On the way home

by

orange light

I saw him again He stood in the same place. But the distance between us is too far. I want to walk across the bridge to see him. But I'm coming home. Today he is dressed like every other day. Big jeans and a dark blue shirt. I always see him at this time. We make eye contact, he smiles at me, and I smile back, as I always do. But this time…not like before.

"hello"

"…hello"

He walked across the river until he reached the middle of the bridge. I don't think he will greet me. In the past several months I walk past this place every day. But there was never a time when we talked. It's me who isn't brave enough...

“I see you walk by here often, but we've never talked to each other.”

“Yes…see you every day.”

"I work in this building."

Seeing him so close made me not dare to make direct eye contact. He looked much more handsome from such a close distance. The beads of sweat that appeared on my face and the dark tan skin were quite strong on my heart.

“Are you an engineer?”

"Yes...work around here too, right?"

"I live in the building over there. It's a tall building with a lot of glass."

“Not that far away.”

“Yes… nice to meet you.”

"too"

I didn't dare look into his eyes. I didn't even dare to ask his name. and believe that he can see I often saw him smile while we talked. There's no one here. I looked into the building behind. It was a tall, bare concrete building with a frame already in place. He is probably responsible for this project. And it will probably be a while before it's complete and ready to be used as an office.

“Do you walk past this place often?”

“Um...as far as I can remember...I've walked past this place every day for a long time. The alley connecting work and the skytrain looks like it's being renovated. So I had to walk this line instead.”

“I'm really tired. This alley is also lonely. But there are enough cars coming in and out. Let's drive quickly."

“I don't dare walk in this alley when it's dark. It must be very scary.”

“Haha, next day let me walk you to the skytrain. I stayed up until dark almost every day. The work must be inspected properly.”

He smiled again after speaking…I wasn't so naive that I didn't know what was going on. He was clear from the start. The sooner I know what to do next.

“I must be really tired.”

“Only during this time. As soon as you get into the right place, there probably isn't anything to worry about.

I took the opportunity to examine the chest of the person in front of me. He was really charming, the deep orange light radiating across his body. Helps make his skin stand out more. But the sunlight got darker and darker, and I had to hurry home. If I'm any slower than this I probably wouldn't be able to prepare the content for the next day's presentation in time. He was still standing nearby. I want to touch him…but it's too soon. Even though we meet often

But physical contact the first time they started talking It may not be very appropriate.

“Is there anyone waiting?”

"Oh...uh, I just have some work to do."

“Working hard is worth watching.”

“During this time, we were rushed to close the balance. I'm so tired...and here...you haven't returned yet?”

“Not yet. I think I'm going to walk around and inspect the work one more time. This building has been delayed a lot.”

“Are you alone?…And how do you get back?”

“…Yes…all the workers have left…I parked my car behind.”

I began to feel familiar with the tone of the person in front of me. It's like I've heard it somewhere before. But how much do you try to remember? I can't remember where I've met him before. I may have walked past this person somewhere or heard him talking to someone somewhere.

"That's right. We've been talking for a long time. I still don't know your name."

"You can call me Porsche."

“My name is Ryu.”

“Such a cute name…easy to remember.”

My hair was clearly damaged. I didn't think he would play this fast, but thinking about it, it's good too. I have to hurry home. At least if I knew that he was interested in me. I would have acted right.

"Thank you...uh...well, I might have to go."

He smiled at me before we were silent for a minute or so. He didn't think he'd ask for my contacts, right? Or should I be the one to speak up?

“Ryu”

"...yes"

I'm a little surprised With people talking for the first time calling the other person's name affectionately. Or was this his usual method?

"vigorous.."

He pulled me into a hug. This was not the picture I had in mind at all. I don't deny that I like him. But doing this with someone you've just talked to for the first time. It's not something that I'm okay with.

"Uh...it's better to let go first."

I tried to resist the unexpected encroachment. But the person in front of me hugged me tighter. I started to hear sobbing sounds like someone was crying…was he really crying?

“Ryu…before you go…would you please listen to me first?”

"…yes"

He spoke as if he had known me for a long time. And I didn't understand at all what the person in front of me wanted to tell me. Aside from seeing him standing across the street on the way home. I really can't remember where I've seen him. I don't have any memory of this person in my head. There was probably just some unexplained feeling flowing around.

“Even if I have to repeat the same explanation a hundred thousand times, I'll do it...I just ask...Ryu, don't just walk away from here...can you?"

"Uh...I don't understand..."

His tone changed slightly. Looks more serious and determined. But that only made me more confused than before. What exactly happened here?

“We first met several months ago. It was during this time that I was assigned to take care of this site…in this building.”

"…yes"

“I met Ryu since then. Ryu uses this road to walk to the subway every day.”

“That matter…”

I was surprised that he was explaining what I already knew. Why?

“It took a long time before I had the courage to walk across the bridge to Ryu. Go get to know Ryu.”

“And I mustered up the courage to go in and say hello.”

