Because of the "travel"

However, there must be a destination.

So for some people, journaling is the "way".

It holds many memories...

“You exist everywhere in my heart.”

“Why do you have to be so sweet?”

"How do you know it's sweet? I've never tasted it before."

Let's talk

Project

His second story with the theme of beautiful older sister.

Let me tell you, when I started writing, I didn't think it would be this long. I thought for a long time about whether to cut it into two episodes or put it into one volume.

But in the end I chose to post it as a single episode because I wanted it to be immersive..

Actually, this plot was inspired by a fic.

Taeny(SNSD)

One story from 6-7 years ago that I really liked.

So this matter was born. But I don't know if I'll be sleepy before reaching the final episode or not. I want to be patient.

But if you finish reading, I want to thank you from my heart. Because it's a story that uses a lot of mental power, haha.

Now... BRACE YOURSELF and let's go!

[TWICE] Dear Diary...

Nice to love you.

Beautiful older sister fic

Moving into a new house that my family bought for me. In addition to the shorter commute to and from work, miscellaneous expenses are also reduced. I don't have to pay for expensive gas or even breakfast because I don't have to rush to wake up so I still have time to go to the kitchen and cook breakfast and lunch myself. I'm really good at managing myself. Your parents must be proud that your beautiful daughter has grown up with such quality.

But having said that, it secretly has one disadvantage as well.

...lonely...

Since I moved here alone and it's only been a few months since I moved in, I still don't know the neighbors around here. Only some of my friends from work are close, and most of them all have boyfriends. As for close friends, they have a lot of work and are not as free as they used to be when they didn't have their own responsibilities. For these reasons, I really need someone to make my loneliness go away.

It's been a long time since I felt my heart flutter just by seeing someone's face.

Someone who makes my heart not empty...

Bruen

As the desk I was sitting at was next to the window, when there was a sound of a car, I leaned forward out of habit and saw a bright yellow Audi that I had never seen before. A woman steps out of the car on the driver's side. She waves goodbye to the person who dropped her off before opening the door to enter the house next door. It probably wasn't anything strange for me to be interested in, but I just found out that there were people living in that house. Since moving in, I've never seen the lights on to know that there were living things. I'm here.

Or they just moved in, but that's probably not the case.

And why am I going to observe him? I wonder if he's so free.

I returned my attention to the work I had done and didn't pay any attention to anything else until the next morning when I was getting ready for work. I walked out of the house with a bright face ready to take on an adventure in the world, but out of the corner of my eye I stumbled upon The body of someone who had just left the house at the same time.

That woman next door, oops, she turned around.

...so beautiful...

"hello"

“S..Hello.”

I was a little taken aback because I didn't expect the other person to greet me first with a friendly smile from the first time I met her. She looked at my face and made a thoughtful expression.

"Did you just move here? I've only just seen you."

“Oh, I just moved here a couple of months ago. I just saw you too.”

She was silent and didn't answer right away, but there was still a soft smile on her face that was as if all the beauty in the world was gathered into one spot. The world was unfair.

"I just happened to have something to do so I had to go live somewhere else. I just moved back last night."

"oh..."

“What is your name?”

“Kim Dahyun.”

"I'm Minatozakisana."

"Eh? Are you Japanese?"

"yes"

"Wow, you speak Korean so well. At first I thought you were Korean."

I watched in amazement as she raised her hand to cover her mouth and laughed sheepishly before crossing her arms and speaking with a face full of annoying pride.

"Thank you. Everyone compliments me like this. I'm so bored."

Annoy, too.

I laughed along with the person in front of me but then stopped for a bit when a Japanese person suddenly approached and I could smell a sweet, candy-like scent wafting from her body that I inadvertently inhaled until it was full. As soon as our distance shortened, I realized that she was quite a bit taller than me. The other person leaned down just a little so that our eyes were at the same level before saying something with a dazzling smile. Nah

“Nice to meet you...Kim Dahyun.”

It's a simple sentence. That makes my heart flutter so crazy

"Heh, I didn't know you had ever done a photo shoot."

I made a puzzled sound when I scrolled through pictures on Instagram of Sana, who was currently sitting and writing on a desk in my bedroom while I was lying on the bed playing with my phone and saw another person's picture. I went to be a clothing presenter for a no-name brand, which was a long time ago, two years ago, but I couldn't help but feel hurt that the other person hadn't told me about it.

