Title : Feeling of This Day

Couple : Dujun Yoseob

Rate : 15+ no NC

Writer : CHELER_DM

I'm thinking about you.

Every moment that I'm still breathing

I'm thinking about you.

Even though I know it's too weak

That's the only thing I feel

No matter how long..

Brother Dujun, what should I do?

Now I go to see him under the building as arranged. But what has happened time and time again has happened again. How far do you think I have to endure this? with what I can't accept With the things he couldn't change for me

How many times have I fought with him over this? Hmm.. I can't count the times. So much so that it's annoying.

I saw him caressing the head of a pretty young girl. Just like you did to me Even though he knows that he is a person who gets along well with others. But I can't stop these feelings. Jealousy, overthinking, like a crazy person. Even though I tried to think that there was nothing. But my heart already feels it. Hair is like this.

Are we really lovers?

Why do you treat me like everyone else?

The girl finished talking to him and walked away. He probably hadn't noticed that I had been standing there looking at him for a while. Just don't intervene. I don't feel good at all. I hope he doesn't notice that my hands are clenched tightly.

“Doojoon, are you waiting long?” I decided to greet him before he realized that I had been standing behind him for a long time.

“It won't be long, however long I can wait. When did Joseph come? I'm not conscious at all." He smiled softly at me like usual and rubbed my head. Just like he did with that girl.

"I just came here." I tried to act normal. I don't want to be stupid. But how to hide it? The expression on my face was that of dissatisfaction.

"What's wrong, little one?" He reached out a hand to caress his cheek. Don't forget to say sorry.

"No." I chose to walk away. I don't want to argue again.

"You think I can't see you?" He reached out and held my arm.

“Brother Dujun, don't make me talk. Leave me like this for a while and it'll go away." I tried to pull his hand away. But it's too tight.

“Yoseob, are you going to tell me carefully?” He pulled me into an embrace. It's still embarrassing. But now I'm more irritated.

“Good.” I facepalmed. I could tell that he was starting to get annoyed as well.

“Not like that!” he began to raise his voice at me. Even though he already knows that I don't like being yelled at by anyone. I could only stare at the floor with tears in my eyes.

I can only be quiet. We played a war of nerves and for a moment he had to pull me away.

"Look at me!! Please help explain this to me. I don't understand.” A female junior he tutored shouted to him from far away and ran towards him. in the hand holding a big book

He opened a book that the junior didn't understand before walking to sit at the long table. Along with that younger generation, he followed closely behind.

It's like I'm completely invisible. I could only follow along.

He sat on a long chair with that junior sitting next to him. So I walked over and sat on the opposite side instead.

As he explained to that junior I opened my backpack and dug out some headphones and stuffed them in my ears, waiting for the time. But then I got irritated again. Yes.. I was even more irritated than before.

He rushed over to explain, probably because of his close friendship or the fact that he had tutored him. The gap between them is even smaller. His face and that junior's face were close. We still turn to smile and laugh at each other from time to time. I really can't stand it any longer. I don't want to become an idiot in front of other people.

I jumped up from the table. I threw my bag over my shoulder and almost hit him in the face. But so what? I couldn't stop myself from thinking too much. Even though I try not to think about it. I took long steps and hurriedly walked away from that place as far as possible.

Please be a hairdresser, Dujoon..

I walked as fast as I could until I plopped down on a stone horse chair in the garden behind the faculty building. I let out a long sigh before pressing the volume up button and the music loudly pounding my ears. Please give me this, Dujun. I'm really angry.

Some time has passed. My mood has cooled down a bit. I packed my ultra-thin phone and headphones into my bag and prepared to go home. Today you can go home alone. Damn you, look at Jun.

“Yoseob!!” A familiar voice called out to me, stopping me and turning to look. It was the same person, Brother Doojun. His condition came with large beads of sweat glistening on his handsome face and he was gasping for breath.

I looked at him blankly before turning around and walking away.

"Don't go yet!" He reached out and grabbed my arm. There's no way to let me escape easily.

“What else?” I said harshly. It's still here.

"Don't use your voice like that with me." His eyes showed seriousness.

"Why? Why do I want to say this?" I looked at him and he didn't give up.

