The love story between Fear and Pat

love between two men

Efforts for a smooth path of love

Dreams that try to come true

and the truth that I thought was just a dream

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P.S. This novel was written to send the activities of a group of students who want to write for beginners with more than a hundred hearts.

There are requirements for characters and the challenge of writing a feel-good, warm, plus-like style. The keyword 'coffee' is considered difficult for writers who tend to write towards raunchy comedies... And the most difficult thing is probably not knowing what this feel-good, positive energy style is like. Plus it's the first time I've written a short story of no more than 20 pages, so!!

If this story is wrong in any way...let it be. Haha. I'm not good at it, but I'm sure it'll be fun.

Jingle!

“Welcome,” the bell rang and the glass door opened. It indicates that a customer has entered the small coffee shop where I work. I turn to look at the customer. He was a tall young man. His face is as handsome as an Asian model's. Slim black eyes, black hair. and has dark skin Today he walked in wearing a white shirt and jeans carrying a black bag. As usual, I smiled at him.

The first customer of the day is still the same regular customer as every day I work.

“Is the espresso the same today?” I asked. He just nodded and walked over to his place near the counter where I was. Sitting with his legs crossed, his back straight, he picked up a nearby newspaper and opened it to read with his gentlemanly expression. It goes with the cutely decorated coffee shop with the concept of kittens. Plus, it's not pretentious. Because that's really who he is.

'Really, I forgot.' As I turned to prepare my things, I realized something. I hurriedly walked in front of the employee's mirror. The shadow in the mirror revealed a slender face. bright white skin Big, brown eyes, the same color as his hair, and a mole under his left eye. Wearing a white shirt and black pants over a blue apron with a colored logo of a cat sitting and fishing embroidered on it, I organized myself and picked up a badge to attach to my chest.

On the sign was written in black ink: 'Part-time employee Fear', just this is considered to be fully dressed with all the elements that the shop owner has specified.

Yes, my name is Fear and I work part-time at this small coffee shop near the university every Saturday-Sunday. As for the customer, Khun Shine's name is Pipat or Pat, who has been a close friend of mine since childhood. Wherever I go, he always follows me. Until now we are in our 3rd year of university. He studies in the Faculty of Engineering.

As for me studying architecture, even though we were in different faculties, he still stuck with me consistently.

“Coffee is available.” I served him a hot espresso and immediately moved the chair across from him to sit down. Pat hurriedly put the newspaper aside. Then I slowly sipped the coffee I had made. I rested my chin on my best friend's face and smiled. Even without conversation But being with him makes me feel good. He looks at me as well.

But after only a brief glance, he looked down at the table instead. Even so, I didn't pay much attention to it. “Really? I heard that you won the swimming and tennis competitions yesterday. It's a pity we were working so we weren't there to cheer. Congratulations." I congratulated Putt for winning the university competition. Seeing him like a young man who couldn't do anything, but actually he was very good at sports. Putt nodded and continued sipping coffee.

Maybe he was a little embarrassed because he didn't look at me. Made me smile lightly.

“...Tomorrow as agreed upon,” said the young man in front of him politely, which was Pat's habit. No need to explain, I understood. I had agreed with him that when the competition finished, I would go to an amusement park to make up for the time we weren't together.

"Alright, let's meet at our house at nine o'clock." I arranged to arrange a place, to which Putt immediately agreed. Because our houses are close to each other. Pat also visits my house so often that he has his own key to my house. Moreover, he made an appointment at my house because... Oh, I'm afraid I'll wake up late.

Pat nodded and gave a smile that made my heart flutter every time. A warm and sincere smile But if other people saw this, they would all have a heart attack because they weren't handsome or anything. That's because of his habit of smiling and saying little, so much so that people in the university gave him nicknames such as 'Senior Man' or 'Smileless Faculty Month', but I think...

Putt wasn't quiet at all! I said something and he nodded and smiled in response to taking good care of a friend like me. Even my mother said that Pat had cute and neat manners to the point that she wanted to adopt me as another child. The person who coined this nickname is really stupid.

Jingle!...

The bell rang and Pat adjusted his expression to normal before picking up the book and reading. As for me, I immediately went to work on my own. “Welcome.”

After that, customers kept coming in and saw a small shop with a lot of customers. And almost everyone can be called a regular customer. Even though it was tiring, it was fun, I got pocket money and got to meet a lot of good people. Even though I was surprised that there were no customers here to chill today, I came in to order coffee and sat there for less than 5 minutes before getting up and leaving the shop. It's probably only Khun Chai Phiphat who lives a slow life and can sit in a coffee shop all day.

...Honestly, at first I was afraid that the shop owner would be harsh, but he didn't mind. Plus they say it's good, like getting a free shopkeeper to keep you safe and worry-free, haha.

By the time the shop closed at 5 p.m., Putt himself stayed until I finished every time. And today is the same. Time passed very quickly. During lunch break, Pat and I ate lunch. After eating, we sat and talked for a while, then I continued working. As for Pat, he picked up his notebook and started working. Soon it was time to close the shop. I hurriedly cleaned up my things and closed the shop. We both headed home, which was not far from the shop.

