Title : [OS/SF SF9] PEER MENTOR

(InSeong x DaWon)

Couple : KimInSeong x LeeDaWon

Rate : PG-13

Author : ♡ VulPes ZerDa ♡

<< Peer Mentor >>

“Brother Insung, Brother Insung.”

I shouted to a tall person who was about to get up and walk away from the bench in front of the administration building. The owner of the name turned to look in my direction at the sound of my call. before giving me a wide smile, a smile that no matter how much I looked at it, I would never get tired of it. I rushed over and stopped in front of him before handing him the bag of snacks in my hand. The person in front of me looked a little puzzled but took the bag of snacks from my hand nicely.

“What did you buy?” Brother Inseong asked me.

"Actually, I didn't intend to give it to you. They lowered the price, so I bought it all. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to eat it all, so I brought it for you to help eat."

I quickly refused and told him the truth: I had intended to buy In Sung hyung's favorite snacks for him. I lost my form badly for someone like me. Stubborn stories, many forms, no one is more than that.

“The leftovers are empty,” Brother Inseong chuckled. Before he looked down at the snacks in the bag with interest, "But why does this shop have so many discounts? I see you buy them regularly. Why? Will the shop go bankrupt?"

“Probably like that, but where are you going? Don't you have class in the afternoon?"

“Yes, Youngbin just relied on the teacher to say that the teacher held a class this afternoon.”

“Really, then let's go eat bingsu. The shop in front of the university also has a promotion.”

“Being fat will make us worse. I only eat bingsu.”

Not enough to tease me, he grabbed my head and rocked it back and forth. My heart was pounding fast but I pretended to be angry to cover it up.

“Shit, that other people are fat. You yourself are so skinny.” I facepalmed at the person in front of me, acting displeased.

“So you agree to go?”

“Go, take care of me,” I quickly replied.

"All the time, we're the naughty bastard."

Saying that I alone is not enough, reaching out to rub my hair again. Because of the adorable smile that was sent to you I really want to shout in Insung hyung's face to not do this. I think I can't stand it and I'm embarrassed.

"Don't play with my head. My hair is completely damaged. I'm all handsome."

I turned around and scolded the taller man, giving him an annoyed look to cover up my feelings. But it seems like the more he saw me frowning, the more Insung hyung teased me. He reached out and rubbed my head without stopping until I had to run to dodge his hand instead. When he was able to tease me, he laughed loudly with joy. Why don't you feel sorry for my heart for how difficult it is to pretend you don't feel anything for him?

My name is “Lee Da Won” and I am studying in the 3rd year of the Faculty of Management. Brother Insung is a senior in the 4th year and has another position as my code brother. I can honestly confess that I have had a crush on Insung since. We met for the first time but as I myself am a person with a lot of form. And I'm afraid that if Insung hyung finds out the truth that I like him, the brotherhood between us will change.

So no matter how much I liked him, I could only keep it in my heart. Continuing to be satisfied with this status as my closest sibling, Inseong hyung himself never had any clue that I had any extra feelings for him. I don't know if it was because I acted smoothly and without any suspicions or if In Sung hyung was too honest and didn't notice the mistake, but it's good that it's like this. I wouldn't have to suffer any more than this.

“You want strawberries as usual, right?”

Insung hyung asked me when the two of us arrived at the bingsu shop in front of the university. I nodded at him. Brother Insung smiled a little before turning to place an order with the employee at the payment counter and receiving the queue machine. I walked Brother Insung to sit at a table by the glass before a tall man followed behind. Sitting in the chair across from me, I took out two figures from my bag.

These two figures I found while walking in the mall last week, liked them so I bought them. But when buying, I couldn't help but think of someone. So I bought two pieces.

“Uncle Inseong, do you want this?”

I handed one figure to Insung. He took it from my hand and turned it over to look at it with interest.

“How do you think about me?”

“ Well....at the store there's a buy 1 get 1 free promotion. I just wanted to hang one of the bags on it. The other one I don't know what to do with it.”

I lied again and I lied to him again. Just saying I bought one for him. Just this, I can't say why there are so many forms of Eidawon. And what figure shop has a big promotion of buy 1 get 1 free? Inseong's brother was wondering what should I do?

“Look at yours. Hey, yours is beautiful. This one is really cool.”

In Sung hyung snatched another figure from my hand to look at.

“No, this one is mine, that one is yours, just like you.”

I quickly snatched back the figure in his hand.

“I know, I just wanted to borrow it to take some pictures.”

