“Rock.” I held the face of the person below with both hands. His trembling eyes stared at me. It is both fragile and unstable.

One day, someone may change us without us knowing.

“Sun…” A soft voice called out as a thin palm touched the cheek. It's like warm water pouring down on my heart.

Yes, 'Tawan' is my name.

And it feels good every time I hear it. If that were the call that came from the mouth of the rock

- Sun -

“Tawan…” I gasped as my sharp eyes flashed with confusion. If we don't count the first time we accidentally had sex. Every time, I felt that for a moment there would be confusion in the eyes of the people on my body.

And after I called out this name Sun would hug me tighter every time. Sometimes it makes me feel so uncomfortable that I feel like I can't breathe, but that makes me strangely happy. It hurts but feels good. Not gentle, but warm like the winter sun.

- rock -

SUN&STONE

"rock"

"rock"

“Wake up now.”

A voice that sounded like it was coming from far away made me slowly wake up. The sunlight coming through the curtains that someone was trying to open forced me to raise my palm to block the light. The person who was only seen as a shadow in the backlight turned around and crossed his arms over his chest. Sharp eyes looked straight at me as if to criticize me.

"I know. Close the curtains, it hurts my eyes." I flicked the blanket off of me. But the shadow that lay across the bed still didn't move.

“Sun,” he smiled when I started making loud noises. The passing shadow moved away. And the curtains were closed as before. But the light that came through the curtains was brighter than the candles in the bathroom.

“Okay, I believe you're awake.” His deep voice was filled with soft laughter.

“There you go, eat it all on the table.” His slender index finger pointed at the dining table that could be described as very small for two men in front of the kitchen counter that had been divided into zones before. He would open the door and leave the room like every day since we moved in together.

'Strangers' is the first status that he and I meet, and 'friends' are what follows after that.

And because of some events that happened between me and him, the word 'friend' slowly faded away.

Only a state filled with emptiness remains.

Yes...he and I had sex. And that wasn't just one time.

The reflection in the mirror made me raise my hand to my throat before sliding it down beneath my pulse and chest. The red, bruised patches were almost infuriating.

'Fuck you'

Those were the words I sent a line to someone before I put the phone down on the sink and went into the shower.

A shot of espresso sat next to a smoked salmon and avocado sandwich on the narrow dining room table, which had a blue Post-it note on it. The writer's scribbles made me unable to help but smile. 'Don't go out to eat again'. Even if you write, it's a waste of paper. Where have I ever done it?

I took out a glass filled with ice that had been placed in the freezer and poured in the strong coffee and water. I like iced Americano. And someone always knows. But to have me eat only their clean breakfast, please.

My notebook was spread out again on the table by the window because it was time to make a living. I pressed the spacebar before continuing to type a new message.

Yes, 'writer' is my profession. As for the person who left the room this morning, I know that many people can guess. That's right, Sun is a chef.

'Fuck you'

The line message that was sent made me unable to stop laughing. It must have been really upset that I left such a mark on it. And when I go back, I'll probably get annoyed at him. But every time I have sex with him, I've never been able to stop myself.

“Chef, a customer wants to meet you.” A voice called from the door, causing me to put my phone into my pocket. Actually, now it's my break. But the word customer makes me nod to the person who comes forward to call me anyway.

“Hello,” she smiled as soon as I greeted her. She is a regular customer. and called me regularly as well

“How are you today?”

“Very delicious, more delicious every day.”

“Thank you.” I smiled slightly at the meaningful compliment as always.

If I were to tell you honestly I have had sex with many regular customers of this type. That's because I'm just a normal guy and it's not difficult to ignite lust. Offered a response and it was a win for both sides.

“What time is chef off today?”

But if I'm being honest again, I stopped doing things like that long enough.

“Sorry, but I have an appointment today.” I bowed my head slightly before smiling at her again and walking back into the staff room.

Yes, I didn't have sex with anyone again after having sex with the rock. Even though the first time it was because we were both drunk. And the stone defines reason that way. And anything that has a first time must naturally have a second time. At that time, what did we have together on the day that Stone had problems and then broke up with his girlfriend? And it was me who took advantage of his weakness.

But in many subsequent times No matter what excuse or reason, neither of us ever brought it up again.

