“Is it a good idea to stay?”

The words of a young woman who spoke in a trembling voice She has long, dark black hair. Small body, charming face And she sat in the corner of the room until morning . . . 16/10/2021

“Sweetheart! Are you awake yet?”

"Huh...wake up." Sweetheart's voice was sleepy because she had just woken up from sleep.

The voice of a young woman of the same age Wake up your sweetheart in the morning, who is none other than that. It's the sweet twins of this one and only sweetheart.

“What did you study in your first period today?”

“Studying about society from Teacher Somsri. I haven't done the homework I ordered yet.”

"Go take a shower and brush your teeth. You'll smell bad."

“Yes, Khun Chuen,” Sweetheart said in a long voice, getting up to continue with her routine.

It is a sweet and sweet daily routine conversation that is pretty much the same each day. Sweet and sweet love each other very much and are each other's closest people.

“Finished taking a shower, has class started yet?” asked a sweetheart who had just come out of the bathroom.

“Let's start with the first period of the presentation. Please take it easy.”

“Okay,” Sweetheart said in a soft whisper, as if wanting to tease the other person.

“Duengdueng…”

“After class, let's go down and eat breakfast, son.”

Message from mother who told his daughter to come eat after the meal break

The sweetheart received the message and entered the school.

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of the school due to the COVID-19 situation that doesn't seem to get better at all, which makes sweetheart Where studies are normally not good, they are even more deteriorating. But studying online like this rarely has friends to talk to. So everyone uses the application.

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in talking and playing while studying Of course, sweethearts use it too. Having to sit and study alone must be very tiring. Sweetheart has a large group of friends. But really take it in. I'm not very close to anyone in particular.

"Tight" sound entering the application

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that my sweetheart must go to study

“Ah, OK. Today the teacher will let the students watch the news that just came out. that a famous businessman had defrauded the company of millions of baht Have students write a summary of the news and ideas for the teacher. What do you think?"

The sweetheart's expression began to look tense due to the work the teacher had given her. My sweetheart clicked into the application.

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to go talk to friends, but suddenly everyone in the room before was talking happily about the person who cheated the company. But when my sweetheart came in, everyone was quiet. The reason is because the person in the news is the sweetheart's father...

“Ah, it's time to rest. It's refreshing! Let's go down and eat.” Sweetheart really wanted to go down to eat, but the stress from the incident just now made Sweetheart think a little more.

“Let's go together.”

Sweet and sweet, he went down to his mother, very hungry for breakfast. Because when I wake up I have to study. Otherwise, you won't make it in time for the first period.

My sweet and sweet mother's name is Mae Noon. She is a very kind person. Around 40 years old I am a sensitive and sincere person. They both loved her mother very much. Unlike their father, who rarely had time to spend with his family. Because I have to work to support my family and the news these days is very popular, it makes time to meet my family even less.

“Mom, have you seen the news lately?” Sweetheart asked her mother in a slightly stammering voice.

“Praeng!” The glass in Mother's hand fell to the ground and shattered into fragments.

“Huh..I saw it, I saw it.” Mother's voice was short, like she was crying and suppressed in her heart.

“Since the incident happened, father has rarely talked to mother about problems. I didn't even call.” Mom started crying harder and harder.

“Jai, take Mom up to the room first, then we'll talk.”

Sweet and sweet, he gently lifted his weeping mother to bed in the room. When we got to the bed, Mom fell asleep, like at night she was so worried about Dad that she couldn't sleep.

"You go study. I'll clean up the mess myself."

Sweetheart nodded and went into the room to wait for the next class. Sweetheart is very confused because things are not going well right now.

“Meow” Cookie's voice Or the cat your sweetheart keeps in the room. Cookie snuggled up to his sweetheart's legs with such cuteness.

“Are you awake, Cookie? Come here.” Sweetheart happily picked up Cookie and played with him.

“Creak…”

"Mom is okay now." Wanchuen entered the room and told his sweetheart about the situation.