After saying that, Brother Insung picked up his cell phone and put it in a red-orange case to take a picture. I held out the figure and placed it nearby. Brother Insung tilted his phone to find a good angle to take the photo. When he finished taking the photo, he was busy with his phone. I guess he was going to upload a picture of his figure on social media. I took the opportunity to grab Insung's black bag that was on the table and brought it close before attaching the figure that Insung had given him to the bag and moving it back to its original place. Insung took his eyes off his hand. He held it and saw it. Coinciding with the moment when the queue machine vibrated, I hurriedly volunteered to go out and get the bingsu to avoid Insung's questions about why I tied the figure to his bag.

Inseong hyung and I sat eating bingsu and chatting about this and that for quite some time before a stranger to me appeared in the shop, a rather cute looking young man. Wavy, shoulder-length hair He looked like the hero of a Japanese series that I had seen the girls in the group like to watch and scream at. He walked straight to the table where Inseong and I were sitting before immediately greeting the person sitting across from me.

“Hello, Brother Inseong.”

“Oh Hwiyoung, let's sit together first.”

Brother Insung smiled widely and greeted the Japanese-style boy back before immediately moving to free up space beside himself. But the young man named Hwiyoung stopped slightly and turned to look at me with a considerate, similar expression to Brother In. Enough to see Insung hyung immediately introduced me to Hwiyoung.

“Hwiyoung, this is Da-won, my younger sibling. Da-won, this is Hwiyoung, a first-year supervisor. When we were kids, Hwiyoung and I lived next door to each other.”

“Hello, Da-won hyung,” Hwiyoung greeted me and gave me a cute smile.

“Hi Hwiyoung,” I greeted back.

“Come and sit, I'll go order some bingsu. Chocolate as always, right, Hwi?”

Insung hyung called Hwiyoung to sit down before asking in a friendly way.

“Do you remember In Sung too?”

“Remember, why can't you remember this kid?” “Sit and talk to Davon first, I'll come.”

In Sung pats Hwiyoung's head gently with affection before walking away. I was a little annoyed by the sight. When I saw Insung hyung caressing the head of someone other than me, I immediately felt a twinge in my heart. But I controlled my feelings and gave Hwiyoung a big smile as usual. And it was me who had to face down when Hwiyoung gave me a tight expression.

“When we were young, Hwi's house was next to Inseong's hyung?”

I try not to think about anything. Try to invite Hwiyoung to talk politely.”

“I heard it just now. Why are you asking again? And...my name is Hwiyoung. I can only call Insung hyung Hwi. Do not call others!!”

Hwiyoung replied to me with a tone full of dissatisfaction.

“Ah...Then I'm sorry, Hwiyoung.”

I apologized to young Hwiyoung. Because I don't want to fight. Normally I'm a hardcore person. I'll leave out one person because I think they're close to Insung hyung before I turn my attention to my phone instead.

“What are you doing with Brother Inseong?”

Hwiyoung asked me in a tone that sounded hostile.

“Well, Inseong hyung told us just now that it's brother code and brother code. Didn't you hear that? ”

I also don't want to bother you. But I really can't help it at this time.

“Is this going to get on your nerves?!”

Hwiyoung stared at me blankly. The expression on his face was clearly angry and displeased with me.

“No, when did you bother us? Answer the questions the way we answer them."

I shrugged slightly, not giving in to Hwiyoung either since the kid had declared war first. A person like me, if you let me say that I'm on one side, it's not Lee Da Won. Hwiyoung stared at me blankly. The look in his eyes that were fierce a moment ago softened for a moment. I saw a smile on the child's lips before Hwiyoung spoke again.

“Do you know how close Insung hyung and I are? We live next door to each other. We grew up together. Our families are close. Insung hyung has always been concerned and taken care of me. We always go everywhere together. Insung hyung knows everything about what I like and what I don't like.”

“For Insung hyung, no matter what, Hwiyoung must always come first. So you should know that I am Insung hyung's most important person.”

Hwiyoung gave me a vicious smile. Hwiyoung's words cut deep into my heart with every sentence.

“Is that all you wanted to say?” I asked Hwiyoung.

“I think you are a smart person and should understand what I want to convey.”

“You and Inseong are just older brothers and younger siblings.”

“For Brother Insung, it might be, but for me, it probably isn't.” Hwiyoung looked at me like a superior person. “If Brother Insung finds out that his younger brother is secretly dishonest with him like this, what will happen? I really want to know.”

