Ahn Hyung Seop
Park Woo Jin
...FOREVER...
YELLOWBOYS1999
You let me down…..
Time has passed and cannot be returned from 1 day to 1 month, from 1 month to 2 months, and from 2 months to 3 months. Now it has been 8 months. It has been 8 months that seem so long that it seems like 8 years even though... In reality, it was only 8 years ago. It's only been 8 months, what did Ahn Hyung Seob have to do?
Going everywhere alone for the reason that I broke up with Park Woo Jin, my boyfriend who I've been with for a full year. To be able to live life through each day is very long, like 1 day is 1 day. It's been 8 months since we broke up, but we've never seen each other again since that day. Hyungseob couldn't understand the other side's story at all.
Because the other party deleted social media and blocked all communication channels. Many questions swirled in his head. Will Park Woo Jin have a new person or not? Will he be okay? Will he miss us like we miss him? Thinking like this made the corners of Hyungseob's eyes warm up, as if tears were constantly flowing...
Why don't you forget? Why don't you forget that we broke up..and why don't you remember that I, the one who broke up with Woo Jin, actually let you go? Why don't you remember, Ahn Hyung Seop?
Being the one to break up doesn't mean it won't hurt. But I thought that if we continued to be together, it might hurt more than if we both broke up. So Hyungseob had to end the relationship by breaking up with Park Woojin, but it hurt even more. It's that he didn't even hold me back at all...it's funny that the person who broke up with me misses the person who didn't even hold me back at all...
How much time has passed, Hyungseob? It's still the same. Living life repeating in the same place, waking up early, going out to study, meeting friends, returning to the dormitory, repeating this pattern for 8 months, studying quite hard because I didn't want myself to be stuck in thoughts that we couldn't go back and fix. What else can be done?
Today is a holiday. Hyungseob's close friend, Bae Jinyoung, came up with an idea to invite people who spend their days reading books rather than going out. When was the last time Hyungseob went out to travel? He doesn't remember anymore, he only remembers that ever since he didn't have Park Woo Jin, he didn't want to go anywhere... I miss him again.
So Hyungseob decided to go out with a group of friends. Just thinking that staying in the dorm wouldn't stop him thinking about going out and seeing the outside world sometimes in case things would get better. And in case you can forget that person...
After meeting up with a group of friends, the four of them decided to find a restaurant to eat lunch first. Then we made plans for today's holiday schedule and spent a while in the restaurant, concluding that we would go see a movie first. Then we'll go sing karaoke and find dinner before going back to our respective dorms.
But the issue is that the three friends still haven't come to an agreement on what movie to watch. They've been arguing back and forth for a long time. Are they embarrassed by the people passing by? It was Daehwi who couldn't stand it and came up with an idea that should have been thought of a long time ago, Lee Daehwi.
“You take this out, the last person gets to choose,” Bae Jinyoung and Joo Haknyeon quickly agreed with the front desk, probably tired of arguing.
“Come on, I've been waiting for a long time. If you don't look, you'll get it back,” Hyungseob replied. The three of them were arguing from the restaurant to the front of the movie theater, but still couldn't come to a conclusion. The three of them were going crazy.
After reaching an agreement, they agreed to go separately to buy tickets and drinks. Hyungseob and Jinyoung went separately to buy drinks while Daehwi and Haknyeon went to buy movie tickets. Hyungseob didn't care what they agreed to watch...it was up to his friends. ..When the time for the movie was about to start, the four of them immediately prepared to enter the movie theater, but I don't know why today. What a coincidence that the world is so round. Hyungseob felt like he wanted the world to be square today before he could enter. Went to see a movie with Hyung Seop and met people he hadn't seen in a long time. 8 months in front
But it would be better if the person next to Woojin was him, but that wouldn't be possible since the person standing next to Woojin was someone else who couldn't have guessed easily and it seemed like Woojin saw Hyungseob as well. Woojin looked a bit shocked that the person in front of him was clearly thinner. Why didn't he take care of himself?
It's really worth hitting, but Woojin must have forgotten that he doesn't have the right to do anything like that. That's why he tends to forget himself. Why don't you remember that the two of us broke up....
“Can you change the subject if that's not okay?” Daehwi asked his little friend next to him.
