Christmas Eve

Kongphop Athit

A happy day for many people.

But for me..

It was the day that I suffered the most..

I hate..

Christmas Day..

Night lights with many people walking and having fun in the middle of the city.

It's so different from him.

Walk slowly..

The 24th day of every year is the most painful day.

I really don't like it.

Christmas Eve..

"Oh~ When did you set this up?!" A startled voice shouted. Along with the shocked face appearing in the eyes of Kongphop who was standing laughing on the balcony of the room.

A not very large Christmas tree stood in the middle of their bedroom.

"It's when I go to work." Kongphop walked towards the lover who walked in. A strong hand grabbed his boyfriend's work bag and put it away. before taking him to sit at the end of the bed

"So, don't you have any teaching today?" Athit asked curiously.

Kongphop is now a teacher at the engineering faculty of the university they graduated from. Because he is waiting to take the scholarship exam to study for a master's degree in America.

"Today I am giving a class to students. I'll take the time to organize an event for you," Kongphop replied with a smile.

“Young lady, you don't have to do this. Just hold a small event like every year. I don't see the need to be a huge hardship.."

"It's not difficult. I'm willing. Besides.."

"I want this year to be the most special year.."

"Before I didn't do it.." Kongphop went to embrace his lover from behind, speaking softly. Athit frowned when he heard the strange sentence from the other person.

"Hm..what do you mean?"

"Well..I'm going to study here," Kongphop said, smiling widely. Athit's eyes widened. He quickly turned to look at the other person's face in shock.

"What? If that's the case.."

"Yes, I have passed the exam," Kongphop replied. Arthit smiled widely before quickly embracing the other person.

"I'm happy for you, Kongphop. I'm really happy."

I'm really glad that Kongphop has finally fulfilled his dream.

So happy..

Tears flow..

Kongphop gently rubbed his lover's trembling back.

"Thank you for always being my strength."

"Everything I got.."

"Because of you, P'Arthit," Kongphop pressed a kiss to the other man's temple. Athit slowly pulled away, shaking his head gently.

"It's not because of me. Because of your efforts."

"But if I don't have a senior to support me, I probably wouldn't pass the exam. Thank you." Kongphop smiled. Leaning down, he pressed a soft kiss to the other person's lips before pulling away.

“Then you'd better go to the table. I did a lot for you today." Kongphop led the other person to the dining table set up on the balcony.

Round table with beautiful colored candles in the middle of the table.

On the balcony fence, there are beautiful clusters of roses. In the corner of the balcony there is a small Christmas tree.

romantic atmosphere

As befits Kongphop..

"Please sit." Kongphop dragged out the chair that Arthit was going to sit on. Athit walked in before a strong hand dragged the chair back like a walk and brought himself to sit on the opposite side.

Many kinds of food were set on the table.

Spaghetti with Baked Chicken and Dark Wine Sauce

It's been a long time since we've done something like this together.

"Did you do it yourself?"

"Yes, would you like to make something for me to eat?" he answered with a wide smile on his face.

"Isn't today enough?" he asked in a low voice. The other person only laughed softly.

"It's not enough. I want to do many things for you. Everything I do is because I want you to be comfortable."

"You're having a hard time being alone."

"No, just seeing your smile. I'm tired now."

"Crazy.." Athit smiled shyly. He looked down at the plate of food in front of him. He didn't look up at the other person who was smiling fondly.

Teasing another person to be embarrassed

It was also very happy.

"Let's eat, it'll get cold soon." Kongphop poured dark wine into the tall rice bowl. Athit then managed to roll the spaghetti into his mouth. A strong hand moves the glass to another person.

"Um..did you really do it yourself?" Athit asked. His mouth chewed until his cheeks became rounder.

"Why do you ask that?" His voice was a little quiet. But I only pretended to do it.

I'm not really disappointed.

"Well..it's delicious.." came the soft reply. Kongphop smiled widely when he heard the answer.

"Really?" followed by a face that expressed happiness.

"Well..um.." I wanted to tease him but..

This time is not better..

“Then eat a lot. There are many more.”

Then they prepared a special dinner with smiles.

