In the cold winter nights this year, temperatures are said to be the lowest in years. The entire city was decorated with twinkling lights like a scene from a big-budget movie, with people walking around in the foreground. An atmosphere of happiness spread throughout. Many smiles were shared on the night of celebration.

Everything looks perfect

Except for a young woman in a black dress with shiny red pointed high heels, her figure stood motionless as if she didn't exist in the world. She tightened her beautiful tunic again when she felt the air getting colder. Earlier in the evening, her eyes trembled and she looked at her watch before realizing that more than an hour had passed since she had spent wandering aimlessly along the streets.

The owner of the pretty face took a deep breath, trying to block out the sentimental mood that was rising again.

Christmas was her favorite festival of her life.

But not in this lifetime.

Myoi Mina, the owner of the thin, sad-eyed figure, raised both her arms around her body and walked absentmindedly down the corridor again. Before stopping in her tracks when she found herself standing in front of a bar, Mina set her eyes on an old sign in front of the store whose letters had now faded with time. Her pretty face raised a slight eyebrow.

What a great day, Mina thought, laughing low in her throat.

Some people stood still, staring at the place where various stories happened…

And it ended…

That's probably why she hated this place as much and missed it as much as a person could feel about anything.

Many stories from the past are still vivid in my memory as well as the brokenness in my heart that never fades, as if everything had just happened a few hours ago.

five years ago

Mina stopped in front of a small bar, frowning as she looked at the solid black door.

L'amour, c'est l'enfer”

The name of the shop was in French hanging at the entrance. She read it over again before smiling slightly in satisfaction at the meaning.

Love is hell It's definitely true.

A figure walked past the two guards at the entrance and into the dark corridor. Follow the signs to a narrow corner on the other side. Before finding an interior area with people sitting and drinking in various corners, Mina sighed in relief when she found that the interior of the store didn't look as scary as the hallway. The atmosphere didn't look bad when paired with soft jazz music playing in the background.

Mina headed over to the bar counter and saw that there was still some space available. She sat down tiredly and ordered a drink from the young bartender.

The woman took a sip of a beautiful cocktail and sighed heavily as she thought about the reason she had chosen to sit alone instead of at the annual banquet of her husband's high-ranking company.

Mina's laugh caught in her throat when she thought of his face when she walked away from a fake social event. Jason's dark face was filled with anger. There wasn't even a hint of guilt in his eyes even though it was all because of him.

It was because he chose to cheat on her in cold blood.

Mina raised her hand and waved it around a bit to chase away the tears that were threatening to fall again. She decided to order another drink, this time containing stronger alcohol. before seriously looking around the store for the first time

She found that most of the customers were middle-aged men, but the seats next to her were all young girls who looked similar in age. Mina narrowed her eyes slightly to adjust her vision to be clearer than before. Dim light inside the store A young girl in a black dress was pouring alcohol for middle-aged men. Her cute face was adorned with a small smile that shone brightly in the darkness. Mina was surprised at how beautiful her smile was. They get along well with those dull eyes.

Bright yet sad

Like moonlight on the darkest night

Mina thought of the small girl and smiled softly. Before quickly turning away when the other person's eyes met, Mina sheepishly cleared her throat, pretending to be interested in the drink in her hand.

Got caught.

The woman shook her head slightly, trying to shake off thoughts about the girl across the table. She straightened up and downed the remaining drink at the bottom of her glass.

“Are you here alone?” Mina widened her eyes slightly in shock at the sudden appearance of the girl with the sweet smile she had secretly been looking at.

“Uh, yes,” Mina replied indifferently.

“May I sit with you?” A small smile was sent again.

“Yes,” the woman replied dazedly. Thoughts of going home must be put away for now.

“Please give me the same drink,” the girl turned to the bartender.

“Oh, for the ladies as well,” she continued, nodding towards Mina. The young bartender nodded in agreement.

"Thank you, but I've had enough for tonight," Mina said politely.

“Don't deny it. Let's stay and drink a little more,” the younger man's clear face said, his voice pleading. Mina's heart softened when she noticed a glint in the other's eyes.

“Alright.”

“My name is Chaeyoung, Son Chaeyoung. Nice to meet you,” a small voice said, raising the drink glass and clinking it gently.

"Myoi Mina, you can just call me Mina." Mina replied with a laugh in her throat.

