His only light was taken away. Bad things happened many times. His ruthlessness drove him into a dark circle...from which he could never return forever.

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Once upon a time in the heart

Palm is my name. A very ordinary name with an ordinary personality that is nothing memorable. The status of my house is not rich at all. Moreover, I am still a person who is not good at studying... This makes me not as unique as other people. But even though that was the case, I was still able to carry my own body to study engineering. Computer branch Maybe that's the only pride I have.

Actually, I don't know how I got to this point. When I think back to the past, I studied worse than this. I don't want any more than this. When rooms were arranged based on exam rank, I was always in the last room. I was already used to the number two places behind my year. It is said that when we live with something for a long time, Eventually, you will get used to it and not feel anything.

I lost motivation...no, maybe I didn't actually want it in the first place. I feel like I'm just living day to day. That's enough. So whatever the study will be, whatever it is. Just trying to keep it from being so bad or so low that you can't use it for anything is probably enough.

I always thought that way until it was like a bad habit. That way it's deeply rooted. Until the day I sat in the classroom staring at something idle. The cheers of my friends in the room pierced past my ears. I don't care about anyone. I didn't intend what my friends were doing. No matter what, no one in the room paid any attention to me.

“Hey, have you ever read this book?”

After that, a small conversation Ours started from there. I wore headphones and let time flow by. One day I started to feel like I was interested in the world around me because of the sweet voice that day that asked me. You came into my life little by little. It started with a conversation about books that we seemed to like similarly.

The songs they listen to are exchanged regularly. to favorite dishes or various stories that each other has encountered

I was defeated by her kindness... My heart can't resist the care

Until finally, I myself fell in love with her with all my heart.

I feel like I can't compare to her. A person like me has no right to be beside you. The only thing that would make me feel like I had some value was to try harder. Study to be better than this. I don't know why I tried, but all of the above might be the reason.

'I want to be a better person for you'

That's what I thought to myself. Many of the books I had read were piled up on the table. At lunch break, that woman would sit in the chair across from each other. She tells stories Sometimes all they did was sit and stare at me, who was more diligent in studying. Can I think to myself that this is also because she is an encouragement to me?

She also wants me to focus and make it happen.

Unfortunately, the question I wanted to ask never reached her, even though she was sitting just this distance away. Why does it feel like the harder I try, the further away I seem? So why did you approach someone like me? Why do you care? Why did you agree to talk like this?

“This” is not enough to say that I remember her. Memories of our happy times The moment I tasted falling in love passed faster than my brain could remember all the details. In my head, it was under the school building where the rain was falling. The darkness at that time must have spread and surrounded the atmosphere so much that I couldn't make out her face.

Or not, I just don't want to imagine it. I don't want to know why you walked away.

“I can see your effort,” she said. I looked down at my feet. Listen to the sound of the rain mixed with the words in your distressed voice. It was not easy for me to push myself to improve my exam rank this much and enter a higher ranked class. It's all for you...so that you won't be embarrassed when I'm by your side.

“Oh,” I answered, not daring to turn to look at her. If I wanted to reach out and hold your warm hand, would I be able to? If my cold fingertips touch this, Will she shake it off in disgust? I don't know anything. And because he was afraid, he could only stand and listen to her words and nod his head in acceptance.

“But we can't be together forever.”

Even though I really tried to push myself up to the middle level, why? Because I'm a person who doesn't take anything for granted? Continue to live with me. There wouldn't be a future. So I won't hold you back even if I want to. If more than this If I did more, would she still be with me? I don't know.

Because in the end I could only allow her to walk away. Leaving only warm memories of the times we spent together. Unfortunately, the things we used to do together end up hurting me every time I think about it. But I didn't stop hoping until 3 years later I found out that when she agreed to date me it was because she lost a bet with a friend...

At that time, it was like my world had ended.

I left her behind. It hurts to give such precious feelings to a liar.

Moving from home province to university in Bangkok That makes an already lonely life more difficult than before. Many people tend to stay in dormitories with friends, which gives them time to hang out often. It's different from me who doesn't know anyone else. I wanted to make new friends but because I was from a different country and I felt bad about the relationship that had happened before.

Make me live alone

It might seem like an excuse, but that's just me.

I've always been like this.

