At the Edge of Insanity

Chapter II

M.






No need to wait for BamBam or anyone to tell me, just do as I want. I turned off the light and walked back to the bed. Try to keep your eyes closed and calm down. Think back to the event just a moment ago. I knew I was in trouble. Even though I was actually in that situation, I... I lay tossing and turning on the bed for a while until it didn't seem like this symptom would go away. I picked up the mobile phone

Open the same video that played before. Before moving his hand to unzip his pants and tidy up everything. I reached out and picked up the tissue paper on the headboard to wipe it clean while a soft laugh escaped my throat.

I lay down on the bed again. He raised his hand to his forehead and closed his eyes slowly. I feel so sorry for myself. I might really be a psychopath like Bambam likes to say. including many photos and video clips both everyday and most personal images To be honest, I never thought of using it as a bargaining chip.

I just want to keep my Bambam no matter where, whenever. I don't even intend to use it to do things like what I just finished. But I've done it. (And often) I sigh. The more I talk, the more... I must have really gone psychotic.

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B.

I just thought of my own naivety. But I'm not thrilled with the fact that there are those things that are ready to be leaked to everyone in the world at any time. Even though I thought I didn't care. Instead, I hurriedly walked towards Yugyeom's bedroom.

“Hey, open the door!” I pounded on the door and called out to Yugyeom.

There was a loud knocking sound coming from inside. Followed by the sound of a chair sliding against the floor. Before the door opens

“What, BamBam?” I inserted myself through Yugyeom's arm that was leaning against the door frame.

“Nothing, just bored.” Yugyeom wasn't wearing a shirt. Probably getting ready to take a shower or something. "I'd like to sit down for a moment. I'll be right back."

“Haha, what is this?” Yugyeom laughed as he closed the door. “Do as you please. Whatever you want, just do it. Why do you ask?”

“Yuk, what is that?” I turned and saw an unfamiliar item on his bookshelf.

“Where?” Yugyeom followed my finger. “Oh, that's the Gundam model a fan just gave it to me.”

"Wow, that's cool." I opened my eyes wide and walked closer. "Let me take a look, okay?"

“Just watch,” he replied before getting up from the computer desk chair he was sitting at just now. before walking closer "I'll give it to you. Looks like I'll have to walk on my tiptoes until my legs hurt before I get there."

I'm about to turn to the big hammer. Must have felt hot when my tall friend was even younger than me. Can stand on top of my head all over. I quickly turned around before my face hit his chest. I felt as small as an ant and quite weak compared to this guy right now. I smelled a faint smell of sweat and felt the warm temperature of my skin...

I gulped loudly. Damn it...

“Damn, this can't be good,” Yugyeom said, holding the Gundam tightly in one hand. His face was red.

“BamBam! How small are you? Damn, it feels like I'm standing with a girl." He brought the back of his hand up to cover his face before turning away. "Starting from tomorrow, I'm going to jump rope so that my body will grow bigger and I'll get to work on my muscles too. Oh my, my heart is beating too. Ah!"

Yugyeom huffed before turning red and grabbing a towel to take a shower.

"Are you okay?" I mumbled softly to myself before bursting out laughing. Oh my god, I'm not in much better shape. My heart is not beating as fast as it was just now.

I sat and looked at the Gundam figures for a while before I heard a short piece of music playing. I looked at Yugyeom's phone before feeling a chill from my toes. I have never been involved in anyone's personal matters. And the telephone is considered one thing. Even though I'm sure Mark wouldn't really lose his mind and send those clips out. And even if he does Yes, I care, but

At this time, I again felt fear that touched my heart. I'm afraid that if Yugyeom sees those things A story that he probably couldn't imagine and had never thought of before. What will my only friend think? It's definitely not easy to understand, no doubt about it.

I sat and thought for a while before I couldn't resist and got up. I stared at the mobile phone that showed '1 new message' is stern.

I should have put some poison in Mark's rice bowl this morning. I take a breath Be prepared to open the message and delete it before Yugyeom sees it. I unlocked the phone Enter the four-digit code that comes to mind at first glance. I almost didn't have to guess. Clink! I rolled my eyes when I was able to easily unlock it.

