'Miracle at ten years old Genius at fifteen Ordinary people when they were twenty'

Where I come from there is a saying like this. No matter how much your abilities as a child were above others, If you are proud of that ability It will not be transmitted until adulthood. It's a word that sounds like a warning. Or maybe even though the person won as a child when he grew up and saw how big the world was.

They will learn that their abilities are not enough. That word could mean something like this.

Or maybe, no matter how many compliments you received as a child, That person should not be satisfied. must keep trying Always set goals to improve yourself. It could be that kind of life teaching.

...nonetheless

To me, that word has a slightly different meaning.

“Zeke, now is the time for us to compete again on exam scores.”

“Anja...again...?”

It doesn't matter whether the class is over or not. A little girl would run up to me with sparkling eyes.

His pale blue hair was cut short and wrapped in a handkerchief. This was a young little girl named Anja.

She is eight years old. Me too A little boy who is in his second year of school.

...No, I mean, I was young too, but…

“What again? I haven't won a single race with her yet.”

“Since when did you act so carefree? Time will compete with me She's always too hot..."

“Oh, Siya, since we have reached an agreement. Hurry and bring out the test results for me to have a look at.”

Anja held her test results in her hand. Shaking my shoulder to encourage me, I thought, as I pulled the folded test results out of my bag again.

“Alright...we'll show each other's results when I give the signal...I hope you're ready...”

Anja's face was red. She couldn't control herself from turning up the corners of her mouth.

“...Anja, are you so confident in the results of this Basic Magic Calculation exam?”

“Heh, that's something you have to decide when you see my score. I will make you speechless, do you hear that?”

And she seemed to be unable to contain her thirst for victory. Get ready. Be careful. Go. She said as quickly as she could.

I hurriedly placed the test results on the table.

Hmm, that's awesome. Anja got a 97. This exam was full of application questions and I don't think any other student got such a high score. Simply put, she had an excellent score. The response was top notch and the mana level was above average.

An honorable student among honorable students. That's who she is

Her face was pale.

She opened her mouth slowly. Surprise was all over his face.

“...100 points, Zeke, you... got 100 on such a difficult test. She got 100...”

“Y...yeah...looks like this exam went well...”

Even though it's like that, I have never lost to her once.

That's because my score is better than hers.

Anja's eyes began to fill with tears. Her mouth closed tightly as she gritted her teeth. Trying to stop the tears from flowing.

She must be very confident in this exam. She must have studied a lot. This exam was difficult, and it was not difficult to imagine that a score of 97 would require a lot of effort.

I even said, That score of 97, if you don't count me, you're number one.

But, she still can't reach me.

“Ah, wait a minute, Anja….!”

And Anja ran away.

Maybe it was because of embarrassment or because she didn't want me to see her tears. But whatever the reason, she ran like the wind out of my sight.

“...It seems...this time you're really confident…”

Her morale seemed higher than usual. And even though she lost It never made her cry. She had worked hard this time and was quite confident in the results.

...I feel like I want to apologize to her.

She tried her best.

But I cheat. I cheat to get 100 points.

Naturally, I am the type of person who should never step foot on a race track and am also the type of person who will never even be on par with those who try as hard as Anja.

But the truth is that I can't tell anyone.

If I speak up, people will probably doubt my sanity. And even though I confirm that I didn't think anyone would believe it.

In fact, I...

...was born again

I remember memories from my past life.

It's a special day in winter. The snow was so heavy that it broke records.

Cold...I think it's a cold day. But I don't remember much. The truth is, I don't want to remember any more. I didn't even feel it.

In a previous life, I died of natural causes.

From the window, I watched as large ice beads fell from the sky. I lifted my head from the bed. I harbored jealousy over the pristine white scene I saw from the pristine white hospital room.

At that time, I was twenty-eight. I am an employee of a general techno-magic production company. And I work like any normal person. My work is work that can be seen everywhere. But I couldn't bear the weight of it. It seems like I'm the kind of person who brags about being an ordinary person. However, if I get the same job as someone else, I felt like I had to try harder than everyone else to get the same results.

But I'm sure others are as well. If I don't try harder than anyone else I wouldn't be able to work according to society's demands. That's the way of society.

I'm not particularly good at anything or particularly bad at anything. Obviously I'm an ordinary person.

Too busy doing work that requires more effort than others I broke up with my girlfriend. Well, I'm sure this is normal.

And life is full of events that you can experience anywhere. I fell ill. It may sound cynical, but that was the only special thing that made my life different from everyone else's.

I can't move my body anymore. I could only turn my head towards the window. What I saw was a landscape of snow covering the earth. And with consciousness that is fading and close to extinguishing I heard someone say it was a special snowstorm never seen in history.

I feel hopeless

I'm jealous of that snow.

The blizzard was special. It would leave memories and statistics for countless people.

I want special

I want to be special

Embrace your irrational jealousy of the weather. A god that humans cannot interfere with I closed my eyes slowly.

My consciousness faded as the curtains of my life drew closed.

...but I was reborn

I don't know why or how.

The only thing I know is that I carry memories of my past life with me.

“But even though I walked a special path...I couldn't shake this feeling of guilt from my heart.”

"What are you mumbling about? Zeke, listen, today is the day we have to compete again."

From the seat in the corner of the classroom In contrast to the snow that day I watched the sunlight shine across the school yard while I whispered to myself… But when I felt it again Anja was already at my side.

Shit, I planned to mumble so no one would catch me. But she always walked beside me. She seemed to hear my voice.

“...Did you hear what I said just now?”

“Not at all, but if you don't want anyone to hear. You shouldn't have said it in the first place.”

“...It's yours. Silence the golden gourd, he said...”

Now we are eleven. I am in the highest grade of primary school. And it's the same. Our competition continues. Even though I feel like I'm being attacked alone.

Written exam, practical magic exam Special exam outside of lessons... She always gives reasons to compete with me. And it ends with my victory every time as well.

You could say it's natural. For elementary school exams When you're an adult It is normal that anyone can achieve 100 full points. We haven't encountered anything yet. I had the slightest chance of losing.

