I am doing one of the most admired jobs. is to be an idol But strangely, my heart gradually became empty. Even though our band is not the number one band in the country. But we are also one of the most popular bands. I received a lot of support and people liked us. I take on the role of band leader. This isn't my first band.

I was in another band before. But it was dissolved for some reason. So I was drawn to the number one camp in the country. This place is like a new hope after our group disbanded. Everything seems to be going well. I made new friends as members of the band and everyone was very nice to me. Our opening wasn't too bad.

Even though we're not perfect, we've been able to maintain our level and get better every year. My life seems to be gradually on the upswing. There are more and more fans who love us every year. There are more shows. Our songs are becoming more popular. It's a pleasure, isn't it? Everything is like a roadmap to success.

But I don't know how successful we were every time. I slowly started to feel more and more empty. Is it because of pressure or stress? It's possible. But I didn't feel that stressed out or prone to depression. It's more like it feels empty. I've tried discussing this problem with friends.

But I didn't ask directly. Most of the time, everyone is more worried and stressed. Except for the youngest member of the group. That you always look bright But I know that deep down, you're probably more stressed than anyone else. But just won't tell.

I'm trying to find a way to fill that void. In fact, I really have to thank all the support from all the fans. sent, no matter what form it is But to be honest, these things are like painkillers. It can only help us temporarily. And it will come back again and continue looping like this.

Until we become resistant to the drug and it gradually becomes less effective.

One day the camp said Our band is about to have its first big concert. This is actually the first step towards success. Our band just launched recently and is about to have a big concert. At first glance, I was very happy and excited about the wait. But on the other hand, I felt worried that I was still empty inside. I need to fill this up quickly to get ready for our first big concert.

It's been a week and I still haven't found it. Until one day, I accidentally came across a letter from a fan that I had never read before. It was placed in a drawer on the nightstand. Normally, fans cannot send items directly to idols. Must be inspected by the camp first for safety.

And I could have sworn I'd read everyone's letters, literally every single one of them, so I was surprised how this thing slipped past my notice. So I put it on the nightstand next to my bed so I can read it when I have free time. The big concert was getting closer and I had to seriously discuss the issue.

On the day we had a queue to film a program. While waiting to enter the scene In the end, I resolved this problem to all my friends. Everyone offers different solutions. Both looking for delicious things to eat Try taking a break from traveling. Until then, try taking a temporary break from band work. I definitely refuse the furlough. I still love this.

We talked louder and louder until the sound could penetrate the door and reach outside. It's time to enter the scene. The staff waiting at the door probably heard everything we talked about. When he called us on set I was the last to follow. And he came to take care of us according to his duty.

Acting as if he had something on his mind that he wanted to say.

“Is something wrong with you? Your face doesn't look good." I asked with concern.

“Oh…it's nothing. Just excited for you all.” He replied with a more suspicious expression.

I smiled but didn't answer. The filming went well. We are going back. The same young staff took care of us very well. He was taken to the van and I asked him again if he had anything to say.

“This is your last chance. Maybe we'll never see each other again?" I asked. He looked stunned again.

“I apologize for being rude by eavesdropping. But I think you should try dating,” he said as he hung his head and closed his eyes.

“Oh, what do you think is the matter? Thank you very much for your concern. I'll go back and think about it.” I smiled.

He actually looks cute. But I had tried dating before. It's..not very okay. Because when you are an idol You will only meet people who just want an idol as their lover. They boast about their wealth. Or if they are people in the industry together Both sides had no time until they couldn't survive.

Maybe I just haven't met the right person yet?

When I got home, I immediately lay down, exhausted. I picked up the letter that had been left on the nightstand and read it. The letter looked quite old from the outside. But it's probably because it was always in the envelope. Condition still looks good. Inside was a folded note. along with a picture of me as a child I was pretty cute when I was a kid.

To become an idol like now I secretly lost myself in my heart. When slowly unfolding the paper Inside was like a high school student's notebook paper. The handwriting is OK enough to be read. And there is a cute picture of me standing and singing.