“I can see it. I'm okay with paying for the ticket. Don't you have any regrets??” Hyungseob responded when asked if he was okay and he said 'no'. Who would be okay with seeing an ex-girlfriend with a new boyfriend like that? But when friends want to see it? Make a plan and you'll waste even more time. And another thing, if you don't watch it, you'll probably be disappointed, just be patient, it's only been 2 hours...
After the movie had shown less than half the story, it was Hyungseob who had to give up because he couldn't watch it anymore. Bad friends, what do you want to watch? Don't want to watch it? Want to watch a ghost movie? Damn it, Ahn Hyungseop, who doesn't. If you like this type of movie, you'll cry. Watching a ghost movie but sitting and crying in the movie theater, the bad friends knew that they couldn't watch it, so Hyungseob had to come out first. It was a waste of money and the money for the ticket was a shame, but they couldn't keep watching it.
They all died of heart attacks in the movie theater. It's better to wait outside than not take it and never go back.
So Hyungseob walked into the bathroom to wash his face and eyes to feel a little refreshed, but was stopped by a familiar voice. Even though he hadn't heard it for 8 months, it was still a voice that he remembered, not his brain. It's only Hyungseob's heart that remembers it and never forgets it.
“I know that I'm afraid I won't be able to look, but I still want to go in and look.” Woojin asked while standing and looking at the figure of a person smaller than him behind him through the mirror who claimed he couldn't wash his hands and wanted to look and didn't know. Because what kind of story are you watching? Hyungseob thought in his heart, people don't know. He probably didn't have enough concentration to pay attention to what his friends had agreed to watch.
“Are you going to wash your hands?? You can continue, we're done washing.” Hyungseob chose not to answer the person in front of him. He wanted to disappear from here, he didn't want to stand here. Because I didn't know if I could hold back the tears or not. He didn't want to make himself look weak to the person in front of him, he didn't want the person in front of him to feel sorry for him.
And I don't want to look at the face of this person in front of me. Because with just a glimpse of his face, Hyungseob could see the face of another person walking with Woojin. A superimposed image of Woojin's face immediately appeared. Even if Woojin was able to move forward, only Hyungseob would still be standing in the same place where there would never be a time when the people in front of him would be able to stand together again.
“I can't stand it.” No matter what, Woojin still took the opportunity to grab the small wrist of the person in front of him and forcefully pull the other person to follow him out of the bathroom.
“Where are you going? Let go, Woojin. He didn't come out to go to the bathroom, so he went back in to watch a movie.” Hyungseob tried to remove the other man's hand, but it was no use. Will he be able to fight the other's strength yet? What if Woojin is many times bigger than Hyungseob and haven't seen each other for 8 years? The month has changed a lot.
“Oh, do you remember now? Huh?” Woojin turned around and spoke to the little guy without saying anything. Woojin even turned his head and smiled mockingly at the little guy next to him. Damn it, it was people like Woojin. There aren't any words to say. Hyungseob would have to let Woojin lead the way. If he wanted to continue or not, he could, but his heart wanted him to follow. It's probably because of nostalgia that makes me let myself go as I want it to be.
Not long after walking towards the parking lot, Hyungseob's phone rang on the screen, indicating that it was Bae Jinyoung who had called. Hyungseop was probably looking for him. Said he would come out to the bathroom. Then I was going to send a message saying that I would be waiting outside in front of the movie theater, but I didn't have time to say anything and was dragged away by another person like this. It must have been quite chaotic, so I didn't have time for Hyungseob to answer. Then someone with good hands grabbed it and pressed the answer button and immediately spoke quickly into the line.
“Don't worry, it's with me, Woojin. I'm going to borrow it first and I'll definitely send it to your house.” After saying that, he immediately hung up the phone before turning off the phone and sending it back to the person standing there who was frowning again. The person pretending to take it turns on the device. But was interrupted by another person first.
“You can turn on the machine but do not use it. If you use it, you will confiscate it and not give it back.” Without saying anything, he made a move to grab the little person's mobile phone back again, but the other person was quicker and hurriedly put it into his pocket before the other person could grab it and take it back. As we walked further, Woojin's cell phone rang again. Woojin immediately picked up the phone without thinking too long.
"How is it going"
“I haven't gone back.”
