Hikaru No Go [Yaoi Fan Fic]

"Shindou," the low voice of a 25-year-old young man with a beautiful face. Long, raven hair contrasting with a clean white shirt tucked into fine black slacks. With a calm demeanor and polite manners that were unusual for a young man of the same age. It is none other than Toya Akira, who now holds the title of Meijin and is a genius in the world of Go.

"Touya?" The other person said in an extremely shocked tone. Shindo Hikaru, who was sitting on the balcony of a small Japanese house, suddenly stood up when he saw a tall figure standing in front of him.

I miss you so much... Akira thought.

"Are you still going to dress like this in the summer?" Hikaru smiled wryly before pointing at the fine clothes typical of Toya Akira, who never abandons his politeness and neatness. It seems too hot for Japan's sweltering summer. Touya laughed a little before looking at the clothes Hikaru was wearing right now.

“You yourself are still the same. It hasn't changed at all.” Akira stared at the other person who was wearing only a white tank top and dark green pants. No matter how I look at it, it's still the same Shindo Hikaru, who focuses on comfort and pleasing me.

"Never mind me! But... how did you find me?" But it is enough to know who the other party got the news from.

Mom, mom! I told you not to tell anyone, oh my god!!... Hikaru complained to himself.

"Well... I just happened to be walking past here," Akira replied, smiling cheerfully.

Anyone who believes this is a fool!... Hikaru thought.

"Heh," Hikaru said before turning away from looking at Akira. "Then why are you here?" Hikaru continued to ask. Akira looked at that back before answering with a slightly more serious expression.

"I came to see you," Akira said in a calm voice like he always did when he was serious. Hikaru stumbled inwardly. before stopping everything from seriousness by making a joke

"What do you say, I just happened to pass by?" Hikaru turned to look at Akira's face. before making a joke that breaks the silence and all seriousness But with a personality like Akira When he's serious It's hard to come back and play.

"No, in fact, I intend to come to you, Shindo. I really intend to." Akira looked at the other person with serious eyes. Hikaru heard this and felt a gentle breeze pass by them both. Like that intense seriousness I've never felt this much from Akira before.

A few years ago That this guy beat us and became a Meijin

Plus, a year later, it is still being accepted around the world. that he is one of the genius Go players worth watching

But... our departure from the Go industry It's not because we lost to Touya.

But because we know We've come this far. It would be the highest point of Go in our lives.

No matter how many people you will meet Will play again and again on a thousand boards.

Everything wouldn't change. We decided to step out.

And watching Touya who was moving forward, it was like...

...When Sai was watching us

“Congratulations on your past success. The board games are awesome. From the start to the end You break through Kitajima's black chess circle. and cheated, causing the good piece of the white piece to fail. But it's like that. If you lose to that guy, I, who considered you to be a rival, was just ashamed of a shy man, haha.”

Hikaru laughed loudly with satisfaction like always. To accept and be recognized that he is the person that this Toya Akira is forever a competitor to. It is the proudest thing in his life. Hikaru smiled a little cheerfully as he placed the tea for the other person. The two sat together on the front porch.

A cool wind blows to cool you off. There was only a teacup holding the two of them together.

"You... you watched me compete?" Akira asked in surprise. Because he didn't think the other side would follow the Go competition. After competing for the position of Mei Jin, he suddenly resigned.

"Well, I'm always watching," Hikaru said softly. This made Akira, who had tea on his lap, silent for a while. "You're quiet..." Hikaru wondered why the conversation was cut off. He turned to look at the other person's face. Akira's face was now red with embarrassment. No matter what angle you look at His face was quite red.

“Hahaha! Sir, are you hot, Touya! Or maybe you're shy! Haha" Hikaru laughed. Holding your stomach, leaning backwards Hikaru had never seen an expression other than the furrow between his eyebrows that had appeared the entire time the two of them had been together. Whenever we are together, we always have to bite each other. And the topic that we talked about every time was all about Go.

Akira could only turn his head in another direction so as not to see his own face, both embarrassed and happy. He lowered his head a bit before secretly smiling with happiness deep in his heart.

For the past 2 years, you've always been watching over me. I'm so happy... Akira thought.

"I thought you hated me," Touya said before putting his tea down on his other side and turning to look at Hikaru, who had now stopped laughing. Instead, his eyes widened into goose eggs.

"Ha!!! What are you thinking, Touya??? You idiot!” Hikaru leaned up and sat upright. while pointing a stick with his hand and criticizing the other party as if he saw himself as a giant with a devil's heart. Hikaru makes a disgusted face, mocking Akira. Just losing one piece on the board will make you hate your friends. It's too crazy!!!

"Hahaha, I'm sorry. I won't think like that again." Hagira laughed loudly, satisfied in his own way. which Hikaru had never seen before since we'd known each other. Ever since the two of them chased each other In my head there was only Go. No matter the competition Betel nut analysis Developing yourself to reach the God Hand

Never once did the two of them talk or laugh over ordinary things. Hikaru saw Akira's change and closed his eyes sadly. before looking up at the sky that was now glowing orange The sun is about to set.

...Everything changes like that.

Knowing this, I will come to you sooner. I...

"For leaving the industry It wasn't because I lost the title competition..." Hikaru opened up the issue first. Akira was taken aback and had to turn to look immediately. Deep in Hikaru's eyes, a sadness flashed. But still kept talking

“You remember, right? After the competition is finished We sat and examined the betel nuts together. After you pointed out the point where the board turned and beat me, that was it. That's why I know..." Akira didn't speak, still staring at Hikaru with disbelief. Let Hikaru continue talking. while listening intently without being distracted

"...That you must be the reason..." Hikaru said before looking up at Akira.

"Reason?" Akira still didn't understand Hikaru's words. In my heart I was secretly shaken a little. When did attachment and attachment turn into love? And it is a love that holds together and cannot be separated. Even though he knew that deep within the heart of the person he was secretly in love with, only the soul named Sai had been filled for a long time.

"What a waste. Thinking too much gives me a headache! I'm hungry! Go make something to eat!" Hikaru was suddenly cut off mid-sentence. It made Akira freeze for a moment. He could hardly adjust to Hikaru's mood.

"Every time we meet, you always use me to make food to eat," Akira secretly complained, but inside he was extremely happy.

“Then who asked you to cook food for us to eat while we were staying over? Please help me! It's you who's at fault, haha." Hikaru laughed happily because he was about to eat something delicious. In the past, people used to spend the night in large groups to help each other in giving advice and analyzing moves. His mother wasn't home because she was on vacation with Touya's father.

The duty of cooking food that doesn't cause the house to burn down rests solely with Touya. That made Hikaru impressed by the taste of Akira's hands. To find trouble for the other party, you have to give him something to eat often. With that, he walked into the kitchen to see if there was anything Akira could use to make dinner. Akira looked at Hikaru's back, who was carefully and happily selecting the food he wanted to eat. It made Akira burst out laughing because he thought it was cute.

...if it's for Hikaru It can be anything...

"Is the water too cold?" Hikaru asked. He was now dressed in a thin, light blue, short-sleeved shirt and his favorite dark boxer shorts.

“Ah! It's...!" Akira, who accidentally saw Hikaru's thighs, was embarrassed. Because those damn pants are so short that they're unreasonable. Plus, you can see only one mattress. Isn't this the same as people who are already married!!!? Akira thought too far. It's like a wife who prepares a hot tub and a mattress to wait for her husband to come home from work.

With that thought, his face turned red all the way to his ears. You have to turn your head to calm down and go the other way.

"N... the water is warm enough. Thank you..." suddenly became more polite.

"Hahaha, whoever sent you here without telling me, you idiot. As for the mattress, just bear with sleeping like this for now. Tomorrow I'll go buy you a new tie." Being called a crazy person like this. I really doubt myself going crazy. But he gave in and called him crazy a hundred times. If I could stay with Hikaru like this forever Even if I had to sleep on the ground and grass, he wouldn't mind.

Akira took the towel to dry. Turning around again, Hikaru had already set up a Go board in the middle of the room.

"Let's play some board games?"

"There's no way."

"thank you very much"

Akira beats Hikaru by two and a half points. Hikaru collects his pieces with a sad smile. The sad thing is not because I lost. But this level of skill made him miss Sai. The sadness was shaken from his head as Hikaru tried to keep himself from thinking about going back to that blurry time that he couldn't go back to forever.

Akira still sneaks glances at Hikaru from time to time, fearing that he might be offended. Even though he knew Hikaru wouldn't think like that.

“The white pieces move very well. Especially at the end of the board. You attacked until I was secretly afraid.” Akira extended his hand and circled around. before truly praising the other party When playing Go, whether it's a lover, a secret lover, a friend, or an enemy, everything's status is behind it. There is only a need to compete for space.

