Sorry for my mistake

When I look back and think about it, I have done many wrongs to him, and he has always forgiven me. I was too narcissistic that he wouldn't leave me until today, the day he chose to let go of my hand and hold someone else's hand instead. The memories of that day are like they've been hammered into my brain and I can't forget them for even a second. Every detail shows that what happened is true.

Some of them looked hesitant at first, but later they seemed confident like different people.

“Let's break up, Deal.”

I stared at the other person for a while before answering nonchalantly.

" um "

Thomas looked very upset, the confidence he had at first seemed to disappear, but he didn't say anything else and just walked out of the room. The next day, he came with his friend Ki Hong. The two of them quietly collected their things. When they left, the room was almost empty. I called my friends to come celebrate being single in my room. At first I really enjoyed the freedom I hadn't had in four years. Sleep with this person

No one knows how late you travel until you return. And it wasn't long before I understood the loneliness when there was no one else beside me to take care of me. Thomas, no matter how late I came back drunk, he would always wake up and ask me worriedly, 'Did you eat anything?' And after I'd vomited everything up, he'd go find me. He brought me something warm to drink and made me something to eat at 1:00 a.m. even though he should have gone to sleep because he had to get up early to go to work.

The more I thought about it, the more tears flowed. Can I go back? Please go back and make yourself better. Go back and hold him back so he doesn't disappear...

'Who did you take it with?'

'I told you I didn't do anything'

'And these marks? Where did you go last night? Admit it. Don't lie. Stop lying to me! ’

That small hand pushed me against the wall. A figure backed away, his head lowered. He looked so sad that I felt guilty, but instead of apologizing, I walked out of the room. Even though the other person apologized many times, I left him alone. My condition now is probably no different from his back then because no matter how much I apologized, the other party wouldn't come back.

Day after day passed by. Who said time heals everything? Either the person who said those words didn't understand anything or it wouldn't apply to me. It's been a year and I still miss Thomas every second. I miss your smile. I miss my soft blonde hair that I like to mess up. I miss the embrace that carried me through both bad and good times throughout the four years we were together. He never abandoned me for a single day.

And he is the only person who makes my heart feel like it stops beating for a moment. The world stops spinning when our eyes meet, but today he made my heart ache. Tears are like a bully's way to flow because he has someone else holding those hands. The two of them walked side by side. I should be happy to see him happy, but I'm not.

To be honest, I want to pull that thin body and hug it myself. I hurriedly walked out in another direction to avoid the other person who was staring at me without blinking. It wouldn't be good if he saw the weakness I tried to hide.

“Dylan”

A familiar British accent sounded. I held my breath and kept my face steady in order to turn to face the other person.

“Hi”

" I am sorry "

“Hey, what are you apologizing to me for?”

“Everything, I'm sorry...for making you sad.”

Why does he keep apologizing to me? It should be me who is apologizing for all of this. I took a breath and looked at the other person who looked brighter than before.

“Looking at everything I've done, it's worth it. Hey, listen, Thomas.”

I walked closer to Thomas. I want to hug him one last time, but if I hug him I would probably just beg for him to come back.

" thank you for everything "

That's all I said before I walked out the other way and Thomas probably walked out the other way along his path as well. I don't know if our paths will ever cross again and I don't know how much time it will take to heal my heart. But there must be a day, right? Everything will get better.

Thank you for everything Thomas Brody Sangster. You are the person I want to make the happiest in the world.