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Having a secret crush or love is an easy thing to happen. Whatever the reason

And if it happens, it's hard to make it go away.

Even though we can only secretly like But we will take care of it as best we can. Even though in the end she doesn't know who we are

What was the origin of your love?

Beautiful, handsome, kind, considerate, or whatever.

But ours was born from "compassion" until it became love.

In a high school

“Bew, sometimes you're too nice. Why do you always agree to something? One day you'll regret it," my close friend Pao said. worriedly

“No, I just feel sorry for him. He's always been alone. You know that I don't like seeing people alone,” I replied sensibly.

“Yes, but don't forget, you can't just approach everyone because you feel sorry for them being alone. If he doesn't want good things from you. You are even weaker towards the world,” Pao said, reminding me with concern.

"Not at all. P'Ploy turns out to be a good person," I answered without thinking.

"Is that right? I heard news that none of his friends like him. You're in the same class as P'Ploy and haven't approved it yet," Pao said, upset that I didn't listen to warnings much.

"Alright, we'll try. Don't think too much. Let's go study, I don't want to be late in class." I replied dismissively. Ready to prepare to study

"Okay," Pao said, getting up and leading the way up to the school building.

lunch break

“Pao, go ahead and reserve a table first. I'm going to wait for P'Ploy first. Then I'll follow you," I said, getting ready to go find P'Ploy.

"Okay, see you downstairs."

In front of P'Ploy's classroom

"What's up? How long have you been waiting? Let's go eat." P'Ploy said as he dragged me to the cafeteria.

"How is studying? Is it okay? Are you tired? You look stressed." I asked because P'Ploy looked stressed. It's like there's something uncomfortable.

"It's there. There's group work. But from the looks of it, you probably have to do a lot. and art subjects as well.

Drawing

And watercolors too. I'm not good at it at all. Sigh," P'Ploy said while making a worried expression.

"We can help with art, okay?" I said because I really wanted to help him. I don't know what I was thinking at that time. But I feel like I want to help. I want the person in front of me to smile. Don't act stressed like right now. Whatever I have to do in exchange for that, I'm ready to do it.

"Are you okay? Are you going to be tired?" P'Ploy turned and looked at me with a confused expression. After hearing that I would help

"Okay, I'm going to work in a group. I'll do an art lesson for you," I said with a smile.

"Then just do it.

Drawing

That's enough for the watercolor. I want to do it myself. Otherwise, I'll take advantage of the model too much. What should we do? Is that okay?" P'Ploy turned to talk to me with a smile.

"Okay, I'll give it to you when I'm done," I replied to P'Ploy with a smile. At that time, I truly accepted it. That I'm extremely happy. I think I like him already. No, maybe I love you at all. But I might be imagining it myself. I just want to see him happy, smiling, having friends, not making sad faces, not crying, that's it.

I don't like his tears at all. It made me feel really bad.

After finishing lunch

"Pao, I think I like P'Ploy," I said shyly.

"Is this really true? Don't you know that he already has a girlfriend?" Pao was shocked by what I said.

"Oh? Why didn't I know?" I suppressed my smile but tried to keep my face as normal as possible.

"His girlfriend is from a different school. In the evening, P'Ploy and his girlfriend will meet up again and then go home together. It wouldn't be strange if you didn't see it," Pao explained.

“Why do you know?” I tried to keep my voice and expression as normal as possible.

"Oh, I've known P'Ploy for a long time. Besides, he and I go home the same way. If you've seen it often, it probably isn't strange." Pao went on to explain in detail.

“So?” I replied with a sad expression on my face.

"Are you okay, Biu?" Pao asked with concern.

"Okay, I'll be here in a moment. Go to the bathroom first. You can go to class first. See you upstairs,” I said, getting up and walking away from the table. I hurriedly walked into the bathroom. Because I was afraid that Pao would see me cry. I'm so sad because this is my first love. I've heard it said that first loves are often unrequited. But I don't believe it.

I always thought that someday what I would do He will see my goodness. Then turn and look at me I always thought maybe I wasn't trying hard enough. I never thought about fighting, but if he turned to look at me It would be a good thing. It looks extremely selfish. And at that time, I didn't even think about it.

