The first time in seven years that we haven't seen each other. Today I got to meet him again.

He is my first friend and my first lover.

It's been seven years, I don't know what he'll be like. All I know is that I'm still the same.

My name is Jettawut or Jan. I currently work as the head of marketing for a car importing company in Bangkok.

As for him, his name is Jackson Asawin Wang, half Thai, half Hong Kong. Now he is

CEO

The young man of the company where I work

He and I studied together in high school. He was born in Hong Kong but moved to Thailand because his father opened a company and settled here.

We met when we were in Mathayom 4. I transferred schools in the middle of the semester. He was the first person to come to me and we became best friends.

But I ruined everything with my own hands.

Our friendship ended from that day. The day I confessed my feelings to him

But if I could go back in time, I would do the same thing.

Jan Chetawut

P.S. This story is the true story of Wright's friend. But name and status Occupation in the story Wright created a new one. Just taking some events and telling them in fan fiction form only ❤

It's just one short episode and it's finished. It won't drag on. I want to tell the story of the cuteness of two people so that they can be happy together????

Same as before.

"Why are you standing still? It's Mr. Jackson.

CEO

Our new person, who I told you yesterday, would be coming today.”

The Import Head's voice pierced through my ears, but only faintly. Because of the face of a person standing with his arms crossed and his tongue pressed against his cheek. This arrogant expression caught my eye. The consciousness that was there drifted back to the past. Seven years have passed but I still remember everything well.

"Jan, wait!"

It is familiar to people in the area with the image of two high school students walking together down the alley behind a school in Chonburi Province. A person with a sharp figure who likes to make a sullen face all the time. Except when I'm with someone next to me. A male student with a sweet face and cute round cheeks who always smiles at the people around him, causing the people around him to smile endlessly.

"Aren't you going to play football today?"

The smaller man asked after handing his school bag to his best friend who had volunteered to carry it all along, claiming that I'm afraid my little friend's arm will break with the heavy textbooks in the big school-branded shoulder bag.

"No, I'm tired today. Is there any homework that I forgot?"

Sharp-faced asked, making a crossed expression. The audience could only shake their heads, fed up with the person in front of them who kept falling asleep during class.

"There's math. Solve five questions."

"Wow, that's difficult. Let me go do the housework for you. Can't do it alone."

"Oh, well, I'll take it."

When agreed upon Two pairs of legs in black school pants carried their owner's body side by side until they reached their destination.

"Mr. Jettawut!"

"Ah! Well, what did you say just now?"

I turned to make eye contact with the subordinates in my own meeting who all turned to look at me. I don't know how many minutes I've been sitting blankly in the meeting. But I couldn't get that person's sharp face out of my head.

"I inform you that there will be market penetration in the provinces. Right now, the target group of our new cars will be people of working age. Company employees, faculty, teachers, or even hospital personnel can use the bank's benefits for making car down payments with our company."

"Um, has this item been presented to the management yet?"

"I have informed you that the proposal has already been received well. Now let you choose what province our first target group will go to?"

"Oh, right? I forgot."

My brain right now doesn't understand the work at all. I have to bring my mind back a bit. Right now I don't feel okay.

"Khun Jettawut, are you sick? Your face is very pale.”

"I have a headache. We broke up the meeting first. I'll make another appointment soon. If there is anything urgent, please contact my secretary."

I concluded before standing up and walking out of the meeting room without paying attention to the gossip that was following behind me.

"Jan"

A deep voice came from behind. It made my hand used to support the coffee cup almost exhausted. Luckily, I was able to put the cup down on the coffee maker in time. My heart is not beating regularly. I really want to turn around and pull that person into a hug. I miss you so much. Do you know that? Or does he think that disappearing from my life since that day will make me forget him? Is it too much?

"Is there something wrong with me, Mr. Knight?"

I turned around to see him standing with his hand in his trouser pocket and looking at me. I chose to use formal pronouns to hide everything I was thinking.

"knight? Hey, like this, I.....no. I must call you that. Mr. Jettawut, right?”

His haughty face remained the same. But it's not the same as before. Seven years ago, he had never once acted like this towards me.

“That's how it is. If there's nothing else, I'll excuse myself first."

I finished the conversation before walking over his shoulder to return to my office.

"Still as small as ever, Jan.."

I stopped listening to what he had to say next. But there was only silence. So I chose to walk out. Because I feel like my eyelids are starting to hold back tears and I can't hold them back any longer.

“Stop it, Jack. Don't come up and lie on the bed, tell me to go home."

"Why don't you do too much? It's already dark. By the time I walk back to the house, I won't have to sleep."