Conquer each other only with each person's intelligence. They both helped put the betel nuts into a jar.

It's really a pity that at that time you resigned. Why did you resign, Shindo?

“But you walk much better than before, Touya, especially in the middle of the board. My left wing was nearly paralyzed. There's nothing else I can do." Hikaru pointed to the left side of the board. which is to the right of Touya. It's like going back to yesterday. In the past, people sat and analyzed betel nuts from morning until evening.

After that, Hikaru lifted the board. which is the only board Grandfather bought for me And it's a board that I used to walk with Sai often. Go and keep it on top of the cabinet as before.

"Well, I intend to reach the Hand of the Gods," Akira said, looking at the tips of his fingers, which were hardened from over 20 years of hard training.

"That's it..." Hikaru smiled. Yes, everyone headed towards the God Hand. And the first person who made us know that feeling was Touya.

“Ah! Shindo! I didn't mean to!!!" Akira was shocked and immediately stood up in shock. Because he didn't mean to insult Hikaru at all. Just speak according to your thoughts. Akira's mouth smacked but he made no sound. He gritted his teeth and looked down as if he had made a mistake. It's really not worth talking about.

"I know. Thinking too much is not worthy of you," Hikaru pouted. As if to say I'm thinking too much. Normally him and Akira. Originally, no one came to sit down and be humble. Because each person was determined to reach the Divine Hand stage. At that time, they were constantly biting each other. No matter what we said, we never once treated each other with kindness.

Akira tried to calm himself down. and lowered his head slightly, apologizing softly

"excuse me..."

"This board game was really fun. Thank you, Touya." Hikaru gave Touya a small smile. White, clean, beautifully aligned teeth as always.

“For you, how many tens of thousands of boards do you want me to walk? I will walk with you for the rest of my life.” Akira smiled softly. Sharp eyes that always sparkle Importantly, the content also hints at love for Hikaru.

"If I were a woman I must think you're flirting with me, hahaha.” With that, Hikaru walked past Akira and opened the balcony door. Fireflies are sparkling. big round moon Moreover, the stars appeared all over the sky.

“Are you playing Go up there? Sai," Hikaru said softly to himself. Hikaru's back looked very lonely. So much so that Touya's heart right now wanted to run and hug him. The more he thought that the owner of the back who looked lonely and lonely had to be alone for two years, the more the violence in Touya's heart increased.

...The person who made me like this. There must be only one person...

"I love you..." Akira whispered softly to himself. Didn't even look at the fireflies. Because no matter how beautiful it is It couldn't be as beautiful as the man he loved the most in front of him, but...

“That star makes me think of the pieces on the board. And it makes me miss Sai."

"..." Akira heard that name and his heart ached. His heart squeezed. Even though he knew that it was a bond of friendship, he was still jealous of Sai who had captured all of Hikaru's heart. No matter how many times you move the pieces Sai is still alive in Hikaru's piece. The envy was so overflowing that I couldn't hold back any longer!

"Hikaru is in love with Sai... Like that?” Akira said, not expecting to ask the question that had been lingering in his mind for a long time out of jealousy. Akira felt embarrassed. His long, black hair was hidden, making it difficult for Hikaru, who turned to look at the owner of the question, to see his face clearly.

"Haha, it's not love. I just feel like I've lost a friend. An important friend who was never returned..." Touya's heart felt lighter. Upon learning the true answer, Hikaru thinks of Sai more in terms of friendship than in terms of love.

“And I understand Sai too. I really understand.”

"Eh?"

"That I came out of the industry It's because that's all I got. Even though I was hurt that I couldn't go to Hatdeva to carry out Sai's intentions. But because I began to understand something To make me realize what I live for."

"Do you understand... something?"

"Shusaku lives for Sai. Sai is there for me. And that is the reason..."

"The reason I'm here is for you too."

"...Hikaru..."

“That's it. I want to hold on to my own selfishness. I think that's Hikaru's love confession.

Hikaru... With the heat I have had for Hikaru for a long time. Until finally that love exploded. Hikaru in my embrace was trembling. Many times I kissed his cheek. Wipe away his tears. The warmth of our bodies touching each other. It was a summer that was hotter than any other time in both of our lives. I kept saying how much I love Hikaru, how much I love him.

He's gone. How am I? I can only tell you the words of endless love. It's as if today is the last day of my life. Our bodies are so connected that they bring us to orgasm many times. Hikaru running his hand through my hair I still remember it well. Hikaru in my embrace, my breath, my skin, everything, my love no matter how long. It was always Hikaru's.

Touya... in my head, in my thoughts There are only images of you and words of love floating around endlessly. You hugged me with all your strength as if I would disappear. The sound of your heavy breathing Your hand that joins mine The lips pressed against his lips several times. Are you really suffering from my disappearance that much? Ugh...

When I know you love me this much It makes my heart hurt in a strange way, do you know that? It's like if you're missing I won't be able to live anymore...

"Good luck, Akira."

"yes..."

"Watch me, Hikaru."

"um"

"I live for Hikaru too."

"Huh, you idiot, the train has arrived. Hurry and get on."

"I love you"

"I know."

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An express train shows a man looking out the window at an unfamiliar countryside. It's not like the big skyscrapers in Tokyo. A handsome 26-year-old man with long, jet-black hair that reaches the middle of his back. Wearing a dark blue round neck sweater and black slim-fitting pants. Gentlemanly leather shoes from a man named Toya Akira.

The seat next to him was empty, with only a simple brown bag sitting there. The bag was bulging, indicating that the owner had stuffed everything into it in a hurry…

…The beautiful countryside scenery and the train moving at a steady speed couldn't calm the hot young man's heart... Akira sighed to himself for not being able to cool down. He raised his hand. He held it up and opened it to see a picture of a young man around the same age, highlighted with yellow hair in front and natural black hair in the back. smiling face

The eyes look bright and the face is round and flawless. Still, the worry in Akira's heart had not disappeared.

If we meet Hikaru We are not yet sure of the heat and anxiety in our hearts. Can it disappear?

Akira thought. Even he himself wasn't sure if seeing his lover's face would be able to make this level of anxiety go away or not, as if the other person was lying with their eyes closed and not knowing anything...

“..." In front of Hikaru's small Japanese house, Akira walked in quietly carrying a single brown bag. It was strangely calm here. The gentle scent of the trees made Akira feel at ease. The sounds of the birds chirped as if they were teasing each other. A gentle breeze blows past. and the sunshine was just as good as spring. Not long before Akira appeared the image of a young man lying with his arms and legs spread on the balcony of a cute little Japanese house. The only sound was the sound of a small fan that had been left on, shaking left and right.

The young man of the house, Shindō Hikaru, 26 years old with yellow hair on his face and natural black hair behind him, lay comfortably on the terrace of his small Japanese house. His dark-colored, three-quarter-length pants and a plain yellow t-shirt go well with his hair in front of him. His sleeping face looks like a 16-year-old who just came home from school and immediately changed into his pajamas instead of doing his homework. Akira laughed a little. He put his bag down gently on one side of the balcony before sitting down on the porch near where Hikaru was lying with his arms spread open.

“Heh heh,” Akira chuckled slightly. No matter how many years pass, Shindo will still be Shindo day and night.

Akira lightly traced his fingertips onto Hikaru's cheeks, trailing from the bridge of his nose. drag down the cheek Then follow it down to the lips.

I want to kiss you, Akira thought.

Akira withdrew his hand and placed it on the wooden floor before bracing himself and slowly bent down to gently brush his lips against Hikaru's. But not before kissing her to her heart's content.

“Hmm.. hmmm.” The other party made a strange noise before turning over, using his arm as a pillow to sleep on the other side, causing the hem of his yellow shirt to lift up to reveal smooth, white skin.

“…” Even so, Akira didn't hesitate to change his sitting position. He slowly put his right hand into the placket of his left sleeve shirt to steady himself from falling before bending down to nuzzle his nose into the crook of Hikaru's white neck.

“Mmmmm!” Hikaru made a louder noise in his throat than before. Akira slowly spread his hand and rubbed it teasingly over Hikaru's white chest. His face was still nestled in the crook of his white neck. The faint scent of Hikaru's soap made Akira dazed for a moment before Hikaru's moans were replaced by loud noises.

"Hey!!!" Hikaru shrieked before quickly pushing himself up and pulling his shirt down immediately. Hikaru's face was red. before pointing at Akira's face, which changed from a slightly startled expression to smiling like a cute child.

“Pretentious!!!!” Hikaru pointed out. Akira was still smiling.

