Sometimes saying I love you You may risk losing the relationship you once had.

But it's still better. We have to keep the feelings that are overwhelming. without doing anything

JaeMin x RenJun

is

sf

that I intended to compose when listening to the song My Dear Friend

The parkinson

It gave me inspiration and made me want to make this couple.

2018   xxx High  School 

Is it true that people's feelings can always change? I never thought about it. Until I came to study here. It's a high school where they board and sleep there. When I first decided to join here, his parents didn't seem to approve. But when I told the reason that I wanted to try living on my own, They gave in and relented.

It's probably like a normal school here. You just eat and sleep, and you can go home during the semester break. As for the room I was in, I had to share it with another friend. A friend who at first I viewed as a friend

But if you ask me whether I still look at him the same way now....

Probably answer...

“Jaemin, wait,” came a cheerful voice from behind me. This caused me to turn around and look for the source of the sound. And I had to smile widely when the person who called me...

"Injun...."

“Let's go back to the room. I'm going to miss the bed." After saying that, Injun walked up to me and took my hand and together we ran to the dormitory.

The distance from the school to the dormitory is not very far. And because we ran together Make it to the room faster than usual.

"Heh..heh. You know, I shouldn't be running at all. I'm so tired." Injun opened the door and immediately went to sleep on his favorite sofa in the room.

"Drink water first, so you'll be relieved." I walked over and grabbed a bottle of water from the refrigerator and handed it to the person lying on the sofa.

“Our Jaemin is really good, thank you.” The person who was sleeping on the sofa stood up and took the water bottle from my hand. and motioned for me to have a seat next to him.

"Jaemin is tired too. Have a drink."

Injun, who had not yet finished drinking the bottle of water, handed it to me sitting next to him. Made me pick it up and take it from him to drink. It is a habit for both of us to eat or use things together. Because the two of us are roommates.

Injun and I are in the same class. But just being in different rooms and being roommates because the school wants students to make friends in different rooms. Therefore, students are arranged to live in mixed housing with classmates in different rooms. The two of us have been friends ever since.

Until now, I have a changed feeling about Injun. Changed from before...

"Jaemin, Jaemin!"

"What? Why are you so close?"

“We called several times already. This evening, let's boil ramen and eat it."

Injun's thin smile made me especially fond of it. Which face looks like a pervert again? I don't know when I thought it was cute.

If these feelings are called love

I can tell you right now...I secretly love my friend.

"Okay, if you want to eat, I'll make it."

And I made ramen for another person to eat. We ate it very deliciously. The people who asked me to make it also seemed very happy to eat it.

'Rrrr..'  

Injun's phone suddenly rang. Causing him to pick it up and look at it and smile a little. Then he got up and walked over to sit on the bed to answer the ringing phone.

I don't know who the caller is. But every time if it is another person's parents He didn't get up and run off to find a quiet place to talk like that. It made me wonder who he was talking to.

The other person's expression looked like he had a small smile and a big smile on the other end of the phone. It made me start thinking a lot.

"Injun, are you going to eat?" I asked while he was still talking on the phone.

"We're full. Jaemin, please eat."

Every time I cook The little ones will eat it all. But today it wasn't like that just because of who called.

Ordinary people might think that this is a symptom of being jealous of friends or not. But I know exactly how I feel. My feelings are different. I don't want to be like this at all, but it won't be the same again. My feelings for him

23.00 pm.  

"Jaemin, aren't you sleepy yet?"

"Not yet. Can I ask you something?"

"So.." Injun who was lying down and facing my side of the bed.

"Who called this evening?" Am I meddling in my friend's personal matters?

"Ah uh"

"He's the one who's flirting with us."

That sentence I never thought I'd hear. But it came out of the mouth of the person I secretly loved for a long time. I originally held the book and automatically put it down. To be honest, right now I'm not sure how to feel...

"So Injun likes him or not?"

"I don't know. Let's talk first."

"Let's sleep first. Jaemin can sleep now.” Injun then turned his back to the wall to hug the Moomin doll and fell asleep.

Some people may already be asleep at midnight. But there are still many people who are fascinated by this quiet atmosphere. That person is probably me. Every night, I wait for my roommate to sleep soundly. Because Injun has a very young childish personality and doesn't like to cover himself when he sleeps. Makes me have to keep walking and covering him with a blanket. And this was another night that I did just that. But more than that

I sat down next to the other person's bed and looked at Injun who was now fast asleep. Then I bent down to his face and planted a soft kiss on his forehead. before walking back to his own bed to sleep

Tuesday morning

"Jaemin, see you at noon."

"Um, you can go to your room now." I walked the other person to the front of the room. before walking to his own room next door But Injun suddenly grabbed my arm.

"Study hard. Injun's Jaemin :)"

Finishing that sentence, the little man hurriedly walked into the room. Leaving me standing still all alone Because of the sweet smiles of another person sent to each other Before I too walked back to my classroom.