Ding! The sound of a message from the mobile phone rang out. I just got out of the bathroom and hurriedly walked over and picked up the hand I was holding on the nightstand and saw that it was my friend who had sent the message.

Phiphat: Are you sleeping yet?

Fear: Not yet. It's only 8 p.m.

Phiphat: Then hurry up and sleep, or you'll wake up late.

Oh, at 8 p.m. I told you to sleep. Who would lie down!? Normally I sleep at 2:30 AM. The issue of having to sleep at 8 p.m. is impossible. Moreover, I haven't finished designing the hotel yet. I haven't even gotten a picture of the cutout yet. The night is still long. But I understand that Patna probably is afraid that I won't be able to wake up early or go tomorrow. So he wanted me to get some rest quickly.

Fear: Put it to bed first. We'll sleep soon and work first. It won't be late.

I typed out my answer and then began to spread out the paper on the drafting table and prepare for work.

Pipat: Yes, don't stay up too late. Keep fighting, Fear.

...Just the encouragement from Putt gave me the energy to work right away. I sent the sticker back and quickly got to work so as not to stay late like Pat said.

But... it's probably difficult.

'Fear...'

...who

A familiar voice calling my name in my ear and a gentle shake on my shoulder made me conscious. Even so, I'm still dizzy. Is this a dream? No, if it's a dream, it's very real. But this isn't a dream, I know. But my eyelids were so heavy that I couldn't forget and my body didn't want to move anymore.

'Fear's awake.' The voice sounded again, followed by a sigh. 'Why don't you fall asleep at the table late and drool all over it?' No matter what, my body suddenly rose up, my heart immediately sank.

mess up? What's the mess on the table? ...is it work?

Hey!

My eyes widened in shock and my heart couldn't stop pounding... When did I fall asleep? And this is the bed? Since when have we slept on a bed? It's like everything is blurry. I tried to push myself up and sit up, but I staggered and almost fell off the bed when a hand caught me in time.

hand?

Tight frown, ghost? ...No, no, feel the heat and the sound of breathing. Or a thief? He froze, starting to sweat. Gritting my teeth, I decided to turn around to prove the truth. What I saw was... Pat looked at me with concern. I was stunned by what I saw but after a while I began to breathe a sigh of relief.

"Oh Pat...it's me? I thought it was me..." Before I could finish speaking, Putt suddenly approached me, covering my mouth tightly with his hand. I was shocked and looked at Pat with confusion. Then I remembered something because I had just woken up, which made me blurry, almost saying things that were forbidden by Putt, that is, the ghost, if it were someone else speaking, Putt would still act like he was deaf. But to me, this is strictly prohibited.

"Don't talk," Pat said and looked at me blankly. It was just this matter that changed Putt. I hurriedly nodded. Soon my best friend pulled my hand back and lay down next to me.

"..." Why did it come here? I thought, then turned to look at the clock. ...The short hand points to number 2.

My brain processed it immediately because the curtains were closed so I didn't know if it was day or night. There's only a lamp at the head of the bed that's on. Because of this, it often makes me wake up late. But if I don't close the curtains, I won't be able to concentrate on my work. I'll stay still. Ba...it's already 2 p.m.? It must really be 2 p.m. Otherwise, Pat wouldn't have come to sleep like this. Sai... Sai is so close like this.

"I'm...sorry," he said, then bowed his head and admitted his mistake. Pat didn't say anything but pulled me into a tight hug. I was shocked until my body tensed because I was so close that I could feel the warmth radiating out. Gulp... I could only swallow my saliva like crazy. Don't think anything of your friends. Shake your head to dispel these crazy thoughts and prepare to push yourself out of the embrace. But the putt is tighter than before.

"Please go to sleep. It's already 2:00 a.m." as if aware of my thoughts. 2:00 a.m.? Even though I felt like my face was shattered, the doctor wouldn't accept stitches, but when I found out, I immediately felt relieved. Then I turned to look at my work at the drafting table nearby. “The work is done. It's not smeared with saliva." Pat said, then went quiet. When I looked up, Putt closed his eyes.

...showing that the sound just now wasn't a dream.

And don't tell me that Pat carried me to bed?

My face was hot because of the drooling. Things about being carried or... hugs that I feel strange about even though we often sleep together. But they've never hugged each other in bed like this. It's a bit... a bit...

Huh? I frowned slightly when I saw the other person who was trembling slightly.

Are you afraid? Having said that, what Pat is afraid of is only one thing...ghosts.

Suddenly, my eyes began to see what I had imagined so many times: Putt had drooping ears and a tail wagging like a frightened little puppy. Pat closed his eyes and hugged me tightly, not wanting to let go...

I was really scared. When I saw this from the bed, my tense body relaxed. Slowly moving his hand to hug him in return, he gently rubbed his back. 'Calm down Pat, calm down. Fear is here.' Soon, I fell asleep, not knowing that the other person couldn't sleep all night.

