A dark blue rose was placed slowly next to a dead, brown, lifeless flower. Everything changes and changes with time. There is never a day when the world stops turning. There is never a day when the sun does not shine to greet a new day and there is never a day when society is at a standstill...

All living things live according to cycles.

There's waking up, there's falling asleep.

If it weren't for this person

Everything seemed to stand still as the past kept reminding the body clock to turn counter-clockwise every morning when he woke up, even though his slender fingers kept moving the minute hand to move forward as it truly was.

"Today you're still sleeping soundly like every other day. Don't you think you'll wake up and talk or tell each other you love each other like you used to do every day?"

"Min Ho Ya"

"Hm... What do you say, darling?"

Even though the owner of the body responded with a cheerful voice, his eyes and attention were still focused on the game. His thumb still moved back and forth on the screen of his mobile phone. Something fun could be called this moment in the world of ' Song Min Ho' was reduced to a rectangular frame, projecting moving graphics along his fingertips.

"We haven't eaten out together in a long time. We're both free today. Do you want to go eat?”

The owner of the question threw his thin body onto the sofa next to Minho until he collapsed under his weight. Before supporting the round head Sloping down his thick shoulders with a pleading attitude in the style of 'Lee Seung Hoon', but then causing Minho to ignore him and shrug his shoulders as his weight was pressed on his lover to take his head away without asking.

"I don't want it... eating your own food at home is the best."

"Um ... all right."

Even though he responded, it caused a feeling of slight disappointment for the fluffy cheeked prince, causing his body to stand up to its full height before taking a leisurely step forward. Entering the kitchen, the refrigerator door was opened and images of fresh food and various drinks appeared. Since the person he loved wanted to have dinner in his room, which was a luxury condo in the suburbs, he probably couldn't disobey Seunghoon's faith, so he set out to do something. Delicious food, hoping to please Minho a little.

Because lately Minho has been more interested in playing games than pleasing him like before. He understands that because his work is busy and hectic, Seunghoon's work is no different, but his actions are different. Kantua always turns to the game when he has free time from work, while Kantua always approaches and cares for his lover to make their love relationship as bright as the first day when they were together.

But it seemed like it was all in vain when Minho didn't pay attention and kept distancing himself.

"I want to eat spaghetti."

Even though his mouth was shouting like he was ordering at a restaurant, the owner's thick body didn't take his attention off the cell phone screen. Seunghoon could only sigh, but out of love he could only squat down. to search for raw materials

"Minhoya... I don't have all the things. Do you want to go shopping at the supermarket together?"

Seunghoon asked loudly as he stood up to his full height. The cold steam that hit his body stopped when the refrigerator door closed. The two long legs took short steps back and forth along the kitchen area, and with both hands, they opened the cabinets above their heads to check for additional items that needed to be purchased.

"No, please wait at home."

"Alright."

Even though he had surrendered, his heart was full with the hope that he would hear the agreement. Seunghoon dragged his feet out of the kitchen and walked behind another person who was sitting buried in his own body on the sofa. Dark blue in the middle of the room, two long arms with small muscles. Under the elbow length stretch fabric, he wrapped his arms around the big man's neck before burying the tip of his nose into his lover's cheek. Minho himself knew his job well so he quickly turned around and gave a warm touch through his lips. It was a small kiss that pressed against another person's thin lips instead of all the love they had before meeting their small, straight, sapphire-colored eyes. The slender eyes shone with a smile filled with happiness, indicating that having Seunghoon in them. His life is the best in the world.

Minho is happy to be together with Seunghoon even though he doesn't have to show it as much as in the first days. who began to study each other's lives but the other person did not understand but tried to keep the love between them as strong as possible

"Buy some snacks for me, darling."

"I'll go back to being as fat as a black pig again." Even though he grumbled like a bee-eating bear while wearing a winter coat, it still earned quite a laugh from the older man. Seunghoon crouched down to put on sneakers. Favorite couple: "Minho ... I love you."

"I love you too, Seunghoon hyung."

Just a sweet but sincere declaration of love made the lump hidden in the left side of his chest throb rapidly and even swell. A thin hand opened the door of the room happily. Get off the condo's elevator with a warm feeling even after a while. The game will grab Minho's attention quite a bit. But the soft voice of love that always tells me in every moment, whether I am awake or ready to close my eyes to sleep, does not make me angry or hurt.

Seunghoon walked with his coat pocket in his pocket along the tiled ramp to create warmth and prevent the hem of his long shirt from fluttering in the wind, causing trouble for himself and those around him even in the fall. The new crop has arrived. But with temperatures still dropping, thick sweaters or coats are still fashionable on the streets.

Even though the supermarket was on the other side of the street, his eyes caught a glimpse of a flower shop on the opposite side of the road, which also had rare blue roses for sale. Also

"Minho likes these blue roses. If you buy them, you'll be very happy."