It's my fault I don't blame anyone. This feeling of loneliness is terrible. It seems to continually erode my soul. While living life forward Little by little, my heart was consumed by darkness.

University life The second year was no different. If you're asking for things that have changed, it's probably a part of me that's hopeless about everything. Because of my sinking feelings, my grades kept falling. I almost decided to resign and return to work in my hometown.

“The wrapping paper is gone. Just eat this,” the noodle shop owner told me. I nodded without saying anything. I feel uncomfortable inside because I don't want to meet anyone. Eating in a restaurant means I will have to meet people. But since morning nothing has arrived in my stomach. So choosing to reject it probably isn't a good idea.

I leaned into the crowded shop with loud conversations. There's no room at all. I bit my lip, the feeling of embarrassment showing on my face. The owner of the shop then took my bowl of noodles and placed it on a rickety table, which was owned by a petite woman.

I sat down without saying anything. My body was so rigid that I picked up all the condiments and spilled them all. I gritted my teeth, mentally blaming myself for making such a mistake in front of others. while holding up spilled sugar and throwing it away The woman in front of her laughed a little before gently using the paper to clean up the mess on the table.

"I'll help you."

Because I've never talked to women much, no, I usually don't talk to anyone after entering university, so I don't know how to act. If that girl had noticed the palm of my hand She must have clearly seen it tremble.

“Is this your first time eating at a restaurant?” she asked jokingly, throwing away the noodles in the bowl while listening to my answer. I gulped, acting weirder than I expected. But she didn't seem to have anything to do, just waited patiently for my answer and ordered something more to eat. She seemed pleased if we could talk a little longer.

"um"

"My name is Mai. If you're done eating, do you want to go for a walk?"

We knew each other from the noodle tables in ordinary restaurants. What a wonderful conversation happened between us. My nervousness wasn't what made her feel bad. On the contrary, she is happy that she is gradually It has made me accustomed to conversing with new people.

Do the dry noodles in the bowl look like there's too much chili in them?...No. It's half a tablespoon that I used to use. Only, what was different was probably the young woman in the foreground. She tucks her hair into her ear. He reached down and blew on the hot soup and brought it up to his lips. Everything is gentle. It's different from the bright aura that comes out.

I don't know if it's because of the hotness or because of her that makes me shy.

“Keep staring, aren't you eating?” Her beautiful eyes met mine. I gulped. Her annoyed expression made her smile a little and a big smile. It's probably because they had a strange crush on each other. Little by little we started talking after that.

Mai and I walked down a sparsely populated street at night. I bought the fruit smoothie she recommended out of consideration because I don't know how to refuse anyone. But the delicious taste made me smile. And my smile made her feel happy. We exchanged many things together, comfort...her pleasant voice made me slowly

My heart was slowly unlocked I dare to say Dare to answer questions little by little without much difficulty.

“The opposite? Closer than I thought.” I rubbed my chin as I glanced at the shadow of the building that was covered by the darkness until I could only see a faint shadow. The young woman listened to me and nodded in response.

Mai is a small girl. Standing next to each other, she was just as tall as my shoulders. Her long hair was pulled back into a tight ponytail. She looked solemn but couldn't deny that she was cute. But because of the feeling of being alone for a long time, I didn't dare to do or say anything more than general questions.

I walked her all the way to her dorm and before we parted, the girl called my name. The corners of her mouth lifted before her hand moved to wave goodbye to me. I still remember her voice. I still remember that kind gesture always.

“See you later.”

After that, I didn't feel alone anymore. Every morning I have to walk to university. It didn't seem as lonely as it used to. Favorite movie Videos that you like to watch before going to bed or even just simple things. For example, what you ate in the morning was a story exchanged while walking down a busy alley.

Late at night, Auntie's noodle shop is another meeting place. The dry noodles immediately became more delicious when sharing the table with Mai. We are getting closer and closer. I dared to tell her many experiences I had encountered. Laugh at jokes that sound silly to others.

I can feel my heart flutter every time I'm near you. I began to be happy with everything around me because I had you by my side. When I accidentally reached out and wiped the corner of her mouth, Our eyes meeting gave me more confidence.

But I know and am sure that there is no other way.

A worthless loser like me is probably just an acquaintance for you.

But one night Mai then sat and confided in me on the table at our regular noodle shop. I noticed that her food was not as delicious as it used to be. Her hands were on her temples and she was glued to her phone the entire time. Every time we meet up, you're never like this.

