When morality has disappeared from the heart

When lust is uncontrollable

When love happens in the wrong place

When happiness and desire arise at the wrong time

Girlfriend (secret)

...This novel is just a fictitious story.

Made according to the author's imagination.

There is no involvement in the real life of the actor.

and did not intend to refer to it in a derogatory way...

When morality has disappeared from the heart

When lust is uncontrollable

When love happens in the wrong place

When happiness and desire arise at the wrong time

Wang Yibo, as an energetic young businessman, is debating at a meeting for the company's big changes.

"How can you suddenly change like this? Father won't let you."

“If Dad wants to see the day when the company loses money and then goes bankrupt. I wouldn't change anything.”

“Yibo, you just came to work. What are you going to know?"

"Even though I've only been here for less than a month, Just by checking, you can tell that my father's company will definitely not last more than two years.”

"Are you cursing me?"

“I think Dad should study and see where the business market is now. What are most people interested in? If you are still stuck in the same old business. Prepare to go bankrupt."

The father stood up and slammed the table. Loud insults spread throughout the conference room.

The employees were trembling with fear. Walked out of the room one by one.

Only the owner of the provocative words remains. Sitting and laughing with satisfaction

“Just now, I still can't control my emotions. Father, do you think you can control or be someone's boss?"

"If you are sure that what you think is really good, He went out and did his own thing. Don't interfere with my work."

“I have been waiting for this word for a long time. I don't want to walk in my father's footsteps until I'm old and nothing will get better. I've already submitted my resignation letter. Please father sign it for me."

The young man stood up and whistled out of the room. Leaving the fifty-year-old man alone to control his anger.

"Khun Po, are you going to start a game show company?"

"Um, if you're interested, you can come work with me, Mr. Ju."

"I'm interested. Very interested. I'd like to design something other than children's product events. I'm bored."

"Hahaha. Then come design the scenes in the show for me."

"Alright, but what kind of game show will Khun Po make?"

“Mainly, it must be about the artist. Not an actor in the industry Because now a lot of people are interested in these programs. As for the main MC, I already thought about it. I will hire him to be the company's emcee. No matter which item There must be someone."

"Who is it? The person you chose."

"Xiao Zhan"

“Miss Xiao Zhan. who used to be a very famous artist."

"yes"

"But after getting married Xiao Zhan rarely accepts work.”

"I will make him famous again in the role of host."

He smiled at the corner of his mouth. His eyes indicate that he is thinking about something in his heart.

“Miss Xiao Zhan has already agreed. I contacted him to come talk to Mr. Po tomorrow."

“Thank you, Mr. Jiang. Please prepare a nice welcome for me.”

"What kind?"

"Private dinner"

"yes! And the rest of the team.."

"See you later. I would like to agree to a personal contract with him first.”

"Yes, yes."

“Remind him to come alone. My wife doesn't have to."

"yes"

The subordinate received orders from his boss with confusion. but coordinated as the boss wanted

The rooftop of a famous restaurant has been redecorated. There was only one table in the middle.

Decorative lights shine dimly. The utensils on the table were beautifully arranged.

A bittersweet drink was prepared chilled. Just waiting for people to try it.

"Hello, Mr. Xiao Zhan."

"Hello, Mr. Wang Yibo."

"Please take a seat."

"thank you"

A polite young man sat down as invited.

Your eyes turn to look at the atmosphere. It felt strange, like it wasn't a job agreement or contract signing.

The food was served. Wine is poured into glasses

The conversation begins

"Thank you very much for agreeing to be my host."

"pleased"

"There won't be any problems. If I were to ask for a personal contact number."

“Sure, from now on you are my boss. You can contact me at any time."

Wang Yibo handed the phone to Xiao Zhan and dialed the number.

"If you don't mind. Can I volunteer to deliver it to your house today? You won't have to take the car back yourself. Or call your wife to come pick you up.”

"You'd better not, I'm afraid."

“You are my person now. I want to make sure you're safe on your journey home at night. Which is the method that makes me most confident? It's about sending you home."

