You Were Beautiful

I don't see it as beautiful at all...

"You're really very beautiful."

"I don't see any beauty at all."

TBC

A short story of Wright who secretly lurks.

Yi Zhan Bo Zhan silently on Twitter

Wright was very intent on writing. I hope everyone likes it.

Not very beautiful

“You are really very beautiful.”

“I don't see any beauty at all.”

I accidentally wrinkled my nose when I was upset at the person sitting next to me. Yibo's hand was bigger than mine. Holding my hand tightly, it's strange that our familiar touch can make my heart hurt this much.

“I'm glad to see you again.”

"the same"

I looked around Yibo's large personal car. Everything inside the car was still the same. This smell, the feeling of our hands holding each other like this was no different from before. I looked at the handsome face that kept looking at me. He smiled at me so wide that I couldn't help but reach out and touch the corner of the smiling person's mouth. He didn't avoid me like before. He kept smiling Until I felt like crying.

"Hug" even though I told myself I wouldn't cry in front of him. But I really couldn't do it.

“Don't cry, I'm here.” He wasn't shocked that I was crying. The person who kept a neutral face towards everything just smiled at me, and the big hand that was stroking my head right now made me cry even harder.

"I miss you so much... I miss you so much." I pulled the hand that was caressing my head and held it and buried my face in it. I don't know why I cry so easily. Maybe it's because I really miss him. "I miss you."

“I'm here now.”

I grabbed the neck sitting next to me and hugged it tightly, crying as loud as I could for the person I had always missed, not afraid that anyone would hear. I heard him chuckle softly in his throat before he hugged me back. One large hand hugged my waist and the other rubbed my back in circles like he always did.

"Did you know that even when you cry, you're still beautiful?"

“It doesn't look pretty,” I said, my voice muffled by his throat. “Are you going to start now?”

“Really beautiful.” He pulled away and grabbed my face. before smiling at me again and cheerfully saying, “Let's get out of the car.”

“Do you remember this place?” Yibo was still holding my hand. Good thing there's no one there right now. How can we hold hands so tightly?

"Okay, that's where we first met. No, that's where we first talked." I said and smiled, looking at the picture in front of me. where there is a food cart “At that time, I was very hungry and a child with a bad temper took the food I wanted to eat and cut in front of me.”

“At that time, I should have teased you.”

"You're a monster. When the camera turned on, you didn't say a word to me."

"Well...back then you were beautiful." I didn't even have time to interrupt my sentence. He fought for me to speak first. “I don't see any beauty at all.”

"Oh, I know." I said and squeezed the hand next to me. Tighten up and turn to look at the smile of the person next to you before smiling after him.

“Actually that night after we had a fight. I called you too.”

“Um,” I answered in my throat and kept walking.

“At that time, I really missed you.”

“I'm sorry I threw away my phone.” I walked him into a garden of yellow flowers that I don't remember the name of. It was devoid of people, unlike the first day we met.

“Sorry too.”

“How about we play the apology game?” I thought it was funny. Then I turned to look at him standing behind me.

“If I had known...the day we first met here, I would have had the courage to walk up and talk to you. It's not just peeking around like that,” he said slowly. He walked over and held both of my hands. “The first day we met. You have a very beautiful smile, do you know that?"

“I told you, I'm not beautiful.” I grabbed his hand and held it up to my face like I used to do when I wanted to beg him. I buried my face in my head and smiled brightly at him, “Really. I know that your smile is beautiful. Otherwise, how would I be able to advertise toothpaste? Haha.”

“I really want to see it.”

“It's too bad there aren't any cell phones here.”

"I don't see any problem. I already have a brother."

“Say old-fashioned things again.”

“But you like it, right?”

“You are a narcissist, Wang Yibo.”

“Haha”

“What are you smiling about?”

“It's our first time here.”

"What a cheeky kid."

I said so and went to sit on the white single bed by the window. It was a day of intense filming. After work, we come to rest here. This is a small old hotel. It was the closest to the filming set and it was a place that a new star like me could afford. I looked at the person who walked near me and sat down next to me. He put his hand on my cheek like he had done that day.