Hwiyoung smiled at me before turning his eyes towards Insung hyung who was standing in front of the counter to threaten me.

“Don't be Hwiyoung!!!”

I spoke out to stop Hwiyoung. Because I'm afraid that if Hwiyoung tells Insung hyung, the relationship between me and Insung hyung will never be the same again. Brother In Sung must be uncomfortable because he doesn't act right. and may distance themselves I myself would not be able to face him. If that were the case, I would definitely not be able to stand it.

“I admit that I think of Brother Insung more than he really is.”

Hwiyoung grinned at me like a winner. That kid was really vicious and tricked me into letting out the truth. I was so worried that In Sung hyung would find out the truth. It turned out that I was stupid enough to let young Hwiyoung trick me into asking.

“Hwiyoung!!!”

“What are you two talking about?”

In Sung hyung came back to the table. He asked me and Hwiyoung with an expression of surprise on the two of us's unusual expressions.

“We are having fun talking about In Sung hyung, is that true? Da Won hyung?”

Hwiyoung answered In Sung with a cute smile before turning to give me a sweet smile. If I break this kid's neck, how many years will I go to prison?

“Uh...that's....”

"Are you gossiping about me, Davon? You'll get caught."

Inseong hyung pointed at me, pretending to be apologetic for fun. I could only smile sheepishly, but in my head I was worried that Hwiyoung would sue Insung hyung about my secret feelings towards him.

“Oh, Brother Inseong, I'll be back in a moment.”

I can't think of anything. So I decided to ask Brother Inseong to come back first.

"Hey, why? I'm the one who invited you."

“Well, Rowoon, he sent me a chat to go find him urgently.”

“Oh, what's wrong with Rowoon? ”

" do not know Just told me to go find him immediately and ask, but he wouldn't tell me. Then I'll go first. Go Hwiyoung."

I quickly picked up my things and stood up. Don't forget to maintain good manners by greeting Hwiyoung before leaving.

“Hello, P'Dawon. Let's talk again the next day. It was fun to talk to. I want to talk to you often.”

Hwiyoung said to me with an expression as cute as a little cat. He looked so different from when he was with me, like a different person. I forced a smile towards that kid. before rushing out I could still hear In Sung's voice complaining to me behind me that I suddenly ran away from him even though I was actually the one who invited him to eat bingsu together.

After that day, two weeks passed and I tried to avoid Insung hyung. When Brother Insung greeted me in the chat I sometimes answered, sometimes I didn't. When he asked me to go somewhere, I kept avoiding him. I'm not sure if Hwiyoung had told Insung about me and hyung or not. That's why I still didn't have the courage to confront him. Inseong Part of me wants to think that Hwiyoung hasn't said anything yet because the messages in Insung hyung's chat still look normal, but I'm still not sure.

This afternoon, the teacher canceled class unexpectedly. Rowoon went to watch a movie with Chanhee like a romantic couple, and Man Joo Ho was busy and had to run errands at home. I still didn't want to go back to the dormitory, so I decided to sit at the bakery near the front of the university, using a table near the glass window as a seat. The shop was relatively quiet because it was during class time, so there was only me. Being a customer of the shop

The mobile phone in my hand vibrated, alerting me that the app had an incoming message. I clicked to look at the screen and saw In Sung's name. I hesitated for a moment before deciding to read the message because I had avoided replying to Insung's chats for two days.

[Where is Davon? ]

[I'm studying]

[Uncle Insung, I'm not comfortable chatting. Let's talk soon.]

[Studying? sure? Just now, I met Rowoon. I saw that it said afternoon class, didn't it? ]

[Well, Rowoon and I took different elective courses.]

[What course are you taking, Davon?]

[Since when did you become such a curious person?]

[We won't talk anymore, I'll study]

[I intend to study in a bakery shop.]

I swept my eyes and read Insung's last message in shock. I looked up from the mobile screen and looked around the store before finding Insung standing in front of the store, right where the table I was sitting at was looking at me. Walked to open the door of the bakery shop. Walked straight to me and sat down in the chair across from me.

“Why do you lie to me? ”

“No,” I immediately denied, lowering my eyes.

“Dawon”

“Well....”

I caught Inseong's eyes. Today, Insung hyung is in a more serious mode than ever, to the point where I don't know what to say.

“So what? ”

“What is the matter these days? Why do you have to hide from Brother Chat and don't often answer? Are you angry about something?”

"Are you crazy? What am I going to be angry at?"

“Then why are you hiding from me? Today I lied.”