I started the car before heading back to the condo like usual. On the cushion next to him were a few ingredients for the two people's dinners. Hin is a person who likes to eat sweets and desserts very much. Maybe it's because their work requires a lot of thinking, so the body needs more sugar than usual. But even then I just want it to eat something useful.

The silence in the room somewhat surprised me. Normally at this time the stone would not go anywhere. But in a room without the cool air of the air conditioner, it was very telling that no one had been in this room for several hours.

I don't know how to explain my feelings right now. But seeing 'Eve''s face again today It's like my clock has turned back to that time again. Yes, 'Eve' is my ex-girlfriend who we broke up with almost 5 months ago. We've been together since we were in university. But after graduating

Things are slowly changing. quarrel more Be quieter with each other. In the end, it turned out that we had nothing more to talk about. Many people say it's because we're too similar. But I'm not really sure it's for that reason.

I realized again that the sky was already dark. I put my notebook in my bag before moving myself away from the small table in the corner of the cafe where I often sit for a change of scenery and work.

“I'm sorry, I've been sitting here for a long time today,” I said to the shop owner, who still smiled at me like usual.

“It's okay.” He shook his head before continuing.

“I like the atmosphere in the store when you're sitting there.”

“Uh…”

"Thank you. I hope you stop by often."

"yes"

Taking the train in the early evening is something I'm slowly getting used to. Because normally I only travel on it in the afternoon. The congestion of Bangkok is something I don't like. But the convenience of it is still a plus for me.

The smell of food greeted me from the moment I opened the door. Needless to say, Sun has probably returned. At first I was surprised, but now I'm getting used to it coming home so quickly and never going out again. Even though in the past, for him, the room was just for sleeping.

“Where have you been?” I looked up at the person who asked.

“Same place, but today I sat and enjoyed it a bit.” He nodded before walking back into the kitchen as before.

I put my bag down next to the sofa before following him and sitting at the dining table in front of the kitchen counter. Soon a plate containing Chef Sun's cooking was delivered and placed in front of him. Everything is well organized. It was so beautiful I couldn't help but pull out my phone and take a picture of it.

“Write a review for me,” the person sitting opposite smiled.

"no"

“I can't describe the taste,” I said honestly. I don't know how to describe it. I only know whether it's delicious or not.

“What is it?” The person said, placing his elbows on the table before clasping his palms together. Sharp, shining eyes stared straight at me.

“Is my taste, eating it every day, still indescribable?”

For several minutes, everyone was silent. It felt a bit strange that today Stone didn't seem to enjoy the food I cooked much. Kicking and kicking, he picked up the water and drank.

“Today, I met him,” he said after sitting and looking at the food plate for a while. I picked up the beer can and drank it because I didn't know how to respond. Well, I knew exactly who this was referring to.

“I mean.”

“I know,” I cut in. Hinman nodded before continuing in a low voice.

“We didn't talk about anything. I happened to see him walking by. He…” I put the empty beer bag on the table. The wrong person's expression once again flashed across the face of the person sitting across from him.

“Eve has never been happier,” I sighed before standing up. Stone didn't follow me. Her pretty eyes were still focused on the plate of food in front of her.

“Stone,” the person called turned to look at me slowly. It was at that moment that I pulled the back of his neck that was covered in raven black hair and kissed him with my lips to stop his words. Stone was silent for a moment before starting to respond to me.

“I will.” We locked eyes and a few seconds later the stone closed its eyes as usual in response.

“Uh…” An uncomfortable moan made me clench my jaw to suppress the emotions that were exploding violently. I'm not a gentle person. And sometimes roughness is something more real.

whereas…

“Rock.” I held the face of the person below with both hands. His trembling eyes stared at me. It is both fragile and unstable.

One day, someone may change us without us knowing.

“Sun…” A soft voice called out as a thin palm touched the cheek. It's like warm water pouring down on my heart.

Yes, 'Tawan' is my name.

And it feels good every time I hear it. If that was the sound coming from the mouth of the rock

The light from the sun that poured in caused me to slowly open my eyes. Luckily, today is my day off because the person who is lying on my chest has not shown any sign of waking up. Hinman is a late riser. But I can't blame it alone because last night it was me who didn't let it sleep.

The white skin stood out to the eyes because we were all naked. What if there was someone outside the window looking in? It's probably not a good thing. But really, I don't care at all. It's just this rock that would make a big fuss if it woke up and realized that we hadn't closed the curtains on the balcony door since last night.