“Can I kiss you?” and say it like that day.

"um"

We kissed in the cold from the storm that day, the sound of rain and gusts of wind. Unable to drown out both of our voices, our intense heat caused the small mirror next to the bed to fog up and after our love story we used it as a chalkboard to write our love for each other.

"When you call my name...it's beautiful."

“I don't see it as beautiful at all.”

I lifted my head from the chest of the person I was lying on top of. He rubbed my head back and forth and exchanged flirtatious glances. I don't know how our relationship became like this in such a short period of time. It started out just right. Comfortable and fascinated with each other's selves.

The heat of his body and the look in his eyes made me lose myself again. He lowered his head to kiss me, and maybe it was because of the lack of clothes between us that we were so close that I felt embarrassed by what I had just done. Until he had to bend down and bite his shoulder tightly to relieve his embarrassment.

"I'm hurt"

“It hurts more,” I said and I could feel my face getting hotter than before.

“I love you.”

“Love you too” and we agreed to be secret lovers. With only the two of us knowing

“Do you like it?”

“I really like it.”

I answered the same way as when we looked at the stars together as now. It was his birthday. There were a lot of people wishing him a happy birthday that day, and the noise was very loud, but still less loud than our conversation.

“...I'm sorry I couldn't keep the promise I made that day.”

"..." I turned to look at the person who was still looking at the stars that were the same as that day.

“When I said we would be successful together, I'm sorry I couldn't.”

“Does it hurt?”

“Hm.” Yibo turned to look at me. Even though it was dark on this roof, because of the light from the big moon, I could see tears welling up in those beautiful eyes. Beautiful...so beautiful

“Did it hurt a lot then?” I reached out and placed my hand on his cheek longingly.

“It hurts...the image in front of me has rotated and it has turned red.” He replied with a smile, then leaned his face into my hand. “I didn't disappear immediately, I still remember the sound of the rain and wind at that time. It sounds scary but it's good. I listened to it for just a moment...and then everything went quiet.”

“...And after that?” I asked with a pained heart. Try to force a smile that the person in front of you likes again.

“And I was like walking around in the dark.”

"It's like I'm part of the air. It's so thin it seems like I'll disappear."

“Then I met you here.”

“Good girl,” I smiled widely as tears streamed down again. I stretched up and kissed the thin lips I missed.

“I miss you.”

"Hug" finally...I finally let out a loud cry again.

“Do you remember this place?” I stood still. When we stood face to face at a bus stop in a village Opposite the deserted bus stop was a green forest, and because of the terrible atmosphere of the storm, The heavy rain caused the large tree to sway horribly.

It seemed like it was about to collapse. Everything seemed violent and frightening. Like our emotions that day, the coldness of the air right now penetrated my heart. And it made me cry so hard

“Don't cry.”

"Hi"

"That day...I apologized for speaking harshly. I apologized for not listening at all."

“Huh,” I don't even remember if we said it so forcefully. No matter how much we put together, all I know is that it was our last argument.

“I'm sorry I left you,” he said, pulling me into a tight hug. A large hand rubbed circles on my back again. “If we had held each other back then, we wouldn't have had to be separated like this.”

"...excuse me"

“It's not your fault.” I closed my eyes tightly and repeated the sentence he had just said. “What are you mumbling?”

“Recite it.” I pulled away from the embrace and looked at his face. "I'll remember you."

"If you wake up, you'll remember, right?"

“I want to remember how much we love each other. I want to remember our story. Just like right now, hehe.” I cried loudly again and fell on his chest, exhausted from the painful feelings. “Tell me, Wang Yibo, you will remember, right?”

“Zan Zhan,” he whispered, calling my name the way he liked to call me when he begged me. A deep voice that trembled like it was about to cry made me tremble all over and made me not want to listen to anything else.

“We love each other.” I could only close my eyes and cry and chant this sentence by heart with hope.

“You won't remember me.” It was as if a knife had come down and cut into the heart.

