Happy school opening day…….. I woke up to my mother's deep voice. In my head right now I want to stay in bed. Live like this for a while longer, but...

Mother: Wake up, the sun is rising over your head. Until when will you sleep and eat in the city? Hurry up and take a shower and get dressed. Then come eat You won't be in time for the shuttle.

As soon as the voice stopped, he had to get up from this warm bed. and do as mother commands When I finished my business, I walked down. Ready on the dining table with food that mother had prepared I hurriedly ate my food and walked out to wait for pick-up. (The shuttle arrived.) I got on the shuttle. crowded with people with a familiar greeting voice

Friend: What do you say? On the first day of school, you acted like you were starving.

Me: Your mouth is about to hit my foot.

It was a friend who went to the same high school as me. Me and him met when we were in Mathayom 1. Got to stay in a room together Damn heavens, would it be cruel to me for sending him to live in the same room as me again?

At school

Friend: You, all the girls are awesome today!!

Me: Hurry and get in line. My nature has changed.

He and I hurriedly walked to the line. I forgot to mention that my name is "Namkang", I'm 16 years old and studying in Mathayom 4. Many people may be confused as to why my name sounds like a girl's. My mother likes to sit under the dew at night. What the fuck? By teasing him from childhood until he grew up. Mother, will you know that this name is very feminine?

At the flagpole singing the national anthem

Friend: When do you think the director will finish speaking?

Me: Oh my god! I talked for a long time and the chips disappeared.

Friend: Until I can release it.

And then it was time to finish school. He and I walked to the shuttle to sleep at home and stopped to buy a glass of water each. My life going to school every day is nothing, just waking up, going to school, going home, playing games, and...

Sleeping in loops like this every day until……. I met a person.

The semester opened 2 months ago.

As I was walking to the cafeteria I met one person He was tall, white, and had an extremely aura. He walked past me. But the scent that swept through me made me unforgettable. After that day that I met him That person is always in my eyes.

His name is "P'Lay". He is a senior in grade 6. Degree as a basketball player at school which was the first time I met him He is the person who makes a depressed heart live day to day. Come back to life, as if just having you, this world becomes more colorful. Haha. What am I fantasizing about? But...

That person turned out to be a man.

The next day…..at the water shop

Me: Please take 1 bottle of water.

But suddenly there was the smell of perfume that I had smelled recently.

Phi Lay: Please bring water.

I turned around and looked quickly, and yes, that's right, it was that person I met yesterday.

Me: Hello!! (I said hello to Brother Lay boldly and afraid)

Brother Lay had a puzzled expression when I greeted him.

P'Lay: Hello (and smiled at me once before he turned and walked away)

After I greeted P'Lay I feel like where did I get my courage from? Even though in the past I hardly greeted anyone first.

Friend: Do you know him?

Me: No.

After that, I walked up to class as usual.

At the Thai language classroom

Friend: Hey guys, there's a basketball game today in the afternoon. I really want to go see.

Me: Oh, I forgot.

Friend: Got it?

Me: What are you talking about? My mother knows that I was scolded.

Throughout the lesson I kept talking about the basketball game because I really wanted to go watch him compete. But in the afternoon, if I skip class again This story must have reached my mother's ears. Oh, what should I do? I didn't know anything about it. But I couldn't think straight about this.

Class Head: This afternoon, Teacher Anonglak won't come in, but she'll let us do some work.

When I heard that I felt excited immediately. It's like heaven has opened a way for us.

At the basketball court

I went to watch him play basketball like I had planned. He's really cool. I mumbled to myself. I really want to be like him.

My house

I went home and kept scrolling through Facebook, IG, and following his friends. I do this every day because it's the only thing that makes me get to know him better. After I followed him for a while I felt like I wanted to be more than just secretly in love. I'm dying. How long has it been since you called to consult with a friend?

If he knows that I like men Does it disgust me? Or what? If I don't say it now, my chest will definitely burst. In my head right now it's beating until my brain feels like it's coming out. Finally! I gave up and called.

Friend: What's up?

Me: Listen to me carefully.

Friend: Oh, if you have something to say, just tell me.

Me: I think………….I like Lay.

Friend: Ha! What do you say?

Me: You heard that right.

After I finished that sentence I hung up the phone without waiting to hear what he would say next. I felt a little sad. But this matter also made me sleepless all night.

At the classroom

I kept thinking about last night. Because my friend today didn't get on the shuttle like every other day. I kept thinking that maybe he was afraid of me. I sat and thought about it over and over. Until a hand came and grabbed my handle.

Friend: Hey, I'm going to investigate for you. It's about P'Lay.

Me: Huh?

Friend: I said I went to investigate P'Bay for you. How are you deaf? In fact P'Lay used to date men.

When I heard what my friend said, I still had hope that my wish would be fulfilled as well.

Friend: But now he has a girlfriend. (It's like the sky is bright. Instead, there was a dark mist everywhere.)

Then all day I just sat and thought about those things. I feel disappointed even before I started. What can I do when he and I are so different? I must stop this feeling.

As time passed, I kept secretly looking at him every day. I can't do more than this. Because I don't have the right I didn't even dare to go and tell him I liked him. I never even messaged him on Facebook. I feel like I'm such a loser. Lost before it even started But I admit that I really like him a lot. Finally, I have to come to terms with it.

Time passed until the day he graduated. I'm still a loser all day long. Even the flowers, I didn't dare to go and give them to him. What kind of flowers? Even he didn't know me at all. Sigh. In the end, it all probably ended like this. I had to return to the life I used to live.

When I think back Even though it's not fulfilled in this love But at least At one point in my life it was colorful. It is happiness that comes from little things that happen. Just getting a sneak peek like this makes me overflowing with happiness. Even though it wasn't me standing next to him. Even though he never knew who I was.

But I'm sure I know him well. And I think I'm still the one who hopes for him to be happy every day. And I hope I will be happy too….

Finally, even though I'm not satisfied But it made me realize that someone who truly loves someone from the heart really exists.

………………….See you again, Brother Lay……….

55555 It's finished writing our first novel. I thought for a long time about whether or not I should try writing. But in the end I tried it. Hope everyone likes it. It might not be very good. The language may not be beautiful. But we will continue to develop. I hope everyone will give us a chance to write the next novel. For anyone who has any suggestions, please tell us.