"Hikaru is sleeping himself, can't help it," Akira replied in Hikaru's language. That was an answer that annoyed him the most. It was such a difficult answer to hear from the polite Akira that it made Hikaru feel embarrassed. Both were so embarrassed that their faces were red and they couldn't do anything.

"Why are you such a pervert? Akira!" Hikaru stopped pointing his finger at Akira's face before looking at the brown bag that was placed on the other side of the porch.

“Are you coming to stay over? Why didn't you call and tell me first?" Hikaru didn't seem too surprised, but Akira always called first, but this time he suddenly appeared, no different from the first time he came here.

“Um, can I come over and stay over?” Akira said, but his cheerful smile was hiding something.

“I just came here to ask?” Hikaru teased before getting up and picking up Akira's bag and walking inside.

“Haha,” Akira laughed a little. before following Hikaru inside

Hikaru placed Akira's bag in the bedroom but didn't have time to turn around. Akira suddenly came and embraced him!

"uncle! Akira!” Hikaru was slightly shocked when Akira suddenly left the hug. Suddenly, he inserted his hand into the placket of his shirt, running from his flat stomach up to his chest.

“Ah!” Hikaru made such a loud noise that he had to cover his mouth with his hand, burying his face in the crook of Hikaru's white neck before gently pushing him down onto the floor of the room.

"Hair is getting longer," Hikaru said before kissing Akira's head. Akira, who was lying on top of Hikaru, didn't say anything or even looked up at Hikaru. He hugged Hikaru tighter than ever, as if he didn't want him to go anywhere and didn't want to leave him. Hikaru didn't know what to do but just hugged Akira like that. And then fell asleep...

Squirting

Hikaru wakes up. His nose purred as the aroma wafted from the kitchen. He lay on the soft, comfortable mattress. The blanket was neatly placed. When I intended to get up and examine my body, which was already clothed, I was startled by a sharp pain in my back that caused me to bend down again.

Ugh, that hurts... That's right, they were playing on the floor... But Akira wiped us off too, Hikaru thought...

“Are you awake?” The gentle and polite Akira walked out of the kitchen with a tray full of food. Akira placed the tray on the floor before kneeling politely as was his habit.

“Excuse me.” He returned to being the polite and serious Akira of old.

"Let it be, I want to do it together," Hikaru said. Akira blushed for a moment.

“It looks delicious,” Hikaru said softly as he looked at the food that Akira brought. Akira smiled softly a little before helping Hikaru up.

The two of them happily sat and ate in the bedroom, filled with an aura of warmth and love. Akira happily grabbed the food and fed it to Hikaru. As if a husband was happy to take care of his wife, Hikaru also had a satisfied expression on his face when he was pampered.

Even though being with Hikaru would probably feel this way, it would actually feel quite good. If I could take this worry out of my heart, Akira thought.

“Akira?” Akira, who was lost in thought, was caught by Hikaru and had to call out the name of the other person who had a habit of thinking and acting like someone who was too honest to lie.

"The latter, are you alright?" Akira asked and Hikaru shrugged.

“That hurts. But what the heck. The first time it hurt even more, haha.” Hikaru smiled showing his teeth before continuing to eat Akira's delicious rice with ease when he saw that Akira was only worried about his back.

Really worried about the latter, Hikaru thought.

At night the air is cooler than during the day. After lying back for a while, Hikaru turned to Akira, both of whom lay on the same mattress like a married couple who had been married for a long time.

“Are you cold?” Hikaru asked.

"It's not that cold." Akira shook his head. before giving a slight smile But in the dark like this, you probably can't see much.

"Tch, normally at times like this you'd say it's cold. Damn it," Hikaru said before the sound of his clothes rumbling. Akira was confused for a moment before he realized that he was being turned away by Hikaru.

“..." Akira frowned. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.

Ah...it's not that cold. Or will Hikaru be cold? ........................... Aol

"Hikaru?" Akira said softly, although Hikaru didn't answer. But Akira knew he wasn't asleep yet.

“I'm so cold.”

Phew!

Akira immediately embraced Hikaru from behind. Akira's chest was firmly pressed against Hikaru's back. Akira rested his high nose on Hikaru's shoulder. Smelling the gentle scent of soap that made him feel good, Hikaru moved, making the embrace even more intense. Hikaru placed his hand on Akira's strong arm that was hugging Hikaru from behind before moving it down to his hand and holding it warmly.

“Still cold?” Hikaru asked.

"It's not cold anymore," Akira replied.

The next afternoon, the two of them went out for a walk to admire the flowers blooming as the season calls for them. The trees all competed with each other to bloom beautifully, as if inviting people to admire this beauty, even Akira and Hika. They weren't walking hand in hand, but they were walking so close that their shoulders were not far apart. There were times when Akira secretly held Hikaru's hand.

“There aren't any in Tokyo, I'll tell you,” Hikaru said before looking up to admire the beauty of the cherry trees that made the whole countryside path seem like heaven.

"That's right. So, how about I ask Hikaru to marry me right here?" Akira said. He bowed his head slightly to look at Hikaru's wide-eyed face and said, "Don't kneel here."

“Hahaha”

"Mr. Akira, this year you will be 26 years old. Mom and Dad think that you should have a family."

"But I don't..."

"Yes, Akira. This year my child is 26. Look at you, Ogata. You already have 2 children."

“But parents. I'm not interested in having a family…”

“I know that Akira-san is very committed to Go, but having a family is also important. How will I have someone to take care of my child?”

“But me!”

“His mother has already prepared an escort for him.”

"Next week, Akira-san, please go see her."

“Akira?”

“Huh?”

“You look distraught. Is something wrong?”

“Nothing. Just enjoying watching the cherry blossoms.”

"Really"

The couple ended their spring tour at a restaurant in the city that was crowded with people. Hikaru took Akira to sit down and eat his favorite ramen.

“This is the best restaurant in town!” Hikaru said proudly.

"Hee hee, Hikaru likes to eat ramen." Akira laughed a little before sitting and looking at Hikaru with a smile.

“What are you looking at? Look at the menu,” Hikaru scolded Akira, correcting his embarrassment. “You act like Uncle Lolicon looks at a child.”

"Like Hikaru, I'm not a kid anymore, so I'm just an uncle looking at a cute uncle," Akira said, smiling.

“What will you eat? -///////-” Hikaru said, blushing heavily.

"Eat like Hikaru eats," Akira said before sitting back and staring.

"Two servings of ramen, please," Hikaru loudly ordered the food.

"Oh Hikaru-sensei," said an old man who was about to walk out of the shop. Walk in and say hello.

"Oh, Tanaka-san, what are you doing here?" Hikaru said in a cheerful tone, just like when he was a kid.

"Oh wow, I'm here (pretends to pick up a drink" hahaha, I'll be back soon. Ah..." The old man glanced over and saw Akira sitting on the other side. With eyes as big as goose eggs!

“Oh wow, Master Touya! It's Touya Akira, right?!” Tanaka-san looked shocked before smiling brightly.

"Yes, hello. I'm Touya Akira ^^" Akira bowed softly. before smiling politely and friendly according to his personality

“Next month, I will be competing for the position with Professor Kuwabara Ong Inbo! Grab the position of Hong Inbo, Master Toya. Become a Touya Honinbo, I'll be cheering you on!” Tanaka-san's hoarse voice said excitedly.

“Haha, yes, I will try. Thank you very much.” Akira smiled and laughed.

“Anywhere, anywhere. I probably don't get to see the real teacher often. Can I have his autograph please? The boss has a pen!” Tanaka-san took out a fan from his yukata.

Tanaka-san leaves with a smile as he gets Master Toya Meijin's (Toya Akira) signature on his beautiful white fan. Hikaru, who was holding the ramen in his mouth, immediately got to the point when he finished swallowing.

“Next month you will be competing for the position of Hong In Bo.”

"Um," Akira replied shortly.

“Why don't you seem cheerful?” Hikaru said, stopping his food for a moment and staring at Akira as if searching for an answer.

"No, why?" The teacher sounded so innocent that Hikaru had to give up and turn to lower his head and continue eating the ramen.

"I'm afraid of Kuwabara-sensei!" Hikaru teased Akira, laughing a little.

After they both finished eating their ramen. The sky began to dim and the sky turned into a mysterious evening red that invites you to explore. The red sunlight makes the atmosphere look ancient but also charming in a different way.

“Who is Tanaka-san? Why do you call me Teacher?”

“Oh, I teach Go. It's a small school. At first there was no one, Tanaka-san was the first. And then people kept coming in. There are children too, probably about the same age as when we first met.”

