“Are you tired from our business?”

“Why do you ask that? ”

“Hope loves P'Ki very much. You know, right?”

“I love Hope very much. I love Hope alone.”

“But Hope is tired…”

based on xing true story that I have nochance to revise it anymore ..

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2 years ago..

in the coffee shop

xxx

University area

B

“Who are you looking at?”

Seokjin's voice greeted his friend because he saw that the other person was looking away and not paying any attention to the story he was telling.

“You damn bastard!”

Seokjin scolded at the person sitting across from him, causing the entire restaurant to turn to look.

“What is this? Can you call me softly?”

The smaller man turned and made a fierce face at the other person who had just unconsciously shouted throughout the store.

“I'm calling you a little bit. What the fuck are you looking at? I don't care about my friends at all.”

“No, nothing.”

Even though your mouth says there's nothing

But Min Yoongi unconsciously turned around and looked at the little person he had secretly been looking at since just now.

When he turned around, he found that the other person he was looking at was also looking at him.

Because of Seokjin's yelling just now, Jung Hoseok, who was enjoying talking with his friends, had to turn towards the source of the sound.

As he looked, he saw that the albino person that his friend had yelled at was also quite interesting.

'..Probably a senior studying at this university..'

I accidentally stared at the other person until I forgot. When the white senior finished giving his friend a harsh look, he turned to look at him, who was looking at him in the same way..

Hoseok accidentally smiled at the other's cold face. Until Min Yoongi was slightly stunned and looked away.

“That's really cute, Toh.”

The sound of Taehyung, his close friend, greeting his friends at the table.

“Oh, that handsome guy is great. Those white guys are cool. Oh my gosh, I want to get accepted here.”

Jungkook added.

“Hey Hoseok, are you interested? You can't help but stare.”

Taehyung teased, seeing that Hoseok hadn't stopped smiling towards the table they were talking about.

“Oh, no.”

Hoseok turned to answer his friend and lowered his head to continue writing.

Her pretty face was still full of smiles from the reaction of the white seniors who accidentally made eye contact just now.

“Oh, Hoseok hasn't had a girlfriend yet, maybe he has a girlfriend who's a college senior?”

Jungkook teases his friends.

“I don't know what to say. Continue writing. It must be finished within today.”

Hoseok pretended to change the subject, not to let his friend tease him further.

Jung Hoseok, Jimin, and Jungkook are currently in their 4th year of high school.

They are children from other provinces who come to study at this university because this university is considered number 1 in the region.

Children from other outlying provinces often come to study here during school breaks to prepare for university entrance exams.

It was late afternoon and Hoseok's group was sitting diligently doing the homework they received from tutoring.

Actually, Hoseok didn't want to study here because it would be a waste of money.

But because Jimin and Jungkook were eager to study here because they wanted to spend the summer as kids, Hoseok had to let it go.

As for Kim Seok Jin and Min Yoongi

Both are third-year students at this university. Today, Seokjin called Yoongi to sit at a coffee shop.

Even though he wasn't very good at sitting in this coffee shop because there were a lot of people.

But because there was a research project, both of them had to sit together and brainstorm ideas about the research that needed to be done.

Yoongi sighed a dozen times as his best friend talked about the contents.

He actually understood from the beginning what he needed to do, but Seokjin was a detailed person so he had to go over it step by step.

It's different from him who likes to do work haphazardly and deliver it all at once.

Trying to find something more interesting than my dear friend who was explaining his work with a serious expression on his face.

Min Yoongi's eyes ended on a pink-haired boy sitting with his friends smiling brightly.

Min Yoongi's innocent and cute face caught Min Yoongi's eye because normally all the people he met at university were really sassy people.

But this child made Yoongi more interested.

After Seokjin turned his head in the direction Minyuki was accidentally looking at, he was able to see.

“Oh, that pink-haired girl.”

“What the fuck?”

Yoongi, who had just avoided the pink-haired girl that Seokjin was talking about just now, could only lash out at his friend who knew.

“I can see, that's your type. How many years have I been your friend? Don't think that I don't know.”

Seokjin doesn't stop teasing.

“Whatever is the matter, keep talking and I will listen.”

Min Yoongi acted like he was listening more intently, his hand picking up a pen and pretending to write down something, but he didn't fail, accidentally looking in the direction of the person he had just talked about.

“Work, I can do it later. But I don't know when I'll see you again.”

Seokjin tries to encourage his friend to be more courageous about his feelings.

He has been with Min Yoongi for a long time. He knew Yoongi was a cold, uncaring person.

But even if the expression is like that Deep inside, Yoongi is a funny person who likes to care about others.