“Um, okay,” Sweetheart said in a quieter voice than usual.

Previously, my sweetheart was a very friendly person. There are a lot of acquaintances to talk to, which is a good thing. But there are always two sides to a coin. When your sweetheart gets to know a lot of people, it's easy to gossip about your father, which is in the news right now. And the thing that my sweetheart is not very happy about is that she studies art-

The language is sweet and sweet. Studying science and math causes people to compare. Whether it be acquaintances, friends or relatives The only person who understands my sweetheart is Wan Chuen. The only person who understands how my sweetheart feels and always stays by each other's side.

“Sweetheart”

"How is it going"

“Have you been acting strange lately?” Wanchuen asked with a worried expression on his face.

“No, I'm just a little stressed. It's about studying."

“It's not just about studying, right?”

“Don't pay attention to those words. Do they know what we are like? The people who understand us the most are us. Don't care about those useless words, okay?”

“Okay, thank you..” . . . .8/5/2021

“Alright, today the teacher will take the students to learn about psychological diseases. Don't forget to write down a summary. Because it will be on the final exam.”

The next several days were the same, with only the weather changing. Today, my sweetheart learned about psychological diseases. Sweetheart felt curious about how people with these diseases feel.

“The additional work that teachers will give students is schizophrenia or

Schizophrenia

That's it, since the teacher's session will end, I'd like to ask you all to give additional information. The students saluted.” The class ended with the assigned work again.

"Oh, I don't want to do it at all, but it's homework. I'm in school. Mom must be really stressed out."

Sweetheart searched for its meaning for a long time.

'Symptom onset period For the most part, the change will be gradual. Often have problems in duties and responsibilities or relationships Studying or working Relatives or close people often see that the patient has changed and is not the same person.'

“Very strange,” my sweetheart said.

“What is it?” asked the sweetheart sitting next to him.

“The teacher told me to find the meaning of schizophrenia, so I tried to look it up. It's so scary." Sweetheart searched with interest.

'Later on, the symptoms relapsed. Often there are delusions, hallucinations, and behavior that changes greatly from before. Expressing emotions is inappropriate'

“Jai, today I finished school early. Shall we go to a cafe? “Sweetly invites your sweetheart to travel together. Because I haven't left the house in months.

“Go, I really want to eat a latte shake. It's missing."

“Mom, me and Jai are going out to a cafe for a while,” Wanchuen shouted to her before leaving the house.

Wanchuen left the house and noticed something unusual. That is, the sweetheart acted very slowly, whether she put on her shoes or opened the door. And it looks strange from before because the sweetheart is quite active most of the time.

“Jai, is something wrong with you? So slow?” Wanchuen asked with a strange feeling.

“I just feel a little tired. It's really no problem," Sweetheart replied with a sheepish smile on his face.

Wanchuen felt that his sweetheart had changed a little but was not too bothered.

“Are you feeling better these days?” my sweetheart asked.

“What do you mean?” Sweetheart asked.

“It's your heart disease. How are you these days?”

“Oh, I'm fine, a lot better than before, but I've never missed taking this medicine.

Wanchuen has had heart disease since birth along with her sweetheart. But luckily my sweetheart didn't.

"Take care of yourself. You don't have to worry about me too much."

"Khun Jai"

Actually, Sweetheart has many things that he would like to discuss with Sweetheart, but since Sweetheart is also worried about Sweetheart, he doesn't really want to make Sweetheart stress about himself too much.

"Come on, let's go home. It's getting cold." He invited him to go home.

“Ah, okay.”

“Can you promise me something?” Wanchuen said in a pleading tone. and raised his little finger

“What?”

“No matter what happens We have to be together all the time."

“Of course it is.”

The two were involved and promised that they would always be by each other's side. No matter how bad the story is. . .31 /5/2021

“Duh, duh, duh..”

“Hello?”

“Sweetheart, this is Teacher.”

