'Am I dead yet?'

When I first felt it, the pain in my heart arose again. It was really painful, so painful that I thought I couldn't stand it any longer. If it continued like this, my heart might stop beating, I felt. I feel so sorry for my own heart... I put my hand on my own chest feeling guilty.

'I'm sorry this person is too weak.'

I felt lost and thought I was somewhere in the emptiness of this world.

In fact, I myself want to die and let him know and survive. As soon as I realized where I was, the damn tears started flowing out like a broken dam. I can't remember how long I've been crying or how many tears there were.

'Why don't I just die?'

I opened my eyelids slightly and glanced around to see if those people were still following me. This annoyance was the only thing that could stop my gloom for a moment.

'Damn it!!'

They haven't gone anywhere. I think it must be some pervert who is secretly watching me. I just want to lie still. I've been seeing them all this time and they're still following me like that. Those people were both men and women. I didn't want to think about it myself. Sometimes I thought there were other people they knew wandering around here.

They probably wouldn't follow me. I just want to stay quiet before they just stare at me. But now I tend to see them more and more often. I'm starting to dislike it so don't mess with me!

'crass!!'

I accidentally think of a rude word. I don't think of words like that often, but just thinking of them helps calm my mood a little when I'm sad. The feeling right now is so painful in my chest..I'm starting to cry again.

'Crazy!!'

I was so tired and exhausted that I probably just slept for a long time because I was drunk or hungover. But normally I don't drink. There might be times when I want to drink. I'm a soft drink. But his body probably said he couldn't sleep any longer.

Now it feels like my hand is touching something. It must be grass. I felt my hand around and it was really grass. I must have been lying on the grass and could smell the smell. Hmm..it smells nice and fresh like these grasses.

'So where am I?'

'I feel like I'm familiar with this place too.'

I don't know how I got here, but now I'm here and I really can't remember and don't even remember drinking. I slowly opened my eyelids. The sky looked empty and vast..

But it's good too! It's empty like me..

'I don't have the sky anymore...'

The sky that is a real person is not the sky in the sky..she used to be the person I loved..my sky reminds me of her again, probably because of the sky that makes me think of her, I don't want to open my eyes and wake up. But if that were true, I would probably have to die before I would ever have to wake up again. I slowly closed my eyes, not wanting to see anything again, even though the memories in my brain were still thinking about her.

A cool breeze blows through..gently..bringing in the cool vapor of the water droplets with a feeling of freshness, calm, lightness and comfort. My body is like being one with everything around me. My favorite song rose in my heart.

'The wind of love blows..please don't take love away.. Don't blow it for her. Keep us far apart...if the wind hears my heart, please be merciful for once. Let love be together, let you be with me forever....'

'For a long time...forever..forever'

"You!!"

"you.."

"you?"

I heard a small woman's voice wake me up from my reverie. Her voice sounded sweet and bright, the kind of woman's voice I like. I like this girl's sweet voice..

'Who is she?'

I immediately opened my eyes. The first thing that caught my eye was a young woman's face in front of me, which almost startled me. She was looking down at me until the tips of her long, waving hair nearly stuck into my eyes. Those big, clear eyes stared down with expressions of wonder and surprise.

'Is it the sky? I thought and blinked a few times to make the blurry image of her clearer.'

'Not the sky'

But she looked so beautiful that I almost smiled again! Why am I like this but she is really beautiful? A woman's beauty is the first thing that catches everyone's gaze.

"Uh.."

I couldn't say anything yet because I was composing the words in my head. She spoke to me first.

"Why are you sleeping here?"

I blinked, I didn't know what to answer her. It was as if I hadn't spoken to anyone in a long time like that. My brain was completely distorted. Why was it so difficult to say something like this? My mouth clenched and I tried to make out the words.

"Uh.."

As my brain processed the words, she laughed. Her laugh was bright. I haven't heard laughter like this in a long time. I smiled at her, I really smiled.

“You look good too. You really look as handsome as a model.”

She suddenly complimented me until I felt embarrassed. In fact, I've known this since I was a child and everyone said I was good-looking. Even when I was a teenager, there were some girls who flirted with me. I'm a bit narcissistic too, thinking about it and accidentally smiling.

