Breath

Sehun x Minseok

The hand that was holding the cell phone was so tense that the whole hand was shaking. When feeling a slight vibration from the communication device Try not to pay attention to it. Then move on And then had to stop when the feet that were walking suddenly lost their strength and had to use their other free hand to support them against the wall. Try to balance yourself while standing on both feet.

But with his current abilities Just standing seemed too difficult. In the end, I could only slowly sit down on the floor in the hallway. Use your back against the wall for balance. before raising both knees

The mobile phone he was holding was still vibrating in his hand. He slowly lifted it up and looked at it. The screen that shows the picture of the person calling. Calling out a weak smile on his pale face.

Even though he wanted to answer the phone and listen to the voice of the other party that he missed. But what he did was the opposite when his finger moved to cut the call before pressing to turn off the phone immediately.

“Sorry, Minseok.”

His cracked lips softly uttered those words. Both eyelids slowly closed as they felt heat rising in both eyes.

“I'm sorry Minseok, I'm sorry,” he could only mutter the words of apology to himself. Lifting the thin communication device to his chest as if he wanted to transmit those words to the person on the other end of the line.

Minseok lowered his phone when he heard the signal cut off. Look at your mobile phone screen that returns to the home page. before pressing to call the original number This time, there was no response from the destination number. He could only let out a soft sigh. before putting the mobile phone into his pants pocket

It's over.

I can only tell myself the same sentences over and over again. But it was not once absorbed into the brain. It was probably just a word that I picked up to comfort myself so as not to let the disappointment cling to my heart even more.

Even though it's been a long time since the breakup

Even though Sehun already has a new person. But why was he stuck on old memories?

Even though everything should be left in the past. But he still revives it every time.

Because this Kim Minseok can still love only Oh Sehun.

“Minseok, would you like me to give you a ride?” The person who was called turned around and gave a wide smile to the kind person who extended his kindness.

“It's okay, Chanyeol. I can go back myself.” He replied in a low tone. Seeing Chanyeol's half-forced look in his eyes, "I can really go back on my own," he repeated this to boost the other person's confidence, but he felt like he was telling himself more than that sentence.

“Then it's a good idea to come back.” Chanyeol pats his shoulder softly before making his way to the company parking lot. Minseok could only look at Chanyeol's broad back. But the overlapped image was a familiar back to him. The light figure of a tall, fragile-looking person with dark hair

The image of that person that he remembers in his heart Even though it should be forgotten In the end, I could only shake my head and chase away the distracting thoughts that were passing through my mind.

The light from the lamppost in the distance created darkness until the small figure had to tighten the strap of the bag on his shoulder. Two legs that move slowly He turned so fast that he almost turned into a run when he felt a stare on him from behind.

Because his route home was some distance from the bus stop. And it's late at night like this, so there's hardly any traffic to be seen. The silence around him made it possible for him to even hear his own breathing. It was so quiet that he could feel the footsteps. No matter how hard I try to keep it light He still felt it.

The past few days he had to stay up late at work at the company. When he returns home, he always feels that someone is following him, a big man with black glasses and a thick coat, even though the weather is cool these days. With a black cap pulled down to cover his face and a scarf covering his nose, he couldn't tell who the man was.

But the people who follow him With such a strange behavior It's even more unreliable.

Minseok was startled by the sound of a dry cough coming from behind him. Hurry, take long steps, hoping to get back to your room quickly. But the terrifying coughing sound that came from behind made him hesitate. Finally, Minseok decided to turn around and look. And as usual, the man turned his back on him.

"What's wrong with you?" He called out hard when he saw the other person coughing as if he had choked on something. Without forgetting to leave distance between him and that stranger.

“Go.” A hoarse, indistinct voice mixed with a cough, as the figure slowly approached, causing Minseok to quickly take several steps back.

“Tell me to go away,” the other party shouted loudly, causing Minseok to flinch at the sound. As the man approached, Minseok immediately backed up and ran away.

