"She's gone......gone, never to return." A smooth voice rang out. The tall figure suddenly threw himself onto the bed the size of two people. Before casting his eyes blankly, he looked at the ceiling that looked familiar like every day. But what was different was the empty bed next to him, with no shadow of a person beside him. The person who made him know the feeling called 'love' for the first time.

The young man sat up and looked around the house they had lived in for more than five years. The old, nostalgic atmosphere still floated around. Everywhere you look, you can see only the memories you once had together gradually popping up, one scene at a time. All the appliances that are lined up are filled with the scent of nostalgia.

Makes him feel like she hasn't left yet. Just leave the house to go to work.

The young man shook his head vigorously to dispel such thoughts. He walked over to the sink, hoping that the cool water would help soothe his feverish heart.

The reflection on the mirror revealed a sad face. A bushy green beard that had not yet been neatly trimmed. The eye area was bruised and red. He squinted his eyes at the toiletries that still showed signs of being used until recently. Before he pursed his lips tightly as if he was holding back something.

“Maybe I need to start thinking about moving house.”

After contemplating for a while He decided to go and lie back on his favorite sofa in the living room. A thick, soft, comfortable touch embraced the young man little by little until he fell asleep again.

In my dreams, everything returned to the way it was before. He and his lover still live together like every other day.

“Sa.....

Sa, don't go. Sa, don't go.

I'm sorry, Sa!”

Suddenly the young man was startled. My eyes widened. Tears streamed down his cheeks uncontrollably.

He missed, missed those big, gentle brown eyes. Think of the smile that, just by looking at it, can light up the whole world. I also miss the cheerful atmosphere that always radiated from her actions.

The young man thought only that if she were still with him. He should take better care of her. Pay more attention to this. I will never neglect or overlook small details again.

The word 'if' keeps popping up endlessly. But no matter how much I think about it over and over, It can only be a fantasy. It was just a thought stuck in his head.

Because in reality Those things can never be brought back again.

young man sitting still His eyes looked blankly at some place very far away. A feeling of sorrow washed over him incessantly as he recalled memories from the past, that day, the day his whole world collapsed without any warning.

That day was an ordinary day. He went to work in the morning as usual. But instead, they received shocking news like a message informing them of the death of their loved one. My memories after that were rather hazy. But what he remembers clearly is The story that he didn't come in time to check on her for the last time. And all that was seen in front of him was a cold, breathless body.

“I am extremely lucky to have met you, Nisakorn.” A sigh sounded out.

Compared to someone like him who was just an orphan in an orphanage. Meeting you was the best thing that ever happened in my life. Considering that there is not much budget for child care there. Everyone has to bite the bullet. Rely on yourself as quickly as possible. That actually resulted in his childhood and adolescence not being smooth.

But he never felt like he was lacking anything.

Until she came to change his smooth life.

A young woman is like a well in the middle of the desert that provides comfort when you are tired from living life. Let's come back to smile. and ready to overcome every obstacle ahead again

But the world is so cruel. It took away her health. Taking away the only happiness in his life.

But in the last days She's still beautiful unchanged beauty Even a serious illness cannot take away your smile. of the young woman

The young man stretched out a smile. before keeping the feelings deep in the heart

The sun sets behind the horizon. The moon soared dozens and hundreds of times. Sometimes time passes slowly. Sometimes time passes quickly without realizing it. The young man's sense of time gradually blurred.

The young man began to pick up items from the shelves, examining them one by one before carefully placing them in the crate beside him. It was as if he was recalling the memories of each item. that is both familiar and unfamiliar at the same time

Some things are filled with memories of happiness. Some things were full of laughter mixed with tears. But they all had one thing in common: they all had sentimental value to the young man. It makes you think of the past quite a bit.

He did that over and over. Sometimes I turn to sorting the items in the crate again, as if I'm not sure how to place them.

While checking for the third time to make sure that everything was prepared. Out of the corner of his eye, he suddenly caught sight of a shiny object in the corner of a desk drawer that had not been used for a long time. It was a shiny black voice recorder. The shape was so unfamiliar that one wondered if he had ever had this in his possession as well.

He pressed what he thought was the playback button to listen to the contents before deciding what to do with the device. Suddenly, a soft voice that was still etched in his memory came out. from the square object in the young man's hand

“On June 30, 2007, I tried out the voice recorder for the first time.

what ? Asked why they didn't use a telephone to record instead?

Well, I think it's a pity. If one day the machine wants to break down Or has all the data disappeared?

The memories that are kept will crumble into dust. It's better to keep something analog like a voice recorder instead.

You can also back up later. Sa wants to try making a real-time diary. It should be fun.”

The young man clicked scrolling and listened to the next message idly.

“….V.V.Come sit here quickly. Try looking it up in the dictionary.

He said that the name Raveekan means beloved like the sun.

As for Nisakhara, it also means one who has a bright glow at night.