“Is Pat awake?” As soon as I heard the sound of the cloth moving, I immediately turned around and asked Pat. Right now, this gentleman is sitting back and forth on my bed. As for the time right now... It's already 1 p.m. but we haven't gone anywhere yet because the putt is what wakes us up. No matter how much we wake up, we won't wake up. It wasn't until I took a shower and came back to work that I finished putting on several sheets before I opened my eyes.

Looking at Putt, whose head was fluffy, his face was dazed and he was holding back a laugh. The more I saw him looking at the watch and sighing, the more I burst out laughing. “Haha, I'm the one who said you shouldn't be late, but ended up being late yourself. Or take a shower and eat something. We'll get out of the house. The amusement park will be fixed next time, but where should we go?”

"...It depends on Fear. Has Fear eaten anything yet?" Pat asked, getting up from the bed and quickly walking to open the closet, picking up a towel and a dress that Pat had left behind, then starting to take off my shirt. Turning to look at Pat, who was naked with only a towel wrapped around his waist, ready to take a shower, he froze.

“...Eat some bread to fill your stomach. ...Let's go to the nearby mall. Let's go get something to eat,” I said, my eyes staring at the athletic figure in front of me. It was so different from my thin body that I didn't have time to exercise. Even though we're both men, I can't help but admire him every time I see him. If I could get half of him, it would be great. Sigh...

“I'm drooling now.” The person in front of me didn't mind. The corners of his mouth weren't smiling enough, his eyes had squinted into a curve. I frowned and raised my hand to wipe my lips. They were moist.

...It's not funny!!! I just bared my fangs and let it go for a bit. Put your feet on your hips and use your other hand to stroke your six-pack. Then he hit it, making a pulling sound, indicating the hardness that he had worked so hard to create, which made me gasp when I was still a little puppy last night. He's turned into a crafty wolf. Ahh, look at how he's teasing me! Ugh, that's right! I don't have anything like it!

I hurriedly grabbed a scale stick and threw it at him in annoyance, but the putt was quick enough to take him into the bathroom first. I could only take a deep breath before meditating and concentrating on breathing in and out. Damn it, I had never seen a putt do this before. It comes out really polite. But after coming to know that I wanted a body like that of a putting athlete, the more I started showing off my muscles and teasing me.

Let's wait for the work to be finished, then I'll build up muscles to compete with them. Wait and see!

1 hour has passed...

“Sood haha!” The sound of the noodles sizzling loudly came out without consideration and of course this sound was caused by me. Now we are at a noodle shop near our house, which is a little different as planned because Tong Pat suddenly sings a song, which makes me laugh nonstop, so he pulls the other person's arm into the noodle shop to eat instead.

My stomach wasn't growling, which was strange. By the time I got out of the house, it was 2 p.m.

“It's all messed up,” Pat said and pulled out a tissue to wipe his mouth. I smiled and grabbed the meatball and fed it to the putt as a thank you. Then I continued to eat my own food, aware of the eyes of those around me who were watching me.

Is it strange?

I think it's normal maybe because we've taken care of each other like this since childhood. No matter how other people see it For me, what I do makes me feel good. Do it and it won't cause anyone any trouble. I didn't think to pay attention to everything. After eating, we took a car to a nearby mall, walked around for a bit and then went to the park. The atmosphere inside the park is different from the outside, which is full of congestion and dust, smoke, and toxic pollution. Only here can you breathe easily.

I walked down the aisle with Putt beside me. The entire path is filled with lush shrubs and perennials, perfectly arranged and pleasing to the eye. It's good that there aren't many people yet. I slowly walked over and sat on a bench by the pool under the rainforest tree that was vacant. Pat himself sat down next to me. Everyone was silent and looked at the pond in front of them to absorb the beautiful atmosphere, the breeze, and the sunlight.

The scent of fragrant flowers floats. It's the atmosphere that I like the most.

It's now 5 p.m. and I'm staring blankly at the picture in front of me. Let yourself relax and lean on your shoulder to putt. When I felt relaxed, it reminded me of the past, which made me laugh when I thought of something until Pat looked down, confused.

“Haha, I really miss the first time we met,” I said. Close your eyes and think of various images. “At that time, we dragged the putt and ran to come here and dropped the putt and bled a lot. But the putt immediately got up and let the blood flow all over his leg and didn't say anything else. It was me who couldn't stop crying until Pat consoled him and it was hilarious. I thought it was really funny.”

Slowly, he opened his eyes and turned to look at the rough path not far away. From there to here wasn't far at all, but at that time, as a child, I So I felt that it was so far that I had to run quickly for fear of people stealing my seat even though there was no one at that time. The image of a small child with brown hair crying and an older black-haired child stroking his head to comfort him floated into my memory. remember then

Various images and memories flowed in. Where every memory There will always be a putt next to you.

I feel...so warm.

"Fear..." Pat said my name softly.

“Huh?” I raised my head slightly as our faces were so close to each other. Pat looked like he was trying to say something. His face was visibly red, causing his heart to flicker strangely.

"we..."

...we?

“Well...we want to..”

“Phi Fear, Brother Fear!!!!!”

