Title : [SF] 

Can't keep it.

Cast : Tono x Ritz

Auther :

hunter/

rikotomo919

Rate :    WARNING >>> NC 17+

P.S. This fic was set in the year 2011. It's been a long time, but I wanted to upload it to encourage one of my closest friends to read it ^^

talk (

It's a talk that was written since that year and didn't edit anything.)

Because of sitting and watching programs at Bangkok Station Then Rit told me about the ghost that lived in the condo. And he let Rit sleep in the room too.

I wouldn't have thought much of it if the host hadn't said, “OK, it's because of the ghost story. So they became each other's" I screamed hahahahahaha

******This fic is for the entertainment and fantasies of the writer. Not referring to the actual situation (maybe)******

Today I got off work early. Feeling tired all day Today I went to promote a new single. I'm so tired.

After finishing eating with Zen I went straight back to the condo without stopping anywhere. Well, I'm sleepy.

When the key was turned into the room It is now 6:00 p.m. and the sky is beginning to dim. The deep orange sun was about to set.

The sun shines through the tea-colored curtains. I walked into my room. Put the bag on the bedside table.

Take a shower and change clothes Everything is fine. Then I sat down on the bed.

Inside the room is a double bed. And I also sleep alone. As for Brother Tono, he sleeps in another room.

Nowadays, Tono and I don't have much time to hang out together since Tono has been working in two dramas.

Tono has to film a drama every day. Return to the condo late at night. And there's also a separate bedroom. Sigh, I miss it so much.

I lay down on the bed. Lie on your side facing the edge of the bed.

On this side I can clearly see the door. Of course, I won't lock the door. For the person I'm waiting for to come back.

And at least open the door to me. And we could really sit and talk. Once in the past 2-3 days.

Think this and that. Until I didn't know when I fell asleep.

Building .. building .. building

Hm..hm... someone's voice walking in my room.. Brother Tono?

I wonder if he went to look for a shirt. Hmmm.... Eh! Why did the bed collapse?

Brother Tono, are you going to sleep with Rit's friend? Hmmm.. It's better to turn around.

Ah! And why........why can't Rit move!!!!

Fuck..Fuck.. Fuck..Fuck...

And...why is Brother Tono breathing so loudly? ..Is Tono panting?

Wha..why doesn't his voice sound like Tony's?

Fuck..Fuck.. Fuck..Fuck...

The sound of breathing is still loud and consistent. And it doesn't stop being loud.

That definitely wasn't the sound of Tono's breathing. Toni doesn't breathe like that.

Who!!! I turned around to see who was in the bed with me.

Why can't I just turn around? Huh? I'm scared. Why can't I move?

His hands and legs looked like they were being held together by ropes. The arm seemed to be pressed down.

Why is it like this....or is it.......a ghost!!

No, Rit is afraid. Rit doesn't want it to be like this at all.

Rit is scared. Don't fool Rit. Haha.

I started praying...but the sound of my breathing still hasn't gone away. What should I do?

I don't know what to do anymore. Can only pray

Keep praying. .....until I don't know when I fell asleep.

I returned from filming a drama at 10 p.m. Today I had to film a boxing scene. Muscle aches and pains All the way back to the condo.

Little one must have gone to bed by now. Has he eaten yet? I'm going to stop by and buy some porridge.

Try calling and asking. ...I pressed the number in my memory. Set up the system to make calls simply by pressing number 8.

Closet.....Closet......

Why don't you accept it? I'm probably exhausted. I was asleep and didn't know anything about it. Haha.

Then it's better to buy it. In case your little one wakes up in the middle of the night and is hungry. (I suspect that he will be the one who eats it himself.)

When we arrived at the condo, I looked up at the room and didn't see a single light on. I wonder if he's really asleep.

When the door was unlocked The room is so dark that it's annoying. Because Rit never lets the room be completely dark like this.

I managed to turn on the lights around the room. I'm walking to my room. Through Rita's room

I'm debating whether or not I should go in. Ritter was definitely asleep. But I haven't seen him in many days.

When I came back, Rit went to bed. When I woke up, Rit went to work.

Or maybe we only met face to face for a moment. We haven't sat down and talked well yet, so we have to split up and go to work.

