To her

#MelodyOfMiChaeng

The song that inspired this story is

Jimin Park - To Him

"So me, being this close to you, doesn't match the woman of your dreams?"

To Her

...Not everyone knows that Myoimina doesn't like change...

"Have you never thought about changing the color of the bedsheets? Every time I see this color, I start thinking about whether you've ever changed the bedsheets or not?" came a disturbing voice from a younger person who had the right to enter the room and Throwing himself down on the light purple bed without asking any permission. Big eyes looked around the room where no matter how many times he entered, almost everything had never been moved from its original spot, especially the childhood photo of himself and the owner of the room that was now being taken. He acted like he was scurrying around the drawer of his desk.

“There are so many of them. Stupid kids.”

“Is this really the point of cursing at each other!?”

The frantic tone that the intruder had created deliberately made the listener unable to help sending a big hammer visually, causing a loud and pleasing laugh that could stir up the mood of the sister next door. From the bed to the point where people looking at him feel worried and annoyed at the same time.

“You'll really get your face stuck on the ground, Chaeyoung.”

"It's okay. That's all. It's very comfortable."

The rhythm of something in his left chest gradually increased as he made eye contact with the child who had changed his posture to sitting cross-legged on the bed. The intruder took his eyes off the room owner and looked around the area as if he had just entered here for the first time. First a moment passed. Dark eyes shifted back to rest on the owner of the room again.

“No matter how many times I've come in, the things in the room haven't changed at all...and Mina's as well.” Both eyebrows pressed together in dissatisfaction with something on the older man's face that Mina herself could understand. I could already guess since she was often asked by this kid with the same sentence: "When are you going to stop wearing those Harry Potter glasses?"

"Probably...until I get bored."

“Wow, until that day comes, how many hundred thousand years will they have to wait?”

“I already knew that it would be a very long time.”

“Oh, it's always like this.”

...Not everyone knows how shy 'Myoimina' is...

“When did you stop wearing glasses?” The small figure ran out to find the 'sister next door' at the edge of the field from where he had originally intended to run to collect the basketball. But because the familiar thick glasses that were once on her pretty face were gone, causing Chaeyoung to change his destination, the younger man approached him as usual. But because this time there was nothing blocking it, the distance became narrower than before, to the point that the person being asked was almost unconscious enough to command his own brain to filter out the answer.

"I'm bored..." His muffled voice and averted gaze to the ground made Mina look like a little child who secretly ate a snack and was arrested and questioned to make her confess.

"Hmmm, I got bored a lot faster than I thought." But it was faster than I thought... It's already been more than two months since that day." It seems like the response is more than enough. I'm guessing that this year's Valentine's Day, they'll definitely eat your sweets until their bellies swell. Haha!” It's such a sentence that people who listen to it can't help but feel a little sad in their hearts, every year. The person who got the most sweets and love confessions was Scout who was standing there laughing.

“If you speak nicely to yourself, that's what gets you the most candy.”

"I'm not any different, but..."

The face that leaned in so close that drops of sweat could be seen on the cheeks made the older man unintentionally look at Mina and almost forgot how to breathe...

"You're really cuter when you're not wearing glasses than when you're wearing them."

“Are you telling me I wasn't cute before!”

“No, it was cute before. But now it's cuter than before.”

"Until he started to get possessive and then I ran away and got a girlfriend first. What will he do?"

Mina had received both criticism and praise from many people. Even though her heart was shaken by other people's words, all that was shown was a small smile and a short sentence in response to the advice. Those things were not like now...

"It's been a long time since I've seen you act like this."

“Your face when you're embarrassed is considered the ultimate in cuteness that no one can compete with.”

"Don't be shy in front of anyone."

...Not everyone knows that 'Myoimina' doesn't like exercising...

“How dare you run so slowly and go back to sleep?”

"good!"

“Hey! Just kidding!” A warm, sweaty palm reached out and grabbed the older man, hardly having had the time to dig the body of the next door sister out of the bed this early in the morning. It was not something that could happen easily, especially with The two of us will go jogging together in the morning sun. This is hardly necessary to mention because Mina is a homebody and rarely goes out. Every day, he just played games and went to bed late at night. Even though he didn't like playing much before, it was curious why there weren't any dark circles under the other person's eyes.

"Do you exercise often? The reason why you often get sick in the winter is because you don't like to exercise like this."

“Just like you refuse to eat your vegetables!”

"It's not the same. It's a bitter vegetable."

“Running is tiring.”

"Oh, you're really good at arguing." Who started first?