Even though Yoongi has been single for 3 years, he doesn't have much interest in dating anyone. Most of the time he just eats and throws away like a teenager.

But looking at Yoongi Seokjin's eyes, he knew that this young man probably had a great effect on him. Even though we've only met for a short time.

“You Nina.”

Yoongi looked at his best friend's face. Even though I want to punch you in the face right here.

Because this guy talks so much that he hurts his heart.

Yoongi isn't very good at asking for people's numbers in normal places because he usually clinks glasses with the girl at the next table and moves on.

This decision made him hesitate quite a bit.

“Have you ever heard the saying about being caught and eaten?”

“K*kulukla, stop talking.”

Yoongi kicked the edge of the other person's chair and stood up immediately after hearing his close friend whistle.

Because he didn't want that little boy to be picked up by anyone either.

“You guys, he walked this way.”

Jimin nudged his friends at the table to look at Yoongi, who was walking slowly towards him.

“His face is brutal. I thought he was going to hit someone.”

Jungkook whispered to Jimin.

Yoongi walked over and stopped at their table. before looking at Hoseok

“Uh, what's your name?”

The cold look on his face made Hoseok think he was looking for trouble.

'..Am I going to get hit..'

“Ah, Hoseok.”

Hoseok replied, looking down, not daring to meet his eyes.

“Please give me a line.”

Yoongi replied while scratching his head because he didn't know what to do.

“Yes, yes.”

Even though I feel a little confused Suddenly a senior from university asked for a line, Hoseok wrote down his ID on a small piece of paper for Yoongi.

9:06 p.m.

Yoongi arrived at the dorm feeling tired. Before I realized that I had something to do.

A small piece of paper that you keep in the pocket of your favorite jeans.

The handwriting on the paper shows how organized the other person is.

Yoongi couldn't help but smile at the other person's handwriting. Just thinking about the face of the little person he met today.

He was already feeling very happy.

: hi

: It's me.

I greeted him as usual because I thought his younger brother probably knew who I was.

Ah, sir:

What's your name? I haven't asked yet:

: My name is Yoongi.

: 3rd year in the Faculty of Humanities

Wow, you've been away from me for 5 years:

: You're far away and you can't talk to me?

Well:

All right:

I just didn't think you'd come talk to a kid like me:

Yoongi could only smile at the other's cuteness and innocence. Hoseok's side was the same.

When he returned to the dormitory, he waited for the senior who asked for his Line ID to greet him, because of him.

I was also worried that Yoongi might just be asking for fun.

Hoseok normally doesn't care about anyone.

Until I met Min Yoongi..

Hoseok himself couldn't deny that there was something special about this hyung that was different from the others.

The two talked until late at night.

Min Yoongi was very quick to attack his younger sibling by asking for a call from the first time we talked.

Yoongi felt like he didn't see any harm.

As mentioned, Jung Hoseok has never had a girlfriend. It's different from Min Yoongi who is bored with this gray world.

Gradually progressing is a new thing for both of them.

After that they talked every day. Even though we didn't make an appointment to meet each other because she was still shy.

Min Yoongi always felt good when he saw the pink-haired boy ask to leave his call when he was playing games.

Yoongi is the type of person who gets angry if he plays games, playing until the early hours of the morning.

But when there was a sweet voice on the other end of the line that could be heard when he was hot-headed.

"Please take it easy, I don't want to get angry."

.. Just a small voice from a 16 year old child made him feel strangely cooler..

It wasn't until the start of high school that Jung Hoseok had to move back to his own province.

Yoongi chose to drop off the small child in the car himself.

"I'm back now. Will you still talk to me?"

The little man pursed his lips and asked the man 5 years older who was standing there rubbing his head.

"Talk. Is there any reason why you have to stop talking to us?"

Yoongi answered with the same calm expression as always.

Even though he looks like a cold person But every night I call and talk to Jung Hoseok

He knew how kind this white guy was. To show this design

"Oh, thank you."

When I got home

Jung Hoseok quickly picked up the phone and told the other party that he was home.

A pretty face was full of smiles when the other party responded almost immediately.

"Hope"

Jung Hoseok's mother called out when she saw her child safely home.

"Yes, mother."

The little man smiled and hugged his mother tightly.

"Usually my son is not addicted to the phone. Are you talking to anyone?"

Normally, Jung Hoseok is most addicted to reading books and playing with his little sister.

You hardly need a phone. Seeing that, the mother couldn't secretly be worried.

"No, Mom, don't worry."

Hoseok pursed his lips tightly. I don't want the mother to have to worry.

He is the middle child of the house. Jung Hoseok actually has another older sister. But I left home a long time ago.