“The afterlife isn't that kind.”

“I can only live here in our old memories” even though there was a heavy rainstorm around us. But here, where we stand holding hands, it's quiet, without the sound of wind or rain. There was only his voice in the silence... It made me shudder. “It is your deepest memory.”

“I miss you.”

“I miss you very much.”

“It's almost morning.” A large hand placed his hand on my cheek again.

“Yibo, I don't want to wake up,” I said with tears streaming down my face. “I beg you.”

“I will always be here.”

“Yi Bo Huek,” I cried and sobbed as if I was about to die. Then I held my hand tightly and buried my face in the hand of the person I had always missed. “Please.”

“Do you know how beautiful your smile is? The sight or sound of you calling my name Everything about you is really beautiful.” I sobbed and shook my head back and forth at the words of the person in front of me. A large hand cupped my tear-stained face. He gently wiped away my tears and smiled at me, “You are beautiful. Really a lot.”

He kissed her softly. On my lips, the heat of his mouth It made my heart pound with pain. I closed my eyes to receive that touch with a longing heart. I hugged him tightly, trying to remember everything as much as possible. Whether it's his face The smiles in the eyes that looked at me with love, the touch of each other's hands, hugs and lips, everything. I really want to tell him.

"I don't see how beautiful it is..." You are so beautiful.

heavily

“Nightmare?”

“Huh, no?” I slowly sat up from the bed without stopping breathing heavily. I looked at the manager who was standing with his arms crossed and leaning against the door looking at me. “It seems like I dreamed that I fell out of a building.”

“Haha, we must be working too hard.” She laughed and walked over to sit on my bed.

“I guess so.” I sighed and fell onto the bed from exhaustion. “What time does work start today?”

“Oh, we're free today. A photoshoot just got canceled. It's like we still can't come to an agreement internally. We'll have to move it to next week.”

"...Ah, next week I'll die for sure."

“Haha, take the opportunity to rest.”

“Yes, I'm going to take a shower first, Jia Jia.”

“Please come.”

Water from the shower falls down and hits your face. It makes me relieve stress from work very well. For this week, this is the first day I've had free time like this. But what did I dream about last night? Why do I feel so tired? It's like I haven't slept at all. Or am I dreaming of running away from ghosts? I closed my eyes and thought about my dream last night, but no matter how much I thought about it, I couldn't think of it. Never mind, even thinking about it gave me a headache.

"Oh, I thought you were back."

“How can you go back with so many bags of snacks in the room? If you don't want to hire a maid I keep some myself. Xiao Zhan, a skilled actor.”

“Yes,” I answered, dragging my voice and looking at the person who looked at me with green eyes. I laughed and went to help her put the water bottle into a bag. When I was finished I went to sit on the big sofa and turned on the TV.

'...Today is the 3 year anniversary that our industry lost the famous actor and racing driver Wang Yibo, and this is a live broadcast of the atmosphere where fans brought flowers...'

Wow!

“Look at something sad and different.”

"vigorous"

“Hey, why are you crying?” Jia Jia said and threw the remote into my lap in shock.

"...I don't know. It sang on its own."

“It's so easy to get in, hero.” Jia shook his head and threw a tissue at me. before sitting down next to each other “But...it's not worth it.”

"..." I wipe away tears that I don't know why they fall. and looked at Jia's face as well

“It is rumored that before Yibo's accident, he met up with his girlfriend in the area and got into a fight.”

“Jia doesn't know about this, but they say that if we don't fight, Yibo probably won't die. Why would a good person ride a motorcycle in the middle of a storm, right?” I thought about it and nodded in agreement with Jia. “Jia, I don't understand. I don't know what we're meeting up with there. It's a mountain, with curves and cliffs. Sigh, what a pity."

“And who is his boyfriend?” I asked curiously.

“No one knows.”

"Why don't I understand anything?"

“I can't help but remember that when he had an accident, you got sick,” Jia said and rubbed my head. Yibo couldn't finish filming and the series was cancelled."