Our name has meanings related to both the sun and the moon.

Coincidentally, V felt that they were a good match, right?

It's like we were born for each other….”

He remembered that the two of them were looking at the stars together at that time. They chatted so happily that the moon hung high above their heads. And they both fell asleep without realizing it.

“…….Today V took you to eat at the restaurant you wanted to go to. It was really nice.

I heard that the restaurant requires reservations for a month before you can enter.

I feel extremely happy. I thought I was so busy working that I forgot Sa's birthday."

The young man's heart was pumping rapidly. This made him realize many things that he had never thought about before but how precious memories would become in retrospect. Plus, in some ways, it made him feel amazed. Including being surprised as well.

“.......Ah, that's too bad, I accidentally forgot to press it. Just now Vee was sleepwalking and making strange noises. Ah! That's it."

It was the sound of his own snoring and mumbling that lasted for a full minute. It was so funny that the young man burst out laughing. His thumb subconsciously pressed the next button.

“.......I haven't recorded for a long time. I almost forgot how to use this device.

Today I went to see the doctor. He fainted until he was rushed to the hospital.

It made co-workers worry. Tomorrow I'll have to apologize and thank you for your help.

It looks like the test results are out. I'll come and listen. It's your turn now."

Silence spread throughout the room. There was only the sound of shaky breathing that could be heard.

“Guess what the doctor said?

The doctor said that Sa would only have a few months to live. One year at the most.

The disease is in its final stage. I can't take it anymore. I can't do anything.

He also said that if he had come for treatment a few months earlier, there might have been a way to help.

But to sit here and be sad would definitely not be good. It's better to go home. V must have arrived home.”

The sound of breathing suddenly faltered. The young man's trembling hands tried to open the next sound lock. and so on and so forth

“….went to another hospital. It seems like I might have to accept it….”

“….Being sad doesn't bring any benefit. Cancer doesn't go away easily. Stop thinking about it..."

"....So scared. So scared. If we die, what will happen next? What should I do? What should I do…?"

“….I have made up my mind. Since you're going to die, then live your life in a way that you won't regret it later….”

"...It hurts. It hurts. I can't take it anymore. It hurts. Please help me. I still don't want to die…."

“….Another day has passed. Good thing it's not a big deal….”

“….Try to enter me. I have to see the sunrise tomorrow….”

“...Ugh, it hurts so much. You did it. You got through it like you always do. This time it must be the same….”

Every aspect of the life of a girl named Nisakorn flows quickly. Until the final recording With a trembling heart, the young man decided to listen to the sound.

“….Ravikan, if you turn on this audio player when I'm gone, I want to tell you that I'm fine….”

lie

“….I came to terms with it a long time ago. There is nothing I regret anymore….”

All lies

“….I've had enough of it already. If I closed my eyes now, it would probably feel more comfortable.

Thank you for everything in the past. Whether it's a big or a small matter, V always makes her husband happy.

And I'm really sorry that I didn't tell V about his illness. Sa didn't want V to be worried so she hid it herself.

Because if V knew that Sa would not have long to live, she would definitely be very sad. I don't want to see V sad while he's still alive.

It could be Sa's selfishness.....

V makes Sa feel like she's falling in love all over again. No matter how much time passes, Sa still loves V the same.

No, more than before. What I want to say is that Saa wants to say that Sarakweena still loves her all the time and will not change.

Therefore, when V looks at the moon, he also thinks of Sa.

Don't forget.

This message will probably be the last recorded. If V finds it and is listening to this sound

I want to say that you don't have to worry. I'm not angry at V. Sa knows that V doesn't have much time for her because of work, right?

It was a necessary matter, Sa understood. But with a personality like V's, he would definitely blame himself. Sa guessed right, right?

That's why I said there's no need to think too much. V was not the one who caused Sa to be like this. It's just bad luck.

Ah, it looks like the recording time is almost up. This must be enough.

V must continue to live happily. Don't rush to meet me yet. Even though I don't have a girlfriend, I have to continue living. Do you understand?..."

A whistling sound, similar to snorting, interrupted the moment a bit. Before the final words

“I love you, V, my light. Hope we can meet again.”

The young man couldn't hold back his cry. Tears flowed without stopping. He had to face the fact that In the past, he had let his loved ones face the disease alone. Without being able to help embrace you in the slightest But she was worried that he would be left alone.

My heart suddenly felt squeezed. Various feelings mixed together, both confused and sad. The young man laughed loudly as if he was losing his mind.

After a while, the young man carefully picked up the voice recorder and put it in his bag. Two hands holding up the crate. He turned around and looked at his house. His eyes were filled with sadness. Thick lips pursed tightly for a long time, as if he was thinking about something.

Finally, he made a firm decision. Vow to yourself to forgive and let go of her. One corner of his mouth lifted slightly. Focused and resolute eyes looked straight ahead. The young man stepped out of the place filled with memories. This time he didn't look back.