"Um, if you have something, tell mom. Mom doesn't want to see me sad. You know that, right? We're hurt. Mom hurts more than us."

The mother hugged her middle son tightly.

This made Hoseok feel extremely troubled.

From then on, before going to bed, Hoseok would come and chat with another person every day.

Even though it was late at night, Hoseok waited for the other party to call.

Hoseok has actually started school. But I really want to talk to that university senior.

Until one day..

"You like us."

The voice on the other end of the phone alerted Hoseok to his senses.

"What do we think of you? Can we tell you please?"

"You like me a lot. Do we know that?"

Even though Min Yoongi talks to Hoseok every day. But he didn't want to think about it himself.

He chose to tell the younger generation the truth in his heart.

"Uh, I..."

"I didn't think anything of it. I'm sorry."

Hoseok replies, brushing off the person on the other end of the line. before pressing to hang up the phone

Min Yoongi felt so numb..

He felt very attached to this child.

A feeling of disappointment rushed into my head.

Has he always misunderstood in the past?

His hand reached out and grabbed his cell phone again and dialed a close friend.

"Oh, you want to drink liquor? It's the same shop."

After quickly dressing casually Yoongi rode his motorcycle to the liquor store.

Before telling your friends about your symptoms

12:14 a.m.

We drank for a while until time passed. More than one case of beer was gone.

"Take me to see your little sister."

Min Yoongi said, his face black and red from the alcohol.

"Are you crazy right now?"

Seokjin asked.

"Oh, take me there. I'll pay for the gas myself."

He didn't have time to argue back. His cruel friend carried him to the car.

The province where he lives is about an hour and a half away from them.

Yoongi kept a straight face the whole way. Think about the confusion in your heart as to why it is like this.

He and Nong talked every day for 4 months until he thought it was going really well..

Upon reaching the province Yoongi took out his phone. Say hello to a familiar name

1:56 a.m.

: What is worth visiting in this province? Please tell me.

: Right now I'm in my province.

But the other party didn't answer anything..

Yoongi waited in the car until it was revealed that it was 3:00 a.m..

"Come back, I have breakfast tomorrow."

Seokjin shouted to his friend.

"Um, all right."

Yoongi clenched his fists. Very irritated by the incident.

He wanted to directly ask the little person the truth about what happened in the past.

But I probably can't do anything. Besides driving back

7:16 a.m.

: Sorry bro, I was asleep at that time.

Yoongi looked at the message that popped up.

Since returning from the province to the dormitory at 5 a.m., Yoongi had chosen to sit in the game shop to calm down.

: It's okay. Just rest.

When the other party doesn't want him Then he chose not to disturb the little person again.

When being a good person is difficult

He will go back to his old ways..

6 months have passed and it has arrived in December.

It's Min Yoongi's birth month.. (Don't argue with Mina, this is a fic, okay, this is a fic)

How long will it take? Yoongi couldn't deny that he was thinking about the other person as usual.

He might have someone come in. But that was just temporary.

No one could make him feel as connected and longing as the sincerity of a 16-year-old child.

But now she must be 17 because her birthday passed during a time when they didn't talk.

Min Yoongi wanted to take the cake and leave it at his school for them to know. But I'm afraid the other party will be annoyed.

Until 5 days before Min Yoongi's birthday

3:16 a.m.

Yoongi chose to greet the other party just as the pub closed. Even though he got a girl from this trip.

But there was a whisper in his mind calling another person's name. It's too loud to resist.

Plus, the effect of the 2 alcoholics he just drank made Yoongi choose to type.

: How are you

Yoongi couldn't resist greeting the other party.

When he saw that it was 3:00 a.m., the little boy must have fallen asleep.

08.20 a.m.

It's good:

Brother:

Yoongi couldn't help but smile. Because he thought the other party had already blocked him.

: I thought it was already blocked.

I've never blocked you before:

Then the two of them came back to talk again..

On birthday night Even if you celebrate until late at night

Yoongi chose to rush back to the room to wait for the other party.

He wanted to know if Hoseok would remember it.

Suddenly the two of them returned to talking every night as usual. It was during Yoongi's 4th year, 2nd semester.

which Yoongi chose to take only the last 2 credits

Yoongi actually managed to graduate last semester.

But he chose to leave the last two. Because I want to have time to reflect on myself before going into the real world of working age.

Therefore giving more time to talk with the other party. Come back close to each other like before.

It made Yoongi more confident in his own feelings.

Yoongi watches over the little guy doing his homework every day.

"Did you know that my nickname is actually Hope?"

" Hope ?"

"Ah," a sweet voice cried from the other end of the line. Hoseok was diligently coloring pictures that he had to submit to the teacher tomorrow.