"Oh, did you call me for something wrong?"

“Well, you haven't been submitting work lately. The work that was kept from the beginning was not submitted. Each teacher has made a complaint.

In any case, check your own neatness. This is just art-language. Look at your twin, everything is complete, but that's okay. If you have anything, you can consult with the teacher."

"Okay, Teacher Wanpen."

“Duh...”

Teacher Wanpen, who is my sweetheart's homeroom teacher, called to ask about submitting work. and studying that my sweetheart neglected My sweetheart thought about paying attention, but was shocked and said, "It's okay."

“Oh, is that okay? What does that mean? Comparing others and saying it's okay is crazy."

Sweetheart can only sit and think. Lie down and think like that over and over for a long time, from morning until evening. Instead of Saturday being a day off for clearing work.

But my sweetheart spends his time just sitting still in the room and thinking about the words "It's okay."

“Jai, don't you think about going out to get something to eat? Didn't get out of bed today." It was sweet to see my twin lying in a pile of blankets all day. He came into the room and complained to me to find something to do.

“I feel strange, I don't know. It's like weighing it.." My sweetheart wanted to say it but suddenly thought of it. That sweetness probably has enough to think about.

“Tell me what's wrong with you. Why keep it to yourself?” Wanchuen felt a little annoyed when he saw that someone close to him had something and didn't tell him.

"Tell me there's nothing." His sweet voice started to get louder and louder.

“If you don't tell me, will it get better? Please think about it." Sweetheart was beginning to feel annoyed.

“I said there was nothing!” Sweetheart's voice shouted loudly throughout the house, making everyone in front of him completely silent.

"Oh..Okay, let's follow you." Wanchuen held back tears and slowly walked out of the room.

“What's the matter, sweetheart?” The mother heard the yelling and hurried up to see what was going on.

"I fought with my sweetheart..for a little bit." Her sweet voice was sobbing all the time.

“Mom, I don't think so. Come and wash before you go.” Mom was very worried about the couple so she went to go find her sweetheart and talk.

"Eeeek.. what's the matter, child?" Mother entered the room and asked the sweetheart who was on the bed.

“I'm fine,” my sweetheart said in a cold voice, as if he didn't care about anyone's feelings.

“What are you arguing about?” Mom asked worriedly.

“Mom, you don't have to worry about us. I still can't handle the matter of my parents.”

Mother heard those words and was silent and didn't say anything. Then slowly walked out of the room…

During this time, Mom and Wanchuen themselves could feel that their sweetheart had changed, whether in terms of behavior. Emotions and many other things like From before, Sweetheart and Mother, whenever they had free time, the three of them would watch movies together in front of the house. But now that Sweetheart has stayed in her room, she doesn't talk much to anyone.

When I asked, I said that being tired seemed like my sweetheart's only excuse...

“Eiad” No matter how late at night, Sweetheart must come and sleep with her sweetheart. It's good that the bed is a bunk bed so there is no problem with using space.

“Are you asleep yet?” Wanchuen came to stand in front of my sweetheart on the bed and greeted my sweetheart to check that the person in front of me was asleep.

“Still, what's wrong?” His sweet voice was still as cold as ever.

“Well, I don't want to argue. But if you have something, please tell me. You don't have to think about how I am, I'm fine." Sweetly let out what was in his heart.

“If I just say it, you won't understand. Are you tired?" Sweetheart started to sit up.

"Why would you think for me? You know, I won't understand."

“I'm tired. Watching each day, I get gossiped about my father. It's not enough. I have to go through something, I don't know. Today the teacher called to criticize me about my work and compared me to him again and said it was okay. How must I feel.." Before my sweetheart could finish speaking sweetly, he gently hugged the sweetheart in his chest.

"That's enough. You've had enough. If you're tired, go lie down and rest. Don't force it."

"..." Then the sweetheart's tears slowly flowed down and she hugged the other person tightly.