He almost ran into the uncle guard guarding the apartment. But when I didn't see that anyone was following me. The little body slowly let out a breath. Smiling at the guard who looked at him as if asking what he was running from before rushing inside. Cool breeze from the air conditioner It made him feel more relaxed and safe. Maybe he should have told Chanyeol that he would rather take the work home and continue with it than risk having a psychopath or not, follow him every day.

A small finger tapped into the password that was someone else's birthday. before inserting himself into the room

Minseok remained in the same place where Sehun could always find him. He didn't dare change his address. Even when Sehun moved out, he didn't even dare to change the password on the door to his room because he thought that Sehun might want to come back one day, but the past 8 months have told him very well that Sehun won't come back.

Even so, he still didn't change that password.

Choose not to turn on the light in the room and use the habit to carry yourself to the bed. Tired from working all day, he didn't hesitate to lay down on the soft bed. He reached over and pulled his cell phone out of his pocket. The screen flashed on and he could only make a sad expression on his phone's screen which was a photo of him and Sehun from their college days. It seemed to be the only photo of them together.

He has known Sehun since high school. When I entered university, I came to study at the same place. Even though they study in different faculties, they always find time to meet together.

Because Sehun is good-looking but classified as shy, the seniors and juniors in the group They all kept stopping by to confess their love to Sehun. Even though he was jealous, Sehun's hand that reached out to hold his hand every time after something like that happened was. It made him know that he was still important to Sehun.

The warmth I received from Sehun's hands. interlocking fingers Everything received from that touch It is the warmth that flows from the fingertips to the heart.

The eyes that Sehun looked at him were filled with tenderness. The smile that was sent to him was a smile that came from the heart, a smile that always made him smile even when he was in a bad mood.

But those memories seemed so blurry in his feelings when those beautiful memories were replaced by the cold face of the person he loved. The expressionless look in his eyes almost made him stop breathing. The wavy lips that had once smiled and whispered words of love spoke words that pierced deep into his heart.

When Sehun said that Sehun had someone else he loved more, his heart was almost torn right there. He couldn't say anything, or more accurately, he didn't know what to say. He just sat and watched Sehun put his things in his bag and walk out of the room.

He could only think that it was a dream, but until then he still couldn't wake up from this dream.

You can only look at the smile of the person in the picture who smiles with both eyes and mouth until he smiles as well. Sehun is a weak man. That person was just a blurred image in his memory because right now all he could remember was his face. A man who was cold and emotionless no matter how you looked at it. Well, it's not the same Sehun in the picture he loves.

It might be one of the reasons why he let Sehun go so easily. Scroll through the photos in the album that he secretly took of Sehun when the other person wasn't paying attention. A small smile appeared at the corner of his mouth.

"I miss you so much, Sehun. Where are you now?"

Minseok muttered to himself until he fell asleep through tears. I was startled again when my cell phone slipped from my hand. The little man hurriedly grabbed the phone. Even though his eyes weren't even fully open yet. He felt heavy on his eyelids. Maybe it was because I cried myself to sleep. He raised his hand and rubbed his eyes. But I felt wetness on both eyelashes. Minseok buried his face in the soft pillow to dry his tears before picking up his phone and checking the time.

23:38 pm

Subconsciously, his fingers dialed the last number, and the beep sounded twice. before it was cut off Minseok gripped his phone tightly with trembling hands. Warm water flows from Both eyes fell on the pillow. Pressing to call the same number again, this time the sound of a loud signal seemed to slowly pull his soul away from his body, when the sound of the signal disappeared and a soft sigh replaced it.

Minseok bit his lip tightly to block out his sobs, but no sound escaped. Only the faint sound of breathing could be heard coming through the line.

“Yes, it's me, Sehun.” He tried to control his voice so as not to shake, but right now it was like him. Unable to control my own body His voice was shaking uncontrollably and he was sure that Sehun knew that it was like this because of Sehun.

[um]

"How are you Are you okay?” because I didn't know what to say. So I could only ask questions that sounded stupid.

[I am fine]

“..." Minseok held back his sobs with difficulty, hearing only a heavy sigh from the other party. Him calling must have caused Se-un a lot of embarrassment.