Several days later

"Bew, are you free? Let's go buy some things at Sampeng as a friend." P'Ploy called me via Line in the morning.

"Okay, I'll see you at 10 o'clock." I hurriedly replied to P'Ploy's line. Then quickly get dressed and prepare to go out and wait for P'Ploy.

"Okay, see you."

Time: 10:00 a.m.

"What are you going to buy?" I asked because I still didn't know what to buy. I didn't know where to get off the bus or how to walk.

“Well, the ribbons. What kind of wrapping paper is this?" P'Ploy answered while still looking down and playing on the phone.

“Okay,” I replied, looking ahead. Because you'll get off at the wrong stop. I'm not a person who likes to leave the house much. So I'm not very good at routing. But I want to come see you. I'm worried that I don't want him to go out and buy things alone.

shop

"Biw Biw, which one is better?" P'Ploy walked up and asked because he couldn't choose which one should be better.

"Uh, we've never used it, haha," I replied with a dry laugh. Well, I'm not good at handicrafts. What can I do?

"Auntie, please help me choose." P'Ploy made a face. So you think I won't be impatient?

"Ummm, what should I do?" I made a thoughtful face before turning to look at P'Ploy's face. "Then take two? I'll pay for it myself, okay?" I replied, smiling that the older man couldn't choose the item. cheap Because it's something I like. Admit it, I'm not a person with money. But seeing how happy he is, I'm already buying it.

"Seriously, two of them." P'Ploy looked shocked for a moment.

"Sure. Come, we'll pay for it. Wait here," I replied, then picked up two items and went to pay. After purchasing all the items, P'Ploy and I headed home. The size of the car ride back

"Bew, do you want Beau to be our assistant?" P'Ploy turned to me and asked.

“What kind of assistant?” I asked, curious about what P'Ploy said.

"There will be school work, right? And the things I bought were roses and ribbons. Can you come help me?" P'Ploy asked me, making a pleading face.

“But Biu doesn't know how to do it. Are you going to be a helpless object or not?” I answered uncertainly. What can I do? I'm not good at these things.

"What are you afraid of? We're very good at it. We'll teach ourselves. If you have a quick head, you'll be able to do it. Believe me. No, Sibiu-ah will do better than us." P'Ploy said while laughing a little happily.

"Alright, haha. But you have to teach us. It's not like we're going to show the clip ourselves,” I replied with a laugh. With a big smile At least I get to be with him more. It's like sometimes I forget that he has a girlfriend.

Event day

“Wow, that's a lot of stuff. Did you guys buy it yourself?” One teacher walked up and asked. Because there are a lot of things lying around.

“Yes, it's all built out. I'm definitely making many bouquets today," P'Ploy said happily. I paid a lot for buying this much too, I thought to myself.

"Good. Fight today, kids." The teacher said encouragingly before walking off to check out the other booths.

"Are you ready, Biu? But there shouldn't be a problem. I've done it so well, haha." P'Ploy walked in and asked me who was preparing things for the event.

"Come this far, if you're not ready, you have to be ready, boss. Haha," I teased P'Ploy, who was walking in.

"Are you teasing me now?" P'Ploy said while rubbing my head. I'm extremely happy. He smiled and looked very happy.

"Hahahaha" I laughed happily.

"Today I'm a bit tired. Keep fighting. We'll be tired together," P'Ploy said while giving me a hug to encourage me. I really like his hugs.

"Okay," I replied shyly to him. I think everyone must have heard that. When we are very happy There will also be a lot of suffering. I don't think that's true at all. Until I met myself

After the event ends

I was tired so I lay my head down at the table as I waited at home to come pick me up. Of course I finished packing. P'Ploy walked in to find him. Of course I had fallen asleep so I didn't know because I was exhausted after running around all day and the job was well accomplished. P'Ploy always comes and sits next to me while I sleep. After a while the house called me.

With drowsiness, I answered the phone and packed up my things to go home. P'Ploy blocked me and refused to let me walk down the stairs. But because I had just woken up I was irritated. So I told him that "Hide a bit and I'll go home. Still not in the mood to talk." P'Ploy avoided it. and said to me, "Then we don't need to talk any more."

