You are my first friend. He is the person who makes me do new things.
But, was that just a show…?
P.S. Because I can't set the original name. Wright changed the title. but the original content
Once on that day
smile
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stream
'Than Nam', a young boy aged eighteen Studying in the last year of high school.
People at school knew his name but didn't know who it was. That's because he's a bookworm who likes to wear thick glasses. The outside personality is not outstanding. Likes to walk with his head looking at the ground as if he's worried that a rock will make him stumble and fall. But all he is is not because he wants to be like this.
He's just an insecure person...that's all.
His low-key personality makes many people envious of his intelligent IQ. Everyone at school said that he was academically smart but too naive. Some say that if you just look at his face, you won't be able to tell that he is a smart person. Various sentences are said by friends and people in waiting. But Tharnnam never thought about it.
Since he was born, he had never once understood the definition of a close friend. I remember when I was about 12 years old when I lived in the countryside with my grandparents. At that time he was exposed to nature. meadow fields Clear water stream behind the house It was also the time when he experienced the meaning of true playmates.
But then everything had to start over when Dad got a new job in the city. causing them to move as well If you ask him if he wants to move I would immediately answer no. He likes to be here. atmosphere here and friends here But at that time he was just a kid who had no right to express his opinion. Makes me have to move with my family without any choice.
'There are good schools in the city.
For him, 'Just living your life well is enough'
But then the stillness was broken. On the first day of the fourth month There was a friend next door who asked to be close. Said that he wanted to be as good as a stream, so he wanted to be friends.
At that time, I was very excited to have my first friend even though I had actually been here for three years. But, let's face it, at least having friends before graduating from sixth grade isn't bad at all.
His name is 'Yim'. Thannam thinks that this name doesn't really suit him because this friend is tall and muscular and is a basketball player at school. He has a sharp facial structure, a high nose, and he likes to keep a calm face. But that thought was shattered when he lifted the corners of his mouth to reveal the first smile on his face to the stream of water. That made Tharn Nam understand that Why is his name Yim?
His smile really suits him...
After that, Than Nam's school life has many different things to do. Whether reading at the library, tutoring, going to watch him practice basketball, or even sitting and watching over the sick. Some days, Smile invites me to my house when I know that our house is on the same street. But Than Nam's house is in front of the alley, while Yim's house is about five houses further down. Come to school together
Back together, Thannam was surprised that they seemed to get along so incredibly well, even though the two of them had nothing in common.
One morning Thannam invited him to read a book as usual but he refused saying he had an appointment with a friend. At that time, Tharnnam nodded in response to the 'Oh' sound and asked to go.
While reading He couldn't concentrate at all, his mind felt slow, like he was depressed. He didn't understand why he had to be upset about something like this. Try to remind yourself that
Smile has many friends. It's different from him who only has one smile as a friend.
Even though I normally read books alone. But now I feel like I don't like it.
He didn't like this feeling at all. This feeling is like
'Are you jealous of your friends...or not?'
'It's not working anymore. Leaving it like this is definitely not good'
Maybe it was because he had never had anyone to be close to. When Smile became his playmate, he felt like he had to have only us. This crazy idea had to be gotten rid of immediately. He didn't want to make his first friend suffer because of him.
After making that decision, Thannam returned to being a bookworm as usual. In my free time, I walk into the library to look for books that I haven't read yet. There were some people who accidentally met with Yim, but Tharn Nam chose to stay away. No, I don't want anyone to be my friend. I want to go back to being the same river of water, a person who no one cares about but smiles like I don't think so. He tries to come to me in his free time, always asking, '
Do you want to go read a book today?' But Thannam chose to refuse. It wasn't that he didn't want to go, but Yim's friends who came with him looked at him angrily, like the stream was about to steal their friend away. If you invite everyone to read a book, they will definitely refuse, so the only person who goes will probably be Smile.
"What's wrong? Are you angry that we didn't go with you that day?"
The question was spoken from a smile.
Tharn Nam immediately refused.
"Not at all. Today I want to clear my homework account."
Than Nam said and smiled at the only friend in front of her.
Smiling, he nodded lightly in understanding, but in his heart he still wanted to go with the stream.
"Then let's go to basketball practice. If you have free time, you can go watch."