“Sehun, I.../ [Sehun, aren't you asleep yet? It's already late]” A woman's voice came on the line causing Minseok to swallow the words he wanted to say back in his throat. He almost couldn't contain his yelp and had to bite his hand.

He knew that Sehun already had someone by his side. I've known since Sehun said there's someone I love more. I know that Sehun wouldn't be stuck with someone like him. But even though he knew, he still secretly hoped that it was just an excuse Sehun gave to break up with him.

But when he heard Sehun's new voice, he felt like his heart was breaking. All this time, it was really only him who still loved me and was still waiting.

Only he was really delusional.

Is it time for him to wake up?

He glanced at the person who had suddenly opened the door with a cold look before looking down at his own phone. And had to sigh when the other end of the phone hung up.

Are you crying again, Minseok?

"I'm about to...go to sleep..." he said with difficulty before moving to lie down. Taeyeon hurried over to help support her figure. Arrange a pillow to gently support that head. before recklessly pulling out the mobile phone in the other person's hand Then he put it into the bedside drawer.

“Then you can go to sleep now,” Taeyeon said with a smile. before pulling the thick blanket up to the tall figure's chest Then she had to look up in surprise when a pair of hands reached out and grabbed her arms.

"I don't have much time left." The smile that had spread on her pretty face slowly faded. Taeyeon let out a soft sigh. Looking at the face that once looked handsome, now there was no trace of the original structure left. Dark circles and deep-set eyes It is a good indication that the patients under her care probably did not get any rest.

The lips regained their formerly red color. Now it has dark circles and dryness. As soon as the words came out, he twisted his head, slowly meeting those weak-looking eyes. Weakness was evident in those sad eyes.

“Sleep, Sehun.” He raised his hand and lightly touched his cheek.

“Friday,” a hoarse voice called out. Before Taeyeon could step out of the room She turned around and looked at the person slowly sitting up on the bed again. Sehun's face didn't turn to look at her, but turned to look out the dark window. “I would like to go outside...”

Taeyeon shook her head slowly. “Today I just ran away. I don't want to be scolded by Dr. Kim.” After saying that, she hurriedly took herself out of the room before she could relent and help Sehun go outside again. Because every time I go out When he returns, Sehun's condition will deteriorate. Because it's cold outside. which is not good for Sehun at all

Taeyeon followed the young doctor into the special patient room. Then I had to secretly exhale. Because the last picture before she walked out of the room was the same picture as this time. Sehun still sat and stared out the window as usual. When I realized that someone had entered the room Sehun turned around and gave her and Dr. Kim a tired smile.

“Did you sleep well last night?” Jonghyun asked as he bent down to scribble something on the paper he held in his hand. before looking up from the paper to look at his patient. When you don't get an answer

“Tomorrow,” Jonghyun stopped his hand as he registered the readings on a medical device full of wires. “Can I go out? This time…”

The missing sound at the end of the sentence was replaced by a cough. Until Jonghyun had to quickly put the paper and pen in his hand on the bedside table and hurriedly rubbed Sehun's back gently.

“You sneak away often. Don't you think I don't know?" The person with the honor of elder said with a smile. Look at the person who leans his weight against the head of the bed. Then I reflected in my heart. Even though Sehun isn't his real brother. But he loves and adores Sehun like he is his real younger sibling. It is unfortunate that Sehun has to live a life of suffering from a disease that has no cure.

Even though he tried to support Sehun's condition for 3 years, all he could do was delay the symptoms of ALS.

Sehun has been through more terrible times than a 23 year old should. Complications beyond Sehun's stubbornness in escaping outside the hospital. Even though he knew very well what Sehun was going out to do. As a doctor, he probably couldn't be indifferent to Sehun's behavior. But as a brother If it's the only happiness I can give Sehun with the little time left He wanted to help.

“This afternoon, please take Sehun to have his lungs x-rayed.” He turned back and ordered the young nurse standing not far away. When Sehun looked like he was having difficulty breathing,

"Last time, you didn't get it, right? Here.. I asked for ... permission and ..." Seun looked at the doctor with pleading eyes.