I walked downstairs a bit and I reached the front door of the school. But P'Ploy's words just now made me think about what I just said. So I called home and told him to come back first. We'll go back soon. Then quickly ran back to the classroom where P'Ploy was.

"P'Ploy, let's talk first," I said, panting a bit. With an expression that felt extremely guilty.

"Go back, Buu. Aren't you sleepy?" P'Ploy replied, not even looking at his face. And also uses a very smooth tone of voice. Until I feel bad

"We can go back. And will we be able to talk tonight like every other day?” I asked because I was afraid. I'm afraid that everything I've tried will fall apart.

"No, do we think that's enough?" P'Ploy replied in a calm voice.

“Why? I'm sorry, I was really sleepy just now. Can you forgive us? Let's talk nicely.” I was really scared. My tears will always flow. But I don't want to be a crybaby in front of his older brother.

"Come home, Beau. We're going home now," P'Ploy said as he picked up his bag and prepared to go home.

"Aren't you going to talk to me first?" I almost cried.

"Better not, we have a date with my girlfriend," P'Ploy said and walked out of the classroom. I feel really hurt. But it's because of me that everything is ruined. Not only that, but I also thought that he would look at me. And it was because I forgot that he already had an owner. I apologize softly. I don't think he could hear me.

And I thought what I was doing was very wrong, right? Just a few sentences. This is what Kham Phut is like a double-edged sword. Saying it won't fix anything.

the next day

“Bew, why are your eyes like this? What happened?” Pao hurriedly greeted me and pulled me to a seat with many questions. So I told Pao everything.

“Bew, I have something to tell you. Actually, P'Ploy. He's just using you. Use your weakness for the world. Use the pity you have for him. Tricking him into buying things for me. tricked you into working for him Tricking her into being his bias. And many more. He never cared about your feelings at all. And probably thinking of a way to get rid of you," Pao told me, looking sad and feeling sorry for me for not telling me sooner.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" I said, crying. I feel very bad.

“I'm sorry, because you haven't smiled happily like that in a long time. I think if he doesn't do anything to you I'll leave it like this Because you are much more cheerful and happy than before,” Pao explains the reason for this.

"And now what? Everything is ruined. What am I going to do now?” I said with tears streaming down my face.

"That's enough, Biu. Stop crying," Pao said comforting me and hugged me. I hugged back and cried even harder than before.

"I like him. No, I already love you. It really hurt when you told me the truth.” I continued to cry. I admit, I couldn't think of anything at that time.

Several days later

"Bew, are you okay?" Pao asked with concern.

"Okay, it's better. Really, is he coming to study?" Is he okay?" I asked Pao because I was worried about him. Because I haven't come to study for many days. due to discomfort

“Why do you still care about him this much? Even though he tricked you?" Pao asked me, not understanding.

"I don't know. Because of love. One-sided love." I replied with a sad face.

"Even though it hurts you yourself like this?" Pao asked. I know that Pao is very worried about me. Because my condition is very bad.

"Please, he'll be finished soon. Please take care of him from a distance. I will not interfere or become as close as I have been in the past. I'll stay in my peek. Help me secretly and stay away." I replied with a feeling of complete discomfort. Everything for me right now is bad.

"It's up to you. But please, can you take care of yourself and love yourself more than this? If you know you can't take it, that's enough. Another thing I want to mention is that right now my girlfriend comes to pick me up and deliver me every day. Is it okay?" Pao asked with concern.

“Okay, I told you to stay away. Not involved or as close as before Thank you Pao for being there to comfort me. Always beside me,” I said, hugging my only close friend.

"It's okay, you still have me," Pao replied hugging and giving words of encouragement.

After that day, I took care of it. When he is sick I secretly gave the medicine. When he has badminton lessons I secretly put it out for him to use. Carefully look at him to see if he has a problem with his friend or not. Is there anything missing? So what can I do? I keep doing it And of course I had to see that his girlfriend came to pick me up.

Came to send it and they were sweet all the time. I've been hurting. But I can't do anything. I don't know how other people view him. But for me, he is the person who is with me in my weak days. The day I need someone The person who stays with me when I'm down. When I cry On days when I'm stressed out, he's there to make me smile. He is the reason that makes me want to come to school every day.