Oh, I forgot to tell you why we're so close that we can come play in the house like this. The reason is just that we live next door to each other and see each other every morning because she likes to go for a walk at the nearby park at the same time. At the same time I went out to work so we talked a lot. She was three years older than me and had a job as a freelance writer. One of her novels sold so well that it became a bestseller, but she once gave it to me to read and didn't like it that much. Maybe it's because it's not my style.

But having said that, they became close quickly as well. It's only been a little over a month.

“I thought it wasn't important. The brand is just a skull and a shell. Just read the name. Do you know?” Brother Sana replied while her eyes were still focused on what she was doing.

“No, but you should tell me too. I want to know everything about you.”

The older man froze for a moment then turned his chin to look at me with a smile on his lips.

"Do I have to tell you everything? Do I have to tell you how many times I went to the bathroom today?"

“Please tell me.”

“Poop once in the morning and pee three times in the afternoon.”

"I'm being sarcastic."

The Japanese laughed and then returned to writing something in their notebook without paying any attention to me. I stared at the other person's face like that, as if I was mesmerized by how beautiful this person was. What did you do to have a daughter with such a perfect face? If I were to be my boyfriend, I would lock him up in a room and not let him go out and meet anyone again. I'm jealous.

“What are you looking at?”

"Uh...look at what you're writing." I was taken aback when Sana suddenly turned around. before getting out of bed to fix his problem But the Japanese quickly closed the notebook and hugged it jealously.

“Don't watch.”

“Why are you writing a novel?”

"nothing"

"Then why can't you tell me what you're writing?"

"Write a diary. I don't want you to feel embarrassed."

“Wow, are there still people who write diaries these days?” I raised my eyebrows a little in surprise.

"There's a lot of them. What's this guy?"

“Then why is it such a secret? Write your feelings to me. Confessing your love like this?” I used my index finger to teasingly tap the older man's shoulder. Sana smiled meaningfully and grabbed my hand as if to make me stop poking.

“And if so, what will you say?”

"look for?..."

"If you write to tell her you really love her...what will you say?"

“That's bad...”

I, who didn't know how to answer, raised my hand and scratched the back of my neck timidly, while Sana's sister closed her smile and had a sad look on her face.

“Is that bad?”

“No, it doesn't mean that badly. I mean...how can that be? Do you like women?”

"nothing"

“Did you see that?”

“I like you.”

“Just kidding, I don't see the need to make such an apologetic face... Let's go downstairs, I'm hungry and I ate a little breakfast today.”

Sana hyung put the diary in a drawer and locked it carefully before walking out of the room, leaving me standing there holding my heart alone. It was pounding so hard it was like I wanted to dance outside. I admit that I have feelings for her so far that I secretly regret that it was just a joke. But I will think to myself that beneath the words of joking there is a true story hidden. I can feel it.

But right now it's still not clear.

Today Sana and I made an appointment to go for a walk in the park, the same place that he likes to walk in the morning like I told you before. But I haven't been there once because I don't have time and I'm lazy, but also because I want to know why Sana-unnie likes to come here so much, so I want to take a walk to see if I can understand her feelings. And since we weren't very far away, we decided to walk.

We walked slowly together, chatting casually. And these little moments make me feel refreshed.

...It's not because of the atmosphere 'around' that makes me feel good...

...but it's because of the people 'next to me'...

Look at that smile that's always plastered on him. That's why he's such a nice person to look at.

“Dahyun”

“Dahyunna,” I blinked a few times, realizing when Sana hyung called out to me again, “I can look at your face. What's wrong?"

“I was thinking, why are you so beautiful?”

“Damn...would you know?” Brother Sana's face turned slightly pink and she tucked her hair behind her ear before looking ahead in embarrassment.

"Of course, why are you embarrassed? Normally, I'm sure I'll die."

“Well, you complimented it with a look that was too serious.”

"Then how should I admire it? It's so beautiful, sis. Is it like this?"

Japanese people breathe out through their noses as if angry but also laughing. Then he turned and spoke without making a sound, but could read his lips to say 'disturbing', which I didn't know why being scolded like this was indescribably edifying.

And then we arrived at our destination. There weren't as many people as we expected, probably because we came in the evening when the sun was almost completely setting. There are quite a lot of trees here and it's spacious enough for people to come jogging. exercise There is a large pond in the middle and there are benches in spots for you to sit and enjoy the view. Having said that, if you had walked in the morning the weather would have been twice as good. No wonder why Sana likes to come here so much.

“Then why do you suddenly want to come? Just because you like coming?”

“Um, I just want to know what's good about it. That's why I get up early and walk with a bright face and a cheerful mind every day."

“Seriously.”

“Ah?”