“For the last time,” he continued, exhausted. Seeing no sign of the yes he wanted, after coming back He felt that his condition was getting worse. The little time he had was slowly running out every day. from trying to get out of the hospital Even though he knew it would make him collapse. But he wanted to be able to look at the person he loved from afar, even if he could only watch, but that was the last thing he wanted.

“If you're going, I'll go with you, okay?” Sehun smiled, accepting the answer tiredly. The image of Jonghyun in front of him became blurry and gradually became distant. before his consciousness suddenly disappeared for no apparent reason.

Jonghyun received his limp body. Then position the sick person to sleep as comfortably as possible. before handing the syringe to Taeyeon who was waiting. “Let him rest first. You and I still have things to talk about. This isn't even counting the way you helped him leave yesterday.” Jonghyeon sent a fierce look at Taeyeon, who was standing beside the bed with a withered expression. before grabbing a piece of paper and a pen and walking out of the room.

"Tonight we're going to celebrate Minseok's birthday." After blowing out the twenty-four birthday candles that the juniors had placed, Chanyeol's voice suddenly rose without even questioning the birthday boy's willingness.

Minseok turned around to look at Chanyeol, who was smiling wide without knowing anything.

“The manager is going to feed us?” Baekhyun, the red-haired boy, asked with a playful expression.

"I raise it myself It's an important friend's birthday. Besides, tomorrow is a holiday. Get completely drunk."

A loud cheer and applause followed the words of the energetic young manager Chanyeol.

Minseok only frowned. In fact, he planned to quickly finish up his work and then go back to sleep for a long time.

But in the end, he was dragged out by the younger siblings and Chanyeol. A small bar-restaurant was closed to host a birthday party for a diminutive marketing chief.

Minseok was sipping a clear alcoholic beverage in a tall glass when he was suddenly dragged away from the table by Baekhyun. Someone stuffed a microphone into his hand and pushed him up to the center of the stage. Chanyeol's shout asking him to sing a song on his birthday caused cheers to follow until he finally had to choose the first song that popped into his head.

And the atmosphere that was once lively gradually quieted down according to the melody and words of the song. The song's sad meaning made Chanyeol swallow thickly. Staring at the pitch black eyes of his best friend, which looked glistening from tears welling up in their eyes.

A gentle nudge from his side made him take his eyes from Minseok back to his side and saw a white face and a group of red hair staring at him already. Before Baekhyun nodded to the owner of the birthday party who was immersed in the emotion of the song.

“I shouldn't have let you go out and sing.”

“I want the atmosphere to be better. Who would have thought it would be like this?” Baekhyun pursed his lips before turning to look at the person standing on stage holding a microphone and singing. Because the lights were dimmed, a white face was hidden in the shadows. But from where he was sitting, he could see the tears that had been wiped away from his face.

Nunmuri erodke heulreonaerimyeon

When the tears fall

Akiton nae jageun suokdeulmajeodo eojeol jul mlara

Even the precious little memories, I still don't know what to do with them.

“Just hand it over, Chanyeol, I'll walk in myself.” He reached out and touched the arm of the person who was pretending to turn into the alley. Chanyeol lightly tapped the brakes before turning to look at the face of the person sitting next to him with swollen eyes.

“I don't want you to walk in by yourself. It's late. Didn't you say that someone was following you the other day?”

Minseok chuckled softly in his throat. before giving a wide smile to the person in front of him “I'm a man. And I walk this path every day. You sent me back to the car and it was difficult again. You shouldn't hurry and send Baekhyun off.” He turned to look at the person sleeping in the backseat like a child. before grabbing his own luggage from the car Without listening to Chanyeol's objections shouting after him.

Minseok slowed his pace. A small hand reached into his trouser pocket. to pick up a thin communication device The many birthday messages he received It was sent all day without fail. But there was no message from the person he was waiting for.

Even though I tried to tell myself that it was just waiting for nothing. But when he didn't see a message from the person he was waiting for Tears couldn't help but well up in both eyes.