Two young men huddled next to a pale yellow bed. A smaller person in clean-colored pajamas was pulling the arm of a slightly taller person in a high school uniform as he climbed onto the bed.

"No, your father will hit you again."

Chetawut said with a look of concern for the other party. No matter when the knight came to spend another night with him, the sharp-faced person would always come to school with a sullen face and a wand on the back of his calf.

"Hit and hit until you're used to it."

The knight said nonchalantly before jumping onto the bed while the little man was still holding his arms up.

"Hey!"

His spirit flew with the force of the knight pulling his small arms down onto the bed together. Chetawut's soft body was lying directly on the chest of a football player from Asawin's school. His face was white at the level of his best friend's chest. who were panting from the strength they had used to hold each other up a moment ago

"Jan, why are you so beautiful?"

The knight looked down at the face of his best friend, who was resting on his chest, before tucking his little friend down onto the bed next to him. Then he himself turned on his side to look clearly at his friend's face.

"Am I going to find out? I was born like this."

Chetawut pulled the blanket to cover his face, separating him from his best friend only by a sheet of paper. Because he wanted to hide the smile that he couldn't hold back.

"If you were a woman, Jan, I guarantee you, I would definitely wrestle you."

"Damn it!"

"yes? What did Mr. Jettawut say?”

I turned to look at the young secretary standing next to me holding a work file. She looked at me with confused eyes.

“Oh, well, I think I want to cough like crazy. Ahem...it hurts my throat hahahaha.”

I answered embarassedly just as the elevator doors opened. So I smiled at her, who raised her hand to bid me farewell, confused as before. I feel like I've been absent-minded and distracted a lot lately. But I don't know how to get that person's crazy story out of my mind.

"Khun Chetawut, how are you getting back?"

And the face of the person who was driving me crazy right now popped into my head again. No, he was right in front of me right now.

"Back to the bus"

"What is it that makes the head of marketing have to ride the bus?"

A frown appeared on his face at my answer.

"My car goes into the garage next week."

"Oh, where are you staying?"

"Why do you ask?"

"If you pass, I'll send you."

"It's okay. I can go back myself."

"Where are you staying?"

"Near On Nut"

"Just passed. I'll send it right away."

"I can go back myself, Mr. Aswin."

“Don't play hard. Bring your bag here."

I looked after the person who snatched my briefcase out of my hand. The back was several times wider than before, walking towards the car.

BMW

The beautiful car that was parked, I walked behind him silently.

"What can an arm that's so small hold?"

He complained as he opened the door and put my bag into the car.

“Give me your bag and I will carry it for you. If your arms are so small, you can hold anything and your arms will break."

The words at that time But so be it. He probably wouldn't remember something so pointless. I let out a long breath before getting into the car. Driver's side

"Jack, if your father catches you doing this, we'll all be hit."

Chetawut pulled the arm of Asawin who was putting soda in the convenience store into the basket.

“Father has been away for two days. Baan Ku Thang Saduak I've wanted to try it for a long time to see if it would be delicious. I secretly brought two glasses. Dad didn't know the alcohol was gone."

The knight answered before carrying the basket with soda and snacks to pay the clerk.

"Jan, you're so beautiful."

A boy in a school uniform sat cross-legged on a dark blue bed in his best friend's bedroom, who was drinking amber water on the floor at the foot of the bed. The male friends who joined the group all asked to go home. Only this knight was left, still sitting with his neck hunched, refusing to lie down alone.

“You can stop talking nonsense. If you're drunk you should sleep. I told you, don't try it. If your father catches you, they'll all die for sure."

Chetawut got up from the bed and walked over to pull his large friend up and lead him to the bed in an awkward manner. The other party agreed to follow along, but in a condition that they would not fall apart.

"Jan"

"Let go of me and I'll go home."

Chetawut shouted to his best friend who was holding onto his waist and refused to let him get off the bed. Chetawut's once neat school shirt was all rumpled because of being held by his best friend's strong arms.

"Can I kiss you?"

The deep voice of his dear friend, his face nestled next to his clear cheek, made Chetawut's little heart skip a beat. With the deep feeling of Chetawut that he was not being honest with his dear friend, combined with the tone of his voice that was pleading because of the power of the other party's liquor. Make Chetawut's body immediately agree to his dear friend's request.

"Uh"

From the beginning, just their lips touching and holding each other began to change, their instincts were released. The lips that opened to meet each other's moist tongues were so clumsy and innocent. When it was the first time for both of them Emotions are out of control The thin white school shirts were removed from the bodies of the two best friends.