12.00 pm. 

“Can we invite Hash to come eat with us today, Jaemin?” Injun asked, bringing a tray of food with him. With the person standing next to the little person smiling at him.

“I've brought you this far, please sit down,” Jaemin, who made fun of his roommate who liked to come, asked when he had already done this.

"I see this guy likes to praise you often," Injun's roommate said after receiving permission.

"What are you selling me, Injun?"

“No, we always talk about Jaemin. How can all of our dear friends say bad things? Is that true? :)"

"Oh, I know." After that, we ate together. I knew that Injun liked to drink milk, so I immediately handed the milk carton to the person sitting across from me. And Jaemin's actions were all in Haechan's eyes. Until sometimes he thought that these two had

something 

Are you together?

“Very good, Jaemin.” Injun then took my milk carton. Whatever he likes, I'm always ready to give it to him.

school building

"Oh, Jaemin, wait for us this evening, you know."

"Okay, now you can go to class. Let's go." Jaemin separated from his friends and walked to his own class.

"Bye"

"This is Injun. Seriously, are you and your roommate really just friends?" Haechan asked another person while waiting for the teacher to enter the room.

"Why do you ask that? I'm really a friend." Injun replied to the other person's question. Ready to wonder why Hash is asking strange things.

"Well, I've noticed that you two act like you're not just friends."

"If you don't say we're friends You probably think that they're already lovers."

"Hoy! What are you talking about, Hash?” Injun was shocked that his friend suddenly said this.

"I don't know. I just feel like Jaemin cares about you more than a friend. His eyes, his actions, I don't know if you've ever noticed. But if not, then go. Teacher, come and study."

Injun who had heard Hash speak just now I can't help thinking about it. But because of the trust that I have in another roommate friend. He thought that Jaemin probably wouldn't like him. Hashnee must have gone crazy and thought of something crazy.

16.00 pm. 

"Let's go back to the dorm," Hash said, finishing up his things and saying goodbye to classmate Injun.

"Okay, bye."

Injun, who hurriedly put things in his bag as well. He quickly ran downstairs to find someone waiting for him.

Jaemin, who had been waiting for Injun at the bottom of the school building for a while, before the little man could reach him.

“How long has Jaemin been waiting for us?”

"Not long. Is there something wrong?" I said to the other person who seemed to have something to say.

"You'll know. Follow me."

Injun and I walked to the front of the school. I was quite surprised that the little person brought me here and not back to the dormitory. Until the other person stopped walking and turned his back to me.

"Today we intend to take Jaemin to meet someone."

"Who..?"

"..Injun.." A mysterious voice interrupted the conversation between the two of us. causing the owner of the name to turn towards the voice calling

"Have you arrived, Brother Win?"

Right now my head is full of questions. Who is that person? How did you meet Injun? Why do they look so close?

"Oh, this is Jaemin. This is my roommate." Injun introduced me to another person. So I nodded slightly to get to know him.

"Nice to meet you, Jaemin. My name is Win. But what time does our dorm close? I'll take you back at the right time." Win turned to ask the little man standing next to him.

"At 8 p.m., let's go. I'm hungry. You said you'd take care of me, remember?"

Injun who made a promise to another person with a pleading expression Until the person standing there like Jaemin saw and didn't like the behavior that another person had done to him. Now it's someone else who got it.

“Jaemin, come quickly.”

NCT Mall  17.45 pm.  

"But what should I eat? Miss Injun,” Win asked as he walked up the escalator to the restaurant area.

"What's good? Is it okay to just get rid of it?"

"555, it's up to Ms. Injun."

“What should Jaemin eat? Please help us choose?” Injun asked my opinion. It made me jump a little at the sound of that call.

“Jaemin, what's wrong? Why are you startled like that?”

"No, just thinking about something. Aren't you complaining about wanting to eat Japanese food?"

"It's true, Jaemin knows our hearts the most."

After that, both me and P'Win were dragged by the little Injun's hand to that Japanese restaurant. Until it made people pass by look at each other.

When entering the restaurant, there was no delay. The little man hurriedly ordered without paying attention to anyone. But in the end, I asked if everyone had ordered anything else without looking at whether they had all eaten what they had ordered before. It reminds me of the times I've eaten out with one other person. If the food doesn't run out, the person responsible is me every time.

Even though I wanted to be fierce, I could never do it. Always have to be vulnerable with another person's pleading face.

It wasn't long before the staff began bringing our food orders to the table for us.

"I'll eat it well," Injun said as he finished eating his own food. Every action is always in my sight. It's been like that for two years now. And I'm happy to see it.

"Jaemin, please eat. Brother Win, too."

"Injun, I'll give it to you." Brother Win scooped takoyaki onto another plate. Until I turned to look and quickly scooped it out and put it on my own plate and ate it immediately.