“I have followed you for a very long time. It's like from the first day again. You are the inspiration in life. When I'm tired from school, it's you. That brings me back to life Thank you very much.” The content is like a normal fan letter. I think so

“If you are discouraged or worried There's always me beside you. You are every child's dream, including mine. Until you got to this point, it must have been hard for me to imagine. But I can be like you. I try to practice dancing every day. Sing every night even though my mother always comes and scolds me.” I accidentally smiled that she had something similar to me.

“Finally, I really love you. If you've read this far, you probably are a famous idol. Or there may be something that makes you feel uncomfortable. Please don't forget your dreams from the day we started. You have come a long way. If your dreams come true, don't forget to reply. (If you already have a husband, please tell us.) P.S. From my sixteen year old self.

To me, who is an idol.”

That night, I felt like my bed was sinking to the ground. When thinking about the past, This is a letter I wrote to my future self when I was young. To compare it to myself being the first fan of an idol. I've even forgotten the letter, the beginning of those sixteen children's attempts to fulfill their dreams. Can you believe it?

I didn't shed a single tear. Eyes closed in the dark And the atmosphere gradually became colder, as if the cold wind of feelings gradually became colder. Slowly and gently swirling around me, as if letting me slowly Think and reflect on various stories. I lay there motionless and didn't even know when I fell asleep, but I don't know.

This was the most refreshing awakening of my life. The space that I have I don't even know if it's been filled yet. But fuck it. (I normally can't say this on air.) I just don't want the kid in the letter to feel disappointed. If you have to see me as an idol in such a depressed state

The big concert went well. My life graph is truly soaring. We are now a group that can soar to the world level. Everything was rushing towards us. Both money and fame Finally, I announced my marriage to my first boyfriend. It was the young staff member who introduced me on a date.

Later that night, I decided to keep in touch. We went on a date. Damn, his advice was correct. We secretly dated for a while. Until I couldn't stand it and revealed it to the public.

“Perhaps that emptiness comes from forgetting our pure selves. Trying to think back on it. Sometimes it can be filled in many ways. Things are the same. Now I'm a successful idol. Have your own big concert and has a good husband I can do it. To my sixteen year old self.”

I am doing one of the most admired jobs. is to be an idol But strangely, my heart gradually became empty. Even though our band is not the number one band in the country. But we are also one of the most popular bands. I received a lot of support and people liked us. I take on the role of band leader. This isn't my first band.

I was in another band before. But it was dissolved for some reason. So I was drawn to the number one camp in the country. This place is like a new hope after our group disbanded. Everything seems to be going well. I made new friends as members of the band and everyone was very nice to me. Our opening wasn't too bad.

Even though we're not perfect, we're still able to maintain our level and get better every year. My life seems to be gradually on the upswing. There are more and more fans who love us every year. More shows Our songs are becoming more popular. It's a pleasure, isn't it? Everything is like a roadmap to success.

But I don't know how successful we were every time. I slowly started to feel more and more empty. Is it because of pressure or stress? It's possible. But I didn't feel that stressed out or prone to depression. It's more like it feels empty. I've tried discussing this problem with friends.

But I didn't ask directly. Most of the time, everyone is more worried and stressed. Except for the youngest member of the group. That you always look bright But I know that deep down, you're probably more stressed than anyone else. But just won't tell.

I'm trying to find a way to fill that void. In fact, I really have to thank all the support from all the fans. sent, no matter what form it is But to be honest, these things are like painkillers. It can only help us temporarily. And it will come back again and continue looping like this.

Until we become resistant to the drug and it gradually becomes less effective.

One day the camp said Our band is about to have its first big concert. This is actually the first step towards success. Our band just launched recently and is about to have a big concert. At first glance, I was very happy and excited about the wait. But on the other hand, I felt worried that I was still empty inside. I need to fill this up quickly to get ready for our first big concert.

It's been a week and I still haven't found it. Until one day, I accidentally came across a letter from a fan that I had never read before. It was placed in a drawer on the nightstand. Normally, fans cannot send items directly to idols. Must be inspected by the camp first for safety.

And I swear I've opened every letter I've sent, really, every single one of them, so I'm surprised how this thing slipped past my notice. So I put it on the nightstand next to my bed so I can read it when I have free time. The big concert was getting closer and I had to seriously discuss the issue.