Even though I longed for something special in my past life I will keep winning over you. And every time you show the face of a loser I would feel guilty.

In the end, my score came from a special experience called rebirth, and it was not something that came from my own abilities or efforts. While she believes in her abilities and tries her best. Isn't it normal for me to feel guilty when I fail her efforts? Or maybe this means that my mind is still that of a normal person.

"God! Really asking! Why did she get 100 again!? There's no way I can beat you like that! This isn't fair! You're not being fair, Zeke!”

Anja began to cry again.

I'll make it clear here. You truly are a genius. And she never lacks in diligence. Obviously She is the type of person that ordinary people like me cannot compare to at all.

If it continues like this She will graduate from a good high school, graduate from a good university, and get a job at a great company. She has an incredible talent that is still evident even now.

Despite the warning that “An ordinary person at the age of twenty,” but that would probably just be a story if she continued to try like this.

In order to make this little brat feel more at ease. So I handed over the snacks I had prepared.

This is my victory penalty. and to buy these snacks I need to use most of my pocket money.

I had to keep a diary of her tastes in sweets that change with the seasons and are limited. If I choose the wrong dessert I had to spend the rest of the day staring at the side of her sullen face.

Even though Anja is usually an extremely cold person, if I were involved, She will be on fire immediately. Always worrying about her defeat. They also came to attack me and also changed their mood according to each type of snack.

Reaching into a woman's heart is more difficult than any other exam.

“You...I see you got 100% this time...”

Holding her exam paper as usual Anja also showed up with a red face. Tarantino gritted his teeth.

The little girl had changed a little over the years.

Short hair that could have touched most of his neck was now long enough to touch his shoulders.

Her femininity increased, even if only slightly.

above all else Her outfit changed as well. Outfits that were once freely chosen Changing into the school uniform...I'm just saying that we have become high school students.

Of course, Anja and I went to the same school.

We ranked first and second in the province and attended the number one private school in the province. It should be like that.

Moreover, after living for 28 years Be a standard salaried employee Studying in a private school Makes me feel sorry for my parents. When comparing the total salary to the annual tuition fee. It made my head spin a little.

When I said that I could go to a government school. 'Children shouldn't worry about things like this,' was the parents' answer. And Anja said casually, 'Then I'm going to a government school too.' That made me lose all options.

I feel sorry for the family. But I couldn't let his genius

Anjama can rot in government schools for me.

I thought about working part-time, but I also wondered where they would hire high school students. I got a 97 on my first high school exam.

Despite having more than 28 years of experience I couldn't do 100% without studying. It made me reconsider the differences between primary and secondary schools.

‘Fufufu, the Fortress of Hundred Points finally began to shake. The day of my victory is probably not beyond my reach.'

Anja spoke loudly through tears.

She got an 89 from her perspective. Of course it's a shame. Because this is a private school. The exam must be extraordinarily difficult. And I think her score is satisfactory. But this shows that both Anja and I underestimated the high school level. Another thing I have to say. She was also the second-placed person in her class.

Then I was able to find a place to work and study at the same time.

“You...are you getting a hundred points again?”

Her words were the first thing that told me that it was working.

If I study hard It seems that my twenty-eight years of experience still help a lot.

“Zeke, what kind of study do you exactly have? She works part-time to earn money for the house. And she still got a perfect score of 100...Are you sure she didn't cheat..."

I cheat. I have the greatest cheat called rebirth, but there's no way I can talk about it.

Anja pinched my cheek but even then her fingers didn't have much strength.

On the exam, she got a 93. She was definitely second in her class. But the reality is that her diligent study Increasing the score by only four points made her quite sad.

If you want me to say This is enough. This is a private school. I felt that the exam was much more difficult than the normal high school I attended in my past life. Even so, she still scored 93. So I think she should be more proud of herself. But maybe it's because I got a hundred points.

Anja looked a little dismayed.

I pulled out a new flavored snack as we spoke.

“...Techniques for studying are First, she had to get to the foundation of that chapter. Everything is based on the unit. And everything else they taught you branched out from…”

“Ah! wait a minute! wait a minute! Come to think of it again, no! This is definitely not good! Don't tell me anything!”

Anja twisted as she quickly pulled away from me.

“I can't be a two-headed bird.”

She said as she rushed home from the classroom.

I stared at the blank floor and continued with my part-time work.

“...Think again, teach me how to study...”

Anja looked bored in front of my desk and muttered softly. Her face was red. She is enduring shame. She turned her head away slightly so that she wouldn't have to look me in the eyes as she asked me to teach her.

The big exam at the end of the semester had just ended.

With twenty-eight years of experience from a previous life I barely managed to score a perfect hundred in every subject. I don't know if I should say this or not. But I had to read a little.

Needless to say, Anja came in second place and she scored 750 points in eight subjects.

That's an excellent score. But for Anja It's not a pleasant thing.

It was evident that the gap of 50 points between me and her was too difficult to accept. And when I asked her later Even if you don't count on competing with me. She thought that this test result was a failure. It's not too difficult an exam. I thought her score wasn't that bad. But even if it were like that She said that this was the first time that she was this worried about something that wasn't related to me.

She lowered her stance to learn from me.

This was the first time since I'd known her for seven years.

She was shaking a little. Her face was red. Just looking from the side I felt the heat and my heart beat violently.

"...Understood. I'll help you."

I answered briefly.

I prepared a seat across from my table and sat the sobbing little girl down. Leaving her standing like that wouldn't look good. So we started studying immediately. From her personality, she must be ready to study right away.

Of course, next to the table were the snacks I had bought and prepared.

“From what I've said before. The most important thing is to understand the foundation of the unit. Everything is based on the unit. And other things they taught grew from that foundation.”

“...grew up?”

“That's right. Don't try to remember everything in the book from beginning to end. It won't be long before you forget like that. First, she had to understand the foundation of the content. Then what she learned from there would grow like a branch.

For example, history subject..ahhh..the most important event in this exam is War of Lesvokis The effects of the war were what happened afterward. And the history that happened before is The cause of the war The insulation that led to the War of Velvokiss. For much of that era, war was the centerpiece.