Pat froze when he was interrupted by a small voice, causing me to turn around and look at a little boy, only 4-5 years old, beside him, a tall man was watching closely. That...

"What's up, Nong Like? Well... hello, Mr. Luke." I hurriedly stood up to receive a hug from Nong Like, who ran up to hug me. Then I bowed slightly to Mr. Luke, who is Nong Like's uncle, and smiled. Be polite Mr. Luke paused slightly and smiled back.

“I told you, Nong Fear, that you can call me Brother Luke,” said the person in front of me. Even so, I felt that it was inappropriate. Because I've only met Mr. Luke 2-3 times and we're not that close. So he smiled and didn't answer anything.

"P' Fear, P' Fear, go play with me. Let's go play." Nong Like immediately begged me and made her eyes water up. Makes me feel weak, suitable for children at this age who, when they meet someone they know, will invite them to play together, so cute and adorable.

“Yes, so let's go to the playground, shall we?” Nong Like quickly nodded and hugged my arm tightly. I turned to look at Pat and said let's go. Pat didn't say anything but got up. Then he turned to nod his head to Mr. Luke and followed the pull of Nong Like, who looked excited and delighted like a child.

The playground is on the other side of the park, a small area with a cute design. There are swings, a sand pit, and a bouncing horse slide. When we arrived, the children's screams never stopped. From Nong Like 1 person Now there are many other children following along, joining together to play and have fun with me as the center point. Ah...

These kids have a lot of energy but I really enjoy playing with them. It's like opening your imagination to another world. After playing for a while, I glanced at Mr. Pat who was sitting not far away smiling at me. I lowered my head and smiled and continued playing with the children. It wasn't long before the children had to say goodbye, even though they were clinging to their arms and legs tightly. But with my ability After only a few words of lullaby, the children let go and waved goodbye instead. After that, they walked hand in hand with Nong Like to send Mr. Luke off, who was standing with his arms crossed talking to Pat.

Huh? What are the two of you talking about? He looked a bit stressed, but when he saw me, his expression immediately changed to a smile.

"Nong Fear is very talented. She can be a teacher easily," Mr. Luke said, then walked over to pick up Nong Like with sparkling eyes.

"Not that much." I smiled a little when I received the compliment. Actually, I also want to be a kindergarten teacher because it's something I'm good at, but I chose what I dreamed of being. Because I think that if we go after our dreams and we can't do it, we still have something we're good at waiting for us.

“Uh, is Nong Fear free?” Mr. Luke said, walking closer. He grabbed my hand and held it gently, causing me to startle. Even though they were men, I found it strange when I saw the twinkling eyes of the person in front of me. "Well... I want to treat you to a meal in return for helping me be a playmate with Nong Like."

When he finished speaking, he immediately looked down at Nong Like, whose eyes were sparkling, following his own uncle's.

“Let's go eat together, hahaha.” The child's voice and hopeful expression left me speechless. But he stopped when he looked over Mr. Luke's shoulder. What he saw was Putt looking at him with an annoyed expression. It radiated such intense radiation that it gave me goosebumps.

Or...

Ah, that's it. Today we came to travel with Pat. We made Pat sit and wait for us again.

I turned around to look at Mr. Luke's face. Slowly moving my hand to let go, but Mr. Luke didn't seem to understand and held my hand even tighter. Made me have to shake my hand instead. "Uh, sorry, I'm busy. Please excuse me first." After saying that, he patted Nong Like's head, who had a depressed face. "I'm not upset. I'm a good kid for Pee Fear. Let's play again another day."

Nong Like heard me speak and quickly adjusted her expression and nodded to me, waving goodbye and then hurriedly walked towards Putt without paying attention to anything. Grabbing the hand of the young man in front of him, he dragged him out of the playground as quickly as possible.

The sun was about to set and I took Putt's hand and walked down the path. Everything was quiet as he walked and saw more people inside the park. Everyone came for a walk. Run, exercise, relax. And they sat together and loved each other like lovers. Of course there wasn't any free bench, so I took Pat to sit under a big tree by the pool instead.

...Still quiet as before, I secretly turned to look at Putt. His dark face looked ahead, staring blankly at the pool of water that had turned orange from the sun.

"Uh...I'm sorry I made Putt wait again," he said, looking down. Putt was still quiet. Sulking...sulking for sure! But being upset like this made my heart flutter. "...Put" My voice was trembling but I didn't dare say anything. After waiting for a while, Pat held my hand tighter. I turned to look at Pat, who had a still expression on his face. I feel a little scared.

“...Are you angry?”

When Pat heard that, he quickly shook his head and sighed, "No." After saying that, he raised my hand and rubbed it. Made me start to understand something. But he still didn't dare to think in that direction. “I just feel like Fear... Not very careful at all.”

"Wha...are you not being careful?" I felt my face start to get a little hot. Maybe because the hand that is being rubbed is completely different from the one that was being held by Mr. Luke or the way I held the putting hand.

"What about that man?"

Ah, having said that, I felt both his actions and those eyes that made me close to him beyond reason. Makes me feel like I don't want to be close to you. "But I'm a man..." I'm a man... No, let's just say that now it's a matter of men and men...

