I'm hurt, please let me go.” There was a loud protest from the people I had dragged out with me. I quickly let go as soon as I realized I was holding his hand.

“You think I want to catch you? Leave it like that. You're done with that bastard. Oh, but maybe you like it that way. I forgot to think about it.”

“Minseok!”

“Why are you stabbing me? Come out and sit in a man's position. If you like that, tell me. I won't have to drag you out to waste time.” I smiled at him who was beginning to cry. “Just quit. Oh boy, he's crying. I don't have a crush on you having to comfort me like everyone else.”

“I didn't give a pose to anyone. I had to go through such crazy things because I followed you. And if you don't push me away What idiot dares to gang up on me?” Luhan let out a shout. He sobbed. I stood there watching him cry. The words he had prepared to curse disappeared.

I was so annoyed because of him.

But it ended with him crying like this. Finally, I turned and walked away from him.

****** Hate you ******

“What is this, hyung?”

Sehun looked at the person who had come in the night with a surprised expression. It wouldn't be anything if it wasn't already 1:00 a.m.

He moaned the visitor's name softly when he saw the other person's expression clearly. before his Minseok hyung burst through the door.

Sehun looked at Luhan, who walked past him with swollen eyes. before quietly closing the door

“I'm staying here tonight,” Minseok said as soon as he walked into the room.

“I will sleep here too,” Luhan said this time in a tone that sounded selfish. Making both Sehun and Minseok's eyes turn to look at him.

“I told you to go back to your dorm,” Minseok said sternly. Making fierce eyes at the other person and showing disgust at Luhan's stubbornness who had followed him since leaving the pub.

“But this is Sehun's house. You have no right to fire me.”

Sehun stared at Luhan wide-eyed when he saw the other person argue back.

“But I won't give it.”

“Don't act like a child, Sim Minseok.”

“Hyung!” Sehun immediately grabbed his little brother's arm when he saw Minseok approaching Luhan. “We all sleep together here. It's already late. Besides, the car is all gone.”

“Thank you, Sehun,” Luhan hurriedly said before turning to smile at the host.

“I have another spare room. The hyungs all sleep in that room.”

“No!” Minseok immediately turned around and looked at Sehun, as if what he heard was something serious.

“But while in the dormitory, hyung only slept in one room.../said he didn't want it. Tonight I will sleep with you. Sehun” Before Sehun could finish his sentence. Minseok immediately interrupted.

“Alright.../No!!!” This time it was Luhan who made a loud noise. Until Sehun had to turn to look at him. His cute face was bent like a child's.

“You don't want to sleep with me. Then I slept with Sehun." Luhan hurriedly said, his small hand hooking Sehun's arm towards himself.

“No, how can you sleep with Sehun?” Sehun glanced at his petite hyung, who looked upset. Immediately try to remove the small hand that may be the cause of your older brother's frustration.

“Nothing can be done. And what do you want to do?” But it didn't seem like he had to try too hard as Luhan easily swept his arm away.

"That's why I told you to go back to the dorm."

“Then how do you want me to return? When I came, I walked with you.”

“You don't have to go back. It's cold outside like this. If I walk back to the dormitory, I'm sure I'll catch a cold. Besides, it's a long way." The youngest sibling slowly spoke up, boldly. Because he was afraid that he couldn't speak right to Hyung's ears and his chubby cheeks would cause him to become angry as well.

“What are you going to do, Minseok?”

****** Hate you ******

“Sehun has really long arms,” the person who opened the bathroom door muttered as he rolled up the sleeves of his shirt that were longer than his arms. But he stopped when he saw the figure of another person taking pillows and blankets and laying down on the floor in the corner of the room. Even though the bed was wide enough to sleep two people comfortably.

“Minseok, what are you doing to yourself?”

There was no response. Luhan sighed softly. before walking and stopping next to another person

“Let's go lie on the bed together. The floor is cold. You'll get sick soon." Luhan stared at the other broad's back. His eyes suddenly felt hot. Then it began to blur with tears welling up. Even though I tried to hold it back, the tears that were flowing down streams still wouldn't stop flowing. Luhan raised his thin hand and wiped the tears away casually.

“Can you stop acting like I don't exist, Minseok? I am not the air that you can see past me.”

“Do you really hate me? I'm not asking you to forgive me. But can't you just listen to me explain for once?"

“The opportunity for you was gone a long time ago.”

“So what do you want me to do?”

“You don't have to do anything. Just stay away from me.” His cold voice and eyes made the audience gasp.

“But I can't live like this, Minseok, do you understand me? I can't stand it like that. You act like I don't exist. Treat me like I'm disgusting. What is it that you don't want to get close to? I know that I have treated you badly. I know I broke your trust. I shattered your dreams. I'm sorry, Minseok.