Well...come on..at least I just want to see your face.

With that, his hand turned the knob. Peek your face in.

Rit really fell asleep.

Turn your head to this side. The light from the door shone into Rit's bedroom.

It makes you see the sweet face that is now lying on the bed.

The little person was sleeping without a blanket covering him.

I stepped gently into Rita's room. I'll cover you with a blanket.

Eh...why does Rit have to sleep with her brow furrowed like this? Are you angry at someone before going to bed?

I took a good look. It was just the light from the door that I hadn't closed.

It is clear that The sweet face of the little person in front of me was now covered in beads of sweat.

And will still have a face that shows that suffering What the hell happened to my little one (?)!!!

Are you sick? I sat down on the bed next to where Rit was sleeping and grabbed his shoulder.

shake! My body is shaking and I'm still cold. Damn it!! What happened?

I quickly found the light switch in Rit's room. The TARDIS found it and opened it.

The picture that was seen was that Rit looked like he was trying to push himself to lie on his back.

I'm not happy anymore. I grabbed Rit and turned him over so he was lying on his back. Then he put his hands on his hips to help him sit up and lean towards me.

"Oh, Brother Tono.... Brother Tono.. uh... uh.."

A soft mumbling voice called my name. I heard clearly Because now Ritter is nestled in my arms.

I don't know if Rit was awake or not to say my name. Or because he saw me in his dreams...

"Rit! Rit, wake up.. Rit, what's wrong? Rit, can you hear me? Wake up, Rit!" I grabbed the small face and patted it gently. only lightly

I tried to wake Rit. I'm afraid that Rita will sleepwalk more.

Finally, small eyelids The little person in front of me slowly moved...

Rita opened her eyes when she saw my face. ..Clear tears fell, then more and more into streams of tears.

Rit wraps his arms around my neck. Rit hugged me and sobbed softly.

I hugged him tighter. Rit shows no signs of leaving the embrace.

I used my other hand to rub my head. And the other hand gently rubbed his back.

Rit hugged me and cried for a while. He loosened his embrace. But those little hands still gripped my shirt. trembling slightly

Ritter is like a little kitten now. who is afraid of the big dog and find shelter from that dog

That's me right now. Rit's head was still buried in my chest...I reached out and rubbed his head. The other side was held as before.

The small face gradually Look up His face was much better than when he was lying down. The little boy began to move his lips and speak.

"P'Tono" ... Rit's soft, almost fluttering voice made my heart skip a beat.

"What do you say...little one...had a bad dream?" I continued to stroke Rit's head. and held the little man's other hand

Rit lowered his head as usual and remained silent. ....The hand I was holding became tighter and tighter.

I smiled, releasing my hand from the head I was rubbing. Come and hold the face of the sweet little person in my chest so that he can turn his head to look into my eyes.

Right now, the little man's tears show no signs of stopping. And there will still be that fearful look in his eyes.

"What's wrong? Can you tell me?" I said softly because the person in front of me was already listening intently.

The thin person in front of him turned his head away. That little mouth trembled slightly... then turned around and looked at me again.

"Rit...was haunted by a ghost. And Ritter also has nightmares. ......Huh..oh.." A thin person hugged me tightly again.

Right now, Rit is probably so scared that he can't control himself. Even the hand I hold is squeezed tighter than before.

What can I do to make Ritter stop being afraid? Now both of us are still in the embrace position from the beginning and haven't moved anywhere.

Rit sobbed so hard that I had to hold on to her shoulders, afraid she would fall off the bed. Ready to gently squeeze your hand Hopefully this little guy will cool down a bit.

My shirt is now soaked with Rit's tears. Rit's thin white t-shirt was also wet with sweat and tears.

A thin person raised his head. Now my eyes are starting to swell, probably from crying for a long time.

"Brother Tono," a hoarse voice came out. Because of crying and dehydration, that little mouth that trembled slightly said a sentence that stunned me.

"Rit, can I sleep with Tono?"

His eyes were still fixed on my face. to wait to hear the answer

Rit had never asked to sleep in the same room as me before. Every time it's me who asks him to sleep with me.