"Yoseob, don't bother me. What's wrong? Did you do something to make Yoseob unhappy?" He switched to using a soft stick. I know he doesn't want to fight. But I'm like this.

“Brother Dujun, go back and teach that young man.” I tried to remove my tight grip.

“Are you jealous of me about that?” he asked, causing me to flinch.

"If you're jealous then why? I'm jealous and I can't do anything about it." I always went the other way.

"Jealous about this matter? Be reasonable, Yoseob.” He tried to use reason.

“Do you think this is just this? You said it like it was just me being so annoyed to death. Because I love Dujoon so much. Or doojoon isn't mine? I can't be jealous." I started sarcastically. I'm really annoyed.

“If it's just like this, Yoseob still gets jealous and thinks too much. Then act like an idiot to insult me. If it were something more serious than this, would Yoseob have a reason with you? Shall we talk about it?" He started to get annoyed.

“I told you that I thought too much. I love you so much and I'm so possessive. I've tried, I've tried to stop myself from thinking things like that. But is it forbidden? Doojoon hyung's actions made me think a lot.” I blurted out. It can't be kept any longer.

"Did you do something wrong? Did Yoseob see you hugging or kissing anyone? How many times have I told you that I don't like Joseph thinking too much? I'm tired of having to explain the same things over and over!" Now we're throwing our emotions at each other, right? The irony is there, right? I don't like it at all. It hurts..

"I don't like you going out with anyone either. I see it. I've always seen it. I went to rub this person's head. Being as close as being a lover to this person You may not think anything. But I'm thinking too much, I'm jealous, I'm hurt, Dujoon!" I've said everything. If it's going to end, it's going to end because of my mouth.

“If Yoseob still thinks too much and keeps being an idiot. And if we don't get along like this, it's better to break up!!" He said words that I didn't think he would say. My face is completely numb.

"Oh! If you want to quit, just quit. I want to break up with Doojoon hyung right now!!” Maybe it was pride and the desire to win that made me say that. Everything collapsed because I lost consciousness..

When the talk of ending the relationship ends He walked away from me without feeling good. He didn't even turn to look at me. Yes.. I was hurt, but what should I do? I've already said this.

We broke up here..

"If we start again Aren't you afraid that it will end the same way?”

His question made me speechless for a long time. Many sentences flowed into my head. Both afraid and daring to take risks It all clashed until no answer could be found.

"You don't have to answer me." He smiled softly like he used to smile at me every day.

"Uncle Dujun.." My eyes are now overflowing with tears.

“Thank you, Yoseob, for still having the same feelings for me,” he answered me in a gentle tone.

“My feelings are still the same.. But back then we didn't end well, right? I've thought about it for a while. If one day something happens that makes you have to decide whether to go back to the old way or not..” He was quiet for a moment.

"I probably won't go back. Do you know why, my good friend?" His long fingers gently caressed the side of my cheek.

"Because neither of us can accept each other's flaws. I don't want to see Joseph being an idiot to you. I don't want to yell at Yoseob either." He pulled me into a tight hug. By now his shirt was probably wet with tears that had not stopped flowing.

“For now, let me take care of you like I do every day. And what day will Yoseob meet someone more suitable than you? I won't hold you back. I will assume that Yoseob has found someone who is more prepared to take care of you than you. Do your job better than me. I'll be happy too." His hand gently caressed my head. familiar touch I don't want him to let go. Aren't they words that I should be happy about? It's not like this is painful.

“Why does Dujun talk like he doesn't want me at all?” I struggled to put it into words. A sob stuck in my throat.

"Who said I don't want you? Having Yoseob by my side these days has made me realize my worth for who I have to live for.” He tightened his hug.

“I don't want to hurt Yoseob any more. So I don't want to deepen our relationship further than this,” he told me gently. Can I stay like this forever?

“This time I won't do what I want. I want us to return to the way we were before. But if Dujun chooses like that I have to accept it.” I looked up at his handsome face with a slight smile through my tears.

"I love Doojoon."

End.

Talk :

We know that everyone has finished reading the first part and has a question stuck in their mind. How did you break up? Why did you break up? Is Dujoon going to go back?

Makes us have to decorate more. 555555555555. I sat and thought about the plot for several days because of laziness and couldn't think of a plot.

Anyway, thank you for following and reading. Haha.

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