I turned to look at the pond and muttered softly, “Because Putt was next to me…” Yes, because Putt was right next to us, I wasn't careful. Because I feel... Is it safe?

Pat froze for a moment then put his hand down next to me. Before asking something

“So, how does Fear feel about other men being lovers?”

“Huh!?” I immediately turned around and looked at Putt's face. This is a question that I feel very shocked about. I didn't think it would come out of the mouth of the young man in front of me.

Pat...are you interested in this kind of thing? Seriously, my head is spinning a little. Make yourself confident, then answer as you thought, "Hmm... just fine." After saying that, he moved to sit closer. Then he leaned on the large figure as usual, “Don't forget. That we graduated from an all-boys school Things like this are normal and will die.” After saying that, the young man froze for a long time.

“...That's right, forget it,” Pat said softly, as if he just remembered. I looked and laughed at Putt's slightly embarrassed expression. Have you forgotten that we went to an all-boys school together for 6 years? Pat looked at me while laughing for a while before smiling and gently stroking the back of my hand and saying something.

"So, let's get together?"

...after that day

It's been 3 days already...

The words that Pat said came with a serious expression. and a strong tone It's still stuck in my head and won't fade away.

Is it 'in a relationship'? I wasn't so naive that I didn't know what the 'dating' that Putt said was. I just didn't think about it that day... When I heard those words, everything stopped and my brain went blank. I couldn't hear anything except the ringing in my ears. My mouth slowly opened. I couldn't say anything, it was stuck in my throat. You'll have to wait for it to heal on its own... Ah, what was I thinking?

But after a while, my lips touched something, a light, warm, soft touch. His face was so close that I could see my eyelashes. It was so fast that I was caught off guard and only realized it when the putt stood up. Support me to stand He brushed the grass for me and took my hand and led me down the path.

'Think slowly,' at that time Pat spoke up. Leaving me unconscious and dazed all the way home.

Ah, yes, think slowly.

"..." think

Ah, who can think of this! My face gets hotter and hotter when I think about that day, think, think, but...but...it tells me to think about dating. But I only think about being kissed on the mouth!

"Fear"

That touch still felt a warm touch. My heart beats faster every time I think about it...

“... ...Fear...Fuck Fear!!”

Huh!? I winced, my body lurching from the force behind me. When he turned around, he was shocked. I am a friend of the university where I study. with Nong Prae, a high school girl who is Pat's younger sister “You're about to fall down the drain. Walk carefully, what's wrong with you?" He said that, making me look down on the ground...Uh huh. Just another 2 steps and I was already down a pipe without a cap and I was almost gone.

"Don't blame Brother Fear, Brother Fear, he was just thinking about Brother Pat so he was distracted." Nong Prae finished speaking and smiled teasingly at me. If it were a week ago, I wouldn't have thought about it at all, but now it makes my face red and I can't help it. To be honest, the more I can't putt, the more I really miss it. But I didn't think about it until I was so disoriented that I would fall into the drain...really!

“Oh...not at all, Nong Prae. I'm just thinking about work." As I said this, I looked away...damn it. It's better to quickly change the subject, "By the way, what are you doing around here?"

“I just came to drop off Nong Prae and the motorcycle broke down. Besides, walking is good, it's good to exercise, right, Nong Prae?" I said, then bowed and smiled at Nong Prae.

"Yes, P'Tee. Prae likes it. I get to spend more time around P'Tee too." Nong Prae raised her face and smiled. Everyone smiled at each other, this pink aura was so strong that I had to turn around in another direction. I'm not jealous or anything...maybe.

In the end, Tee and Nong Prae walked to me first because my house was near the front of the alley, while Ban Pat was at the end of the alley. I looked at the two people chatting happily and smiled. The two openly date each other and are accepted by adults on both sides. Including puttingt with me. But accepting it is not easy, having to prove many things before getting to this point.

That's because Pat's family is very rich. Nong Prae is as beautiful as a model and is good at school. She will become a doctor in the future. As for T, he's not handsome, he's not rich, he only has himself and his heart to prove himself, and his good deeds and efforts make him win everyone's hearts in the end.

“Are you back now, child?” As soon as I entered the house, my mother's voice came from the kitchen. Followed by the aroma of omelets wafting into my nose, I immediately walked into the kitchen. Seeing the back of his mother who was cooking, he didn't hesitate and hurriedly embraced her waist out of habit.

"I'm back, Mom. It smells great. I'm hungry." He said in a pleading voice until Mom turned to look and sighed and smiled.

"Damn, when you've grown up like this and still beg your mother like never before, but... Phatla, my child." Haha! I pursed my lips softly as I had said that Putt went in and out of my house like my own house to the point where my mother looked at Putt as another child. She looked at my face and laughed. Then he looked up at the living room and repeated the same question again, “Phatlaluk?”

“I'm going to camp and I'll be back on Sunday, Mom,” I said before helping Mom pick up the plates and place them on the dining table. Mother stopped and turned to look at me before nodding, understanding something, and smiling.

