I don't know if she knows. But I'm sitting in a tree While looking at her playing with Niezel Guess she didn't know how funny she was trying to stroke his tail. (I swear I wasn't laughing.) He looked so hateful to her. But she was stubborn enough to embrace it.

Crabbe and Goyle slept on a branch lower down. His cheek touched my leg. And I thought cynically that it was deserved. People like that can only live like that.

The sky was very clear that day. I still remember the feeling of the cool wind blowing through the tips of my hair. I just realized that I like this kind of atmosphere. Many times I would climb up into a tree and get lost in thought. But in the end, the peace was taken away. When I heard your cries of pain

It appeared that she had been scratched on the cheek by Niezel. Even though I was ten meters away from her, I could still hear that high-pitched sound. This time I actually laughed. She was very clumsy. When trying to pull the nails out of her fluffy hair

At the same time, I hope she's okay. Of course, I don't want my fiancé to have a scar on her face.

And guess what happened after that? Saint Potter and Mudblood Granger ran in from nowhere. Separate her and Niezel. She thanked them very much. Made me irritated instead. Why would you thank him? She's pure blood. She was much taller than them. But then an idea popped into my head.

That thought says it's okay. When will we get married? I can tell you how to deal with them.

Oh, then one thing happened. our potter That scar head He dared to use a dirty cloth to wipe up her blood. And surprisingly, she allowed it! My face instantly burned with anger. Why would that stupid Granger let her boyfriend do this to another woman? And I wouldn't mind if that girl wasn't you Which is-mine!

I kicked Crabbe and Goyle one at a time. It flinched miserably. But I don't care anymore So he jumped out of a ten foot tree. I was sure it must have followed me, so I rushed towards her. shouted Potter angrily.

I don't remember exactly what was said. But she is very angry. I blame it on my unstable mood for it. Moments later Mudblood Granger threatened to curse me if I didn't retreat, which of course I didn't.

I said I would only go if she agreed to go. At first I thought she wouldn't say no. But I was wrong. Seeing her standing perfectly still beside Potter, Her eyes were clearly hostile towards me. At that moment I felt confused. Why did you choose to do that? Since before, did she always follow behind me, or would she get bored - or would she like Potter?

But no way, I fought so hard with my thoughts. She's a Slytherin. We are too, but why, why are you standing next to Gryffindor? I struggle to find an answer through her hard eyes. She seems to know. For a moment, her expression softened. But when I spoke another sentence

She returned to Potter's side as usual.

Oh, I'm so annoyed.

I cursed loudly. I've never been this frustrated before. But then I finally remembered. before looking at Niezel, who was wrapped around Granger's leg. grab it up Then he warns that he will throw it at Crabbe and Goyle until she agrees to come after him.

Of course I thought about it. This hairball isn't cute in the slightest in my eyes. And I wouldn't have hesitated if she hadn't suddenly started crying.

Merlin! I stared at her teary-eyed face in confusion. What was she, mad at what I had threatened to do to this crazy cat? My heart sank for no reason. This was not at all what I intended. I don't want her face to be stained with ugly stains. A lump of words stuck in my throat.

As Granger screeched and cursed. But believe it or not, that girl's high-pitched voice didn't reach my ears. It's all noisy. It's as if I'm underwater.

Then- she said she couldn't take it anymore. She couldn't stand my cruelty. She couldn't stand me kissing Pansy. She couldn't stand me inviting Astoria to the dance. Instead of-her! who is my fiancée, I shake my head, I don't know how she got into this matter. But that's not at all.

Those women weren't even in my sight. They're just pawns that I want you to feel. I want you to be jealous of me.

Suddenly I felt stupid. I shouldn't have done that. I just stood there motionless. Before I knew it, that idiot Potter had taken her very far away. While the sky I once liked is no longer blue The rain poured down as if to make things worse. But I'm still standing in the same place. Thinking of your pained face

The next day she kept avoiding me. And I know exactly why. I rushed to tell Astoria that I didn't want to go to the dance. That girl was furious but couldn't do anything.

I spent time reflecting on myself like a penniless person. I'm sure the rumors that I don't have a date will reach you. There was no sign of her! She didn't even try to come at me. It made me feel empty inside. I could only convince myself that she probably wasn't brave enough.

Until several days had passed It finally happened. What I fear most That day was like the worst day of my life. When Blaise was babbling nonsense at the breakfast table. He complains about Quidditch. Complaining about his girlfriend- including her! There's a rumor going around that she's going to the prom with that snob, Cedric Diggory!

Really retarded. I don't believe it. Rumors are just rumors. I remember exactly how I felt. I almost lost my mind laughing. Cedric Diggory? That bastard isn't even half as good as me. He's not as rich as me. Her face is so-so. If you change and go out with him, I'll laugh.

But I was wrong the second time. Those damn rumors are true. That was confirmed when she walked into the hallway holding the arm of a Hufflepuff prefect! She looked happy, different from a few days ago. Made me crazy with confusion. You bastard Blaise keeps talking about you and it's a big deal. She patted my shoulder and congratulated me for finally getting off her.

But I don't know. I didn't think like that at all!

My world came crashing down when I realized she wasn't mine anymore. This is not a woman I can manipulate unfairly. she is with someone else Smiling with the smile you once gave me At that time, I clenched my fists. I don't care if anyone sees under the table or not.

Did you intend to knock me out so easily?

I'm Draco Malfoy, a pure-blood boy who never cared for anyone, was arrogant, and even cruel. But why- why did I want to have you back so much?! I know that you are the cause of all my feelings. You and Cedric are crazy. That damn thing reminds me of what I'm missing.

It's warm, it's gentle, it does everything I've never done with you. At that time I stood up. Then he ran with all his might to the bathroom to vent his anger. Blaise tried to ask what happened. But I don't care about it. I ran as fast as I could. Close the bathroom door and lock yourself in there. All I want is to be alone.

There are only questions in my head over and over. Am I not your favorite man anymore? Am I still important to you? I hate you for causing me pain. But I want you too Then a feeling came over me. Broke the pieces of my heart

I found myself hating myself more than I hated her.

I hate my arrogance. Arrogance that I was born with, even though in the past I had been very proud of it. It used to make me a child that everyone respected. The child that everyone said was the perfect Malfoy. I was taught that showing kindness was a weakness. But what do you know? What a fool! What a stupid Malfoy. I don't want it anymore.

If only my surname had made me such an ignorant young boy. Stupid for not telling me my true feelings. Stupid for letting you go find someone else.

I don't think she even read this. I don't expect you to forgive me. Because I have hurt you so badly And I received that karma.

Finally, I'm sorry.

D.M.

(Draco Malfoy)