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Nicotine

nicotine ;

narcotic Affects the brain and nervous system When the user takes it, it stimulates a good mood. Makes you feel comfortable and reduces feelings of irritability.

-10:39 p.m.-

Pung

The sound of the door closing was not loud. Before the owner of the action stepped into the room familiarly.

How can you not get used to it? Well, this is his room. This 'Byun Baekhyun''s room.

It would be more familiar if there was music. Or a video game or something like that is loud. But it's no longer there.

Some people threw their bags on the sofa carelessly. The student's uniform was carelessly taken off and left behind before he disappeared into the bathroom for a while.

Baekhyun hopes to just finish washing himself off and lie down to let the day pass. Because there's nothing interesting at all.

Not since he had to live alone.

-11:49 p.m.-

When dealing with everything is completed as desired. Baekhyun turned off all the lights until only darkness enveloped the room. Laying down on the bed, he picked up the blanket and covered himself completely. And then do what you do every day.

Start by closing your eyes.

Slowly let everything open. And then everything will disappear by itself.

But today it was not easy to fall asleep. Just like every night Baekhyun meets. It's never easy

cannot sleep

He couldn't bear this body any longer.

Can't you just close your eyes and fall asleep like a normal person? Baekhyun wants to blame everything in this world. even sleeping He hasn't even received God's approval yet. It hurts.

Hurt from before He wasn't a light sleeper at all. As soon as my head hit the pillow I fell asleep. But not now Even if you want to sleep to death, you still won't fall asleep.

He's angry.

So angry that tears streamed down his cheeks.

It was so infuriating that no matter how much I wanted to sleep, I couldn't. No one can be blamed yet.

Some of them lay restless for another hour, but there was no indication that they would fall into the deep sleep that they had hoped for.

Finally, the big eyes opened in the darkness. When you can't sleep He would not force himself to sleep any longer. The small figure wiped away the tears on his cheeks without any care. Pull up the blanket and get up from the bed. I intended to go straight out onto the balcony. Before the slender legs stop

Then he retreated to the wooden table next to the door where his luggage was.

Baekhyun considered for a moment. before grabbing some envelopes and a lighter and taking them out to the balcony

He elbowed his foot against the railing. Dull eyes looked into the distance. Admire the view of the city where even though it's dark, there are still lights on on the tall buildings. And the road is still sparsely populated with cars. It can be said to be a city that never sleeps.

This place has the best view.. As long as he isn't the only one standing here watching.

Baekhyun picked up a cigarette and held it in his mouth. Before lighting the lighter Let the tip of the cigarette burn and ignite.

When he smoked, he slowly closed his eyes. Slowly release smoke through the mouth. The smoke slowly floated along with the wind and then disappeared. But the part that was still inside Baekhyun's body It made him feel strangely better.

Nicotine

Right now, it's probably only you who understands him the most.

'Just!..'

'Calm down, I told you to take it slow,' a deep voice said, laughing affectionately even though 'Park Chanyeol' was sad before.

'Stinging.. burning throat, nose burning all over. How can you smoke it?

'Didn't I tell you that you're not suitable for smoking? Baekhyun'

When thinking of this sentence Baekhyun laughed out of his throat. He looked at the cigarette he held in his hand.

Who knows, the person who choked on cigarette smoke that day was the one. that is still attached to it today

'Yes..just like that. like breathing normally slowly released'

Because of that first cigarette that makes Baekhyun and his roommates Get closer to another level Shared stories together every night.

At that time.. Chanyeol was heartbroken.

And we've only been roommates for less than a month.

The other person was so sad that Baekhyun didn't know how to comfort him.

Baekhyun, I liked this Chanyeol from the first time I saw him. It's just that Chanyeol doesn't seem to care much about a roommate like him. Plus there are always love problems.

But as a friend Baekhyun wants to be friends. At least just sit quietly next to it. Baekhyun wanted to do it.

'How is it when you smoke it? Is it good?'

'For me, it's good..I'll get rid of my heartbreak for a while.'

'Please try'

And then it is as you can see.

From not close It became a matter of sitting and relieving suffering together every night. Along with rolling your favorite cigarette It seemed like it was normal when the two of them went out on the balcony.

Over time, Chanyeol said that he was very good. That makes living with you so comfortable. There is nothing that Baekhyun can't discuss and give good advice about.

They have always been each other's comfort. Baekhyun still kept that secret in his heart. Do not say a word to make the other person uncomfortable.

He's always looking for good stories to share. Talk about things that the other person is interested in. until we did things together more often It's called being compatible with everything.

Years passed..until one day Someone happened to cross the line. It wasn't caused by Baekhyun either.