“Where did Hwiyoung go? Aren't you going anywhere today?"

I changed the subject and pretended to ask about Hwiyoung. I usually saw Hwiyoung next to Insung hyung for the past two weeks.

“Don't change the subject, Edawon!!”

Inseong's voice sounded a bit fierce. His handsome face looks so calm that my heart flutters. Brother Insung has seen this mode many times because of his normal personality. Insung is a very gentle and kind person. It's hard to be angry and mad at someone. Is he angry at me? So why are you angry at me? I'm not important to him, so why would he care about me? These thoughts immediately entered his mind.

"Then why do you care about me? What I will be or where I will go is my business."

“Hwiyoung is the person you should be interested in. Where have you gone? Why don't you go stay with him?"

I spoke loudly into Insung's face. Insung hyung frowned at my words.

“One word is Hwiyoung, two words are Hwiyoung, why do we keep talking about his younger sibling?

“Why can't you talk about it? You must be jealous and forget that you are someone important to me.”

“What did you say, Davon? I don't understand."

"do not understand? What do I have to say? Hwiyoung, where is your girlfriend? Why don't you go live with your girlfriend? Is it like this for you to understand!!! ”

I blurted out, feeling annoyed and disappointed.

“Hah!!! sweetheart? Is this Hwiyoung?”

Inseong hyung looked puzzled at my words. but with emotion At that time, I wasn't paying attention or thinking about anything. The things that I had to patiently keep in my heart for a long time were tightly packed and ready to burst out.

“Yes, it's your girlfriend. The person you like is the most important person in your heart that's not me. Stop caring and be nice to me. I can't stand it any longer.”

“Do you know how painful it is for us to pretend we don't feel anything for the person we like?”

“I have to tell myself every day that between me and you, we are just brothers, just brothers and sisters. There is no other way. Even though in my heart I wanted to shout and tell you how much I liked you, I couldn't.”

I blurted out every word that came from the deep feelings I had kept to myself for so long.

“Dawon is... I never knew.”

Inseong hyung was stunned by my every outburst of sentences before speaking in a soft and awkward voice. In Sung hyung must have been shocked by what he learned. I shouldn't have said it. But it might not be too late to fix anything now.

“Yes, I never knew and shouldn't have known.”

“Assuming you've never heard of it, just assume that nothing happened today.”

“I'm sorry for disappointing you. I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable. Please give me some time. I promise that I will return to being the same younger brother as before. Be the same Davon who will smile and laugh with you every day.”

I told Insung the last sentence before rushing to get up and get out of there. The last thing I saw was Insung. Brother moved as if to stop me but stopped and let me walk out. I sighed heavily when I left. Come past the bakery shop. My feelings right now are completely confused. One part of me feels relieved to be able to tell Insung the feelings in my heart that I have kept for a long time. The other part of my heart is secretly worried, afraid that Insung will get angry and... Hate me and everything will never be the same again.

Today is past Saturday. After I skipped class and refused to go to university for two days, my cell phone turned off. Closed up in my room, not going out, playing games, watching movies or just sleeping. I just want to live by myself for a while. I'm not ready to meet anyone yet, but I promised myself that on Monday I would go back to school as usual and go back to being the old Daewon after quenching my hunger with ramyeon 2. After wrapping up, I sat down and played the game again. After playing the game for a while, there was a knock on the room door. I hesitated for a moment before deciding to get up and open the door. For a moment, I secretly expected it to be Insung hyung, but the other part of my mind was praying that it wouldn't be because I wasn't ready to face Insung hyung right now. Then I had to breathe a sigh of relief when the person who appeared behind me... The door to the room is my close friend Rowoon.

“Dammit, I thought I was dead. Why don't you go to class? Your cell phone is off."

When he saw my face, the disciplined father immediately complained.

“When you see me, you curse me.”

I replied to Rowoon before walking back and sitting on the sofa as before. Rowoon closed the door and followed me to sit down next to me.

“Then why don't you go study? I'm not sick. I was worried to death. I thought I was sick and died in my room.”

"I'm too lazy to study so I skipped out."

“Just call me and tell me. What the hell is a cell phone for?”

“I guess the battery ran out and I forgot to charge it.” I lied to Rowoon because I didn't want to get annoyed by my close friend.

“Seriously, is there something wrong? I think you're weird,” Rowoon asked me. His eyes expected an answer from me.

“Nothing, what did you bring up? I only have ramyun in the kitchen.”

I rejected my best friend before quickly changing the subject.