Is there anything I don't know about you, Yugyeom?

I clicked to look at the 'no subject' message. I scanned my eyes to see the sender's name.

And it's not Mark.

I should be relieved that Brother Mark is still smart and doesn't think of doing stupid things.

Even though it should be like that I felt angry as soon as I read that message and thought of cursing Brother Mark to hurry and send that degraded video clip instead so that he would know.

'Last night was so much fun. Hope we can meet again' along with a picture of a strikingly beautiful woman 'from Jiyeon'

While I stood and stared, deciding between deleting the message. Throw the phone out the window or burn it on the spot. Yugyeom walked out of the bathroom.

“Bam, what are you doing?”

I turned to look at him with water dripping all over his body with indifferent eyes.

He leaned closer before glancing over to see what was in my hand.

“Hey!” Yugyeom shouted before quickly grabbing his phone back. His eyes widened. "Have you read it yet?"

“Yes,” I replied simply.

“There's nothing. Just hanging out with friends."

I didn't answer anything. You turned to look at him before walking towards the door and motioning to open it.

Yugyeom's hand slammed against the door as soon as it opened.

“BamBam... say something, let's talk first.” Yugyeom always calls me hyung when he really needs me. "This really isn't anything."

“Why are you telling me?” I turned away and tried to turn the knob again.

"No, then why are you acting like that?"

I stared at him. “Escape from the dormitory to travel? Hey man, if I had to end my life even though I just debuted because you got caught hanging out. Let's think about it for ourselves."

Yugyeom lowered his arms to clear the way. He looked at me in disbelief with an expression that I couldn't tell.

“In conclusion, I'm angry about that. I'm sorry, but no one will catch me. But let me tell you again. There is nothing excessive.”

I closed the door loudly in his face... I closed the door in someone's face for the second time that day.

The next morning we had an interview scheduled for a radio program. I was trembling and walked to the van. Last night I couldn't sleep. In my head there is only a name Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, Jiyeon, alternating with last night was very fun.

Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun. Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun. Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun. Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun. Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun. Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun. Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun.

Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun. Hope we will meet again. Last night was very fun. Hope we can meet again until morning.

I walked over and sat next to Mark in the van. The place these days usually belongs to Jackson. Brother Mark's eyes widened as if he couldn't believe what was happening. I shrugged and removed the backpack from my shoulder and placed it on the ground. Yugyeom opened the car door without me turning around, not even making eye contact. He sighed as he walked past me. Along the way, Mark and I hardly talked to each other.

But I secretly saw him smiling. Keep your hand over your mouth when you do that. His shy demeanor that didn't want to express himself was familiar to me. He looked at the scenery on the way outside and his ears started to turn red. I can't deny that Mark looks the happiest he's been in over a year. I thought as I folded my arms over my chest and slowly drifted off to sleep.

When we arrived at the radio station The seven of us officially introduced ourselves. Most of the radio interviews are in English.

“Come and get it, we're Got7”

We introduced ourselves before any conversation began.

I sat bored next to Yugyeom as the team had arranged. Question after question was asked and I tried to be as inclusive as possible.

“Everyone,” I turned and looked to the side as soon as the question was answered.

If I were a girl, I would really like to date this member?

A feeling of frustration built up.

Is he being greedy? Or should I scold him? I felt upset.

And since when did I take these interviews seriously? I listened to the other seniors' answers while watching my fingers rub. I'm so annoyed.

“BamBam,” I heard my name answered by Youngjae hyung. I looked up, not expecting it. I felt a little shocked. I heard Yugyeom's dry laugh coming from beside me. While Mark bit his lip tightly He looked at Youngjae hyung and tried to force a smile that looked as normal as possible. I rolled my eyes. What's wrong with Mark hyung...

“I choose Mark”

I said it nonchalantly."

You know, very good looking, handsome, sexy”

“What is this?” Brother Mark, whose entire body was now completely red after hearing what I said, burst out laughing, smiling widely and laughing nonstop.