"but..."

"Don't deny each other kindness. I'd really be happy to send you off."

"yes"

A black sedan was driven away at speed. through a winding path Turn left and right as if the driver were the owner of the house.

"Do you know the way?"

"I just keep driving. At every intersection there was only left and right. If I guessed wrong, you would have told me.”

"That's it."

The two young men laughed softly.

Even if it's the first time meeting and talking. But I can't say I feel like they fit together well.

Maybe because they are men with similar working styles. Everything looks perfect without any effort.

The driver turned on the music. before gradually turning up the volume a little.

Singing along softly Turn to look at the face of the owner of the voice in the song.

"This is my song"

"Yes, this song is my favorite."

"I didn't think you'd like to hear it."

"I like your voice. What can I say? Actually, I'm your fan."

"Ah, thank you very much. It feels good."

“I am thrilled enough to know that you have agreed to meet today. So excited that last night I couldn't sleep."

“Hahaha, I'm excited too. To be able to work with fans like you."

Wang Yibo smiled widely.

"You said in an interview that you wrote this song yourself, right?"

“Yes, I wrote the lyrics myself. But I got a producer to help add the melody. When I wrote the lyrics I thought of a boy I once met. Since I wasn't very famous yet People hardly knew me at that time. But there was this child who stood and listened to me sing from the first song until the last. and secretly ran to find me backstage

Hand me a keychain. At that time I had a lot of encouragement. So I wanted to write a song to thank him."

"And do you know that child?"

“No, that day we didn't have time to ask each other's names. Because he ran away and disappeared first. He was probably 10 years old at the time. It's been 10 years since then. He should have grown into a young man."

"If that kid knew you wrote a song for him He should be very happy.”

"I don't know if he knows or not. And I don't know if he still likes me now or not."

"If you have the chance to meet him."

“I will be very happy. I would say to him that he is a very important support. Because at that time I was very discouraged. I almost stopped everything about being an artist. But he made me feel At least doing what you like. Even if there's only one person you like or none at all. It can't change what I like."

The car slowly slowed down and stopped in front of a white fence.

Xiao Zhan opened the door, walked out, closed the door, and bowed his head.

"Thank you very much for coming."

"nevermind See you at the company tomorrow."

"yes"

Xiao Zhan stood and waited until the black car was out of sight. So he disappeared into the house. And he didn't notice that the same car had turned around again.

The photograph was taken from the glove box.

Wang Yibo lifted the picture and compared it with the house in front of him.

"It's the same, nothing has changed."

Wang Yibo moved his tie to loosen the knot. Unbutton your shirt. Pull the shirt off the pants. Slumped down on the sofa

Run your eyes around the room. before smiling with satisfaction

Photographs of the artist named Xiao Zhan were all over the walls of the room. There are both photos that were taken for general work and personal photos that have never been seen.

“Finally able to reach you, Xiao Zhan.”

He muttered to himself. Before picking up the photo that had been taken just a few minutes ago, it was considered.

“When I found out there was another person in the house. How sorry I am Will you ever know?”

A black ink pen scribbled on a picture of a woman he didn't want to see.

"Is your life really happy? With that girl I remember you being happier before.”

Past

"Brother, I'll give it to you."

A red heart-shaped keychain was thrust into the hand of a young, budding artist.

The little boy who owned the heart keychain smiled so hard that his eyes almost closed.

Cheeks are rosy pink, making the face look doubly cute and adorable.

"thank you"

A short thank you But the importance is buried deep in the heart.

I really like this person and will always follow him no matter what happens.

“Why do you like Xiao Zhan so much, Yibo?”

"I don't know. I can't answer. The more I see how many people love him, The more I will love him, the more I will love him.”

“You like him this much. Why don't you go to a concert or a fan meeting sometime?"

"Fans like me Want to do something special than others? Even though we haven't met each other yet. But one day I will be closer to him than anyone ever has.”

“What is this about you? In short, how do you like him? Really just fans?