"Uh.."

She didn't get any answer from me until she stopped paying attention to me and moved to sit next to me. She raised her legs up and wrapped her hands around her knees, looking at the pool. I glanced at her looking ahead. The corners of her mouth lifted up in a slight smile. She looked at ease. I rolled my eyes back and forth. I had to do something. I was going to lie stiffly, spread my arms and legs comfortably and let the woman sit still and be alone, not paying attention to her at all. It would probably look a bit disrespectful.

'I must get up.'

I thought as I slowly bobbed my head and pushed myself up to sit with my spread legs retracted into a meditation position. I slowly turned to look. She was resting her chin on her knees. I couldn't help but notice her beautiful, well-shaped face. Her eyes, nose, and mouth were very beautiful when seen from the side like this. Thin, plump pink lips smiled slightly, as if they had caught me secretly looking at her, my heart pounding in my chest.

Suddenly, she turned her head and looked until I was startled and couldn't turn away from her. Damn it! I almost forgot to breathe. She is very beautiful and cute. Her eyes are clear and have a mischievous glint. She looks like a child. I really like her face. I think she has a cheerful expression like a child without suffering.

"hello..."

The first words that came out of my mouth automatically I haven't spoken to a woman in a long time since me and Fah parted. I don't remember anything. She smiled back at me as well. Her smile is innocent like she has nothing to worry about. I like that kind of smile on her face.

"You can talk."

She teased me while laughing. I really like her bright laugh.

'What the hell happened to me?'

She looked so cute that I had to laugh often. The two of us looked so similar when it came to laughter, we had just exchanged a few words. Actually, I talk to people very easily, even though I sometimes seem introverted.

I just realized that I don't feel the pain in my heart anymore!! I healed the pain easily like that. Fold it open! I really surprised myself. Is she an angel or something to make my heart heal in such a short time?

I secretly observed and considered her. Her curly brown hair was long and flowing, making her look even sexier. I thought she looked like a star or that she was a star. In fact, I haven't seen any movies, dramas, or series in a long time, since No Fah, and I haven't. I've seen this woman before.

"Uh..you?"

I'm still a bit nervous and awkward, but I should talk to her.

"What should I call you?"

It's a nice word, I think. It just popped up in my head. When we wanted to get to know the woman we had just met for the first time, I couldn't think of the words, my brain was still blurry.

"The wind."

"My name is Wind"

Her mischievous eyes searched my face and gave me a sweet smile. I felt that I was in love with her smile.

'I'm so ashamed of myself..I'm embarrassed'

I felt comfortable meeting this girl. Normally, I don't talk to people I don't know, but I smile with her all the time, so I don't know if I'm drunk or dreaming, but right now, at this time, I'm talking to her. Suddenly, she brings her beautiful face closer to me, causing me to lose my mind.

I leaned away from that beautiful face, extremely nervous. My hands were shaking. I'm not one to take chances. She laughed at my clunky hand gestures.

"What about you? What is your name?"

Oh, my heart is about to fail! My heart was pounding earlier. I still feel pain and life will die. And right now, my heart is beating so fast and fast like a drum. How can I stutter and answer her?

"I..my name is..?"

'Damn it! Really crazy! I forgot almost everything I even forgot my name. What did I eat?'

“You called me. And you acted like you saw a ghost. And I still can't remember my own name." She laughed at me.

"Ha!! I'm calling you." What kind of joke was she playing on me?

"I didn't call anyone. Since when did I call you?”

“Let it be. I'm glad to meet you even though it's our first time meeting each other."

"Ouch, my head hurts!!" My head really hurts.

I tried to remember my name and contemplated her arrival, but my head ached so hard that I held my head in my hands. Or was it that I was drunk and grabbed her? Is she selling services? But I've never used these services! When did she meet me? I'm so confused.

“Anyway, I'm here now. Let's talk."

"wind"

“Did you know that your name is the same as mine? Our names have the same meaning."

She said that name in a sweet voice and put both her arms on my shoulders.