"Oh... No wonder you must be really lonely like this." Guk... What is this? Why do people say I'm lonely?! Oh, my face must be so red that Mom will laugh when she sees it. My cheeks puffed out, indicating I was annoyed, but Mom laughed loudly...that's right!

But soon everything returned to normal. I only live with my mother, but my father passed away when I was a child, so I am very close to my mother. I looked at my mother for a while and then sat blankly.

“Mom,” I called to my mother who was scooping rice for me. Then he asked something out of curiosity, “What do you think if I... Will I date a man?”

Grrr!

The sound of the ladle making noise as soon as I asked made my heart flutter for a moment.

"..." Mom was so quiet that I felt worried. I swallowed a saliva and looked at Mom's expression that looked like she was in shock. As a result, my hands started to feel cold. Or... Mom isn't okay? After a while, he picked up a ladle and scooped up the rice. Then he asked something that made my heart tremble.

“...Putt?”

"..." I stood still and froze, my hands sweating until they were clammy. Why did mother...to... How should I answer my mother? What should I say? I slowly closed my eyes and composed myself. Before deciding to say what was in his head, "Yes..."

Ah... I've said it, I've said it!!

“Look, child…” Mom said in a soft voice, but it was very loud to me. Makes my brain divided One side wants to say 'just kidding', the other side says 'Telling the truth is correct' which I... I don't want to keep this from the person I love most in my life.

Come on! How are you? I nodded softly and lowered my head to accept what Mom would say once I had made up my mind. I don't want to turn back, but... it feels like it's been a long time. For a long time until my face was raised and I saw my mother looking at me with a stunned expression. Then he slowly spoke in a tone of disbelief.

“Aren't you guys lovers yet?”

... Huh?

It stayed until the dust settled for a while. After speaking, Mother was stunned. "That's strange. I thought we had been together for a long time." His tone didn't indicate that he disagreed or was shocked, but it was like he was surprised that Pat and I were. We haven't been in a relationship for more than Mother looked at my face and smiled, put down her own plate and sat opposite me. “Are you wondering why Mom would ask that?”

As he said this he took out a training spoon for me. Of course, I quickly nodded. Who wouldn't wonder? Mom looked at me and laughed. Then he played with his finger on my cheek.

“Patt had asked to date my child eight years ago.”

"Huh? Wait a minute, Mae Pat is here to ask for..." Request? Wait a minute, I quickly calculated, 8 years ago I was about 10 years old...I couldn't believe it, I was only 10 years old, 10!

“It's true,” Mother reminded me. “At that time, Pat's mother was also there. At that time, the mothers thought that Pat was joking, so they agreed to accept the word because they thought that Pat would forget in a moment. I didn't think that Pat would try to prove it and let the mothers know that he loved and was serious. How much with the child?"

Tak building...

My heart jumped as images flashed into my head. A 10 year old child who proved that he truly loved me, proved that he was not talking nonsense. How much effort does it take to prove that it's not a child's fleeting thought? How much does it hurt that I view Pat as just a friend?

That's what I'm going to say...it's me... I also love putting.

I have loved you since childhood until now. Pat has always taken care of me, protected me, and been concerned about me. You can see now that Pat loves me too. But I don't know what kind of love, so I take the most likely and safest option, which is 'friend-like love.' I want the relationship between us not to disappear. Like many couples who, when they reach the saturation point, break up with me...

“Fear,” my mother's voice called out to me while I was lost in my thoughts.

“Yes,” I answered. Mother slowly moved the chair to sit next to me and gently rubbed my head.

“...Is it okay with you two getting together?” Mom said and picked up a tissue that was placed on the table, then gently wiped it on my cheek. Ah... did I cry? Why? “Now the world is open and mothers want to see their children happy. Love is a beautiful thing, but it's hard to find someone who truly loves you.” Mother smiled.

Then he pulled my cheek persistently, "Alright, you can eat now and the fresh water has cooled down. Eat."

“Oh, it hurts, Mom!” I rubbed the cheek that was pulled until it was red. Then he hurriedly ate his food as his mother told him to.

...That's right, love is a beautiful thing, but it's hard to find someone who truly loves us.

And us?

Can we love Putt as much as Putt loves us...?

Ding!

Just the sound of the message and I knew who it was. I quickly opened it and read it. Even though we only talked for 5 minutes. It was 5 precious minutes...both happy and lonely.

Pipat: Are you asleep yet?

Fear: Not yet. It's only 8 p.m. How is Patla going to camp?

Pipat: Very tired.

Pipat: I miss Fear a lot too.

...Unintentionally managed to smile again. 'We miss you too, Putt.' I wanted to type but felt so embarrassed that my fingers were stiff, causing Putt to type and say hello again.

Pipat: Fear... Have you fallen asleep?

Fear: Not yet. Well, in a few days we'll see each other.

Fear: Hurry back.

As soon as I finished typing, my face became hot, and in front of me there was a large mirror again. Make your face red all the way to your ears. Damn it! In the past, it really wasn't like this. Knowing that the other party loves me too makes me feel like a little girl. Sigh!