“Ah, it's a Japanese person. You look very beautiful though,” the little one praised as he intently swept his eyes across the other person's face. Chaeyoung's small face looked serious as he slowly traced his eyes from his eyebrows. Another person's nose until the lips

"Don't stare like that," Mina's mouth curled into a straight line as she laughed a little at the younger man's expression.

"I'm sorry." The small figure smiled with amusement without the expression of the person who had just apologized.

"I'm still laughing," Mina pretended to sound stern.

“Well, you're funny,” the girl smiled, raising her chin to look at the other person.

“Funny.” Mina raised her eyebrows in surprise.

“You're the first person to say this,” the woman continued.

“And what do they usually say about you?” a small voice asked.

“Um…” Mina thought about it.

“Probably someone who is arrogant, cold, but beautiful,” the older one said jokingly, earning a smile from the younger one.

“Can you see how funny you are?” Chaeyoung laughed a little.

“But those people were only right,” the small figure continued.

“Where is it?”

“You're beautiful. Other than that, that's not all.” Chaeyoung's dull eyes stared at the other person seriously. Mina smiled calmly, but couldn't help but feel the heat on her face.

“You're making me embarrassed,” Mina said honestly, giving her a sweet smile that she didn't do often, probably because of the increased alcohol or the girl in front of her. Mina herself isn't so sure.

“It shows that I have achieved my goal.” The girl smiled mischievously.

"So what is your purpose?" Mina asked softly. His beautiful eyes matched with the other person's light brown eyes.

As if there was a voice calling from a distant land, Mina reached up and touched Slender's face, using her thumb to gently spread it on her cheek. Chaeyoung smiled as he raised his hand to hold the other's hand.

“What kind of truth do you want?” Chaeyoung pressed his face against the other person's hand and asked softly. His eyes still stared at the other person without stopping.

“What kind are there?”

“The first truth is that I want to get to know you.” Chaeyoung caressed the other man's thin hand.

“But if you ask about the truth beyond that.. I want to hug you.”

“Is this enough for you?” the small voice continued, pleading but firm in Mina's eyes, smiling with a giddy heart. His cheeks were hot, as if his entire body was being burned.

A storm of desire hit the two of them mercilessly, the two bodies crushing each other without giving in as the small door inside the luxury hotel closed. Mina's thin lips pressed against the same position over and over again like a person thirsting for the taste of love, her slender tongues working together like a perfectly synchronized melody.

The smaller man tightened the taller man's body closer than before, his thin hand caressing his narrow waist until his hips widened. Mina let out a giddy moan of pleasure at the touch.

“You're beautiful,” Chaeyoung muttered, kissing the other man's face.

“I can be more beautiful than this.”

“More than you could imagine,” Mina whispered, leading the other person to the large bed in the center of the room.

Chaeyoung gulped loudly as his eyes wandered over the slender figure in front of him with a narrow waist and round hips as he walked. Her pretty face was a faint shade of red. Both beautiful eyes that were wet with emotion, Chaeyoung let out a low moan of satisfaction when Mina's slender hand pulled her in to feel the hot touch of those small lips again.

The short dress was pulled off with the help of the person below, followed by the piece of person below who had the same fate. The naked bodies of both of them hugged each other as they felt the heat rushing towards them. in every sense of the word

Mina gasped and shivered. His thin lips pressed into a straight line, trying to block it out, as if his senses were being completely swallowed up. There is no black and white at this time, there is no good or bad to measure. Only the gentle touch left by another person remains.

Chaeyoung pressed his forehead against the other person's, his thin hands cupping the beautiful face beneath her body, turning her to meet his eyes. She was mesmerized by these eyes. The girl looked at them again before asking.

“Let me hug you tighter. Is it okay?” Chaeyoung's pleading voice whispered close to his ear.

“hug me or fxck me, do whatever you wantbabe”

A hoarse voice answered.

Mina's open invitation brought Chaeyoung into a state of emotion that she could no longer contain. The small body immediately crushed the other, the sweet kiss turning into a heated one as Chaeyoung sent his tongue to explore the line of beautiful teeth, biting lightly, causing the other to moan loudly in his throat. before starting to explore the base of the neck It spread to the harmony that was being danced with satisfaction by the thin-lipped girl who was drunkenly drinking in the beauty of the older one.

Mina was startled when the little man mercilessly sucked on her soft nub. Instead of stopping her, he hugged the other man closer than before. The sound of Mina's dizzy moans was making the girl happy. Chaeyoung pressed his small nose into the soft flesh again before lowering himself down onto his flat stomach, breathing heavily especially when Chaeyoung sent his hot tongue caressing the entire area.