“Oh, Jaemin, I'll give it to Injun. How can you compete like this?”

"Injun is allergic to squid, can't eat it," I said so loudly that the table next to me was startled and turned to look at our table.

"Oh..I'm sorry. I really don't know." P'Win apologized to the other person who was quite shocked by his friend's behavior just now.

"It's okay, Brother Win. I ordered it for Jaemin. I didn't think you'd give it to me." Injun tried to make the other person feel better.

19.00  pm.  

"Thank you for today. Drive carefully, Brother Win. When you get to the dorm, please tell me via Line." Injun waved goodbye to the other person in the car. Then he looked at the car moving away from the front of the school.

After that, the two of us walked back to the dorm. Along the way, I tried to walk slowly. Walking behind the other person but not too far away. And along the way we were both silent to each other. No sound came out. Everyone walked around, not paying attention to anything. I don't want to ask the other person whether P'Win is the person who called the other person yesterday or not....

that I didn't ask Just because I'm afraid of the answer....

Until we walked to the front of the room. Before Injun was the one to use the key to open the room door. I saw another person and immediately walked into the bedroom. So he walked over and sat down on the sofa quietly.

Throughout the past two years I feel like today is a day where we both feel uncomfortable. Every time if I'm quiet The other person will be the one to start talking and sometimes you won't know where the questions are coming from. But today it's not like that at all. Since leaving the restaurant, Injun had been quiet. Even if Brother Win invites you to talk, it doesn't matter. I can only answer the words.

After a while I heard the sound of the room door closing loudly. with the voice of a small person It looks like another person is talking on the phone. If I had to guess, it would probably be that senior. Until Injun walked over and sat down on the sofa next to me. And still talking on the phone as usual I'm sitting next to Trying to act normal Come back to be the good friend we used to be. But it's so hard

The more I see another person talking to another person. Inside his heart it hurt even more.

It hurts to see the person we love about to belong to someone else...

'If you really want to be a father. Come and treat me every day, haha.'

"Injun..." When I called his name Another person turned to face me. I immediately pressed my lips against the other person's. It wasn't such a passionate kiss. Just our lips close together And he began to suck on the other man's bottom lip with satisfaction. Until I felt wetness on my cheeks.

Made me slowly withdraw from the kiss. And I think the person in front of me is crying right now...

"Since when..? vigorous"

"Answer us, Na Jaemin."

"It's not necessary for you to know since when I thought of you as more than a friend."

"Since I've always loved you only one-sidedly.."

I finished speaking and we both fell silent to each other. There was only Injun's sobbing that covered the discomfort.

Until another person got up from the sofa and walked into the bedroom. Leaving me sitting there all alone

I just don't want to hold on to this feeling anymore. Just two years of one-sided love like this It's enough.

At least I said it. Whether another person feels the same as me or not...

It was nearly midnight when I sat down and gave myself time. So he walked into the bedroom. I found another person curled up in a blanket, so I slowly sat down on the side of the bed like I always do when another person is asleep. Then he used his hand to gently rub Injun's head. Today, when I saw another person, I cried.

I admit that I was a bit shocked. I don't want it to be like that again.

An unwilling kiss..

"It's okay. I understand."

'Huh, Huh' The sound of crying made me realize that the person in the blanket wasn't asleep yet.

"Today I did that to you. Because I just don't want to hide my feelings like this again."

"Two years is enough... For two years all I did was worry. Possess you...like a friend."

"Maybe it was today that made me think that if I didn't do anything, Someday I may have to lose you.."

Jaemin finished speaking and got ready to get up from the other person's bed. But he turned around because someone else's hand was holding his arm. The other person's face was stained with tears. It makes me feel quite bad that my loved ones have to be like this. So I sat back down as usual. before gently using his fingers to spread the tears on his face

"Huh. Sorry I never saw it before. Haha."

“Stop crying. My eyes are all swollen."

"vigorous.."

"You can forget about it. Forget I ever said it."

“We can't do that for you, Na Jaemin.”

“It's not too late, right? If we're going to start with the new relationship we've built...."

The end. 

change to love

Love with all my heart

I love only you.

I just want you to know.

No more

A friend you trust

There was only one person left.

Who can't hide love

dear friend (

DearFriend) : The pakinson  

Talk  to reading 

It's finished.

SF

In short, the Jamren couple is the truth, you can beat this couple. Because of Jaemin. Najam's eyes for our Injun were truly unbearable. He held his breath for a long time, deleting and typing on his mobile phone from time to time. It's been almost two or three months. Until this short story comes out, let's try reading it. There is a feeling of a moment when listening to a dear friend's song.

While listening, there was a pair of Jamren. floating out in the model's head If you can't, you have to dress it up anyway. I really want to thank you for this song. That made this story able to be composed :)

Enjoy  reading everybody ^^