On the day we had a queue to film a program. While waiting to enter the scene Finally, I released this problem to all my friends. Everyone offers different solutions. Both looking for delicious things to eat Try taking a break from traveling. Until then, try taking a temporary break from band work. I definitely refuse the furlough. I still love this.

We talked louder and louder until the sound could penetrate the door and reach outside. It's time to enter the scene. The staff waiting at the door probably heard everything we talked about. When he called us on set I was the last to follow. And he came to take care of us according to his duty.

Acting as if he had something on his mind that he wanted to say.

“Is something wrong with you? Your face doesn't look good." I asked with concern.

“Oh…it's nothing. Just excited for you all.” He replied with a more suspicious expression.

I smiled but didn't answer. The filming went well. We are going back. The same young staff took care of us very well. He was taken to the van and I asked him again if he had anything to say.

“This is your last chance. Maybe we'll never see each other again?" I asked. He looked stunned again.

“I apologize for being rude by eavesdropping. But I think you should try dating,” he said as he hung his head and closed his eyes.

“Oh, what do you think is the matter? Thank you very much for your concern. I'll go back and think about it.” I smiled.

He actually looks cute. But I had tried dating before. It's..not very okay. Because when you are an idol You will only meet people who just want an idol as their girlfriend. They boast about their wealth. Or if they are people in the industry together Both sides had no time until they couldn't survive.

Maybe I just haven't met the right person yet?

When I got home, I immediately laid down from exhaustion. I picked up the letter that had been left on the nightstand and read it. The letter looked quite old from the outside. But it's probably because it was always in the envelope. Condition still looks good. Inside was a folded note. along with a picture of me as a child I was pretty cute when I was a kid.

To become an idol like now I secretly lost myself in my heart. When slowly unfolding the paper Inside was like a high school student's notebook paper. The handwriting is OK enough to be read. And there is a cute picture of me standing and singing.

“I have followed you for a very long time. It's like from the first day again. You are the inspiration in life. When I'm tired from school, it's you. That brings me back to life Thank you very much.” The content is like a normal fan letter. I think so

“If you are discouraged or worried There's always me beside you. You are every child's dream, including mine. Until you got to this point, it must have been hard for me to imagine. But I can be like you. I try to practice dancing every day. Sing every night even though my mother always comes and scolds me.” I accidentally smiled that she had something similar to me.

“Finally, I really love you. If you've read this far, you probably are a famous idol. Or there may be something that makes you feel uncomfortable. Please don't forget the dreams from the day we started. You have come a long way. If your dreams come true, don't forget to reply. (If you already have a husband, please tell us.) P.S. From my sixteen year old self.

To me, who is an idol.”

That night, I felt like my bed was sinking to the ground. When thinking about the past, This is a letter I wrote to my future self when I was young. To compare it to myself being the first fan of an idol. I've even forgotten the letter, the beginning of those sixteen children's attempts to fulfill their dreams. Can you believe it?

I didn't shed a single tear. Eyes closed in the dark And the atmosphere gradually became colder, as if the cold wind of feelings gradually became colder. Slowly and gently swirling around me, as if letting me slowly Think and reflect on various stories. I lay there motionless and didn't even know when I fell asleep, but I don't know.

This was the most refreshing awakening of my life. The space that I have I don't even know if it's been filled yet. But fuck it. (I normally can't say this on air.) I just don't want the kid in the letter to feel disappointed. If you have to see me as an idol in such a depressed state

The big concert went well. My life graph is truly soaring. We are now a group that can soar to the world level. Everything was rushing towards us. Both money and fame Finally, I announced my marriage to my first boyfriend. It was the young staff member who introduced me on a date.

After that night, I decided to keep in touch. We went on a date. Damn, his advice was correct. We secretly dated for a while. Until I couldn't stand it and revealed it to the public.

“Perhaps that emptiness comes from forgetting our pure selves. Trying to think back on it. Sometimes it can be filled in many ways. Things are the same. Now I am a successful idol. Have your own big concert and has a good husband I can do it. To my sixteen year old self.”