The girl writhed in agony. Her pretty face lifted up and she gasped as the girl moved down to the most tender part of her face. Mina was startled again as the arousal hit her hard. Until the softness was replaced by another person's slender fingers, until he had to vent a lot of his suppressed feelings by pinching the bedsheet until it was rumpled, and also letting out a sweet moan that was loud and unashamed.

The passion that the girl gave her did not end just once, as if she had gone back to a time in her life that had been the happiest, when sex was still a torment filled with pleasure. The moment when the fire in the heart and body was filled to the brim. Mina willingly allowed everything to go on like that all night, unable to deny that she was extremely happy and heartwarming.

There was only a moment, just a moment, that she truly felt guilty about the action in front of her. But when he experienced the sweet happiness, the embarrassment that he should have floated away as if he had never existed.

Somebody brought herself back to the luxurious penthouse in the middle of the city at noon. She looked around before finding only emptiness, an emptiness that was not caused by the number of people who had been or should have been there. Living like a cheating husband, but feeling extremely destitute, like being left lonely in the midst of a desert of loneliness.

“Merry Christmas. May your day be great –

CY”

Myoi Mina sighed heavily as she read the girl's message one more time before stuffing the small piece of paper that the other person had left behind in her favorite book on the shelf. She chose to keep it even though it wasn't necessary. But if you want to throw it away, you can't do it. Mina smiled as she thought of the other person's pretty face and her heart skipped a beat as if she was announcing to the whole world that she was extremely happy about her sin.

Mina was surprised that she didn't feel as guilty as she had imagined despite having just cheated on her long-term husband. Even if he did it himself, a person like Mina is not a woman who would take revenge on someone by doing something like that herself. Some people closed their eyes tiredly. In fact, it may be as they say, other people's faults are as much as the mountains. Our faults are as big as a hair's strands. To Mina, the hair seemed too much compared to how she felt right now.

“We meet again,” a small voice said, throwing himself down next to him without leaving even the slightest bit of space.

"That's it. We meet again." Mina smiled back.

“Meeting for the first time may have been a coincidence, but if we meet again it is fate. Have you ever heard that?” Chaeyoung asked, tilting his head to look.

“If the first time was a coincidence But this next time was intentional, is it fate as well?” Mina asked, meeting the other person's eyes that were filled with a sparkle different from yesterday's lone moon-like sadness.

“If that's the case... then that means you chose to carve your own destiny, is that correct?”

“You can say that,” Mina smiled, acknowledging Chaeyoung as a smart and charming girl beyond her years. Unable to tell why, Mina didn't want to think about the root cause. She only knew that she liked this child so much that she pretended to wander outside until she felt like she should find a warm place to be comfortable.

Before quickly walking back into the same bar again with a different feeling than yesterday, not only was the body in need of warmth. But if this dry heart is the same, it cries out for another person's touch and cute face to the point where it cannot be stopped.

“It's all Christmas. Why are you still working?” Mina asked, trying to break the hot atmosphere that wasn't from the outside temperature. But if it's the heat from both her and another person's body She knew that the girl was also in heat and couldn't stop it.

“There is no reason to stop here.”

“Ah, then.”

“And I want to come and wait for someone,” Chaeyoung continued before leaving behind the twinkling eyes that he liked to do. Mina burst out laughing.

“Can I ask who it is?”

“I can't tell you. He'll find out soon.” Chaeyoung shook his head back and forth as he leaned against the backrest in a relaxed manner.

“Then I think I know.” Mina leaned closer.

“You know it now.” A small hand wrapped around the other man's waist before pulling him up to sit awkwardly next to each other.

“There are no secrets in this world.” Someone whispered softly before letting the passion like last night continue without getting bored.

From a chance meeting for the first time to determining your own destiny on the second meeting and following a thrilling path filled with the idea that you can do whatever you want. The next time will not happen easily. no complexity There was no guilt, only warmth when we met.

And the embrace that was smoldering with each other's desire was so full that it was impossible to withdraw. and never thought of withdrawing again

And the saying that there are no secrets in the world is so far-fetched that it is difficult to admit that her relationship with a child is currently the topic of her and her husband's quarrels even at this time. As the other party continued to shout loudly with rage, she was still surprised that she didn't feel the slightest bit of regret for what she had done. Not even a fraction

“You want revenge on me,” Jason said tremblingly. His face was red with anger.