...I want to meet you soon, I want to meet you, I want to hug you and tell you...tell the feelings in my heart that I have kept for many years.

'Love you...Put'

Jingle!

"Welcome." Today is Saturday. It was a day when I had to work part-time. I smiled at the customers who entered the shop. The customers who come today have a slow life, so they sit and relax until there are no free tables, even the tables outside that are exposed to the sun, which is good because I won't feel lonely.

“Yow Fear, please give me a strawberry smoothie and an iced mocha.” Tee walked in and ordered a smoothie for Nong Prae, two of them who are also regular customers at my shop. The two walked in and looked around. Then he looked at my face and muttered softly, "When I don't have a putt to extinguish my aura, the restaurant is full of people again." ...Huh, how can you mutter for me to hear?

“What is your aura?” he said as he made a drink. Tee and Nong Prae looked at each other and smiled.

“What a good person's aura, Brother Fear,” Nong Prae said. It made me stop and tilt my head in confusion.

“Is it there?”

“Yes, but Pat came and took it out to be his own good aura.” And it was he who responded. As I listened, my brain calmed down and thought before my face became uncontrollably hotter and hotter.

"What...the only person? No, no, no," he said, his tongue almost tangled. The hand made a strawberry and mocha blend at high speed. In less than 10 seconds, both glasses were amazingly finished. “It's finished. You can go. Other customers are waiting.”

"Aren't you going to take the money? Fear...are you embarrassed and are you going to chase me away?" ...Ahh!!

"P'Tee, don't tease P' Fear, it's not good." It was Nong Prae who spoke up and hit Tee lightly on the arm. Thank you very much, Nong Prae. Thank you for helping me. Haha. “But Brother Fear. Are there two chairs available?” I nodded and pointed to a chair in the corner of the shop. Nong Prae smiled and nudged me to pay, then the two of them walked over and picked up a chair and sat down near the counter.

"..." It felt strange, I'd say. If the putt doesn't come, it's these two who come and sit here and soak. “Aren't we going to go out today?” he asked while making several cups of coffee for customers. I felt people starting to leave the shop until I saw many empty tables, but these two guys didn't go anywhere and sat in their original seats near me, unchanged.

“No, I'm fine here,” Tee replied. He saw that he was seriously playing a mobile game. Next to him was a charging cable and a 20,000 baht power bank.

mAh

It was placed while Nong Prae herself was sitting and reading a book preparing for the exam in a comfortable manner. Nearby there are two more books for preparing for the exam. Looking at them, they will really last a long time.

... Seriously, I'm scratching my head lightly. But soon he stopped paying attention. That's good too. At least having both of them together feels comfortable.

I'm thinking about Putt again.

And finally Sunday has arrived. By the time Putt gets back here, it should be 10:00 p.m. I wash my glass and look at Prae and Tee, who today are sitting and watching over me like they were yesterday, except they're both sitting at a nearby table. You brought work to do as well. As for Nong Prae, she took old exam sheets and did them quietly. What a secretly indie couple.

"P'Phat's coming back today," Nong Prae said. His eyes were focused on the old exams.

“Yes, Nong Praepat came back today. No later than 10 p.m., right?” Tee continued, then quietly continued his work. I looked up at the two of them for the 5th time as they both spoke loudly and loudly throughout the store. It's like I'm afraid that I'll forget.

How much do you get paid for putting?...Be as diligent as an alarm clock.

Jingle! “Phi Fear~~” The bell rang and a familiar voice called out. Without turning to look, I knew who it was. Ah... I told you that one day we'd definitely meet here because this coffee shop isn't too far from the park.

“You're welcome, Little Like... Mr. Luke,” I smiled and greeted him. Nong Like rushed through the counter entrance and immediately hugged me.

"Like, I miss Brother Fear!" I wanted to say that we had just met a few days ago, but when I saw her face filled with tears, I couldn't speak. I could only gently pat this little boy's head as I turned to look at Mr. Luke. I saw him turn around as if looking for something. Then he sighed and turned to smile at me.

“Nong Fear, I told you to call me Brother Luke.” After saying that, he walked closer to the counter and looked at me for a moment. “It just so happens that Fear works part-time here. By the way, it's evening. What time does Nong Fear get off work?" The question came with a smile that made me know exactly what the person in front of me wanted.

I scratched my cheek slightly and looked at Nong Prae who was not interested in sitting and working and reading her own book.

“Uh, after a while I quit. Uh, but what do you want? And what about Little Like? What do you want to eat?” I dutifully asked. The other person looked up at the menu board and ordered a chocolate smoothie and cake. I nodded and hurriedly prepared to make it. “Nong Like, go sit and wait. I will make a delicious chocolate smoothie for you. Please eat.”

“Ha!” Little Likekan accepted and hurried over to sit in an empty chair. Such a cute child that made me smile. Little Like is cute. If it weren't for the fact that every time we met, Mr. Luke was there every time, it would probably be better. It's nothing. Because the look they gave made me feel insecure. Even now, he's still staring at me, even though I'm used to having people look at me.