“You don't have to change the subject, I'm your friend.”

"I said there's nothing. What do you want me to give?"

“I really believe it. Look at your face. The face is like that of a grumpy dog.”

“If you're going to come and complain to me and pester me. Just go back.”

"Oh, if you don't talk then that's your business. You're both strange, and your code is strange."

“Brother, my code? Why do you have my code?” I asked Rowoon in surprise.

“Well, Insung hyung keeps asking about you every day. When he found out you weren't coming to class, he made a strange face.”

“Today you called and asked me if I had contacted you yet. When I told you I would come see you. Invited to come, he refused to come. Just said I'd like to take a look at it and then let me call him and tell him.”

“Dawon, I really want to ask, are there any problems between you and Brother Code?”

Rowoon looked me in the eyes, wanting a serious answer from me.

“What problem am I going to have with him? Are you thinking too much?”

“Dawongu hasn't been your friend for just a year or two. I've known you since I was a child. If I don't say it, it doesn't mean I don't know.”

“Who do you like and how do you feel about someone? Why can't I tell you?”

“How long have you known?”

“For a long time, there were only people you liked who were naive and didn't even realize how you felt. Sometimes I couldn't help but get angry. So close, why can't we still see?”

“I almost lost my words several times but for your sake. But...does he know the truth? ”

" yeah "

“And what does he say?”

"I don't know, I walked away first."

"Oh shit, my friend, so you turned off your cell phone and didn't go to class. Really prosperous."

“Well, I don't know how to act here. I'm not ready to face him yet. I don't know what he'll think. Will he be angry and hate me or not?"

“There is definitely no anger or hate. I told you I was worried you would die. I confirmed it."

“And your cell phone can be turned on. I bet, Brother In Sung called. Definitely sent you countless messages.”

Rowoon told me before my conversation with Rowoon was paused because Rowoon's cell phone rang loudly so I let Rowoon answer the call. Rowoon didn't talk for long before he turned to me.

"I have to go back. I made an appointment with Chanhee. If you have anything, just call me."

“Okay, let's go.”

“Then turn on your cell phone, believe me. I also went to school on Monday. If you don't go, I'll come drag you to your room.”

“Oh, I know, I'm so complaining. Chanhee, isn't that annoyed with you?"

“How can Chanhee be annoyed by someone who is tall, handsome, cool, charming, nice, and cute like me?”

“As soon as you go anywhere, go.”

I dismissed Rowoon but couldn't help but smile at my friend's words. This close friend of mine has always made me smile since I was little until Torowoon waved goodbye to me before opening the door and walking out of the room. Returning to the bed, he picked up the mobile phone that had been left on the nightstand and turned it on according to Rowoon's advice. He was secretly hoping while the phone was turning on that his heart was pounding that there would be a notification from Brother In Sung as per the instructions. Rowoon predicted it or not, and it was as Rowoon expected.

A message from the mobile network popped up and I immediately clicked to read it. A message alerted me that In Sung's number had called me more than 30 times. I scrolled down to find the app before pressing in. There were Rowoon and other friends. And Brother Insung who chatted to me, I clicked to read Insung's message first.

Wed  5/12/2018

[ Davon ]

[Have you reached the room yet?]

[Right now, I don't want to talk to you.]

[It's okay, we'll talk tomorrow.]

Thu 6/12/2018

[Dawon isn't coming to class today?]

[Is something wrong?]

[Are you sick?]

[You can't contact us]

[I really want to eat Bingsu.]

[There is a new shop that has opened and people say that strawberry bingsu is very delicious.]

[Want to go eat?]

[ It's late, don't play games late ]

[ sweet dreams ]

Fri 7/12/2018

[Dawon, we haven't come to class for 2 days now.]

[You and Rowoon can't contact us]

[If you don't want to talk to me, you can contact Rowoon.]

[I'm worried]

[ Davon ]

[Aren't you really going to answer me?]

[Please answer me, I'm worried]

[Are you in the room?]

[Can you go find me?]

[Ah...but it'd be better if we don't want to see you, right?]

[Don't play games until you forget to eat, you know?]

[It's late. Have you slept yet?]

[ sweet dreams ]

Sat 8/12/2018

[Dawon really won't answer you?]

[Please answer me]

[If you don't want to talk to me, that's fine.]

[But we have to go to school on Monday.]

[If we miss many days like this, we won't be able to study in time]

[Don't let me spoil my studies.]

[Dawon, please come study.]