“Wow, I just saw that there is also a gift box underneath. How many boxes are there? 1 2 3 4 -"

"There are nine boxes.." Kongphop interjected after he finished washing the dishes.

Gifts of various sizes are arranged under the Christmas tree. Small boxes and large boxes mixed together.

"Oh.." That sweet voice answered. The hand picked up the gift box and turned it over to look at it.

"Aren't you shocked?"

"Huh? What's the surprise?" he asked, looking up. The innocent question made Kongphop clutch his temples.

Walk and sit next to your loved one. Grab a gift box.

Hand it to the person next to you.

Athit looked confused.

"Give it to me."

"Give it to me?" He pointed at himself confusedly. Kongphop nodded.

"yes"

"Is it..not an empty box.." A straightforward and innocent question. It made the person who was handing the gift box gape.

How could Brother Athit think of this?

It's not school work...

"P'Athit.."

"Oh! I thought the box was empty. I saw a lot of it."

"No, it's a real gift box," Kongphop confirmed. That made Arthit gasp.

"Then all of this is.."

“Yes, it's all real. And it belongs to all of you as well.."

“Kongphop, there are already too many. Why are you buying so many of them?!” A sweet voice cried out in shock. Looking at the many gift boxes that were now all his.

Kongphop laughed at that gesture.

"Haha"

"It's not funny to you. It's a waste. Look at how many boxes there are."

"I intended to buy it for you. Because today is a special day."

“And one more thing, I bought it with intention. The money I bought came from my hard work.”

"Open it and take a look." Athit sighed.

You can't stop it anyway.

I bought it here..

White Hand then accepted the gift box that Kongphop handed to him before unwrapping it.

Control shirt..

"Do you like it?" Kongphop asked after Arthit unwrapped it.

A bold, clean white sweater. The middle of the shirt was embroidered with letters.

'ForEver'

"Um, I like it, but I think it must be very expensive.." It seems like it's a brand name product.

"I intend to buy it for you. I'm happy to see that you like me. Let's unpack the next box." Kongphop handed him another box. So Athit didn't delay. Hurry and take it out to see.

The first box was a sweater.

The second box was his new work bag.

The third box was their pair of picture frames.

The fourth box is a greeting card. From his birthday until his anniversary.

The fifth box was a beautiful pair of shoes that he had been complaining about so much that he had to get them.

The sixth box was another 5-6 volumes of his favorite comic books that he really liked to read.

The seventh box was a work tie that I had looked at at the mall three days before.

The eighth box was the wallet that Chao had decided to buy. But because it was very expensive, I gave up.

until reaching the ninth box Kongphop still holds it. Haven't handed it to him yet.

"How are things? Do you like everything?" Kongphop asked in a gentle voice. Athit's eyes now looked at the many things that were placed on the bed.

Everything was something that he wanted.

But I still can't buy it because I don't have enough money.

But now..

Kongphop had given it to him.

"Ah..I like it. How did you know that I want these things.." Athit asked softly.

It is true that some things he had complained to Kongphop overheard.

But sometimes he watches quietly. I didn't complain.

Kongphop really cares about him in everything.

"Well, I saw you complain about wanting it. As for some things, I guessed it from your eyes." Kongphop answered truthfully. Athit smiles at the attention of his lover.

“Is it all unwrapped? So..this is another box." This time Kongphop handed over the last gift box. It's a gift box, not very big. Athit looked up at the giver one more time before starting to unwrap the last gift.

White paper folded in half

Athit picked it up before slowly opening it.

One line of text was carefully written in the middle of the paper.

-Close your eyes-

Athit looked up at the other person as soon as he finished reading. Didn't get any answer other than a gentle smile.

Athit chose to do what was written on the paper. When Athit closed his eyes Kongphop slowly stood up.

"Don't open your eyes until I tell you," he didn't forget to repeat to the other person before he went to turn off the lights.

Only a small lamp in the corner of the room was left..

Walk back to the person who is still with his eyes closed. Reach out and shake another's hand. Athit was startled and was about to open her eyes, but was blocked by Kongphop's other hand.

"Don't open your eyes yet.."

Kongphop slowly pulled the other person to follow him, not forgetting to instruct the other person to close his eyes.