“Go back first and see you again at home.” Just this is enough to easily guess who the person on the other end of the phone line is??
Why is it so tight in my chest? Why do these damn tears keep flowing down? Why does this tight feeling in my chest come back again? Why doesn't it just go away? I'm tired of dealing with it. I can't stand it anymore.
“Let's go back to him. We'll go back with Jinyoung and the movie should be almost finished.” Hyungseob forced out his words before forcing a smile to Woojin. If I stay any longer, I'll definitely cry. Hyungseob only thinks that he has to get out of here. Prepare to turn around and walk back in. But was pulled by another person and led out to Woojin's car before opening the door for the other person to sit in. Hyungseob didn't interrupt like at first. Too tired to interrupt the other person right now. After driving out for a while, Woojin spoke up.
"Aren't you going to say anything?"
“Is there anything else you need to say?” Hyungseob replied even though he didn't turn his head to look at the driver like Woojin, fearing that he wouldn't be able to hold back his tears. So I chose to sit quietly. Woojin finally slowed down and parked his car. He was already dying from thinking about the other person. He wanted to ask the person in front of him for a chance but was too ashamed to say the words even though there was a chance.
Never wanting to save that opportunity, Woojin wanted to apologize, but he didn't know if the other party would want an apology from him or not.
Throughout the full year that Woojin and Hyungseob had been together, Woojin had made Hyungseop think that having a girlfriend was no different from not having one. Woojin never remembered each other's important dates. yes And likes to default on Hyungseob often, going everywhere and never letting the other person know. Even the other party's studies were neglected. Hyungseob thought that he would be able to change those traits of Woojin, but no, Woojin never changed.
I don't even think about changing it. If you ask Woojin if he loves you, he'll say he does. It's as if when it existed, we didn't appreciate it and didn't pay enough attention to it. But after losing it, I want it back. And never thought that Hyungseob could be hurt this much by his own actions even though Hyungseop was the one who broke up with himself.
If you ask why Woojin knows, it's because he has been taking care of Hyungseob for the whole 8 years. That month But didn't let the other party see him if he asked if today was a coincidence or not. I would say no because Woojin and Hyungseob's friends had made an appointment. To bring Hyungseop back to see Woojin again. Seeing that Hyungseop has not forgotten and probably never will, Hyungseop's friends want the pair to meet and understand each other.
Today, if the couple still agreed to separate, they would have to accept the outcome. But if both of them were willing to adjust and change for each other, it would be a joy for the two to be together again. Everyone was afraid. I'm afraid that if I come back, it will end the same way and hurt the same way. But this lesson makes me realize that both of them have not forgotten the good things they did together. Never forgot at all...
Woojin's car stopped on the side of the road. Everyone is quiet. So quiet that you can only hear the sound of the air conditioning inside the car. And it was so quiet that he was afraid that the other party would disappear. It was Woojin who had to say the words that he had wanted to tell the other party for a long time but didn't dare.
“I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything. It wouldn't be too late for me to say this, right?”
Broken... completely broken. The wall that Hyungseob built has been completely broken with just one apology from the person in front of him. If that day Woojin chooses to hold onto Hyungseop just a little bit, we They wouldn't have to break up like today, but Woojin thought in a different way. Woojin didn't think he was good enough to hold the other person back. If he let go, the other person might have a chance to meet someone who is ready to take care of him. and can do a better job there
If we hold back and we don't do our job well enough again, will Hyungseob be in pain like today? Too ashamed to keep another person with him. But Hyungseob doesn't answer anything. He could only let the tears flow down his cheeks. His restraint had been completely shattered by the person named Park Woo Jin.
“Did it hurt a lot in the past?” Woojin said as he slowly pulled the other person into a thoughtful hug. Woojin misses Hyungseob so much.
“Stop crying, you're crying because I came too much, Hyungseob.” When he finished speaking, the person in his arms cried even harder.
“Can we start again, Hyungseob? Promising to do a better job as your girlfriend won't make you cry again. Without you, I can't go anywhere.” Why are you just now saying this when you already have someone else standing next to you, Puck? Woojin...if Hyungseob looked at the other person's face right now, he would see that Woojin was letting tears fall just like the other person. Both of them were letting themselves cry like that. Right now, nothing can cure it except tears. No one knows how long we let time pass and cry.