“I don't understand you at all. I quit the industry and opened a Go school here.” Akira felt so sorry for Hikaru's excellent Go playing ability that he accidentally said it out of his heart.

"...." Hikaru didn't say anything, only smiled slightly and turned to look at the setting sun.

“Ah! I'm sorry!” Akira was shocked that he had accidentally said it.

“Hahaha, it's okay. You just practice saying what you want to say, you're just being considerate of others. Do you think that just saying those words will hurt me? I've heard other people say it even more than you.”

Say what you want to say? Akira thought.

“Hikaru-san.”

“Huh???” Hikaru turned to look at Akira, shocked when he suddenly politely added the word-san. Just like that at the end of his name.

“If I win against Kuwabara-sensei, Would you please move in with me?”

Akira spoke seriously and firmly, his eyes looking straight at Shindou. Hikaru is both determined and earnest, to the point that Hikaru feels goosebumps and awe at the same time. Isn't moving in together like a marriage proposal?

"If I can win," Hikaru said, unable to help tears fall. Akira smiled before running up and hugging Hikaru.

At Baan Toya

“Father.”

“What do you say, Akira?”

"If I win against Kuwabara-sensei..."

“Please allow me to live my life as I want.” Akira, who sat neatly, bowed his head humbly to his father.

"..." Akira, who had his head down His eyes closed tighter than before when his father remained silent and didn't answer.

“The first time I asked my father was when I joined the Go Club to compete with Shindo. Hikaru-kun..."

“This time, it's probably because of Shindo. Hikaru-kun again?”

“This time...”

“It is my intention. It has nothing to do with Hikaru, I want to do what my heart desires..."

".........um I understand. Father will tell Mother to cancel the viewing.”

“Thank you very much!”

1 month later...

“Hikaru-sensei. Someone's looking for you." A little boy walked up and called out to Hikaru.

“Who?”

"I don't know. Tall, long hair."

"Oh, thank you, Takeru-kun ^^" Hikaru, who was walking and watching the kids practice Go, left the room. Hikaru looked down the corridor and saw a tall man with long, black hair that reached his waist.

“What? Don't tell me that. Escaped the competition," Hikaru said.

"The competition is over," Akira said softly.

“Hikaru.................................................”

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On a clear day The sky was clear and the sun was shining all over the small, peaceful garden of the Touya family. The sounds of birds chirping softly as if they were happy on such a nice day.

Inside the Japanese room The Go set was neatly placed with the two Go bowls placed peacefully after being played. Outside the house next to the garden appeared a thick man wearing a yukata and wearing a hao robe. The man wore a white shirt that went well with green-gray pants and had long flowing black hair.

The young man sat tensely as he had never been in such an unceremonious state with his father before. He had previously played Go with his father and intended to come and make a request... no, it must be called informing. Let me know because in my heart I thought that no matter how much I was opposed, I would follow my heart and get little Akira. He has now become a young man who is precocious in love. But before Toya Akira could speak as a matter of fact. As intended, the father persuaded them to come out and admire the birds and admire the garden in accordance with the regulations.

“Why are you kneeling? Come and sit comfortably,” Toyakoyo said in a deep, calm voice as always before staring at the two birds in the garden who were happily playing with each other.

"Ah.. yes." Akira who couldn't do anything right. Slowly relax little by little before changing your sitting position. Putting his legs down on the grass of this peaceful garden, the sound of birds made him feel at ease. Even though deep inside he was still a little worried that this conversation might cause doubts in him. But Akira, the precocious young man in our love, must have forgotten. that the father had probably taken a hot bath for much longer than he had

“Just now, what I was saying was stuck. What do you intend to say?” Koyo asked his son in a simple tone. Being very old and having given up his position in the Go industry His spiritual rest had finally arrived and he no longer wanted to do anything so formal. He sometimes dreamed of the time when he could talk with his son in a relaxed manner like this.

“I would like permission to move outside.” Akira tried to speak in long, steady sentences so that his father wouldn't catch the worry that was still lingering in his heart. And he's doing pretty well.

“Hmm.” Koyo was not shocked at this request in the slightest because he knew that such a time would come one day when a grown man would be able to live his life on the path he had chosen. Build your own body, create your own family...

But Touya, his father, had a very sharp and clever mind. He had an idea. Requesting permission from the son It is inevitable that someone must be the cause and each time it is no one at all...

Let's try poking around a bit. Touya thought.

“Akira, you have found the person you intend to spend your life with.” His voice was sharp, but he was a little bit sarcastic because his son's expression was an expression he had never seen from someone who had inherited perfect composure from him. Akira looked at his father in shock. Then it changed to being shy. Before the last expression was the thought of the answer...

It was just brooding that wanted to hide the truth, Koyo thought.

“Well... not really... sir,” Akira said. He didn't seem to want to admit it, but he also didn't want to deny it if he said that his age didn't care if women were accused of being homosexual. And...that's it! But suddenly I have to tell my father that I like a man, so it's like that, so let's answer in a divided and fought way!

Koyo still kept his face steady, answering "Um, so?" in his usual style, but inside he was secretly laughing because he intended to tease his son again.

“So, is that person beautiful?” He purposely didn't use the word woman in the question, even though in his heart he was splitting the battle 50 50, that it might not be what he thought, but he couldn't help but want to know. Toya Akira, the son who He is a gentleman inside and out, but at the same time he is an equally calm and terrifying giant.

He wanted to see a side of his son that he had never seen before and of course....as a father he wanted to have time and get to know his son more.

“Well... not that I'm pretty. But when I look at it... I feel very comfortable. He is a smart and cute person. But the mood is a bit hot. Sometimes I get yelled at when people are angry, but soon I'll come back and talk to them as if nothing happened,” Touya said with a very happy face. But sometimes it seems overwhelming.

“People with very independent hearts like this are troubling.”

"yes"

The father said, as if reading his son's mind completely. Akira answered with the utmost approval. He had never felt like he truly possessed Hikaru. Every time he was near Hikaru he was very happy. But it seems like Hikaru doesn't love him like he loves Hikaru at all. Sometimes he feels like he's been abandoned or he's the one who just thinks about being alone like crazy. The closer he gets to it, but sometimes It's like we can only get close physically, not knowing how the other person really feels about us...

...like fish in the river beautiful and bright Swimming in the clear water with the utmost joy and freedom of mind. If you can catch it, you can't catch it. Once he grabbed it, he struggled until it slipped out of his hand. If you catch it for a long time, it dies to the point where we want to catch it and put it in the pond. Locked in the garden of the house to be known and known.

“He's like a fish,” Akira said, his eyes slightly saddened.

“Huh,” Father laughed in the back of his throat. Because he knew that he had guessed correctly.

“What is it?”

“Comparing lovers to fish. If he hears this, he'll misunderstand." Koyo said, closing his eyes and smiling slightly. The other person who heard him was probably quite angry at comparing himself to a fish. What a strange son who compared his lover to a living thing.

“I'm only saying this to Father.” The soft laughter of the two of them was loud enough to be pleasing to the ears of the birds and the garden.

“Fish must be raised in water. If you bring it up Soon it will die no matter how much you love it. There must be a distance from that love.”

"A lover, if you really want it to be your own, you will suffer. Remember this, Akira..."

"yes"

This teaching cuts deep into Akira's heart. He has a tiny giant in his heart that is eating his heart little by little to grow into a giant who wants to devour his lover to be his own. His father's words. It was like water that soothed his heart, but it could not permanently cool his slowly warming heart.

A little breeze came to play with the wind chimes in front of the small Japanese house, making a bright sound that was quite inviting to listen to. The atmosphere was just right, the scent of grass gently wafting through, making me feel at ease.

On the front porch of a house that many Tokyo people call rural, a young man with yellow hair on the front and black on the back was walking around in front of the house, not acting like he was sleeping on the porch like everyone else. From time to time, the young man's eyes and the way he walked around showed a feeling of unease and worry.

Shindo Hikaru was in a long-sleeved green-gray outfit worn over dark jeans, walking around mindlessly. Like every time since childhood When thinking too much, he couldn't do anything, hot emotions made his head spin like the storm of a war of nerves had arrived. Even before that, Sai had helped remind him. But now he's lonely. Without a partner...

What should I say? Wow! I didn't think of it! Better go for a walk!

Following a habit he couldn't recover from since childhood, Shindo Hikaru chose to shake everything out of his head and walk straight out of the house to go for a walk to clear his mind. The atmosphere was familiar but different from his hometown. Totally calmed him down a bit after thinking about it. And so be it. But he couldn't help but think again and again. He walked through the same path that he had walked with the long-haired person in Tokyo. The flowers weren't blooming as much as before, they were probably preparing to wither. To enter the winter filled with white...