Athit holds another's hand Walk slowly with the force of the pull. Bringing it to where the other person wanted it stopped. Kongphop released his hand and turned off the lights around him.

Only the candlelight in the middle of the table remained.

Comes with a blue velvet box..

Behind him..

"Open your eyes, Brother Athit.."

Sun slowly opened his eyes. It's completely dark all around. Only a soft light was left from behind Kongphop.

"Why did you bring me here?" he asked curiously. Because of the place Kongphop brought It was where they had just had dinner.

Kongphop didn't answer. But he turned around and picked up the velvet box.

Athit looked at the things in Kongphop's hand.

My heart immediately jumped up.

"K..Kongphop.." He knew what that was.

Kongphop smiled at him before walking towards him. His lips curled into a slight smile. Reaching out to shake his hand before Kongphop picked up the expensive jewelry.

Silver ring..

The tall figure gently put on the ring.

On the left ring finger..

Tears suddenly flowed from his eyes as he looked at the silver ring on his finger.

He remembered Kongphop's words from several months ago..

'Wait for me please. Soon I will have collected all the money. When that time comes, I will ask you..'

"Marry me. Brother Athit.."Words from the past appear in the present Kongphop looked at his lover's face with a smile. Eyes expecting the answer

Athit bent his head and wiped away his own tears. Looking at the ring in my hand

"Ah..damn..who came to propose after wearing a ring.." Athit said while sobbing. Kongphop smiled.

"Well..I know this. What are you going to answer me.."

“Marry me,” the voice repeated. Sun looked up. before nodding in acceptance

Smiling through tears

Kongphop pulled the other person into an embrace. Pressing another person's face to his chest Athit didn't resist. But he hugged another person in response.

A wedding without any ceremony

Just our hearts know each other

That's enough..

"I love P'Athit. I love you the most and I love you only.." Said the sweet words of love that I often hear.

But now Athit feels like this time is more special than any other time.

“Ah..I love you too. I love you the most.." A sweet voice muffled his voice. Kongphop smiled, tightening his embrace before pulling away.

A strong hand slowly lifted up and wiped the other person's tears away.

Brother Athit is getting more irritable every day..

Adorable..

"You are my important sunshine. It is the sun that I love the most.."Love words like in the past come back again. Kongphop smiled gently. Before the sharp face leans down

Adjust the angle of your own face

Kissing gently..

Athit closed his eyes. Absorb the sweet touch

A thick hand rose to rest on his cheek. His thumb caressed her cheek. Slowly wipe away your tears.

Press the kiss firmly..

White hands cupped his face before he moved to press a kiss.

It's been a long time since Athit has been the one to force a kiss on another person like this.

"Oh..um.." came the tall man's moan of satisfaction. Make another person's heart tremble. A strong hand cupped another's cheek. Changed to holding the back of the neck. Pushing his sweet face closer.

tight kiss

Filled with feelings from both sides

Sweet but hot

Aggressive but not barbaric

Kongphop's kiss was full of the word love..

"Oh..Uh.." His body began to resist a little as he began to feel suffocated. A white hand gently tugged on the other person's shirt. Kongphat immediately pulled away, disappointed.

Athit stood, panting heavily. A hand gripped the other's shoulder.

His white face turned red seductively.

Kongphop bent down to kiss again when the other person looked up.

They kissed like that for a long time before pulling away.

"K..Kong..I..can't breathe.."he said panting. Gently push the other person when Kongphop bends down to kiss again.

Where does it come from?

Arthit stood there panting for breath for a while. Kongphop smiled, leaning down to press a kiss to the other person's forehead instead.

"Let's go inside. The weather is cold. I'm going to get sick.." Kongphop wrapped his arms around the other man's shoulder before bringing him to the bed. I walked over and turned on the lamp at the head of the bed and came back to sit next to Athit.

White hands rubbing together

Sharp-faced, he looked up at the thermometer attached to the closet.

The temperature dropped slightly from before.

"Are you cold?" I turned to ask the other person. Athit nodded.

"Oh, but not much.."

"Then let's go to bed, shall we? It's getting late.." Kongphop looked down at his watch.

Now is the time for P'Athit to sleep.

His sweet face nodded before moving herself to sleep in her own place.

