I want to try writing Mama. And then I discovered that it was easier to write than feel good. Wow.

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[Yes]

The sound of rain falling and water droplets splashing through the screen door on the balcony. This kind of atmosphere makes me feel extremely lonely even though I normally never feel like this. The food on the table was cold because it had been made in the evening and it was now 10:00 p.m. but it still hadn't been touched. Because waiting for someone's return, the person in the room walked to close the glass door.

Ready to find a cloth to wipe up the water that splashed into the room. The sound of the room door being loud, another owner of the room opened the door and walked in, shaking off his shoes and leaving them in front of the door. He threw his work bag on the sofa and sat down. The little man went to pick up water from the refrigerator and poured it into a glass and handed it to the person sitting on the sofa using his phone.

“Have you eaten yet?” he asked with concern.

“I ate,” the tall man replied without looking up.

Some walked to sit at the dining table in the kitchen and started eating alone. Since when? Since when has the other person not sat down to eat together?

Aey and Tae have been together since college. About to enter their 7th year, they have always been in the sight of adults. Both families know and accept that their own children are dating men. The two were a couple that was the envy of many people when they were still young. When they graduated, they chose to work in the field they graduated from. When did their relationship start to change?

I don't know, probably since the other person met new people at work. Various voices whispered. That another person has someone new They used to argue in the beginning because of this kind of thing, but the other person said he was stupid and just thought it over himself. Then the relationship between the two people was never the same again and always lived with suspicion. But never said anything again. Sometimes he thinks that our relationship changed because he chose to speak and asked?

That's it. I realized again that I'm a person who likes to keep quiet in situations where I don't feel okay, and I'm tired of talking in vain.

After eating, I washed the dishes and cleaned up various equipment. I walked around to check the order in the room to keep the shoes that my lover had left in front of the door. I put them in the work bag that I had thrown away and picked them up and put them on the work table.

Who will make you dance like this? If not, it's okay. If another person still can't see it right now.

Walking into the other bedroom, he had finished taking a shower. It was his turn. He had been tired all day and felt extremely tense. I suspect I have a fever. The medicine in the room was gone. No problem, going to bed early should be enough.

The noise in the morning caused the people lying in bed to wake up, their eyelids heavy. Her head was heavy. Tae's voice shouted from outside.

"Oh, where's my work shirt? Have you ironed it yet? I'm late and I'm looking at the time. Do I have to go to work earlier?" said another person's angry voice. Just complaining, not even bothering to poke my head in to see why I hadn't prepared clothes like always. And what can I do but carry my own bad condition and arrange clothes for the tall person? As soon as he got what he wanted, he put them on and hurriedly left the room.

Why does the sound of the door slamming shut squeeze my heart so much? Where have the people who used to be so worried about each other gone? The little person went to tell Brother Tai, the head of the department, that he would like to take a day off sick. He definitely wouldn't be able to go to work in this condition. When he received the answer, he lay down and grilled without worry.

Cold, so cold that I was shivering and hardly had the energy to get out of bed and go anywhere. I want to take medicine, but I really can't force myself to go down and buy it. I can only call my close friend like Pae. I asked him to help me buy some medicine. When that person knew that Ae was not feeling well, he immediately came out to see her. Arrange to buy rice and medicine neatly.

“When are you going to break up with this bastard? I want to punch you in the face.” Pae shouted after Aey told him everything. Pae was the only close friend who knew about Aey and Tae. All the while really knowing everything.

"..." Aoi was silent, not knowing what to answer. Because I really don't know. Ever since I started dating Tae, I've never thought about breaking up.

“Love yourself a little, there are a lot of people who love you. If you don't love me, walk away." Pae said, shaking the little man's head back and forth.

"...." When he heard this, he wanted to cry. Pae was right about everything. He still has an older brother, a father, a mother, and many friends who love him. He's afraid he'll cry right here. So he hurriedly chased him back to work.

"You can go now. Your shop will go bankrupt. I secretly came to sleep at work. Thank you very much."

"Uh, what's wrong with calling me?" Pae said worriedly.

After sending off my friends, I went back to bed and thought about what Pae said over and over. Let's face it, he can't stand it now.

He slept for a long time from afternoon until now 7:00 p.m. and some of them hurriedly got out of bed. It's almost time for Tae to come back. I haven't cooked the rice yet. I haven't cooked the rice yet. I do this every day, just hoping that the other person hasn't eaten before and will sit and eat together like before. But I was disappointed again when Tae Line came and said that today I won't go back to the room and have to stay to clean up work and then I will sleep in the office. Sometimes I wonder if the work that Tae does is really that tiring.

But without asking, he could only send an OK sticker back to the other person. Being alone and feeling lonely doesn't feel as bad as being alone but feeling like you're alone.

In two days it will be our 7th anniversary. What should I buy for another person? Probably not setting up a room to surprise another person like in previous years. Because from thinking that the other person would be happy, it ended up being that they were called nonsense. Aye's feelings at that time were completely distorted.

Today I can go to work normally. Live life as usual, work, go home, sit and wait for Tae to come back. But today was different from usual in that there was a knock at the door. Who came to find me? He could only keep his doubts in check. The little man walked out and opened the door to find a well-dressed woman standing in front of the room. Her eyes were looking at him from head to toe. Red lips said cruel words

“Think Fante looks even better than this.”

“Who are you?” Do people greet strangers like this these days?

“Ummm, I was the one who was with Tae last night,” a sharp voice said.

“What do you mean?” Aye asked, what did the person in front of him want from him?