No answer was given to the other party. There were only thoughts running around in my head.

A special feeling that arises in the heart

The feeling of not wanting to be like anyone else

The feeling of wanting to be closer to him than everyone else.

“Have you seen it yet? Xiao Zhan's news."

"um"

"Why do you look so sad?"

"I just didn't think he'd get married so soon."

"As a fan You should be happy, Yibo. He's happy. You must be happy, right?"

"Is it necessary for me to be happy for his love?"

"Ha! What's wrong with you?"

"It's all just beginning."

Wang Yibo grabbed his mobile phone and called.

“Next, if I have any business contact with Mr. Xiao Zhan, Please pass me first. I'll be the one to talk to him."

"Yes, Mr. Wang."

"Please give me his schedule."

"I'll take it to the office tomorrow morning."

"thank you very much"

He hung up the phone and dialed another number to contact again.

"Hello, Mr. Wang."

“Sorry for calling you now. I don't know if it bothers you too much.”

"Not at all."

"There's a meeting tomorrow morning. The way to the company passes your house. I'll stop by to pick you up. will travel together"

"nevermind You don't have to be difficult. I can travel on my own now."

"It's not difficult at all. It's even better. I'll be able to talk to you about work along the way. In case you can help think of good ideas before going to the meeting."

"Is that good? My idea was nothing good."

“I want the show to be the best it can be. Therefore, I would like to get the opinion of a host like you as well. I want a casual-looking item. Let you be yourself Viewers will feel fun and relaxed as well.”

"yes"

"I'll see you tomorrow at eight o'clock."

"okay"

"Good night 

yes"

"Ha! Oh, yes.”

Xiao Zhan put down the phone in a daze. He could feel that this was not normal.

And I don't know what else will happen from now on.

Wang Yibo drove the car to pick me up at the front of the house as told.

Along the way, he didn't appear to have any strange behavior.

That made Xiao Zhan more comfortable and relaxed.

The lack of pride between the boss and subordinates causing the gap between relationships to gradually become narrower without realizing it

“I like listening to this kind of music. After listening, I felt comfortable. That's why I like your music."

"It's unbelievable that you like to listen to this kind of music. I thought you would like to listen to international music or instrumental music.”

“They also listen. But I don't like this much."

"Do you know how to play music?"

"Piano and classical guitar. After playing a little"

“Wow, I can only play the guitar. I'd like to be able to play the piano. But there was no opportunity to learn.”

"If you're free, you can go to my house. I will teach you. I've been playing that piano since I was a child. familiar with it And maybe you need to teach me how to play the guitar.”

“I didn't play that well. You may accidentally play better than me.”

"You have to try it."

Wang Yibo smiled.

It's been like this every day since the first day Xiao Zhan came to work at the company.

A black sedan was parked in front of the house almost every morning. To get the company's only MC to go to work and film the show.

and come back and deliver it to your door almost every day after the work is finished.

The topics of conversation in the car during the trip keep changing. The two of them talked more and more.

Likeability, trust, new relationships gradually develop.

"Where would you like to eat for lunch today? Xiao Zhan, what would you like to eat?"

"The original shop was good. I think it's close to the company. You won't have to drive far."

"Don't you want to eat anything special?"

"No, I can eat everything. It's up to you to choose."

"Can you just call me by my name? We've known each other for a month. Calling him his last name seems very distant."

"Because you are my boss."

"Let's change our status to be co-workers, friends. Just calling us by name is enough."

"Will it be good?"

“Good, I'm very pleased. If you call me by name"

"Yes, Mr. Yibo."

Each side gave each other smiles.

“Xiao Zhan, would you like something to drink? You look tired. I'll continue filming the program soon."

“I have a lot to think about lately. So I couldn't sleep well."

"I think I'm using you too much."

"No, coming out to work like this is good. I feel more comfortable than at home."

“What can you tell me? In case I can help you."