I'm really sorry about the past. You won't listen to me. You can hate me. But please don't be cold to me, I beg of you.”

“Minseok, what did you say?”

“Yes, if I go, will you be satisfied?”

“Luhan hyung, I brought medicine for you,” said Sehun, who held a glass of warm water and fever medicine in his hand. Open the door and come in with a clear sound. A tall figure walked into the room and placed water and medicine on the bedside table.

“What about Luhan hyung?” asked the person sitting silently in the corner of the room after not seeing the other person they were supposed to be together with.

“Gone.” Minseok's soft voice made Sehun frown.

“Where are you going?” Sehun repeated the question before looking like he didn't understand. Indifferent eyes surveyed the blankets and pillows on the floor before giving a look of understanding.

“Are you fighting again? It's very cold outside. And then there was no return vehicle. How could you let him go, hyung?”

Sehun's face was filled with worry. Well, Luhan hyung doesn't wear a jacket like Minseok. Even tonight's outfit, I had to borrow his pajamas. Looking at it, I knew that I probably wasn't prepared to sleep over at his house like some people around here. As soon as he thought of that, a pair of beautiful eyes scanned the room. His pajamas weren't in the room.

“Don't tell me Luhan hyung went out in his pajamas.” Sehun shot an annoyed look at his round-cheeked hyung who sat still without a care in the world.

“Then I'm going to go look for Luhan hyung,” the person who spoke hurriedly said before running back to his room and grabbing a thick jacket to cover over his pajamas. But when I walked towards the door of the room, I encountered another person who was already waiting.

“You wait here. I'll go out myself."

The atmosphere is quiet at night with the cool breeze blowing against the skin. Thin pajamas do not keep the body as warm as they should. Luhan used his small hands to hold his arms tightly against the cold that came with the wind. Heat from inside the body caused by fever. The more I encountered cold weather, the more I felt a headache.

He glanced at his bare feet, which consisted only of a thin pair of socks. He left Sehun's room without even putting on his shoes. The coldness of the ground made walking difficult. Relying on the light from the lampposts along the road, spaced at a distance from each other, he didn't know where he was going. Because I've never been to this area.

Even though I've been in Korea for four years But all the time his path consisted of only company and rooms. Sometimes when I go on a trip, it's Minseok who takes me there. When I go to do activities in different places, I go with the company van.

He was about to get lost somewhere in Seoul. His cell phone, which could use GPS for navigation, was left in the dormitory. Because he followed Minseok out. without taking anything with him at all Not even a single won. Thinking about it, the tears that had just stopped flowing began to flow again, feeling hurt and sad, but what could he do now?

Since he was truly at fault, why would he want him to disappear from Minseok?

But if it's the only way, he should do it, right?

Luhan wiped the tears from his face. Looking down at the feet that were hurting all over Why is it numb because of the cold? Where will it be pounded until it stings? And it was so numb that he couldn't even walk. He slowly lowered himself to a squat. Reach down and hold the soles of your feet, letting the warmth from your hands help relieve the pain. All this time, he had hardly taken care of his own pair of feet even though he had to use them. Without them, his dreams of singing and dancing on stage would just be a pipe dream.

At times like this, he could only feel guilty for never taking care of it.

“Be patient a little more.. If I can go back to the dormitory, I'll take better care of you." He bent down and talked to his feet through tears. Use your fingers to massage to relieve the numbness. But it doesn't seem to get any better.

The force of the wrist caused Luhan's entire body to lose control, before he collided with someone's warm chest.

“You're crazy.” Before he could turn around to see what had just happened, Luhan let out another yelp at the sound he heard. Just hearing his voice made his tears flow like a dam breaking.

“Who made you come out like this?” Minseok turns Luhan around to face each other. Use your eyes to look at the toes that are only covered in socks. Up until he met brown eyes filled with tears. Before stopping his gaze on the small white teeth that clenched his lip so tightly it was drawing blood.

“So what do you want me to do? You act disgusted to be with me. What should I do? I can't stand it. I see only hate in your eyes. You don't know, Minseok. How painful it is.”

“Isn't that the person you hated before you returned it?” Minseok shouted loudly in the other person's face. Eyes filled with pain, he stared at the other person without looking away. “Isn't it you who said you hate me?”

“No, Minseok.” A pair of hands reached out to touch the arm of the person in front of him, but Minseok backed away.

“I probably won't be able to love someone as good and fake as you. All this time, I didn't know what was really coming from your heart.”

“Everything I do, I never pretend. I admit that I said that day. But I swear to Minseok. I never thought like that. I said it because I was angry. that everyone compares me to you I gave it my all but I was only your shadow. Behind my back there are only bad words.

I don't know who I can trust, not even you.”

“I'm not your type,” Minseok said in a cold voice with a stern look in his eyes that looked at the other person.