“Anyway, find a way to exercise that you are good at. Don't get sick too often."

"He's worried about you."

...Not everyone knows that 'Myoimina' likes to write a diary before going to bed almost every night...

“This year's birthday present.” Something that was beautifully wrapped in the birthday person's favorite colored wrapping paper. Mina received the gift from her neighbor with a smile on her face. Even if Chaeyoung didn't tell her, she would have already guessed what her gift was since it's been like this...for almost 5 years now.

Chaeyoung's handmade diary is still one of the novelties that Mina is always excited about. Some years ago, the little girl accidentally sewed a piece of paper with her own style doodles on it. A diary book that I would even give to you, but of course...Mina would never tell.

“Thank you.”

“Can I change my thanks to fried chicken? I'm really hungry right now. I've been waiting here since noon."

Every birthday party since we've known each other at home has ended at the dining room table, mixed with the chatter of the adults while the two children choose to go up to the birthday person's room to talk. instead And this year - Son Chaeyoung came up to explore Myoi's room. Mina again (even though she comes up often)

“They say that soon my bookshelf will definitely be replaced by the diary that he made. Look, wow, both the one he made and the one I bought. Do you write a diary of 7 pages a day?”

Damn it!

"Do not touch"

“There really are a lot of secrets.”

Even though she was the person who had the most opportunity to enter Mina's room, one thing that Chaeyoung barely managed to enter was the bookshelf next to the table that the older man used to store his personal diary. Chaeyoung also has the manners to not read other people's private information without permission.

...but it's not that I don't doubt that there's a secret inside...

...Not everyone knew how much Myoimina hated the sound of thunder...

The sound of the sky roaring from outside the school building made both hands that were opening the umbrellas weak, Mina felt like she wanted to go back and sit inside the building and wait until the rain subsided. But from the dark clouds seen right now, if the rain fell, it would definitely not stop falling easily.

His delicate hand gripped the mobile phone with determination before dialing the 10 digit number he remembered by heart. Lift it up to your ear for just a few seconds. The voice of the person she wanted to hear suddenly sounded louder.

“I don't dare go home alone. Please wait. Today they have cleaning duty.”

"Uh, hurry up."

After nearly fifteen minutes of being alone in an atmosphere that Mina never liked at all, the wind began to blow harder, signaling a storm that was approaching, competing with her already dwindling patience. A flash of light from outside caused both hands to automatically cover their ears.

"vigorous!"

collapse...

The backs of both hands felt the warmth of the smaller palms and the familiar scent of baby powder eased the nerves that were tense due to fear.

"Sorry, I waited so long, right?"

Even if you wait longer than this, you can still wait. At least you don't have to go home alone while still worrying about when the rain will fall.

“We'd better hurry home.”

The palm was warm, almost hot, holding one of her hands...

Mina felt that it was even warmer than when she wore 3 layers of sweaters.

And the only thing that no one knew about 'Myoimina'…

“And... another strawberry flavor.” It's been a long time since I went out with Chaeyoung. The same ice cream flavor was ordered by the person sitting across from me. The bright smile that was sent back made my heart ache indescribably just thinking that there was someone else who received it as well...or maybe it was more than just a feeling of envy that built up in my heart to the point that I hated myself.

“Last week he and Zi just tried the blueberry flavor, it was delicious too.” Why was her new conversation starter? The name of that person must be involved.

“I already ordered it, why did you just tell me?”

"I just remembered this. Should we order more later?"

“Better not”…I don't like it.

“I'm on a diet right now.”

“This is a diet! Do you know that you're too skinny?” Her furrowed eyebrows and tightly pursed lips clearly show her emotions--a person who can express her feelings so innocently.

“Are you too thin? Who knows this kind of thing better than you yourself? Huh?” But actually, Chaeyoung was right. I lost a lot of weight from exercising. Because if compared Zhou Ziwi was also quite thin, even thinner than me. What kind of woman does she like?

Our conversation was cut short when two bowls of ice cream were served and I slowly devoured them. Maybe it's because my body doesn't want to eat sweets right now. Chaeyoung's ice cream was almost half gone while the ice cream in my bowl barely diminished at all.

“So...how are things with Tzuyu?” I had to say that name even though it was sore in my heart. But I don't deny that I still want to know the situation of the two people's relationship. At one point I thought I wanted that child to be a bad woman and abandon the little child in front of me, but just thinking about it. Chaeyoung's sad face...I'd rather be the one who regrets it.

“Good, we get along well.”

“So, that's good.”

It's so envious...even though I'm this close to you.