"A little matter at home. minor problems For people with families"

"If staying at home makes you uncomfortable or causes problems, Why don't you try stepping back and being alone? Sometimes being too close It may cause the problem to go away and even increase. Some couples may need distance to maintain their relationship.”

"You speak like someone with experience."

“I saw many examples of couples. Being an outsider gives you a wider perspective. see both sides understand both sides Because when people face problems We often only see ourselves.”

Xiao Zhan gave a faint smile.

The young man in front of him had some thoughts that he didn't expect.

"If you don't know where to go, You can come stay with me first. My house has many rooms. You are very comfortable.”

"But I..."

“Don't deny it. When you're comfortable, you can go back. If you're still in a bad mood Talking or explaining would be useless."

The distance is getting closer.

Relationships gradually began to change.

The other party had already thought of this from the beginning.

The other party began to feel better than ever before.

"Yibo, do you take care of everyone as well as you take care of me?"

"What if I say no?"

"Then why are you.."

"Well, you came to my house. I have to take good care of it, don't I?"

"But I'm considerate. You take better care of me than my wife."

Wang Yibo put the glass of water on the table. Pour cold water from the pitcher you are holding. before handing it to Xiao Zhan

"Really"

"Since we got married She never touched on housework. Besides, I felt like I wasn't myself at all. The work that used to be done has disappeared. Alone, there's news of a wedding, but I don't really want someone to hire me. When work comes in, if you're the one answering the phone She refused every one of them. Come in and manage almost all of my work."

"Then why did she let you come work with me?"

"Because of the team in your company Most are men. Seems unreasonable, doesn't it?"

“It's because of your wife. Jealous of you?”

“Probably like that. I explained it to her. But it's like nothing happened. She doesn't listen and never will.”

Wang Yibo smiled slightly.

“It's funny, right? But I am very distressed.”

“I'm sorry, but because she loves you. Isn't that why she has symptoms like this?"

“Sometimes it's a problem that can never be solved. I can't help but feel these things.”

"Let's just say we don't talk about things that make you miserable, right? You've been away for a break, so you should talk about things that make you comfortable. Or find something to do that you like."

"Do you want to sing?" I will play the piano for you. Do the things you love to do again. Be yourself again.”

Wang Yibo's smile made Xiao Zhan smile as well.

How long had it been since he had sung the way he liked?

How long had it been since my sense of self had returned?

Every moment spent with Wang Yibo Xiao Zhan had never felt distressed for even a second.

Instead, a smile appeared on his face almost every minute.

A sweet voice was emitted along with the sound of the piano.

Song after song day after day

It seemed to have become a daily routine for the two young men in this large house.

"Is it good to stay permanently?"

“Don't challenge me, I don't really want to go back. I'm comfortable with you."

“Your wife isn't angry anymore? That you wouldn't go home like this."

"I call every day. But I just said I'm with you She didn't ask any more. Just saying that if I get off work early, I'll just go home sometimes."

“You're lying to her. Will she misunderstand that I am using you too hard?”

"Hahaha, no, she doesn't care. Besides, you're not really using me."

“What if I really happen to use you? Will you be okay?"

"I'm not afraid anymore. No matter what you do I can do that too.”

Wang Yibo sat down on the sofa. Move closer to Xiao Zhan.

Turn to look at the face of the person next to you with the eyes you've looked at for the past ten years. But this is the first time that the owner of the face will know.

"Why are you looking at me?"

Wang Yibo smiled.

His gaze traveled down from his eyes to his lips.

A large gulp of saliva was swallowed down his throat.

"Yibo, can you not look at me like this?"

"Why? How do you feel?"

"hair..."

"Are you afraid of me?"

"No, I'm not afraid."

"Or don't you like the way I look at you?"

"No, but I just feel weird."

"Tell me, is it good or bad?"

"I can't tell you, but it..."

Wang Yibo accidentally raised his hand and touched the back of the neck of the person next to him. Use your fingers to rub slowly.

Xiao Zhan was startled and backed away. But his back was held by another hand.

“Yibo, what are you going to do?”

"If you're not sure that you feel I will never do this.”