"If I open up to you, I'm sure you'll accept me."

Hoseok asked the other person to be sure.

"Of course. Why do we ask that?"

"Then please listen to me."

"I like you. I've liked you for a long time."

But I feel like I'm not worthy of you. I'm just an ordinary 5th grade student, but I'm about to graduate.

The group of Pee Ek Pee Pee is considered to be very talented, but look at me, I'm just a simple kid. The house was not rich.

At home there are only problems..."

Hoseok stopped speaking for a moment as his voice began to shake.

"I don't dare to tell you directly that I like you. I'm afraid. I'm afraid I'll regret it.

For the past 17 years, I have never loved anyone. Until I met you

I'm afraid of disappointment. I'm afraid my mother will be disappointed. I'm afraid of everything."

Hoseok finally let out a yelp.

Yoongi didn't dare say anything. Both feeling excited and happy

Feelings that have been lingering for over a year Both since we talked and when we had to be apart.

and understand the other side as well Because Hoseok always said that he never had a girlfriend.

"I am the only son. The older sister ran away from home and never returned.

My father never came home. Everyone has their hopes set on me.”

Hoseok said in a trembling voice.

"Can you promise me? That if I open up You can accept me."

"You won't make me sad, right?"

Tears streamed down the soft cheeks of the little man who was trying to express his feelings to the other party.

Why wouldn't he have feelings for the person he talks to every day? Really?

But the real world of a 17 year old who has never been in love.

Suddenly, a senior with a 5 year age difference came in and made me shake.

Who will not be afraid?

Who wouldn't be afraid of the word regret?

"Don't cry."

"I'm here. You're next to us."

"I love you."

"I love you very much."

Yoongi's voice emphasized his own feelings, letting the other person know that he was sincere with this boy.

"We may not be confident because we have never been in love.

We may not know you yet.

But can you give me a chance to take care of us?"

"I promise you won't make us sad."

The words that came out of Yoongi's mouth weren't just to please the 17 year old.

But it was really distilled from his feelings.

He truly loved this child.

He wanted to have this child in his life. Stay beside him all the time.

Jung Hoseok keeps asking why Min Yoongi is interested in a horny kid like him.

Even though a university-age person like Min Yoongi has to meet many people around him.

Unlike him, who was a normal countryside kid, his mother and grandmother planned to continue his studies close to home because it was not convenient to send him to study anywhere else.

"I'm enough with this world."

Yoongi was willing to explain to the other party. No matter what Jung Hoseok had in mind,

He is always ready to have an answer for another person.

"I've been through a lot. I met a lot of people. I've been with a lot of people."

"I know what I want."

"I want a normal person. That's enough for me to be special."

"I want someone who understands me. Someone who can accept you The person I live with Talk to me and feel comfortable."

“And that person is us, Jung Hoseok.”

If you were to count which day you cried the hardest in your life. Jung Hoseok would answer today without hesitation.

He had suppressed his feelings for almost a year. Without telling the truth once about what he thought of the other person.

While Min Yoongi has always been clear.

Today he has chosen..

He chose to offer the little heart of a 17-year-old boy who had never given it to anyone.

Give it to someone 5 years older than you who accidentally walked into your life.

He chose to trust Min Yoongi to take care of him.

And he had no intention of regretting the incident at all.

"I love you."

"I'm your boyfriend."

The little man's voice chose to surprise the other person in return for the older man's willingness to wait for him until today.

"Thank you. Thank you for opening up to me."

Throughout the time we were together They both visited each other regularly.

At the time Jung Hoseok came to see the other party at university on the weekends. He will take care of the orderliness of the older person very well.

Hoseok knows that Yoongi has a lot of responsibilities. Even though he's a 4th year student, Yoongi is so busy working part-time because he has to find money for himself that he doesn't have much time to rest.

Hoseok always comes to do the laundry. Sweep the room and mop the room.

If you ask why a 17-year-old child is willing to travel across the province to find another person to take care of him like this?

You can probably answer with just one word.

How do you love ..

When Hoseok comes to visit almost every week Yoongi would take him out to eat delicious food regularly.

Because Hoseok's house isn't rich. There is only a mother who provides for Hoseok and his younger sister.

Yoongi wanted to repay the little man by giving him something good to eat.

Even though we meet 2-3 times a month.

Both of them are still stable with each other.

Talk on the phone every night

Tell each other you love each other every day.

Until the day Yoongi graduated. Yoongi was called to work almost immediately.

Yoongi is both stressed and depressed. Because he is already a worried person.

But it's still good to have a little person beside me to comfort me.

Be there to encourage him on the days he is discouraged.

