'Myungsoo didn't suffer'

'It's lie'

-gyumyung-

The morning light streams through the black velvet curtains. A white figure was seen lying motionless on a black king-sized bed. It doesn't take long. The white figure on the bed began to turn around. A small hand moved to gently rub his eyes. I turned around a few times. Before standing up and sitting still, eyes closed to match the late morning sunshine today.

Surrounding the room is in a neat and tidy condition. There are no dust mites anywhere. Of course, no one would not mention that Kim Myung Soo is a person who loves cleanliness. But at this time The empty room made him feel lonely. Suddenly, a painful feeling rushed into my heart again.

When he misses someone

People who used to be here

Exactly where it hurts

It had been four days since he ended his relationship with his lover, Kim Sungkyu. He never thought there would be this day. A very gentle man A very nice man The person who takes care of him in everything And he was never prepared. that he and Sunggyu will have to break up one day

Never thought that I would have to sit and dwell in this kind of excruciating pain. Never thought that the person who took care of him in everything Will be a person who wants to take care of others more than himself. He had never prepared anything.

The white figure slowly got out of the bed. Stepping each step Each breath in and out It's so painful. A body without strength cannot continue. So he sat down in front of the dressing table. Look up at the person in the mirror. The lump in his throat began to form as clear water slowly flowed out of his slender eyes. A white figure sat sobbing silently in a small square room.

It's like this every time. Every time in the morning he didn't wake up and see that person. Torment builds in the heart Every image flashed through my mind slowly and repeatedly. His beautiful memories with Sunggyu appeared. Places that we used to go to together The road that we used to walk together hand in hand Restaurants where we used to eat together The other person's impeccably handsome face was always engraved in his heart.

Slender face, prominent nose bridge The eyes are small. slender lips Smooth skin texture That person's slender hands were still stuck in his memory. I thought while smiling through tears. A praising face is not equal to a gentle act. care about him everything No matter what action He was always correct when it came to risking physical injury.

'Myungsoo, how many times have I told you? If we still secretly come out to enjoy the breeze like this again I'm really annoyed.'

'I just want to come out and look at the moon.'

'The moon is really beautiful. But the cold wind is making Myungsoo sick. Please believe me. Come inside.'

'Alright.'

The person who was worried about him was sick that day. It's the same person who cares about others right now.

He had never known that before. Sunggyu dated him just for time. The right time to develop relationships from friends

become a lover

The reason for the breakup of their relationship was because Woohyun broke up with Howon. one's own lover causing Sunggyu to enter his own friend's heart until an error occurred

Myungsoo wanted to think it was just Sunggyu's mistake. But the words that day It clearly states everything. It's clear that throughout the past time Sunggyu didn't love him at all.

'I'm sorry, I really can't love you.'

The words spoken that day It was like a rope that pulled him into the abyss. Abyss that's deep Both dark and cold Lying that it isn't true It's more like a knife that keeps stabbing. The more you think, the deeper you stab. The more I thought about it, the more I stabbed many wounds.

The suffering of living each day Only he knows. He's the only one who's hurt. He didn't want Sunggyu to know the extent of his suffering.

Why do you want me to know?

When Sunggyu without him There is always a smile. Still living each day happily

Myungsoo looked pitifully at his face in the mirror. On his forehead, it was like there was a big word stupid written on it all the time. The fact that he trusts, gives his heart, and doesn't spare his heart. It makes him look stupid and tormented like today. Deserved, really deserved.

Clear water flowed from the slender eyes without stopping. The soft sobbing sound at first had turned into a loud cry now. Small, bloodshot eyes The area around the eyes is noticeably swollen. The body was gaunt and pale. It was no wonder he didn't have the strength to take each step.

He is both stupid and stupid. For letting myself be like this He should think of his parents. that raised him But thinking about it was useless because you had long since left him. Myung Soo's life was thought to be with his parents forever. But you all left.

The life that was entrusted to Sunggyu was shattered. It's pathetic.

“Hruk”

Over and over, Myungsoo cried in a small square room like this. But it doesn't seem like he'll ever get used to it and forget about it. This pain still hasn't disappeared. No matter what you do

The white figure took a deep breath before wiping away his tears. Smiling, new tears flowed. I can only think in my heart that He has made his love happy. He should silently watch their happiness. Since Sunggyu's happiness is not him He should let go, and one day he will forget Sunggyu himself.

Sitting down on his knees, hugging himself and bowing his head. Crying and sobbing again. Sometimes, being with yourself like this isn't always bad. When he was like this because he didn't prepare himself. He should prepare himself now.

Just cry it all out. Everything will be better soon.

He's not alone. He still has friends. He shouldn't hurt himself now. Because now he should be happy.

Happy to see the bright smile of love

It's just that that person isn't him.

-LEE SUNGYEOL-

-I know you don't want me to come find you right now. But can I promise that soon your smile will return?

-KIM MYUNGSOO-

-I promise-

Thank you, Sungyeol.

-END-

'Love is not necessary for us to always be happy.

So I chose to let go.

Let you find your own happiness'