“How should I tell that guy…” Hikaru muttered to himself, thinking about the first time he met his lover.

He stopped walking because his thoughts were racing in the past. He looked back at the relationship that had formed from a misunderstanding. Bonded until it became friendship and became love. but...........

Is it really love?

Hikaru asked himself in his mind. Why does he love Akira or is this not love? But it's a habit. Or is he just lonely and taking it all in his stride? Did he think it was love, but in reality it might not be? Maybe he misunderstood? At that time, the day Akira got the position and came to see him on the day we intended to live together, and he went back to Tokyo to prepare for the start of our lives together, but today, Hikaru pulled over. Not sure anymore...

...Does he love Toya Akira that person?

“Hikaru!”

Hikaru was taken aback to see Akira come without warning, a young man with long hair and a faint scent that always carried him, wrapping his lover in an embrace.

“I already called. But Hikaru didn't answer the phone the next day. Wherever he went, he learned to take his phone with him. I was really worried if something was wrong.” Toya Akira, who speaks very little and is polite, but when in front of his lover, can speak like an ordinary young man, simple sentences that would definitely be spoken to a young woman. That the girl must be very happy to know the concern from the man, but at this time...

Hikaru felt strangely disgusted. Instead, he felt that this was not like the Touya he had known, the Touya who didn't want anything from him other than the word "Go". But now it was as if Touya wanted everything from him. Wanted to devour him until it was disgusting.

“Uh... Well, I was just going for a walk nearby so I didn't think I'd take my phone with me. I'm sorry for making you worried.” Hikaru tried to act normal, bringing his hand up to scratch his head like every time he felt like... "I can't help you." Or did you see that? “Just this little matter.”

But Akira sensed that something had changed. Hikaru said that, but his body and body moved a little because he didn't want to be in his embrace. The hand that went up to scratch his head was done so as not to be abnormal because it was Personality, but in reality, he just wanted an excuse to get out of his own embrace.

But Akira shook that crazy thought away because whatever matter was related to the person in front of him He always thought too much first... maybe this time would be like that too.

"It's okay." Akira smiled slightly.

“Come into the house. Traveling so far must be tiring." Hikaru cut in and walked into the house.

Who is really tired? He has the house key that Hikaru gave him. He arrived home a long time ago. After putting all of his belongings in the house, he took off his jacket and threw away the tea that had been left in the kettle for a long time. Then he brewed the new tea that he had planned to buy from Tokyo, waiting for his lover to come back and look at it. You should know just this. He's tired?

Are those words of courtesy or words to avoid spending time with him???

Akira followed him into the house suspiciously, although he tried to tell himself not to think too much, but Hikaru's response was different from before. He was not stupid for not knowing the difference between before and now.

“How long have you been here?” Hikaru asked, looking at the teapot that had been cleanly washed and was pouring out tea leaves filled with hot, fragrant water.

“Yes, I saw there was some tea residue left in there. So I cleaned it up for you. I also bought some good tea, so I took the opportunity to use your kitchen. I don't think so.” The tea cups were neatly prepared. Ready for both of them to drink. Hikaru felt bad that Akira was acting like a boss to the owner of the house and he felt uncomfortable that he felt like he was being tied down. How insecure did you feel? And that feeling was immediately noticeable through your eyes and body.

“Oh... Haha... It's okay. Thank you.” His sentences and voice began to distort. Hikaru sat down and tried to act as if nothing had happened, calling for Akira to sit down. and poured tea into both cups He handed one cup to Akira and he gave another. In the deafening silence, the tea that was famous all over Japan was tasteless.

"Hikaru, about us moving in together....." Akira saw that this was not good and quickly cut him off before things could get worse. He reached for his handbag and took out various documents. In his heart, Hikaru strongly refused, his heart squirming to resist. I don't want to accept this.

“I looked at a small house. It's not very small. There's a kitchen, bathroom, shower room, bedroom, living room, and a small garden next to the house. There's a park with a good atmosphere nearby. I think it's quite livable. Hikaru, what do you say? Do you like this? Or will...”

“...take it another way...”

Akira's hand was still on the document, both eyes fixed on Hikaru's face as he explained the layout and area of ​​the house. Hikaru looked away as if he didn't want to know. The story of what happened Akira gulped. before getting flustered

“Hikaru isn't happy? If Hikaru doesn't like this, I'll change it for you!” Akira sternly exclaimed. Afraid that his lover would be dissatisfied with the house he had chosen, he submitted a new proposal. Still, Hikaru's face didn't show any signs of getting better, but returned to a more troubled expression than before.

"Akira... I can't go live with you," Hikaru said but didn't look at Akira's face, his heart felt extremely uncomfortable.

“Hikaru... If... If Hikaru doesn't like the garden. You can use it as a swimming pool!”

"Akira... that's enough," Hikaru tried to close his eyes tightly.

“Or is it that Hikaru doesn't like the Modern House? Do you like the style of Japanese houses!?”

"Akira"

“I, please, Hikaru. Whatever it is, if it's to be with Hikaru, I... I don't mind! What kind of Hikaru do you like? Should I get it as a condo? Do you want a high floor? You'll get a beautiful view. Hikaru must really like it!”

“That's enough, Touya!!!”

Akira couldn't control his nerves. Mouth shaking, hands shaking, he tried to say everything he could think of to persuade his lover to agree to be with him. Hikaru shouted, anger flashing in his eyes. The name changed like it was someone else, a distant person. From Akira who used to be called changed to just his last name. Akira trembled. Tears began to well up but he held them back. Akira grabbed Hikaru's left wrist. His eyes looked worried. try to adjust understanding

"W-why, Hikaru?"

Hikaru felt fear in his eyes and took out his left hand, trying to force his right hand out, but he was unsuccessful. Akira grabs the bag! Grab it in your left hand. before turning around from behind, hugging Hikaru's restraints so he wouldn't go anywhere. Hikaru squirmed in his embrace. His feet flicked and kicked.

“Let go of me! Touya!!! go out!"

"no!!! First tell me why! Why is this possible? Was it still good before or did you have someone else!? Just because I was away from you for 3 weeks, you were able to do this!”

The two of them had an argument. Hikaru who tries to deny his love and doesn't give any reason other than "let me go" makes Akira very angry. He even strangled Hikaru with his arm until he couldn't breathe!

"Oh..Yah!" Hikaru tried to remove the arm that was strangling him, but he didn't seem to be able to fight hard. Hikaru started to make a gurgling noise in his throat. Akira's face turned pale when he saw this. His senses returned and he immediately released his arm and the young man pushed away from the other man before opening his mouth and taking in a deep breath. His face was red as the blood that had been stuck in his throat flowed freely again.

“Hi...Hikaru...”

“Don't touch!!! Disgusting! If you touch me, I'll kill you, Touya!”

Akira stopped... My brain is dull and unable to do anything, as if the world is collapsing and everything is meaningless. Hate in his eyes radiated unstoppable power, the body that had once embraced him violently rejected him. Disgusting at even the slightest touch from someone who had hugged and kissed for a long time.

Or are you angry that we accidentally strangled you just now?

“Hikaru, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that! At that time I was unconscious. I can't control my emotions! You refused to answer why, so I!...”

"go out"

"No, Hikaru, I'm not going anywhere."

"go out!"

"no!"

“Get out!!!”

“If you say no, it won't happen!!!”

The two clashed fiercely, now that the giant in Akira's heart had clearly manifested itself. Hikaru was shocked and felt afraid of Akira when he heard the harsh words that had never come from the mouth of such a polite and gentle man. Throwing this person first, Hikaru felt frightened. As if he were facing a Touya Akira he never knew, Hikaru stood up.

Run to get out of the house without thinking for your life!

But Akira was able to grab his leg in time. This caused Hikaru to fall face down on the floor, leaving red marks on his face, elbows, and knees. Blood was flowing. Akira pulled his legs closer and straddled his lover. Hikaru squirmed as he knew what he was about to do.

“What the fuck Toya! Let go!!!” I struggled and was exhausted. His body was starting to get tired from fighting earlier. Akira stopped.....

I... What the fuck?

“Huh…”

“I-we-Toya? In your eyes, I'm just a bastard Touya???”

“Dee!”

“Ugh!!!!!”

“Bad... the worst.”

“Huh... Ugh... Akira....”

Under the soft white moonlight A young man with long hair carefully picked up his lover and placed him on the mattress he had carefully arranged before drying him gently and delicately. Picking up a pair of pajamas and putting them on meticulously, as if they were important things that could easily break, Hikaru, who was conscious of it, let Akira do all of this without saying a word as they made love passionately and. that severe It made his mind go blank. The pain that the tall figure had given to his body made him too tired to argue with anyone anymore.