Her thin lips lifted into a wide smile until her cheeks became white and rounded on both sides of her cheekbones. Her small eyes almost closed together when positive thoughts nudged her smile to widen until she could see beautiful teeth lined up inside without any delay. He hurriedly changed his walking path, forgetting that the road he was walking down was...

It's not a crossing, there are no traffic lights or pedestrian signals, including cars that move back and forth so fast that they can't brake in time if something cuts in front of them!

Peep!

Bang!

The game still makes addicts forget their days and nights, and they don't know when Minho has been pulled into the virtual world. For many hours, the dark body's mind ignores the real world. It was so true that he had forgotten that another person had been missing for such a long time. If his cell phone had not received a call from his close friend, Minho would not have taken his mind off the fun that was leading him even deeper into it. Cut off from the outside world

His thumb moved to answer the phone with quite a bit of annoyance. As soon as the mobile phone was lifted to the ear, a low bass sound filled the signal wave with no amount of dissatisfaction.

"What's up, Seungyoon?"

[Dammit Minho! Hurry to the hospital immediately!]

"Hey! Calm down...Whoever is wrong, just speak slowly."

[Seung Hoon hyung ... Seung Hoon hyung ...]

Hearing his name in a panicked voice over the phone signal, Minho could hardly sit still on the sofa, standing up from the sofa where he sat until he sunk his butt to grab an oversized coat and wrap it around his thick body, feeling quite a bit of shock in his heart. The blood pumped more and more until every muscle was trembling and dancing together with a slight feeling of fear.

“Tell me, what is wrong with Seunghoon hyung? Where is Seunghoon hyung now?!”

Accidentally yelling at a good friend who was holding the news and couldn't help it, his brain only processed the story that he had overlooked his lover. If he had paid more attention to Seunghoon, if he had given up his nonsense games to go out to the supermarket with the person of his heart, it would have been worse. What I heard probably won't happen.

[Seung Hoon was hit by a car and is now in a large hospital in the middle of Seoul. Me and Jinwoo hyung are ...]

Without waiting for the end of his sentence, Minho's thumb slammed into the thin phone's screen, setting off a heated call. The gems caused tears to overflow and flow down the young man's cheeks. His consciousness began to dissipate, he brushed his thick hands all over the small table, even though he saw that his car keys were lying nearby. But I couldn't grab it and hold it.

His heart squeezed with pain, blaming himself over and over for being a bad person for not paying enough attention to Seunghoon, causing this terrible event to happen.

A small car was speeding along the dark concrete road, passing other cars left and right without any regard for the law. But Minho did his best to keep his composure even though the hot tears wouldn't stop flowing easily.

miss ...

Don't worry about anything...

excuse me ...

Three sentences still swirled around in his thoughts, even though he was still driving, his hand raised to wipe the hot liquid away from his focus. Regret and self-blame still filled his entire body. If something really happened to Seunghoon, Minho would definitely blame himself for the rest of his life.

He must have been the villain who indirectly killed Seung Hoon.

I'm a fool who doesn't know how to take care of my own heart.

The round steering wheel was forced to turn so that all four wheels turned into the hospital parking area. Guy quickly jumped out of the car when the engine was turned off until it was completely still. Beads of sweat mixed with warm tears, even though the air near dusk was extremely cold. Anxiety encourages both legs to run forward. Even though the ICU wasn't far away, he felt like he couldn't even run to it.

"Seunghun, Lee Seunghun!"

He is at the point where he can call himself the most crazy dog ​​in his life when a mindless person like him runs without thinking twice about his life, still shouting out the name of his lover, the male nurse. The officials and even Seungyoon and Jinwoo who were waiting for the treatment results in front of the clean white room all gathered together to surround them, hoping to stop the unconscious person from being quiet.

"You can't go in!"

"Minho, please calm down!"

"release ! I'm going to go find Seunghoon hyung and let him go!"

The owner of the dark body was still a mad dog, trying to shake himself free from his captors. The white door to the room was just a foot away, but Minho couldn't move to push the door inside.

Tears continued to flow from the slender-eyed unit, his sharp and handsome face now distorted, even stained with tear stains, his jagged mouth still open in protest for his release and calling only the name of the person operating in the sterile room. Everything seemed to pass by slowly. When he couldn't reach out and grab Seunghoon and hug him like every time his body felt sick.

"Song Minho! Please calm down. !This is the hospital!"

"That's right. Calm down, Minho. Seunghun will be fine."

The comforting words were like having hot water splashed onto the body first followed by extremely cold ice as Seungyoon kept bringing Minho back to his senses, while Jinwoo, who was Seungyoon's lover, kept patting his back with comforting words. sweet voice

When peace finally returned to the area in front of the ICU room, Minho dropped to his knees on the ice-cold marble floor. It was so cold it touched his heart when his consciousness returned to him, confirming that what had happened was real. Seunghoon still remained. Lying in that white room Until now, there must have been electrical wires or rubber hoses connected all over the body. Just thinking about the pain for the lover would run throughout the body. Now all Minho could do was wait, but there was not a moment where the tears stopped flowing. His right hand was raised to hold his strong left chest, hoping for the warmth to seep in and relieve the pain and coldness in his heart.