Beads of sweat began to appear on her pretty face as it started to get late. And the sunlight that began to shine through the end of the bed made the sleeping people start to wake up.

Once again, I decided to tell Ai Sun about Eve. I admit that I felt guilty and still regret it. I regret that I once became a failure in one's life.

“I will,” I closed my eyes in response after kissing Sun for a long time. Sun's kisses were never sweet, but they made me forget everything that was troubling my heart. Even though the guilt still remains But I was selfish enough to leave it behind.

“Tawan…” I gasped as my sharp eyes flashed with confusion. If we don't count the first time we accidentally had sex. Every time, I felt that for a moment there would be confusion in the eyes of the people on my body. And after I called out this name Sun would hug me tighter every time. Sometimes it makes me feel so uncomfortable that I feel like I can't breathe, but that makes me strangely happy. It hurts but feels good. Not gentle, but warm like the winter sun.

The bright sunlight that shone in caused me to open my eyes and discover that what I had been sleeping on all night was not a pillow but Sun's chest pad. It's not often that I have to wake up and face a situation like this. Because Sun usually wakes up to take a shower or go to work.

I pushed myself up, but the strong arm on my waist still didn't loosen. as quick as thought I raised my head and the sharp eyes that stared at me before made me almost unable to make a face. How long has he been awake?

“Aren't you going to work?” It's a short question, but it took me a long time to say it. I don't know why the sound seems to suddenly disappear like that.

“Today is closed,” he replied in a casual tone. I nodded as I didn't know what to say in response. Ai San's work is already like this. I don't know what days I have holidays. Because each month is almost never the same day.

The room was quiet again as we didn't talk any further. The deep blue sky outside the balcony made me want to stand up and take a closer look. But when I moved to sit up, the blanket moved off my body and I realized that I was still naked. And it's not just me who's in this situation. I switched to sitting cross-legged with my back to the person who was still leaning on the head of the bed reading something. But today's sky is really a very beautiful color.

A warm, wet feeling suddenly appeared on the slope of his shoulder. Yes, Sun pressed his lips down to kiss him before resting his chin on it. And the closeness of the bare skin from behind made me flinch and sit up straight. His strong arms slid into my waist and hugged me from behind.

“The color is beautiful,” a deep voice sounded in his ear. But I can't turn around and look at the person who spoke. Because we are too close to each other So close that I could hardly move.

"um"

“Are you hungry?”

"not yet"

And the white jets from the planes crisscrossing the sky silenced our conversation for a moment.

"rock"

“Let's take a shower.”

Having said that, this is the first time that we almost did every activity together. wake up together Take a shower together eat together And now I am sitting and reading a book across from another person who is concentrating on his own work. I used to think that sitting and waiting for someone to do something without having common ground was really boring.

But it's strange that right now I don't feel anything like that at all. It's like a rock, and my eyebrows will furrow. Now I bite my lip and let my cheeks puff out. I'll just sigh. It's fun to watch.

Sitting free and thinking about things. The book in my hand has been read for hours and I still haven't gotten past the original page.

'Let's take a shower' I didn't think that after saying that I would actually be able to do that and then it was…

It feels a lot better than I thought.

From the first day we decided to become roommates, I never thought that one day all boundaries would disappear. Haven't I ever told you that this condo actually has two bedrooms? And now it was one of Stone's book storage rooms.

“Aren't you going anywhere?” the person who looked up from his laptop screen asked.

“No,” I answered.

“I don't normally see it here.”

“Then it probably isn't normal.” I raised my eyebrows at the strange looking stone.

“I've gone crazy.”

“I'll get it right,” I pointed out. Hin shrugged before turning back to his work as usual. Suddenly I felt so irritated that I wanted to smack it up.

Well, I really must not be normal now.

In the late afternoon the stones began to look confused. He got up and walked around, sighed, and ended up laying down on the sofa near me.

“What is it?” I asked.

“Sleepy.” I couldn't help but laugh at that childish expression. Oh, it's the same here.

“Sleep.” I put down the book and moved to give the other person more space to sleep, but Stone shook his head.

"cannot"

Finishing his sentence, the stone boy was silent for a moment before he jumped up and sat up.