'Oh, I can't breathe, what else are you going to do? It's almost there!'

I leaned my face away in extreme embarrassment. I was shaking. She tilted her head to look at me and giggled.

How can she tease me and still call me 'wind'? Is this my name? Why does she know? I'm starting to wonder.

"Why do you know me?"

“I know you, Wind. Know everything about you, who you are, what's inside your heart."

She looked deep into my eyes with a look of love. I could feel the flow of pure love like a gentle breeze wrapping around me. A warm feeling arose inside my heart and I fell into a state of strange happiness.

"Lom, you are a good person. You have a gentle heart Even though that woman of you doesn't see But I see you."

'wind'

I was immersed in a momentary blissful reverie until she removed her hand from my shoulder. Even though I like that feeling of happiness But I feel worried..she looks so cute and gentle, I'm afraid I won't be able to restrain myself. I think it's better to stay away from her for now.

"Sailom, where do you come from?" I invite her to talk like we're new friends just getting to know each other.

"So I'm your breeze. Your favorite breeze The wind of love"

Here we go again! Who are you, or am I just so drunk that I'm in a trance? I shook my head back and forth, trying to think and think. The sound of the music I like enters my ears.

'The wind of love blows Please don't take my love away...'

“How did I come and I won't leave you? The wind will be with you forever. Promise..."

"contract.."

I heard those words again and my heart began to prick up. Heaven promised me this, but heaven left me.. My heart was hollow again. The wind had a dull expression on my sad face as well. She reached out her hand to hold both sides of my cheek. with my chin raised The wind stared deep into my eyes. I could see the deep concern in their eyes.

“I am truly your breeze and will always be by your side. Believe me."

“Lom..you will be the only one who can see me. You will be the only one who knows me the most. And I know you better than anyone you've ever met.”

She lightly kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes and felt the warm sensation spread through every molecule of my body, just like I had experienced as a child. She pulled me into a hug and I could feel the pure love she sent me. I have long forgotten the warm, gentle touch of this life.

Now I don't care what or who she is anymore. Just having the wind be with me like this forever. It's the best thing for me..

'You are my breeze now'

My eyes glanced towards them. that keeps hanging around here

'That's it! They started gossiping again.'

I can understand it. People who like to gossip like this have always existed in society. They are probably jealous that they can't stand to see me happy. One of the women in the group walked towards me.

"Lom! Who are you talking to?"

I rolled my eyes and looked at her supporting my head and the wind. And she called my name right too!

But that's it. How dare she ask? We don't know each other at all. But if she wants to know, I'll tell her. I turned to look at the wind lovingly. I felt a little embarrassed.

“This woman's name is Wind. She's beautiful and cute, right?!"

I smile with extreme pride. The wind is a very beautiful woman. But above all, the gentle voice that called my name is etched in my heart. Including the way she treated me with love, she touched me in my heart and I will definitely never be able to take my eyes off the wind...

"She is.."

"It's the wind that will be with me forever."

I can only think of these words based on my inner feelings without pretending. I feel so good about the breeze even though we've only met for a short time.

"I don't see anyone here?"

This woman sat down and looked at me carefully as she turned to look at her friends.

I hesitated and hesitated to talk to her, but she didn't understand anything. I turned towards the wind, who was now laughing. She was not at all displeased by this young woman's curiosity. She just watched and made a silly face, making me almost unable to hold back my smile and laughing along with her as well. It really is a matter of the two of us that other people will never understand.

"Can you go home? I'll take you. The people at your house must be very worried."

"Looking at your condition right now."

She spoke to me like a person who is kind to fellow humans. But even though I may seem so drunk that I can't remember anything, But I know what I should do!

"No problem. Thank you for your kindness. But I can take care of myself. You go. I want some alone time with..."

I turned and smiled at the wind again. She was sitting with her chin resting and giving me a cheeky smile. She really was like a little child. Everything around her was bright. The others didn't make the wind seem worried at all.

"Are you sure? That I will stay here and not go home!”

I think she was too busy with me and I was too lazy to explain the wind. She and those people would probably never understand.