Chanyeol kissed him.

'Chanyeol..you-'

'I meant it..and I won't apologize'

At that moment, it was as if the whole world was more alive than before.

Another person said that he felt so good with Baekhyun that he didn't want to stop his feelings anymore.

And Baekhyun, the innocent person who had always tried to keep his feelings hidden, didn't have to hide them anymore.

But they still agreed that they would just be friends like this. I don't want the relationship to escalate and one day have to cut it off. And then we didn't contact each other again.

Chanyeol and Baekhyun..are friends who kiss sometimes. More than a kiss, you can't deny that you've never.

We're friends like this. Baekhyun was very satisfied with his status at that time.

But as the day went on, Baekhyun felt like he was being slapped in the face.

Less than 3 months later, Chanyeol brought other people into the room. The day I thought he would never return.

'Why did you say you feel good about me, Chanyeol? That's what you said!'

'I'm sorry, Baekhyun..'

'It doesn't feel like that anymore. Can we be friends like before?'

There was only an apology that came out. Baekhyun felt like Chanyeol ripped out his heart and stepped on it. He was so stubborn that he couldn't say anything. I came back and cried alone like I was going to die that day.

But in the end, I had to collect myself. to go out and tell Chanyeol that he was okay It's okay if your feelings change. Nothing lasts forever. Baekhyun understands well.

Just being friends like before. Didn't change much at all. In the past we were already friends.

He still remembers Chanyeol's eyes well that day. His friends were overjoyed to see that Baekhyun was okay with it. Plus Chanyeol told him that I still want to have Baekhyun near me like this forever. Let Baekhyun continue to be Park Chanyeol's comfort like this.

And then we really came back to being the same. Since going out to smoke together Talk about its women. Chanyeol was a little more heartbroken. And then there was a new love. Bring some women into the room. But it's good that at least he tried to do everything to disturb him as little as possible.

But what can I do? This Baekhyun knows everything. And then I come to sit in pain all by myself in silence every time.

And even though Chanyeol says we're friends But what has never disappeared is

Sometimes we come out to talk on the balcony.

we kiss

And after that the other person would apologize to him every time and say that his emotions took him away.

Baekhyun in part wanted to punch him for daring to play with his feelings like this.

But again,

He still wanted the feel of those lips. Baekhyun always yearns for it. He himself felt bad that it was like this.

He still misses Chanyeol all the time. Even though they weren't far apart at that time, Baekhyun felt that there was a high wall between him and his friend. Until Baekhyun could hardly breathe.

After that event He would remain as roommates with Park Chanyeol for several more months. I saw everything until I became numb. My heart that once hurt doesn't hurt that much anymore.

But who said it wouldn't hurt at all? I feel a twinge every time. My heart doesn't love you well..

No matter how bad it is At least the wall his friend unconsciously built was better than the one that actually distanced himself.

And what really makes us stay apart like today?

It started with Baekhyun's birthday.

You really picked a great day, didn't you, Mr. Park Chanyeol?

Actually, there wasn't anything special that day. Chanyeol remembers Baekhyun's birthday like every year. There was a small gift and a shout of Happy Birthday to him. Wish him happiness according to the version before it starts destroying his own happiness by saying

'Baekhyun..I'm going to move condo'

Baekhyun was still stunned by what Chanyeol had said. Repeatedly asking yourself in your head if he had done something wrong to make Chanyeol unhappy. And got the answer immediately.

'I'm going to move in with his younger brother. My younger mate just dropped out.' Chanyeol must have been talking about his new girlfriend.

And how can he tell me not to go? Can you tell me that if your friend here is going to leave you, right? In the end, Baekhyun could only nod in response. As for Chanyeol, he smiled in relief at being able to smooth things over with his close friend. There are no more problems to worry about.

That's right. You've thrown all your troubles onto me.

But Baekhyun wanted to hit himself. Who has never really been angry or hated Park Chanyeol.

On the last day before moving out, Chanyeol thanked everything for the 2 years we were roommates. Said he was very happy to have Baekhyun as his roommate. I ask him to take good care of himself and he will come back to me often.

And our story ended like that.

Since that day, Chanyeol hasn't come back to see him again. There may be chats coming to you sometimes. But you can count the times. Because we didn't study in the same faculty. If we don't meet in the room Don't say we'll meet at all. Even being close to each other is difficult.

If I'm not wrong, it's probably been 4 months already. that he hadn't seen Park Chanyeol's face at all

A slender hand brought the cigarette up to his lips before pumping the nicotine into his lungs again. Then he blew white smoke out of his nose.