“There is no computer repair shop. Where is it open? I'm actually in the city.” She put her phone down on the metal table in surrender. Kicking the noodles with a worried expression. I'm not a person who dares to ask anything if the other person doesn't dare open their mouth. Fortunately, Mai is an open person. She doesn't have to wait for me to speculate and obsess over what's wrong with her. Maybe it's because of this that we can live together.

“Can I fix it for you?”

“Really?” She raised her head with a feeling of hope. I nodded, swallowing the meatballs I was eating. Seeing her smile gave me the strength to hurriedly finish the food in front of me and go get the faulty laptop to repair.

Even though this area is in the heart of the city. But computer repair shops that are open between 2 and 3 a.m. are unlikely to be seen. Luckily, I know how to do these things so it's not a problem. If her symptoms weren't too severe, she would probably be able to bring her laptop back to work before tomorrow.

I walked out, hugging my laptop at my side. He was surprised when he heard footsteps behind him. The young woman packed her things into a small shoulder bag and followed. I stopped, turned around and asked her.

“Are you coming too? If you follow along, other people will misunderstand.”

Mai didn't seem to understand. She tilted her head, the ends of her hair swaying behind her back. Its eyes widened slightly like a curious kitten. I scratched my neck to relieve my embarrassment.

"I'll give you my laptop in the morning."

But Mai smiled widely. She patted her bag as if she had already prepared snacks, although that was not my point. The girl walked closer. Do not follow or lead further. She chose to walk beside me and assured me that she would follow along.

I had her sit in one of the chairs not far away. I myself sat at a table on the edge of the room. There were lined up hardware equipment along with hand tools. She sat and stared at me fixing my laptop. clanking noise It wasn't enough to break the silence and awkwardness. I admit, I was nervous...this was the first time I was alone with a woman in a room.

They're really the same age. How come I'm more flustered than you?

“I've known you for a while, but I haven't seen you with any of your friends.” She caressed her shoulder bag. Gently sweeping your eyes around my ordinary room

“You don't have any friends?”

I stopped, my own palm prying open her laptop. For a while, I tried to act normal and answer her.

“Just want to have friends.” I wiped the inside of her laptop. “But when I first entered the school There's a little matter. I'm not good at socializing, so in the end I have to be alone like this.” I unlocked the back cover and put it back in place. The problem is not as big as you think. It doesn't take long to handle it without difficulty.

“And aren't you lonely?” She waved her feet back and forth. He probably didn't dare look me in the eye when I asked that question.

“Lonely,” I said, just laughing and feeling sorry for myself. “Very lonely.”

“Um...”

“But not now. Because I have you here.” I gently placed the colorful laptop on her lap. Its screen glowed before a familiar background image appeared. The girl looked up at me standing there. Her face lit up with embarrassment. I don't even know what I said at the time.

But it wouldn't be a bad word, right?

I didn't dare ask. Probably because he was afraid of the answer and afraid of his own heart which was beating equally fast. Mai said thank you and went back to her dorm right after.

“If I graduate, I probably want to get a job that earns a lot of money. And live a happy life, that's all."

She told me, we drank coffee from the convenience store this morning before going to university. Let's wake up a bit. Mai told me her dream while walking. It's a normal way of life that I've gotten used to. But I have to admit that it makes my mornings not as boring as before.

“As for me, I have nothing. As long as I'm happy, that's enough.” I really meant it. I like simple life What happiness is there in the little things? I had given up on doing something too big and beyond my means because the pain I had experienced in the past had taught me a lot.

“It's so boring.” She puffed her cheeks at me. “Can't you think of something creative?”

I shook my head and looked up at the sunny sky. He let out a soft breath. I felt a little embarrassed when I said it. But when I think about it, it probably doesn't matter.

“If I have to think about it, there are some. When I was a kid, I wanted to be a hacker who was a hero who wore a mask.”

She laughed fondly, “It is.

White Hat

Is that so?”

“Probably like that.” I turned my head in the other direction. I felt my face heat up.

“When will I grow up? You really are crazy.” She smiled. Even though it was a tease, it didn't disrespect me at all. The way she stared at me was more like a feeling of fondness for a man.

