I……what am I doing on the rooftop?

Since when? That I started like this?

I have a family that loves me. I have both fans beside me. I have many friends, I have everything, but why do I feel so alone?

Never mind...if you don't pay attention to it. It will probably go away on its own one day?

I went back into my room.

I lay down and hope for tomorrow I will forget everything and disappear.

But in the end I woke up again

“I'm awake.”

It's a sentence I always send to my girlfriend in the morning.

I got out of bed and went to meet my friends.

We traveled to different places until it got dark.

Until I forgot about all the things

I went back home I felt that the atmosphere was gloomy.

I probably can't do anything. So I walked into the room.

Father and mother argue about money.

My father gave the money he earned to another woman.

My mother and I know that. Because this isn't the first time.

They argued for a long time.

Dad said it was Mom's fault. That my mother believed people easily Until I was tricked into taking money from my grandchild once.

Mom said it was because of Dad, who always gave money to other women.

But why do I feel indifferent? and very normal with it

I had a funny conversation with my boyfriend about my dad cheating on me.

“Are you crazy?”

She said, Why do I find this funny?

I don't know either. Why do I look like that?

I felt confused before I could go to sleep again.

Today is a normal day. I hid myself in my room. Talk to her about many things.

She always makes jokes to me.

I'm a slow person. So he often couldn't keep up with her.

And this time would probably be another time that I couldn't keep up with her.

She expected a lot from this joke. But this time I disappointed her.

She was extremely upset. She told me it was stupid.

I know too well. I thought and thought again.

I'll let go of your hand Should I go find someone who is more compatible with her?

But she is a very versatile person. What a good memory.

In good times, she is very good to me.

I don't know what to do.

There are so many feelings.

I never scolded her. I always encourage her. I never said anything that made her feel bad.

I always wish the best for her. But sometimes good wishes don't reach you.

I cut my heart, apologized, and acted like the fool that I was.

Do everything to make her smile. in the way of a fool

Until she got better and normal. But she will say I always want to have a new boyfriend.

I know those were just thoughtless words. But when I hear and see it more and more often

I feel like I'm extremely undervalued.

Is it possible for her to

Please apologize to me just once?

I release myself Walking down the street, we passed many people.

Is there anyone who feels pain like I do?

I want to tell these stories to my friends. I listen too much.

But every time I tell I always tell it as a joke.

Will they know? that I'm asking for help

I walked away with tears in my eyes. I can't stop it

I want to scream But in the end, I could only keep quiet.

I realized now that I was on a rooftop somewhere.

I beg my heart Give me another chance I beg with tears

But my body Can't bear it anymore

The last thing I hope for is

I hope everyone will be happy even though I'm no longer here. 5555555

End of the journey….