"I have the energy to wake up early every day because I get to leave just in time to meet someone..."

"who"

I felt angry when she talked about someone who seemed important enough to wake up early to see even though I work a job that doesn't require me to be in the office all the time and can wake up late.

Who!

“Don't you know?”

"How will I know if you don't tell me?"

“You should know very well.”

"Never mind, I don't want to know."

“At first, I didn't intend to walk and exercise every day, but when I met that person…” Sana hyung was still chattering as if he hadn't heard what I was saying. I looked away as if I didn't want to listen, but I listened intently because I wanted to know whose story it was and how wonderful it was. “Then I knew he had to come to work every morning.

So I want to wake up early and see his face every day."

"But I didn't want it to be known that it was my intention, so I had to actually go out and walk. It became a daily routine."

“Is he good looking?”

"It's white, small, has an aura and looks kind."

“Is your name also Kim Dahyun?”

“Hehe”

Sana laughed so cutely, making me laugh along with me in an embarrassed way. My face felt hot, as if my face was stuck on a shabu grill. The fact that I didn't deny it meant that someone was me.

So crazy

“Oh..what is this?”

"Why...are you shy?"

“It's just that my throat is so dry. Is there a water shop around here?”

“There is one over there.”

The other person looked annoyed at me when I changed the subject before nodding in front of her. She grabbed my hand and led me away. I looked down at my own hands intertwined with hers and my heart started to pound uncontrollably. I'm not here.

I really like this kind of heartwarming feeling. It's like going back to the days when I was in middle school with Puppy in love with a high school senior. It felt rejuvenating but also dangerous at the same time.

At that time, he was about to graduate and go to university, meeting many new people. It was not sustainable if I look back now, but I couldn't stop my heart from that time anyway. This time too, I don't know what it is that we are. It seems clear that we have feelings for each other, but deep down I'm still not sure.

Or maybe I should just say it.

I don't dare yet.

I don't know, but when I talk about it, I feel so embarrassed that I can't tell. Let's just say that the way we are right now is pretty good, even though there's no status that determines who we are.

And today is another day that I woke up refreshed as usual to meet someone who was probably waiting to see me as well.

But today is different. Because Sister Sana wasn't standing in front of the house waiting for me like usual.

“Or did you wake up late?”

I said softly to myself that I was surprised because for someone who wakes up early every day, it's unlikely that they would suddenly wake up late. I tried calling Sana's phone, but the other person didn't answer. So I called 3 more times and sent a message and pressed the bell but there was no response.

Wherever he went last night, he stayed at home and he still called to say goodnight.

I looked at the clock, which indicated that I would be late if I kept waiting like this, so I decided not to wait. I was secretly worried about where the other person was, but on the other hand, I thought it might be a problem. It was important that we left early in the morning without prior notice.

But when I think about it, I feel a little hurt. Why don't you tell me where you're going? Yes, I probably don't matter that much.

Today all day I waited for a phone call from P'Sana until it didn't work, but until then the other person didn't call back. It's very unusual. She won't check her phone at all or what? But when I got home and was nervous about getting there, it was at the same moment that a bright yellow Audi pulled up in front of Sana's house. I remembered this car clearly.

It's the same car that delivered P'Sana the first night we met. No, the night I met you alone.

I stood peeking in the house and saw the person who drove me walk around to see Sana who had just stepped out of the car and held out his arm for me to shake. They also help carry a shoulder bag and a white bag.

Who is this? Why do they seem so close to Sana? Why do they have to enter the house arm in arm? Why do I need to help carry things?

And most importantly...why do we have to stand around hugging each other like that?

“Have you come back yet, Sana?”

I couldn't stand it and had to interrupt the two people. Both Sana and that person were a bit shocked and turned to look at me.

“Dahyunna, are you waiting for me?”

"Um...where have you been? I can't tell you." I squinted at the stranger for a bit as if asking who she was, and Sana-sama could tell right away and introduced the new person before answering. My question

"This is Myoi Mina, my best friend."

“Hello,” I bowed like a well-mannered person, even though in my heart I was angry at this woman as if she had burned my house down in a past life.

“Hello, this must be Kim Dahyun, right? I see Sana talking about it often.”

I secretly smiled, feeling precious, then glanced towards Sana, who was making an innocent expression.

“Sana is talking about me too?”

"Um, I said you were a cute 'little sister'."

I almost immediately turned around to look at the person who had spoken because the other person had placed too much weight on the word sister in an unnatural manner, as if on purpose. I secretly saw that Sana-san jabbed Mina gently and shook her head in protest. I don't really understand it, but looking into each other's eyes for a long time like they're communicating like that makes me irritated.