“Excuse me, did you not hear what I said? that I will be here Stop messing with me!!"

I put emotion into my voice and it worked. She stood up as if to express her displeasure. and turned and walked back out to her friends. Actually, I'm a very polite person, but if I start to feel dissatisfied, I can get angry too. I smiled at my role.

I have a plan with the wind. We will go for a walk around this large pond together. There is a small cement walkway all around. This is a large public pond with exercise stations and play equipment dotted around it. I've been here before and used to go up and play with the kids for fun. After that, we'll go find something to eat. There are good, delicious restaurants around here. I really like to eat.

"Does the wind like to eat?" Lom likes to eat a lot."

The wind turned and smiled widely at me, her eyes sparkling with joy like a little child getting to travel. She nodded her head in complete agreement. I thought she must be a foodie like me. I smiled widely at her. I felt really happy, as if there were just the two of us in this world.

'I feel really good'

I thought I might have been here before...but now I have the wind on my side.

"We went for a walk. Then let's find something to eat."

I invited her and stood up and held out my hand to the wind. I pulled her up until I staggered and felt a sharp headache, probably from sleeping too long like that. The wind laughed at my staggering. She hurriedly supported me. Until I had to laugh and embarrass myself.

'It all fits my image, but actually I have to be the one who protects and takes care of women! But right now I have almost no strength left.'

We walked hand in hand through the exercise equipment. Sometimes we climbed onto a small bridge that was for children to climb and play on. We both spent time playing together like children in the wind. We sat on the swing and I rocked the swing for her and then pretended to swing harder and harder. She turned around and shouted at me while laughing. We really had a lot of fun spending time together.

'I don't know who she is or what we are. But now she's with me Beside me now Just like this, I'm satisfied...'

Restaurant next to a large reservoir. There is a variety of food that is delicious and very famous. Customers often stop by continuously. I got a seat at the water's edge with a clear view of the pond. The atmosphere here is shady and cool. I look at the breeze eating delicious food with happiness. I feel very satisfied.

"Can Sai Lom eat spicy food?" I asked as I served her some very spicy food.

"Alright, when you're done eating you can spit fire." She said jokingly until I burst out laughing.

"Wind? The chalky-faced woman at the table looked at you often. You're quite charming."

Laughing at her words, I glanced at the nearby table where a few women were whispering and looking at me. True to her words, I smiled sheepishly.

“They probably think I'm the only one laughing!! I didn't come to be charmed by anything. Well, the wind told me. That no one can see you."

For a second, I thought that something miraculous must have happened to my life and that I had accidentally met the wind. She is nice to a stranger like me. Even though we just met, I don't understand myself that I feel good for her and I don't want to find any reason for my headache.

'I don't have any pain anymore... I have the wind with me here. It's the best and I'm very happy right now..'

I saw both her beautiful body and heart. I reached out and touched that beautiful face without realizing it.

Suddenly!!!!

Someone's strong hands locked me from behind and a few men rushed over to hold me.

'What is this!! Who are you?'

"What will you do?!"

"Let go of me!"

I tried to resist with all my might. Everything happened so quickly.

"Let go!!! You crazy people!!!"

Before I could think of a reason or answer, they stuck a cloth over my mouth and nose. My eyes widened and I looked towards the wind, who looked shocked and worried, and I was most worried about her in my life. Who are they and what are they going to do to me?

'For a fraction of a second My senses suddenly disappeared!'

A Thai man lost consciousness after being anesthetized. His older sister and a few of her friends were pushing a patient in a wheelchair. Take him into the hospital. A treatment facility for psychiatric patients as specified on their ID card

Mr. Panthakarn Wisutkamon, age 30 years

After taking the male patient into the first admission process As had been informed and made an appointment one week earlier. Officials took the patient's older sister to meet with the psychiatrist and began to ask about the young man's history.

Panthakarn Wisutkamon, a young man with a handsome face, tall and slender, with a good complexion. He graduated with a master's degree from America in Business Administration. He is the only son of the family and has one older sister. The young man came from an old aristocratic family. His ancestors were military officers descended from Chao Phraya in the palace. The young man's family had earned income from partnerships in several major commercial banks since their inception. It has been growing in the country since the generations of grandparents.