“I'm sorry, Minseok. Heek. I'm sorry. But I can assure you that I didn't mean any harm to you. Never once. I love you more than anyone, Minseok. You are the only person who is there for me when I have no one else.”

“So you repaid me with this? You took everyone to be yours. Every time you cry, I feel guilty and hurt you. Everyone hates me because of you.”

“That's not true, Minseok. I didn't do that, I…”

“You made Luhan pull everyone away from me.”

“I did that because I love you!” Luhan said loudly, his beautiful eyes swollen from crying. Some shoulders tremble from the force of sobbing. “I don't want anyone to get close to you because I'm jealous of the way you smile at other people. laugh with others But when it comes to me, you act cold. Showing disgust as if I were a germ that shouldn't be approached. I'm hurt, Minseok.

I hurt because I love you.”

“And you think I'm not hurt?” The first tears flowed from Minseok's pitch black eyes. “You say you hate me. Do you know how hurt I am? It hurts when those words came out of your mouth. You are the one I love and want to protect. I asked myself what was wrong with me. What did I do wrong? I've always thought about the day we debuted.

I'll tell you how I feel. But your words made me not dare to even begin.”

“Minseok, I'm sorry. Give me another chance.” A trembling hand reached out and pulled the shirt of the person in front of him. What did he do? Even though I once owned it Have you ever had the kind of love you wanted? But he destroyed it himself.

“I've told you before. There is no other chance for you.”

Luhan immediately collapsed to the ground after listening to the other person's taunting sentence. The force of the sobs increased until the person crying was so exhausted that he could hardly breathe. But it wouldn't be as good as the heart that was slowly breaking.

“Is my mistake so serious that it is impossible to forgive? It is very bad for me, right?”

“I'm sorry for hurting your feelings. Sorry for ruining your dream. I've never been happier with those things. I have pursued so many things, but if I have to lose you, I will give up everything.” Minseok stood and looked at the person who was crying in front of him. before turning his head and running away in another direction

He hates Luhan.

Hate Luhan's tears as they destroy his strength.

“I'm sorry I took your position. This place should have been yours from the beginning. I'm sorry for ruining your dream."

"I'm...I'm going to quit the band myself."

Minseok jerked his head to look at Luhan, who slowly regained his balance. Luhan's little face was red from crying. Luhan staggered as if falling. Meanwhile, Minseok clenched both his hands tightly to suppress his own desire to support the frail figure in front of him.

Luhan slowly turned and walked away from him, step by step.

For the second time that day, this man turned his back on him.

Even though he had always wanted this man to disappear from his life.

And now Luhan is about to walk away from him.

But why didn't he feel the slightest bit happy?

Why was he still in pain like when he went to the bathroom to dress his wound because he was afraid that the person who caused it would be worried? until no longer practicing But it was him who heard something that stabbed deep into his heart. It hurt so much that he didn't even have the strength to bring himself out of the bathroom.

“I won't let you go.” The force of the hug from behind held his walking legs back. Use the strength you still have and it will all disappear. I could only stand exhausted in that embrace.

“Then how can you let me stay, Minseok? Since it was you who pushed me out like this.”

“I don't care about anything. I won't let you resign. You are what you are today because of your abilities. And you didn't destroy my dreams. My dream is to sing It doesn't matter what position you sing in.”

“Then what do you want me to do, Minseok? I can't live like this... I can't live like this.” “I don't care what you do. Just don't say you hate me ever again.” Luhan sobbed, throwing himself into the strong arms that held him. before turning around to look at the face of the person he loved Slowly he raised his hand and wiped away the tears from his face.

Minseok was just this close to him. The eyes that looked at him weren't as cold as usual.

You are that Minseok. My old Minseok, right?

“I'm sorry, I'll never say those words again. Can you forgive this Luhan who loves you with all my heart for once?”

Minseok tightens his embrace. It was as if he was afraid that the person in front of him would disappear.

“I really hate you, Luhan. I hate you for making me crazy in love.”

I really hate you. I hate you because I love you so much.

Drops of tears and a broken heart

It was painful because he had been hurt and it was almost too much to bear.

I deleted it all. Delete it because it could hurt to the point of death.

Because I'm in such pain that I can't take it anymore.

Because I still love you The man who is still in my heart

I hate you. I hate you to the point of insanity.

I hate you to death. But I can't let you go like this.

I hate love, I hate you.

That's because I still love you. The person who is always in my heart

The End

Special Sehun's part

After taking a shower, I was about to lie down. The sound of the doorbell in front of the house made me frown. Glancing at the clock that tells the time One twenty-two a.m. Who came so late? As soon as I opened the door, I was met with Minseok-hyung, who was standing there with a face of gratitude and disapproval. Behind him, Luhan hyung stood not far away. I moved out of the way for the two of them to enter. Then I learned the purpose of my visit at night.