Akira held Hikaru's face with his hand to turn him to look at him at that time. Even though Hikaru was staring at him, Hikaru's eyes were so blank that Akira couldn't accept it and had to cry. Maakira tightened his hold on Hikaru's body before burying his head in tears against the shoulder of his beloved, knowing he no longer had any love left.

Akira's pathetic, child-like sobbing body Without any comfort from the owner of his heart, Hikaru acted like a doll for Akira to cry on and hug, but he was disgusted at being treated like a disrespectful prostitute. But there was no strength left to respond when it had already happened. It has passed

What else can be done to make you regret it?

Akira cried hard before he realized he had wet his beloved's shoulder. Akira carefully placed the young man in a warm mattress and blankets before getting up and picking up Hikaru's shirt and changing it. Hug and kiss Hikaru even though he was outside the mattress and he couldn't bring himself to touch his lover who said he was disgusted with him. Hikaru moved to lie down with his back to Akira.

But he didn't reject that embrace outside the mattress because he was too tired to think about anything else...

When the morning comes Akira was no longer there, and there was only tea and the fine tea can he had bought for him to be placed next to the futon. Along with a letter written inside just saying

I love you

Hikaru put the letter in an envelope and carelessly placed it somewhere. His back was still in a lot of pain. Luckily, today was a holiday because he thought that he probably wouldn't be able to teach Go at his school. He lies on his side. Looking out at the closed door of the house, my heart felt angry at last night's actions. But I am not a woman myself, to care about the party matters seems too much.

It's over... all over... the frustration that lingered...

Hikaru sucked in air and sighed heavily. Even though it feels strange But it was very comforting.

On the other hand, at the Tokyo train station, a long-haired young man wearing a fine blue and white knit suit and dark jeans was signing autographs for a fan who happened to be boarding the train for a trip. He smiled and kissed. The boy's head is adorable. Smile politely and excuse yourself to go home.

When he got into the taxi and told him his destination, all his feelings came out as tears of sadness for a young man who was disappointed in love. This feeling had never happened before in his life. It made him more helpless than defeating Sai. Or even defeating boards all over the world because Go is still competitive.

But regarding love, if the other party has no love for us then There was no way that love was possible. Akira squeezed his hand on the bridge of his nose. Tears flowed endlessly. A young man who lost a lover but never lost love for that person. He still cares and loves the man named Shindo Hikaru.

The driver, who was a reasonable age, looked at Akira with pity but didn't say anything because he understood that this was what children his age had to face. He intended to drive as politely as possible to give Akira time to grieve and vent his feelings. come out fully

I will love you always

------ 5 months later ------

“This is the wrong move, Kato. You have to move like this or you'll open up a gap for the white pieces.” Hikaru was teaching the moves to Kato, a tan boy who was energetic but still lacking in training. It reminded him of his own childhood.

"There it is again...!"

"Teacher Hikaru..."

While about to attack Kato for repeatedly making the wrong moves, Tanaka-san The oldest student interrupted before Kato seemed relieved that he wasn't being headbutted. But one of his black pieces was eaten, causing him great distress because he had already lost 3 boards in a row.

"Hello, Tanaka-san. How are you? You haven't been here lately."

“Oh, don't be upset, Teacher. I'm old and I can hardly walk. My eyesight is not very good. It's almost dead. Haha,” Tanaka-san said jokingly.

“Look, talk about it, Tanaka-san, sit down and I'll go make some tea for you.”

“Thank you, Master.” Tanaka-san accepted the tea from Hikaru and sipped it loudly, looking delicious.

"Sensei, have you heard the news about Touya-sensei?" Hikaru was shocked even though it had been several months, but when he heard this name he was startled, especially since the last time they ended up not being so pretty...

“No, why?” Hikaru asked curiously. Tanaka-san smiled wryly as he brought up the weekly Go newspaper which had pictures of several top Go players on the cover, including Tho. Ya Akira too, with the main topic arranged in a long line of letters: “A collection of special interviews with the geniuses of the Japanese Go world!”

Touya cut his hair...

But it wasn't something that Tanaka-san intended to bring up. The old man skillfully revealed his insides. and points out an article that caused Hikaru to freeze.

“Toyahon Inbo and Kusaki Meijin! At first, I thought that this mother was arrogant, but when she was with Master Toya Honginbo, they seemed to get along well. It was strange that they were dating each other. In other words, Hong In Bo is at the right age to get married and have a baby with him.”

Tanaka-san pointed out a picture of Toya Akira and a beautiful woman with long, raven-black hair, Kusaki Aya, who were giving an interview together. One part of the article was written at the end: “Master Toya Hinginbo is the most legendary. with the beautiful and brilliant teacher Meijin Kusaki They look as suitable as the golden branches and jade leaves!”

“He didn't tell his teacher at all?” Tanaka-san asked, bringing Hikaru back to his senses.

"No, we haven't been in contact at all."

“Wow, that's a pity. I guess I'm busy with work, but I'll see you soon. Teacher and Hong In Bo It won't be long before the wedding invitation card arrives.” Tanaka-san sipped her tea loudly before chatting about miscellaneous things and then turned back.

Only the weekly Go newspaper was left as a thorn in Hikaru's heart when he saw Akira's smiling face on the same page as Kusaki Aya.

Married, huh! How crazy are you to say that you love me? How can I get married???

Hikaru was sitting on the balcony. As I stared at the picture on the article page, my eyes nearly dropped!

Before, he still cried to us almost to death. Why did he smile like this? Because of this woman?

“Crazy!”

Hikaru threw the weekly Go newspaper as far as the front of the house. And then he shook his head like every time he was annoyed, without thinking and wondering why he was so dissatisfied like this. No, that dissatisfaction made him call Toya Akira without thinking.

[Hello Shindo]

"You're getting married, Touya."

[Who told you?]

“Everyone knows that.”

Hikaru grew annoyed when there was silence on the other end of the phone.

Why don't you refuse? Why are you quiet? Don't be quiet! If you're quiet, it's like you're accepting it!

“Why are you quiet?”

[Shindou, you called because of this?]

“Then why can't I call!?” Hikaru raised his voice.

[Call Shindo]

“Whoa!!! One word is good, two words are good! Are you really going to marry that mother!!!?”

"Don't be quiet!"

Tell me, tell me you won't marry that girl!

[And if I really get married...............]

[What will you do?]

[Hikaru?]

[Are you crying?]

“K... that's all.”

after hanging up Hikaru's tears slowly fell. Hikaru quickly pulled up his shirt and wiped it, not believing that he was crying for the person he once hated, feared, angered, and was disgusted with, just because....

[And if I really get married...............]

[What will you do?]

...That person is getting married.

Hikaru stared at the phone but there was no sign of the person he was hoping to call again.

Called again to say this was a misunderstanding.

Called again to confirm that he would not be married.

Call again to let them know that you still miss each other.

Called again because... Touya still loves Hikaru.

Thinking like that, Hikaru let out a gasp and it turned out to be him. A person who pushes the other person away willfully would be a fool to still love someone who hurts their feelings and is also spoiled. Can you be selfish and love only yourself like he can? Hikaru looks for the letter that Akira wrote to remove everything. Until it looked like a crumpled envelope that looked like just a small piece of trash lying there.

Hikaru trembled. Shaking hands, he slowly opened the crumpled envelope. Tears flowed down her face as she opened the letter.

I love you

This word is also beautifully inscribed. The letters were organized and written by the person he loved so much. Hikaru held the letter to his chest as if he were hugging his lover. When I realized that it was just fooling myself, the tears didn't stop flowing. A painful scream sounded throughout the house. The inscribed letters were the only evidence that Touya knew.

How much Akira loves him................

“Huh! Ugh! Ah..Aki..ra... Huh... Huh.”

Whoever finds out will feel pity for him who still dares to abandon someone who both loves and is sincere to him and still dares to show his right of ownership....

Want to see your face... The last time was still good.

With that thought, Shindo Hikaru traveled to Tokyo and was now in front of the Touya family house. After ringing the doorbell, Akira's mother, Touya Akiko, opened the door to welcome the guests.

“Oh, Shindou-kun, is that right? You've grown up a lot.” Auntie is still as beautiful as ever, even though she looks a bit older with age. That face wore a gentle smile. Before opening the front door to invite people to come and sit in the house.

"Well... I came to see Touya."

“Are you Akira? Shindou-kun, Mr. Akira moved out to live alone for 5 months now.” Hikaru froze before making a face. I understand now. Something like that

Go out and be alone... Or... going out to be with Kusaki Aya...