“I'm going outside.”

“Here,” I stood up, pulling up my shirt sleeves and folding them at my elbows. Prepare to pick up the car keys that are on the table.

“Where are you going?”

“How about you go with me?”

“No!” Stone shouted loudly, causing me to raise my eyebrows at him.

“When I saw your face...I couldn't do anything.”

After saying that, he got up and walked away like that. And is there really a chance I'll just let it go out on its own?

Print Delete Print Delete To tell the truth, I hardly got any work today. I don't know why my brain kept thinking about the person sitting across from me. The touch from his body still remains. Even when I smell the shampoo, I think of the touch of a wide palm gently massaging at the side of my temple. Or even the feel of his lips kissing the back of his neck when he cleaned off the conditioner this morning.

Damn it, I must be going crazy.

“Aren't you going anywhere?” I asked. The answer was no. I tried to gather my concentration and start getting into serious work mode again. But that's it.

“I'm going outside,” I peeked out before getting up and putting my laptop in my bag. But the cause of my distraction still doesn't know.

“When I saw your face...I couldn't do anything.”

Hmm...then I finally managed to say what was on my mind.

I stood and watched the person who insisted on delivering me until the car moved away before walking in and sitting at the table in the corner of the shop like usual. Outside the window there is a big tree that is covered with moss. It's easy on the eyes, so I always like to sit here.

“Thank you,” I smiled at the employee who brought a cold Americano and mint macarons to the table before opening the laptop screen and continuing typing the message I had left behind. The dark sky that was seen earlier in the morning suddenly changed. Dark clouds began to float low before the rain came down hard. Can't do anything with the weather in Bangkok.

“Can I sit with you?” A familiar voice came from behind. My breath temporarily faltered. But he nodded in response.

“I suddenly fell down.” The person next to me had a small smile on the corner of his mouth. His light tea-colored hair was so wet that it brushed against his soft cheeks. His naturally white skin became even more pale because of the cold air.

“Wipe it first.” I handed him a handkerchief. She smiled before taking it.

“Are you still kind to us?” I looked at her directly for the first time in months. That beautiful face still had a faint smile.

“We were never kind to Eve.”

“You mean that time?” I didn't answer her question. There are so many words in my head.

“Let's think about it. At that time, the stone wasn't as cold as we said. It's just that the stone just doesn't love me anymore.” It was like ten thousand tiny needles stabbing into my heart. A feeling of self-loathing permeated every surface until it was as if my body was stained black. That's right, what Eve said. I can't deny it. I didn't realize how tight my hand was until the other person reached out and held my hand so I could feel it.

“But actually, it's not just a stone. We didn't love each other at that time.” Eve's words made me look up at her again.

“I've been wanting to say this for a long time. But I never had a chance to meet. I'm sorry.”

“We are the ones who need to apologize.”

“Actually, they're both wrong,” Eve said before letting out a soft laugh. For the first time in months we talked and looked directly at each other. The hands we hold together right now are cold but full of emotion. And even though we were holding hands, it felt like the knots that had previously tied us together had loosened.

"thank you"

I went to buy ingredients for cooking in a department store after delivering stones to a nearby cafe for a while. He seems to take his own words quite seriously. Because as soon as I got to the shop, the door opened immediately. He also stood and watched until I drove out.

Honestly, I still don't really understand Stone's feelings, but... well, I'm not stupid, I just don't want to get ahead of myself. My feelings have changed a long time ago. You could say that it has changed since I first had sex with the stone.

It may sound funny that someone like me would feel this way. But it's true. And until that day, it will think that we were both drunk and unconscious. But I want to say it directly here. I'm not that drunk. I remember everything I did.

And every time we hugged, I just hoped that our story wasn't just actions parallel to feelings. I want it to be happiness that we chose to do together for the rest of our lives. That's all.

We had driven out of the mall for a while when suddenly the rain started pouring down continuously. Even though it's only a few meters away and we'll be there. Instead, I had to sit and tap the steering wheel and look at the light. Even though it had turned green three times, I was still in the same place.

I remembered that the rock didn't carry an umbrella with me, so I chose to find a parking spot and walk down to the store to find it instead. And for me, no matter where the stone is, I can see it before anyone else. It's just wrong that today the stone isn't sitting alone like usual. Next to it sat a small white woman.