[If you don't want to meet me]

[I promise you won't let me see your face again so we can be at ease.]

I read In Sung's last message over and over and my whole body froze. It was empty and heartbreaking. I didn't want that, I didn't want Insung hyung to disappear. I never thought that I would not want to see his older brother's face again. I want to see his face every day. I talked to him and looked at Inseong hyung's face as much as I could. But I decided not to go to school because I just didn't have the courage to face him right now. I typed a reply to him and deleted it because I didn't dare. Press send. Doing this for ten times, I didn't have the courage to send it back and was worried about whether the message I replied to was good enough or not, and then I stopped all thoughts when a message appeared from Brother Insung again

[Have you read your message?]

[Even though I don't want to answer you, I can type and tell you that I'm fine.]

[Can I get it? Davon]

[I'm worried about you.]

[Answer me with just one word and you won't cause any trouble to us again, I promise.]

I swept my eyes and read Brother Inseong's message over and over as a feeling of guilt gnawed at my heart. In Sung hyung is really worried about me. I am an idiot even though I caused this matter myself but ran away from the problem. This made In Sung hyung worried and he had to feel guilty for me even though he didn't. It's even the wrong person. I decided to type a message back to Inseong.

{ I'm fine }

{You don't have to worry}

{I will go to school on Monday}

[Ah...]

[Thank you Davon for answering me]

[I'm definitely not sick]

[I actually go to school on Monday.]

{ yeah }

[Ah...]

[Okay, then you won't bother us anymore.]

[I will fulfill my promise not to bother you again.]

{Wait, Brother In Sung}

[ Hmm ]

{I didn't mean it like that}

{Have I said a single word to stop you from messing with me?}

[Well, we don't want to see your face.]

{ Nevermind, but are you free? }

[Huh...are you free today?]

{ I'd like to eat some bingsu with my friends. }

{I saw you say there's a new shop opening, right?}

[Oh, that's right, then I'll go pick you up. Please wait a moment.]

{ It's okay. I'll meet you at the store. I'm sending dolphins. }

[Is that so? We've met.]

[ Send Location ]

I decided to make an appointment with Insung hyung to come out and meet. Once the appointment was agreed upon, I became so worried that I felt stressed because Insung hyung's words that he would follow his promise not to bother me again made me decide to do it. like this I admit I'm afraid I'm afraid that I'll lose Insung. I'm afraid that I won't have Insung in my life as before.

But when I knew that I would really have to meet him, ever since the incident had happened, I was completely worried. I don't know how to act, how to look at him and talk like before.

I stood hesitantly in front of the new bingsu shop at the location that Brother Insung had sent me for a long time, my mind completely empty. Then I was startled when a hand touched my shoulder. I immediately turned to look and saw a tall, familiar figure with a handsome face and a gentle smile that I really missed and hadn't seen for many days appear in front of me.

“Sorry I'm late, I'm stuck in traffic. So why don't you go inside and wait?"

“I just arrived as well.”

“Then let's go inside.”

Brother Insung said to me with a smile before wrapping his arms around my shoulder and leading me into the restaurant. The two of us walked to a table at the end. Insung hyung gestured for me to sit and wait at a private table. He would be the one to order bingsu. I rested my chin and looked after Insung hyung without batting an eye. There was only the word 'miss' in my head. I never thought that if I hadn't seen his face for just a few days, I would miss him this much. I couldn't help but feel empty. If one day I didn't have Insung hyung in my life, I would endure it. I had to stop all thoughts when In Sung hyung came back to sit at the table after ordering at the counter.

“I ordered several cups, so please help me eat them all.”

Inseong said to me. I nodded in acknowledgment before looking down at the cell phone in my hand because I didn't know what to say to him. Even making eye contact, I still didn't dare look directly at him.

“ The shop is beautiful, right? I think it's more pleasant to sit in than our regular shop. But this taste must be proven.”

“Next time, invite Rowoon and Chanhee to come as well. Chanhee might like it.”

“Is Davon still angry at you?”

Brother Insung asked when he saw me remaining silent and not responding to his conversation. I looked into Brother Insung's eyes. Secretly, I feel more guilty than ever before. In Sung hyung hasn't done anything wrong, even the slightest, but I have to worry that I will be angry at him.

“Why should I be angry at you?”

“Well....”

Brother In Sung froze, not daring to speak because he didn't want to answer and repeat what happened to make me feel bad.

“What right do I have to be angry at you? You haven't done anything wrong. You're the one who should be angry at me."

