Breath

Sehun x Minseok

“You have no heart, Oh Sehun. I hate you.”

Jonghyun pulled Sehun's light body towards him. When he saw the other person's expression, he seemed to fall down because of the sentence just now.

“Are you okay? We can go back now.” Jonghyun carried Sehun's exhausted body to his car parked in a nearby alley. But Sehun's weak legs seemed unable to continue walking. In the end, Jonghyun decided to carry Sehun on his back instead.

His limp body and his shockingly light weight on his back made Jonghyun unable to swallow the suppressed feelings that he couldn't put into words. and asked the person on the back

"Are you okay? Sehun is in the car."

“..” There was no answer. Only the sound of his breathing could be heard beside his ears. Sehun buried his face in his shoulder. Warm tears seeped through the fabric until he could feel it.

"Everything will get better, trust me."

Taeyeon pulled the white curtains together to block the afternoon sunshine that streamed into the room. before turning around to look at the figure lying peacefully on the bed The soft hum of the ventilator was the only sound that broke the silence in the room.

He walked closer to the still figure. before raising his hand to stroke his coarse hair Even though it used to be soft before Because of the side effects of the medicine that Sehun had to take to treat his condition.

Long eyelashes blinked slowly. Before dark brown eyes stared at her.

“Did I predict he would wake up?” he asked feeling guilty. Thinking that she was the cause of disturbing his rest

“No.” Sehun's hoarse voice sounded softly. He raised his hand with all his strength to brush off the respirator that was cluttering his face in annoyance.

“Don't be stubborn.” Taeyeon grabbed her fragile wrist. Then he picked it up and placed it beside his body with a fierce look.

“Annoyed,” Sehun's soft voice and childish face made Taeyeon smile. "Paper..." Sehun pointed to the foot of the bed where a notebook and pencil had been left behind. Taeyeon nodded in understanding before walking over and picking up the notebook. Adjust the bed so Sehun can sit up. before placing the notebook in Seun's lap

Then help support that hand to hold the pencil. before leaving Sehun to practice arm exercises alone

After returning with Dr. Kim that day Sehun's physical condition had deteriorated. Over the next few weeks, Sehun's limbs began to weaken. Until one day when she saw Sehun lying next to the bed. Sehun's legs were no longer usable.

Both arms gradually lost their strength little by little. Symptoms of chronic respiratory failure make Sehun suffer every night. Many times she saw Sehun secretly crying quietly by himself. Then he looked outside as if waiting for someone.

Since Sehun was admitted to the hospital for treatment, Taeyeon had never once seen Sehun's relatives come to visit him. All she knew from Dr. Kim was that Sehun's mother and father had an accident and died when Sehun was a child. Leaving only a large inheritance that all relatives hope to steal from Sehun But Sehun was lucky that his cousin Dr. Kim had helped protect and preserve his inheritance rights for him.

Sehun never talked about his family. Only the name Kim Minseok was the only thing she heard from Sehun's mouth often. Talking about cuteness of the person Sehun said looked like a snowman Taeyeon could only smile at those words every time. Sehun's sad eyes always sparkled when he talked about Minseok.

Because she imagined the smile of the little child that Sehun compared to her. So she agreed to help Sehun get back to seeing that smile again.

Crack!!!!

Taeyeon turned her gaze at the sound. Then I had to rush over to find Sehun, who had his head down and was sobbing so hard that his heart would break. Embracing his trembling body "It's okay, Sehun. It's okay."

“Hand...hand, me.” The cries of the people in their arms made the tears that were pooling in Taeyeon's eye sockets fall from both eyes.

“It's okay, Sehun. As soon as I do physical therapy, it will be able to function again.”

"I don't want..not yet. I don't want to...die. Please help me."

“Don't think too much, Seun. You shouldn't be like this.”

Jonghyun held the knob and held it like that. When he heard crying coming from the patient's room He had never seen Sehun this weak before.

Even knowing that all along it was just the armor that Sehun built up to make him strong.

Strong enough to let go of the person you love.

I'm willing to let go even though I still love you.

Minseok continues to live his normal life. Wake up early to go to work and then bring work back home to do until day and night. Even though Chanyeol always dissuades him about his overwork. But Minseok never listened. Work was the only thing he devoted all his time to. So that there would be no time left for him to get distracted by unnecessary matters.

But there will never be a day that he doesn't think about that person. A person who leaves with many memories left for him to remember.

Even though time won't help you forget But time helped his heart to be strong enough to live on his own.

“Minseok hyung, there are documents for you to sign.” Baekhyun walked in with a wide-eyed smile and a file in his hand. before placing the file in front of the person who was concentrating on typing in front of a laptop.