Always holding the other person's hand

"He loves you."

"You've got to get over it."

"Hope's hyung is already good."

"He's right here."

Needless to say, how lucky Min Yoongi feels about his choice.

Chasing and flirting with little people Waiting for the other party was worth it.

He really did not choose his girlfriend wrong..

Even though they are 5 years apart in age, the two have never quarreled often.

Jung Hoseok was never an idiot, even though kids that age were usually pretty idiotic.

Min Yoongi is the type who will tell you what he wants.

He is an angry person, but recovers quickly.

Fortunately, Jung Hoseok is a calm person.

When Min Yoongi is feeling down Hearing the other party's voice immediately made him lose his temper.

When Min Yoongi got to work in another province Of course, the meetings must be less.

Jung Hoseok who is currently in 6th grade. I'm worried about continuing my studies.

Yoongi, who just started a new job, is stressed about work.

Until we quarrel..

08.20 a.m.

Monday morning

"Didn't I tell you that I don't like people who lie?"

Yoongi said angrily during his lunch break. Because he caught the little guy secretly going out with his friends without telling him.

If Hoseok hadn't made a typo in the chat, he would never have known. Hoseok was actually going to type this to his friend but accidentally typed it into his own girlfriend's chat.

"Hope, I'm sorry. Hope, I just don't want you to think too much."

"You already have a lot of work. If Hope tells you, Hope will be afraid that you'll be worried about Hope going out with friends."

A small man's voice came from the other end of the phone. He knew he was wrong to lie.

But he just doesn't want his own lover to worry.

Yoongi hyung is already working day and night. If you're stressed about him again He was afraid that Yoongi hyung's disease would resurface.

"Then lie like this. Do you think I won't think too much about it?"

"Tell me directly where you're going. I never said that. Whether you want to drink alcohol or go with friends, go. Just don't lie to each other."

Min Yoongi is in a hot mood.

"Let's talk later. You have a lot of work. I'm annoyed."

It was actually their 3 month anniversary. Plus next week is Hoseok's birthday.

But Yoongi's mood at that time I'm not ready to talk to Hoseok at all.

His job is too stressful.

4:30 p.m. Min Yoongi's work time.

: Where are you?

: Hope is sorry.

: Hurry back to the dormitory.

Min Yoongi reads but doesn't answer. Because I'm still annoyed with what happened.

But when I returned to the dormitory

I met a young boy who had the honor of being my boyfriend. Sitting wide-eyed, waiting on the bench of the dormitory.

Yoongi is shocked at how Hoseok got here.

Because from the province where Hoseok is from, he has to travel 4 hours to reach his office.

"Hope, I'm sorry."

Hoseok said, tears flowing.

"Let's not argue, Ki."

Hoseok walked over and hugged the other person tightly.

"Hope loves you. Hope doesn't want to lose you."

" excuse me "

Yoongi's heart is thinner than paper. He accidentally raised his voice at the other person in the morning.

Because of my own frustration.

Hoseok even had to take a leave of absence from school. Have a friend drop you off at the bus station so you can connect a car to see him.

Even though I didn't even know how to get into the car. Hoseok runs to ask the ticket seller at the bus.

Because coming to see Min Yoongi across provinces like this requires taking 3 different buses.

Upon arriving at the province where Yoongi is stationed Hoseok only knew the name of the other party's district and dormitory.

Because I don't know where it is. So I chose to walk from the bus station to the dormitory and open it.

GPS

take

Yoongi could only hate himself for causing the little guy to miss school because of his short temper.

Even though Hoseok should really be the one who raised his voice.

But Hoseok chose to come here.

"Hope loves you very much. Hope gives you everything."

"P'Ki, don't abandon Hope."

Arriving in the room, Hoseok just hugged Min Yoongi tightly. Speak with tears flowing over the same sentence over and over again.

The word quarrel to Hoseok was terrifying.

The more I said break up, the more he cried.

Yoongi could only comfort the other in a tight hug.

"I'm sorry, it was my fault."

"Thank you for coming to see me."

"I love you very much."

From that day on, it seemed like Min Yoongi's life was more stressful than before.

Working at something he didn't love was driving Yoongi crazy.

Yoongi suffers from hyper-anxiety, panic disorder, and hyperventilation.

Yoongi chose to work far away like this because of the high wages for new graduates.

But it only made his mental state worse and worse...

Yoongi is back stressed out. both thinking of committing suicide starting to hurt myself

Luckily, Hoseok was still beside him.

If asked at that time, why didn't Yoongi just commit suicide?

There are 2 main reasons.