“I'm sorry Inseong hyung, I was such an idiot that I really caused the trouble and even put my temper on you and intentionally avoided you by skipping class, causing you to worry again. I'm really sorry.”

"It's okay, Davon. You're not angry at us at all."

“You're like this. Fighting until you're angry at me and not even looking at each other is better. How can you be such a kind person? I didn't feel guilty in time.”

I put my mouth on the person in front of me. Until In Sung hyung laughed at me softly.

“If we truly feel guilty, we must not skip class again, do you understand? And don't turn off your cell phone either."

"I know. If you don't do it, is this really your brother or your father?"

“Complaining like this means that the real troublemaker Davon has returned.”

“Uncle Inseong”

“Hm.”

“Can you forget about that?”

“About that? About what "

“It's about....”

I stopped my words. Who would dare to say again that it was about me confessing that I liked him? If I hadn't really reached the point of explosion that day, In Sung hyung would never have known for sure.

" About what? “Brother Insung put his chin on his back and listened to me intently.

“That's what happened that day.”

“So what's the matter?”

“Oh!!! Can you not pretend like you don't know? I know you understand. You don't have to be smooth.”

I shouted out and looked at Insung's face and knew that he understood what I meant. Insung laughed lightly at my upset expression. If it weren't for the fact that the picture of Inseong laughing was worth looking at, I would have taken the queue caller on the table and hit him in the head twice.

“Can you help me forget this, please? Consider it like you've never heard it before. If it's not for my sake, it's okay for Hwiyoung's sake."

“Hwiyoung? Hwiyoung again What does this have to do with Hwiyoung? ”

“Well, Hwiyoung is your boyfriend, why wouldn't it matter?”

“Who told us that Hwiyoung is your boyfriend?”

“So, right? Hyung and Hwiyoung are that close. Plus they grew up together. Hwiyoung seems to like you to death.”

“And have you ever said that you and Hwiyoung's boyfriend thought it all on your own? It's true that you and Hwiyoung grew up together, but in Hwiyoung's eyes you were like a real younger brother and never thought otherwise.”

“I heard you clearly. Are you comfortable yet, you naughty bastard?”

“Why do I have to be comfortable? It has nothing to do with me.”

I pretended to be silent, even though my heart was pounding with joy to hear that if I didn't have to put my form down. I would smile widely. Already jumping and dancing

“Isn't it related? And who said that they like you? Where did that crying child go?”

Brother Insung brought his face close to my face and sent a mocking smile that made my cheeks feel hot and helpless. Both embarrassed by the matter of saying that you liked him and feeling nervous about his smile right now. It was at that exact moment that the queue machine vibrated, so I had the opportunity to grab it to change the subject from where I was being chased.

“It's your turn, I'll go get it for you.”

I said this to Inseong hyung before quickly walking out to the counter to get the bingsu. Having said that, someone like Lee Da Won, who is in never-ending form, cannot afford to lose form even in this matter.

After Insung and I finished eating bingsu together, Insung invited me to take a walk along the river where we often go for a walk in the evening. The riverside area is cool and cool. There are people running and exercising. riding a bicycle Walking and enjoying the breeze, the two of us clung to a bench by the river and sat and talked. I'm very happy that my relationship with Insung hyung is back to normal. This is exactly what I wanted.

Having Brother Insung in your life forever doesn't require possession or ownership. Just let me talk. Look at his face and smile every day and let me be the only one who feels for him beyond the word sibling. No need for Brother In Sung to respond to my feelings.

“Dawon, Davon”

I was startled by Insung hyung's call after being lost in my own thoughts.

"What's wrong? You're just sitting quietly."

“No, I'm thirsty. I'm thinking about going to buy some.”

“Why did you buy it? We stopped by the minimart just now. Here it is.”

Inseong hyung handed me a water bottle and I accepted it with a sheepish smile. Before opening the water bottle, he lifted it up and drank it.

“When did I start liking you, Davon?”

Insung hyung suddenly asked me without flute. I almost choked on the water I was drinking.

“What are you asking about!!!”

“Just want to know.”

“Then don't answer.”

“How long?”

“Eh, I said I wouldn't answer.”

“But I really want to know.”

" did not answer !! Did you hear that? If you ask me again, I will come back.”

I pretended to yell at Inseong. In truth, I wasn't angry at him at all. But I don't dare answer the question.

“Then let's be lovers?”

“Ha!!!”

My eyes widened in shock at Inseong's words. Did I hear something wrong?

“Did you say we were going to be lovers?”