Minseok adjusts his glasses on his face. before sending a smile back to the little junior

“Have we become a courier boy?”

“What can I do? He used it,” he said, pouting towards Chanyeol's office door. Minseok looked up and smiled slightly. Then he turned the file over and read the document he had to sign.

Baekhyun moved up and sat on the table where Minseok was working. Tiny legs in black slacks fluttered around as they waited for Minseok. Those hands fidgeted and picked up Minseok's things and played with them. before grabbing out the mobile phone that was hiding in the desk calendar

“Changing your cell phone?” Minseok glanced at Baekhyun, who turned the cell phone around in his hand before looking down to continue reading the document.

“No, I picked it up.”

“It won't turn on,” he pursed his lips as he tried to turn it on but got no response. “Oh!”

Minseok paid no more attention to Baekhyun's cries than to the contents of the document in front of him. Until he felt someone's shadow hovering over the paper he was intending to read. until you have to look up When he saw Chanyeol's solemn face looking straight at him, He had to frown. And then I was even more surprised when Chanyeol kept his mouth shut.

It wasn't just him who was suspicious of that gesture. But Baekhyun kept looking at Chanyeol because of his strange expression.

“Minseok?” Minseok raised his eyebrows in question as Chanyeol just stared at him with a serious expression.

“Take care of yourself, Minseok.”

“Minseok, come back,” Chanyeol shouted his little friend's name as he opened the door and got out of the car even though the car was still stopped at a red light in the middle of the road.

The sound of honking the horn, the sound of tires grinding against the road. Followed by the sound of cursing as Minseok ran in front of the car and crossed to the other side of the road like a mindless person.

Both legs carried the small body straight to the emergency room inside the hospital. He hardly cared about who he bumped into. The sound of the cursing that followed barely reached his ears as Chanyeol's voice played over and over in his head.

The hospital called to say that Sehun had a high fever. Must be admitted to the ICU room urgently.

He didn't know why, he just had a fever. Sehun had to be admitted to the ICU.

And why did Chanyeol act like it was such a serious matter?

Minseok only knew right now that he felt really bad.

It hurt in his chest like he was about to lose Sehun.

The legs that were running at a fast speed gradually relaxed until they turned into slow steps, one step at a time when they saw the ICU sign. appear to the eye A small hand came up to cup his own chest. When you feel the pain in your heart

The smell of disinfectant hung in the air, making him disconcerted. As he approached the large door Minseok could only raise his hand to touch the small glass panel.

“The patient's blood oxygen pressure is down to 50 mmHg.” Jonghyun looked at the number from the pulse oximeter on Sehun's fingertip. The value that appeared was a number that made him frightened. I could only look at Sehun, who was having a hard time breathing. Seun's eyes were so weak in his feelings.

"I'm going to poke my throat.

bypass

Oxygen, prepare the tools.” Jonghyun turned to Taeyeon, who nodded slowly before he left to prepare the tools for the procedure.

bypass

that he ordered

“It's okay, Sehun. It won't hurt,” he said, slowly stroking his dark brown hair. Sehun rolled his eyes slowly. Both of their eyes were filled with tears. Before he closed his eyes Let the tears welling up slowly fall from the corners of both eyes. Jonghyun looked at Sehun's expression with an aching heart.

“Promise me. If it's my time You won't hold me back."

The promise he had made to Sehun flashed in his mind. It made him feel numb all over.

“I already promised you, Sehun. I already promised you,” Jonghyun said in a trembling voice. When Sehun blinked in response Se-woon's body, which had been tense from breathing difficulties, seemed calmer.

Sehun slowly closed his eyes. He really wanted to rest. For a long time he had to fight with his own body. By this time it was the end of a long journey.

I'm sorry, Minseok, that I couldn't take care of you.

The heart rate monitor's long sound signaled that another life had passed.

Jonghyun bent down and tearfully kissed the forehead of his younger brother. before turning and slowly walking away.

"Dr. Kim, doctor."

He could only look up at the ceiling. To prevent manly tears from flowing He reached out and touched the cool door in front of him before pushing it open. The light outside caused him to slowly narrow his eyes. before feeling the force that rushed into the collision

The gown he wore was pinched by two small hands. Jonghyun slowly looked at Minseok's round, tear-filled face before looking behind him. If he remembered correctly, the tall boy who walked up to him and grabbed Minseok's arm to free him from his shirt was probably Chanyeol.

“Jonghyun hyung, Sehun, what's wrong with Sehun? Why did he have to go to the ICU? What happened? What happened?...”