And it's not just the history of this country. It also affects the history of other countries.

If you think about that era from beginning to end Think about what connects them together. and learn while believing that various events come together It would get her sorted. and can understand more than just memorizing it from a book..."

“Connected…?”

“Used and connected..”

From the moment you trembled Anja is quite talented and just a short tutorial. Her head went into study mode. with a dignified demeanor She listened carefully to my words.

“You can use what I said here in other subjects as well.

In math, the most important thing to learn is this formula. All basic thinking methods in this chapter are based on this formula. and other formulas and applied problems all come from All this basic thinking If you have problems with applied questions First, she goes back to the basics. and try to make the goal clear

The goal lies in the basics and how to reach it. What methods must she use? Which numbers do you need to use? It will become like this.”

"...basic"

“Yes, basically, where did you go wrong? May I have a look?”

We study intensively in the corner of the room. As the sun sets behind the horizon Until the teacher came to warn We had no intention of even leaving the room.

When I felt it again The sun had almost disappeared from the horizon. Dying the classroom crimson with its last rays of light.

"Zeke...you're really good at teaching."

Her pale blue hair was dyed with the color of warmth.

“Hey, Zeke, do you really help teach other people how to read?”

One day, a girl in the room asked with anticipation.

Many girls ran to my table. Covering his face with his hand while asking such a question.

“Hm, well, if you ask, I have no reason to refuse. But...where did you hear about this?”

“Like, they keep saying that Zeke is number one in the class. Teaching Anja outside of class time day after day There are also rumors that he might teach us.”

“Rumours...like that.”

I was hesitant to turn around and look at Anja while surrounded by girls, but...ah, Anja didn't seem to have a reaction. As if to say that this matter is not about her. She was preparing for her next class.

“Oh, oh, oh, you damn famous person, are you going to teach the girls without teaching us?”

“Don't think that we will just let the girls crowd around you. Please help us.”

“Eep”

The resident bully wrapped his arms around my neck. Half because of jealousy The other half is for the girls. The remaining little is for academic goals.

Wait...you guys are going to kill me.

I tried to peel it away, but it seemed that until I spoke the promise out of my mouth, They didn't think of releasing it.

“R...understood...”

"Yay, we're going to study with Zeke."

"Well, my pocket money depends on my next exam. Please give it to me, Zeke."

Meanwhile, there was still an arm around his neck and the group started to make a loud noise. I could only dryly laugh.

How did it become like this?

But strangely, I don't feel bad at all.

And then it was time to finish school.

My eyebrows furrowed as the number of students was much larger than expected. It's really a headache. I said while walking around watching everyone study.

I teach everyone the same way I taught Anja. I told everyone how I was studying and went around everyone's table to help with the questions.

Even so, Anja didn't join the class. She definitely didn't like the atmosphere where everyone was making a fuss at the same time.

“Zeke, this problem is like...when I look at the answer and how to do it, I understand, but like, I don't understand why we have to calculate like this. If it's like this And if questions like this come out My last hope is to remember.”

“Ah, I understand Marco. Just looking at the answer It is normal to not understand the foundations and methods of thinking. So the important thing is…”

“The basis of what you said before? Then what is the basis of this question?”

“Here, let's take a look...the book...is here. If you truly understand This question is just an application of moments.”

“Hmm...”

Being able to take care of everyone's learning like this I realized that this was not empty preparation. Everyone has a brilliant brain.

They absorbed my teaching quickly. Learn quickly and apply Many times, their questions shocked me. I mean, the thinking patterns that I never understood in high school in my previous life were crystallized by a little child before my eyes.

These kids are starting to think the same way I did in high school and college.

I saw the difference between a genius and an ordinary person.

And that's the same feeling I felt when teaching Anja.

Maybe it was that time. I began to see the path I would take in this life.

"Finally, you're a really good teacher, Zeke."

A girl from class spoke up.

I could only nod and laugh nervously.

I think this is what is called rebirth.

It's not because I study better than others. I am quite confident because After studying diligently for the university entrance exam This is my second time studying elementary and middle school.

Just like most normal people would do. I prepared for university entrance exams as if my life depended on it.

By doing that What I see from studying has changed. Efficiency in studying Study objectives, study methods, study fluency...all of that crystallized, crystallized, and crystallized into my second exam. And after all that studying I went to elementary school again.

In my second study after going through all that. My view of the lesson was completely different from the first lesson.

I saw the purpose of the teacher's teaching. Something I would never have understood in my past life. And I saw the main points of the lesson.

Many times I thought that the teacher's teaching methods were better than in my previous life. And many times I felt the opposite.

Studying again Many times I thought the lesson was already complete. And sometimes I think they should emphasize that point more. It may seem inappropriate. But I have evaluated the teachers in each class.

...which seems too disrespectful So I can't tell other people.

During high school, if I accidentally talked about this matter with anyone, It was enough to become a dark moment. In anyone's eyes, they probably saw me as having sex.

That's why I keep it in my heart. But even so, when it's time for me to teach, I teach in my own way.

“Hey, hey, Teacher Zeke, I don't understand this at all.”

“Yes, yes, wait a moment, Lina…”

I think I'm happy

I think I'm happy that I'm useful to my friends.

It was satisfying. I feel like my 'speciality' is useful.

As time passed, the lesson ended, and it turned out that I was walking home on a dark road at night after the sun had gone down.

After teaching that day I felt a sense of satisfaction. A feeling of fulfillment from being useful to friends filled my chest. I walked home slowly. But found one person

That person stood majestically on my way home.

Her brows furrowed, her legs spread wide and her arms crossed tightly over her chest to restrain me.

Her big round eyes stared without blinking. There is no doubt. I am your goal

Uwa, I thought.

No matter how you look at it, you know. she is unhappy

Anja blocked my way completely.

"...Ugh"

“Um…Anja…? Miss Anja…? Why are you angry like that?”

I spoke politely without realizing it.

“I'm not angry at all. She hasn't done anything wrong.”

“Uwa...”