“Can I... please tell me the address?”

nevermind

I just want to see your face once...

Only one time

------ Toya Akira's House ------

Hikaru rang the bell. His heart was pounding so hard that he could hear it rushing out of his chest. He clutched his hand tightly to his chest. Many times he was self-centred. Even with Sai, he was self-centered towards Sai until the end. Sai left him and hasn't returned since. Same with Akira. He was self-centered.

Hurting people's feelings is the cruelest thing. He had expected the worst this time. But...if we really have to separate However, he asked to see Akira's face even if it was the last time in his life.

".....Shindo"

Looking at Akira, he was quite shocked as he opened the door to meet an uninvited guest. It was very surprising and like a blessing that gives people who have tight schedules throughout the year a perfect free day like this.

"...Are you...are you alright?" Hikaru didn't know what to say. So asking the most basic question, Akira smiled gently like he had smiled at him in the past. No pain, no suffering. There is only purity and brightness.

"I'm fine. And you?" Akira walked out of the house before opening the door. The atmosphere was like when they were new opponents back in the day, filled with hope, fire burning, and energy full of brightness. But Hikaru waved his hand to stop him.

"No need to. I... only intended to come see you. As soon as I see you I'll be right back," Hikaru said before intending to say goodbye. In his head he only thought:

You can smile like this because your heart has met a good person...

"Anyway, here it is. Come in first. If you want to see me, just stare until you're bored." Akira said and smiled. Hikaru held back tears as hard as he could before accepting the invitation to enter the house.

"Drink some tea first." Akira slowly placed the tea on the guest table. Hikaru took the tea and looked around at the house. This house is decorated in a modern style. It is modern but simple with minimal furniture. Makes you feel at ease. Outside is a beautifully decorated Japanese garden with bamboo pipes and wind chimes, giving the feeling of a home that still has a Japanese feel to it.

"Your house is beautiful," Hikaru complimented.

“Thank you,” Akira smiled, looking around, “I value this house very much.”

I'm giving it importance because I'm going to be with Kusaki Aya...

“Ah... Thank you Chana. I think I'll be right back,” Hikaru said politely, unable to bring himself to sit in the house that Akira was building with someone else.

“Before we leave, how about we play some board games, Shindo?”

“Aren't you afraid you'll lose to me, Touya?”

“I'm already at the level of Hong Inbo and I'm just a Go teacher. I'm not afraid.”

“Don't be so tight-lipped if I don't leave the industry at that time. Your position is definitely mine!”

“This age is already He doesn't accept it.”

“Huh!!!”

“Hahahaha”

Hikaru and Akira feel like they've gone back to when they were teenagers. The game moves along smoothly. In the room that Akira used for playing Go was a beautifully decorated Japanese room. Open the door and go outside to see the garden, the sound of water flowing through the bamboo tubes. No matter how many times you listen to the sound of wind chimes, your heart will be delighted.

“We haven't been ourselves like this in a long time,” Akira said after placing the white betel nuts in place. Hikaru listened and his body became silent. There was only the sound of the wind, bells, and bamboo sticks hitting the stones, as if everything had gone back in time. When I was still determined and had a strong, courageous mind.

And brighten the day when friendship and rivalry that accept each other blossom in the heart...

“We... let's start over...”

“Can I... Akira?”

It was a question they asked knowing that they might not get an answer. Both of them remained silent. Hikaru placed a black betel nut on the intersection of the betel nut's vocal cords as if to confirm what he had just said. The sound of wind chimes jingling loudly and the breeze blowing gently into the room. Hikaru and Akira's hair blew gently. Akira didn't look at Hikaru's face. Place the white betel nuts carefully on the board.

“That is, start over. What do you mean by that?” Akira asked, staring deep into Hikaru's eyes.

“I want us to start over... Everything.” Hikaru tightened his grip on the betel nuts in the jar and placed them on the board with a feeling of overwhelming desire. Akira understood the feelings conveyed through the betel nuts.

"If you win"

Akira placed the betel nut down with determination and determination, the sound of it resonating in Hikaru's mind.

“Ah…” Hikaru looked at the pieces on the board. The hand holding the black piece couldn't help shaking. The black pieces on this board would completely compete for victory.

Hikaru couldn't resist walking. He dropped the betel nuts into the jar. He pursed his lips and tried to hold back the tears, but he couldn't. Hikaru bowed his head. Tears flowed in streams without a sound escaping. It was the most painful crying in my life. He moved his lips slowly.

“Lose...lose and...receive.”

“Thank you.” Akira remained calm and quiet. For the past several months, he had initially been in agony. But once he thought about it, he became shockingly stronger and stronger.

“I...I'll be back soon, Touya.” There was no need to say this indirectly. Hikaru grabbed his backpack and stood up to walk out of the Japanese room without any formality, which made Akira a little annoyed. Because he had not yet said what he wanted to say, his good people tended to turn and run away until it became a habit. Akira walked over and gently grabbed Hikaru's hand.

“That marriage story is not true. People think for themselves.”

What Akira said made Hikaru stop.

“Hikaru, please answer my question.”

"...." Hikaru didn't reply, but seemed to be willing to stand still and listen nicely. Akira shifts from holding hands. It turned into an embrace from behind. The tall figure tightened his embrace until it was completely constricted. Akira buried his face in the other's shoulder and Hikaru dropped his backpack. Both hands moved up to hold Akira's arms, embracing him before leaning his head so he could kiss his lover's beautiful hair longingly.

"If I don't want you to go."

"I'll stay here." Tears streamed down Hikaru's shoulders and down her cheeks.

"If I want you to move in with me."

“I will move in with you.”

"If I want you to be mine."

“I will be yours.”

“Do you love me? Hikaru.”

"I love you... I love you. I love you, Akira."

Hikaru used all his strength to embrace Akira, the two of them hugging each other tightly until they were fused into one. Hikaru buried his face in Akira's shoulder. Akira's shoulders were soaked with so many tears. Akira kissed and kissed Hikaru's hair as if to comfort his little heart and relieve it from pain and hopelessness.

Tanaka-san, an innocent bystander, received heartfelt thanks from Akira for bringing Hikaru back to him when he went to help Hikaru with his fur and gave him the fan he used. along with an autograph for Tanaka-san It was beautifully written in Japanese, "To Mr. Tanaka Keisuke Toyahoninbo," which greatly delighted this lovely old man.

Kusaki Aya became a name that hurt Hikaru's feelings for a while, but after meeting and meeting her, Instead, she found out that she was in a relationship with a guy outside the industry and that eventually made the knot in her heart go away.

Kato wins for the first time after losing in a row. 40 boards since entering Hikaru's Go school

Hikaru moves in with Akira at his house. and travel to teach Go at their school 4 times a week. times per week

Akira must defend his Honinbo title against Akasamejin this coming winter.

The middle school-aged son next door is suspicious that Akira and Hikaru might be a couple.

Love stories are both fulfilled and unrequited. There are both suffering and love stories. and love that is full of happiness Too much love, too little love selfish love A love that has only lies Love someone who owns a love that will never be fulfilled. There are many types of love in this world. and the love of Toya Akira and Shindo Hikaru

It's another form of love. that must overcome obstacles and destroy what is called selfishness and rebuild good love again. There are many couples who cannot come back together. They have to break up and each go their own way, but no matter what. Life must go on. Love is good, but what makes love good is "love to be."

“Fish must be raised in water. If you bring it up Soon it will die no matter how much you love it. There must be a distance from that love.”

"A lover, if you really want it to be your own, you will suffer. Remember this, Akira..."

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“I really want to have a child.”

"Eh"

Hikaru turned to look at Akira, who was now staring blankly at a father playing with his little daughter, causing him to inadvertently say what was on his mind.

"Huh?" Akira turned to look at Hikaru's face, smiling a little and sweating as he hoped his good man wouldn't hear. But this close, how could they not hear it?

"I'm hungry," Hikaru said. Acting as if nothing had happened and still walking at a half normal pace, Akira secretly felt relieved. But the other half felt like there was an atmosphere lingering around.

"I'd like some ramen," Akira offered Hikaru's favorite menu. But the other person shook his head. "Take what you like," Hikaru said. Akira started to feel bad. Normally, Hikaru didn't miss him that much, he just didn't feel any resentment at having to always follow Hikaru because he had followed him for a long time. And I am very happy to do so for the rest of my life.

“Hikaru,” Akira called in a soft and quiet voice, not knowing exactly what his good man was thinking. Hikaru blushed because the voice sounded similar to the voice that called out his name when Aki did. Hugging him brought back flashes of memories that just weren't at the right time.

The image in Hikaru's head turned into a flashback of his and Akira's love activities, causing him to blush from ear to ear.

