If you're watching, please remember that I'm still the same...

The beginning of this story began with the meeting between you and me.

I met her during my childhood, around the time I was in kindergarten. I was young at the time but I still remember it well to this day.

I came to class on the first day full of excitement, unlike the other kids who cried and wanted to go home. I was full of enthusiasm and curiosity like a child. The teacher tells me to do whatever I want to do. Ordered to read and read. Ordered to write, wrote. Therefore, my childhood development at that time was quite advanced than that of my friends.

I am always outstanding. Regardless of studying Creativity or physical fitness But there is one thing that I am inferior to everyone else. It's all about having a friendly relationship.

That's right. During that time, I didn't have any friends that I could call "close". It might be because I listened to the teacher's orders so strictly that I didn't speak or talk when the teacher was teaching and I couldn't even talk to my friends. Or maybe it was because the social conditions of the people in the room were not good, I don't know.

So during that time I was quite lonely. If I wasn't playing with the teacher, I would often go and cause trouble in other rooms where they were playing to show their interest. Which worked well...especially for one girl.

She is a person who smiles easily and smiles beautifully. When I accidentally look at my heart at that time, I feel happy. I feel like I want to get to know her. want to play with you Want to talk together, want to do many things together

Since that day, I have always tried to come see her, whether in the morning, during lunch, or when I was home. The relationship between the two of us gradually grew. Starting to move closer and closer together.

Until the day has passed Both she and I have progressed to Mathayom 6 together. Throughout the past studies, both she and I have always studied in the same room in the same room.

My relationship with her is going in a good direction. But I knew it couldn't go any further. People who have been close for a long time know each other well...so do you.

She probably knew for a long time that I secretly loved her all along. But I don't want the answer to go out because I want to continue with this "friend" relationship.

Every day I wonder if I should tell her that I've always liked her since the first time we met. But there will be thoughts of being disappointed that keep clinging to my heart to the point where I don't dare say it.

I'm worried, I'm scared, I don't want to lose her. But I don't want to stop the relationship just like this. My thoughts at that time were completely confused. One part of me felt uncomfortable and wanted to express my feelings. Part of me is afraid and worried that she won't accept my love.

I thought about it for a long time until I came to the answer that I would confess at the time of graduation which was coming up soon...

But before that day, within the social world I have seen pictures. One that was published by a girl I secretly like. It was a photo of her together with a man with a caption written next to it:

'The boyfriend I just started dating asks to take a photo together...'

I only read the first sentence. My eyes started to blur because of the tears that were flowing from my eyes. I was very sad, thinking in my heart why she didn't pay attention to me even though I was by her side all this time. We've always been together...

I cried because of her for I don't know how long. It's like inside my heart I feel pain all the time. Looking up, I felt envious of the man standing next to her. I felt confused and helpless, not knowing what to do next. I can only look at the picture of her smiling happily than together with me and my heart aches...

The next day I came to school feeling gloomy. The more I saw that the place I used to be with her had been replaced by him, the more it cut me deep into my heart. But I can't do anything when she's happy. I'm happy...even though the person who makes her happy isn't me...

...it might be a good thing to hold your feelings in to save the relationship right now. But it may also be something that may cause us to feel regret for the rest of our lives...

Just like me, at present my whole heart still has only you...