Things like this...what should I do?...

I didn't know what to do and I couldn't tell what she was angry about.

...If I give her a snack, will her mood improve?

“...Anja..do you want...snacks?”

“Hi!”

with speed Anja snatched the whole box of sweets, but her mood didn't improve.

I failed

“Um...would you like to join the next lesson?”

“Oh, don't mind me. I don't like studying with a lot of people."

“As expected”

In fact, I already know. I'm just giving up hope.

I couldn't believe that the girl who made a snorting sound and stood so majestically could be nicknamed "The Girl Who Made Her Smile". 'Ice Goddess' in school

She always acts cold. This child, really, believe me, she changes like a different person in front of me.

“It just bothers me.”

“What?”

"I do not know"

Anja didn't change her stance as she spoke.

“Ah, fine, never mind, now come teach me. We will study it all here and now.”

“Eh, now, but it's dark. School hasn't even opened yet, you know."

"Then we'll study in my room, okay? We'll study all night, just the two of us."

“Evening teaching”

My heart beats irregularly

“Today, we will study until you say we can't take it anymore. No, even if you say we can't take it anymore. I will force her to continue teaching. Prepare yourself.”

“Heh...wait a minute...”

My hand was taken by Anjak and taken to her room.

My heart was pounding like it was going to burst out of my chest, thump, thump, my body was on fire. Blood flowed throughout his body at an incredible speed.

Evening teaching, Anja's room, just the two of us until I can't take it...even if I can't take it...

Strange words flew around my head as I was dragged along by Anja's will. We ran along the path in the night.

Let me be honest about this.

...nothing happened

...We're just studying together.

It's like, yes, it's clear. We were just 13 years old.

Self-loathing is like my red blood. It flows throughout the body.

Anja fell asleep. She studied until she could no longer study. So I took her to the bed. Carefully covered me with a blanket and Anja's father took me home.

It's like, yeah.

Hate myself, with all my self-loathing combined with shame. If there are holes in this area, I must have jumped off.

I wanted to punch myself to death for letting my heart think so far.

Even though my body will become a child again But here I am having an affair with a 13 year old girl.

Child enthusiasts, am I a child enthusiast?

When I was 28 plus 13, I'm telling you. My heart burns for the 13 year old. And still hoping for something like that

Shit, shit, shit

It can't be. No. It can't happen.

What a grave sin. It is a serious crime. It is a sin worthy of the death penalty.

After returning home, I hit my head on the table several times.

Until my mother discovered this and stopped me, I continued to hurt myself over and over again.

Aaaa………

Sinyyyy………. Sinyyy……..

“Arun...wait. Zeke, what happened? Your forehead is really red and there are these strange bags under your eyes.”

Those were her first words. When we met at school the next morning

My forehead was swollen like it was about to burst and there were bags under my eyes.

I can't sleep, that's all.

Even trusting in it still feels like a sin, and I still have to remind myself. I stayed up all night and asked myself with a sinful heart.

“...There's nothing.”

"Hm...Then I won't ask further, but...tonight, we'll study in my room again. Do you understand? Promise."

“Oh...again...?”

I watched her walk over and sit at the table. And those were the only words I said. After that, my body fell flat on the table.

Next time I take the exam, I'm definitely not going to score a hundred percent.

Several months passed and we entered high school.

The school we attended was, of course, a famous preparatory school.

Moreover, I attended this national school on a scholarship.

No need to pay tuition This is the best thing I can do for my parents. I still can't stop thinking about my salary in my past life.

It makes sense that people who have received the blessing of rebirth Like I was going to win a scholarship, but Anja, the person who got the scholarship through her own abilities, is really amazing.

As a childhood friend I'm proud of you

Yes, we have become childhood friends.

The fact that we have been competitors for almost ten years Dedicated to studying side by side and walking through life together.

For me, if I include my old life, it's 10 out of 43 years, and for you, it's 10 out of 15 years.

That's right, it's been ten years.

...Ten years already?

“High school. real battle I'll catch up with you soon. and beat her in the exam Prepare yourself and prepare yourself well.”

After the welcoming ceremony for new students Anja announced with full determination.

Her attitude was completely different when she became a high school student. But for me, hearing the declaration of war was no different from the first time we met. I couldn't help but laugh.

Her cheeks puffed out a little. “This is the last time you can act like that,” she said, making a nasal sound. “Hi.”

But in the end, she still received the nickname 'Ice Queen' After spending three months in school... I really didn't understand people.

After nine months of study, an important event occurred.

It was an event that other people probably didn't think was that important. However, between Anja and me, This is the greatest incident that has ever happened.

Especially to me This might be the turning point. I think this might be the time. Our differences began to show.

"...look for"

Anja's eyes widened as she looked at the third semester midterm exam ranking board located at the entrance.

She blinked again and again in surprise. As she stared at the ranks of the people who had scored well on the exam She rubbed her eyes once and took another look.

First place: Zeke 785 points

Second place: Anja 785 points

The sorting board is written like this.

Her face began to stain red. The eyes began to sparkle.

“Zeke”

She ran straight towards me. With a cheeky smile

It was as if happiness was the fuel for her body.

“Zeke”

It's getting close. She called me again That doesn't mean anything. I think her heart should be filled with joy right now.

“I have caught up with you. It's the first time, the first time, I tell you, the first time I'm on a par with you.”

She happily said the word 'first time' again.

During elementary school, there were many times when we received the same perfect score. But she wasn't satisfied with that at all. Achieving 100 percent for both of them is an impossible result. It means failure of the meter.

When that happens It doesn't mean anything more than a draw. And more than that, a draw doesn't make her happy.

So this was the first time we had tied without full points and she didn't hesitate to celebrate the result.

"We're tied, side by side. All that's left is to beat you. Just win. We're tied. I'm tied with Zeke."

Happy, she looked truly happy. Enough that just looking at it makes me happy. Her eyes shone brightly like gems.

“Prepare well.”

She said and laughed as if her future was strewn with jewel boxes. Hope filled her chest as she laughed.

...but Anja

It's been ten years now.

Ten full years...