“So, where did you go?”

“Uh, go…”

“Went to the hospital and her sister Sana had stomach disease. This morning I had a really bad stomach ache so I called and told him to take me to the hospital.”

It was Mina who responded instead. I'll just call her Mina because I could sense the annoyance hidden beneath that beautiful, expensive-looking face. I looked towards Sana again, who had a strangely relieved expression on her face that I didn't say it myself, before walking closer to her and pulling her hand into hers with concern and a little bit of hurt.

"Then why don't you call me? My house is just this close. I don't see any need to inconvenience anyone else."

“A close friend is not a distant person,” Mina quickly corrected.

I'm starting to really dislike this girl.

“At that time, I couldn't think of anything.”

So you don't miss me at all?...I didn't say it because it would make you look like an idiot, but I couldn't help but think about it anyway.

"Then why is this possible? I saw you eat a lot of things."

“Well...sometimes while writing novels for fun, I forget to eat. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. Just wait for Brother Ge.”

“Just wait, it's not that much. But I'm more worried about where the accident happened. Unable to contact you.” Sana looked at my eyes gratefully and seemed to have a little tear in her eyes. I looked back as well before speaking again, “Next, don't disappear like this again.”

"um..."

It's only been one day that I haven't seen you and I'm still this anxious. If you were gone for longer, how would I be able to survive? Damn, did I fall so head over heels in love with Sana? You're responsible for me being my life partner forever.

“Hadchai!...Oops, I'm so sorry. I suddenly smell a bad smell.” Mina sneezed loudly before apologizing in a rude manner, so when she saw it she knew she had intentionally interrupted. Should I just slap it?

“Minaya, thank you for coming. And thank you for…” Brother Sana stopped talking and looked at me for a moment.

“It's okay, just this. Don't forget that we're very close friends.” Mina turned to annoy me again and laughed, pleased to see me looking at the hammer before turning back to making a serious face. “After Just take good care of yourself, understand?...and don't be stressed.”

I don't know how close the two of you are and if there's something in the bamboo and grass, but those eyes that I gave to Sana were so full of concern that I could feel it myself.

“I know now that I should go back and go.”

"Oh, I want to be with my 'little sister'. It's going to be bad, right?"

I repeat, what is this?

Before I couldn't stand it anymore and slammed my hand against the face of a beautiful person senselessly, Brother Sana took my hand and led me into the house. When we were alone, it was like an invisible cloud covered the two of us. I feel uncomfortable. I have a lot of things I want to say. She seemed to have something on her mind as well, but we still chose to keep quiet like that.

“Have you eaten yet?”

"Have you eaten with Mina yet?"

"not yet"

“Aren't you hungry?”

“At first I couldn't eat anything because I was worried about you, but now I'm starting to feel hungry.”

"Do you want to eat ramen? I'll boil it for you."

"okay"

Sana prepared to get up and go into the kitchen, but I held her hand and made her sit next to each other again.

“Is something wrong?”

“That is...”

I suddenly wanted to talk about our relationship. Maybe it was because I was jealous of seeing how close she was to Mina. Maybe it was because I couldn't stand our ambiguity any longer. I want to have the right to be more involved in her life. I want to take good care of her so that I don't have to fall ill and call other people to help again. I want to be the first person that Sana hyung will miss.

And I know I have that right, I just need to make it clear.

“I like you.”

Sister Sana was stunned before secretly smiling.

“You probably already know, right?”

"Just enough to know..."

My heart was pounding hard but I tried to control myself.

“So what do you think?”

“You probably know that too.”

“That means...”

“I like you too.”

The answer made me smile so wide that my cheeks ached. Everything finally became clear.

“So we're lovers.”

"um..."

Sana shyly tucks her hair behind her ear. Now I feel my heart swell until I float out into the world. When I see Sana's pink cheeks, I feel double the happiness no matter what I do. They all look cute in my eyes.

"Then why did you suddenly tell me? Is it because you're jealous?"

"There's a part. So you and Mina really don't have anything in the bamboo, right?"

“There must be none. Mina and I have been close friends since childhood and he teases her because he knows we like each other.”

"No wonder you never stop irritating me. So if you and I drowned, who would you choose to help first?"

"Hey, don't ask me anything that would make me uncomfortable, okay?"

“Answer quickly.”

“I chose you anyway.”

“Ngh.”

I raised my hand to cover my face in embarrassment, as if if I did this the other person wouldn't be able to see my overly happy expression.