Just thinking about standing here with another person's tall figure leaning back against the balcony railing and smiling at you makes Baekhyun's heart hurt. And the more you smoke like this.. Baekhyun often thought of the time Chanyeol leaned closer and finally put his lips to his.

It's probably him alone. who still remembers those stories

Baekhyun thought about quitting smoking many times.

When I was a child, adults always taught me that it was a bad thing. He had always believed that. But now..roll this small cigarette. It was probably the only thing that could help him heal.

Baekhyun always knew it was dangerous to his health. But still chose to do it Why?

Because of the time I smoked.. It's like Chanyeol is always in my thoughts. Even though it's time to think He always tells himself that he wants to forget.

But I can't deny that deep in my heart In fact, Baekhyun wanted to remember it. Every time I pick up a cigarette The name Park Chanyeol was always the first thing that popped into his mind.

The bitter taste of cigarettes Baekhyun also felt that it was nothing compared to the experience he had with the man who brought cigarettes into his life.

Baekhyun probably only told the story from the angle that Chanyeol acted viciously. But before that friend becomes vicious It was so good that Baekhyun fell so in love that he couldn't withdraw until then.

And even if it's just a little more insidious But if Chanyeol still wants to be roommates with him again Baekhyun was even pleased.

Some people let their own thoughts wander. Along with pumping nicotine again and again, the eyesight is still dull. Even though my brain was really starting to clear up. But why don't I feel worried anymore?

I probably miss the time when another person often secretly came to sleep in his room. Pretend to be smooth and ask about happiness. And finally ended by inserting himself into bed and using Baekhyun as a pillow.

Late at night makes people's minds wander like this. Baekhyun turned around and looked into the room to see the clock and saw that it was already 1:00 a.m. Should he go to bed now? He still has to get up early tomorrow.

If you force yourself a little Maybe he'll fall asleep on his own. Baekhyun said he would try sleeping again.

Ding-Tong!

Not before I could take the steps to go back to sleep. There was a sound of the doorbell ringing first. Baekhyun raised his eyebrows slightly in confusion. Who would ring the doorbell at 1 a.m. like this?

Ding-Tong!

But it's like being rushed again. So he put his doubts aside and stuck a cigarette in the cigarette pot to extinguish it. Before walking slowly towards the door of the room

Knock, knock, knock.

This time the doorbell was not pressed, but there was a knock on the door instead. Then a voice came from behind the door. “Baekhyun!” It was so familiar that Baekhyun's heart skipped a beat. Not just familiar.. But he remembered this voice well.

Park Chanyeol..

I don't know how to feel. Am I happy? Friends came to see me in 4 months. But coming at 1 a.m.?

Finally, Baekhyun took a deep breath before opening the door to face the guests.

"terrace-!.."

The person behind the door smiled sweetly and threw himself into a hug with such force that he almost stumbled back several steps. After that, Baekhyun could only stand still because everything happened so fast.

It was Chanyeol who pulled away and was the first to speak.

“Baekhyun, are you asleep yet? Am I here too late?” I knew this. There will be a smile on your face again.

Even though he should be angry, why does Baekhyun feel happy? I don't know why. "Is it late at 1 a.m. at your house?"

“No, Byun Baekhyun likes to sleep at 2 a.m. I remember.” Giving him a wink, the way he likes to do when he annoys him, he succeeds. Baekhyun gasped until the hair on his forehead fluttered in the wind and asked.

“What are you here to do?”

“Can't you stop by and say hello to your friends? I didn't come empty-handed." The tall man said and held up the beer bag in his hand for me to see. Baekhyun shook his head tiredly. Since when has Chanyeol been drinking beer?

But from just now His friend didn't smell of alcohol, indicating he hadn't drunk yet. Plus it doesn't have that smell. Strange..very strange

If I were to guess, there would probably be some serious problem. Otherwise, there would be no way to punt here now. “Come in first,” someone said before walking over to the sofa in the middle of the room. Leave the responsibility of closing the door to another person.

“Wow..it's the same as before.” Chanyeol looked around the room with satisfaction. It's already certain. Baekhyun didn't move anything. Plus no new person moved in. Where is what? It still lay there. “I don't have time to arrange my room. It's been busy lately.”

Even if I have free time, I don't want to change it much.

“Even though you are thinner, Baekhyun. Eat more, fat man.” A tall figure walked over and rubbed his head until it was all messy. But Baekhyun didn't really care, as if he was used to it because this friend liked to do this all the time when they met. “Can the words thin and fat be in the same sentence?”

“Fat, I'm just calling you a joke. But you've really gotten thin. The last time we met, there was more energy than this.” Will you confess that nowadays it is still difficult for him to eat one complete meal?