“You may not believe my words. This picture will explain everything.” The woman in front of me handed me a luxury phone.

“…” The little man stretched out his hand to take it. The image in the machine made him feel numb. The picture of Tae hugging this woman on the bed, both of them not wearing clothes, doesn't tell you what they just did.

“Get out of Tae's life so I can date Tae openly. I love him just as much as you.” After saying that, the person in front of him turned around and walked away.

Oh, I don't even know how to feel right now. I'm completely numb. Not a single tear was shed every time someone told him something like this. He tried to stop himself from believing it, but this time there were both pictures and parties. He's so tired. What should he do next? Aye's phone rang. Call up little people's minds to stop being distracted by how many times the screen has shown the number of the person they love. Mom..

“Hello, Mom, I miss you so much.” I tried to control my voice so as not to shake.

“What are you doing, child? Have you eaten yet?” a voice asked on the other end of the line.

"I haven't eaten yet. Mother just got to the room."

"Tae hasn't returned yet, child."

"yes"

“…” There was silence on the other end of the phone.

"If you're tired, come home to us, child." Mother's voice was worried. Makes me want to leave everything here, leave every feeling I have and go back to the warmth of my family.

"Yes, I'll go back to you." After hanging up the phone from Mom. The little man immediately let out a shout. He couldn't take it anymore, he couldn't bear it any more. He really had endured enough. I'm not a strong person. I also felt pain and cried.

Some of them were conscious. He had to keep walking forward, he had been walking in the same place for a long time. I've never felt so happy that Tae returned so late today before. He managed to pack his clothes into a small backpack. He'll just take a little bit of stuff. He walked out and wrote a letter with important documents and took off the ring on his left ring finger and placed it on the table in front of the TV where others could easily see it.

A ring representing the heart of the other person that was given to him during school. Since he got it, he has never once taken it off and walked out of the room that he will never set foot in again. It's hard to say goodbye to all the memories in such a short period of time. Close the door, lock the room, lock every memory in this room. Now I've chosen.

To the person you love

I'm sorry I chose to go before the 7th anniversary. our year tomorrow I probably don't remember getting married. This kind of nonsense But I remember, I remember.

Every year

I'm sorry that Aey chose to walk away. Maybe Tae Ah will be happy. I've always heard the stories Tae did behind my back. I tried to do it without realizing it, but today I really couldn't take it anymore. That woman is beautiful. He seems to really love Tae, but he says he can't love Tae as much as Tae.

I'm sorry I couldn't cook. Because of this, Tae won't come back to eat with Ae, right? Oh, I don't want to eat alone again. A large room being alone is lonely.

When I get home from work, I take off my shoes and put them in order. I'm not there to keep them for Toey anymore.

You can take your clothes down to the laundry shop downstairs and it's inexpensive.

The other day, I bought medicine to keep in my room so that in case Tae is sick, I will have medicine to take.

Don't work too hard. Do you know how to take care of your health?

Finally, I would like to return this ring to you. Return everything, every memory. I don't want to take anything away. Thank you for always being my happiness.

love

[Tae]

Came home from work and opened the door to the room and the whole room was plunged into darkness. It's been so late and you haven't come back yet? I took off my shoes, shook them off like before, didn't care about anything and went to sit on the sofa to rest. His eyes glanced at a piece of paper and a ring. He remembered a pair of rings that he never took off. Pick up the message from the paper and read it.

“I'm sorry I chose to go before our 7th anniversary. I won't remember the wedding tomorrow, right? This kind of nonsense But I remember. I remember every year.”

He didn't care about any of this. While I remember everything

“I'm sorry that Aye chose to walk away. Maybe Tae A will be happy. I've always heard the stories Tae did behind my back. I tried to do it without realizing it, but today I really couldn't take it anymore. That woman is beautiful. He looks very fond of Tae. But I guess he can't love Tae as much as I do."

He made a mistake. He was a badass. He just wanted to try something new and never thought about another person's mind.

“I'm sorry I couldn't cook. Because of this, Tae didn't come back to eat with Ae, right? Oh, I don't want to eat alone again. A big room being alone is lonely."

Another person's food is the most delicious. He was lost in the lights, colors, and sounds of the expensive restaurant outside. Even though I wait for him to eat every day.

"Come home from work and take off your shoes and put them in order. I'm not there to keep them for Toey anymore."

He really did everything for him.

“You can take your clothes down to the laundry shop downstairs. It's not expensive.”

"The other day, I bought some medicine to keep in my room. In case Tae is sick, I will have medicine to take."

"Don't work too hard. Do you know how to take care of your health?"

"Finally, I would like to return this ring to you. Return everything, every memory. I don't want to take anything away. Thank you for always being my happiness."

love

When he read up to this point, his tears couldn't be stopped, truly causing the other person to feel sad all along. He never cared about another person. Meeting new people at work, stepping into adulthood. make him indulge Forgetting the person waiting for him here. Thinking like that, he immediately dialed another person.

But if it's too late, another person will really cut him off. I've blocked his number.

Can you come back?

You really have gone wrong.

What Tae learned after Aie was away

Being alone in a large room is really lonely.

After coming home from work tired, there are people cooking and waiting for it, it's actually better than eating outside.

No one can make laundry smell as good as I do.

No, the room is very messy. Hey, are you tired from cleaning it alone? Now Tae knows that feeling.

There are many more things I want to tell you. I want you to come back and listen to it yourself.

Lastly, this man is very lucky to receive love from Aey.