“It's a childhood dream. Sigh... What can I do? I'm not good at studying, my grades are bad, what do I hope for?”

I don't know if it was just me or not when I saw a small smile on my sweet face. She stood blocking the way we were headed. Her eyes had my image reflected in them.

“Then I will tutor you. But there must be a reward for me.”

From that day on, after school we usually met under the university building. She tutored me for exams in order to get credits from other subjects to improve my overall grade for the whole semester. Our tutoring room ended up being moved to my dormitory. The closeness and closeness made the feeling of wanting to be one with each other grow more and more.

The spread out pages of the book no longer seem to be our focus. Her hand rested on my steady palm. His sweet voice spoke softly, as if he wanted only the two of us to hear this sentence.

Even though there was only you and me in my room.

“Do you like me?” the girl whispered. The scent of the perfume she likes to use. A kind voice and soft hands gently caressing my hair. The feeling of being comforted by you is better than anything.

“I like it…” I told her. “I really like it.”

“I already know. I've known for a long time. It's the red broker every time I see him."

I scratched my nose to relieve my embarrassment.

“She is beautiful, cute, and good at studying. Everyone likes her.”

Mai moved closer. She looked closely at my face. Our lips almost touched. From her eyes, just looking at her, I could tell that she wanted something just like me.

“So you want to be my girlfriend?”

Ah...it's such a shame that a woman had to ask before. But it suited her just fine. And I love you so much for being like this.

“I want to, but I don't have anything good. My face isn't handsome at all, I'm terrible at school, have you thought about it well?”

“If you like it, you don't have to use a reason. We're lovers."

Since that day, the two of us have been lovers. For my birthday she gifted me a blue hoodie and a mask with lights on.

LED

Blue, I don't know where she got it from. I didn't even ask, even though I was curious.

“Your hero costume is like what you dreamed of as a child.” She laughed happily when she saw my gaping face. The gift boxes I unwrapped were still scattered in the room. The girl was sprawled out on the bed that had become ours.

“That was when you were a kid.” I shook my head tiredly but folded up my hoodie and put it away. However, it was a valuable gift that she gave. So I will keep it carefully. But I can't walk around wearing this mask...it's a bit ticklish.

“So what name should you use for your hero?” Mai rolled around on the bed in amusement. It looks like the gift she gave me aside from wanting me to be happy, she probably enjoyed it as well.

“Stop making fun of my childhood quirks.” My hand reached out and caressed her cheek. Mai agreed before resting her head on my palm. I smiled softly.

“Nice, please answer.”

I didn't meet her eyes, my face was hot with embarrassment, but I muttered an answer to her.

"Mr. Palm"

Mai picked up a piece of paper not far away and put it on the bed along with a pencil.

“Do you want me to help you set it up?”

A slender hand traced the letters on the paper. Her cute handwriting that I'm familiar with appears to form the words:

PALMER46

I tilted my head at the number. But he didn't have time to ask. Mai hurried to clear her doubts first.

“Palm is my name, but

ER46

What is this?”

“It's from

Computer 

How do you like this? The number is your year of birth. Do you like it?”

I smiled, pressed a kiss to my lips in return, and that was enough to know that we had a deep connection. We are one The desire I couldn't suppress and the complacency I had caused us to fail. After a while our happiness began to fade. When I found out that Mai was pregnant with our child.

Mai kept crying when the test results came out. I kept trying to contact her after she closed herself off from me. When she agreed to come to my room, I realized that she had slimmed down quite a bit. Her face looked pale and pale, and the eyes that once represented Mai's brightness had become very dull. I embraced her as soon as I met her.

Because I myself was a part of the cause of her future being ruined. She probably cried a lot because she had to leave the university. Let's raise our children. I spent that day comforting her. I remember cradling her in our little bed and letting her cry on my shoulder for a long time. I rubbed her back.

Until finally deciding what to do That was probably the best solution, at least Mai wouldn't have to face this terrible thing alone.

“After our child was born I will be responsible for taking care of it myself. She will be able to continue her studies as she should. This is all because of me…”

I really couldn't hold back my tears. I don't know if she noticed it or not. Tears flowed down my cheeks because of this overwhelming feeling of guilt. I kissed her hair. He held her in his arms, at least she would be safe here.

