Hello, my name is Seanan. I'm a normal young woman but I'm a transgender woman, which many people may know me as.

Lesbians who are called les queens or can be called lesbian women as well. We have been through many things, love stories that always have suffering. We can only hope that there are people who understand and Can anyone get along with us? Now I'm 25 years old, living a different life than many people. I run a small personal business, I don't like to drink, I don't like to travel, and I don't like to dress like most girls. This could be the reason for unrequited love.

And we don't have any friends. We live in different places. It's okay to escape the pain. I don't want to go to the same place again. I don't want to see the past. Let's just say that right now I still hope that there will be someone who will take care of me.

“Hello,” said the cute little girl who walked in to say hello. is today's first customer

Sinan: Yes, hello. What kind of bouquet would you like?

Customer: Um, please give me some advice. I'm going to give it to someone special on the 1 year anniversary of our relationship.

Sinan: So, do you want it like this? Very cute, not very big And what color flower do you want it to be?

Customer: I would like it to be pink and white. ...Sister, it'll be another 3 days. I'll come pick you up in the morning. What time do you open the shop?

Sinan: Opens at 8:00 a.m. Here's the business card at the shop.

Customer: So, can I have your phone? It's better to give me my number. I'm afraid I'll call and you won't answer me. My name is Prae.

Sinan then handed the phone to me, confused. The customer asked for it and he arranged it for me. After saying that, the customer walked out of the store. Sinan then prepared things to arrange a bouquet of flowers for the customer so that he would come pick them up before the deadline. Anything can happen. There are many customers stopping by, regardless of gender. Looking at it, I couldn't help but smile seeing other people being in love.

I'm glad that our bouquet of flowers can be a gift to many people. It's been almost 6 years since Seanan didn't have a lover by his side because he thought that one day the right person would find him. Until the day One, on November 14, 2018, a beautiful female customer walked into the shop. She was a petite woman with white skin and long hair. A man's nose sounds manly. Sinan couldn't stop looking at him for a moment.

Customer: Well, sister, I just want a bouquet of flowers to give as a birthday gift to a friend. Please give me some advice.

Sinan: Yes, would you like a big bouquet? Blue and white, like this.

Customer: You can do it like this, it's beautiful. When can I receive it? Or you can wait to receive it.

Sinan: Will customers hurry to use it? If you hurry, pick up time will take another 1 hour.

Customer: I'm in no hurry. My friend's birthday is in 3 days. I don't know what to get him. What is the name of the shop owner?

Really?

Seanan: My name is Sinan. Here's the business card at the shop.

Customer: My name is new. I'll call you soon.

Sinan: Yes.

After saying that, the customer walked out to smoke a cigarette in front of the store. Sinan still continues to stare, not taking his eyes off. Why is our heart beating so fast? There must be nothing, it's just a customer. Suddenly there was a sound of likes coming in as customers who added likes. Sinan accepted in his heart, thinking that he probably wanted to ask about the flower bouquet like any other customer. Until that night, P'Mai said "Like".

He asked my age and asked if I had a girlfriend yet. We talked for two days and Phi Mai asked to call and talk. Until the day he came to pick up the flowers, our eyes met and it made our hearts beat again. What is this? Have we fallen in love with the customer? (Why do I feel so gullible?) And he always calls. It's like we thought about it ourselves or not, that he would flirt with him and say all kinds of sweet words.

We didn't dare to tell him that we secretly liked him as well. But I think he will consult us more about his ex-girlfriend. We seemed to understand each other because his situation was not much different from what we had experienced. We talked like advisors. Until one day we started to wonder what we were talking about.

Sinan: Brother, what are we talking about? sister or advisor

Phi Mai: What do you want me to say? If you say that you like us and want to be with us as your boyfriend and you don't think the same.

What do you think I should do?

Seanan: I'd like to ask too.

Phi Mai: Would you like to be my girlfriend?

Sinan : Yes.

P'Mai: I told you, we're lovers now.

We agreed to be in a relationship. We went to see each other often until over a month ago. We secretly sent a bouquet of flowers to him at home as a gift for the 1 month anniversary of our relationship....this probably. It was the first gift we gave him until one day we moved in together. Everything looks perfect. P'Mai takes care of Seanan very well.

No matter how much we argue, we must talk to each other until the end, not skipping a day...but not in bed. P'Mai was always nice to us, knowing exactly what we liked and how to do it all. We did all the poses without missing a beat. This is also physical and mental happiness. Until one day, we learned the truth about many things about him.

What lies did he lie and hide from us? But we still forgive. We believe that love conquers all. We've been together for a year. And he always takes care of us. But it looks like he's more attached to his friends, but I understand. Just him telling us he loves us, just by hugging each other every day. There are gifts for each other on special days. Until one day, Brother Mai called me.

Sinan : What's up, darling?

Phi Mai: Do you have time to talk to me?

Sinan : You can talk. We don't have any customers yet.

P'Mai: Just a hypothetical, if you disappear for 5 days, what will Seanan do?

Sinan: I'm looking everywhere. Where we used to go together But if I knew the reason for the disappearance, Sinan would probably be waiting for you right here, the same buffalo that was waiting for you. I don't know if you'll come back or not. I will still be a dog that is faithful to you like this forever.

Phi Mai: And if your ex-girlfriend comes back? What will Sinan say?

Seanan: It's probably a personal matter. That I will have to deal with myself.

Phi Mai: And if you sleep with someone else, will Seanan be angry with you if he goes and tells Seanan?

Sinan: It's good, Fair, that you dare to do it and dare to accept it. Sinan may be sad, but he's willing to forgive me.

Even though tears started to fall...every story started to come into my head. Think about the day when P'Mai disappeared, the day P'Mai didn't speak the same way. What was it that you asked about? What did you want? Sinan hung up the phone, lying that there was a customer coming in. And secretly crying to myself in the store, it hurts to love someone this much even though I'm sure this person is the right and best person.

Phi Mai called again the next day. We talked normally, were happy and laughed together.

Phi Mai: Does Seanan know anything? Throughout the time we've been together, has Sinan missed you?

Sinan: I miss you. Why don't you miss me?

P'Mai: Why do you have to think of us like we're people who don't even know each other?

.... Sinan was stunned by the words that P'Mai said. What is it? What does it mean? We're hugging each other. What do we have? We tell each other we love each other every day. What is the promise that Phi Mai made?

Sinan: Brother Mai, please hang up the phone first.

Sinan cried to himself again. Is this the person you love? Is this what people think is right? Why do people say such hurtful things to each other? This is enough for me to know whether or not I have to break up, it hurts enough. Sinan asks for 3 more time to come to terms with. I didn't know that he didn't care about us at all. He still drank, ate, and traveled as he pleased.

The person who is sad is us...we are still stupid like that. What should I do, how good should I be, so that she will love me... Thank you for telling me I love you. Thank you for telling me I miss you every day...What will happen from now on? We also wish for Mai to be happy in what we do and apologize if we are not good enough fans. I apologize for everything that made you dissatisfied.

I'll still wait, I'll wait like I've said before. No matter what, I love you.