Hello, I'm Rose. I'm a trained writer. For this story Rose composed a short line. But you can read more at It's Thanwalai.

My Darkness

This love is 'eternal'

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This love - eternity

It's a YA novel, fantasy style, and then some drama because the author is a psychopath. Don't tell anyone. This is a secret between us. I told you that Rose is mentally ill. It's not good or people won't dare read it, haha.

Most people's lives are good. But it wasn't this kid named Nell. Someone who thinks that having a family together will make them happy even if they don't have money. No, it's not like that. A very small percentage is like that.

Nel, a boy who is like a chick, lives in a cage, has no desire to sacrifice, has no friends, is not good at school, and his family has no money. But my parents love me. I'm a kid who likes to do things, but I have to get scolded because I'm still a kid. Nell's life is good that her parents love her. When I went to school, my father and mother would ride my bicycle. When I'm working, I leave it with my relatives. Some relatives are fond of it.

But some people think that Nelle will steal her daughter's love because Grandma and Grandpa love Nell very much. When there's something, Nell gets to eat more than anyone else... But because Nell's father and mother were poor When Nelle was born, none of her relatives went to see her. It's considered a bad thing. After Nell was 4 years old Nel then went to play with friends near the house.

It was a girl who was 3 years older than Nell. That child is not good. He is the person who destroys Nell's goodness. That child tricked Nel into stealing money from his parents to buy snacks. With a clear name, Nell followed suit after her parents found out. Nel was also questioned. But because Nell was still young Nell was attacked by a girl named Fa. I was told that if I told him I would hit him.

Nell was often hit by that boy, but because Nell had friends with him, Nell never got angry. Every time I cried, my parents always asked, but Nell never told me. After 2 years Mother is pregnant with young child The child that was born was a boy. Nell is very happy to have a younger brother. Nell calls her younger brother Nick. because it will be like your own name after that

Nell always takes care of her younger siblings. But I didn't dare carry him for fear of getting hurt. When the younger sister cries, Nell cries. Everyone saw that he was cute, except Father, who didn't like Nell acting weak because Nell was a boy. When the little one was 1 year old, the parents went back to work. So Nell had to do housework herself, including washing clothes, cleaning the house, mopping the house, and washing dishes. Nell had to do it all herself.

While doing housework, Nell was invited by the sky to go play in the water. But because I was worried about my younger sibling, I didn't dare leave him alone, so I didn't want to. So Sky told me to take my younger brother with me. While playing in the water The sky panel walked a long way. Nell was worried but had to follow because the sky said he would take him to see something. Nel's younger brother crawled into the water.

But her mother came to see her first and helped her. That day was the worst day for Nell. Nell was hit very hard by her mother. She used a wooden stick and hit Nell so hard that she was bloody. Nell raised her hands to worship and begged. Okay, but Mom won't stop. Nell was in a lot of pain that day. It was a day that Nell would keep as her own inferiority until the day she died.

After that, Nell became a slow-headed child. I'm a repressed child. I don't dare to do anything myself. If you do, you'll be afraid your mother will hit you again. Because for 7 year old children Being hit by something like this is worse than anything. Nel, who was hit, walked crying to her grandmother's house. Grandma saw this and hurriedly brought some medicine to apply. Nell was hurt but Nell didn't cry. Nell repressed it deeply. Nel understood that he was wrong. Nel never blamed her younger sister.

That was the cause, but Nel blamed himself for causing his younger sibling to almost drown. After that day Nell is working hard. But the sky didn't stop there. Fa panel went to steal things. The shop owner caught him and reported it to Father Nell. Being tired from working hard Father both slaps and hits Nail. Nel was crying continuously and his father told Nel to stop crying. If he didn't stop, his father would hit him again.

Nell, who was both hurt and in pain, sobbed softly but her father didn't stop. Take off his belt and hit Nel hard. Nell screamed out in pain. So Nell ran out of the house. But the parents didn't think about it. Nell went to sleep on the side of the road. Both the mosquitoes and the cold were attacking Nell. And of course Nelle has a fever. After returning home, Lane concentrated on working. Find food to eat by yourself

As for the younger one, his father and mother were left at a relative's house. Soon Nell and her younger siblings were sent to study. Nell was told to take good care of her younger sibling. After lunch, Nell went to bring her younger sibling to stay with her. The boxed lunch that we received only had one egg per person. One breast each The money is 5 baht per person per day. But out of love, Nong Nell shared it with her to eat as well.

Even though I myself am not full, Nong Nael is happy. Even though Nong Nell only creates problems for Nell every day. When going to school, Nell often gets teased. Until she had to go to the parents' room almost every week when Nell had a fight with her friends. Nell gets scolded by her parents every time. After Nell entered Mathayom 1 The parents never sent Nell off. Nell had to ride her own bicycle. Nel's bicycle tends to break.

When the car's tire punctured, Nelok had to walk him home on a leash. From school to home is 3-4 kilometers away. It was raining and thundering, so Nell had to go because of diligence. While at school Nell never had any friends. Because Nell likes to keep to herself. Whoever came to talk to Nell acted inappropriately and walked away. Nell lives in an old wooden house. made from bamboo

The family has a career in farming to make ends meet. But due to not having enough, I had to change to making dessert instead. Nell had to wake up at 1 a.m. to help her parents. And in the morning before going to class, I had to deliver snacks. When I come back I have to prepare things. But Nell was never discouraged. Parents are more tired Nell recited like this regularly. Overall, it looks like it's good, but it's not.

Every time I come home from school, I must see my parents arguing with each other. Mom took the money to play cards. My father has few friends. Until one day, Nel asked to come out himself. From never asking for anything “Consider it selfish for yourself and your younger sibling.” Mom and Dad seemed to understand. So he changed himself to focus on earning money to send Nell and Nick to school. But what to study was not difficult for Nell to choose.

Because some relatives saw the elders But there aren't many people who care about Nell. Because Nell's family was poor. They are afraid of losing their reputation. After graduation Nell chose to study engineering but had to study politics. Nell protested a lot but had to give in for her own future. Then Nell was sent to study in America.

Learning the language was difficult, but other people were kind to Nell. But except for one person.....