Ten years have passed since we competed.

The differences are about to show, Anja.

Soon after, that seam widened.

“I won… I won, I won, I won, I won, I won.”

First place: Anja 786 points

Second place: Zeke 781 points

Midterm examination of the second semester in the second year. I lost to Anja for the first time in my life.

When talking about test scores This is the first time in my life that I lost.

The first time she saw the test scores She walked out in a daze.

She saw something unbelievable. Moreover, she couldn't tell what the hell was going on. Her head turned completely white. She raised her hand distraught. Mouths agape and eyes wide open, as if inside the head was traveling through. vast space

It must have been about five minutes later.

Her consciousness returned to her body. She finished processing the visual information and the curtain of happiness opened.

“Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful, Successful And it's finished..."

She jumped up and down with a bright red face. It shows the happiness that spreads throughout the body. Opposite of nickname The ice she received was completely

"It's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done, it's been done"

And once again it came running straight towards me. Hold hands with the enemy in your mind.

and shake it up and down Smile until your mouth almost rips. Staring at me with excitement

I couldn't do anything but laugh.

There's no other way.

“I did it.”

Anja said as she Run straight to the school gate.

“Ah, wait Anja, come back, come back here, class isn't over yet.”

Forget about class like that. That impulse sent Anja running outside the school. She ran, completely lost in thought.

I didn't even have time to stop her. The joy she had been searching for for ten years sent her running like a tornado.

...the next day She was chanted by a large group of teachers.

That incident felt like it had become a warning to her by default.

At the same time, this was an omen that after that day I know my moment of collapse has arrived. This is not the shock of defeat. My first loss didn't make me worried or worried or afraid in the slightest.

A strong feeling began to build up in my heart.

The appointed time was approaching. I could feel it. I began to feel that I had to take it seriously.

This difference has begun to emerge.

It started when we were in high school…no, I'm sure it happened before that…

I know the day I can't keep up with you is not far away.

At first, she took her time to indulge in happiness.

From that day on, she and I took turns losing and taking turns winning.

But if comparing grades in second year high school I'm the winner.

But at the beginning of the third year My win rate had dropped to about 50... Actually, she was slightly better than me. Because she got the same score in each test. I would know right away if I asked her directly. But I was too embarrassed to ask her.

during that time She began to enjoy studying more.

Until now, she had been studying like crazy until her face was dull. Just to win me over and raise the flag. But when we fight closely It seems like the reality is that we don't know who will win. It will make her enjoy studying more.

Every time you Discover something new She'll smile.

And when that happened, strangely, her progress in studies increased even faster than when she had been struggling to study.

“Are you having fun?”

“Can you see?”

“Yes...I've known you long enough...”

“It's been ten years now. Ah, that's a really long time. It's really a long time, and when I think about it, it's annoying too.”

Yes, it's become the kind of relationship where we're stuck together.

Even if we compete with each other to study like this But for some reason Our teaching continues. Or is there actually a special reason? I ask myself this from time to time, but again, when she doesn't understand something, she asks me. And I did the same thing.

“Zeke, your teaching is easier to understand than the teacher's.”

When you said that I couldn't tell her that I wanted to stop teaching.

“Ah...it really took a long time...”

I stared up at the ceiling as I sat and thought back to the path that had led me to this point.

From elementary school to middle school, and most recently, high school life.

...no more than that Go back even longer than that. I look back at my past life. Lately, I've been seeing past lives more often.

“...Hey, what do you mean? It hasn't been that long..." Why are you talking like it's already over? Zeke, you and I will be going to the same university. We should be together for a long time.”

The first university we chose was the number one university in the country.

It probably can't be called anything other than It's natural. We attend national public schools. And there we still competed for first and second place. Therefore it is natural for us to target the toughest and best universities in the country.

If you want to add more words. Our practice exam results indicated that our chances of passing the exam were good.

A

Even if it were like that, we wouldn't trust it. We are about to enter the same university.

But the matter is like that.

Ours...no, the gap between me and you is still widening and it's been too long for us to repair it. Not really Since the beginning This is a ticking time bomb that cannot be avoided.

We will attend the same university.

But the time of our parting may not be far away.

"Huh... What's wrong with Zeke..."

When Anja calls I snapped out of my trance.

“Ah, I'm sorry I was a bit absent-minded. There's nothing.”

“Liar…”

She knew right away.

“Hey...let me ask...”

"What's the matter..."

“What are you hiding?”

My knees collapsed, my heart felt like it was jerking, making my whole body tremble.

“These days, you... seem like you're thinking a lot about something... holding onto something... worried... at first I thought you were just worried. I was worried that I was going to catch up with her in school, but I wasn't. I've known her long enough, so I know that it's not at all like I thought…”

“So I thought she might be hiding something. Maybe everyone is like this. And it's probably something I shouldn't have interfered with. But if you want to vent to someone I'm ready to listen. But what she kept was a little different. What she is hiding is a bit different.”

The room was completely quiet. There was only Anja's voice.

I could clearly hear my own heart pounding.

“...I couldn't see it until now. We've been together for so long that I finally figured it out. That you've been hiding something...all along...for a long time. Since we first met...so long...so long...that you've always been worried about.”

My heart almost stopped beating. A secret that I had never told anyone before seemed to be placed in front of her.

Anja hugged her knees tightly. Hide half your face Then glanced up at me

“Is there...is there something that...you can't tell me?”

We were both silent for a long time. The only sound I heard was myself swallowing.

“...I can't tell.”

These are the only words I can say.

Her face was stained with despair.

“Just a few more years...just wait a few more years...”

“Eh…”

“When that time comes I will tell you everything.”

When I heard this Anja nodded with a serious expression. Move your head up and down a few times.

I looked up at the ceiling again. The ceiling of her room was now a familiar scene.

Just another couple of years Just a few more years and then I'll be able to lift a mountain off my chest.

It will be the time when all the gaps disappear. It will be time for you to get the real me.

Anja, do you know?

that I cheated

If you want to tell the truth...

Since middle school I studied high school courses and prepared for university entrance exams.

