myself

All of our lives are born into this world. They all have variety. The ideas are different. Like a forest with many forms Beautiful faces are not the same We ourselves are the same. Born to different parents They all have ideas that are different from other people in this society. Why do you have to let yourself be the judge of us? We'll tell you about it.

Before reading this story I must say that this is only partially true. This is my true story and I have made it more enjoyable.

I was born on a day when my father and mother were both in an unstable mood. The two of them were arguing, not wanting to look at each other. I don't want to breathe air into my lungs in the same place. So my mother carried me away from my father. I wouldn't let my father see me at all. Until the time of birth and grew up

Let me tell you, mother won't let this father see her child at all. Don't let it be touched. and always repeating that The father is not the father of this child. ready to tell me Don't go see your father. Don't talk to him. It makes me feel why the love of my father and mother is so painful. I don't want to be a problem for either of them.

And I want to walk away from here for once. I don't want to live with these problems again.

Not long ago, I tried to do everything my mother ordered. Think everything your mother tells you. For mother's comfort and live day by day Don't have to think much. In order to use your own life easily Follow the path that he has laid out. To the left is left, to the right is right, whatever it is. Until mother and father both have new family lives.

Made me stand and look at the warm picture of the two of them hugging and taking care of their children. In my heart there was only pain. So many regrets distilled into an image that is completely unforgettable. Especially the mother, he loved his child very much and cherished him. And give good things all the time, unlike me who only takes the rest of the things. And he doesn't want it and keeps coming. One more thing

When I was born, my mother didn't take care of me. He let his grandparents take care of him and was certified as his grandparents' child. When these things happen It made me resist and refuse to follow his path any longer. So I argued with my mother. Argue with mom about everything. and is a silent enemy My personality changed to become even more quiet.

If you're not satisfied with something, you won't say anything. and keep collecting all the stories that have passed in life Until melting into a very private person and does not like to travel to places where he is happy Keep yourself alone. Whenever he invites me to go on a trip, I always say no. Until the day we had a big fight about studying.

He sent his new child to a good school that looked high-class, but I said home schooling was enough. The money doesn't pay the tuition. I was sad then But now it's not. It would probably be good too. Don't owe anything. until he suddenly blurted out, I'm the person he can't rely on. I can't take care of him. It only creates problems for him. If you know it's like this

He probably doesn't want to give birth to us at all. I was shocked when I heard these words. and cried out in my weak heart I don't think he loves me. Don't want me at all If you don't say it, it still won't hurt. There is still hope that he still loves me. But this is like the sky falling down in front of us. He probably doesn't truly love me.

Since that day, my thoughts have changed again, from being quiet to being a loner, having no sympathy for anyone, not loving anyone, not wanting anything from anyone. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to do anything at all. become cold I don't want to deal with anyone else.

Time passes The clock hands work every day. I myself continue to live my life as I choose to walk. and began to dislike him again as before I started to behave badly towards other people. And do a lot of things that you think are wrong. Until I myself realized that it had gone too far. The feelings of right and wrong in my heart began to remind me and tell me to stop doing it. So I stopped doing it and rethought: Why did I do it? Who was I offending?

Even if you spite someone, nothing good will come out of it. But I've made a mistake I turned to look at the person who raised me. I made him cry I don't care what other people think of me. I only care about the people who raised me. So I told him everything I had done. And he said Don't do it again and fix my problem.

For my father I will say that even though you didn't take care of me But I am the person who understands me the most. Always telling and admonishing me about everything. Always by your side, no matter the time. I always think of you. But I understand That you yourself must be responsible for your family. He never made a difference in being responsible for this child.

Being with you brings only comfort. But today you are no longer on this earth. It's time for you to rest in peace. My mother is still the same. But I have to readjust and do what I can. Get the truth in front of you as much as possible. Make your heart stronger. And I told him directly that I would take it like this.

I don't want you to come in and control my life. I don't want any more problems to happen to me.

I myself used to have dark thoughts. The point where it was almost impossible to walk away from that problem. But now I can walk out. But he is still a person who loves solitude as before, likes freedom, not being bothered by many people. I don't have many friends. But I like people who are the most direct. I like things that are open and airy, easy on the eyes and very comfortable. and travel in the most correct path

But in the eyes of other people, they are dissatisfied, they don't like it, they see it as something fun and nonsensical. I'm not angry, I'll continue doing it. For what happened in my childhood. I see it as something very worthwhile. An experience that other people don't want to have. But you know, it will build a lot of strength for me. I will remember it forever If anyone still encounters this Help me turn to loving myself.

Don't hurt yourself like me. And be mindful of these things as much as possible. You know that no one wants to meet you. But probably no one can escape the path that has been determined.

I will say that my life path is predetermined. I probably can't escape it. I've done it before. But it went back to the same place. What I convey I didn't expect everyone to understand me. But I want to say that every person is born and encounters different events. both bad and good Some people have found good things.

Makes him see the world in a different way. But if I encounter something bad, I will look at it like this. Therefore, I will say that different people, different minds, different societies, different viewpoints must be kind to each other. Let him take care of us. It makes society a better place to live in. Finally, if anyone is like me, Please tell me and if anyone has a different opinion, please tell me.

I just want to say something.