His father and mother owned an old antique store with hundreds of priceless antiques. Each antique has a very high value. In fact, Panthakarn's family did not have to have any profession. They had enough to eat and live for the rest of their lives, making this young man's life complete in every aspect since he was born.

During Pankan's birth, it was winter, and a cool breeze blew through. The romantic, dreamy atmosphere in which the family Wisutkamon was born the first son of the family. His father and mother gave him a nickname.

'wind'

Since the day he was born, the boy had never had anything cause the child any suffering or hardship. Boy Lom Somboon's life was full and comfortable with a warm and loving family until he grew up and met a beautiful woman, 'Namfah', who was a friend studying in the same university.

The talented young man immediately fell in love with her at first sight. 'Namfah' is a very beautiful and charming young woman who has many young men at the university flirting with her. But Namfah chooses to be in a relationship with Pankan. before he had to study abroad

Namfah is a beautiful young woman with a good figure and a talkative personality. She is good at studying, is a star in the faculty, and is also an avid activist. The young woman comes from a middle-class family. She is a person who dreams and aims to be successful in life. Wanting to have her own business, she took additional lessons part-time about running a business. The young woman chose to date Lom because he made her feel comfortable in a relationship. The young man understood who she was even though Namfah had friends. Men are always around each other when they are studying or doing activities together.

But Pankarn never showed signs of jealousy or scolded her in any way, even though the girl didn't have much time for him as a girlfriend. Throughout their relationship, the young man was always the one who listened to her stories. Pankan loves Namfa very much and he wants to see her happy surrounded by the things she loves.

He wants to see her succeed in what she dreams of. The young man plans to create a family with Fah and take care of each other for the rest of his life. The pair made a promise to each other in the future. After Pankan graduated with a bachelor's degree, the young man had to study abroad, which took two years to complete.

At that time, the young man maintained a long-distance relationship by using email to communicate with his lover due to the time difference between hemispheres. He used to call her sometimes but didn't talk much because she had to start work and rest.

Lately, he hasn't been able to call her again. The girl's mother will answer the phone instead. After that, it will be Phankarn who sends long messages telling stories about his feelings and what he encountered here. Let her know Amidst the silence of the relationship The girl responded briefly a few days after he sent her a message.

But the young man understood that she was probably busy. His love for heaven had never changed, even though the only thing that nourished his heart was a short message from the person he loved, which meant a lot to his heart. My The young man always understood his lover until the day he graduated and was returning to Thailand.

The young man was very happy. The first person he wanted to see and see was the person he loved. Panthakarn wanted to surprise her. He knew her house well. When the plane landed at the airport, he immediately took a taxi to the girl's house, which happened to be a company holiday.

'His blue water must definitely be at home...'

The sister of this psychiatric patient broke down in tears as she recounted the heartbreaking story of her only brother, the day he returned to Thailand and rushed to meet his lover. The photo of the young woman He loved hugging a young man and laughing sweetly with that young man. As a newlywed couple who had only been married for less than a month, a close older sister like her could feel her feelings. My brother's pain and suffering are good. No matter how broken his heart was, it was good that he still had the nerve to return home safely.

After that day, her younger brother kept himself in his room and didn't talk to anyone. Every time she went in, the family would see him lying on the bed crying tears, not eating, not sleeping, not doing anything, not even taking a shower, and not wanting anyone to enter her brother's room, drowning in sorrow. She was so sad and cried so much that her father and mother could hardly accept it and began to fall ill.

Later, he started talking incoherently and disappeared from the house. Several times she tried to take him to see a doctor but he always yelled at him, said there was nothing wrong and threatened to harm himself if she bothered him.

Pankarn's condition became more and more severe. Everyone in the house had been suffering for years until her mother was heartbroken, sick and died, and lately she herself had a congenital disease and had to take care of her father who had a stroke. Broken due to accumulated stress Therefore, she did not have time to immediately search for her younger brother when he disappeared from the house and

All she could do was call her friends and close relatives to help find her. There were many times when he disappeared from home for several days until someone he knew saw him walking along the road and she would ask friends to help look after him and would always find him lying in that pond. Where he used to have memories with his lover until the day her father died. She herself was sad and almost depressed, along with her younger brother.