When I started to see the difference I was very scared and studied as far ahead as possible.

But even then, she still caught up.

She's about to step over me.

I am such a person...

We both passed the university entrance exam safely.

I got a ticket to the best studies in the country without any danger.

When we compared scores on the Ent exam, I got higher.

Anja was quite intent on this exam. So she felt sad when the results came out like this.

When I saw this I burst out laughing.

That was my last show of bigotry.

I dreamed

Dream of seeing heavy snow

It was a dream on that special day, the day I died.

In a pure white room Staring at the snow through fifty years

The entire area was covered in white. Not pellets, but snowflakes. Heavy snow fell as far as the eye could see.

It's a historic blizzard.

I'm jealous that it's special.

I, in my past life, could not escape the realm of ordinary people. But no matter how many times I look back I don't even remember trying to quit ordinary life.

I cry, laugh, get angry, feel bad, work hard, solve problems, and try...

Life is hard, and even though I used 120% of my energy, the road I walked was not easy. The walls erected by life's problems are very high. Yet that is what makes you want to cry, stomp your feet, and shout that it's unfair or unreasonable. As his body was torn after barely being able to overcome that obstacle,

And that's just normal life.

In my previous life, I was just an ordinary person. and choose to walk in an ordinary life

There is both happiness. There's both pain Many times I fell down. And I can't go on....that's just normal life.

...I'm looking for something special.

I'm looking for something special like that snowstorm.

And I was reborn

Will I change into a completely different person this time?

Will I be special?

Of course, my test scores always put me in first place. I graduated from a good high school. and get into the most difficult universities to get into

I am a special person in the eyes of others I am a special person

But how is it?

If compared to that blizzard Am I able to fight?

...Of course there is no way to fight.

Not a single part has changed from his previous life.

This window isn't glass; There was no way I could change into snow.

The marks are clearly visible.

There was no way I could stand beside Anja.

Even at the university level My rivalry with Anja continues.

She's normal now. Or, to put it another way, most of the work in universities is reports and there is very little that can be clearly calculated like an exam.

Her head suddenly became hot.

So how do we compete like this?

As I have learned once before. I already know So I just gave a wry smile in response to her words.

There are some classes that have exams at the end of the semester.

Anja fully examined This is a fight. that you have with me She happily declared war. But she doesn't know. In universities, final exam results are rarely announced. And we have no way of knowing our score.

When the event is like that She was angry again.

What was most surprising was that she dragged me by the arm and stormed into the professor's office. To ask the final score and force me to tell her

The professor was also surprised.

So, according to the regulations, do they have you do something so reckless like this? Anja didn't give them a chance to think. She attacked with fervent urging. for the teacher to tell us the results Even though it may be contrary to their wishes.

All that makes Anja became a celebrity of the group.

The test results showed that I was the underdog.

My winning rate is about 30 percent. Hmm. Her expression showed extreme happiness.

“Are you sure you can tie me?” Anja pestered me, but 'wait for next time,' I replied.

“Wait until next time,” I answered without being sincere.

That's all I can say.

“...Eh, you mean...me...?”

Anja looked at me with blank eyes and pointed at herself.

One of Anja's reports was highly praised and she was recommended by her professor to attend an inter-university seminar.

That's great, isn't it? As expected, Anja, I encouraged her. But she couldn't keep that hesitant expression on her face.

with the expression on your face I could see her thoughts clearly.

“Why wasn't Zeke chosen? Why is it just me...”

I can see what she's thinking too.

So Anja attended that meeting. While she still made excellent grades

Yet again she Her name was nominated as one of the best students in our class.

Reporting work Final exam score Catching the eyes of the teachers Her test scores were outstanding.

At that time, she was quite busy.

Our differences are clear.

in our university We'll choose a major in our second year, so we'll call it that. This kind of selection is for the taste of that subject. Time and again changes in learning are made so that students can learn everything in that field. during that time Anja is also an object of expectation.

Of course, if talking about seminars It is what results from past academic performance over the course of a year. She was invited to every event.

Of course, that kind of thing didn't happen to me.

Until now, the things that still lingered in her head It was clear that she was going to be in the same lab as me. But which lab should we enter? She came to discuss with me which lab we should join.

I smiled bitterly back.

“Don't you think that We should choose a subject that both of us are interested in.” When I expressed my opinion, She looked even more upset. “That's right...that was the right choice...” I reluctantly accepted her.

I took out a seasonal snack from my bag. And I don't know why she was in a better mood.

Looking at her final grades, she chose her major. Research and development of magic technology

And I chose the subject of research and development of magic technology.

...No, wait a minute, this is a miscalculation.

When she told me to choose a subject when giving the signal After the preparation, be careful, we both pointed at this major.

I served the Magic Technology Research and Development Company for about five years in my previous life. Therefore, I thought that I would be suitable to enter this faculty. But she was just interested and chose this Vasisha.

“How did you become like this...?”

I muttered next to the little girl. -For some reason- -like winning-

We became third year students and her activities became more intense.

Her research is highly rated. She received an award from Education Association She was invited to a seminar. Gradually she expanded the research results. From students together to faculties at different schools She had the opportunity to meet many people. And she still has her dick running around all over the place.

She has been invited to participate in research projects with many universities and companies. and continues to perform excellently at that level.

Nothing special happened to me.

If you want to say it, it's normal...I live my life no different from other people.

"Why…!"

Anja said to them when they were alone.

“Why just me...”

The anger that she couldn't take out on anyone. She can't do anything. So she exploded in front of me.

She still fantasizes about competing with me forever. She was angry that her dream could not come true.

But it won't happen. There's no way that's going to happen, Anja.

“...I'm sorry.”

When I say it like that She looked sad. "I'm sorry," she said softly. It's so soft that if I weren't here I wouldn't have heard it.

A split is no longer a split. It was clearly a tear.

“A competition?”

“That's right, the competition.”

I held the certificate for the magic equipment creation competition that had been handed to me in front of me. Anja said with a snort.

"We'll compete with this one."

Simply put, we need to develop a device that is satisfactory at a given level and build it. It is a competition where devices are judged on their performance, design and many other points.

