I left the life of my youth And ran barefoot for 3 years.

After I bid farewell to my family and classmates, don't be disheartened.

daily life And my future is so uncertain

I told them to believe in me. "We will definitely be successful."

Because it's not just me alone, there are 5 other lives that are suffering together. Let's be happy together.

I carry all the burdens on my shoulders. and looking for a way

I can only endure so many burdens. and those failures

And now I want to see the light So I set my future on this path.

God asked me, "You won't regret it later, right?"

So I replied without hesitation: "Why should I be sorry?"

What happened after this stage It may succeed or fail.

But whatever it is I will never stop moving forward.

There's nothing special. In addition to true intention

Hanbin's rap part during part of the song Chi Max

Hanbin I know me It's Hanbin who, no matter how many times he falls down, never stops dreaming and moving forward. In the past, I had to carry many burdens. Until you are successful and became an icon To have so many icons who love you.

We know best. How much difficult story did our Hanbin go through? How hard did our Hanbin try? And how much our Hanbin loves us.

If I could ask God for one wish, I would say, “I want to be the person who stands by you when you are sad or sad. So that I can comfort and encourage the people I love."

In this story, we want to try to tell the story of a friend who loves an artist. Our feelings of wanting to comfort and be beside you. The sad feeling of not being able to do anything except tweet encouragement and wait and worry from a distance.

If we have the opportunity to be next to you What shall we do? To comfort our loved ones and give them strength.

We wrote this story because we were just thinking, worrying, and thinking about the various days. and think that if I were there What do we do? Let him know how much we love him. And how much do you care about him?

Once again, this story is just the story of the author's imagination. It's pure imagination.

12 June 2019

Hanbin announces his retirement from the group. Because there is news of being involved with drugs. There is a message from Chatgakaotok as evidence. After I saw this news, my heart was broken. I pray that the news I see isn't true. I wish it was just my nightmare. But everything is a reality that happened.

Hanbin posted a message on Instagram and expressed his condolences and responsibility towards fans and iKON by resigning. This was a very quick removal. YG, the agency, was very quick to remove Hanbin's photos from the iKON members. At that time, my heart was even more broken.

"You don't have to apologize. You haven't done anything wrong yet." "You just thought about trying it but you haven't really used it yet, right?" "Why did you get it so quickly? I can't get over it." "I don't want these things to happen to people. For having tried so hard." "This news has been a long time coming. And why did the prosecutor just revive the case?"

You don't have to be so worried about our feelings that you have to leave the group. We forgive you.” Many messages were tweeted as soon as the news broke. Fans were saddened and shocked by the incident. But all we can do is tweet our support. Waiting for the agency, waiting for Hanbin

Why do these things have to happen to the artist I love? It happens to people who try very hard. People who write songs every day People who are like a songbook for the label People who do everything to make their friends and themselves successful.

Concert without Hanbin A song that won't have Hanbin singing. An icon without Hanbin anymore I really can't picture them. What will Hanbin be like now? What will he be like now? This is what's floating around in my head.

Many icons are saddened by the incident and have a hard time accepting it. Until time has passed But our memories and nostalgia never fade away. There are still icons who tweet waiting for the day Hanbin will return. There are still people tweeting asking this story to be a dream. Even though it was a long dream, they wanted it to be just a dream. "We're still waiting for you, Hanbin."

A long time has passed Both concerts in Japan Calling for an investigation and Hanbin's birthday Every icon is always thinking and waiting for you. Including myself who is still waiting and begging for Hanbin to come back No matter what status he came back with. But I pray I just want to see if he's happy now. Will he get over his sadness yet? And I keep asking for blessings every day.”

May my feelings be sent to him. May he receive the feeling of missing and caring for him from all the fans. And may he smile again.” This is what I pray to God every day. There is never a day that I forget the man named "Kim Han Bin". Kim Han Bin who tried so hard. Kim Hanbin who dreams of success

Kim Hanbin who is dedicated with all his might I have never forgotten this Hanbin.

Today is like every other day. Before going to sleep, I have to make a wish to God. I clasped my hands together in the middle of my chest. Before closing his eyes and asking God, “God, I hope Kim Hanbin can smile again. I hope he gets back to doing what he loves. May the thoughts and feelings of the icon who loves and cares for him be extended to him as well.

No matter how long it takes, I will wait.” I opened my eyes and slowly lay down.

“Are you really worried about him?” A middle-aged man's low voice sounded in my head.

"Yes, I'm worried about him," I replied in thought. //Maybe I think too much and think that there are people who understand and listen to my feelings.