1. Afraid that parents will be disappointed with him. Need to spend money on funeral arrangements

2. Afraid that Jung Hoseok will regret choosing him.

But his condition looked worse than that of a death row prisoner.

His parents found him in such a state after work that the mother was in tears.

Yoongi was pushing himself too much..

He was so stressed that he accidentally hurt himself again. The scars from his own torture caused his parents to decide for Yoongi to resign.

"A salary of millions is not worth it. If my daughter has to be like this"

Mom hugged Yoongi to her chest. Normally in front of his parents, Yoongi is a cheerful child. Does not show stress

Plus, my mother thought that he had recovered from hyperventilation so she didn't think anything of it.

But it's wrong..

Because I put too much pressure on myself. Yoongi, who had just graduated less than a month ago at the age of 22, had to start his career with a job he didn't love.

But he chose to do it because his parents wanted him to. and high salary

Yoongi quit his job and had to come home to recover physically and mentally.

Of course, when we came back home, we had less time to talk.

Yoongi doesn't want his parents to know that he has a girlfriend. Because I was afraid that he would criticize me for having a relationship with children who were 5 years apart.

"Sorry, it's my birthday. But they're not together."

Today, Hoseok is 18 years old, but the couple is not together. Because Yoongi had to stay home to get better.

"It's okay. He loves you. He can wait."

If you were a normal 18-year-old kid, you would probably feel a little depressed. and some stupid

But Jung Hoseok was never like that.

He understands his elder brother and how bad the world must be.

He chose to be patient beside Min Yoongi. Keep encouraging Min Yoongi to get through this.

Until the day has passed..

5 month anniversary ..

"Happy 5 month anniversary, Auntie Ki."

"I haven't seen you in 2 months and I miss you so much."

“Oh, Hope misses you too. I'll see you soon."

6 month anniversary ..

"We've been together for 6 months now. He loves you."

"I love you, Hope."

"We haven't seen each other for 3 months. Do you miss me?"

"Think about it. Be patient."

"Oh, he'll be patient."

7 month anniversary ..

"Uncle-ah, aren't you going to come look for Hope?"

"I don't have money. I'm not free at all."

"But we haven't seen each other in 4 months."

"Let's understand a little bit. I want to see you too."

The little man could only sigh for how many times and he didn't know.

Tears flowed down her cheeks again.

He misses Min Yoongi so much..

It's been 4 months since we haven't seen each other.

Even though they are less than 80 kilometers apart.

But why does it seem so far away?

During the first time of dating Why do we still meet often?

At this point, Yoongi is starting to be busy looking for a new place to work. But he still wanted more time from the other side.

Because lately, let's not say we've met at all.

It's hard to just call and talk.

From before we talked at least 4 hours a day.

But nowadays 5 minutes a day is considered a luxury.

Yoongi often says that he is busy with his family. Or I'm busy working so I don't have time to talk.

feel hurt ..

He is very disappointed..

Yoongi's side knew that the younger people probably felt bad about this as well.

But he's not really ready to meet him yet.

Yoongi felt numb from not seeing each other. But he still misses the other person all the time.

The two of them never had a problem with other people. Yoongi also thought that he should trust him.

Yoongi spends all his time making the songs he loves.

Late at night, I still sit and think about notes. I'm thinking about the lyrics.

Sometimes Hoseok begs him to call for a while, it's nice to see each other for a bit.

But Yoongi chose to work more..

Because the pressure on Yoongi was already high. He looks like he's 22 years old, but he's nothing like that.

He wanted to make it better, have more money, have more of everything.

Even on his 23rd birthday..

"Do you want Hope to go look for you?"

"Happy birthday, P'Ki. Hope loves P'Ki very much."

A clear voice speaking through a friend's phone celebrating his lover.

"I miss you so much. Hope will go see you soon. Hope can feed you food too."

"You don't have to come. I'm not free at all. I'm busy with work."

"But we.."

"I miss you. Please be patient."

" yes ... "

Yoongi never noticed that the voice was getting softer every time.

New Year's Day..

"I want to stay with you."

A muffled little man's voice came from the other end of the line.

"Are you crying?"

"Uh"

" What's wrong ? "

Yoongi asked, a little annoyed. It's now past 10 p.m.

He came home to stay over the New Year's holiday because he wanted to rest.

The work he does is quite draining as well.

"I want to be with my boyfriend for New Year's."

"He misses P'Ki. Don't you miss him?"

Hoseok cries again.

"I miss you, but on days like this, we have to be with our family, right?"

"But we haven't seen each other for a long time."

"I'll see you soon."

"Okay, then let's stay with the family. Hope isn't bothering you anymore."

The sobbing sounded again.

