When everyone is disappointed Of course, every day is sad.

Some people also expressed it with tears, anger, and rough cursing. While many people do that

They turned and looked at me. I was silent and didn't utter any insults.

Why doesn't she seem angry?

Why don't you have tears?

Why don't you curse and curse?

It's easy because I don't care about any of that.

"An!" A voice called from my best friend, Prim.

"Prim," I called her name back.

She handed me the cloth. I took it and wiped the sweat from my face. My body was covered with sweat. Red face caused by playing sports

"Ahn, I'm sorry." Prim lowered her head, looking sad as well.

“No problem,” I replied.

That's right, my team just lost in a provincial competition. Our team almost won, but lost.

Teammates complained that it was because the host team cheated...

Some people blame each other.

"And I don't look sorry at all." Prim leaned forward and looked at me. Maybe it's because I'm taller, causing the little guy to have to tiptoe.

I'm sad too.

"I'm sorry." I looked up, staring into Prim's eyes.

Prim looked away, her cheeks turning red.

When you look into my eyes She always has symptoms like this. which I really like

Soon my team entered the athletes' room.

Prim has nothing to do with our team. Only you are my friend. and often comes to see me at the club

This gave Prim the opportunity to watch competitions outside of school as well.

Everyone in the team also got to know friends.

"Prim, we lost," friends on my team greeted her.

With the brightness of Prim your smile Make people like you too. It's wrong with me that my friends say it's difficult to be a smiling tiger.

I don't know why Prim is hanging out with me. But I don't hate her.

I even like it.

Yes, I like Prim. Even though we are the same gender But I already like you. I never told anyone

I don't know if I'm imagining it or not. Prim might like me too.

Her strange behavior made me even more certain. I thought about asking her. But he was afraid of the results that followed.

It might not be worth it. And not letting this go on isn't bad. Prim is still at my side. We sit together Sitting and tutoring together

Until our friends and people in the club started teasing us that we were a couple. I never complained about anything while Prim was trying to fix the news.

Everyone walked into the bathroom to take a shower, leaving only me and Prim.

"Aren't you going to take a shower?" Prim asked, tilting her head so that her hair was covering her eyes.

I laughed deep in my throat, slowly reaching out to touch her hair. She smiled shyly, making me smile as well.

"Smile," Prim said.

I caressed your smiling lips.

“Want to go on a trip?” I whispered to her.

"Are you going to skip class this afternoon? It's important because you just lost. Is this like this when we go celebrate?” Prim rubbed my hand back.

"Aren't you going?" I tried pleading.

“Don't make that face. Go take a shower and I'll give you an answer."

So I immediately followed my friends to take a shower. Because I went to take a shower later, my friends had already gone out to wait in the athletes' waiting room.

I just followed along when friends gathered around the circle to talk and have fun.

Prim seems to be in the middle of that circle.

"Really? Prim, did he come and ask for your number?"

“Is this the person who is the captain of the men's team? That person is handsome."

“It's because in this school that person is the hottest. I'm happy for you too, Prim."

"So, did you give me your number?"

There was silence. Everyone was waiting to hear the answer from his mouth.

"Well...let me go."

"Wow!"

I swallowed hard. Still can't believe my ears.

"Come and see, someone is asking for Prim's number. You're so handsome." A friend called me to join the group.

"When?" My sharp tone made everyone turn to look, including Prim.

"When you were competing, right then," Prim replied, smiling at me.

I didn't like her smile at that time.

"Really? It's cute. So what do you have to wait for him to call? I'm so embarrassed."

How embarrassing is that?

After that, we boarded the school van to return to school.

Prim herself was still sitting next to me.

"An!"

"What?" I replied without looking at her.

“I haven't given an answer yet. Anyway, I got in the car. I probably won't go on a trip."

I don't know what she's doing. Are you still smiling? I didn't look at her face.

Prim was still smiling as usual. You still come to my side like before.

Maybe it's nothing.

But I was wrong. Prim comes to fewer club rooms. Come to me less spend less time with me

"Prim," I greeted her as class ended.

"yes"

"Are you going to the club room today?"

"Why?" She gave me a sweet smile.

“The person at the club asked about you. We'll miss you."

"Eh, couldn't it be you who wanted me to come find you?"

I'm quiet.

"I just happened to have an appointment with that person."

"That person?"

"The person in my dreams?"

"............oh"

That person isn't me? In the past, I probably thought about it myself. I'm the one who's delirious. Every time we touch each other I feel it.

That you shyly avert your eyes I...just thought about it myself?

"Prim," I grabbed her arm.

"What's wrong?" Prim looked a little shocked, probably because of my attitude.

I got up from the chair. Stand in front of her before supporting her face.

Prim lightly touched my wrist. I stared into those eyes.

"You really don't have feelings for me?"

"What is it? What do you feel?"

I held your hand and touched my heart.

"You know that in my heart..."

"An! Stop it, everyone in the room is looking at us."

I looked around as Prim said everyone was looking at us.

I turned around and looked at the person in front of me. Her face was red, but it wasn't because of embarrassment.

She is ashamed of other people's eyes.

hurt...

I pulled away, everyone chatting with gossip.

"An, let's go first."

The person who once gave me a sweet smile At this time, he didn't even look at me. She said goodbye and left.

Ah... heartache

I walked out of the room like a weak person.

If it was a sport I competed in The result of the competition was defeat.

I walked until I stopped in front of the school. My legs couldn't carry on.

in front of that school That girl gave a gentle smile to a boy from another school.

The man smiled shyly in response to her.

Curse...

flowing from my raw nature

The man helped Prim lighten her load by helping the smiling man carry her bag.

Has it been very heavy?

bully...

I hate that guy.

If we are eliminated from the competition in the first round We wouldn't have to go to that stupid school. And they won't meet each other.

tear...

My eyes are blurry Clear water on both sides of my shoulder.

A picture of the two walking out together.

What am I?

I understand people who lose.

I understand my teammates who lost.

I understand people who have failed the exam.

I understand people who can't add me anymore.

I understand people who are heartbroken.

Before, I had never felt allergic. It's because I don't care about that.

But instead, Prim, I liked her. She didn't like me but I felt that way, so I lost.

I've lost.

That's something I have to accept.

the next day

"An..." Prim who greeted me in the morning.

Prim continued.

"It's about yesterday. You scared me Sorry for coming out like that. But we're friends..."

The little girl leaned forward and looked at me like usual.

"um"

"You're acting strange. You seem so cold."

"So, I'm like this."

“That's not true. I understand that you're worried about me having a boyfriend, right? So she's angry at me. I'm fine."

"Good. Congratulations."

"An...."

Maybe I'm not just a loser I might be a loser too. I can't go back to the same relationship again.

It really hurts. Defeat

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