"The blessing that you pray for every day I want him to know those feelings." The voice in his head sounded again.

“Yes, I want to comfort and encourage him,” I replied in my head again.

“Even if you have to suffer in exchange, it will be okay, right?” he spoke again.

"There is nothing more painful and suffering than Seeing the person we love hurt and being unable to do anything but wait and support from a distance again,” I replied.

“Make a wish, if you accept the conditions.” The voice in my head sounded incessantly. But I always reply because it at least soothes the sadness in my heart that cannot be expressed.

"Please allow me to be by his side when he is distressed or sad. Please let me be the person who comforts and encourages him that day,” I asked in a loud voice as I closed my eyes and lay on the bed.

“I can only send you to the past. and make it possible for you to participate in that time But when you return to the present time Everything that happened in the past The person you met what you have done Will it be only a faint memory of the person at that time or may it just be a dream that cannot be imagined?

Do you still want to make a wish?” A low voice sounded in my head again.

"If this is true I still want to ask,” I replied. //Even though this is a story that is hard to believe, But it's the only thing right now that comforts my sorrowful heart.

“Choose the time you want to return to. And the role you want, come here,” he said again.

//If it was the best time it would be before it all happened// I thought to myself.

“I want to leave before Hanbin greets the woman. Before he felt so hopeless that he wanted to use drugs. During those 7 days before that, I only asked for 7 days for me to be a part of him,” I said with tears in my eyes.

“I will send you to the time you requested. and sent you away as his long-time friend. It might be an imaginary friend he made but you would exist, but 7 days might be too long. You must give me something no less important than the time you want to return to.” He offered to me.

"I can't imagine," I replied sadly.

“In exchange for the time of happiness you will receive,” he said in a soft voice.

"My happiness?" I replied with curiosity.

“You will have to endure 4 sorrows in life instead of things that will make you happy. To make up for the time that has passed Will you accept it?” he said.

“How much suffering is there?” I asked.

“It is suffering that will replace your happiness. But it's not a lot of suffering or very serious suffering. I just want to steal a little bit of your happiness. 4 days have passed,” he said.

“I don't want those times, girl. But if you want to request up to 7 days, you need to exchange. But I promise that I will definitely not steal your most important happiness. I have come to help you.”

“Why me?” I asked.

“I can feel it from your pure heart. A god like me may not be a god who can create, destroy, or change anything. But I can make a human like you hope for a small matter.” He said in a kind-hearted tone.

“Now, are you willing to trade a little happiness for more days in the past?” he asked again.

“Yes, I will,” I replied.

“But there are rules when going back. There's only one rule you must keep. That is, don't build more relationships than I've given you. And don't change the events of those moments that will affect the future. Can you do it? ” he asked me again.

“If I change it, what will happen?” I asked.

“You will be stuck in that moment and have to live in that role without being able to change or go back. You will be forgotten by your family and friends who were in your memory and who were with you until this moment. ant Your life will be changed forever. And it might make you disappear

If the people of the past forget you, you will disappear,” he warned.

"Yes," I answered. //This might be a voice in my head. Is it a dream or something inside my heart? After these words and thoughts, I fell asleep.

I opened my eyes and stretched before getting out of bed and walking towards my usual corner window. //Pack// My head hit something hard. It woke me up from my morning sleepiness. “What the fuck is this?” I muttered to myself.

"Haven't you stopped being so clumsy?" A man's voice sounded behind me. I turned around and looked at the speed of light with thoughts in my head. //Who the hell, who dared to enter my room//

"Hanbin," I said softly as tears slowly welled up.

“What are you shocked about? We see each other every day, okay?” he said with a smile before walking over and rubbing my head gently.

“This isn't a dream, is it?” I said in a slightly trembling voice.

“Hey, what is wrong with you? Did you take an overdose?” he said before sitting on the bed with a familiar expression.

//Wasn't last night a dream? What happened?// I thought to myself as I put my hands together to hold my head before collapsing.

"Hey!! Miso, what's wrong?" Hanbin quickly rushed over to support me.

“What is my name?” I asked him again. with a shocked tone

“Miso,” he said softly, staring at my face.

"Do we know each other?" I asked, startled by the sudden urge to snore again.

"Um," he replied shortly, before reaching out and cupping my forehead.

"What's wrong with you? Are you sick?" he asked with concern.

“Please tell me my story,” I said, staring into his face. With tears ready to flow all the time //If this is truly the blessing I ask for, I will do anything. To preserve you in the future//

"Okay, if it makes you stop being shocked and.....stop crying," he said, staring at me gently.