But the melee felt strange. Until I was thinking about money, Mr. Luke spoke up.

“Nong Fear.”

“Yes?” I felt bad.

“That is, if you don't mind. Quit work with me... Crap!” Before he could finish speaking, the sound of a steel ruler sounded as if it had been thrown onto the ground.

"P'Phat came back today, P'Tee," Nong Prae said. This is... the same old dialog.

"That's right, Nong Praepat has returned..." and Tee spoke again. It's a word that keeps repeating...no. Wait, what do you say!! I turned to look at the mobile phone screen. “Put said he was home. Oh, and I said that I really miss the coffee made by Fear." When he finished, he smiled.

“Wow, really? Well then, let's close the shop and go see P'Phat. Let's go eat dinner at home together. I'll call Mom and tell the cook to make something that P'Tee and Phi Fear like," Nong Prae said. It was a very long dialog and the tone sounded like it was being recited. Prae hurriedly collected the sheet and Tee's work before turning the sign over.

Close

in front of the door The store's tables and equipment are expertly stored. Everything happened so fast that I couldn't keep up. When I realized it again, I saw Mr. Luke and Nong Like outside the store.

“Hurry up and think about the account and let's go back, I'm hungry.” I said, I was just stunned. How hungry must he be to leave the store for just 1 minute?

... You're hungry and it's scary.

Ban Phat, located at the end of the alley, is a large house with a very large area. Compared to the size of my house, it is as different as the sky and the abyss. But I'm more okay with my house. If I stay in a big house like this, I won't have to make a living until I finish cleaning it.

When I arrived at Pat's house, I walked up to the second floor. Heading to the bedroom, Putt opened it without consideration. “Putt! ...Oh." When he opened the door, he frowned. The room was dark and empty. Why did you come back?

“Fear, putt and come back until 10 p.m. Grab something to eat and lie down and wait.” A voice came from me. 1 made my neck almost break. I suddenly felt bored. Is this deceiving me?

“...Then let's sleep first so we can eat and putt,” I shouted back. Then enter the putting room. Closed the door and lay down on the bed. Let's just say that last night I wrote it until 4:00 a.m. by the time I was able to sleep. There are still 2 more subjects, 2 models, and 1 more design job. It's a little hot, but since I've chosen this path, I have to go through it. Not thinking for long, I fell asleep because of exhaustion.

“Fear...” The sound of a putt sounded in his ear. I slowly opened my eyes, even though the picture was a bit blurry, but I saw Putt looking down at me with concern, "Fear, I have a black eye...go to sleep late." As expected of Putt, the others couldn't really tell. I smiled and immediately pushed myself up and raised both my arms around Putt's neck. Experiencing this kind of warmth made me realize that I wasn't dreaming.

“Are you back yet?” I said in a low voice. The other party didn't say anything. Still and stiff, I was glad to be near Putt.

"...miss"

“...Put?” Putt seemed to have lost his spirit. I shake the putt gently. After a while, Pat was startled.

"Yes...I miss you too." Before Pat regained consciousness, several seconds passed. Then he hugged me tightly and saw that now was the time to say it. If I don't say it now, I must not dare to say it. So I pushed the putt away and looked up at Putt who was confused by my action.

"Putting is..." Breathing in and out, summoning courage. Then speak with the feelings you have. “After that day The story that made us think about being lovers... We didn't even think about it." When I finished speaking, Putt stopped and fell silent. His expression froze before he slowly lowered his head.

"Listen before you putt!" I quickly grabbed Putt's face to raise his face... So bad, so bad that I was shocked.

“Hey, listen first! That is, over the past several days. We didn't really think that we would be dating or not dating Putt. But we think about everything that is putt, we think about how long it lasts. With Putt next to me.” I looked at Putt and smiled sincerely.

“Put is very good to us, Pat tries to do everything for us, it's me... who shows love like a friend because he's afraid. Afraid that the putt would disappear, afraid that everything would never be the same. But when Pat came and directly asked to be with us It makes us think. Is it necessary to think about whether to be with or not when we love Pat? ...Put is dating Fear."

At the end of the speech, I saw Putt still like a puppet, which made me smile. Then he moved his face closer and touched the other person's mouth. I soaked it for a while before pulling away to look at the work. What I saw was that the still face was slowly turning red... It got redder and redder until smoke came out and then I immediately fell back onto the bed and was shocked! “Phew, is something wrong!?”

"...It's okay, Fear," Pat said with difficulty. He seemed so excited that he fainted. I hurriedly looked at his condition with concern. When I realized it was alright, I laughed before falling to the side and resting my head on the other person's chest.

"..."...The expression on Putt's face right now makes me smile uncontrollably.

“Did you know that time Pat asked me to be his girlfriend and then kissed me? We feel the same way about this putt right now.”

Tuk Tak... The sound of our hearts is so loud that we can hear it. We don't know how our relationship will go next... We don't know what lies ahead for us...what the future will hold. But about the future, let's leave it at that! Let's make the present the best we can.

Just being afraid of the future, we will definitely miss out on important things in life.

“Fearrakpatna”

“...I love you too.”

[END]