Because I often experience déjà vu. make me feel scared and asked him to sleep with me as a friend

Rit never showed his face. Or the appearance of being dissatisfied with anything but willing to

This time.....is there one? That I would reject the person I cared about so much right now.

"Um," was my short, one-word answer. Instead, it made the little person in front of me Revealing a happy smile

It makes my heart feel swollen. From filming the drama every day, there were no days off at all.

But just a smile makes me completely relieved..

Brother Tony is in my room right now. He is the real Tono, who is not the one from earlier in the evening.

Now I'm sitting on the bed and in Tono's arms.

I'm scared, I can't stop crying. I can't stop shaking. I can't control my mouth from shaking.

I can't control my body to do what my mind thinks.

I know that Tono just returned from filming a drama. And he's tired every day.

Now I'm being selfish. I was crying and spoiled like a child wanting a toy.

But I'd like to ask to be self-centered, can I?...... I'd like to tell you my needs. Will you be able to...

I sobbed, Brother Tony kept rubbing my head. They have been a warm pair of hands since they were in The Star House. I never forget

I looked up at Tony's face. ... Brother Tono looked back at me in the eyes. Brother Tono's eyes looked very concerned for me.

I softly called Brother Tono's name, "Brother Tono."

I decided to say a self-centered sentence.

"Rit, can I sleep with Tono?"

Tono looked stunned. ...I can't. I'm probably too self-centered.

"um"

Brother Tony replied with a short word. Even if it's a short word But it had such an influence on my feelings.

I feel like I'm becoming more comfortable and calmer now, and I don't know when I started smiling.

Brother Tono smiled and held both of my hands. My heart is pounding. The heartbeat was not like when I was afraid of ghosts.

It makes me feel hot, I don't know how, even though the air conditioner is actually turned on. Brother Tono still looked at me and gave me that sweet smile.

What...what is this!! I could stare, I chose to turn away. It's better to stare and answer. It's like Toni can read my thoughts.

"Don't you want to look at me?" His voice sounded sad. That feeling of disappointment came from the mouth of the tall young man in front of me.

I quickly turned around and looked at Tono's face again. It wasn't at all what he thought.

Brother Tono's expression now contrasts with his soft voice. What I said just now clearly ..Are you teasing Noid? You crazy person...

Brother Tono always smiles gently..it makes me feel warm and safe.

It's good that I said it. It's good that I'm being selfish.

If it brings me and Tono closer together again. We talked again. It is worth daring to speak out.

Now I have moved myself away from Tono's embrace. and came out and sat at the end of the bed

Look at Tono's shirt. There are tear stains all over his chest. All wet...

and looked at the t-shirt I wore to sleep It's wet too. Because I cried for a long time.

Brother Tono gets up. and looked at my face and gave me that warm smile again

"Then let me take a shower first. Rit changed his shirt and went to see you in your room." I nodded softly.

The tall man stepped out of the room. And don't forget to close the door.

Now I'm really afraid to be alone. I feel icky, probably from sweat from having a bad dream.

And there will be tears all over my shirt..... I decided to take a shower in less than 5 minutes (and left the bathroom door open, I'm afraid).

Get dressed quickly, put on a white t-shirt and shorts. Walk out of your own room and immediately went straight to Brother Tono's room

I knocked on the door 2 times... then twisted the door latch. Inside this room where I used to organize things to help Brother Tono is still the same as before.

The position of the bed, table, chair, everything is the same.

Now it looks like Tono is taking a shower. So I sat down on the soft bed and searched through the top drawer on the nightstand.

It's where you keep your photo album when you're in The Star's house. Or even a picture where Kade wrote his feelings on the back of the picture and gave it to the four of them.

Every picture that Brother Tono is in There must always be a picture of me. It makes me miss The Star House. It was the place where I got to know Tono.

If there isn't that star house There would definitely not be me here.

I slide the drawer out and put the photo album back in place. Even though right now it feels like I'm in this room alone

But I didn't feel as scared as I did when I was in my own room.

Maybe it's because the person who rubs my head, hugs, and comforts me is the owner of this room that gives me this much courage.

I lay back on Tono's soft bed. It was a double bed as wide as my room.

I just rolled around on the bed. ..ha..so tired Because I cried too much and got tired.

