Do Kyungsoo.. a small man with big round eyes and a heart-shaped smile that captured my heart from the first time I saw him.

Kyungsoo hyung... is the man who likes peonies the most. But the flowers I always buy for him are roses.

Kyungsoo hyung... is the man who likes black the most. But I always encourage him to wear light colors that I like.

Kyungsoo hyung... is the man who likes singing the most. But I always take him to my dance practice studio.

Kyungsoo hyung... is a man who likes to cook delicious food. But I am often tired and fall asleep before I can eat.

Kyungsoo hyung... is a man who likes to look at the stars at night. ...but it's me as usual I want to hold him in bed all night. I don't want to go anywhere....

Kyungsoo hyung... is the man I have always loved with all my heart.

But I'm so...self-centered.

Is it really okay that Kyungsoo hyung has to please me all the time...

Is it okay that a good person like Kyungsoo hyung Having to stay stuck with a man like me...

That is the reason... I let a good man like him go to someone else.

When I was your man

Do Kyungsoo.. a small man with big round eyes and a heart-shaped smile that captured my heart from the first time I saw him.

Kyungsoo hyung... is the man who likes peonies the most. But the flowers I always buy for him are roses.

Kyungsoo hyung... is the man who likes black the most. But I always encourage him to wear light colors that I like.

Kyungsoo hyung... is the man who likes singing the most. But I always take him to my dance practice studio.

Kyungsoo hyung... is a man who likes to cook delicious food. But I am often tired and fall asleep before I can eat.

Kyungsoo hyung... is a man who likes to look at the stars at night. ...but it's me as usual I want to hold him in bed all night. I don't want to go anywhere....

Kyungsoo hyung... is the man I have always loved with all my heart.

But I'm so...self-centered.

Is it really okay that Kyungsoo hyung has to please me all the time...

Is it okay that a good person like Kyungsoo hyung Having to stay stuck with a man like me...

That is the reason... I let a good man like him go to someone else.

It's been 1 year since he hasn't come around in my life...

Kyungsoo hyung

How are you?

Are you well?

The weather is starting to change. I'm wearing a thick shirt.

And then...

Does he take good care of you?

Does he take care of you better than me?

Park Chanyeol...

Does that man take care of you better than me?

"Ah, I'm so full. The grilled meat is amazing. Thank you for raising me, Daddy Jongin, Kiki,” Sehun's clear voice cried out. After smashing 5 sets of roast beef alone After practicing dancing to a new song for more than 6 hours without taking a break. Sehun protested by sitting in the middle of the practice room.

Said that he would absolutely not move again if Everyone refused to stop practicing and take him to a roast beef dinner. But it happened to be my girlfriend. Tao was on an urgent mission so he only sent money to tell me to take his girlfriend to eat. But I will say that my girlfriend cannot support me. It seems like they're upset. Taoku, I'm sorry.

“But the food is gone. It has to be followed by dessert, right, Kim Jongin?” He turned his head and asked me... Can I offend you? You said and started dragging me to the store.

"Lemon flavored ice cream The chocolate at the shop around the corner is really delicious. Let's go to that shop, right? That's Chanyeol. There's a lot of people coming with you. Are you going to a grilled meat shop? It's better not to say hello. If you're not full, Probably going to disturb haha..."

Chanyeol, Park Chanyeol, I looked towards the group of 4-5 men that Sehun pointed out... not because I wanted to see him, but if there was him, that person might also be around...

Tall man wearing glasses The brunette is Park Chanyeol. I've been trying to find... Even though I shouldn't have, I found it.

The outline I remember

Even if worn with a large blue raincoat, it will But it couldn't make me miss my sight.

Even though I used to The sides were plowed and dyed red, which would have made some of them look more masculine, but I still remember.

remember never forget

“Kyungsoo hyung!” he blurted out.

“Jonggin!” The wide-eyed man turned to look at me. before turning around and saying something to Park Chanyeol and his friends. Before Kyungsoo hyung walked towards me. Then my friends went into the store.

“Alright, what are you going to say to him? You called his girlfriend and you saved yourself. I'm going to go buy ice cream first." Sehun quickly whispered to me before quickly walking away.. This guy

“Jonggin, haven't seen you for a long time, are you okay?” Kyungsoo asked, those eyes still twinkling as usual. Cheeks that were once cutely round But this answer looks more like an answer. Are you getting thinner? You're getting a little rest, right?

"Ah, well.. that's good, what are you doing around here?" I asked.. such a lame question, come in.