Kongphop reached over and turned off the light at the head of the bed before tucking himself under the covers.

Athit moved towards the other person out of habit. Sleeping on another person's arm Kongphop pulled the blanket over the other person before hugging him tightly.

Your sweet face is buried in your chest, looking for warmth.

"Good night," he said, kissing the middle of his head. Athit moved a little closer.

"Oh..Good night Kong.."

"I love you.." I don't know why he was the first to tell the other person he loved him.

do not know

His feelings told him to tell him.

Before her beautiful eyes closed and she drifted off to sleep.

Only Kongphop was left with his eyes still open..

Thick lips pressed together tightly..

Close your eyes..

"..I also..love you..P'Athit.." He said as he bent down and kissed the other person's head softly..

With tears flowing silently

“Yes, everything is ready. Don't worry." The phone line was disconnected.

The first time the face was sharp, there was only a smile..

Now with complete stillness..

There were only tears that silently flowed down.

He turned to look at the other person lying on the bed.

Sweet face sleeping soundly..

Kongphop collapsed and sat next to the other person. Look at the sweet face that has a little color from the room temperature.

At least I want to remember this face.

Before he..wouldn't see it again.

No..this will probably be the last time I see it..

"I'm sorry.. Brother Athit.."

The deep voice said just that. He bent down and kissed the other person's forehead softly.

The last touch from him..

"Good luck, Brother Athit.."

Kongphop got up. before walking out of this room

without forgetting to leave the letter for the other person

At my side..

Morning sunlight shines through The sleeping person slowly opened his eyes. His hand flicked to the side before his brows furrowed.

empty..

Athit opened his eyes and looked at the empty space beside him.

Where has Kongphop gone since morning?

The hand that touched the side of the bed was cold, as if the other person had gotten up a long time ago. But when I looked at the time, it was only seven o'clock.

"Where are you going so early in the morning.." Athit was about to get up. But his eyes caught sight of a white piece of paper lying beside him.

A white hand picked it up. Unfold it open

Many letters were carefully written all over the page.

"K..Kongphop.."

"Why..?" His sweet voice trembled as he looked at the person in front of him.

White hands gripped the paper tightly..

Tears flowed endlessly.

"K..Kongphop.."

"Doctor, I'm sorry.."

Kongphop..was lying on the white bed in front of him.

Yesterday's outfit, he remembered it..

"Huh..huh..Kong.." The white figure collapsed and sat on the floor. Crying and sobbing without shame

Why..

Why doesn't another person tell him about this kind of thing?

Important things like this..

Kongphop..

'Khun Kongphop..has terminal cancer..'

'..Oh..What is it..'

'Yesterday was the last day he lived..'

'Why..why did he..'

'Two days ago The doctor just checked me out. Because he felt an abnormality in his own body..'

'So he went to see the doctor..'

'He himself just found out. But before coming to check It's entering the final stage..'

'And at this stage, it is unlikely that it will be difficult to heal..'

'Doctor, I'm sorry..'

"Kong..huh.."

Why, why didn't you tell me anything?

Are you going to leave me like this?

You are mean..

Yesterday we were just happy with each other.

Why today..

"Huh..huh..yesterday..we just got married, Kong..why..why don't you stay and celebrate our anniversary with me, Kong..huh.."

Why would he have to lose the person he loved so much on the day they were about to be happy..

resonant..

The voice cried out in pain. It very well brought tears to the nurses and doctors.

They can feel the pain and suffering of another person..

The pain and suffering caused by parting.

Farewell without ever coming back..

From goodbye to eternity..

White hands holding white paper tightly Open it up and take a look.

Tears fell upon the paper.

The letter that Kongphop wrote

Another person's farewell letter..

along with a physical examination certificate

To.

Phi Athit

By the time he opened it and read it, I thought it was probably early in the morning. Actually, I want to tell you about this myself. But I wasn't brave enough. Because of this I believe you will cry and be very sad.

First of all, what I want to tell you. I love Athit, I love you very much, and I love only you. Thank you for taking care of me. keep encouraging me be a good lover He is the person I love very much. Thank you for loving me when I was in first year. If you don't accept my love that time I probably wouldn't have P'Athit to be by my side like this.

