I'm definitely going to quit.

She didn't dare tell her parents, siblings, even close friends. She kept us a secret. Taste it when hungry and put it in a box and stuff it in the deepest corner of the refrigerator.

Size in the same room sleep in the same room same bed I was on the top bunk, she was on the bottom bunk. I know when little hands Turn the paper over and read the next page of the novel. I know when she turns and changes position. I know when her cell phone vibrates with notifications.

And she knows what I'm thinking. She knows what I feel.

But we won't talk.

The first agreement was in this small, quiet square room. We didn't talk to each other. Four people stayed in that room without conversation. She is the one who feels what I feel. She told me one day outside our room. That day I was a good listener. I didn't respond to her at all.

That day she started calling me confidently and a bit defiantly,

her

Words that aren't used to refer to other people, our words.

So I called after him.

Right now, my girl doesn't seem confident in anything.

I used to be half-asleep after a marathon of movies. During that time, I was very upset because she showed signs of being interested in me. It can be seen in the eyes When she looks at me, I feel like she doesn't use this look with anyone else. I feel special

But our special words may not be the same.

So I chose to escape. Run away first, but still linger in the same old feelings. Movies help me escape reality a bit so...I've watched it 500 times.

days of summer

and

flipped

and

friendzone

and etc.

She wouldn't dare interrupt my movie viewing.

But I will keep waiting to send messages to ask. Waiting like that, anticipating the time the movie would end.

I hate

I hate that she makes the messages that pop up seem so exciting. And my heart twitches every time my phone gives me a notification.

Until the battery runs out, my eyes start to feel tired, sleepy, hungry. I keep complaining to myself for being stupid and delirious, and the cold sun starts to roll down like a thin blanket. I felt like I was seeing my old school with my old friends who had gone to school separately. I saw the house and the pet cat and felt it gently rub my hand.

The touch of my hand...the hand that I gently extended to you. It's like a safety test. Then he came in a little more, a little more. My hands were warm. I felt like I was being gently embraced, like a cat afraid of hurting me. Soft as I am a flower petal

I opened my eyes, I wasn't at home but in my dorm bed. The same bed as her lying in front of her The bed was higher but I saw her looking at me with confusion in her eyes.

She reached up and was holding my hand.

Like I've always dreamed of Just like I had imagined

But that time it was real.

And I don't want to break up with her again...

Until I got here Before she admitted that they liked each other and wanted to be together, some things had happened. She didn't dare admit what her feelings were. It would take different people for each person...to understand herself and catch up with her feelings. I chose to wait and the day we started dating came true.

I still can't tell if she'll forget the anniversary because she's never had it before, but she remembers my birthday exactly. I remember how fussed she was when she tried to give me a small thirty-five baht box of cake from 7-Eleven without anyone else knowing or getting suspicious. And I must not doubt

She brought it to our room. Come and wait.

She knows I like strawberry cake. I've put in a candle and haven't lit it yet. The first person to enter the room was her. And then another mate, even though it's me, she knows what to do.

The mate was sitting at a reading table with his back to the bed. Turn your back on us When she took out the cake, I was shocked.

Then she lit a candle But it's not as good as said. Looking left and right, dragging me to sit on her bed. Open the phone and give headphones to listen together. She played the most sinister Happy Birthday song, no music, just singing. And who else's voice could it have been besides the voice of the person in front of me at that time?

I almost shed tears.

Why do I want to break up with this woman?

What reason do I have to stay with her?

I don't know why I put the debut so much on our couple. But I couldn't show that I cared that much. I miss it and can't talk about it too much. When we're together we have to be quiet with each other. I could only read the message and secretly chuckle. When you pretend to do something funny and then hold your breath to hear if she's secretly laughing too or not.

Even when we're in bed, she moves, I feel it, and when I move, she probably feels it too. Even though we know that we really have each other here.

The bed shook because someone sat on it. I felt her crawl onto her knees and lay down on her blue pillow.

And then there was the sound of turning on the fan. After a while, that fan sound became the same sound as my fan.

Inside, he felt sad. And I don't want to tell you what I'm sorry about.

“If a mate comes, we won't talk. I don't want to chat or call at all.” I said that. But the words drifted off into nothingness. She was probably asleep, with headphones on, or just couldn't hear me. But I won't repeat it. No words can come out. My throat constricted, I made a gurgling sound, the bed shook a little and she stepped off the bed.

“Why do birds suddenly appear

Every time you are near?”

With a voice that I'm more familiar with than that song The edges of my eyes are hot in the way I hate most in the world.

I hate that I know how you feel.

I hate that I did this but I also want to protect my feelings.

Hate that I'm afraid That I have to lose you now

Even though she's trying...

her…

If I thought about breaking up because she wasn't clear I probably broke up with her a long time ago.

On the day that you were born

The angles got together

If I break up because you're annoying I probably broke up with her a long time ago.

There's a reason why I'm waiting for you. Waiting for you to step over the strange wall Waiting for you to hold my hand and walk through that strange wall together.

The reason why you stood waiting beside me

I hate

Because since you secretly held my hand when I closed my eyes and you thought I was asleep When you stroked my hair, I whispered a line

close to you

In a voice that sounded extremely uncertain In a way that doesn't suit you at all. Since then I know I can't really leave you.

And now you're here Standing looking up at me with the eyes I've always looked at you with. It has sad shades. Do you feel it? I want to reach out and ruffle your hair so that the look in your eyes will change. You can be angry, but don't be sad.

So, they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold And star light in your eyes of blue.

She looked at me like she was pleading without making a sound. What can I do but climb down on the bed? Become a person who looks up instead and

That is why all the girls in town

follow you all around.

Opening his arms to hug her, he buried his face in her flat chest, which was soft and warm, but flat. She laughed softly. And I chuckled. drowning in your chest

“Sorry,” she said.

She did all this She was such a little girl because she was in front of me.

You're even weaker than me.

We were uncomfortable and she knew it.

"Let's not run away. We…"

Damn it, her voice is broken like this, it's not good.

Just hug me. Just hug me right here without being afraid of anyone outside. Needless to say, you know that I always forgive you like a fool.

I know exactly how you're going to act. Pushing like a little child Her smiling mouth turned down like a small child's.

She gently rubbed her hand against my back. Hold tight until you feel warm. She hugged me like that until I was shaking from sobs. You yourself are no different.

We are no different.

oh…

Just like me, They long to be

There's no way we can escape if it continues like this.

We haven't lost each other once.

Close to you

Wa Close to you…