“I'm sleeping here tonight.” I looked at Minseok-hyung's backpack before nodding in understanding.

“I will sleep here too.” I turned to look at the person who had spoken. It was the first time that Luhan hyung came to stay at my house. So I felt strange. It wasn't that we weren't close. But that's not that close.

“I told you to go back to the dorm,” Minseok-hyung said sternly.

“But this is Sehun's house. You have no right to fire me.” Oh my god, this is Luhan hyung arguing with Minseok hyung. Am I dreaming?

“But I won't give it.”

“Don't act like a child, Sim Minseok.”

“Hyung!”

I quickly grabbed Minseokhyung's arm before a fight could begin. “We all sleep together here. It's already late. Besides, the car is all gone.”

“Thank you, Sehun.” I smiled tiredly at Luhan hyung. I felt the cruel stare that Minseok-hyung was giving me. But I will act like I don't know anything for the sake of my well-being.

“I have another spare room. The hyungs all sleep in that room.”

"no!"

Minseokhyung's voice made me flinch. Why are you scolding me?

“But while in the dormitory, hyung only slept in one room.../said he didn't want it. Tonight I will sleep with you, Sehun.” My sentence was not finished yet. Minseokhyung interrupted. I feel like my character is slowly disappearing little by little. But this is my house. I have to stand out.

“Alright.../No!!!” I turned to look at Luhan hyung. That is, they won't let me have a role at all. Well, as you please. Invite two old people to argue to your heart's content.

“You don't want to sleep with me. Then I slept with Sehun.”

When I set up I would just watch. Luhan hyung pulled my arm away. I wanted to scream: don't get me involved. Just agree nicely and let me go to sleep.

“No, how can you sleep with Sehun?” I tried to remove my hand because of Minseokhyung's expression. I felt a chill all over my body. But Luhan hyung suddenly shook my arm. I mean, it hurts, hyung. I wanted to cry and go into my room to sleep. And actually chased the two of them away.

“Nothing can be done. And how are you going to take it?”

Oh my god, what are they playing at?

But wait, why do I feel a strange atmosphere between the two of them?

It's not a symptom of people hating each other like this.

It's more like lovers are arguing.

Luhan hyung's eyes and actions were easy to read. I knew he was jealous of me and Minseok hyung. But when I looked at Minseok hyung, I only saw a cold face. Minseok-hyung is good at keeping his feelings at bay. But he came out when Luhan hyung said he would sleep with me. Probably afraid that I'll go crazy and grab Luhan hyung.

I could only laugh to myself in my heart.

"That's why I told you to go back to the dorm."

“Then how do you want me to return? When I came, I walked with you.”

“You don't have to go back. It's cold outside like this. If I walk back to the dorm, I'm sure I'll catch a fever. Besides, it's a long way.” In the end, Minseok hyung had to sleep with Luhan hyung. I'm really fed up with the two of them.

It's already 4 a.m. and I'm still sitting and waiting for Minseok-hyung and Luhan-hyung.

It's been over an hour now. Why haven't they come back yet?

Many times I thought about leaving but was afraid that we would be separated.

The only communication channel right now is mobile.

I tried calling Minseokhyung's number. But the phone rang in the bedroom from Hyung's bag.

I tried dialing Luhan hyung's number and no one answered the phone.

What should I do?

I'm very sleepy.

I want to sleep.

But I don't know what the two hyungs will be like.

I dialed Luhan hyung's mobile number again.

The signal rang a few times before cutting off. I looked at my phone before pressing redial. This time the signal was cut off after it rang only once.

All sorts of bad things pop up in my head. Trying to remember if Luhan hyung had his cell phone with him or not. If you bring it, why cut the hair cord? If you leave it in the dorm Well, Minseok hyung said there was no one in the dorm. Did something happen to hyung?

I'm going crazy.

Why didn't the two of them come back?

Tid Tid

I was startled awake by the slight vibration and sound from the thin mobile phone in my hand until I almost dropped it. I glanced at the time and it was already six forty-five. I shook my head for falling asleep before checking the incoming message.

“Last night, I brought Luhan back to the dorm. Don't worry.”

Damn it, don't worry, just call and hang up on me.

It's over.

This story was intended to be Siu Han. I want you to think back to when P'Lu first debuted. Such a clear and nurturing appearance. I really wrote this story with a very short temper. In fact, there is another story with a similar plot, but that one is clearer. So I wrote this story to try and see first.

P.S. If anyone uses Twitter then they will scold the author for writing a dramatic story. If you come again, please tag.

HUxiuhan

Please give it to me.

The ending wasn't the way I wanted it to be. If it's off-putting, I'm truly sorry. Because the first ending is dramatic.

But if it ended like that and there was hope, the reader would probably curse her to the point where she couldn't sleep.

Jyploy