You are a good brother, younger brother, friend, and lover. Always giving me advice and encouragement. I'm really happy.

And I would like to apologize for not taking good care of you. It might make you sad. I'm sorry.

And another thing I want to apologize for..

I'm sorry that from now on I won't be able to take care of you like I promised.

I'm really sorry.

Finally, I want you to be very happy. look after health too Because from now on I can no longer take care of you, remind you, wake you up to go to work.

Good luck, Athit..

Kongphop..

Please turn and read the back.

And another important thing that I want to tell you.

I'm sick..

With a serious disease that I myself just learned about It's really bad. I should have come for a physical examination sooner. I will get treatment and have more time to spend with P'Arthit.

But..it really is already too late.

“Mom, I want that present,” a small child begged his mother. His little finger pointed at the gift box under the large Christmas tree.

He had it in the past..

Nine gifts..

But now..

There probably won't be that day..

“Young man, take this present.” The Santa Claus who was handing out presents to the children handed him a small gift box.

Athit looked down and slowly picked it up.

"Merry Christmas May you be very happy, young man,” said the young Santa cheerfully. Athit looked up at Pete's face and smiled.

I miss Kongphop's smile..

"I hate Christmas.." That's all he said before walking past the fake Santa who looked into his thin back.

Christmas doesn't always bring happiness to people..

The sun continued to walk until it reached the bridge.

Rama VIII Bridge

A place filled with memories of him and Kongphop.

His eyes stared into the distance. Night sky with many stars

His sweet face looked down at the ring in his hand.

Last year's wedding ring..

I want to take it off and throw it away. Because when he looks at it It reminded me of a painful past.

He misses Kongphop..

Think about the person who can't come back to him.

But he couldn't abandon it. Because it was the last important item that Kongphop gave.

It is valuable and meaningful.

"Huh.." Just thinking of another person. His tears flowed down.

No matter what I do, I can't shake the image of Kongphop out of my head.

The picture, the smile, the voice, everything is engraved in the memory..

Kongphop, would you know? That a future without you..

How scary is it?

"Huh..huh..would you know? That without you by my side It's..hug..how painful it is.."

It's really torture.

"Kong..I..miss you so much.."

I miss you so much. I miss your smile. I miss the tone of voice.

Think of everything that is Kongphop..

I really miss you.

"P'Athit.." A voice whispered in his memory. But it was so close to him.

Is he too distracted?

"P'Athit.." Athit stopped when she heard his name again..

It was very close to him.

Really a lot

Athit turned to look at the sound that came from him.

Round eyes wide open..

The tears that were already flowing flowed again..

"K..Kongphop.."

Really Kongphop. He saw..Kongphop.

His face smiled at him..

A smile that I miss..

"P'Athit.."

"Kongphop..you..have returned, right.." His feelings right now are very happy.

Really a lot

Kongphop returned to him.

Come back to his side again..

Slender legs slowly walked towards the other person. Kongphop stood still, smiling at me.

"P'Athit.." That deep voice called over and over again

The sun moved closer and closer.

"I..miss you..Kong.."

"I also..miss you.."

"..Will you.. come stay with me.."

"Will you.. come stay next to me like before, right.. Kongphop.."

"I..came to see you.."

"I've come to live with you."

"From now on..I won't be lonely again.."

"I won't be in pain.."

"Come stay with me..P'Athit.."

"Uh..Kongphop..I'm going.." I don't know what's going on right now. But his legs were moving forward. Go find the person standing there smiling at him.

Kongphop is slowly retreating.

He must go in time..

Make it in time..

Kongphop, you are waiting for me too..

I'm..

Scream!!!!

promising!!!

I went to find you..

From now on we will be together. Stay beside each other like this forever, Kongphop.

I..love you Kong..

'At 11:45 p.m., there was an incident where people jumped into the river. It is a young man, approximately 27 years old. Now officials are working hard to find the body.'

Looking at her picture far away

Like the wind has blown

My love goes far

From far away..

She is high and far beyond.

that I can reach

Although the truth

You are not far from me.

My heart still feels

Gloomy and lonely

Our love comes from the sky.

Become like the wind that sleeps

END.