Smiling said before waving goodbye to Tharn Nam.
Thannam gave the same smile before walking over and taking a seat at her own table. Take out your homework book and complete it. Tonight I will rest. And if you finish before 10 p.m., then go find a smile on the basketball court.
to wait to return home together
"It's been a month already. How are you going to smile? When will it be revealed that you lost to us in the game and had to go be friends with that guy with glasses?"
His smile softened when he heard the words of his friends in the gang.
Yes… a month ago he lost a game to these guys and they made him spend a month with 'Taennam' as punishment. Because they believed that this was a very painful punishment for having to be near bookworms like a stream. It must be boring.
"What's the answer? One month is over and it's over. What do you demand?"
"Oh, aren't you going to reveal to Mr. Waen how uncomfortable he was with you in the past?"
"But let me tell you, you're really smooth. It makes you believe that someone like him can really be your friend."
Another friend joined in and laughed happily as he thought of Thannamnam's smile, thinking that someone like Yim would really be his friend.
That said, this doctor is really dishonest.
"There's no need to answer anything. The end is the end."
"After this, what are you going to do? Don't forget that you have the honor of being Waen's first friend, haha."
One friend spoke up and a few other friends joined in laughing.
If speaking truthfully then He has been interested in streams since the fourth grade. A highly intelligent, private new kid takes the entrance exam to the King's Hall with perfect scores in every subject. Under those thick glasses, he always believed that he would meet beautiful eyes. My body was dry like a malnourished person.
Every morning, Than Nam came to sit and eat bread in the garden next to the window of his room. When he learned that Tharn Nam came to eat breakfast here every day. Yim came to school every morning to sit and look at that thin figure, eating bread and a bottle of warm water. For nearly three years, he did so without anyone knowing.
When I see a skinny figure chewing chubby bread like that…
...It's really worth grabbing and squeezing your cheeks.
And a month ago, he was playing basketball with his friends for fun. They suggested that the loser have to go spend a month living in a stream. At that time, he just thought he would find an excuse to get slim. I forgot that I could approach normally.
He was a fool to go along with them.
"I'm…sorry."
The sound of a new person coming from behind made him stop smiling. This soft voice didn't turn around and correctly guessed that it was the sound of a stream of water.
suddenly!
Smiling turned to look at the thin figure who was now looking at him with disappointed eyes.
I couldn't tell if my beautiful eyes had tears or not because my glasses were too thick. Plus, he was still stooping and tilting, making it difficult to notice.
Smile walked to stand in front of him close to him, but Tharnnam backed away and kept his distance.
“In the past…all lies?”
The voice in front of him trembled, beautiful fingers digging into their own nails like a person afraid of the answer. Smiling, he didn't even dare to say anything. Just thinking about how I had upset this thin body made me feel pain all over.
"Answer me, Smile. The guy who asked to be friends with us...is it just a game?"
Smiling, biting his own lip until it drew blood. Do you want him to speak yet? The reason I dared to say hello was really because of the game, but I wanted to be friends with you not because of any game. He really wanted to be friends with Thannam.
"True, but…" Smile was unable to continue. Tharn Nam immediately interrupted.
"okay"
Than Nam raised both hands to stop him from speaking further and took a step back.
“Then can we please just end this? Let's not hurt each other's feelings."
It was all gone, all feelings were destroyed, there was nothing left. If you have a friend who is not sincere like this It's better not to have the same thing.
He's really good at making us believe that he really wants to be our friend.
Believe everything he tells you.
He knows many personal things. Tharn Nam also thought he cared.
Wherever possible, he probably did his homework.
He would investigate in detail how to behave when he was with us.
We trust people easily too.
In the past while we felt euphoric at having our first friend.
At that time, he was probably laughing at us.
Ah…it hurts so much.
Finally, tears couldn't be stopped.
“After this, let's go back to the way it was before.”
"as before?"
Smiling, he repeated the question, not understanding how it was the same as what Thannam was talking about.
"...same as before, like when we didn't know each other yet."
Tharn Nam looked at his smiling face once more before turning and walking away without ever turning around again…forever.
In the end, no one can answer this matter whether the two will come back to express their feelings.
And you?
If you were a 'water stream' would you forgive your smile?
And if you were 'Sim', would you choose to hold on or let him go?