“Minseok, don't do this.” Chanyeol grabbed Minseok's small hand as it moved to grip Jonghyun's lab coat.

“What did you say? Sehun, how are you?” Minseok pulled the shirt in his hand with force. Then he raised his head and made eye contact with Jonghyun who looked back at him. Even though his eyes were blurred because they were filled with tears But he could see the tears streaming down the face of the doctor in front of him.

Jonghyun closed his eyes tightly. before slowly shaking his head Almost immediately, Minseok removed his hand from his shirt before his small body stumbled against Chanyeol's chest. While staring at the white front door

“It's not true, it's not true, what the hell is this?” Minseok shouted loudly. before shaking his arm out of Chanyeol's hand And before Chanyeol could grab him Minseok then ran into the ICU. The nurse inside the room shouted to stop making loud noises. Jonghyun quickly turned around and walked back into the room with Chanyeol following close behind.

The sight made Jonghyun turn away. Minseok clings to the edge of the bed and cries, burying his face in Sehun's chest.

“Sehun, no, Sehun, don't leave me. Sehun, don't go.” A small hand reached into the air as if grabbing something. Until someone's strong palm reached out and held that pair's hand. Wake up the consciousness of those who are dreaming.

Minseok looked at the face of the person in front of him as if he couldn't believe his own eyes. Then he looked at the hand that was being held. Warm touch at fingertips The gentle pressure he felt caused tears to well up in both eyes.

"Sehun," Minseok sat up and hugged the owner of his name tightly. He buried his face in his broad shoulder to find shelter. Let warm tears flow from both eyes.

Sehun smiled at the little sobs of the people in his embrace. Before raising his hand to rub his head to comfort him.

"Did you have a bad dream?" he asked in a soft voice. While slowly pushing the other person away so he could look at his tear-filled face. Gently run your fingertips along the tear lines on your smooth face. But the more you wipe, the more it seems to flow.

"Don't leave me, Sehun. Don't leave me I can't live without you, Sehun.” A small hand reached out and grabbed the wrist of the person who was wiping his tears firmly, as if afraid that the person in front of him would disappear from him.

“Where am I leaving you, Minseok? Since I'm right here," Sehun smiled faintly at the person sitting on the bed sobbing.

"I'm afraid of Sehun. It's really scary. Haha. I don't want to lose you."

“It was just a dream, Minseok. There's nothing."

“Sehun, I'm really scared. I don't know why But it's so real I'm afraid."

Minseok buried his face in Sehun's chest again, letting the tears fall slowly.

"You're crying because of me again. I'm sorry, Minseok. I'm sorry that I'm not good. Don't cry because of me again, Minseok."

Minseok looked up at the other person's face. Sehun's sad face made him tighten his grip on his slender figure. But he could only hug the air as the image of Sehun in front of him slowly faded.

“Sehun,” Minseok called out as he reached for the figure that slowly disappeared in front of him.

Just shouting Sehun's name like a unconscious person.

"Sehun"

“Minseok,” the person who was sitting dozing, was startled by a loud cry amidst the silence in the special ward. When he regained consciousness, the tall figure slid over to the hospital bed where another person's small body lay restlessly. Grabbing the hand that was reaching out into the air, he held it in the palm of his hand before shaking it, waking the other person from his dream.

“Minseok, Minseok.”

Eyelashes that were wet with tears blinked slowly before they disappeared. Revealing pitch black eyes that were filled with tears.

“Why am I here?” Minseok asked as he looked around the room before looking down at the back of his hand where the IV line was connected.

“You fainted, so the doctor gave you…”

"Sehun, where's Chanyeol? Where's Sehun? Isn't he alright? Where's Sehun? Chanyeol."

Instead of an answer, a thick black book was held in front of him. Minseok could only stare at it without understanding. “The doctor said Sehun started writing it when he was admitted to the hospital. Maybe you want to keep it.”

A bouquet of white roses was carefully placed on a well-manicured hill of green grass. The pure white gravestone was engraved with the name of the owner of the body lying peacefully beneath the ground.

Minseok let out a small smile as he reached out and touched the golden letters. Even though the face was full of tears

“Sleep well, Sehun.”

A gentle tap on his shoulder caused Minseok to quickly wipe the tears from his face. His red lips curled into a tight line as he turned to meet the eyes of the person waiting for him.