“I...Jia, I don't remember ever working with him.”

“Jia Jia...why didn't I know this before? Why can't I remember the series that Jia told about?”

“Because the events of his death and you being sick are so close that Jia is afraid it will make you worse.” Jia said sadly and held my hand loosely. “You left Jia to watch over you for a year and you kept sleeping... Do you know how happy Jia is that you woke up?”

“Jia Jia”

“That's enough, it's better to stop talking about this than not having to try to revive it,” Jia said and rubbed my head again. “Jia talked to the doctor and the doctor said it was because of shock. Making some of your memories disappear is a self-defense mechanism. It's like you chose to erase your memories from that time because it was very painful for you.”

“So...what is causing me pain?”

“Do you know that? Jia only knows that someone found you unconscious on the set. Then Jia took you to the hospital.” Jia Jia covered her mouth and whispered to me before continuing. “There are only people who blame it on the haunted filming set. It caused a lot of misfortune for Yi Bo and he got sick again.”

“What is going on? The more I want to know,” I said jokingly, trying to think of something about this series. But it's empty, I can't think of anything. There are no images or memories related to this series. “I don't remember anything.”

“Haha, if you don't remember, that's okay. It's been a long time. The important thing is that once you've recovered, Do you remember what happened?”

“Um, I woke up in the hospital. Once I recovered, I went to shoot that movie.”

“And what next?”

"scorching"

“Yes haha, really loud. Jia is very proud of you.” Jia patted my shoulder lightly. Then he stood up and picked up his bag and slung it on his back before turning and waving goodbye to me. “You have worked very hard. Please rest today.”

"yes"

Jia told me to rest. But in the end, my curious feet brought me to a stop here in front of Wang Yibo's grave. I don't know why, ever since I listened to the news and saw his picture on TV, my mind kept wanting to come here. Luckily, most of the fans had gone back because now there was only a small group of fans left.

It made me stand this close to his grave.

I lowered my hat for fear that people standing next to me would recognize me. I looked at the flowers that were everywhere. And looking at my own bouquet of yellow flowers, I don't know why they have to be yellow too. I placed it on top of a large pile of flowers and looked at his gravestone. What a pity.

I haven't had time to say anything in my heart yet. I had to quickly walk out because people started looking at me.

On the way down from the grave here there were many trees, probably because it was late in the evening. This walkway is therefore free of people. It was my luck to be able to walk comfortably again, but strangely, my heart didn't feel that way. Now I feel hurt and...lonely. It's lonely and strangely sad.

It's like I'm really missing something. But I don't know what I miss.

I tried to take a deep breath, hoping the pain in my chest would go away. So what do you think about for fun? While walking back to the parking lot Today I did what I wanted to do and maybe I'll drive to the hospital for a checkup. I won't be careless like him even if he died in an accident. I will take care of my health.

I will live a good life, do my best with the acting career that I love, and be happy every day.

'You're really very beautiful'

A cold breeze that blew past made me stop. It wasn't just the passing wind. But I heard a sentence that came into my head as the wind passed through me. My heart was pounding for no reason. I turned to look behind me at the wind blowing past. There was no one there... What was I hoping for? I felt my hands begin to shake. It was strange. I quickly turned around and thought of the sound I heard again.

'You're really very beautiful'

The deep voice that I felt like I had heard somewhere was so familiar that I started to get a headache. But no matter how much I think about it, I can't think of it. Maybe I remembered it from a movie I saw where I was about to keep walking but had to stop when I suddenly blurted out this sentence.

“I don't see it as beautiful at all.”

I stopped in the silence of the road where I was the only one standing. I don't know why I couldn't take a step. I don't know why my chest hurts so much. I don't know why my tears don't stop flowing like this, but what I do know is...that cool breeze will never come back to me again.

“...You are so beautiful.”

- END –

Inspired by the song

You Were Beautiful – day6

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Lately I've been listening to this song a lot, plus I've secretly followed this couple for a long time.

So it came out like this sad glue.

After reading, please let me know what you think.

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