“I'm sorry I said something. I feel like I'm not quite myself. I'm sorry," Sweetheart said, sobbing.

“I know. It's okay. Just lie down and rest. Tomorrow morning, I'll go apologize to my mother."

“Oh..ok.”

In the end, no matter what, both of them are the people who understand each other the most. . .19/6/2021

After the events of that day, my sweetheart became more reserved. He said very little to the point of making family members worried.

“Jai, can you go down and eat?” Sweetheart asked his sweetheart to go down and eat.

“Ah, okay.”

When I reached the dining table On the table, there were only food that my sweetheart liked. Sweetheart felt happy after seeing her favorite food on the table ready to eat.

“Today, Mom made all of my sweetheart's favorite things,” Mom said with pride.

“Thank you, Mom.” Sweetheart's face began to smile naturally. Then suddenly an unexpected thing happened.

'Oh, look at me, how do I act to make other people worry so much that I have to cook the food I like all by myself? How selfish.'

A mysterious voice suddenly appeared from nowhere. Sweetheart was startled by the sound and began to search for the source of the sound.

“Who said this?” Sweetheart began to feel worried.

"Jai, what's wrong?" Wanchuen tried to reach out and grab her sweetheart's arm.

“Scream!!” My sweetheart screamed out as if he was afraid of something. Sweetheart covered her ears with both hands, but the sound kept coming.

'Look at what you've done. Look at your mother. Is he disappointed in you?'

"go out! Tell me to get out!” Sweetheart started shouting and crying more and more.

“Jai, Jai, that's enough, Jai,” Wanchuen tried to stop his sweetheart and took his sweetheart to the bedroom.

“You calm down, you calm down, breathe slowly, slowly.” Sweetheart tried to collect his thoughts and hugged her sweetly tightly.

After that, Mom and Wan Chuen took their sweetheart to sleep in the room. Then they both sat back and talked at the dining table.

“Mom, do you think something is wrong with your sweetheart?” Wanchuen tried to consult with her mother.

“Mom, I don't know either, since childhood my sweetheart has never been like this before. I'm so confused.” Mother's voice shook like she was about to cry.

“It's nice that we tried taking our sweetheart. Is the hospital good? Try checking it out. You can check anything. In case it makes your sweetheart feel better, maybe." Wanchuen tried to find the best solution.

"Okay, we'll go tomorrow. Mom will drive us."

The next day, my sweetheart didn't object to going to the hospital, but felt very strange that I was suddenly asked to go to the hospital even though I wasn't sick or hot at all.

"We're going to the psychiatry department, sweetheart. I've already talked to Wanchuen," Mom spoke up to tell me the information.

“Huh, what?” Sweetheart immediately felt aroused.

“This is what Mother and Chuen will say. Sweetheart, are you crazy?” Sweetheart began to speak loudly.

“Jai, please calm down first,” Wanchuen said, asking Sweetheart to calm down because her mother was driving.

“What are you so calm about? Are you saying I'm crazy? What are you thinking about? Am I mentally ill? I have to go.” Sweetheart was still very annoyed.

'Everyone is in trouble because of you.'

The voice in my sweetheart's head rose again. My sweetheart heard this and immediately became quiet, but my sweetheart wasn't panicking about the sound anymore because at night this sound probably came quite often.

“I understand how you feel. But I think that if you try talking to the doctor a little, it might get better. Mom and I are worried about you.”

"Oh, okay, try it." Her sweetheart's voice sounded annoyed, but her sweetheart began to calm down.

"We're here, let's go," Wanchuen said, clutching her sweetheart's hand tightly.

During the walk, it was accurate. Walking into the hospital first, Wanchuen noticed that her mother's hands were shaking all the time, as if she was very worried about her sweetheart.

"What's wrong with you, Mom?" he asked sweetly.

"Mom, I'm fine. Just recently, I have a slight headache," Mom replied, massaging her temples.

