I Am Jam

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Hello, my name is Jam--Jam. Bassist and band leader

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There are four members in my band: me, Birthday, Pa Paeng and Pa Puean. We are the biggest rock band in Thailand.

I have a story I want to tell. Since I'm a person who doesn't like to talk much about myself, this is how I fell in love with a boy. He was... a singer in my band.

What should I say? Just seeing his face made me so fascinated. I immediately fell in love with this child. I'm glad we seemed to bond so quickly. I'm so glad that Birthday seemed to get along so well with me.

My nickname is the jade-faced bassist. This nickname isn't a joke because everyone says I'm very handsome.

Haha, I'm not narcissistic. But the people around him say so, is it true?

I am a co-worker with Pa Paeng. We were co-workers at the recording studio together from the beginning before we met on Birthday and friends.

Pa Paeng… I don't know if he views me as a friend or not. Because Pa Paeng has relationships with other people on a professional level. But we are the closest to each other, I think... Both in the recording studio...and in the band...

I wouldn't mind if Phaeng and I were really close friends who weren't co-workers. I myself am not a person who has many friends.

Let's continue with the story of me and Birthday.

I'm really happy when my birthday looks so beautiful.

Ah… I think I'm not gay. Yes, I'm not gay. But I think people just fall in love with someone.

I've had female girlfriends too. But it didn't become a long-lasting relationship until when Papaeng and I saw a birthday announcement on A4 paper...

Let me call it '

In the Evening of Fate’ ‘

An Evening of Destiny' Yes, I think I made a mistake by going to the restaurant on my birthday at that time...

I fell in love… a lot.

His eyes are gray. I tried to look and look again. Do you think I'm a foreigner? Haha, I'm so awkward.

Actually, I'm a person who doesn't like to talk much. I don't usually express my emotions and feelings. But today I would like to speak openly for all of you to hear.

You don't need a love program to interview me. But I want to tell you. Actually, Birthday... seems to be very close to my friend. Pa Paeng came to ask me about this matter. It's not that I don't think, but I do. My heart is unhappy when I think Is that birthday something to do with your friend?

My friend is a drummer. Very cool madman It's probably the type that Birthday likes more than me.

Pa Paeng expressed his opinion that Birthday would probably have something to do with Pa Paeng before. In fact, when I listened to it I was very annoyed. I can't help but think about it. I wouldn't have minded that day when we were drinking beer together. Birthday with me won't...

I'm not very close to my friends. It would be a simple and understandable reason.

...It's like that... because there are 'some things' that are deeply hidden, sometimes... I tried to penetrate deep into the heart of Birthday. But I can't predict it because I don't know what his true heart is.

On my birthday he tried to show me more intimacy. I felt apprehensive because I was afraid of my own heart. I think I'm trying to create distance. But it's hard to endure when we have hearts.

I want to be close to this boy. I really like him. His face is beautiful. A beautiful, prominent nose, handsome like a Greek god. Even though at first it looked a bit disheveled, I knew that like on my birthday, if I could get it to improve my appearance, it would be...

The first day we gathered to take pictures together.

I'm standing with Pa Paeng. Because we still weren't able to get close to the other two siblings during that time.

I stood and talked with Pa Paeng. Riding in a car or airplane, whatever, it's me and Pa Paeng. As for his birthday, he went with his friends.

After some time

I noticed that Birthday started to look at me… I admit that I'm confident. Because I myself am not brave enough... Just like I said. I never thought of myself as gay, but I… with him, it was really unbearable.

I dated him But the pain came in waves.

I always realized that Birthday probably loved his friends more, like myself. It wasn't the type that Birthday would like. I could only watch that child grow up… Even though I know that in his eyes I may not have hair at all.

I'm happy. But at the same time I also have suffering. The time with Birthday by my side is a happy time.

If someone asks if I'm bisexual, right? Probably couldn't deny it because I really fell in love with him...

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