The kind of personality that will make you like me, I know all about it.

I have changed from before, like a different person.

Doesn't it still match the woman of your dreams?

“This is Chaeyoung-ah..”

“Hmm?”

Chaeyoung looked up and I looked at him for a moment and didn't say anything until the person who was called had to repeat my name. The bewildered face didn't seem to understand my actions at all before her eyes widened as she noticed something.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you crying?"

"No, it's like your eyes are dry."

I pretended to rub my eyes before excusing myself to the bathroom, thanking myself that I was wearing contact lenses today and using it as an excuse to get the thick-framed glasses I had handy and put them on again. It had been a long time since I had worn glasses outside. A house like this Look at the woman in the mirror who has changed back to her old self and smile.

...Just a few more minutes, Minari, please be patient a little more...

Chaeyoung looked as surprised as the first time she saw me change to wearing contact lenses. When she saw me wearing glasses, she smiled slightly before speaking first, “When I saw you wearing glasses, I missed you too.”

I can only smile in response.

You still remember everything about me, what I like, and what I fear.

But I never knew...that the reason why I changed was all because of you.

“But what are you going to tell him now?”

“Chaeyoung...”

"I'm going to study in Japan."

I'm not really sure how I got home.

Chaeyoung was shocked for a moment before his face was replaced with one of confusion and confusion. I didn't explain much and didn't think to answer the various questions the other person asked even in one sentence, just in time for the call. Entering from his phone, the owner's name and number ending with a heart emoticon made me turn away.

One of the reasons I chose to tell her today was because it was the day Tzuyu went to an audition at a company somewhere and Chaeyoung had volunteered to take her there. Chaeyoung's tone when answering the phone was not pleasant. how much But I think she's probably trying her hardest to keep her tone from being too harsh.

I'm sure Chaeyoung would never have refused the date. The kid who was slightly taller than before stood up after hanging up the phone. The tone I like to hear tells me we need to talk again in the evening.

Let's talk again, shall we?

"Minari, are you finished yet?"

“It's finished, Mom.”

I looked at the bookshelf that now had nothing on it. All the diaries were boxed up by me except for one… the latest diary that Chaeyoung gave me as a birthday present this year.

I smile at it...

...as if smiling at the person who gave it to him

“Auntie!” The frantic voice of the person running up to her caused Mrs. Myoi to have to tell the little girl to take a break for a moment and then speak, “P...Huh. What about you, Mina?”

“Oh, didn't he tell you that he was going to Japan today?” Chaeyoung felt like he had been hit in the middle of the head with a hammer. The feeling of pain in his chest continued in waves when he heard the next sentence. I'm surprised they didn't see us send him off together."

“The machine...has left?”

“Yes.”

Suddenly, my own body felt heavy, as if there was a stone weighing it down. Doubts and feelings of displeasure all hit together.

“Actually, Minari, please give me something. Up in the room I saw that if you went up and saw it, you would know for yourself.”

The diary that I had been working on for many days without sleep came back into the hand of the giver.

The letters that were familiar to the heartless person were slightly blurred by the warm water dripping onto the paper.

I've never thought about wearing contact lenses. It hurts my eyes to death. Do you know how long it took me to get out of the house when I first changed to wearing them? The reason she complains every morning when I'm slow is because of her. Know this too.

I signed up for the cheer club because dancing might be the only thing that keeps me from getting too tired of exercising because she said she didn't want to worry about me when I was sick. But actually, I want to go back to being a sick person like before. Hearing her complaints in the winter every year feels much better.

I don't like playing games. But it was because of her that she liked to go out and play with her male friends at the game center until I had to learn how to play. Did you know that before I could train until I was good enough to compete with her, I had to run and vomit in the bathroom because of the game she liked so much?

I don't like ice cream. Why do you like it so much? But let's face it, seeing you eat in exchange for money for ice cream that I ate less than half of, it's not so bad.

I really love my hands. You know that, right? But because you once told a friend that you like a girl who can play the guitar. I went and practiced until I was completely skilled, but when I started playing I became good at it. Before she could show off her skills, she ended up meeting someone who played better than me. Plus, that person is her type that she likes everything about.

It hurt too when she told me she had a boyfriend.

When she talked about that person, my heart was full of envy.

I'm sorry that I wasn't patient enough and had to stubbornly run away from problems like this.

But when I think about it, I can change a few things. It probably wasn't enough to make her notice.

I feel bad too, like everything I've tried to do has been useless.

I'm not the kind of woman you like, not at all.

...no way...

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