“Please take good care of yourself. I'm worried." Sweetheart's expression was very worried for both her mother and her sweetheart.

“Yes, I love you both very much.” Mother turned to tell both of her children that she loved them and then continued walking.

“Hello, have you made an appointment?” the friendly employee greeted in a friendly manner.

"I'm about to bring someone in for a mental health check," Mother Noon talked to the employee.

“Oh, OK. Then fill out this form and sit and wait. We will call you to see a doctor.

Sweetheart received a form for me to write with all the boxes ticked. It took a while to complete. Then the employee called my sweetheart to see a doctor immediately after finishing. Sweetheart agreed with Mom and Wanchuen that Sweetheart would go in and talk alone for privacy.

“Hello, sweetheart, right?” said the voice of the doctor who was coming to talk to his sweetheart.

“Oh, hello!” Sweetheart was shocked by what she saw.

The female doctor was around 26-27 years old. Beautiful face, clear, white skin It's different from the picture that the sweetheart thought that she would meet Uncle Doctor Sak again.

"I'm Doctor Fueangfah Khamfu. You can call me P'fah, I don't mind." P'fah talked and introduced himself in a friendly manner, causing the sweetheart who was tense when entering the room to begin to relax a bit.

“Yes, my name is Sweetheart. Nice to meet you.” Sweetheart spoke like a robot, nothing wrong.

“P'Fah, looking at the form that Nong Wan Jai has filled out, it's enough to make a diagnosis. But let's talk a little more, shall we?"

“That's fine.” My sweetheart felt suspicious all the time, thinking about whether this person was too kind to the point of speaking unnaturally.

“Sister Fa, would you like this little sweetheart to tell me about anything that happened in the past? Just take the stories that your sweetheart is comfortable telling.”

My sweetheart told me about the strange incident. But there are some details that my sweetheart hasn't told. Because I'm still suspicious of this doctor. After talking for a while P'Fah was able to confidently diagnose it.

“P'Fah says Nong is sweetheart. It must be schizophrenia.”

The questions kept coming into my sweetheart's head, causing confusion to the point where I couldn't put it into words. I just sat there frozen, feeling confused and sad at the same time.

“Please come in with your mother and the younger twins,” P'Fah told the staff to invite his mother in.

“Sweetheart, I know it's something that's difficult to accept, but you have to believe what I'm saying. I'll give you medicine in 2 weeks. Let's talk, okay? Now go wait outside. I'd like to talk to Mom for a moment."

Sweetheart didn't say anything. I could only make my eyes wander. Went outside to sit and wait for Mom and her sweet feelings in the vastness of space.

'Oh, look at this little child, how pathetic. Who will go near a crazy person?'

The voice in my sweetheart's head came again. Sweetheart knew the reason for what that sound was. Because he himself had searched on the internet about schizophrenia.

“Wow, I really never thought it would turn out like this.”

“Hurry up, hurry up, hurry up!” came the voices of several nurses and emergency beds into the room where my sweetheart had just come out a few minutes ago.

Sweetheart went to look, confused. It appeared that the person she loved the most was lying on the ground. With blood all over his head

It's not anyone but...

“Mother!”. . . . 30/6/2021

“Right now we can't tell you what's wrong with your mother,” the nurse said about the situation after Sweetheart and Wanchuen's mother had previously fallen to the floor and entered the room. ICU

“Okay, we'll sit and wait,” Wanchuen said, worried about her mother and anxiously waiting for the nurse to come and inform her of the news. While my sweetheart didn't say anything. I keep blaming myself for having to make my mother like this. If I hadn't come to the hospital, my mother would have been fine.

“Sweetheart, I already know what Brother Fa told you. You can go home and get some sleep. I'll take care of this right here. I'll send a message to you, okay?" Wanchuen said as he handed the medicine in his hand to his sweetheart. To want my sweetheart to go home and rest first.

"Um.." Sweetheart hardly responded at all. It seems like he's still in shock from that event.