"Feel, what do I feel?"

"Don't deny your heart. I looked into your eyes and I knew."

"You know what? I didn't think or feel anything at all. You don't do this.”

“Then let me prove it. If I'm wrong, tomorrow we will become different people. But if I'm right, can you not disappear from me?"

"Yibo, don't do this."

"You don't want me to disappear, do you?"

“I don't want our relationship to change. I don't want to lose a good person like you."

"Then keep me."

"Can't you force me to do this?"

“Are you worried about your people waiting at home? You love her very much, right?”

“But I love you just as much as you, Xiao Zhan. I loved you even before you.”

The listeners were stunned by the words they heard. The body moved up and walked backwards.

Wang Yibo walked closer and closer. causing Xiao Zhan to be helpless Needing to retreat into a room he never knew existed.

Xiao Zhan looked at the walls of the room that were filled with pictures of himself.

From the time when little was known until it became famous. and until the latest day The day he met Wang Yibo

"You, you follow me all the time?"

A look of panic and fear appeared on his face.

The owner quickly closed the door and locked it.

Xiao Zhan tried to escape. But he was held tightly.

Thoughts and consciousness suddenly disappeared.

"Let me go, let me go."

“I wasn't going to hurt you. Don't be afraid of me, okay?"

"But what you did scared me."

“I'm sorry, but at that time I did it. I just want to know how you're doing and your life, that's all."

“This is clearly at the level of mental illness. You follow me every step of the way. I've been in your sight almost all the time, for ten years."

"You can scold me no matter what. I just want a chance to be close to you. Don't hate me, okay? I'm sorry."

"You're making me afraid of you, Yibo."

Xiao Zhan's body retreated into a corner. His back was pressed against the wall with no escape.

Wang Yibo stood facing him. Extend both arms to restrain yourself. before slowly leaning in to hug him in a gentle manner

The people in their embrace were so frightened that they trembled. Tried to resist but it was no use. Instead, he was strangled so tightly that he could barely breathe.

“I wasn't going to hurt you. I'm not going to do anything to you. Can I just give you a hug? I want to absorb this feeling. Then I'll let you go, I promise."

Xiao Zhan felt the sincerity of Wang Yibo's words.

The embrace loosened. but still full of touch

Yi Bo's face was buried in the other's shoulder.

What he wanted was nothing more than a hug.

Tears slowly flowed down her cheeks.

Another person was happy to be hugged. At the same time, I feel sorry for causing fear.

Another person was confused by his feelings. It was like the person in front of him, the person he knew, had become someone else who was suspicious.

Tears of many emotions

The embrace is still tight.

When thinking back to the various actions that Yibo gave

Xiao Zhan also began to relax.

Warmth began to swirl around in its place.

Xiao Zhan slowly raised his hand to rub his back for comfort.

Actually, Wang Yibo was just someone who felt really good about Xiao Zhan.

want to be close Want to be important

It's just that what he did before was completely wrong.

The rapid charge made Xiao Zhan startled and refused.

But if you ask Xiao Zhan's deep feelings in his heart right now.

He doesn't mind. I'm not afraid anymore.

Because of the true feelings in my heart He had also felt very good about Wang Yibo for a while.

action received care pleasant conversation knowing one's heart Compatibility is gone.

The secret anxiety that was building up. Waiting for the day to be revealed

Happiness that I haven't had in a long time. It was given to by Wang Yibo.

A smile that is rarely revealed It was handed to him by Wang Yibo.

When it's like this Is there such a thing as a heart that won't be sensitive and change?

Even if what happened in front of him caused Xiao Zhan to be shocked and lose his mind a bit.

But deep inside His heart wanted the same thing.

"I'm sorry I did this. I really scared you. Tomorrow I will send you home early in the morning. You don't have to worry. I won't follow you again."

"Yibo, can I ask you something?"

"um"

"Do you really like me? I mean like, in a way that isn't just a fan."

