[The man is really fucked.]

I typed a barrage of cursing and rude words on social media. Friends who followed me joined in the comments, asking me questions, looking concerned. There were many encouraging comments that I could only read through. Many people didn't even know what I was going through. Only close friends will watch. That I was abandoned by a man A group of friends that I was close to also joined in cursing.

Friend 1: [It's better to break up. With bad people, there are only bad things.]

Friend 2: [You're going to die. You're not worthy of that guy. Set it up from the beginning]

Friend 3: [Must go celebrate!]

Actually, I'm not that sad...

While I was sitting here reading the comments for fun. I'm debating whether or not I should go to the drinking party. A private chat message suddenly sounded.

Aom: Kaew, how are you?

Here she is, at last she has come.

Aom is one of my closest friends. We've known each other since high school. Until then, they were always stuck together. Size when studying at university We still study together. The same group With a personality that seems conflicting between me and Aom Therefore, it often causes other friends to greet me often. I look like a girl with a sassy, ​​sassy, ​​sassy look, unlike Aom who looks quiet and neat.

She always cares about my feelings. That makes me care about her feelings as well. When you come to the university gate The fact that I am a person who makes friends easily makes me have many friends. Other friends in the group will seem as strong as me. But I will always take Aom with me wherever I go.

Aom: Kaew

I looked at the chat message this friend sent. She is always different from others. She didn't curse my ex. as others do or send encouragement She always asks about my feelings.

Kaew: I'm a little sad about being left behind.

I lied, like I said, I'm not sorry. And I hate myself again. That I don't feel anything about being left behind.

Aom: Kaew still has friends. Always have us.

Kaew: Oh, thank you.

Kaew: Kaew, Kaew, are you going to drink alcohol or not?

I know that Aom doesn't like going to liquor stores. Why would she go? She would only drink water. Let's invite you to go...

Saving: Saving too.

I really hate myself for asking.

At 6 p.m., everyone gathered at a liquor store near the university. And my friends were surprised to see Aom come with me.

"Aom, wait a minute, are you learning to drink alcohol?" a friend in the group said.

"I'm worried," Aom said in a calm voice. He looked at me with worried eyes.

I don't like that look at all. I don't mind if any of my friends look at me like that. I just want that one person to not look at me like this. That person is Aom. Then everyone started pouring liquor except Aom who was drinking water. Aom still looks at me all the time. Even though we sit far apart from each other, I know because I always look at you too. I turn away

Drinking the liquor in the glass over and over. Friends in the group think that Where did I suppress it? Cheer, drink to forget that man. But I'd rather drink to forget this girl. The air in the store made me dizzy. So I got up and sat outside the shop. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw someone following me.

"Kaew came out of the store alone. It's dangerous."

"Glass is fine. I just came out to get some air. You can save and go back in first."

"It's okay. We're friends."

Cold wind blows in the face Enough to help me sober up a bit. From here I couldn't see the stars. I couldn't help it. They were too bright and completely blocked out the starlight. Aom was so quiet that I wondered if she had fallen asleep. So let's take a quick look.

No, she sat hugging her knees. Hide your face in your arms. Always looking at me

Why does it have to be this girl who comes to comfort me?

Feelings gathered in the throat Make me cry My sobbing must have caused Aom to hug and comfort me.

"It's okay, Kaew. It's okay," Aom said repeatedly. But it made me cry even harder than before.

I snuggled into her. I really hate myself for doing that. What can I do? I like saving. I've liked it for a long time too. But this friend probably doesn't think of me like that. She views me as a friend with sincerity. But I can't stop my feelings. I want to love you like a close friend. But I really can't.

The more I want to run away, the more my heart aches. As he got closer, he couldn't stop himself either. The best solution is for me to date a good man. I have dated many people with my appearance being outstanding. Therefore causing many men to approach as before. I'm trying to open up to the relationship. But then it must be abandoned. The reason for leaving was me. I tried to love them. But I have to admit that If you really don't have love

It's hard for me to show love back. That makes me often left behind.

I pulled away. Use the back of your hand to wipe away the tears. Damn, I hope the makeup doesn't come off!

Hurry!

Aom grabbed my hand and held it. Probably hoping to give me the strength to keep fighting.

"Kaew must get through this." The force of his words and his strong words made me sad.

You don't know anything about me or my feelings. That I had to be abandoned like this Because I want to be able to continue being with you as friends. Of course I didn't say it.

"Why does Kaew have to go through something like this?" I moaned loudly.

"Kaew is a good person. There are still many good men who are suitable for Kaew.”

But there's only one person I love...

"And if there aren't any? If there's no one suitable for me," I said, trying to hide Aom's expression.

"Kaew still has Aom as a friend forever."

I sighed heavily. It should be like that

I hugged this friend again, burying my face in his neck, breathing in his familiar scent. It still makes my heart flutter. My strength is melting

"Kaew..."

"Please stay like this for now."

"As Kaew wishes"

I sat in the same position quietly. Aom himself didn't say anything. She also gave me a mosquito slap.

"Aom, Kaew loves Aom."

"Oh, I love you too."

"Kaew loves Aom more than Aom knows." I pushed myself away.

"Then you can come back to being a strong person." Aom fixed my hair.

I can only look at your determined face. Why do I have feelings for this girl more than a friend?

"saving"

"How is it going"

"Kaew will always be Aom's good friend, Kaew promises." That's right, I'll be your friend forever. I promise I'll stop myself. I will be able to forget my own feelings.