It is a competition held at the university. And the contestants must have the ability to create magic technology.

My heart beats a little faster.

A competition that requires real skill With the five years of experience that I have I have quite an advantage in this race.

I will compete with Anja again after not competing for a long time. When you think like that I let out a smile.

Maybe because you can feel my good feelings. She smiled back with a smile filled with new hope.

I gave everything to this competition.

Morning, noon, and evening, I earnestly create my inventions. Write every idea down on paper. When I create a demo I cleaned up all the problem areas and rebuilt the model. Failure is a component of success. I learned that from my job in a past life. The most important thing is to try to create

I created the experiment again and again. Developed and revised again and again. When the time comes, I will calm down and look at the work from another perspective. Ideas from the past or maybe hints are hidden in completely different works. I checked to find it.

I dug up all the memories.

Is there a better way for me to use my five years of experience? Are there any hidden hints in other work you've worked on? Do you have a better idea? Is there a better development plan than this?

Simply put, turn off the engine in a crash. I turned off the engine in order to develop this magic device.

“Hey...Zeke, are you...are you okay? Aren't you overdoing it a bit?”

Anja is worried about me.

Aside from the fact that she competes with me. She was agitated as she worried about her opponent.

No, I'm fine, I replied while patting her head.

At that point, it turned out that I was tripping over my own feet.

I made her more worried.

But I have to include everything.

This might be the last chance.

My last chance to compete with her.

I already know

that the space between us is gradually narrowing separated again And this time I couldn't turn it off.

That I can't fight with her

That I can't please her anymore

Even though I was born again I'm still the same person.

So at least in the end...

This ending...

With everything I have...

All souls…

I'll put in everything.

Just let me compete with her...

The day of the competition has arrived.

spacious auditorium There are many universities participating in this competition. And the auditorium was full of students.

This is a big race that has been held for many years. Many companies and journalists came to see the students' work.

The competition is on.

The competition is on.

The competition is on.

Anja is still as awesome as ever.

The genius of the work, the work, the design, no matter what aspect. It worked beautifully.

In the field of testing Full hundred points...no. Should have scored 120 points.

From the beginning, its magic was something that could not be measured by a test of just 100 points.

Finally the results came out.

She was runner-up.

From the competition of thousands She also gave an excellent performance as the second.

And I…

hair…

It's snowing

It was raining heavily.

My field of vision was covered in white.

From what a friend of the Meteorological Faculty said This was the heaviest fall in fifty years.

It's so cold.

All white

My whole world is covered with snow.

Probably close to the day I died.

“...You shouldn't come out...on a day like this.”

As I sat on the bench One woman handed me an umbrella.

It was Anja. Anja came out to me.

“Ah...sorry...”

I said as I took the umbrella. But the umbrella doesn't mean anything.

The small umbrella couldn't protect me from this much snow and the snow slowly piled up on my body.

“It's a shame...not chosen...Zeke. She tried really hard but still…”

That's right, my work wasn't chosen. It was eliminated in the first round.

In the first round of competition My greatest effort disappeared from the stage.

"...It's a normal result."

"...Don't say...things like that..."

This is a big competition. Participants came from a variety of universities.

It was a match of true genius. It's not strange that my work doesn't pass.

“Here...if you're still here. You'll probably catch a cold...let's go inside the house."

“...I...let me look at the snow a little more...Anja, please go back into the house.”

"...I won't go anywhere if you don't."

She said that on a snowy day. She sat down next to me.

The snow swallowed up all other colors and sounds.

“...I'm sorry.”

“Eh”

"I can't reach you anymore..."

I spoke softly so that she was the only one who could hear.

Even though there was actually no one there. And until then there will only be snow.

“Our competition is over...from now on, you should compete with true geniuses.”

"Zeke...what are you talking about?"

“Turn around and look at the wider world. She is a true genius and...I'm sure there are other geniuses who can compete with her. From now on, she should focus on those people.

This is the end of me. It's time for us to separate.”

I stared into her eyes.

“I can't be special. I can't be someone special like you.”

I tried my best not to let the tears fall.

“What do you… what do you mean… Zeke…”

“That day it snowed heavily like this too...”

I looked up at the snow that fell like the sky was falling. I looked up and down, left and right. The view of the snow that spread out that day.

“The day I died was a day of heavy snowfall. I turned my neck to look at the snow outside the window. I embrace the jealousy of the snow…”

“Twenty years of life that have turned out like that are worthy of being called ordinary. It's not bad at all, but... I'm not particularly good at anything. And I can't walk the path of someone special. Not once did I get a perfect hundred percent on the exam...

...I'm looking for something special. Ordinary people like me want to be special…”

"...What's wrong?...What are you talking about, Zeke?"

An answer that I couldn't give you in high school. I'll give it to you now.

“I was reborn Anja. I died once...and I still keep the memories. I was born again.”

“...Eh”

“Do you believe it?”

I didn't look at her stunned face and started speaking.

“For people who have been through life once before. Elementary school exams are easy. The results are clear. and besides Her challenge was carelessness. Or should I call it reckless… It was a helpless thought and the only thing that could help was the fact that she didn't know.

Until middle school It was my perfect victory. It became a manifestation of my 28 years of treasure.

But during high school Our scores started to close together...and finally the board flipped. It is normal.”

“High school is really hard. Even if you have already studied through high school once. The question is no longer whether she will easily get a perfect score of 100 or not. If you ask the general public, 'If you go back to high school again. Do you think you can get into the hardest university?' Few would say yes.

That's because I studied at all high school and university levels since middle school. That's why I was able to compete with her. But I am not someone who has the talent to enter the hardest university.”

I've reached my limit. No, I've surpassed it a long time ago.

“A miracle person at ten years old. Genius at fifteen Ordinary people in their twenties...the magic called rebirth The differences began to show when we were fifteen. The magic that gave me an advantage disappeared. My advantage gradually disappeared. As time passes She tried her best to get past me.

But making sure she never left me was the best thing I can remember.

A special thing called rebirth Bringing ordinary people to the forefront Time slowly destroys the magic I have.”

