Please leave this short story.. because it is based on a real story that happened.

…Have you ever secretly loved someone? I think all of you have definitely experienced this moment. Secret love that is both fulfilled and unrequited. I myself am one of those as well. It was a time that was both wonderful and painful at the same time. Even though most of them are more painful, from now on it's a short story of my secret crush that I'd like to tell you..

Secretly loving someone for the first time in my life and the feeling that no matter how long I give it, I will definitely never forget it.

I am a first-year student who is studying at a university in Songkhla province. I am a person who is rather difficult to socialize with because I am quite a private person, so I have close friends. It was quite a bit… I first met that person when the faculty called a meeting for first-year students because at that time I wasn't very close to anyone, so I just kept my head down or looked around instead. A person walked in and stood in front of hundreds of first years.

He was about the same height as me, dark skin, had a slight mustache. His eyes looked like he was serious about everything he was doing. He smiled and was so charming that when I saw him for the first time, I was taken aback. I couldn't even look at him, my feelings were so agitated I couldn't tell. I would like to name him Human Sam.

It's because he is in the third year of the Faculty of Humanities. That's why I keep calling him that. After that time, I often ran into him by accident. Every time I met him, if I wasn't with friends, I usually walked away or walked quickly instead because my heart beat so fast every time I met him. ..Whenever I sit or walk with a group of close friends, everyone probably knows what to expect, right?

Yes, being teased so hard that I almost ducked and ran away, every time I encountered something like that I did and tried to keep my cool to the utmost..On the outside, I acted normally, smiled at him and paid respects to him, but on the inside... I almost died of madness..until finally the next step began..In his IG stories, there was a day when he posted that he was tired and discouraged. I got over it. Stayed for a long time and even asked to consult with a friend about whether I should encourage him or not..

Until finally I sent it and the result was that it was quite possible. Because I myself replied that “Thank you.” It's a short sentence, but it almost makes me feel embarrassed and happy to the point where I can't tell. Every time I have a chance, I always say hello to him. I think that everything I do right now. That might have more possibilities..

Even though it may only be a small possibility..after that I myself have always tried, every time I met him he always smiled at me. And we often make eye contact by accident when he and I meet unexpectedly..No matter where I am, whenever I am there, there is a strange feeling in my heart that makes me turn around.

His older brother always appeared in plain sight.. This matter began to be noticed by more and more people around him until this matter made everyone in the branch know. When I was practicing cheering for faculty sports, because he was close to the seniors in the field I was studying..so he always came by. Plus, he was the president of the faculty club as well..

That day, one of my close friends said, "You're my favorite, and I don't have the energy to practice today." The only issue was that a second-year senior immediately said, "Who is it?" I tried to tell my friend that enough was enough. It'll be bad when he comes. "It's Brother Human Sam." That's all. All of the brothers immediately turned to look at one another and I tried to deny that it was just the symptoms that came out that I just complained about, so I really couldn't keep it in..

Whenever he comes, I try to keep my cool when everyone teases me as consciously as possible, but my hands are trembling and my face is so hot that I can't do anything.. Instead of confessing my love myself, I have to let him know first. This was almost crazy to the point of death, but in the end, he acted like it was just a joke. I understand that everyone wants to have someone they secretly like, who is beautiful or has better looks and a better figure. d

But I didn't have any of that..I always made up my mind and prepared myself to confess my love to him after the exams but in the end I didn't say it out loud..because he already had a girlfriend when I found out. Mine is all clear. I couldn't think of anything and my heart was both hurt and stabbed. Seeing his older brother and his girlfriend walking together in front of someone's eyes like that is normal. At first, he couldn't believe his eyes and thought that maybe You can be close siblings..

But in the end, it's not like there's a box for us to enter a description on Facebook, right? They both put their names on Facebook with such heart that everyone already knows.. So I decided that I will get over my hyung and never enter his life again. Until now, more than a year has passed since I secretly liked him.

Now I'm in my second year and my older brother is in his fourth year and about to go for an internship. Always tell yourself He is now very happy..so I myself must continue on as well, even though heaven has destined for us to get to know each other.

We became good friends with each other. But it is not destined for us to love each other..so let's move forward. If in the future I meet him again, it may be a coincidence or it may be fate that will bring us together. Again, if we both really have good fortune for each other The knowledge I have with you is still there and will definitely not disappear.

Because it is a very important time for me. Even if this love isn't fulfilled, it's probably because I was too late. And I will keep it forever

Losers must take care of themselves.

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Message from a secret lover