One person is fully conscious but allows deep feelings to control the body. The other party's consciousness was taken over by the alcohol. Two bodies embraced, giving each other their first and most intimate kiss. The smell of sweat mixed with alcohol is still engraved in Chetawut's mind to this day, even though more than seven years have passed.

"Jetawut! Jan!”

"Huh?"

I snapped out of my gray memories and turned to look at the face of the person driving next to me. In front of him was a red light, the countdown was at more than ninety. It's normal for traffic in Bangkok, especially at 6:00 p.m. like this. Everyone gets off work and school, and everyone uses the road to take their bodies to their individual destinations.

"May I ask you, do you want to eat something first? Are you hungry?"

The knight turned to look at me while questioning, his sharp eyes scanning my face. He hasn't changed at all.

"I'm not hungry."

I replied before avoiding his gaze and looking out onto the traffic-clogged road.

"Jan"

The palm of my hand that was placed on the front of my leg was pressed down by the knight. He squeezed the back of my hand to make me turn to meet his eyes.

"About that day"

"The light's green."

I looked ahead and the light had turned green and the car in front had already started. I tucked my hand into the pocket of my suit at the same time as the knight removed his hand from the gears and resumed driving. There was no further conversation from us. Until my condo

"Thank you for sending it."

It was my goodbye before walking into my condo without looking back. I don't know how he feels. What was he going to say about that day? I only know that I don't want to listen. I'm afraid that he'll tell me to forget. I'm afraid he will stop me from thinking about it. I probably can't do that. Because seven years ago when we were together it was happiness for me every second.

"Jan, I'm sorry."

The knight followed his best friend who was carrying a school bag in front of him without looking back. It's the second day since that night. He woke up to find his best friend lying in his arms, both naked. And he only vaguely remembered it.

It's not at all clear what he did that night. The little man woke up with all his memories back. But the little man didn't demand anything from him. There was no mention or matter of any kind at all. It was him who was nervous. Part of me is afraid that someone will find out about this. If your parents, friends, or anyone finds out

He probably couldn't stay here any longer. The first words he said to Chetawut after waking up

'Don't tell anyone about this, Jan. I'm sorry.'

'What the fuck are you thinking? You think I'm going to go and announce that I'm sleeping with you, Jack?'

'I don't know, I don't remember'

'What the fuck, what the fuck, there's no need to talk about it.'

That was Chetawut and Asawin's last conversation until today, when he walked behind his best friend to beg the other person for not speaking to him or even sending him his school bag as usual.

"What are you sorry about?"

The roadside pavilion where the two of them usually sat and ate their favorite ice cream together on holidays was used as a place to improve their understanding today.

"The things that I... that I did to you"

"Never mind, I'm not angry about that. Because I agree with you."

“But you don't talk to me. What are you angry at me about?"

“Jack, listen to me, I'm angry at your words. Do you think I'm a tight-lipped person?"

"I'm sorry."

“Jack, since things have gotten to this point. I have something to tell you."

"What?"

"I gave in to you that day, I wasn't drunk, I wasn't angry, but I gave in because I love you."

"I love you too, Jan."

"I don't love you like a friend. Do you understand me?"

Chetawut looked at the face of his dear friend who was standing there avoiding his own eyes with a heavy heart. Only then did he know that the knight didn't think of him that way.

"Jan, I'm sorry, but I'm not ready yet."

“I know, don't worry about me. Do as you please, Jack.”

It was the last sentence that Chetawut said to the friend he loved more than a friend. After that morning, he walked to school alone. Eat alone

“Jetawut, I'll go get a new room list as well. The teacher has already printed it out. Knight has transferred schools. His father had to move suddenly."

There were no goodbyes between them. Everything became just a memory of the two of them. that no one knows Do you want to remember it?

“Until you have swollen eyes. Are you sleeping too much?”

I looked at the face of BamBam, my friend who had been studying at the same university since freshman year.

"I'm crying. Damn it, what am I going to do?"

"What's wrong?"

"He came back and he's still nosy.

CEO

in my company"

I told this friend of mine everything when I was in school. We were in the same faculty and dormitory. It can be said that we have lived together for more than five years and we know every inch of each other's tummies. I know the story of Bambam's knight.

"Does he have any attitude towards you?"

"I don't know. I just know that when I met him, things from the past came back. I'm beginning to not be able to take it."

"I understand. I think you have to fix the root of the problem."

"How?"

“Talk to him. My story with him It has remained unresolved since then. Coming now, we can't end it, Jan."

"What if he doesn't want to talk to me?"