On the way home, my sweetheart felt suspicious about everything. Even the people who were chatting with their sweetheart thought that there was someone talking about her.

'For whom did mother enter the hospital? He didn't feel any remorse so he just walked home. The voice in his head was always irritating his sweetheart, and his sweetheart put up with it because he knew it wasn't real. But with a situation like this, who can endure it?

“Oh, be quiet,” Sweetheart said to herself loudly on the side of the road, causing everyone in the area to turn and look at Sweetheart.

“Is something wrong?” A deep male voice sounded from somewhere. He spoke up and put his hand on his arm. While my sweetheart bent over and held his knees.

"Where is home? Is something wrong? Do you want me to send you a ride?" My sweetheart felt insecure with this man because he suddenly came to help like this. It makes my sweetheart feel strange.

"Don't be afraid of me. I've also been there. I understand that sound is very annoying."

As soon as my sweetheart heard that sentence, the suspicion began to decrease by one level. Sweetheart slowly picked up her mobile phone and showed the man the location of her house.

“Thank you for letting me help you in the same way I was going.”

Sweetheart didn't say anything. Then I followed the man with my head bowed the entire time, so I couldn't see his face, but I still remembered the way home that the man had sent me, so I could trust that I was safe.

"Thank you." Sweetheart's voice stuttered because she still didn't act right when someone came to help.

"nevermind If you have anything I can help with, you can come to me. My house is two houses away,” the man in front said, pointing to the right side. And that's when my sweetheart raised her head to look at him intently, his tall figure. He was a big man, about 25 years old, with tan skin, black eyes, and most importantly, very handsome.

"My name is Sana. Nice to meet you."

"Yes..My name is sweetheart. Nice to meet you."

“It's a cute name.”

“Thank you..” Sweetheart blushed a little.

“I won't bother you anymore. See you next time." Sunla and her sweetheart immediately walked towards his house.

“Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu”

Sweetheart: Mom is safe now. My mother had a cerebral hemorrhage because of shock.

Sweetheart could only look at the message and didn't type anything in response. After that, Sweetheart walked in and lay down like a walking corpse. Of course, the sound didn't go away at all, but my sweetheart was trying to adjust to it. My sweetheart felt uncomfortable and shocked that she had schizophrenia, so she went to search on the internet again.

'Delusions are symptoms of feeling suspicious about everything and believing things that are wrong even though the truth is not, or feeling that there are only people talking about it, such as seeing people talking and thinking that they are talking about themselves. When you see the news on TV, you think you're in the news.'

My sweetheart searched for a while and then took the time to accept it, took some medicine and went to bed.

"Jai, I'm back." A sweet voice entered the room, looking for me in the middle of the night.

"Are you back now? How is your mother?" Sweetheart asked sweetly.

“The doctor said he's still in a coma. The cause must be shock or something. It's likely that he'll be unconscious for a long time." Wanchuen said, feeling dizzy.

“I'm sorry,” Sweetheart apologized and stood up.

“Why are you apologizing?” Wanchuen said as he sat down on the bed next to his sweetheart.

“Well, if I didn't have this crazy disease, Mom wouldn't actually go to the hospital, right?”

“Listen to me, the cause is mostly chemicals in the brain. No one can choose. Don't think too much.” Wanchuen held her hand tightly and found that her hand was trembling very much.

“I'm afraid. I'm afraid of the sound. I'm afraid people will hurt me. I'm scared of everything.." Sweetheart's voice was frightened and she cried out.

"It's okay. I'll stay with you. You're not alone." Wanchan rubbed his hand all the way to his head and back to comfort and encourage the person next to him.

“Meow!” Cookie jumped up and landed on her sweetheart's lap.

“Did you see that you still have these cookies? Don't cry," Wanchuen said consolingly, saying that at least there were still little cat cookies.