“Nice personality, perfect”

I finished speaking and couldn't help but feel amused by the reaction I saw. Brother Mark bit his lip tightly and until now he still couldn't suppress his smile.

I glanced at Yugyeom sitting next to me. He held his chin, smiled slightly and didn't say anything. He looked at the table and didn't look at me again. I didn't even think about answering Brother Mark if he hadn't made me confused since last night like this. How do you feel now?

He might not care. I was thinking the wrong thing, I knew it.

“And which is your ideal type?”

“Women who have their own worlds Be yourself." Yugyeom answered. I pursed my lips, cursing rudely in my heart. 'Jiyeon...'

“What about you, Bambam?”

"A woman with a beautiful smile And can smile with me.” I answered the question while glancing at Yugyeom who was still looking away. Heck, whoever used to smile and laugh with me doesn't even look at me now. Yugyeom really irritates me, dammit.


“Can I speak in English”

A low voice asked the DJ sitting on the other side. I know when Mark says that. He was being serious and wanted to convey his message as accurately as possible.

“I like a girl who makes me want to be with her”

No doubt

“It's me”

I said it as a joke.

“There’s those girls who you meet and then you just kind of forget about them. Then there’s other girls where you just want to keep meeting them. Those kinds of girls.”

“You know, that's me”

I laughed, and everyone laughed together.

Of course, Brother Mark didn't see how funny it was.

After completing the day's work schedule The seven of us sat and ate together. I was full and got ready to wash the dishes before walking to the balcony. I stood and breathed in the cool night air, filling my lungs. Look at the lights along the road The sound of wheels sliding the door open. I almost didn't have to guess who it was. Brother Mark acted as if he had been waiting for a moment with the two of me since the end of the radio program.

He hugged me from behind, burying his face in my hair. With this distance I could hear his breathing and his rapid heartbeat.

"Bam...." he whispered, "I thought I hated you already."

In fact, he got it right...

“Someone will come and see,” I said.

“Bam, can you apologize? Na? What does Bam dislike? Can you fix it?" His voice was hoarse. Brother Mark repeated the sentence as if he were praying. Requesting to the higher ups or something, "I'm happy with what Bam said today."

I let out a breath. Huh.

“I accept everything. No matter what Bam wants No matter what it is, money, cars, houses, toys, new games, I'll find it for you. Don't go anywhere again. Don't make me cold again. These days it's almost unbearable." Mark's low voice was trembling. "Bam..."

He squeezed his arms tighter. I feel uncomfortable Mark pressed his nose against my cheek. Use your lips to gently press on the nape of your neck, as if longing and dreaming. I looked down at the street below. I'm thinking about what I can use Mark's money to buy the next day.

The sound of the door opening sounded again.

I locked eyes with Yugyeom.

He walked over and picked up the shirt that was hanging on the rack next to him and left as if nothing had happened.

My heart is racing. I forgot every word that Mark said a moment ago. Right now I want nothing more than to follow Yugyeom.

“Bam, where are you going?” P'Mar grabbed my wrist.

“Yugyeom saw it,” I raised my voice.

“So how?”

“So how? Tell me, Mark. Today I am very happy. I don't want you to please me. I have friends. I enjoy spending time with them. Understand."

I hurriedly opened the door and ran after him.

The last image I saw was a pale white face that looked like he was standing and watching the whole world fall apart in front of Mark's eyes.

"returned"

I shouted in good spirits after returning from my friend's house at 7:00 p.m. I hurriedly took off my shoes in front of the dormitory door before walking in and saw Mark walking busily on the living room sofa. As soon as he saw me Brother Mark walked up to me and snatched my arm.

“Where have you been?”

"A friend's house?"

“Don't have a watch? What time is it?!” Mark, who is so nice and perfect, was shouting loudly and shaking me.

"Bam already told me that Bam will be cool."

“Tell who?!” Brother Mark almost threw me to the ground.

“Bam already told Jaebeom hyung. Bam told me to tell Brother Mark as well."