Until one day, she encountered the Buddha's Dharma and used it as a spiritual refuge to heal herself from then on. And she felt sorry that she had come to study the Buddha's Dharma too late, otherwise her younger brother and family members Her mind would probably be stronger and everyone would be able to live together happily.

After that, the girl and everyone who was his friend all thought that they couldn't let him live like this any longer because he ran off to live on the streets. His body began to become thin and injured. Her younger brother, who used to be a good-looking man with a good complexion, a good education, and a good position, turned out to be a wandering lunatic.

Searching for items in trash cans near the lake to satisfy hunger. His figure was thin. His hair was shredded, his beard was unkempt, his body looked ragged, dirty, and his skin was rough. And now that the sole of his foot was so cracked that it was dripping with blood, she felt sorry for her own brother...

But from now on, her younger brother will be taken care of and in a better environment. Tears from Rin's elder sister streamed down her cheeks as she told herself that she had done her best as the sole older sister of the young man who had grieved and lost himself because of love...

“Thank you very much, doctor. Please take care of him. He has suffered enough.”

"Don't worry. Your brother will receive medicine and he will definitely receive good care. He will be safe here.”

"The shady atmosphere here will help him relax more."

A young psychiatrist with a kind appearance told her gently.

...1 month has passed...

Panthakarn sat cross-legged on the grass next to a large pond in the psychiatric hospital. His hair had been trimmed and his beard had been shaved until his face looked much refreshed. The young man was in a light blue patient's uniform. His complexion looked much cleaner and his figure was plump and not as thin as when he first arrived.

The young man looked much better in the eyes of all the doctors and officials here. His good-looking and handsome manhood began to shine through for everyone to see.

"The wind has returned to me!"

I trembled, my voice trembling with joy as tears welled up and streamed down both sides of my cheeks. I turned to look at the wind.

'The wind really came back to me.'

She looked at me with eyes of tenderness and a warm smile, making me miss her so much. I held that sweet face up to the wind. Her face was still as beautiful and bright as when we first met. Let's meet.

I turned and looked around. People here are still watching and following me from a distance. But they are very nice to me and we talk sometimes when I feel lonely.

"I miss you so much, Wind. Are you okay?"

"Don't you ever leave me again. I've been waiting for you all this time. I thought you'd disappear You really came to me as promised. There's probably only you. That follows the promise...the wind"

"I will definitely come back because I am your breeze."

"wind"

"I will always be close to you and only you will be able to touch me...I told you."

"The wind loves the wind very much."

The wind reaches out to embrace Bandhakan or wind Hug back with those warm arms for a long time..

Male psychiatric patient smiling happily He was cheerful and cheerful, smiling and laughing in a good mood. The image that appeared to the officers' eyes was that of Pankarn Wisutkamon, who was embracing himself like he was hugging someone affectionately, with a smile of happiness plastered on the young man's handsome face.

...The wind will be by his side forever...

Epilogue

This short story writing Wright based it on stories that actually existed and could be found in society. There are many people who are disappointed by love stories and cannot accept the reality. They created a shield to protect against that pain with new stories based on their limitless imagination and disconnected from the real world until they became psychiatric patients that we see everywhere.

The author has tried to interpret the identity of the wind in terms of crossing time and space. The wind might come from the future where she is in the 5th dimension.

Unconditional Love

The wind character has unconditional love. She may hear and feel the wind's suffering. So I was able to pass the time to give him pure love.

Or in another way, the wind character is another spirit of the wind. The awakened mind is

Self Love

of himself who has discovered healing for his own soul by knowing how to truly love himself.....

??'?Hope that all readers will have fun and enjoy the imagination of the author's writing that takes information from various aspects of the story and arranges it into a story. This new writer would like to thank you for reading. Thank you for following and supporting my writing this time❤

With love

Sun of the moon