Both of them are holding hands. And the stone is smiling A smile like I haven't seen in a long time.

Yes, that girl's name is Eve. She was Hin's ex-girlfriend. I remember her well even though we'd only met a few times. But I've heard more than enough of her stories. The confidence in something until just now was like being washed away by rain until it melted into the empty ground.

There's...nothing left that can be touched.

“Khun Sun” and it was she who finally noticed me.

“Hello,” I greeted before walking over and placing my hand on the shoulder of the person who was half sitting with my back turned to him.

“I still haven't gotten anywhere. Why did you come so quickly?” Hin Man raised his head and said, “Hmm, everything doesn't seem to be at the right place at the right time. But I still insist on staying.

"Whatever you want to do, just do it. You can wait."

“The rain has let up, so let's go back.” Eve tightened the strap of her cloth bag before standing up as another person stood up as well.

"Um, we'll walk over."

For several minutes I sat and looked out of the glass window. The two people walking under the same umbrella had long since disappeared from view.

Has Stone forgotten that I'm still sitting here waiting for him?

It was because I gave the umbrella I was carrying to Eve that I ended up stuck under the stairs of the subway station for a long time because the rain came back torrentially. But when the rain stopped again, I decided to run through the rain back to the store. So wet that the puppy fell into the water and died.

“Wipe it up.” Sun handed me a towel as soon as we got into the car. After that, there was hardly any conversation at all. Sharp eyes looking straight ahead Even the car is stuck and won't move. For now, the windshield wipers are still more attractive than my face. A slight discomfort began to build up. I could feel it, but I didn't know why.

"Go up first. If you're hungry, just call and order." And his words made me frown.

“Where are you going?” I asked. The coolness of the air conditioning in the car began to make me shiver. He didn't turn to look at me. The silence that hung inside the parked car with the engine turned off began to increase the discomfort.

“Sun”

It sighed before turning to me with an indifferent expression.

“Just like normal.”

I pursed my lips before nodding, accepting his normal words. It's normal to go out drinking with everyone. It's normal to have sex with anyone. Normally I have to sleep alone until morning. Its normal life that I never had in it.

"Um, drive carefully."

I don't know how much time passed as I lay curled up in bed. Many feelings flashed into my mind. And outside the window, the rain continued to pour down. Actually, today's weather is similar to my feelings. Even though there were only good things that happened during the day But at night it was really bad.

The coldness of the air made it difficult for me to breathe. And no matter how tightly I tied the blanket up and hugged it, it still wasn't warm. Maybe the bed is too wide?

“Huh…” I didn't know how stupid I had to be to let myself cry until I sobbed.

I once described habit as being like water. Slowly infiltrating to cool down But when we destroy the wall that was once set up until there is nothing left The oil will flood in and take away everything from us. Even though I understood it well, I kept breaking down my walls to let someone in.

You're so stupid.

Woke up late the next day. The room was still as quiet as it had been the previous night. This is 'normal' for Sun. I lifted myself up from the bed when it was time to start work. Next week the manuscript must be submitted. And I still can't turn it off. The room turned and turned, causing me to raise my hand to my temple and gently massage it.

And even though I closed my eyes, it still felt like the bed was rocking back and forth until I had to lay down as before. I don't know if it was because the fever hit me or because nothing had happened to my stomach since yesterday that made me so helpless.

With just the strength to get up and take medicine, I still don't have any...

'Just like normal' Actually, I didn't answer Stone's question. But I said to myself, yes, I should come back to be the same sun. Someone who has a close friend named Hin Someone who will always be happy for their friends no matter what.

But isn't everything that easy?

I have always hoped that one day the time would come when we could talk about the same love story without any doubts. There is no story of anyone else that can come between us. But everything went wrong

I came back to my room late the next day, choosing to go get something to drink to pass the time. And even though there were many people who walked in to say hello But I chose not to build a relationship with anyone. Sex that doesn't happen out of love I am very familiar with it. Happy with the emotions that have been released. It ended easily with no strings attached.

It used to be good for me. But right now I can't do that anymore.

Actually, last night after parting with Hin I just went for a drink and then came back to sleep in the restaurant's spare room before leaving for work 3 hours later. I couldn't believe that someone like me would fall into the pit that I had dug myself. And it's so deep that it's not that easy to climb back up. Yeah, I'll take time. Even though I really don't know how long it will take.