“I don't need to take revenge on you.” Mina, who had been motionless, turned to look at him disdainfully, none of Jason's vicious words could hurt her. There wasn't even a single word, but the fact that he thought that what she had done was revenge was so wrong, he was too narcissistic to forgive.

“Myoi Mina, you're crazy.” Jason shook his head, his eyes showing confusion. Mina looked at the situation with indifference.

"Yes, I'm crazy. That's right."

“You cheated on me with a girl in a bar, don't you think that's a bit too much?” Jason's gaze went from anger to disappointment. His eyes held a glint of pain. But it's too late, too late

Mina doesn't care about him anymore. She chose to let him stand there as if he didn't know what to do. There was nothing left. Any love that used to be given today is only disgust. It's only for people like Jason to be disgusted that he was the one who ruined everything. But acted like it was all her fault.

Mina moved out of the penthouse and returned to the condo she had bought when her parents were still living there. Chaeyoung has become a part of her life and the girl is obsessed with her. Enough to come back to you every night after work. Chaeyoung still works at the bar, Mina doesn't ask why. As for Chaeyoung, he has no reason not to go, as he previously said, the relationship is based on physical matters.

No one ever dared to say out loud what their hearts were feeling, probably because the remnants of the broken heart where trust in a relationship had become difficult. Even the girl Mina didn't know what kind of environment the other person grew up in. But it can be guessed that it wouldn't go smoothly, so it's not surprising that Chaeyoung herself is so broken that she barely has the energy left to form any relationship.

“Stayed up late again.” Chaeyoung tiredly buried her face in the other man's shoulder. Her beautiful, youthful face made Mina want to ask many times what it was that brought this girl to this place, here, in life. like this

“Are you tired?” Some people answered the question with a question that avoided answering the truth. That she was actually waiting for another person and didn't want to admit it.

“A little bit, but it's okay.”

“Um, that's good.” Mina looked in the other direction, once again feeling that the current relationship had turned into a thick rope that was holding the two of us tighter and tighter, to the point of feeling pain at times when trying to force it. Move more than you need to. The end result probably won't be much different. We must be torn apart again.

“Miss, do you think I should stop working at the bar?” The girl suddenly said something she was thinking about. It's as if the other person can definitely sense each other's feelings. Chaeyoung is a smart child. She always knows everything.

“Do you want to break up?” Mina asked again.

“I don't know, I just thought you might want me to stop going there.” For the first time, Mina felt the uncertainty in the other person's voice as the eyes that always held a twinkle changed to a glint. Trembling eyes that could not be closed completely

“Little girl, you and I are fragile. We've been torn apart enough. Do you think so?” Mina finally answered. Even though she received Chaeyoung's disappointed look in response, she couldn't find any words to console her. Even though inside her own heart was suffering like no other person.

“It's true, we've had enough of our disagreements. Enough is enough,” Chaeyoung muttered absentmindedly. Some bodies leaned against another person. Before embracing, hiding our faces and the tears that flowed as if it was the anguish we were avoiding. It comes back again whether we want it or not, maybe like Mina said before.

She can decide her own destiny and she doesn't need Son Chaeyoung to be Myoi. Mina is really good at determining her own destiny. Personally, she would have to accept every fate that happened. She could never choose. Not once.

current

“It's time for me to determine my own destiny. I'm sorry I have to go. But I really can't live by pretending I don't love you.

Love you always and forever.

CY”

Soon Chaeyoung left and left a final message like the first time they met. But this time it had a strong impact like a big storm called love. The love that you don't want to hear don't want to receive I don't want to feel But she couldn't choose, she couldn't choose to feel.

For Mina No matter how many times I tried to fool myself that the last break in my life was love for Jason, that wasn't true. It was hard to accept that she was broken once again by her own hands. Chaeyoung was gone. There was no more warmth that sheltered her when her exhausted life was completely lonely. Christmas is here again, this year it's colder than ever and that's why I pretended to walk past this bar.

It seems like Chaeyoung's smile is still hidden somewhere in this world. Many times I tried to look through the crowd to find the beautiful eyes that used to stare at her so crazy, but found only emptiness. always It was like this bar would be heaven at times and a mess for her more often than not, but she loved it so much. love to get hurt

Love being able to feel Son Chaeyoung.

Because Chaeyoung has become the sweetest happiness and the torment that must be paid for...for a lifetime.

The End...

Anyone who has read this far, thank you very much. This is the shortest fic ever written. It's so short that I feel like why did you write it? Haha. Anyway, I'd like to leave it with you. I bow my head to your chest.