23:56 pm

In the end, I just put my cell phone in my bag. It's just the birthday of someone who is an ex.

What does Sehun care about when he already has someone else by his side?

Beep Beep

The sound of the message came in, causing the person who had just put his phone into his pocket to immediately pick it up and look at it. The little heart beats rhythmically until you can feel it. When you see the name displayed on the screen

Using a trembling hand, he opened the message that was sent almost instantly.

happy birthday

oh...

Just a short message sent. Causing the river of tears he was trying to block to collapse. Tears that he didn't know where they came from overflowed from both eyes. Until the road ahead seems blurry

Until I had to raise my hand to wipe the tears away casually.

The word thank you appears on the screen. It was just that short word, but it took him more than two minutes to type it with shaking hands. The tears that fell on the phone screen only reinforced his weakness.

Press and enter the phone number that you remember. The thumb moving towards the text keypad froze. Hesitation appeared in the eyes of the person who was looking down at his cell phone.

A thin figure standing in the shadows secretly looked at the face that was bent on a mobile phone screen. The light from the screen showed that his round face was filled with tears. Where are the little shoulders that tremble from the force of those sobs?

because of him

He made Minseok cry again.

Even though I wanted to walk in and hug and comfort the person in front of me.

Even though I wanted to reach out and wipe away my tears. But all he could do now was secretly look at another person from a distance.

Beep Beep

Sehun was startled by the sound of the message ringing out. His eyes widened as his eyes met Minseok's gaze.

“Sehun?” he called uncertainly. When he saw a familiar shape Because of the sound of his cell phone message ringing after he sent a message. This caused him to look for the source of the sound. But the darkness that surrounds me Instead, he hid that face in the shadows, as if he didn't want him to see that person.

“Sehun, is it you?” he said loudly when he saw the other person turn away from him and start running. Minseok dropped his large suitcase onto the road. before running after the figure Even though his mouth was continuously shouting out the other person's name.

“Sehun, Sehun, you wait for me.”

Minseok wiped the tears from his face. When he saw another person quickly turn and disappear into an alley. He hurriedly ran after him until he tripped on his own shoelace that came loose and fell down. Minseok gritted his teeth and stood up when he felt a pain in his ankle. But he still tried to drag his legs into that alley. The light from the lamp post illuminates the entire alley.

Minseok scanned his eyes for the figure of the person he was sure he saw running into the alley. But it's empty

Minseok picked up his phone and dialed the number he had just sent a message to.

Not far from him was the sound of a telephone ringing. Minseok slowly walked towards the source of the voice. Behind the big electric pole There was a mobile phone with his photo on the screen.

Reaching out with trembling hands, he picked up the cell phone from the pavement. Even though his other hand was still holding the phone to his ear. Many tears flowed from both eyes until they covered his face. Minseok didn't even bother to wipe it off. The mobile phone signal next to my ear was cut off. Along with the vibration from the other mobile phone in his hand that disappeared.

Sehun, you are cruel.

Right now, the only way he could contact Sehun. It has been cut off. He never knew that since Sehun had left his room. Where did Sehun go? What did he do? With whom?

The only thing that allowed him to recognize Sehun was this cell phone in his hand.

“You have no heart, Oh Sehun. I hate you.”

The sunlight filtered into the room causing Minseok to squint to avoid the light. Eyes that were swollen from crying all night slowly closed. But warm tears continued to flow from both eyes.

In his hand, he still held Sehun's phone tightly. After he brought himself back to the room Open it and look at the information on your mobile phone. But it turned out to be nothing at all. There was only a message sent out to his number.

Maybe Se-woon wanted him to disappear from her life. Sehun's life with that woman by his side and for himself Minseok will do as Sehun intended.

Now he will use these tears to erase Sehun.

Erase the memories of this person.

Delete Sehun like a stranger who has never met.

Even though it's hard But the pain he had suffered was enough.

Tears flowing now Will it erase the image of that man?

He still couldn't find an answer for this broken heart.

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