“I…uh, don't remember this at all. Have we really talked before?”

"Yes...we've talked before."

“Why can't I remember anything?”

“You… have amnesia.”

“… uh …”

“I'm not lying to you. You really have amnesia.”

I still don't believe much in his words. But his facial expression made it impossible for me to tell for sure whether he was lying or telling the truth. But what will he do? Even though it was the first time we talked face to face. But this isn't the first time we've met.

“I… uh, don't know what to do next, haha.”

I tried to cover it up with a laugh. He looked at me, his eyes slightly sad. That made me start to question my own beliefs.

“Am I…really amnesiac?”

"vigorous…"

“Uh…is something wrong?”

Tiny drops of water began to overflow and stain the cheeks of the man in front of him. I began to believe Something must have happened to me. And it's something I've forgotten ever happened. I try to think back. And explore the memories I have in my head. I woke up, got out of bed at almost 7 a.m., took a shower and got dressed, then hurriedly traveled to work.

Besides sitting in front of the computer all day I hardly did anything or got up to go anywhere. I leave the office at 5:00 p.m. and use the small road in this alley to shortcut to the skytrain. And I met him...

“Sorry, I don't remember anything. I can't imagine we've talked before.”

“…Ryu…can I kiss you?”

I don't have an answer for the person in front of me. Although it seems very strange to kiss someone for the first time. But I couldn't answer myself...why didn't I refuse that request?

"yes…"

He used his hand to support my face. and leaned in for a soft kiss I was surprised at how skilled he was, as if he knew what kind of rhythm and feel I liked. I kiss back...there's no one else here but us. Dark sunlight tells us that the sun is setting. Even though the main road in front is crowded with people…but on this road…it's only us.

“My name is Ryu…”

“We talked already.”

“I gathered up my courage for a long time.”

“Do you work around here? I see people walking past here every day.”

“Yes, the original road is currently under repair. So let's use this line instead."

“If you don't mind...can I give you a ride? The work is almost finished.”

"…okay"

Overlapping events flashed up in my memory. I began to piece together those images. See yourself each day And I saw him. We looked into each other's eyes, smiled at each other, talked to each other. Has this really happened before? What exactly happened to me?

“I'm sorry…”

I pulled away from the person in front of me. In my head there are only questions. If I met this person a long time ago And we really talked before. Why do those memories fade? And come back to this ordinary day Those images came back with some feelings mixed with many questions in my head.

“Are you beginning to remember now?”

“Uh… I saw some pictures. It's like we've known each other for a long time…but I…”

“Even if I have to live like this for a very long time. If it will make Ryu remember, I will do it.”

The way he looked at me was filled with emotion. Both longing and sad He knows things that I don't know. But what exactly is it? What happened between us

"hair…"

Even though the sentence I uttered was incomplete But something motivated me to make the decision to do so. I leaned towards the person in front of me. Supporting his tall face, she leaned towards him. Our lips meet Like the first time he kissed me The difference is that this time I took the initiative.

"vigorous…"

Many scrolls of images flowed into my head. It was arranged together in an orderly manner. Different from the first time Those animations tell the story between him and me. Since the first day we met, smiling at each other, spending time together, he held my hand, I hugged him from behind, we kissed, made love in the bedroom. Everything was so clear that I didn't even have to question the person in front of me.

He pulled me closer. before kissing back softly but full of feeling The images in my head continued to play like a love movie with him and me as the main characters. I saw myself walking out of the office. smiling face and turned to that road It was a secondary road where his work site was. Today is the anniversary We made reservations at a nearby restaurant.

Having a delicious dinner with your loved ones on your important day. It is always a precious time for me. I see myself happy While walking along the sidewalk I could see the work site not far in front of me. The workers are working hard. And I saw him As a site inspection engineer, I called out to him, and he turned at the sound of the call.

The smile on the tall figure's face always makes me feel better. He probably felt the same way. We both stood and talked. I have many stories that I want him to know. He stood and listened to me intently. while laughing at the story I was telling him His face lit up with a smile…before his eyes widened…

As if completely shocked by the sight I saw… I turned around and looked… a car was heading towards where we were both standing… at a high speed…

….He hugged me tightly…That car came in too fast…

“Huh…sorry for remembering too late.”

I buried my face on his chest. With tears streaming down uncontrollably

“Even if I have to go around like this a hundred and a thousand times. Or go back to the way we first met I will not give up…”

“Are we going to disappear from here? I'm afraid.”

“I don't know how long we have to stay here…but at least for now. Ryu already remembers our story.”

"Are you tired?...Huh...I'm sorry I remembered it too late. I'm really sorry."

“I don't know if this time loop will return to the beginning again...but this is the first time that it's different...

I hugged the person in front of me again. There is no need to search for any more answers. Every question that confused me inside had its own answer now. I don't know what will happen to either of us. But I'm glad that at least fate brought us both back together. Let me be with the person I love. Even though…both of us…

There will be no chance to return home…again.

END

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