My eyelids slowly closed......and the picture gradually became darker until it was completely dark....

Now I'm finished taking a shower. The smell of shampoo and liquid soap is alluring.

I walked out of the bathroom. On her body, there was only a single towel covering her important parts.

In my hand was a small towel for drying my hair. Ritt and I went to buy it together. It makes me want to use this cloth every time I see it.

I walked over and picked out a tank top and long pants to wear to bed. Finished getting dressed and walking out.

Rit is now in my room and on my bed.

And of course, fell asleep again. We haven't even said anything yet.

But I didn't say anything. I understand that Ritter must be very tired. How could I not be tired if I cried that much?

It's good that Rit fell asleep. I went to turn off the light. and lay down next to Rita

Now Ritta's face is on my side. I looked at the picture of Rit's sweet face and it was clear that Rit's eyes looked swollen.

It would probably be just good to get some rest to let the swollen eyes go away. The little person in front of me was just a boy.

I admit it honestly Since being in The Star House I have said 'I love Rit'.

I don't think about little people just because of their siblings like the media has said. I just don't want this little person to be uncomfortable and pressured by the media.

That's why I have to keep these words in my heart. Still don't dare say it.

Just Rita asked to sleep in my room, how happy I was....

I lay down and looked at Rit's face, which now had a small mouth open. ...What's wrong with my heart? Why is it beating so hard?

Is it like my body is showing too much emotion?

Ah! Now Rit moved closer to me. Ready to extend his soft hand and gently place it on my face...

Wha...why do I feel this hotness? Since this is the behavior that when Rit sleeps, she likes to sleepwalk like this.

Rita at this time seemed to be sleepwalking, slowly leaning her face towards me, eyes closed, those small plump lips still open. It makes my mind wander.

I decided to sit up and adjust Rit's sleeping position. From lying on your side to lying on your back.

I grabbed one of Rita's arms. The other hand pulled the blanket away from Rita's body.

But it seems like Rit is going to resist. Don't let me pose easily. I didn't know it would be this strong when I slept.

I turned Rit over so he was lying on his back. My hand was still holding Rit's arm tightly, but Rit suddenly pulled the hand that I was holding onto him towards himself.

"Ah"

I couldn't believe my eyes. Now I was straddling a thin person. Because of the sleepwalking of little people.

Building, building, building, building

My heart is now beating so fast that I'm afraid I have high blood pressure. My face and Rit's are only a few centimeters apart.

I tried to push the arm that was straddling the thin person out....I couldn't. My heart doesn't want to be separated from the person in front of me for even a moment.

I can't betray my heart. When my current feeling is How much RI do you want?

I....can't stand it anymore!!

Hurry!

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But when Tono walked into the bathroom, There is another person who can't sleep anymore. His face was red, spreading to his ears.

Lying frozen in bed wide-eyed Rit knew everything from the moment Tono started kissing him. He just pretended to be asleep so he would know what Tono would do to him.

Now Ritter knows. Just what Tono did just now. To say it in body language But Rit realized that 'Tono loves Rit'

Rit reached out and opened the same drawer. Then he took out a picture. Is this a picture from when he and Tono went on the show Really?

events that day The scene where Tono almost kisses him Rit hopes that one day it will definitely come true.

And today...it's true. Rit smiled widely. Turn behind the picture and take out a black ink pen at the head of the table.

Write a message to express your feelings. It's a simple word, but at least it can convey the feelings he has for Tono.

Finished writing, put the black pen down on the table as before. and managed to place the picture in the pillowcase next to him

Before putting it down, he carefully kissed the photo on Tono's face. Before putting it in......

After hiding it The thin person adjusted his sleeping position like when Tono left and closed his eyes with a smile at the corner of his mouth...

My heart is now excited, happy, and satisfied....

Rit just wished that the person in the bathroom right now could see it. Even if it's not now. But there was a day when I saw it...

The words..."Rit loves Tono very much."

>>> END <<<

hunter

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This is a fic that was written on the Norit board a long time ago. Currently, the board is probably closed. So I can't find the fic link. The author has asked to post in this good kid area as part of a collection of fics that he has written. Thank you ^^