Inseong hyung repeated his words when he saw me frozen in shock.

“Are you crazy? What are you talking about? I'm not funny, let me tell you."

“I don't think it's funny, I really said it.”

Brother Insung spoke to me in a serious tone, with no hidden teasing in his eyes.

“If you're doing this because you feel sorry for me, I can tell you that you don't have to. I don't want this.”

“Just because I like you doesn't mean you have to like me back. I just want to continue to have you in my life, no matter what capacity it is. Let me see you every day. Just talking and smiling and laughing with you is enough.”

“If liking someone means wanting to have them in your life all the time, wanting to look at them, talk to them, and smile and laugh with them every day. If that's the case, then I've probably found someone I like."

Brother In Sung said to me I listened to those words with a heart that ached and felt numb all over. Even though I've come to terms with this and accept that I belong where I am, I still can't help but feel hurt.

"It's good that you've found someone you really like. I'm happy for you."

I forced a big smile at Insung hyung even though in my heart I felt the opposite right now.

“Aren't you going to ask me who that person is?”

“Who is it, Hwiyoung? Or a friend the same age as you, or a junior, do I know you?”

I pretended to ask in an attempt to be as cheerful as possible. Why is Brother In Sung so mean? I know how much I like him. Inseong hyung will still come to ask questions and get answers from me.

“I know you, I know you very well.”

Insung hyung smiles widely. I quickly process things in my brain. I want to know who Insung hyung likes and who I know well, but no matter how much I think of it, I can't think of it. My eyebrows almost curled into a knot until Inseong hyung laughed before he could tell me.

“The person I like has a really bad personality. He likes to cry. He's a stubborn child. He's spoiled and has a lot of form. But he is always beside me. Come make me smile and laugh. Sometimes he brings things and snacks, but he likes to lie about some leftovers and some extras. He always cares for you but pretends not to care.”

“Recently, he confessed that he liked you and then suddenly disappeared and refused to come to class. Leaving me stressed and worried to the point of death, I couldn't read the chat. Called and turned off the phone. Until I'm going crazy and dying."

“Does this naughty kid Davon know?”

At the end of Insung's sentence, I rushed over and hugged Insung tightly. I can't explain my feelings at that time. All I know is that I was so happy to hear those words from Insung hyung. I felt so full of happiness that I wanted to hug the person I liked tightly, afraid that he would disappear. Or did it turn out to be just a dream? Brother Insung hugged me back before gently stroking my head with affection.

“If I hugged you a little tighter, I would definitely die from suffocation.”

Inseong hyung teased me and that made me feel better. I quickly released my hug from hyung Insung and scratched my head lightly, embarrassed and acting like I didn't know what to do.

“So can I be your boyfriend like this?”

“Do you really like me? You really like me, are you sure? I'm sure you really like me.”

I answered Brother Inseong's question in a series of replies.

"Oh, if you don't like me, where do you want me to like a naughty kid?"

Brother Insung answered me and reached out to gently rub my head.

"I'm not a naughty kid. Don't blame me."

“If you're not stubborn, you're not stubborn. Will you agree to be my girlfriend?”

“How can something like this be easily agreed upon?”

“So you won't let it be?”

“Hey!!! If you want me to be your girlfriend, how can you change your mind so easily? I won't accept it.”

I yelled until Insung laughed. Insung reached out and held my hand before pulling me up.

“Let's go.”

" Where are you going? ”

I asked back in confusion. Well, In Sung was the one who invited me to come here and watch the sunset.

“Let's go on a date.”

“Ha!!! This date? ” I was shocked by the word date.

"Well, it's a date. People who are lovers have to date."

“Is this the In Sung hyung I know?”

“If it is a person who is handsome and rich, is well educated, has good eloquence, and sings beautifully when he goes to karaoke, then that is the real Kim In Sung.”

Praying for myself isn't enough. Insung hyung will still wink at me. I pursed my lips at him with annoyance.

“What kind of person praises himself?”

“To have such a perfect boyfriend, we must be proud.”

“Can I change my mind now?”

“I'm telling you, it's not too late.”

After saying that, Inseong hyung tightened his grip on my hand and gave me the familiar warm smile before leading me out together. The sun began to set on the horizon. The sun begins to fade, darkness replaces it, and tomorrow the sun will shine again with the start of a new day, like the beginning of a new relationship between me and Brother Inseong. I don't know. How long will the relationship between us last?

Will it be more happiness or suffering? It is enough that it is a matter of the future that has not yet come.

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