"I'm not going to force you to eat. Can you force yourself to eat?" And who told you to go? Come stay and force me.

Even though I think like that in my heart But all he could do was answer anything. Whatever he said, it mustn't show that he still wants this friend.

"Complaining like a father.." Everything you do Baekhyun just had to do it. Because he didn't want Chanyeol to feel embarrassed.

“Look at you, Baekhyun.”

“You didn't just come to see me, Chanyeol,” the little man blurted out, causing Chanyeol to fall silent. Of course, if he wanted to just come and see him, he would have come long ago.

Baekhyun knows how important he is to this Park Chanyeol. “Balcony?”

Adviser level when sad

Somebody's second cigarette of the night was lit. Then he placed it on his small lips to inhale the poisonous fumes into his lungs. Park Chanyeol who followed in Putting the beer bag down on the small table, he walked over and leaned his hips on the balcony railing.

Baekhyun couldn't tell if he was seeing overlapping images or not. If it was true, he would be very happy. “Smells good..” A deep voice said like that. So he handed me a small envelope containing a small amount of remaining Marlboro.

But Chanyeol shook his head, causing the small figure to raise his eyebrows in confusion. “I quit two months ago. If I go back and touch it again, I hope I won't quit again,” his close friend said jokingly.

Baekhyun probably heard right, right? Chanyeol is about to quit smoking?

But it's probably true. Because there was no familiar smell on his friend's body.

“Quit smoking and drink beer instead?” Baekhyun asked, squinting at the unopened beer can, making Chanyeol laugh.

“Not really, put something in your mouth so you don't have to think about cigarettes.” When he said that, Baekhyun started to feel considerate. Put out your own cigarette. I don't want Chanyeol's determination to be broken because he saw Baekhyun smoking it so temptingly.

“Hey, I'm fine. You can smoke your stuff. I just lit it myself.” No, Baekhyun doesn't like standing and smoking alone when there's other people around.

Even if you like to destroy your own health But he doesn't want it to affect other people.

"Come on, I'm too lazy to suck."

Chanyeol looked at Baekhyun's cigarette extinguisher and saw that the pot was full of cigarette butts and there was hardly any space left. “Oh..my Baekhyun. Since when did you smoke like this?”

Baekhyun only shrugged in response. There is probably nothing that can answer it better than this.

“Get your shaft down a bit, I'm good. I still want to see you when you're old.”

“..” Do you think I really want to smoke? It's because I miss you, stupid friend.

“He's already better than me.” The tall figure came and hugged his neck in teasing.

“I wouldn't measure it against someone who quit smoking and became addicted to beer instead.”

“Ha..” Chanyeol laughed deep in his throat at the small figure who replied sarcastically.

It's always like this. Baekhyun can be a bit annoying. But when we're together, Chanyeol is always a comfort. Always making him smile no matter the situation.

Baekhyun really is his best friend.

“Then why do you suddenly want to break up?” Baekhyun asked again amidst the silence. Well, Chanyeol was the one who told him that smoking makes him feel good. A lot of stress is gone. The reason for quitting smoking must have really influenced it.

“He doesn't like me smoking..” The answer made Baekhyun go still. “So I want to break up with him.”

It's funny that Baekhyun smokes because he wants to have a more intimate conversation with Chanyeol. I want to go into his friend's world more than before.

But it's like that.. The right person doesn't have to try at all. He will try for us. As Chanyeol tried to quit smoking for his girlfriend. Just a little more and Chanyeol would definitely be able to do it. Baekhyun knows how much passion his friend has.

As for him, he continues to remain in this vicious cycle of nicotine. Must choose to rely on it until Baekhyun can be stronger on his own.

"Uh huh..So what happened if I got here?"

“..” Chanyeol was silent. before breaking away from hugging his neck and clinging to the balcony railing instead "I had a little argument with him."

“Isn't it a little bit, why did you come to me at 1:00 a.m.? Don't tell me..that you got kicked out of the room.” Chanyeol might just not have been able to enter the room and came to him instead.

That theory made Chanyeol burst out laughing. “Haha, that's too bad. I just don't want to go back and see his younger sibling right now. I'm afraid I'll act badly and make him sad again.” That woman is really lucky.

".." If it's boxing, Chanyeol always likes to give him big hook punches like this. Just replying like you don't feel anything is not easy at all. Baekhyun could only do it carefully.

He believes himself to be very talented. Because in the past Chanyeol had never been caught once.

And this person was one of his fans. But this time, Chanyeol has been with this boy for the longest time. And it looks the most serious.. As a friend, Baekhyun wanted to be happy that he chose to be serious with someone.

But my personal feelings never felt that way.