Damn it... that moment, it was like his body was ready to disappear into thin air.

"Ha ha ha... Oh, Seunghun hyung."

"Minho, get up and sit in a nice chair."

Both Seungyoon and Jinwoo helped Minho up to sit in a good chair, but Minho's thick body was doubling in weight no matter how much he pulled him up. It was useless when the other party kept crying until his face turned red and his whole body weight was like a large boulder that no matter how he pulled him, Or no matter how you drag it, it won't even move.

"Huh ... Pa ..."

"Minho ..."

The older man's thin hand was placed on Tui's head and he gently rubbed it in a gesture of consolation. Jinwoo felt quite a bit of pity for Minho when he saw the manly tears flowing endlessly. His slender eyes were red and the skin under his eyes was bruised. From being wiped away by a thick hand, causing the hot, annoying water to disappear from your face. Minho would feel quite a bit of pain that he couldn't go in and save his lover's life if the person sleeping in that room was Seungyoon. Jinwoo probably felt equally sad and hurt.

When the person you love is waiting for help but there's nothing they can do...

It's already too much suffering!

"Oh, I ... huh ... Jinwoo hyung."

Who said that men can't be weak? Jinwoo argued with all his might when the answer was right in front of him. Minho considered himself a sensitive man. Even though the outside looks strong Looks dependable or sometimes has a stiff demeanor But if inside the mind is too sensitive and fragile to attack and destroy bad things.

Even just a little bit With just a slight nudge, Minho's emotional wall shattered like a thin sheet of ice.

"Seunghoon must be fine. Trust me."

The white door to the room opened and the tall figure of a doctor wearing a dark green sterile uniform made Minho nearly sit on his feet. He stood up to his full height and unconsciously grabbed the young doctor's arm. It could be said that he accidentally clenched his forearm too violently, causing the victim to be hurt.

“Doctor... Brother Seunghoon, how is Seunghun? doctor !"

"Minho! Calm down!"

“Uh…” Seungyoon was still troubled by his crazy actions. A close friend came to pull Minho away from the young doctor, with Jinwoo helping him again. The doctor stood in order of events for a while. Before continuing to speak, "I'm a doctor...I'm sorry. Mr. Lee Seung Hoon lost a lot of blood and was taken to the hospital too late, causing his death on the spot..."

"That's not true, doctor. Don't tease me like this!"

A thick figure rushed forward and grabbed the collar of the green shirt of the person in front of him. Dizzy, the blood in his body was hot and unable to distinguish the situation in front of him. His face was distorted and angry beyond reason, combined with the punishment of the doctor who did his best to save the life of another young man even though it was too late, but according to medical ethics, saving a life to the best of his ability is something. should practice

Manly tears flowed from his sharp eyes again, this time they overflowed into the sockets. The two hands that had been clenching the collar of the man in the sterile suit were released. Minho didn't have the strength to even stand up, every part of his body was weak. Suddenly my legs are strong. Minho sank to his knees, surrendering to the cruel truth once again.

The truth that...

Minho has lost Seunghoon.

really

The mound was raised and a name plate in Korean and English was planted on the ground. Above the mound, a gentle breeze blew. Since the surrounding scenery was high mountains, the weather in June was much warmer, but Minho didn't feel the heat according to the climate. Because since that day, his heart had become numb and cold, as if the lump of flesh that was still beating had been frozen all the time. He stood up to his full height after squatting. For a long time, some smiles appeared, but they were as unhappy as ever.

“Do you know why I like blue roses?” There was no answer from the person who was sleeping soundly in the hole. The only answer was the sound of the wind and the rustling of leaves. Minho finally let out a chuckle. Comes with a little shake of the head. To all hopelessness, "Blue roses mean that I will wait only for you even though our love is no longer possible."

But I will be stable only with you, Seunghoon hyung.”

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First of all, Siren must tell you that this fic was inspired by the loss that happened to Siren's own family. If anyone has followed the tweet @

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It can be seen that at one point Sirent was delirious about his deceased aunt to the point where he had to stop writing a long fic that he was spinning for fun, thus sparking the creation of this fic.

On the day of the cremation, Sirent tried not to cry because he was afraid that the aunt he had lost would still be worried. But in the end, I couldn't hold it in and the sirent cried until I threw myself.

This fic wants to reflect the value of love. I want everyone to care as much as possible about the love and feelings of those closest to them because one day if they leave us. We will be able to live happily.

Thank you to everyone who has always supported Sirent. Sirent promises that there will be good fics. Always come for everyone to read. Even if only one person reads it, Sirent is ready to write a fic for you to read.

I love you.

From the heart of a siren :)