And since that day, the two of us changed our status from friends next door to acquaintances from the beginning where we were considerate of each other and didn't stay at the other person's house for too long. But when we were together, some nights we would sleep together at someone's house and wake up together in the morning.

Seeing Sana's face as the first person every day makes me feel like I don't need anything else in this life. As long as we stay together like this for a long time, I'm secretly worried that Sana will get bored. Let's face each other first. Well, we see each other every day and every night.

Never mind before, now just knowing that we're not bored with each other is enough.

I just came back from work and walked into Sana's house as if it were my own house. I didn't see that she was downstairs so I went upstairs to look and heard the sound of water from the shower.

"Uncle Sana, I'm back. I bought pickled crab from your favorite restaurant. Let's eat together."

"Really? I really want to eat. Please wait a moment."

Her excited voice made me laugh fondly and I opened the door to the bedroom to put my laptop bag in, but then my eyes stumbled upon a notebook that I recognized as a diary. Sana is very possessive and never lets me read it.

An evil thought flashed in my head and I decided to open it recklessly, even though I knew that if I got caught I would definitely get angry. But if I just read it for a moment, Sana-ssi wouldn't know. No one will know about this at all. Hehe.

I opened the page to the most recent page and looked at yesterday's date. I realized that she hadn't written down today's events. The first thing that struck me was the neat handwriting and the words,

DearDiary…

that she uses at the beginning of sentences every day The days she wrote were not very long, as if she intended to record only important moments. The last sentence caught my eye because the opening word had my name on it.

'Dahyun-ah, I love you...I love you so much.

So much so that I don't want to leave anywhere...'

I felt my heart drop when I finished reading it, even though it was a love sentence.

"I told you not to read it!"

Sister Sana, who didn't know when she came into the room, pulled out the notebook in my hand and looked at me with bright eyes.

"P..P'Sana"

“Is there anything you can do to fix this?”

“I'm...I'm sorry.”

“Your words have no meaning, right? That's why you won't listen!”

"Hey, calm down. Why are you so angry?" I reached out to grab Sana's arm, but she shook it away nonchalantly.

"This is a private matter. We are lovers. We don't need to know everything or not...don't interfere too much with it."

I was silent because it seemed like the other person was so angry that he was breathing heavily and tears were visible. I decided to walk out of the room and come back to the house without explaining anything. This time I was really wrong. That's what I accept, but I still don't understand why I have to be so angry. Let it cool down before talking.

But I'm so offended that I used the word intrusive? It's too strong. Since we've been together for two months, I've never done anything that made her uncomfortable before. I think I know the other person well, what do I like or not? If you don't like something, then I won't do it, which means we never argue to the point of using harsh words, there's just normal disagreements.

This time it was my mistake to secretly read her personal things. But do you really have to be that angry?

Ding

No sooner had the message notification sounded than I picked it up and opened it and had to smile a little.

Sana:

Let's come back to eat pickled crab.

What is this? How can you come and reconcile like this even though I was truly at fault?

I miss you too... We haven't seen each other for 20 minutes.

I immediately went back to Sana's house and when I got there I saw her pouring out food and waiting for me. I went straight to hug her wanting to apologize again. It seemed like the Japanese people had really gotten over their anger at me so they hugged her back. too

"I'm sorry I secretly read your stuff."

"Um...don't do it again later."

“I don't do it anymore, I'm afraid.”

“What are you afraid of?”

"You have to see your own face when you're as angry as the Wat Chaeng giant."

“Where is Wat Chaeng in Korea?”

“Never mind.”

Sana buried her face in the crook of my neck and hugged me tighter until it felt like we were joining together. He said that hugging can create positive energy and make us feel better. There's no need to hug a person. I will hug the dog and cat. Or anything that involves hugging can be done as well. Even hugging yourself is another option.

But I have Sana all over me. My personal power

“I love you.”

“Huh?”

I was a little embarrassed because I was suddenly being told I love you near my ear.

“Do you love me?”

"I love you...what are you asking? We're lovers. If I don't love you, who will I love?"

“It feels so good.”

"the same..."

I gently rubbed her back affectionately and tightened my already tight embrace even more.

"I'm sorry I raised my voice to startle you."

“I'm beginning to wonder what secrets there are.”

"When the time comes, I'll let you read it yourself...Let's eat."

Sana pulled away before walking to sit at a nearby dining table and pretending to be excited about eating pickled crab, my favorite food. She smiled slightly and walked to sit on the opposite side of her.

It's time...what time?