Even though my class had a day off that day, I insisted on coming only to see him. Of course we must have walked together. Now he and I are strangers. I'm really hurting. It shows that in the past it was extremely worthless.

And then the last school day arrived. By chance, I walked to the building behind to get things for the teacher and heard a group of people talking.

"Look, Ploy, I haven't seen you with that kid lately," Elder No. 1 said.

"Which child?" P'Ploy said.

"Oh, so that's the kid you live with often named Biu." The second eldest said. I heard my name so I eavesdropped. What will P'Ploy say next?

"That child. Easy to deceive. Just beg a little, beg a little and buy it all. Until I found a way to separate from it, it was very difficult." P'Ploy said as if it was a joke. I, who was eavesdropping, was very sad. Tears flowed without stopping. Even though I had heard what Pao had told me. But when I heard this, I could hardly bear it.

“That kid is really annoying, you know that? Gets in the way of the eyeball too. I always knew that I was there secretly prowling. It'd be great if you could just disappear," P'Ploy said with some gusto. I, the one listening, am very sorry. I'm sorry that I like people like this. I regret not believing Pao and letting it end from that day. Why do I hold it back? Even though it tortured me to the point of almost suffocating me.

Of course I couldn't bear to listen. So I ran out and went home.

Baan Biu

“Where did I go wrong? I just do what he likes. Do what I do and be happy.” I couldn't stop crying. I think I'm really stupid. I should just die so I don't have to feel anything. No need to think or regret anything anymore. Just for a moment.....

P'Ploy's graduation day

"Dammit Ploy!!! What did you say to Biu?!" Pao said as he went to pull his shirt violently.

"What did you say?" P'Ploy asked confusedly.

"No, you must definitely say something or Beau wouldn't be in the ICU like this. Say it!!!" Pao said angrily.

"Ha!!! Buu entered the ICU What's wrong with Biu?" P'Ploy was very shocked. He hurriedly asked Bao frantically.

“What matters must be told to people like you? You're such a bad bastard," Pao said angrily. Then he took out an item and gave it to him. "Take it. Even though you graduated from school, Biu prepared something for you." Pao stood and gave it to him. After that, the phone rang. "Hello, what's the matter, Mom?" Pao answered the phone." Pao Biu has passed away. Biu lost a lot of blood."

The mother said while crying, "What!!! I'll hurry." Pao hurriedly hung up the phone and ran out immediately.

"What happened to Biu Pao?" P'Ploy hurriedly pulled Pao's hand and asked anxiously.

"Are you satisfied yet? It's gone." Pao said with tears, then shook P'Ploy's hand away and hurriedly ran out.

After Pao ran out, P'Ploy just stood there in shock. When he regained consciousness, he hurriedly unwrapped the gift that Pao said Biu had intended to bring. When he opened it, it was the beautiful bag he had said he wanted. But it is very difficult to find and the price is very expensive. Ploy could only cry silently. And under the bag he found a letter. Inside the letter there is the message:

Congratulations P'Ploy.

It's very difficult for us to buy this bag. But for me, we can do it already. Because we really want to see you smile. Your smile makes the world brighter, you know? We never thought that he would use us in various ways. Pao has told us once, but I don't believe it myself. But when we heard it with our own ears, we really couldn't accept it.

We're in a lot of pain, you know? We know that we don't even have the right to like you. But we already liked it. No, I love you at all. That's really bad. That I didn't hear any explanations or words of love from my own mouth. Because if you got this, we probably wouldn't be here anymore. Don't blame yourself. We want you to be very happy and smile a lot.

Don't cry, smart one. I have a lot of friends. I have good friends too. Don't forget to eat on time too. Be a warm person to those around you. Your hug is really a warm thing. We're not kidding. Haha. Finally, can we ask for something? I want to be the last person that you use us. Deceive many things

I ask that after this, don't do this to anyone again. I may not be the first person you love. But I am the first and last person that you deceived me from the love and good wishes that I have for you. And you will be the first and only person that I will love forever.

I love you and will love you forever.

When he finished reading, Ploy cried heavily, "I'm sorry Biw, I'm sorry."

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