“I need another ten minutes, Chanyeol,” Minseok said. before stretching out his hand to take the black diary from Chanyeol's hands. The cool touch of the leather cover covering it. It was cold to the core of his heart. Minseok gripped the notebook in his hand tightly. When I felt my hands start to shake

“I'm waiting in the car.” Minseok stood and looked at Chanyeol, who walked back out and got into the waiting car. Before turning around, he walked towards a large tree not far from the grave. I threw myself down there under the base of the tree that spread its leafy branches to provide shade. before placing the diary he received from Jonghyun that day on his lap.

His fingertips traced slowly across the black leather cover. His eyes suddenly became hot again. With tears welling up in both of their eyes. Minseok raised his head to prevent tears from falling.

“The doctor said Sehun started writing it when he was admitted to the hospital. Maybe you want to keep it.”

Minseok slowly opened the diary. Sehun's familiar handwriting appeared on the first page.

"For the rest of life"

“I miss you so much, Minseok. I want to be with you the most right now. But I can't do that. I will let you be sad today. It's better than being sad forever because of me.

Hope someday You will love someone who is ready for you. Someone who can wipe away your tears. Hug you to comfort you when you're down.

Right now I can't even breathe. It's still too difficult for me. So I have to let go Forget about me, Minseok. You need to be strong and have brighter days with someone who can take care of you.”

Minseok bit his lip tightly to hold back his sobs. A white gravestone appeared in the field of view. He looked at it with an aching heart. before flipping over to read the handwriting written on the paper on the next page

“In the past, each second passed so slowly.

But now

At the time I only had 10 months left.

It's so difficult

time

Can you please stop here?”

“The uncle I met in the garden was gone when my father and mother left me.

I was very sad and cried without shame.

But now I'm older, so I secretly cry alone.

I don't want anyone to see me as weak.

Wait for me, parents."

“Today my legs are starting to lose strength. After walking a few steps, it felt like he couldn't stand.

Many times, my legs suddenly lost all strength and fell. No matter how hard I fell, it was just numb.

I can't get up by myself. I've never been able to do it.

Every day that I still open my eyes and wake up I have to keep pounding and pinching it. To know that there are still feelings

Please, Lord. Please give me strength.”

“Why, Minseok? Even though I said I already have someone new You should hate me and stop contacting me. But why are you still calling? You know, I get scared every time the phone rings. I'm afraid I'll accidentally answer your phone. Until I had to mute it I want to hear your voice. I want to hear your laugh.

The sound of you calling my name

Right now, I'm just looking at you from afar.

One day you'll forget me, Minseok.

Someday you will meet someone you love more than me.”

“I saw Minseok from far away. I walked him home like I always do. But he kept walking away. Until I couldn't keep up

I really want to know, Minseok, if you knew that the person who follows you every day is me. What are you going to do?”

“Today Minseok called again.

Why don't you forget me?

I am now unable to even reach out and wipe away your tears.

Forget me and have a good life.”

“My body started to disobey again and it was difficult to breathe.

Maybe I want to die right now.

It would be better than having to suffer in this condition.”

“Happy birthday, Minseok.

Now you probably hate me.

It might be the last time I'll ever see you. Even though I want to see you smile

But I'm the one who made you cry again.

I want to wipe away your tears. But I don't have the courage to let you see me in this state.

I'm sorry, Minseok. I'm sorry that everything turned out like this.

My heart hurts so much.”

Minseok looked at the facial stains on the paper that were causing the letters to fade away. Run your finger across the page. that Sehun has ever experienced

A time when all he could do was cry. Sehun is no different.

He slowly turned the blank pages over and over. I almost thought Sehun's records were all gone. Until I found the handwriting written in pencil. The handwriting he didn't think was Sehun's. Because it's like the handwriting of a child just learning to write.

“I never thought that breathing would be this difficult.

Please don't let me suffer any longer, I beg you.”

“My legs will no longer be able to walk. I can't move it. He pounded and hit it, but it didn't feel anything.

I'm afraid.”

“Minseok.

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Minseok

Mi..."

Minseok slowly stroked the jagged letters that filled the page with his name. Until he reached his name, the last word with a long line of pencil tracing the end of the page. Even though the words weren't even finished yet. before letting out a loud moan that couldn't be contained

Sehun who tried to force himself Write his name every remaining day. But in the end, his hands were as weak as his legs.

Minseok pulled out a pen from the pocket of his suit and completed the last words that Sehun had left behind.

“Minseok.

Kim Minseok loves Oh Sehun

and will love you forever.”

THE END

Let's start off by talking about medical matters. The composer really didn't know anything about it. Tried to find information but it's like this.

Try to skim through it and don't care.

It's finished. Hyun Min and the sad theme song.

Anyway, please leave a comment. It's not that it's all sad and gone. I'm sorry about the wedding. Haha.

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