Tonight Sana hyung came to sleep at my house. We always switch beds like this. My house is like your house, your house is like my house.

And we are each other's homes.

Home is a place where you have peace of mind. It may not mean a building but a person. Now the two of us were in the bedroom after eating and taking a shower, and were sitting leaning on the head of the bed watching TV. Today there didn't seem to be any interesting programs, so I was the first to bring up the issue.

“Are your novels selling well?”

I asked about his new novel, which was just published and went on sale a week ago.

“It's not as good as the best-selling stories, but it continues to sell.”

"Why don't you try saying one sentence from the novel that you think is the best?"

Sana thought for a moment before speaking with a serious face.

“When everything comes to an end...there is always a beginning.”

"Wow, it's sharper than a samurai sword."

Sana shoved my head in annoyance and embarrassment at being teased so seriously. I didn't really understand what it meant, but I wanted to see her reaction, which always cheers me up.

"You took her to be the main character in the story too. You haven't told me yet, right?"

"It's true. It's an honor and a privilege to exist in the pages of a famous writer's novel."

“You exist everywhere in my heart.”

“Why do you have to be so sweet?”

"How do you know it's sweet? I've never tasted it before."

"I don't know, but I want to know too."

“Uh…”

Sana raised her index finger to my mouth to stop me from speaking before leaning forward and pressing my lips to the same position. My eyes widened in shock because I hadn't expected something like this to happen before. My heart was pounding violently and I just sat there like a puppet until Sana-hyung slowly pulled away and looked at me with a smile on my face.

“Is it sweet?”

“I..I don't know.”

“Then try again.”

This time I was caught off guard so I had a reaction. We began to use our tongues to find each other's sweetness. This time the kiss was wet but it was such a good feeling that I didn't want to pull away if I didn't. It was as though we still needed air to breathe. We slowly separated from each other and slowly opened our eyes to meet each other. There was a shyness expressed through those facial expressions and gestures, which I myself was no different at all.

“So, is it sweet?”

“Very sweet...”

"Come give me a hug. I'm embarrassed and don't want to see your face."

"I don't want to see your face anymore either."

We slid down onto the bed and hugged each other while Sana hyung buried her face in my chest.

“My heart is beating so fast.”

“Because I just ate dessert.”

“Hehe”

“Oh, what should I do? I'm so happy...I don't want time to pass by.”

“I want to be with you forever.”

“Are you asleep?”

"No...I just want to listen to your heartbeat quietly."

I can't stop myself from smiling. You make me wonder if I can love anyone more than I love you in this life. That's not something to think about either because I don't plan on going. I love no one else but you.

“Da Hyun Na, what number do you like the most?”

“Huh? Um...number 9 maybe?"

"Why"

“Because the number 9 is the most valuable number, no matter which number you put it at the end of, what about you?” I asked back.

"I like the number 1 because number 1 is full of our stories."

“Hmm, what does that mean?...Oh, really.” I nodded and smiled when I remembered.

We dated on October 1st...

Then we were silent again for a long time until I thought the other person was asleep, but I had to furrow my brows in confusion when Sana said something in the silence.

“I'm sorry, Dahyunna.”

“Huh? Why are you apologizing?”

Sister Sana shook her head rapidly and tightened her hug.

“Let's just say...I'm not going anywhere. I will be with you forever.”

“I made a promise.”

"Um...let's sleep."

Then I realized that the word 'forever'...wasn't real.

When I woke up this morning and saw the empty space next to me, it made me feel strangely shaken. Normally, we always wake up at the same time. So I went downstairs thinking she might be there but there was no one. So I went to find another person at the house and was even more surprised that the door to the house was locked, the lights inside were closed, showing that no one was home...

I started to feel worried so I tried calling her phone but no one answered. About 20 calls went unanswered which made me restless.

She disappeared like this again...

I was nervous, but another part of me was optimistic that it might be like last time. We'll probably meet in the evening. Mina will take her home and tell her that she went to the hospital because Sana has a stomach problem.

It is a very ridiculous idea. How can the same event happen again? Besides, if her symptoms really relapse, I should be the first to know.

This person who is always beside you...

11:11 p.m.

Now that the day is about to end, tears well up in my head as images of various accidents pop up in my head. I try not to be so pessimistic, but since there's no sign of Sana, it can't be helped. Wow!

“Where are you going?...”

1 week has passed...

I still look at the house next door every day and yes...Sana unni still hasn't come back.

But finally the number I had been waiting for got back to me.

“Uncle Sana!” I answered the phone with a slightly trembling hand like someone who was helpless with joy.