“Stop talking like that! If you say that again I will kill you!” Hikaru blushed as he shouted loudly throughout the park. and immediately walked away, Akira who was still in a daze. When he saw his red face, he immediately burst into laughter.

In the middle of the night, Hikaru stared at Akira's blissfully sleeping face. His long, thick hair looked disheveled and spread beautifully. His lover, whether awake or asleep, seemed so beautiful that it was surprising that this man chose him as his soul mate.

Of course, Akira has fame, money, and lovers, and can be said to have a perfect life. There was nothing he couldn't deserve based on his words that evening. It made Hikaru think twice...he was a man and couldn't have children. No matter how hard I try, This is the truth.

Hikaru bent down to kiss the tall man's cheek, suppressed this feeling of regret and went back down to sleep next to the man he loved as before.

"Oh Shindou-kun," Akira's father greeted in surprise. When I met Hikaru traveling with Akira.

Today is the opening of the battle for Akira and Takai Meijin's Hinginbo position, who is rumored to be a young Japanese man with great skills, defeating Go players from Korea and China with strategies that are not found in any textbooks. Go with its own playing style and is being watched by the international community

It is considered a battle between the traditional way and the new way that is very interesting to watch.

"hello... Mr. Touya, we haven't seen each other in a long time." Akira laughed a little. Because Akira used a polite way to address his father, who had the same last name. It made me feel like I was being called that too. Hikaru saw that and was so embarrassed that he accidentally leaned on Akira's back like that! This shocked the other's parents, but Akira was still able to laugh.

“Today is the battle that the whole industry has been waiting for, Akira.” Mr. Ogata also came. As he held the hand of his eldest son, he looked cute. who had the opportunity to come watch Go play on the sidelines for the first time

“So cute. Higata-kun, right?” Akira's mother greeted the child, nodding innocently. Hikaru looked at Akira's face and it was clear that his eyes were filled with adoration.

You probably want to have a cute child like that, Akira...

"That's so cute, Higata-kun. It would be great if Mr. Akira gets married and gives mother some cute grandchildren like this." Of course, this matter would inevitably be brought up.

“No, go prepare yourself Akira, this match is very important. You need to concentrate.” Touya Koyo, the father, quickly cut Akira off by saying thank you and saying goodbye to everyone to go get ready. He turned to Hikaru.

"See you later, Hikaru," Hikaru smiled.

“Um, don't lose to him, Hong In Bo.”

“I already won,” Akira smiled, his eyes so warm.

Even though no one noticed, Akira's final words changed. Only Koyo, the father, realized that his son's change of ending from "Shindō" to "Hikaru" had a deeper connection than just being a rival or friend to an old man looking at him. Karu The young man that his child loved more than anything in the world, having been through so much in the world, couldn't help but worry that his wife's words would hurt Hikaru or not.

Don't think too much, Shindo-kun.

“I think we should go to the viewing room, please,” Ogata said, inviting everyone as they walked towards the monitor room that was broadcasting live from the competition room while they were walking. A young man suddenly spoke loudly.

“That's it!” The blue helmeted boy's eyes shone brightly as he looked at Hikaru. before running to find

“Shindo Meijin Shindo Hikaru!!!” Hikaru was shocked because he had been out of the industry for many years and he didn't think anyone would remember him besides the students at the Go school. He is a teacher.

“Master Shindo. Hikaru, right!?” the little boy asked excitedly.

“Ah, that's right.” Hikaru was still shocked but no less happy.

“I'm a big fan of Sensei! I've liked it since I was a kid!”

This one is said to be children. Was it when I was a kid or were you a kid?

“Haha, thank you, but... are you an Insei?” Hikaru asked because looking at the rod unit, it shouldn't be just a kid who likes Go.

"yes! I'm the younger brother of Keisei Meijin, who will be competing with Touya Hon Inbo today!”

Keisei's younger brother?

“But I don't have any paper. I don't know how to get the teacher to sign it,” the little boy said with a regretful expression. Hikaru saw this and smiled.

"You can sign the hat. Do you want it?"

“Here!” The little boy took off his hat and handed it to him along with a pen.

"How should I write it... Let's just say... from Shindo Hikaru... What is your name?”

“Kise... Takai, Kiseha.”

“Overthrow Touya Honinbo!!” Before Hikaru could think of his next words, the boy shouted out with determination. His goal was to take down Touya Honinbo, Japan's current leading Go player. Hikaru looked at the boy's face and laughed with affection.

“You can defeat Touya Honinbo!” Hikaru signed as he finished handing over his hat.

“Whoa!” The young man who came and exclaimed loudly. He looked at the cap as if it were the most precious thing in his life. Hikaru saw this and invited the little boy to the monitor room as well. The little boy nodded.

“It hurts…” Little Kise cries in pain as his older brother loses by only a few points on the monitor. Toya Akira (Hon Inbo) and Takai Keisei (Meijin )bow to each other politely Hikaru then took little Kise out of the monitor room.

“Come on, when I lost to that guy. It hurts like this. No matter who loses to this guy, everyone's heart hurts. Because this guy is so disgusting he's going to die. Haha," Hikaru said jokingly.

"Who's annoying?" Hikaru turned to look. He's really himself...Akira.

“So it's you. You made this child cry.”

"I'm going to take you down. Just watch!" With that, the boy took off his hat and showed Akira Hikaru's signature before running away with tears in his eyes.

"That's Kise-kun, Takaimeijin's younger brother," Hikaru clarified.

“That's cute,” Akira said, making Hikaru think again even though he didn't know what Akira said. Because he thought of the childhood days when the two met when Hikaru announced that he would be Akira's rival.

“Ha...ahh!” Hikaru moved violently on Akira, sweat was all over their bodies. Akira couldn't understand why his good man was so hot today that he was such an activist and devoured his stuff so eagerly. Until he couldn't help but be worried.

"Hika...ah!" When Akira was about to push himself up to hug Hikaru, he was pushed back down by the young man.

“You...ha, stay like that. Ah... I'll... do it myself.”

“But we've already done this too many times, Hikaru!” Akira shouted. causing Hikaru to freeze

"Do you hate me?!" Hikaru shouted.

“I would never hate you but I, ah!” Hikaru started to move again. This time it was so fast and violent that Akira himself couldn't control himself.

"I'm going to give birth... Ugh, your son.”

“Hikaru,” Akira opened his eyes as he saw his lover's suffering face, tears slowly flowing as his body moved inexorably.

“Let it come inside me!” Suddenly, thick, white liquid overflowed into Hikaru for the umpteenth time.

"Hikaru!" Akira answered, leaning up and embracing Hikaru. Coming closer to the hug, Hikaru's body trembled. His thighs were trembling, he could hardly keep his balance because of the many times the tears flowing down his cheeks touched Akira's thick shoulders.

“I...hug, I imagine... When you hold your child You must be the best father in the world, Akira, but... I can't have a child for you!!! Hey.”

Akira's heart ached, he didn't think his lover would think so much about hurting himself to this extent. He also knew that he and Hikaru couldn't have children together. But that didn't matter because if it wasn't Hikaru who was carrying his child, It doesn't matter how many children you have.

"Hikaru wants to have a child with me?" Akira asked.

"Huh... I want to." Hikaru buried his face into Akira's chest.

“I also can't get pregnant. You know that, right?” Akira gently stroked his lover's hair.

“I'm not stupid,” Akira's voice muffled. He rocked his body back and forth for comfort.

“So, should we sponsor a child?”

"But I want to have a child with you," Hikaru refused.

“Me too…” Akira kissed the woman's temple, “I, if I could, I wouldn't mind being pregnant for you. But I'm also a man, so I can't have a child for Hikaru either.”

Akira grabbed him by the upper arm. To make his lover's eyes meet him even though Hikaru seemed to resist at first. But he agreed to look at it positively.

“Darling, God did not make it possible for men to become pregnant. You and I know this. But we don't want anyone else's child besides our own..." Akira said. Hikaru looked away.

"Look at my face, Hikaru."

“I love her and just spending my life with her is good enough for me. Even though she herself wants to have a child with me. I also want to be with you, but I just ask that we accept this fact that it's impossible. We don't have to push it, Hikaru."

"But you want to have a child...I want to see you holding our child," Hikaru whispered.

"But that's impossible." Hikaru looked at Akira's face when he heard this and his face began to wrinkle with regret. Akira smiled and pulled his lover into a hug.

“Cry, cry all you can, or in the next life I will be born as a woman and give birth to you,” Akira said and laughed.

"no! That's my duty... You idiot, oh my!” Akira hugged Hikaru, who cried until he fell asleep on his chest.

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