Actually, Min Yoongi knew that Hoseok was feeling hurt.

But he would rather have time to rest. He was secretly annoyed that the little person didn't understand him.

Knowing that the other person wanted him to call back to reconcile But Yoongi chose not to call.

9 month anniversary ..

Now Yoongi has a new job again.

He became the songwriter he dreamed of. Everything is going pretty well.

But one thing that remains the same is that Hoseok is still beside him.

Can you say I'm next to you? The two of them still haven't met each other like before.

Now Hoseok needs time to study for the college entrance exam.

Yoongi, on the other hand, is so busy with his new job that he barely has time to breathe.

"It's been 6 months already. that we haven't met."

Hoseok said casually while they were talking.

Lately, he's only been calling once a week. Plus it takes less than 10 minutes at a time.

"Are there any young men flirting with you?"

Yoongi asked while his eyes were glued to the computer screen because he had brought back work to do at home.

"Why did you say that?"

Hoseok started to get confused.

"Just want to know"

Yoongi continued to stare at the computer screen, not paying attention to the other person as usual.

"Even if I do, Hope doesn't care. Hope loves you."

Her pretty face began to fade again. The sad eyes that concealed disappointment began to have clear water welling up inside.

"So?"

"Uh"

"Try to open up a bit."

Yoongi spoke in a calm tone, as if it were a normal word that anyone would say.

But not with a lover..

"Why did you say that?"

From the feelings that accumulated even harder I don't know how many times he's cried because of the carelessness of the person he called his girlfriend.

He knew Yoongi was tired from work.

But there's no time for each other like this.

Is he still important to the other person?

Valentine's Day ....

"Are you coming to surprise Hope?"

"I really want to see you."

Hoseok typed to the other party. He knew Yoongi wouldn't have time to talk.

Because recently Yoongi's music production has been going well.

"Happy Valentine's Day. Brother's love"

"Thank you for being here."

"But I probably won't have time to go look for you." I'm very busy with work."

Tears flowed down her smooth cheeks again. I don't know how many times Yoongi has told him I love him.

But we've never met each other.

Plus the feeling is not the same as before.

This is the 6th month of not seeing each other.

We don't live in different hemispheres.

Why is meeting each other so difficult?

If he's really important Why is it so difficult...

The same person who said she would stay by his side.

The same person who said she would take care of him.

Where has that person gone?

Entering their 10th month anniversary.

And yes...

Even though Hoseok is already out of school. The two still haven't met each other yet.

His hand rested his eyes from the computer screen that was typing the lyrics.

Pick up and move your mobile phone. It bounces the other party's chat.

Plus a notification that the other party has uploaded a story.

Min Yoongi looked at the stories the other party posted today.

It's a calendar with dates circled. along with writing about their anniversary

Hoseok normally doesn't reveal much about their relationship. because they were afraid that their own relatives would not approve

Plus friends who like to tease him all the time.

Yoongi let out a small smile. He knew that things weren't quite the same between the two of them.

But Yoongi still believes that if they still love each other, there shouldn't be any problems.

It's Saturday Yoongi didn't have a day off on Saturday.

On Saturday, Min Yoongi still has to work. Continue chasing his dreams.

"Happy anniversary, brother."

"Yes, I miss you."

"Do you want to meet up? I'll come see you at the end of the month."

Yoongi let out a soft sigh.

Because I don't know how many times Hoseok has invited him to meet.

In his head there were only the word work and the word busy.

He understood that this had been a long time ago. But I want little people to understand each other a little.

" elder sibling ... "

The older man put his hands on his temples as he continued speaking over the line for the other person to hear.

"I'm not free at all."

Hoseok bit his lip tightly at the answer he knew enough to give.

But he couldn't help but regret it. which was not as expected

"Nah, let me go."

"The exam is over. I want to hug you."

Hoseok still forced a pleading smile on the other side. No matter how many tears flow down your face

"I'm really busy."

"I understand you."

Yoongi replied casually. Meanwhile, in my brain there are only lyrics that I have in mind.

His brain is racing now. And if Hoseok wanted to meet up with him, he'd rather keep the holiday for rest.

Unbeknownst to Min Yoongi, that was the last straw of Jung Hoseok's patience..

" elder sibling .. "

" yes? "

"Are you tired? It's about us."

Hoseok made a firm decision regarding today's situation.

His little heart had suffered enough. He just wanted a fraction of the other party's attention.

There is no need to call each other all the time like before.

There is no need to meet every month.

You don't have to tell him you love him every day.

But it was the 'trying' to care about the other person that Hoseok longed for.

Even if we're ten thousand miles apart If Min Yoongi acts like he still wants each other.

He's ready to be here.