“Where are you? Why don't you tell me where you've gone?"

[It's me...Myoui Mina]

“H..hu?”

[Sana is with you right now, but don't ask anything and just do as I say...your Sana oppa asked]

At first I had many questions but I followed what the other person said after hearing that Sana's name was Sana. She told me to enter the house using a spare key hidden under a potted plant in front of the house. I was a little surprised that Sana had kept the key here all along but didn't really care. Then she let me into the bedroom and opened the drawer on the desk.

and took out the diary that sister Sana cherished...

[Do you see the folded page? Sana wanted her to read every folded page. Before meeting here...]

“Where is Sana?”

Mina was silent for a while before answering in a trembling voice, as if holding back sobs.

[At the hospital...]

As soon as I hung up the phone, I sat down and opened the folded page with a hand that began to tremble uncontrollably. I was still amazed at the neatness of my hand, even though I had seen it once before, and The gist of this page is like the first day I met you...

30June

DearDiary…

Today the doctor said that I have recovered but I still need to come in for another checkup to check my symptoms. Well, we have to trust the doctor first. When he says he has recovered, he is cured! It's so good to be able to come home again...at first I thought someone had already given it away, hehe.

home sweet home

Mr. Diary is happy to be back home too, right?

congrats!

1 July

DearDiary…

Today I didn't cough much. It seems like it's really gone. But anyway, I've made up my mind to exercise three days a week. It should be good so that it doesn't happen again. But above all else, it makes me feel good today...

New neighbor...

It's as white as a light bulb. Very cute too Her name is Kim Dahyun. Just the name is cute. What should I do? And why does my heart beat so fast when I write it? I don't know. Oh no, Sana-chan is falling in love. It's crazy that we only met one day. Don't be so gullible, writer!

But if we could wake up and meet each other every day, it would be good...don't you think so, Mr. Diary?

"Huh, that's crazy..." I laughed fondly. But I don't know why I feel so sad

21 August

DearDiary…

Today I secretly tried to tell her that I like her too. But I don't know why he likes to act evasively, even though he's made up his mind for a long time before actually daring to speak. But it's okay, forgive me. Because she's cute...Ah, I'm so confused about what that means, I just understood it myself today.

My Dahyunnie I'm waiting for her to tell me she likes me.

11 September

DearDiary…

Today I came to write a little late. Here's your diary. Are you bored of me telling you stories about Dahyun every day? What can you do? Because Dahyun is my only happiness right now...but today will be excepted for one day, right? Because I have bad news to tell.

Take care of yourself, don't panic...

I still haven't recovered and my symptoms are starting to recur again... The doctor said I don't know what's causing it but I only have 3 months to live or maybe less. It cannot be cured and no one has ever survived this disease...

I told you not to panic, it's not that bad!

What's worse is how do I tell Dahyun? I really can't tell her no matter what...

1 October

DearDiary…

There are a lot of stories happening today. Whichever comes first, let's say I don't feel well this morning. I couldn't breathe and was coughing up blood so I called Mina. Before I knew it, I was already in the hospital. Mina said that when she arrived she saw me passed out in the house. Ah, I'm really bad at making my friends worry. What's worse is that I have to take a lot of medicine and I really hate it.

The doctor told me to stay at the hospital first but I was afraid Dahyun would be worried so I decided to come back. She was actually waiting for me. Plus, I've called many times. And the most important thing...

She asked me to date her, yay.

I'm so happy... Really very happy

11November

DearDiary…

Today we fought too. Who used her to secretly read your diary? I was shocked and afraid that the secret would be revealed. But luckily I came to see before she read anything more and because of Mina's words I chose not to. I've been angry at her for too long.

“Make the most of the time you have left and don't do anything you'll regret later.”

Crazy friend, that's my quote. Bringing a reminder to each other like this is really infuriating, but that's it. I must make the most of it.

Counting down just one more month. Or maybe less than that...but that's okay!

Sana-chan, fighting!

“Huh...”

"I like the number 1 because number 1 is full of our stories."

...The reason why she likes the number 1 is because the number 1 is everywhere on our important days...

I couldn't hold back my tears when I finished reading and was feeling powerless. She stopped writing on the 20th, which was the day before she disappeared. I quickly ran out of the house and took a taxi to the hospital that Mina had told me about.

I have never hated a hospital as much as I do today, a white place that is supposed to be a comforting color. But in reality, white is just there to hide the sadness of many lives that will have to be left here.