“We have known each other since childhood. At that time, she was the one who said that she wanted me to be a singer. And then she was the one who signed me up for an audition. You and I are as close as brother and sister. And we've always been together like this after her parents died. She was still crying when I became a trainee. Then you have to go to the dormitory. And look now She chases me every day lol,” he said before laughing softly in his throat.

As soon as he finished his words, I immediately appeared and hugged him. "It's the truth," I said softly.

"Don't let anything happen to anyone else. I'm stressed enough already,” he said with a sigh. before getting up and walking out of the room

The first day I got here I tried to explore everything I could. Try to collect information about past events. He and I were really related like the gods had told me. We have had time together from the past until now. We have many moments together. So much so that I want to thank that god for granting me the most wonderful blessing. I always try to observe him while he's sitting and making music.

Hanbin spent most of his free day in the recording studio. He stayed in there for nearly 15 hours before he walked outside to meet me.

"I'm hungry. Let's go get something to eat," he always said with a smile to me.

"Uh.........it's up to you," I replied with a smile.

"So......grilled intestines? I really want to eat. It's your favourite," he said and walked over and patted me on the shoulder. “Go change your shirt. It's really cold outside,” he said as he walked into his room.

//Grilled fillings? What now? It's not very good. Where did I go to like to eat? Oh, why did I have to encounter something like this? It's going to be good.// I mumbled in my heart to myself and looked a little annoyed (or not).

The two of us walked together to a grilled sausage shop near our accommodation. I've never been outside myself. Today I stayed in the house all day. When it came out it was strange, but for him this must have been a daily routine.

“Order,” he said, nodding and looking at me.

“You ordered it, haha,” I replied with a dry laugh.

"Okay," he said and expertly turned to order food.

"You're a bit different today. It's like you're not the same person I knew," he said, staring curiously.

“Haha, I'm not feeling well. And I don't seem to remember much." I said to the best of my ability, wiping off a sweat.

"Ha!! You don't remember much anymore? And do you still remember me?" he said in an angry tone.

"I remember," I replied with a smile.

“Sigh.....I think the tumor in your brain is enlarging again. Until you don't recognize me anymore," he said in a sad tone.

“What did you say? I have a tumor on my brain?” I asked.

“Did you forget?” he said with an even more worried expression.

"Um," I replied shortly.

“She has a gray tumor on her brain. It may enlarge and may press on the nerve. And it might cause her death. But it's nothing. I will take care of you until you have surgery,” he said with a smile.

"Surgery?" I said shortly.

“Let it be. You can eat it now,” he said and popped a piece of grilled intestine into my mouth. //Do I really have to eat this?// I thought to myself, but couldn't help opening my mouth.

I tried to force myself to eat it before I hurriedly swallowed it down as quickly as I could and downed the water. //gulp//

“This is soju-nii,” I choked as soon as the water entered my mouth.

“Haha, you look funny today,” he said, handing me a tissue.

I smile a little. After that we continued eating. I chose to order grilled pork instead. At the dinner table, I realized that How gentle is my Kim Hanbin? And how happy he is, and what makes him want to use drugs? No matter what, I have to find out and try to warn him as much as I can right now.

I probably can't change anything. But I'll try my hardest.

Day 2 I started the day with the same daily routine. That is, keep walking and exploring, searching here and there. //If you look at his phone You must know a lot of things//I thought to myself. But will he and I be so close that we'll ask to play with each other's phones?

“Hanbin,” I called him as he was about to enter the recording studio again.

"Huh!" he replied shortly and walked over to me sitting on the sofa.

"Phone," I said softly, causing him to bring his face closer to mine.

“What phone?” he asked me, his face almost touching mine.

"Uh....." I was stunned, not daring to speak.

“Did you lose your phone again?” he said, frowning and looking at me.

"Yes, that's right, my phone disappeared again." Even though I don't know. Is this my phone?

“Use mine first. But don't play for too long. My eyes will hurt soon. And don't go see anything stressful. Until it gives me a headache again." He said with warm words as always. With his hand, he took out the phone in his trouser pocket and handed it to me. before walking back to the recording room

What's in his phone? The first app I opened Of course it had to be Gagautok. I pray that he hasn't greeted that woman yet. I anxiously scrolled through the message. But there was no message found in the news. Probably not today. I keep searching, and I know how much burden this Hanbin must carry.