"You're so talented.. How can you be so considerate?”

“He is good to you.. so good that I want to be as good as him. I don't want him to feel like I'm dating such a bad person.” He still jokes that even now, if he were a dog, he'd probably lose his ears.

“So..what's the matter?”

“It's not an issue. Lately we've been arguing a lot. Even small matters can be fought over. But today, he's with someone, I don't know, I've never seen his face.."

“I myself was dizzy and all I could think about was whether or not I was having an affair. Walked in and punched her in the face. In conclusion..his cousin My face is so numb, Baekhyun..” Baekhyun listened intently to his friend telling him about his troubling problems for a while and didn't take his eyes off him for a moment.

He likes looking at another person's face. When his friends are telling stories about their lives.

To always listen to stories that pierce my heart But just the sound made him feel at ease that the other person was still here.

“You should go apologize to him. This time it was your fault for being an idiot to Chanyeol.” As soon as he said that, the other person's face shrank even more.

“..” He probably cursed in his heart that this Baekhyun was mean. We never speak with kindness when cursing.

"But it's like this because..you love him, right?" The little figure raised an eyebrow and asked. Chanyeol quickly nodded and answered several times without thinking.

Baekhyun had a soft smile on his lips. Then slowly began to speak. “Then take good care of him. That you're trying to tune in to him is good. But the jealousy thing has subsided somewhat. You can't be jealous of everyone in your life.”

“Even you are so jealous,” Chanyeol said with a deadpan expression. But the listener's heart twitches every time he says this.

“..That's why I told you to be gentle. Please trust him. Are you telling me that he's good?”

"yeah.."

-02.58am-

We talked about many miscellaneous things like people who haven't seen each other in a long time. Before I knew it, I was on the balcony here until it was almost 3:00 AM.

And I don't know why. Baekhyun was moving his mouth in an awkward manner. He had to gradually quiet down after noticing that the person beside him was quiet. But what made my heart beat with a strange rhythm was the tall person staring at those slender lips like he was in a trance.

“..” Chanyeol's staring gaze was unwavering. Baekhyun began to feel heat on both cheeks.

“You..” Baekhyun said in a soft voice. Then he looked at the actions of the tall man who was slowly leaning his face closer to him.

near

Until the tips of their noses were so close to each other, it made me tremble.

So close that our lips were almost touching.

Baekhyun's heart was pounding so loudly that it almost came out of his chest. The touch he had been thinking about all this time was about to be felt again.

But that wasn't the case when Chanyeol suddenly closed his eyes and turned his head, moving his lips to the small of his ear instead. before whispering softly

“Sorry Baekhyun.”

“I think..it's time to go back.”

Are you apologizing again? Baekhyun usually heard this word after Chanyeol kissed him. Baekhyun laughed softly in his throat before taking a step back so they weren't too close.

"Oh, come back. I have early class tomorrow."

It's like his best friend is still fascinated by the story from just a moment ago. And it seemed like he wanted to clear things up. Even though he pretended not to care, he still spoke up again, "Baek-.."

“You were just drunk on Chanyeol.. It's good that I thought of it in time. Otherwise, I'm going to smack you in the mouth.” What's up? This Baekhyun has a really good mouth.

And once again, he made Chanyeol smile. Baekhyun walked out and dropped his friend off at the door. “Be back.” He just said a quick goodbye. His friend nodded in response and continued speaking.

“You're a little lighter, don't smoke. You can quit, Baekhyun. I'm worried about you. See you, friend.” The last parting words before the door closed.

He had left but I don't know why Baekhyun was still standing in front of the old door.

A pair of beautiful eyes began to well up with tears that they couldn't hold back any longer.

“I can't quit, Chanyeol.” There was only silence in response, but Baekhyun continued.

“Because of the smell that you say is good.”

“Every time I kiss you it's this smell.” Chanyeol's scent always mixed with the smell of nicotine. At first Baekhyun didn't like it at all because it was bitter.

But back and forth, Baekhyun liked it when it stuck to another person's breath. It's like the taste of nicotine when they kissed is a memory that is buried deep in the brain..and in the heart.

That Park Chanyeol is as bad as nicotine.

No..it's even worse. Because even though he knew how dangerous it was, Baekhyun still wanted to taste it. When he realized he was addicted to it. The difference is that when he rolls a cigarette, he can find it and smoke it whenever he wants.

But with Chanyeol, Baekhyun couldn't even grab this friend once.

“And every time I smoke..it's like you're still here. Stay here with me, Chanyeol.”

-end-

-talk-

Finally, the cigarettes in the fic might seem cool. But in real life, no. Leave it to Kreese.