I can't stand it any longer.

Tears slowly flowed out.

“I want to be special like snow. I want to compete with someone special like you forever. I'm sorry...I can't be special...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...”

I started to sob.

I said sorry over and over. I couldn't keep up with her even though I was more than 20 years ahead of her. I can't reach her

“I'm sorry…!”

I am an ordinary person as always. I haven't changed at all.

“Crazy eyes...you are crazy...”

cry

She cried again

Seeing me falling, she cried.

“I don't understand anything...the things you said and...that you were reborn or something...there's no way I can believe that and...I don't understand. And...I can't take it and...”

Snow began to pile up on her.

“I don't understand why you would tell me this and...I can't accept all of that and...I feel so, so, so bad saying this but. I don't understand the simplicity of what you're saying at all…

That normality...I don't understand at all...”

This is something that cannot be helped.

Geniuses do not understand ordinary people. Anja doesn't understand me.

“But, but...there's one thing I understand...”

She sobbed and continued. Let big tears fall As she spoke to me

“Zeke, you've reached your limit...you can't go on...you can't fight anymore...I can tell. I can tell you this much. It's...I've been by your side for a long, long time. I've been...watching for you for a very long time.”

I know… I know…

So that means she saw it all...she saw that my special features were slowly peeling away.

So this is really goodbye.

“But...but what do you know...?”

Anja hugged me tightly.

“Don't say...we'll separate...don't say...we have to say goodbye...not being able to compete with you anymore is...sad and...unfortunate and ...it hurts me but… But...stay beside me forever. Stay with me forever… I've loved you for fifteen years, you know..."

My heart is pounding. Blood pumps throughout the body.

And then...I knew.

“...So cold.”

“Um.”

“She's cold.”

“...Um.”

“You are so cold.”

She hugged me tightly

With her cold, pale arms, she hugged me.

“It's no use...you...shouldn't come out like this...you'll catch a cold...everyone...expects you...you have to take good care of yourself...”

“I said I wouldn't go anywhere if you didn't.”

“Come on, let's go home.”

she laughs

She cried and laughed.

“You talked a lot about the blizzard...Let's go into a warm house, okay?”

I'm still stunned.

Looking up the window at her room It's still far away.

Actually, I will tell you about our separation today. I confessed everything and thought we were going our separate ways.

So why am I back in her room? So why did I borrow her house's bathtub?

“Ah, so refreshing.”

Anja said, brushing away the smoke from the bathroom as she entered the room.

“So now, how true is what was said before?”

“A new story?”

“Okay, what else is going on?”

“...It's all true. I understand if you don't believe me, but I haven't lied at all.”

“There's no way.”

Anja laughed as she asked about her past life.

While I was between trance and lucidity I said everything she wanted me to say.

about a previous life But even if I call it that It wasn't anything interesting. It's just normal life. I have a problem like that. Fun things that happened I have strange friends That's how I get through life.

It's a rough life like that.

Anja happily listened to the little story.

“I finally caught up with her.”

“...Eh”

“How to put it...I finally feel like a real childhood friend of yours,” she said and laughed.

In my 28 years, I have never once told anyone about these things.

“And what will she do next?”

"...means that"

“You don't have to bear it alone anymore. She lives her life the way she wants. Why not try doing something fun?”

Sip warm cocoa and speak casually.

“I think...I have a much better academic record than in my previous life. So no matter where you go I should have an advantage but..”

“Ah, my God, advantage, disadvantage, I didn't mean that. What do you like? What do you like to do?”

One hand and one foot on the waist, the other. Pointing at me to match the strong tone.

“What I like...erm...”

I closed my eyes and thought, but I realized that it wasn't something that was easy to find.

"I think I'll take some time to think..."

"no! I can tell you and I will teach you. What she likes and what she's good at.”

Hey, what, what?

After hearing that, I waited for Anja's next words.

“The right path for her is teaching. is i mean The reason is standing here. You brought me to this point,” she stretched out as she said that.

Teacher heard that. A suitable feeling arose in his chest.

In high school, I remember My friends and I often have lessons together.

I'm happy to be dependable. I'm happy when everyone understands what I'm saying. I am happy to be useful to friends.

“Your childhood friend is telling you. You don't have to wonder You are my teacher.”

I know everything about you. She wore a winning expression as she laughed.

When I saw that, I laughed just like her.

When the snow falls I remember again

The day I die, the day I envy the specialness

But what part was given to me that was special in my rebirth?

Because of my rebirth There are so many things that have happened to me, but one thing is for sure that has changed in my normal life.

There's no answer. In the end, I still feel like a normal person.

but…

“Teacher Kha, see you tomorrow.”

“See you, Teacher.”

“Ah, watch out for the snow on the way home.”

The day is as usual. I oversee student growth as I spend my day.

It's normal, but it's a career worth doing.

“And then everyone went home...I stayed overtime again...”

I have paperwork to do and exams to take.

...come back and think again. There are some children who compete with each other over test scores. I want to know how it will turn out this time. Now after the inspection is complete I accidentally let out a smile.

“Oh, it's nice to have you back, darling.”

“Papa, welcome home.”

As I opened the door to the house My wife appeared and my daughter came running and clinging to her legs.

When I went to hug her My daughter laughed loudly with happiness.

My wife is a special person.

Interested in research Her goal is to become a professor at a university. Write reports again and again. She showed amazing results. She attended several international conferences.

Now everyone saw her as a young and talented researcher.

But that's not the special thing I'm talking about.

What I'm going to say is, I love you.

“Are you making dinner today?”

“Do, I won't be going anywhere for a while. I think I should go home quickly.”

“Then Papa and Mama will be together for a while.”

“My name is Khanom, come back too.”1

“Yes, Papa, thank you.”

"Eh, what did you buy? What did you buy today? What kind of snack is this? Hey, hey, what flavor is it today?"

"...Don't eat all the food from your child..."

While I was still an ordinary person I watch my students grow up and live with their wives and daughters.

I created a simple and comfortable path.

And now I walk on the warm path of life.