“And do I know!! Why didn't you tell me yourself? I've told you before, right? Wherever you go, let me tell you first. You're really good at taking care of yourself. I thought my wings were strong!” Thirteen year old me could only stand and tremble. Mark has never been this angry at me.

“If Bam tells Mark then he won't let Bam go,” I whispered.

Mark rolled his eyes.

"I know." He removed his hand from my arm and ruffled his red hair. He sighed as if trying to calm himself.

“What are you doing BamBam?”

“Bam... Bam's friend just bought a new game. Bam wants to go play with friends."

“What game?”

       “ Call of Duty

Yes,” I said softly.

Mark slowly crouched down until he was at eye level with me.

“Tomorrow we will go buy this game. Then let's play together." Mark smiled. "I'm sorry for being so loud, Bam."

“Bam makes you really angry, you know? Don't do this again, I understand." Mark's soft, velvet-like voice continued to speak. "Wherever I go and what I'll do later, I'll have to tell you."

"I'll give BamBam everything."

"Don't run away from me again."

"Don't let me break Bambam's arms or legs."

"Don't make me have to go through that."

His wide palm gently held my hand. I stood shaking and started to cry.

"I love Bam very much."

I looked at Mark's smile. ...It was the first day that I felt the most afraid in my life.

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To be continued...

Talk:

I confess here that at first I didn't think that I would continue quickly or anything. (Actually, this can't be called fast.) As you can see the ? After To Be Continued last episode We are busy these days and come home late all the time. But I read the comments and I was like, hmm, it's like I'm going to take a backseat. I feel very guilty. I don't know why.

Here, I type as much as time allows. If I type incorrectly, type incorrectly, or if I type confusedly, we must apologize here. The next part is finished. If you drag it out longer than this, I'm afraid it won't end in the next life. I just watched the interview (

Arirang Radio

Shot Bam chooses P'Mark) from all 7 hees and it's like imagination...so I mixed them up and blended them together as I've read.

Soull 

Thank you for coming to read. Long comment too, oh my god, it's a waste of time. We understand Nong Bam about games, haha. Maybe it's not that dramatic. Don't expect too much.

T T

Not random fans, just universal fans (oh my name is... funny) Brother Mark is the cruel one, believe me ><

pataran

My eyes are blurry and I'm worried. It's not too dramatic. I can relax. Haha.

HoneyJ

Heh heh, I think Mark is even more stubborn, darling.

natty

I also think that Mark should see a doctor, haha.

Fungus, you may not know much at this time. Next time, I might know.

kera

Next.

littlepenz

Yes, Brother Mark is a lot of people. It's like that. Thank you for coming to read. Thank you for your comment.

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AmorousTK

Let me tell you, my comment was such that I couldn't sleep happily. 555555 He has already come to explain. I'm sorry I had to come check. Finally he came. We like Yugyeom. But BamBam has little to use and save, so I have to share it with Mark so he can eat some. Haha. Thank you for your comment. Encouragement has come in such a way that I haven't typed it yet. I have to get up and type.

The typed sentence I read makes me feel a great sin if I don't come to continue with it soon. I'm sorry I typed Yugyeom's name wrong. Well, at first we called him Yoo Kyung. It wasn't familiar and was difficult to pronounce. Now it's ok. Thank you again. I read what was printed and it was very exciting. I like it. Haha <3

Shabu, thank you for liking it.

KATOL_039 55555

It's Mark's style.

Mylove.YA

Please feel sorry for Bam. 5555

onmiae

Thank you for your comment. Come again. If it's fun or not, please criticize. Haha.

I'm sorry. Good looks must have some disadvantages. Haha.

Pink Jasmine, thank you very much. I'm a foreigner who has to deal with life in a big city and there are a lot of men. Bam has to bite his toes.

batadeen

He apologized for holding up. He's already here. In three months he'll come again.

batadeen 55555

Thank you everyone again.

P.S. I just realized that I can't add more episodes because I chose a short story format, haha. I really didn't plan to continue at first.