Mina was sitting at the front of the room waiting for me. Her expression was not much different from mine. Tear stains on her face and swollen eyes made a sobbing lump start to form again in the middle of her chest. The pretty face told me. I walked into a room that in that split second I didn't want to open at all. I was afraid...I was afraid I wouldn't be able to accept it.

But in the end, I had to face reality, even though it hurt.

"Hey, Miss Sana..."

I was so weak at the knees that I almost collapsed and sat on the floor. The sight made my heart ache as if a million knives were being thrust straight into my chest all at once. Senior Sana's pale face was covered by a ventilator and IV lines. The body that seemed noticeably thinner than before left me speechless.

I grabbed a hand that didn't have the strength to even squeeze it back. The only thing that showed that she knew was the same beautiful pair of eyes that were smiling at me like the first day we met.

“Why did you promise to be together forever? Selfish people..."

Why did I have to find out on the day you didn't even have the strength to speak? If only I had found out sooner...that's what I would have done except cry like I am now.

I gently used my fingers to wipe away Sana's tears when I saw that she was starting to cry. Before she opened her eyes, she looked at something on the nearby table. It was a plain white piece of paper with neat handwritten notes on it.

“Do you want me to read it?”

Sana nodded. So I started reading even though the curtain of tears was blurring some of the text.

DearDahyuni…

To my Dahyunnie...

If she's holding this piece of paper, she's probably finished reading my idol. You guessed correctly. I confessed my love to you a lot. Starting from the time we met all the way to the day we started dating...I want to say that I'm so glad that for a period of time we got to know love together.

I'm sorry I had to let you meet you in this situation. It's not worth looking at, right? It's all beautiful. She probably doesn't like me anymore. Hehe...sorry I have to say this now when it might be too late.

I don't know until when I'll have the strength, but I'm looking forward to day 1. It's always been ours. Every day that has the number 1 It is always a memorable day in my life.

It was the day we first met.

The day we first met

And the first kiss...

I love you. It's too bad that I may not have the strength to say these words to you again. But this and all...please don't be sad. And please don't cry.

When everything comes to an end...there is always a beginning.

Finally, nice to meet you...Kim Dahyun.

and

Nice to love you.

"Huh... I love you and I'm happy to love you too. Do you hear that..."

I spoke in a trembling voice that was almost incomprehensible and hugged her tightly on the chest before feeling another person's hand gently touching her back even though I hardly had the strength...not even the strength to breathe.

My sobs gradually became louder.

As the sound of her heart gradually fades away...

1 year later

I used to believe that time heals everything, which is true to some extent. I didn't cry as loudly as I did in the beginning when Sana-unnie passed away. It was terrible then.

Time made me 'get over' it.

But not all can be 'crossed over'.

I didn't feel as happy about things as I used to. Work that I used to enjoy became boring. From places I used to like to go, I ended up not liking them and staying stuck in my room. I sold my house and moved to a condo in the center of the city, changing jobs because I thought that something new would help me forget things faster. It's like a new reset like she said.

When everything comes to an end...there is always a beginning.

But she didn't say where it started...

Today I came back to my room later than usual because I just visited Sana's grave on our anniversary. It's really strange that on our important day there is always the number 1 displayed everywhere on the day she left. It was just the 1st of December. Talking about the other person, he was secretly mean and couldn't stay until the day we had a candlelight dinner and countdown together on New Year's Day first.

I really miss you. What am I going to do up there? Will we look down and celebrate our anniversary?

“Ah! excuse me"

Someone bumped into me and I stumbled the other way, but I grabbed my hand in time before she fell and as soon as our eyes met, my heart dropped into my eyes.

“Uncle Sana…”

"yes?"

Similar...very similar!

But it's not…

“P..no.”

“Eh, if I remember correctly, you were in the next room, right? The other day I secretly saw you. Oh, but I'm not a stalker, I just happened to see you.”

“What room are you in?”

“111.”

I live in 109...actually next door. We introduced ourselves before she asked to leave, but before leaving, she called me before saying something.

Something that immediately made me smile and was the first smile in over a year that I really felt.

“Nice to meet you...Kim Dahyun.”

I've found it, Sana...

This must be the 'starting point'.

How are you? I hope he doesn't end too cruelly.

Actually, I've been wanting to try decorating something dramatic like this for a long time.

As I said at the beginning, the story was inspired by a fic from a time when the story had not yet been born.

and with passion So I wanted to try telling the story in my own way, haha.

I don't know how well I'll be able to convey it. Anyway, please leave a comment and let me know.

Let's think about whether or not Dahyun will continue his relationship with the mystery girl after this... ;)

Finally... pleased to meet you