Our hands held together slowly loosen over time The sobbing that had been loud for hours slowly began to subside. Mai raised her head and smiled at me. Although her smile wasn't as bright as before, it was better than it had been in the beginning. I kissed her gently

“Thank you so much…” She fell into my chest again. Listen carefully to the sound of your heartbeat. Her voice still trembled. I can't help but feel sorry for him. “But I won't leave you. Shall we change the atmosphere and go take a walk outside?”

I glanced at the clock sitting on the nightstand. The clock hands continue to move. There are only us who are still stuck in our sorrow. Rejecting her request and staying in your room won't help. At the end of this alley there is a convenience store open twenty-four hours. It would be nice to go buy her some of her favorite things.

I helped her up. She wore her favorite sweater without thinking that it would be the final night that would change our lives forever.

The cold wind of the season blows along the way we walk. The dim light in the alley combined with the silence made it seem even more lonely than before. Luckily, at least I wasn't alone. I still have mine by my side. After we walked around and changed the atmosphere for a bit, we stopped in to buy some food from a convenience store to eat.

In her hand were various snacks and food. A soft smile on your cheek. Her things have brought some relief to my aching heart. I held her hand tightly and didn't let go, as if it was a sign that no matter what happened, we would never leave each other's side.

“What are you doing around here so late?” a hostile voice sounded from someone. We looked away from each other and turned to look at a lamp post. When I first walked past, I didn't even see them, but on the way back, they probably just came back from the pub, I don't know. "Wow, there's a pretty girl."

Five thugs emerged from the dark corners and surrounded us. Mai moved closer. She crushed her smaller body into mine. But that wasn't enough to stop their eyes from licking her. I put my hand in front of it. Trying to keep your voice from shaking with fear as well.

I'm not a very big person myself. If they intend to attack me, It wouldn't take long for them to pass out at their feet.

“We came for a walk. I'm about to return to the dormitory."

I replied politely. Ignore the last sentence that they teased me about.

“This area is our area. How dare you, kid?”

I clenched my fists. This area is really the alley that we walk on every day. How dare you say that it's your own country? I bite my lip. He lowered his head in surrender because he didn't want his girlfriend to be in danger. If they wanted me to bow down in exchange for the life of my lover, I would accept it.

"Sorry, I'll go right away. I'm really sorry."

I dragged My body behind me. Looking at the face of one of the gangsters, he knew that his father was an influential person. If I interfere No matter what case happened, in the end they would still survive. As I thought that, my body was sent flying by the force of the surge. Two men seized me. Slammed into the concrete floor. The other three headed towards the woman who was standing trembling.

The stories of that night were like a nightmare that was buried deep in my sleep. It is an image that haunts me in my waking hours. Her screams still ring in my ears. I remember the feeling in my throat screaming out a request...I'm not afraid of death. I am not afraid of the pain if they hurt me. But I was terrified to see her tortured like that.

Her body had been brutally invaded by them. I reached out and tried to reach her, but in the end I could only struggle under their feet. The girl who owns my heart is focused only on me. Tears streamed down her face until her once bright eyes finally disappeared into nothing more than emptiness.

It was as if the beautiful stars had faded from the sky. It was like every feeling I had in the world had disappeared. All that remains is anger and revenge. I don't know how many tears have flowed. We begged her to set us free until death finally took her from me.

while arguing over who was right and who was wrong I gathered up all the feelings of anger I had and directed myself towards the man in front of me. I saw the pocket knife that he had tucked into his waist. The only weapon that should be able to release all the repressed things.

Unfortunately I don't remember all the details. I used the sharp blade to slash across its body. The throat that used to scream laughter and disdain was completely destroyed by me. I don't know where I got the strength to take down that gang of thugs.

No matter how much they try to attack me No matter how damaged my body is In the end, the one who stood up has always been me. Red and fishy blood splattered everywhere. Their leader was crawling on the ground because his leg had been stabbed by me. My head, which had been hit violently, was dripping with blood. But...I still stand firm.

Standing to hear the cries for life in the final seconds

Standing up to be the one who takes the life of the bastard who mercilessly took you away from me.

Stand up so that... you can hold the lifeless body of your lover.

Sequel: Dawn of Vengeance

from an ordinary young boy To become the ultimate killer in the future

This is the starting point.

Low Class Universe

 (PALMER46 Origins Part 1)

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