"Isn't there something more painful than before? If he doesn't talk, the person who's hurt is still you as usual." Only this time Everything will end How can you get over your feelings from him without anything remaining?”

I nodded at my best friend's comment and patted my shoulder a few times before walking into his bedroom.

'Knock knock'

"Come in"

“Mr. Knight, I have something to discuss with you. Can I get it?"

The wind blew and my dark brown hair whipped around in the air. The rooftop of the company was a spacious parking lot, with only him and me standing up there.

"What's up?"

The deep, cold voice that came from me was not very familiar with it. The original knight would be a mischievous bastard who shouted loudly in the eyes of others. Then it will be perverse and spoiled for me.

"Jack, where have you been leaving me for seven years?"

“You let me walk to school alone. Carrying a heavy school bag by myself"

"Suddenly you disappeared. disappeared from my life"

I said what I wanted to say without the other person even realizing it. The knight stood and put his hands in his trouser pockets like he always did. His eyes did not show any emotion at all. He stared at me steadily. The wind hitting my face caused my tears to dry as soon as they fell onto my cheeks.

“About that night, I didn't want anything. I was willing to give it to you because I love you. As for that day when I confessed If it makes you unhappy, you should tell me. Let me know what you think. Not disappearing from my life like that."

"Fuck you...fuck you... Heck, you're so mean!"

"Have you finished speaking yet?"

I suppressed a cry before looking at the emotionless face of the person in front of me. Unable to know what he was thinking.

"Huh..I don't have anything else to say//Ugh!!"

Before I could finish my sentence, my lips were pressed against the knight's hot lips. The tip of my chin was forced open, and he inserted his moist tongue. Familiar taste Calling my tears to compete with the wind My two hands hugged his hips with a feeling of longing. My back was enveloped by a warm touch.

I've been yearning for this embrace for seven years. It's a feeling I can't explain.

"Jan, I'm sorry. I was a coward back then. I was afraid. I didn't dare admit it to myself."

His deep voice said after he pulled away from my kiss.

"You're so angry..so you chose to leave me?"

I tried to tell myself not to cry.

“My father has to move to Hong Kong to see work. I and Mom had to go too because Dad wasn't scheduled to come back. But before I went, I went to look for you at your house, but no one was there. I put the letter in front of your house, can't you see it?"

I shook my head in response. That letter must have gotten lost somewhere. So I didn't see it. If I saw it, I wouldn't have to feel hurt like this, right?

“Jan, for seven years. I only miss you. At that time, I still didn't accept myself. But I can't deny myself any longer."

“I have been looking for you for three years after graduation. I went to Chonburi to your old house. I'll find you everywhere I think you'll go."

"Finally, I met you. You are just at the tip of my nose, Jettawut. So I chose to come here. To come back to my dear friend. and my heart"

I looked up at the knight's face. His eyes changed to the same knight. My very kind person His sharp eyes were filled with clear tears.

“Jack, even though it's been seven years, I still love you the same. Everything for me It has never changed.”

The knight nodded. before bending down to kiss my forehead

"But I've changed. I have more courage than before. I dare to admit my feelings. I'm no longer that cowardly person who runs away from problems. But what is still the same is I'm still me. He is Chetawut's knight as usual. But what's more important than before is my heart. I love you more than before."

The knight's confession was like water that soothed a tree that had only stumped for seven years. The words and understanding we gave each other made this stump grow new branches.

"Thank you for coming back."

I held back a cry of joy. Then he buried his face in the knight's chest. His strong arms held my body.

"Jan"

"Huh?"

I raised my head to meet the eyes of a knight who was almost twice as tall as before.

"Marry me."

"Jack!"

I realized that my eyes were now bigger than quail eggs.

"Can Chetawut marry a knight?"

The pleading eyes and the expression on his face drew a smile from me. I nodded in response. Without any more hesitation

"Jetawut will marry Knight."

I answered before hugging the person I had always missed. The embrace I received was so warm even though we were standing on the 75th floor of the sky. The cold wind blowing down didn't take away the warmth I received. The warmth that I received from my heart Love and longing completely destroyed the cowardice of the person in front of me.

Love and longing are also the driving force and push one to live forward to meet the one we are waiting for. Love brings both happiness and suffering. But believe me, Love doesn't hurt anyone. Only humans are the ones who will use love to hurt others or even themselves.....

The past is not long ago, it must pass. We sleep and wake up again. Yesterday is the past The last hour is the past. Last minute is the past The past second is the past. Passed is passed. But ourselves and our feelings If it's still stable No matter how much has passed in the past Everything will remain "as usual".

END

Same as before.