Hanbin is always thinking of other people. His phone is full of plans and important dates of his significant other. It brought tears to my eyes without me knowing. The more messages I see in the group chat of icons, the more I see them. My heart only hurts more when I know that in the not-too-distant future

They must be separated. This Hanbin will encounter suffering. An icon without Hanbin The member who broke the rules just to say how much he missed Hanbin. Right now my heart is hurting. So painful that I don't change the moment Even if I have to disappear

The sadness in my heart This caused the symptoms and diseases I was suffering from in this dimension to worsen. I have a really bad headache. It was as if my head was being crushed on both sides by heavy metal. I fell, clutching at the tears that still flowed endlessly. No matter how much my body aches, it's not as much as my heart aches right now.

On the 5th day, I opened my eyes in a hospital. Next to my bed was a small white man who was asleep. I stared at that face with concern. and gently used my hand to touch my head Before he reached his hand up and grabbed my hand.

"She's been asleep for two days," he said, slowly raising his head.

"Um," I replied shortly.

“What's wrong? You've never been this sad before. The last time I saw your tears was the day your parents passed away. From then on she never cried again. Even though she knew she had a serious illness But you've never once allowed yourself to cry, so why? Why do you cry every time you see my face this time?"

He said, furrowing his brows and staring at my face.

I couldn't help but cry when I knew what was to come. Tears flow from my eyes every time. Really every time I've seen him up close like this I tried to hold back my tears before reaching out and touching his face.

“I don't have much time left. To be with a guy like this But you know what? Even if it's only a short period of time and how many bad things or diseases I have to face. I am very happy to spend this time with you. I want you to always remember. No matter what happens

You will always have me with you somewhere in this world or in your dreams and memories. I will always be with you. On the day that you are the saddest and most painful I'll stay with you in here." I said in a sad voice before slowly reaching out and touching his left chest.

“Who would let you disappear?” he said, holding my hand that was touching his chest.

“You're going to have to stay with me like this forever. Take care of me when I'm down. Give me the same encouragement you always have,” he said with another smile. before pulling my hand up to gently caress his cheek.

I spent days 3-5 sleeping and living in the hospital. I only have 2 days left to spend with him. I want to make these two days as meaningful as possible. I begged Hanbin to take me out. But he told me that he really couldn't leave, so all I could do was return to living inside the house as usual.

Hanbin who always gives me a smile He's changed a little today. He looked worried. //Or maybe this was the day it happened// I thought to myself before walking to the recording studio. I stopped at the front of the room with thoughts racing through my head. //Is it good to go in? Or should I not go in? Why am I suddenly afraid?// I thought about it for a long time. before deciding to open the door

"Hanbin," I greeted him softly. before he slowly turned around

"Who told you to come in?!" Have you forgotten that this is my personal space? It was a place she had no right to enter. In this house you can be anywhere but not here.” He shouted loudly at me before walking towards me.

I'm shaking all over. Tears seemed to overflow again. I looked down and saw that he was holding the phone tightly in his hand.

“What are you going to do?” I asked with tears streaming down my face. //You can't do that//I thought to myself.

“Get out,” he said softly before grabbing my shoulders and gently pushing me away.

“No!!” I shouted loudly. before reaching out and taking the phone from his hand.

"Give it back," he said angrily but tried to hold it back.

“I asked what you were going to do,” I said, my voice slowly getting louder.

"My business," he said, pulling the cell phone out of my hand.

"No matter what you do, Or how do you decide? I won't go out. And even if I have to disappear I can change it. I'll change it now. Right here and I will change it right now,” I said with determination in my voice before snatching the phone out of his hand and running out.

I keep running without knowing my destination. Just get away from him first. Hanbin followed me relentlessly. He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him.

“What the hell are you doing to me?” he shouted in my face.

“I'm about to do something crazy. To stop your crazy thoughts,” I replied.

"How do you know?" he said softly.

“What do you think you're doing to me? You thought that if you used it you would relieve your stress. Do you think you'll figure it out? And what about your fans? Your family, your friends, if you actually use it. And it soon became news. How much do you think the person who loves you will regret this? And how much regret will you yourself have to have?

Because of me, even if I disappear I won't let you do this." I said angrily. and water flowing all over the face

“Sorry, I'm sorry, I won't do it again. You should stop crying,” he said, reaching out and gently wiping away my tears.

“Promise,” I said, staring into his face.

"Um," he replied with a smile before hugging me.

We came back home. Before talking About the story that happened Hanbin almost said that. But because I went in first, the conversation was only when he greeted the woman. I blocked her messages and forbade Hanbin from getting involved with these things again.

“Can you promise me? That no matter what You won't interfere with this again,” I said as I glared at him.

“Well, I made a promise many times already. I promised it all the way,” he said with a smile.