The darkness when I opened the door surprised me. Even though it's almost midnight. But Stone isn't a person who sleeps that fast. Or going outside But something tells me it shouldn't be like that. And the cool air from the air conditioner in the bedroom that came out from under the door was a good indicator that there was definitely someone inside.

I slowly pushed the door in. and the curtains weren't fully closed so that the light outside could see that it was a lying stone.

Thinking of you is the first thing that pops into your mind. Even though it sounds silly, I really feel that way.

“This is really hard.” I sat down on the side of the bed, knowing that it wouldn't wake Rock. Because Hin is a person who is quite deeply asleep. So much so that sometimes I was afraid it wouldn't even wake up.

“Sun…” The soft voice I heard from the sleeping person made me bend down to take a closer look. So sleepwalking?

He really couldn't resist raising his hand to touch his white cheek. And was shocked when the heat that was sent was so intense that I didn't think anyone could withstand it.

I immediately got up and turned on the light. His familiar white face was now red with a fever.

"rock"

“Hin, do you hear that?” I shook the bedridden man's shoulder not too hard. But the pair of beautiful eyes were still closed. Only murmurs similar to sleepwalking could be heard, along with the sound of gasping for breath.

I pressed the remote to turn off the air conditioner before undressing the patient until he was naked. The white, smooth skin sent out hot steam that reached the small towel I was using to dry myself. I felt extremely angry at myself for letting Rock endure this condition alone for this long.

"Oh, don't..." My hot arm started to spread all over the place when the sick person refused to wipe me. Long eyelashes that were starting to become wet with tears called for me to gently kiss the side of my cheek.

“Rock...this is the sun.”

Just today I felt that my dreams felt very real. It was so warm that it felt like I had been embraced all night. But when I woke up, there was only emptiness. I still sleep alone as usual. I pushed myself up from the bed, probably because my fever had gone down and I felt a little more comfortable.

But my nose smelled faintly of food. This might be because I was very hungry. So I should get up and get something to eat before I starve to death. Yes, life sucks. But no matter what, it must continue.

I put my arm down on the sink and was surprised by the reflection in the mirror. I remember that day I didn't wear pajamas. Why....

“Why didn't you call?” The words from the person who walked in and stood behind me made me widen my eyes.

“What will I do if I get dizzy?” he complained in a slightly fierce voice. But my brain that still couldn't process anything made me stand still. A wide palm reached out and rested on his forehead.

“Um, not as hot as last night,” meaning that I thought it was a dream. But actually that's not the case, is it?

'This is the sun,' a deep voice was heard. Is this Sun really the person who said this?

“Why didn't you call?” Sunman questioned as he let me lie on the bed. I pursed my lips in debate before speaking out my own thoughts.

"So you'll come back?"

“Come back.” Sharp eyes stared at me. A wide palm gently stroked the side of his cheek.

“I'm sorry I was an idiot.” Just a simple statement. But I don't know why I cried. For several minutes we held each other like that. The wide palm that softly rubbed my back and the deep voice that whispered in my ear made me hug Sun tightly to remind myself that it wasn't a dream.

“Eat so you can take your medicine.”

“Uh-huh,” I nodded at that simple command. Ai Sun disappeared from the room for a moment before returning with a bowl of porridge in his hand and sitting down on the bedside.

I quietly scooped up rice porridge from a bowl that someone else was holding. We didn't say anything. But those sharp eyes flickered as if he had a lot to think about.

“Sun,” the person who seemed to be lost in thought, raised his eyebrows in confusion.

“What are we doing now?” I sighed before deciding to speak. It might be time to accept the truth. There's no such thing as a nameless relationship.

“Are we...still friends?” I asked when the person in front of me didn't say anything. Ai Sun got up and put the bowl of porridge that still had a little left on my desk.

The wide back is still the only thing I stare at when someone refuses to turn around. The silence felt extremely uncomfortable. I looked up as I felt my eyes burn.

"Sorry, Stone."

"But I really don't want to be your friend anymore."

“Are we still friends?” I was standing with my back to the person who asked this sentence. There were so many feelings rushing into his head that it felt like his mouth was flooding to the point where he couldn't say anything.