These days, Min Yoongi only talks to him because it's his duty. With just that familiarity

Throughout the past 1 month Hoseok always had to cry alone.

Without the familiar voice that said he would stay by his side.

Even though Yoongi sometimes comforted him.

But the concern in his voice disappeared...

"Why do you ask that? "

Yoongi raised his eyebrows. I feel a bit annoyed that the little guy seems to invite a fight.

Even though Hoseok almost never invites him to fight..

"Hope loves P'Ki very much. You know, right?"

The sobbing sounded again. Until it made Min Yoongi secretly tremble.

He put his hands down, resting his eyes from the task in front of him.

Do your best to speak in a gentle tone. As far as making the other person feel good

"I love you very much. love us alone"

But it probably won't be in time..

"But Hope is tired..."

The younger man's voice trailed off. Because he tried to hold back his sobs in his throat.

As soon as the word tired came out

It turned out that the weir would not stop tearing.

After Hoseok said those words Yoongi could already guess what the other person was going to say next.

"I think we.."

"Let's go back to being brothers."

Hoseok let out another yelp. His small voice trembled as if he was going to continue speaking.

Yoongi stops everything. Slender fingers interlocked together.

He pursed his lips tightly and listened intently to the other party. Yoongi doesn't know how to feel about the situation right now.

In his heart, he secretly felt relieved. And I'm also heartbroken.

"I've never felt bad about us. Where I live is not that I have to endure.

But because I love you

I love you very much.

Yoongi hyung.."

"But today I'm tired."

Hoseok's voice shakes more than Yoongi can bear to hear.

His heart was completely numb.

But in my heart I understand the other side.

When it caused that little person to suffer that much?

He will let his younger brother go.

"So that means we've broken up, right?"

Yoongi asked.

"Uh.."

In my little heart, everything hurts..

Deep down, he wanted to hear the words "never quit" from Yoongi.

He wanted to hear the other party hold back. Even a little bit is still good.

He wanted to hear the other party give him a chance to make amends.

Please give a chance between the two of them and it will get better.

He wanted to hear words of love from Min Yoongi again.

I want things between them to be the same again..

But Yoongi chose to let him go..

Both of them didn't say anything.

Hoseok waited for him to ask for a chance.

Yoongi waited for the little man to stop crying.

He didn't want Hoseok to be hurt because of him anymore.

Yoongi knew that today would come.

The day when the little guy chose not to put up with his boyfriend's status without paying attention anymore.

: I'm sorry I broke my promise.

The last message he sent to the other party before parting.

The thing about taking care of younger people forever.

Marriage proposals that were made to the other party during their time together.

The word is confident that he is the last person.

Yoongi made a mistake..

Yoongi reassures a 16-year-old boy who hates and fears love to dare to open up to him.

He broke down that sky-high wall with a year's worth of effort.

But today, he was the one who caused Hoseok to build a higher wall.

The little man's tears still flow down his cheeks every night before he goes to sleep.

The scars in his heart from the person he loved. And I've been waiting all this time.

The person who had promised him that he would take care of this little heart the best he could.

Today I have broken my promise..

Coping with a breakup between people of different ages

Of course it must be different.

People who have just broken up with their first love, their first boyfriend, will be in a lot of pain.

Tears are Hoseok's friend each night.

As for people of working age I've been through a lot.

It wasn't that he didn't regret this event.

There was not a single tear shed from the person named Min Yoongi.

There was only a feeling of emptiness. Feeling numb inside

It made him hate himself even more than he already did..

He dared to say that in his heart there was no one but Jung Hoseok.

But the world he gave to the other party The real world that he has to face is different..

Space in Min Yoongi's heart

There will always be a place to reserve Hoseok.

The same world he had given Hoseok to possess.

Even today, Jung Hoseok still owns it.

The lesson this time was taught to both of them was to be remembered fondly.

Forever isn't real..

But what they both accept is that

At least .. it happened.

At least .. they both had tried.

At least.. how happy he used to be when they were together.

At least.. their feelings are real.

At least .. they both love ..

And if you asked me to go back in time, would I choose to let it happen?

certain ...

Of course he is willing..

Even though one day.. His favorite book, which he loved so dearly, must end.

Even though one day.. It would become just another book he had read.

Even though one day.. It will be placed on the bookshelf..

But the times he had been happy with this book

Its feelings will always remain in his heart.

All stories will always remain in my memory.

May Jung Hoseok's journey at the age of 18 in the wide world be full of happiness.

No matter how you go, wherever you are

I want us to be confident. that you will still be by our side And there are always good feelings for us.

To Jung Hoseok..

The best things in Min Yoongi's life