"I know. How much do you care about me? You know that no matter what time it is You will always be with me somewhere. in my heart You've probably said that a hundred times already,” he said, rubbing the back of my head.

"Go to sleep now. I won't. Thank you," he said with a smile before walking into his room.

“Hanbin!” I called out to him again.

He turned and walked back towards me again. “What?” he said.

"Thank you for your promise," I said with a smile before hugging him.

"What's the matter, Grandma?" he said and hugged me back.

"Tomorrow I may not be there anymore. The story that happened might just be your dream. Or your fading memory Or I might disappear forever. But I want you to know that No matter what happens No matter what the road ahead is No matter how much more suffering you have to endure

I will always be with you deep in your heart. Will you promise me that? That no matter what happens always remember that there are fans who love and believe in you, fans who care and love you more than anything. They love you very much. As much as I love you," I said with tears in my eyes.

"Well, I know," he said. We hugged for a while. before retiring to their own rooms

I returned to the room and was about to lie down. “You broke the rules, do you know it?” The god's voice sounded again.

“I am very aware,” I replied.

“Have you made up your mind yet? that I would do something like this I can turn back time for you again. If you please,” he said to me.

"No, I will accept everything that happened," I said with determination in my voice.

"Even if you disappear forever It's nothing," the god told me again.

“Yes,” I responded.

"If you choose this path I can only let everything follow the laws of time.” The god spoke to me and disappeared.

Even if I disappear, it doesn't matter. It's really nothing. When I thought about it like this, I kept crying. And the time has passed.

Day 7

“Wake up,” Hanbin's voice whispered in my ear as I slept.

"Um," I responded softly. before slowly getting up

“What do you want to do today?” he asked me as soon as I got up.

“I want to spend the whole day with you. Not far away at all. I want to hold you forever. I want to look at your face until the last second of the day. I want to hold your hand. I want to remember you all day long,” I said, staring at Hanbin's face.

“Then let's do that,” Hanbin said with a smile before picking me up.

“Where are you taking me?” I shouted in shock.

"How about a shower?" he teased me.

"Are you crazy? You don't have to be like this. Haha," I said, laughing before he let me down.

"Wait outside," he said and walked out.

//Let's make the best of our last day// I thought like this and hurriedly went to take a shower and get dressed before walking towards Hanbin at the dining table.

"Please." Hanbin moved the chair for me to sit in. We ate together happily.

The whole day I spent playing with him, talking with him, laughing with him. and create many good memories together

But time always moves faster when we are happy. I really stayed with Hanbin all day. Now we are both sitting on the Ferris wheel. And Gal talked to each other.

“She still is. Always my little boy Every time I indulge you You will always be like this,” he said with a smile.

"Because I love you," I replied with a smile.

"How many times have you told me you love me today?" he said while counting on his fingers.

"I tell you I love you every 3 minutes haha" I said with a laugh.

“Have I ever told you I love you?” he asked, staring at me.

"Haha," I chuckled. //It's okay. Even if you don't love me, that's okay. I just want to say and tell you that's enough.//

"I love you," Hanbin said softly before slowly reaching towards me. His lips crashed onto mine, warm and soft. Before everything slowly fades away Before my body fades away

"Don't forget your promise," I said to him one last time before my body completely disintegrated.

June 12, 2019

IKON announces 10-country concert tour to celebrate song success

Love scenario

with over 500 million views after releasing the song The icon has continued to be successful and has rapidly increased its number of fans.

"What's behind this success?" This was the message of one of the hosts who interviewed the icon. After they became famous all over the world

“A woman. she is in a dream and is always in my heart I wrote this song to tell you that You never disappear Even though the whole story was just a dream that has ended,” Hanbin said with a smile.

"You said woman Do you have a boyfriend?” Pithikorn teasingly asked.

“Yes, she is my girlfriend. The only woman I love and have always loved He is someone I will never forget,” he said with a smile.

“And where is he now?” he asked again.

“He is in my heart,” Hanbin said, placing his hand on his left chest.

“Hanbin's women don't exist. You're just a dream But it was a dream that Hanbin thought was real, haha,” Tobbi said in his defense.

"Is this a joke?" The Phithikon acted amused.

“She has a personality. She is everyone's icon,” Hanbin concluded.

“I want to tell Iconic that even though our love will end in the future, But it will never fade from my heart. Thank you for everything that has passed. Thank you for your love and care. I promise to be a diligent Hanbin and a better Hanbin to make everyone proud,” he said with tears overflowing.

"I've never forgotten you. Even though now I'll never see you again."