Even though just a few hours ago, I thought 'I' could be anything for the stone. You don't have to give importance to anything. You don't have to exist. Just being here next to the rock is enough. But to be honest...the world isn't as beautiful as that.

"But I really don't want to be your friend anymore."

Not just anything. Because even my friends don't want to be. I was selfish in wanting to be more than that…

More than the stone wanted me to be

There was no response from the person I still turned my back on. The stone remains silent. So quiet that the discomfort began to affect my heart until it slowed down completely.

“I'm sorry…”

“When will you get better? I'll move out immediately.” I pursed my lips in a straight line to suppress the hurt feelings that were starting to surge before deciding to turn around and face the person behind me. Stone sat quietly on the bed, hugging his knees. He didn't look up at me. And the answer from that soft voice almost cut my heart to pieces.

"Ah, I understand..."

Today was the first time I let the stone take a shower instead of toweling off. And that means the stone is about to heal. And the time I'm holding on to will probably just run out. For the past few days we haven't talked much. Each person is quiet in their own corner, but for me, at least seeing the stone face every day is still a small happiness amidst the pain that is overwhelming in my heart.

“Hin,” I decided to call out to the person in the bathroom just because it had been too long. And the silence that was the answer made me call out again, impatiently.

“Is something wrong?”

But when the door opened A naked white body stepped forward and stopped in front of him. Beautiful eyes flashed with a shaky, unsteady look. But then the owner of those eyes raised his head and pressed his warm lips to mine without saying a word.

For the first time, I didn't want to recover from this damn flu. But that is impossible. I stood and stared at my face in the large mirror. I felt so cold that I had to hug myself with both hands when I was naked. The body that usually had red marks and bruises was now clean and white. Because since that day, Sun and I have never had anything else.

Not even kissing or touching each other unnecessarily.

“Stone,” a voice called from the bathroom door where I was standing. But I chose not to answer, just kept quiet and waited to listen.

“Is something wrong?” A heavy knock on the door followed. And that's when I decided to unlock the door and walk out to face the person standing there.

“Stone..” That deep voice was cut off when I raised my head and pressed my lips to a kiss without Sun even having time to prepare.

I pressed my lips together to press the kiss even harder than before when Sun was still silent and didn't respond. Repeatedly kissing until he almost lost his strength to bear it. But then the warmth that arose around me when wide arms gathered me into a hug made tears flow from my eyes with relief.

I pushed the taller man up a bit to make room for my shaking hands to unbutton the shirt without breaking the kiss. But it seems that Sun still doesn't want to cooperate with me. A wide palm reached out and held my hand tightly.

“Go get dressed or you won't get better.” I looked up at the person who had spoken before shaking my hand out of his grasp and pushing my chest wide with all my might.

“Then why do you have to disappear!”

“I don't want to get lost. Can you hear that I don't want to get better?!” Shouting out loud, the two hands that used to push me away are now only gripping the shirt of the person in front of me tightly.

“I won't let you go…”

“Nah…”

Abandon all responsibilities Hug the person in front of you as tightly as you can. No matter how selfish and shameless it seems But at this moment, I really give in to everything.

“Don't go…”

A request in a trembling voice called for me to immediately pull my trembling white body into a hug. Hin still cried even though he hugged me tightly. But that made me smile for the first time in the past several days.

"I won't be here," I said, but couldn't finish the sentence when a beautiful face looked up at me even though those round eyes were filled with tears. Stone pressed her lips together before sobbing loudly again. But this time, the slender arms that had held me tightly had loosened until its owner almost collapsed on the ground, until I had to tighten my arms around the rock instead.

"Shh." I rubbed the smooth back that was starting to cool slightly when the owner of the white body was naked before deciding to hold the person who would no longer look up and meet his eyes.

"Stone," I called out as I relaxed my white body onto the bed. And people who wouldn't make eye contact would just turn away. The two bare arms began to fend off so haphazardly that I had to straddle the thin body all over and press both white wrists to the sides of his temples.

"Hug" and when there was no way to escape, he began to sob. Beautiful round eyes looked at me displeasedly even though there were constant tears streaming down the corners of the eyes. I moisten my temples with my lips. before moving to the side of white cheeks and ended with full lips that were still pressed tightly together But then it slowly eased away when I didn't push or force the rock into submission.

"Hin, listen to the sun." I pulled my lips away before speaking close to my full lips.