Sweetheart rubbed the little cat's head with Cookie. It really made my sweetheart feel calmer. My sweetheart always thinks that from now on it will definitely get better, maybe. . .1/7/2021

"Wanchuen, go and hurry back." Sweetheart bids farewell to Wanchuen because Wanchuen has to go see her mother at the hospital. Sweetheart isn't okay with going out at all. Because during this time, she herself was not able to survive as well.

“Being a cat, you don't have to stress too much, Cookie.” Sweetheart sat down on the floor and talked with the cat to drown out the ringing in her ears.

“Ring!” The sound of the doorbell ringing.

My sweetheart doesn't really want to go and see who it is. But the sweetheart had to change himself for the better, so he mustered up the courage to go out and see that it was the person in front of her house.

"father?"

"W..What do you say, sweetheart?"

“Pak,” my sweetheart, closed the door as soon as he saw him turn his back to the door and breathe heavily. Questions and fears plague your sweetheart.

“I know you don't want to talk to your father like this, but today, I know that your mother is in the hospital, so I want to give this to the family. Dad will put it in front of the house. When dad goes, come out and get it. Goodbye, sweetheart.” Sweetheart's father finished speaking and immediately walked away. Sweetheart sat and thought for a while and calmed himself and opened the door.

It was found that there was a black bag in front of the door. The sweetheart opened it and saw that it was more than tens of thousands of baht in cash. The sweetheart took it in and closed the door and put the money on the table, waiting for the sweetheart to come back and then consult.

Today my sweetheart feels worse than every day because of the father who never came out to look for him. Appearing in front of my own house when many things were happening. My sweetheart felt like her head was about to explode. I hear voices in my head talking all the time.

“I want to go crazy,” my sweetheart said and the whole house screamed. To let out his feelings, he walked into his room and lay down with his blanket wrapped around him as usual. My sweetheart's condition is now extremely poor, whether mentally or physically. Sweetheart doesn't shower. Dress nicely. Sweetheart lets herself go a lot. Wanchuen often tries to tell his sweetheart what to do, but his sweetheart is distraught about what Wanchuen is trying to help.

“Jingle, jingle,” the doorbell sounded as usual.

“Whoa, who's here again?” Sweetheart's expression changed from fear to annoyance and excitement.

“Hello, sweetheart.”

“S..San?”

“We just made some snacks for you. Do you want them?”

“Oh, thank you. Uh.. come inside first.”

"Is it good?" San said in a considerate voice.

“Okay, if it's you, I'm fine. Come in first.”

The sweetheart invited Sun, a handsome young man, into the house and served water according to the ceremony until after everything was finished, the couple sat and talked.

“How are you these days? Sweetheart,” Sun opened the question line first.

“Just so and so, there isn't much at all. Ha,” Sweetheart tried to look as normal as possible.

“You don't have to force it. Sun knows how difficult it is these days. You don't have to force it, it's okay." Sun always seemed to know his sweetheart.

“It's not very good. I hear the sound all the time. I'm scared," Sweetheart said while hugging her knees.

“But it's good that we didn't hallucinate at all. The condition isn't too bad yet," Sweetheart said, as if consoling himself.

"Are you sure you've never seen it?"

“Uh..sure.” Sweetheart nodded.

Sweetheart had fun talking with Sun. At least it made him a lot less distracted.

“'Then let's go back. Bye bye sweetheart.”

“Come home safely, Sun.”

“What the hell is wrong with going back? Our house is just around the corner, haha,” Sun said, smiling.

They both said goodbye to each other. Then my sweetheart received a call from my mobile phone. It's the number of a stranger who doesn't know anyone.

“Hello?”

“Yes, your twin is sweet, right?”

“Yes, is there something wrong?”

"is..."

The picture cuts to the hospital where Mother is.

“Chun, is something wrong?” My sweetheart, who just found out about this, rushed to the hospital.

“I don't mind. Can you come outside alone?”

“Let's weigh it. Are you feeling well?..”

“Ttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt” sounded

“Sir, please allow me to leave first.”