"Ah..uh.. I'm here to eat." The little man raised his hand and scratched the back of his neck. It's like this every time I don't know what to say.

'Brother..and him go well together, right?...' I want to ask, my heart breaks. But I'm so afraid of the answer I'll receive.

We both kept quiet and looked at each other.

...embarrassed...

And then it was some figure who spoke first again. “I heard that you train hard. Are you very tired?"

I didn't answer, but just gave him a small smile...

“Try to get in, Jongin. But health is important. You train hard and then you need to rest a lot.

Don't forget to eat a lot so you'll have more energy while training. If you're tired, you have to rest. If you are sick then it will be difficult.

And if you are sick then you must eat quickly. ...."

I burst into a hug. I miss you almost to the point of death. I didn't realize that I had stepped so far away from him. The heart that cries out for the betrayal of the idea that it should have been...

But if I let him talk from now on I am the one who will hurt you even more than before.

"Can I stay like this for a while... Just one minute."

The words I miss that I almost want to say out loud.

Every day that I don't have you. How much I miss you, do you know?

There is no one to hug. There is no one to cook for me.

No one keeps asking if I'm tired. Bring water when practice is over.

There was no one encouraging me to go look at the stars. No one made a face when I said white was cuter than black.

There is no one to cuddle with warmly every night.

Without you... I almost died.

As long as eternity

I pulled away from him.

We both looked into each other's eyes. I don't know how long.

But it was me who closed my eyes.

“Kyungsoo hyung, please go back to the store. Chanyeol will be worried."

Should stop here Before I get hurt again...

I don't want to hurt anyone any more. Both myself and the person in front of me whose conscience always tells me that I love them with all my heart.

"...Nah ..Then I'll go first. Take good care of yourself, Jongin,” he said. Before I could feel that the warmth in front of me had disappeared...

I heard the sound of soft steps. that keeps getting farther away Like that day

But it's different. Suddenly the sound of walking stopped.

"Jongin"

I turned around at the sound of a soft voice calling out to me.

"Do you know... Even if you throw me to someone?

Even if everyone else will do everything you want.

Even though he will please P'Sarapat

But believe it or not, no one can replace you." The wide-eyed man smiled faintly. before speaking a sentence that was like warm water washing over my parched heart

"Believe it or not, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't love you..." He finished and walked away.

Kyungsoo...

Images of the old days ran through my head like a movie was being shown in reverse.

The day I hid Kyungsoo hyung's entire collection of black shirts. Only bright colors remain. But I agreed to wear it.

Kyungsoo hyung, who smiled widely, shook his head at me somewhere. When I bought 8 roses, I said "Instead of eternal love And peonies are expensive."

I miss the day when Kyungsoo hyung laughed at his silly dance moves.

I miss the day I went in and begged to eat Kyungsoo's cooking.

I miss Kyungsoo's words of love.... The words of love that you whisper to me every night

The day Kim Jong In told Kyungsoo he loved him, they both promised to love each other forever...

....I'm really stupid...

“You really are an idiot!” I turned around and looked at my white best friend who was holding ice cream and had just scolded me with his mouth.

"Damn stupid! I didn't mean to eavesdrop. Don't misunderstand! But my ears can hear it, but hey, what are you thinking? Will someone as good as this come into your life again? Is there anyone who can take care of you that well? Will anyone tolerate you being spoiled like that again? You love him, and when I look at it I know that he also loves you. Oh my.

Why would you complicate matters, you idiot? Huh, stupid! I don't know what to scold you for. Oh! You're brain is more complex than Gray's. Oh, I'm so shocked! go back! Go ask his brother right now, or else I'll break up with stupid, stupid friends like you."

No need to wait longer for Sehun to preach to me.

It's not that I'm afraid that Sehun will break up with me.

There is no reason for me to think that complicated.

Because my legs were commanded by my heart to step into the store. I went straight to the table where the person my heart had always wanted was sitting with my friends. and sat with that man

Park Chanyeol

I've come to take back my things!

FIN

Talk: 

I haven't written fiction in a very long time. It's a fleeting fic like always. When I listen to it.

when I was your man

While sitting doing homework, it suddenly flashed by. The lyrics and the story seem to have nothing to do with each other.

TvT

I tried to dress it up but I couldn't. Haha. At first I really wanted to dress it up so that Kyung would stop loving Jongin. And then when I really put it into practice I can't bring myself to dress up so that Kyung doesn't love Jongin. Oh my god, I'm totally on your side. Mommy, I'm secretly persistent. Haha. Chanyeol shows up as if there's something wrong. But there's nothing. It's really nothing.

lol 

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