“How can we get back together when Woojin already has Woojin's person?” It was Hyungseob who spoke up amidst the silence. It was an answer that did not match Woojin's question at all and was also an answer that left the questioner stunned.
“Ha!! If you mean the person who came to see the movie today, that person isn't my boyfriend. That person's name is Park Ji Hoon. They're my cousin. Besides, he already has a boyfriend.” Woojin quickly told the other person before Hyungseob misunderstood that he could act so coldly towards each other because he thought the other person already had a new boyfriend. Then fuck me, Ahn Hyungseob....
“Really,” Woojin repeated when he saw the other person's expression, thinking hard as if he should believe it or not. It's a prank. Why are you such a prankster? Woojin thought about it, so let's tease the other person a bit. Really persistent
“Or are they really lovers?” When he finished speaking, Hyungseob only frowned, making his face even busier when he saw it, so Woojin laughed. causing the other party to frown even more than before Plus, he hit Woojin's upper arm with full force, very teasing.
"Ouch, it hurts. I'm just joking."
“This pain is even less.” He spoke without thinking, but the listener thought far ahead.
"That's right. It can't hurt as much as you, right?" Finished speaking and smiling sheepishly to let the other person know that they weren't hurt but they just didn't know what to do to keep the other person from walking away. It's all confusing whether being together for 1 year is good or not. And are we good enough to keep the other person or not? If you hold back, will it make him happy? Some things said are like excuses. Also, I'm afraid it'll hurt Hyungseob again.
“If you're not okay with getting back together. It's okay, we understand you, Ahn Hyungseob.” When he finished speaking, he turned his head out of the car window and looked straight at the road ahead. When the time came to continue walking, he would have to go even though the road he had to continue walking on. There will be no one beside him. Not only Hyungseob is still standing in the same place, but Park Woo Jin is still standing in the same place as well.
“Why didn't Woojin say these words that day? Why didn't he hold us back? If Woojin says just one word that he doesn't want us to go, we won't go anywhere.” Once again, Hyungseob's words brought tears from both of them, but neither side let him. Tears flowed as they chose not to look at each other.
“I'm afraid I won't be good enough to keep you. If we let you go, you might have a chance to meet someone better than us, Hyungseob.”
“Whether it's good or bad, if it's not you. I don't want it,” Hyungseob said through tears. No matter how many times better than Woojin, if it wasn't the person in front of Hyungseob, I wouldn't choose it if the other person was ready to adjust and change a little. Hyungseob chose not to go anywhere because no one could replace this person.
A person of the heart is still a person of the heart. Even if you deleted everything, your brain and heart could remember everything, it would be of no use.
They looked at each other as Woojin reached out and touched Hyungseob's cheek. The soft cheeks had clearly disappeared. Before wiping away the remaining tear stains, wouldn't it be wrong to want to try to do what you wanted right now? Woojin slowly moved his face closer, hoping to kiss another person. But before he could even touch those thin lips, another person's palm immediately pushed his face away.
"Don't pretend to be smooth."
"What? So we really won't get back together, right?" The other person said before sitting down with his head bowed, but before he could think any further, he heard the little man's voice speak again.
“Flirt again first. We broke up a long time ago.”
“That stings.” They turned to look at each other before they both smiled. If that day the other person had chosen to hold on, they wouldn't have broken up until this day. And if the other person had chosen to speak frankly so that the other person would accept them and be willing to change for the happiness of the two people, there wouldn't be suffering. Both sides
Love is between two people, no matter how much they understand each other. But if one party lacks care for each other, it makes it difficult for the two of them to be together. The other party gives it to them but the other party throws it away. It will probably end up together. Breaking up is better than breaking up even though It's better to love than endure love even though you never thought about taking care of it. Whatever path you choose will hurt, but it's up to us to choose whether it hurts more or hurts less...
Everyone walked out. Give yourself time to reconsider your heart. But if you still love each other, don't wait for everything to be too late to fix. It's better to fix it quickly before it's too late.
…END…
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The story may be strange, I don't know how to write it. And it comes from his own life. Many people may think that it's too long. 8 months is a long time. It's really a long time, but ours didn't end well. But for our little ones, let's give them a happy ending, right?