The sweetheart came out and sat outside the room waiting with worries in her heart. The sweetheart felt very stressed right now because the mother was in a coma with no time to wake up. Moreover, sweetheart's heart disease had worsened, begging her not to let anything happen.

“Sweetheart,” the middle-aged doctor's voice called out to his sweetheart.

“How are the twins, Doctor?” Sweetheart asked with concern.

“You may have to come to terms with it. That is, right now, if there is still no one to donate a heart to your twin, I have been able to stay for less than two months.” . . 26/7/2021 .

It's been almost two months now and my sweetheart still can't accept the fact that the person she loves the most will leave. My sweetheart hasn't left the house since that day. My sweetheart's condition was like an unconscious person walking around. Even the therapy that P'Fah had scheduled had not yet gone.

“Puck, puck, puck.”

“Sweetheart, we have heard about the delicious dessert. Please open the door. Sweetheart, open the door.”

Sweetheart ignored Sun's attempts to enter until Sun was able to enter the house.

“Sweetheart, what is going on?” Sweetheart's living conditions are very dirty. There is a musty smell everywhere.

“Sweetheart, the past must have been really bad.” Sun walked up to his sweetheart and grabbed him.

“Sweetheart, listen to Sun. Sweetheart doesn't want this. Wan Chuen wants my sweetheart to stay with me. My sweetheart can't come here alone.”

When my sweetheart heard that, he was reminded of his past with sweetheart.

'We made a promise to each other. No matter how bad it gets, we'll be together.' Sweetheart thought of this, so he gathered his courage and courage to go see Sweetheart at the hospital.

“Wan Chuen!” My sweetheart shouted out to Wan Chuen, missing her.

“Oh, sweetheart has arrived? Are you getting better? Are you worried about your bad situation?” Sweetheart's voice was very soft and faint.

“I have come to see you. You're not going anywhere, right?" Sweetheart held the hand of the person in front of him tightly.

“You can't stop anything. Anyway, I have to go, but don't forget that you're not alone. I love you even though I'm not here. Please take good care of yourself. Good luck, sweetheart..”

“Teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee”

"No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, I don't want this, I'm very happy." Sweetheart cried very hard.

“Miss, please step aside.”

Sweetheart couldn't stop crying, she didn't even have consciousness until a nurse came to help Sweetheart sit outside. Sweetheart really didn't know what to do next. . .21/9/2021

Several weeks have passed since Sweetheart's passing, while her mother is still in a coma, Sweetheart has to live at home alone. But it's still good that Sun, my sweet friend's good friend, comes to visit my house often. And today my sweetheart has an appointment with P'Fah at the hospital, so I plan to take Sun with me because last time P'Fah told me to bring him with me.

“Sun, let's go.”

“Okay.”

When we arrived at the hospital, my sweetheart went to make an appointment with P'Fah again.

“Jai, let me go to the bathroom first. You go find your blue brother first, I'll follow you.”

“Alright,” Sweetheart agreed without any doubts.

“Hello, sweetheart.”

“P'Fah, hello. Please wait for my friend for a moment. A friend that P'Fah had brought along."

"Alright, let's talk, shall we?"

"fee"

30 minutes have passed.

"Why haven't you come yet? It's taken so long. I'll go get it for you."

“No need, sweetheart.”

“Why?”

“I'm sorry I have to say this, but Sun doesn't really exist."

"..." Sweetheart was silent and shocked, frozen with no response. Sweetheart tried to pick up the phone and looked but couldn't find Sun's number. Sweetheart asked to leave first. When he returned home, Sweetheart couldn't find the things that Sun had bought for her. Or anything related to Sun that makes my sweetheart feel dejected and want to go in again. Sweetheart walked into the room and sat down in the corner of the bathroom, tears slowly flowing out as she said the words,

“Are you going to be okay?” . . 16/10/2021 .

“But what if I'm not there? Who will feed the cookies?” . . . completely finished