“I really like you, Xiao Zhan. I've tried to restrain myself. I keep thinking that I don't want to do anything bad or offend you because I want you to be together for a long time. But I ruined everything. Just because you can't stop yourself from feeling."

“What you told me was that if you weren't confident you wouldn't do this. What makes you confident? I think I feel it too."

"Your eyes say it. Every time we're together The way you look at me isn't the same as when you look at other people."

"Don't you think you're the only one thinking this?"

“I just started thinking about it when I saw you being frightened. I really thought of it all by myself. Thinking only with yourself I like you so much that I thought you felt the same. Interpret it yourself, you might think the same way.”

“I was just shocked when I saw pictures of myself all over the wall. Suddenly he felt indescribably afraid. The first thought that ran into my head was that my privacy had been violated.”

Wang Yibo dropped to his knees on the floor of the room.

He bobbed his head up and down in revenge, showing no signs of stopping.

Until Xiao Zhan had to be the one to talk to him to stop what he was doing.

"Yipo, that's enough."

“I'm sorry, you can call the police. If it makes you comfortable or feels good.”

“I'm very angry at you. But I don't hate you."

"You can do anything to me. I'm happy. Whether you're angry or hateful, I accept it. I just want you to be comfortable. You can kick or punch me."

"Why can't I go down? Because since I've known you You've always been good to me. You understand things that even my wife doesn't understand. You care and take care of me in a way that I have never received. It's just unexpected. It's unthinkable that you've done something like this for nearly ten years.”

"I don't know how nice you are to me. Because you just want to be as close as you want. Or are you doing it because you really want to? But I thank you. In the past it was something that made me feel really good.”

Xiao Zhan slowly walked forward step by step. Stopped standing in front of Wang Yibo.

Lean down slowly Both hands held up his tear-filled face.

Use your fingers to gently spread out the tears.

"Yibo, but do you know anything?"

The young man sitting on his knees furrowed his brows in confusion.

"What you believe in is not wrong at all."

"If I don't feel anything I probably ran out of the house the moment you released your hug from me.”

A smile appeared on his face again.

“I feel good about you. Because of what you did for me."

“Xiao Zhan, I did it because I really wanted to do it for you. I didn't do it to expect any results. Even though I want to be close to you But everything that has been done I'm honest with you. I don't want you to misunderstand me. Even though I have done many wrongs to you in the past, after meeting you, I never did it again.”

“Well, you're already close to me. What's the point of following and secretly taking pictures of me again?"

Xiao Zhan let out a small laugh.

"If I didn't think anything of it By now you are probably lying in jail. But you're lucky, Yibo, that I..."

"I really like you too."

When feelings overshadow awareness

When desire prevents restraint

When emotion overrides reason

When consciousness is erased and disappeared

"Xiao Zhan"

As soon as I finished saying my name His voice was drowned out by the other person's lips.

Xiao Zhan lowered his head. Leave a kiss for the person below.

The moment to tear yourself away Instead, her thin waist was pulled beneath the other person's body.

Soft like moonlight before turning as hot as a candle.

A white t-shirt was pulled out and lying on the floor, as were a pair of shorts.

The eyeglasses moved out of position because of their posture and movement.

His smooth white skin was dotted with red flecks all over.

Sweat began to build up more and more.

"Yi Po"

The person beneath him stopped moving before speaking another person's name.

"What we're doing is wrong, right?"

"Who decides right and wrong?"

“What are we doing here? I'm doing her wrong."

"When we're together We shouldn't talk about anyone else."

Wang Yibo lowered his head and kissed the tip of the other person's nose.

"but..."

“If other people know, yes, it might be wrong. But if we only know each other We both act on our feelings. Love is never wrong, Xiao Zhan."

Society determines rules and morals.

Right and wrong are judged by people other than ourselves.

But feelings, thoughts, and consciousness in the mind

We all know if what we are doing is right or not.

We can each decide for ourselves what we should or should not do.

You will choose to release it according to your emotions and needs.

Or will you choose to release it according to social ethics?

I would probably have to choose.

THE END