"Just now the sun will say The sun won't stay if Hin wants the sun to be just a friend." I pressed a kiss to the wide-eyed man's full lips again. Gently nip at the bottom lip like it's fangs.

"Not a friend I have many friends already.”

"I want to have a wife. Can I be your husband?” I smiled as that white face turned grim. But it's good that at least Hin can stop crying.

"Let it go."

“Can you answer first?” I teased the person who started to struggle again. His white face began to turn red and it spread to his ears and neck.

"I'm cold, Sun." I laughed at his stupid words before setting my white wrists free. But it was only for a moment as I laid down beside him. Pulling a thick blanket over both of us, we pulled the stone in and hugged our whole bodies.

"Holding each other like this won't get cold."

And it wasn't cold and it was really warm. Even though a few minutes later we were hugging each other with our naked bodies.

And their story goes ∞

Epilogue

I opened my eyes the next morning to my naked body wrapped in wide arms from behind. From that day until today, Sun and I have been together for almost a year. And what we have learned is Thinking about it on your own is completely useless. It's like when the problem of love becomes your own issue, it's really hard to control anything at all.

"Today's afternoon?" I asked as my wide arms loosened from my waist. Even though Sun didn't say anything, I knew he must have woken up a long time ago, like always.

“Uh-huh,” the person who made the sound in his throat pressed his nose down on my head like usual. And when the other party didn't have to hurry, I moved to turn around and go back to the person who was sleeping on top of each other behind me. Lifting his head, he kissed the tip of his chin and snuggled into his warm embrace. He placed his hands on his thick waist and closed his eyes again. Absorbing everything from a warm, familiar body

Listen to the sound of hearts beating together Not even inhaling the unique body odor that I'm probably addicted to.

Sun let me sleep like every day he didn't have to work the morning shift. And I just noticed that there are very few morning shifts lately. Only a few times a month. But it's good like this. Because we will have time to do things together in the morning without rushing.

"Wake up, darling." A voice called out, waking me up again in the morning. The person who sat down next to me on the bed pressed his nose against my cheek. Ai Sun got out of bed a long time ago. But the condition of him still wearing only long pajama pants made me realize that he hadn't showered yet. And it's probably the same as usual when it will tell me

"Let's take a shower."

which was not at all different from what was expected.

"Today, come eat at the restaurant this evening," Ai Sun ordered as he dropped me off at the same café where I usually sat and thought about work after we ate lunch together from my room. They never dropped me off in front of the store but always walked in together. Order me coffee And order your own and carry it with you to the car every time.

"See you in the evening."

"yes darling"

I drove away from the cafe that delivered the stones like always. Pick up a paper coffee cup filled with hot cappuccino and sip it when stuck in traffic. The coffee at this shop tastes good. But the reason why I have to go down and order myself every time is not because of that. But it was because of the kind-looking owner of the shop. That makes me have to go down and repeat that every day. It's the same for me and "my girlfriend".

I'm jealous, yes, and very possessive.

I drove to the shop where I work at 1:45 p.m. In fifteen minutes it will be time for me to start work. Prepare to change clothes and take a position in the kitchen in the savory food area. And I had to be dizzy until 8 p.m. for the customers to feel better. Because our shop will close at 9:30 p.m. I chose to do the afternoon shift even though the work was harder than the morning shift.

But I chose to do it because I would have more time with Stone. Well, Stone sleeps late and wakes up very late.

8:35 p.m. It's a regular time for stones to come into the shop. It's the same today.

“What would you like, sir?” I said teasingly when my regular customer had sat down for a while.

"Is the chef here unemployed?" He finished with a cute smile. Until I can't help but be angry at it.

“Hurry up, sir. The kitchen closes in fifteen minutes." I tapped the clock face. So my customer closed the menu and returned it to me.

“Chef should know. That I always follow the chef's wishes."

"I'm off tomorrow. Just so you know," I pinched the customer's nose in front of me before walking back into the kitchen. Tonight, I must prove that people are good at pleasing themselves. How good are you at washing?

This short story was inspired by a song.

Fallin' All in You

of

Shawn Mendes

yes

It is a story told in turns. I hope you won't be confused.

This story was written a long time ago and I just had the opportunity to post it. If you like or don't like it, please comment.

We'll meet again next time.